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Bruises
Volume 1
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A journey marking my bruises on an inked paper map
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With heart shaped burns on my palms.
You marked me yours,
I did not mind.
I did not mind.
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I light you a cigarette, a stranger to me,
and a bond is formed.
Of two lonely smokers,
stood out on the empty streets,
nowhere to go,
no one to go to.
Nursing our flames of regret and comfort.
Nothing is needed to be said,
we silently understand each other.
It is a bond only secret smokers know.
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One night we should spend together
One you will not forget
Your bed will become our ocean
The sheets our waves
Get sucked beneath
Ill kiss you gently
On your lips
Along your neck
Across your collarbones
Down your chest
Our soundtrack will be Bon Iver
And your breathless voice
Mixed with mine
Will resonate around our tangled bodies
The fear of being alone ceases to exist
Because I will have you
And you will have me
If only for a night.
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Youre a liar
and so am I
but you look so good
when your shirts all off.
Were almost there
hes on his way down
You must try harder
If you want me now.
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There is a place Id like to take you
My solitude, my fortress, my lonely island.
The place I go to hide from reality
A place of comfort and peace
A world of dreaming and ease.
It allows me protection from the outside creatures
We could both stay here for a while
Maybe a day or two
My bed, Id like to share with you.
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Black & blue bruises
all over her knees
Red stained wrists
with strawberry laced lips
Won the battle
But lost the war
A lady forgotten once more
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Let me feel your touch
trace my skin like a map
over my hills and valleys
explore me with your lips
and your resolute hands
break the boundaries
and cross the distance
for my skin
with your skin
tonight.
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A kiss and a hand hold
gives a head rush and a shake through
What is it you do?
You disarm me
A goodbye comes quick
short and unwilling
but perhaps Ill see you soon
Youre something that could be.
Forever waiting too long
finding you, then losing you
to a city much brighter
than what I could ever hope to be
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Transpire to me
We can cease to exist somewhere new
Only me and you
Reliant on the sparks
That cast shadow in our hearts.
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A voice captured in time
creating lyrics and melody
is all I have presently.
however;
Your voice in close proximity
would be a gift to me
if we had absolute infinity.
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A snowy afternoon
I spend in the cemetery.
Flowers on graves
turned white by Jack.
A sense of peace is given
by sleeping souls at rest.
Mothers, fathers, sons, daughters
laid under the Earth
covered by their winter leaves.
While distant; theyre calm and still at last.
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Disarmed to the bone
Stripped by your aesthetics
Youve broken my golden rules
Wary and scared
I find youve planted yourself into my mind
You have 2 options now;
A) Leave. Tear my flesh apart and escape.
B) Stay. Bury yourself deeper and keep comfort.
All thats to be said is;
I hope you choose option B
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Your deepest secrets
are ones Id like to know.
I want to hear the words
stumble out of your mouth
like beautiful stones,
that will break my bones,
and tear my skin;
causing a hole
that can only be filled
by the presence of you
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Scarred by past ghosts
that still haunt my thoughts
and ignite my doubts
its alright he said
Lets take a ride
and begin this now.
You understand I wont leave this
till I can make your smile last forever
I may be perfect in your eyes
but in mine its all lies.
Ill tread water carefully
afraid to break my heart
Hope should set you free
I would like to give it you.
Dont walk away
You made this magical
I want this to be more
You are the inspiration I need
I am the rock for you to lean.
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A home Id like to build with you
our own fortress surrounded by trees
No harm may prevail to you
Safety is key in our home of you
I will fill it with words
and you with melody
Our home it will be
just me and you.
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Exit signs and departing flights
Airports cast their low lights;
Im longing for your voice again,
and the sight of your eyes in mine.
Weve been spending far too much time apart
Your voice I hear on the phone
A ghost asking if I am okay
I ask how many hearts did you break today?
Ive travelled fifteen thousand miles
and left my mark all over this land
Im quietly taking my leave
another thousand miles shouldnt be too hard.
And has anything changed?
I guess well see in fourteen more days.
We used to be so young,
nowadays I feel eighty years old.
