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EpistleAuthor(s): Jonathan BarrettSource: The North American Review, Vol. 289, No. 5 (Sep. - Oct., 2004), p. 22Published by: University of Northern IowaStable URL: http://www.jstor.org/stable/25127217 .
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Kim rushed over and pressed her face against the glass, a
halo of steam forming around her head. "My God," she
said, throwing the door open, "he's out there." She was
about to rush outside, but I stopped her.
"You'll freeze to death," I said.
We ran upstairs, hurried into our coats and boots, and
grabbed a flashlight. Outside, we followed the footprints down the lighted path onto the ice. The wind was blowing snow around, erasing the tracks. "He must've gone to the
hole," I said.
She called his name, but the word turned to smoke and
dissolved in the wind. We trudged through the snow as fast as we could. By the
time we reached the hole, my hair had frozen beneath my cap. With the flashlight, I scanned the lake for signs of Zephaniah
and stopped when I saw that the hole was open again. He had
gone through the ice and was trying to climb out, but each
time he grabbed the edge another piece broke off. Kim let out a noise like nothing I'd ever heard. She
scrambled toward him, but I held her back. "The ice isn't
safe," I said, handing her the flashlight. I got down on my stomach and started inching toward Zephaniah. The wind
was blowing snow into my eyes, blinding me, but I kept
going, waiting for the hole to open up and swallow me.
"Give me your hand," I shouted, when I felt a splash of water on my face. Zephaniah was heavier than I'd expected, and as soon as he grabbed on to me I started sliding into the
hole. I dug in my toes and pulled him from the lake. The ice
started to crack, but I was already rolling away, over and over,
holding the wet, frozen boy close to my chest. And then Kim was there, on her knees, shining the flashlight into Zephaniah's face. She was crying?tears had frozen to her cheeks?asking if he was okay. Together, we scooped him up and ran toward
shore, the runway lights guiding us back home.
In the morning, the phone woke me up. Kim was calling
from the emergency room to tell me that Zephaniah was
fine. "He's just tired," she said.
"Who wouldn't be?" I said.
"He's a very lucky little boy," she said.
Last night, after we had gotten back to the house, I had
tried to drive them to the hospital, but Kim had told me to
go inside and get into some dry clothes. I said I would meet
her there, but she told me to stay by the fire and get warm. I
ended up falling asleep. Now I offered to come pick them up, but she said her
mom was already
on the way.
"Well, we should get together soon," I said, and she
agreed.
"I'll give you a call," she said.
But several days went by, and she didn't call. Then it had
been a week. Then two. It was sometime after that, one night
in March, that I walked down onto the lake. I hadn't been out there since Zephaniah's accident, and I knew it would be
my last chance before the spring thaw. It was warm, and
though I took the flashlight, I didn't need it. There was
enough light coming from the stars and the sliver of moon.
There was no wind, no sound other than the crunch of snow
beneath my boots. I walked out to where the hole had been and found the spot where Zephaniah had gone in. It had frozen over, but the ice was bare of snow, like a dark window
looking into the lake. I wondered why he had come out here
by himself that night, wondered what he'd been looking for. I wondered what had gone through his mind when the ice
opened beneath his feet. I stepped onto the patch of ice and
glanced down. It was like standing on nothing. The black
beneath my feet seemed infinite, and for a moment I was
levitating. I got down on my knees and shined the flashlight into the ice, into the cracks and fissures, the air bubbles and
layers, the pieces that had broken apart and frozen back
together in new configurations, some opaque, some clear. It
was an entire frozen world. I stared into it for a long time,
and then I heard something: a high-pitched beam that shot from one end of the lake to the other. I told myself it was just the ice expanding, getting ready to break up in a few days. I
was safe. The ice was holding me. It was
just water frozen
solid, but it was enough. I was on top of the hole, and I
wasn't going in.
JONATHAN BARRETT
Epistle
The scent of the sea is like salt and sex.
The promenade is empty. I remember
us walking here: clothes soaked, your neck
and dark hair wet from the rain. Later,
you undressed in front of the mirror,
the scent of the sea?like salt and sex?
drifted in through the window. I stood near
you, watched your naked body reflect
off the glass: the soft echo of your hips next
to mine. We kissed. And you would whisper the scent of the sea is like salt and sex.
Now, I listen to the tide crash against the pier,
drop letters and small stones into dark water
while streaks of moonlight dance on the wet deck, soft wisps of wind like your words in my ear:
the sea is like salt and the scent of sex.
22 NORTH AMERICAN REVIEW September-October 2004
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