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I gave both my heart
and my body to you
I gave you my secrets
and gave you my lies
I showed you my skin
and showed you my scars
but it wasnt enough
was it my dear?
you still left
Now you are my lies
and you are my scars;
burnt out the entirety of my stars
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The brave, lion heart
with a quiet, little roar
that hums love and care
for twenty years we adore
(for my Mum on Mothers day 2013)
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Today;
our lack of words
is a silent convey
it drives me mad
and sends a dismay
that causes insanity
Today;
i wish i could be there
to share the pain
and kneel to your prayer
that allows me to fight
and stand as guard
Today;
i learn new things
lost without your guide
empty words falter my wings
find strength to no longer hide
while tonight, I fall to your side
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sometimes I catch you looking
at me like Im something beautiful
that might fade and decay away
but the words that leave your mouth
are nothing more than sugar coated lies
because how can I believe
when all Ive been taught
is that words and kisses
they drip like honey
that burns like acid
revealing my skin raw
and my wrists laddered
with little white scars.
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And through the sand
mirages a sea of blue
and then I know, I know
Im in love with you.
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Before me,
there were many
who held your heart
and knew your scars.
I can only retrace
their lines left on your skin
and kiss those lips
that have already been stained.
Others have lay their heads
where I lay mine on your chest
and have ran hands down
and over your surface that I touch
Your secrets have already been told
and thoughts been shared
I am not the first, I know
but I hope,
I can be the last.
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If I could
I would cut my heart out
from my chest, and serve it to you
on a silver platter coated with gold
so you could really see
the pain and the love
you cause to me
and the raw bloody hole left
will drip crimson down my chest
and no band-aid will fix this mess.
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Six sides, locked shut
Unopened like Pandoras boxSquare hole, buried deep
For no mans eyes to see8 feet under, dead and goneLie my feelings for you son
Retrievable with labourTrust could make a saviourBut the trust lays at the bottomof my buried heart shaped box.
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Young hearts beating together
pounding into one anothers flesh
carving blinding words out of coldest weather
Spitting out acid from mouths
and dripping down with burning new eyes.
Standing together holding hands
out of a feeling of trepidation
Warnings of exploding minds
casting to one everlasting soul
Finally standing tall with no more temptation.
Ripping from the seams with a tear
allowing the suture of wounds together
bruising begins to form black and blue marks
animalistic forms start to wear uncovering human
At last and at once we find the salvation
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And with the strength I have left
I cast my broken body into the sea
And hope it makes its way to thee
Else tides carry it to lonely shores
to be lost and forgotten a once more.
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Cold nights spent awake;
I think of your face
and that expression you pull
that tells me you want me.
I imagine your breath on my neck
and deep bite marks you trail down
all the way to my heaving chest.
I dream of your touch
and your light finger tips
running down my curved hips.
I wish your warm body
to be pressed against mine
with these cold nights spent awake.
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Have you ever been
lying in your lovers arms
And had an image of
your slashed wrists
and red stained tiles
flash through your mind?
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Brick by brick I laid
the foundations of an image
I had of you;
While, brick by brick you built
a wall to surround yourself
for solitary protection.
It started an image
and became a home;
my hand built safety thats
left my hands bloody and raw
And all at once my home fell down
but your wall remained tall.
So allow me to break your wall
the way it was built; brick by brick
So together we can rebuild a home
that heals my scarred hands
and makes brave your lone soul.
Because who wants one wall
when you can have an entire home.
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As the fires blind raged
my head got so lost
beneath the sea of you
The flames rose higher
and I floated as I watched
the world burn from under me.
The flowers grew in ashy remains
I washed up on blackened shores
I climbed this highway line
on top I could see the beauty
Miles and miles
of your heart.
The smoke blew wild, we felt young
childish screams we dived
hands entangled and entwined
he turned and said to me
tear the veins from your broken hands
we took still all our claims
and we died.
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fading light
past the sunrise
your body wrapped on mine
your fingers locked so tight.
a sight sore for eyes
we grew up, grew old
a bed left empty
this greed we hold
and we forfeit
lost in darkness
Im chasing you
with quickening youth.
we finally find
dont we darling
this isnt right
Im living alone.
with the waning moon
we dance a lullaby
sends fast dreaming
of our lost youth.
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You have no need to worry
Everything you know fades
and changes, a big storm
hovers over you.
Run to me, bring your ghosts
You know, when the storm settles
I will be here, because I, I love you.
I will not forget your past
I promise to, hold your mind
bruised and broken heart
I will not go. I will stay happy
with you, your fears
become distant memories
because I, I adore you.
Travel far, keep your heart close
Your head may grow weary
then find your way back to me
because I will have stayed
waiting for you, to fix the pieces
and take you home
because I, I still love you.
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A sadness kicks in
shaking and numbing
I turn my words
into my blades
I dont cut my skin
but carve words to my paper
it flows as easily as the blood does
but its not the same relief
as drawing a knife to my wrist
and tearing out my veins from within
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I stand locked out
of a once familiar place
unable to understand
how it possibly got to this
Uncounted years of trying
to find my way back in
I finally lose all my strength
and am forgotten on the other side
of an impalpable brickwall
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I walk down my old streetfull of familiar dark placeslit up by broken streetlampsreminding me of a simpler timeand a happier me.The stone houses on eitherside are locked and emptyI recall your eyes to be something similarAnd I wonder, is loving someone
supposed to cast this much shadow?
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Winter days fade into summer nights
and I still sit and wait for you
Dark nights become filled with light
But my head lays down low.
A lost puppy waiting for its owner
I wait by my phone for a reply
But silence stares, nobody rings.
Youre busy being alone
Filling your lungs with such poison
Trying to escape from your world
You must forget Im here
But Ive reminded you so many times
I must just be furthest from your mind.
Soon Autumn leaves may fall
But I can no longer wait for you.
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i.
It was time to leave
so you walked me to the bus stop
you masked your face with a blank expression
and when I squeezed your hand
your grip on mine loosened off.
ii.
I worried Id lose you tonight
but mind could not form words
and my mouth refused to open
for any attempt to fix this.
iii.
I did not want to go
my feet dragged while you pulled me along
we reached the bus stop early
I looked into your hollow eyes
that appeared to be fighting tears.
iv.
You asked me what was wrong
and still my mouth kept closed
my bus was leaving so I kissed you quick
but your cold lips showed no reply
so I turned my back and I left
v.
My ride home hurt
as my mouth finally opened
and I sat at the back and cried
with the realisation that
I may havejust fucked it all up.
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We could raises our glasses
high to the sky in a vain attempt
at being better than what we are
Even at thirteen thousand feet
you could never tell me how you think
you would use the clouds as a mask
to hide yourself from my eyes and my touch
and you would use the rain as a deflection
of my questions about this reality we seek
Take your mind off her, erase her
well I wish I could replace her
you see, were a plane crash waiting to happen
the warning signs are lit in my mind
as I clutch at anything for asafety of kind
but I dont think any seat-belt or life raft
could ever prepare me and save me from this.
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Raindrops hit the dead street
and light bounces, reflecting.
I found you down an alleyway
lost, hidden beneath a cardboard box
surrounded by empty beer bottles, drunk.
A dirty man, eyes cracked open
a smile spread across your face
your angel had come, saint.
Grabbed you by your wrist
pulled your up, took you home
back to my place, undress.
Your hands around my face
we kissed my legs around your waist
your breath down my neck, fuck.
We laid together on the floor,
the ceiling became our picture show
my doubts came creeping, dead.
You disappeared, never really there,
this was a story I made up
an attempt to hold your memory, alive.
But this flame went out long ago.
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The wine I take
I take to forget you
to erase the beatings you handed
after one wrong word I spoke
a hand to my face, youd hit.
The cigarettes I smoke
I smoke so my lungs fill
with red ash that burns
To carry on your trace
my self inflicting grace
After, this is all I know
Your anger directed to me
Your teared face finding mine
eyes beg for forgiveness
resist flashes the anger back
So I accept and forgive
To live in fear of the person you become
when you take that poison bottle in.
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I dont want an extravagance
of flowers sent to my door
that smell like fresh spring
I dont want to be called a beauty
with eyes that shine ever bright
like an eighth wonder of the world
I dont want you to present me with jewels
I can wear around my neck that sparkle with the sun
or diamonds I can place on my fingers
I dont need the generic romance
All I ask is for your simple comfort when Im sad
for small words to keep me going
through my dark days
All I need is to be able to find your light
which you have kept so hidden
I only need you to try
Without this light
I become afraid
Ill be lost in this darkness
Without you as my guide.
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I remember a time
when I didnt have a forrest fire
searing though my bones
Its burning branches coil around
my throat, I choke
Ashy remains of my heart I cough up
inside the flames rise higher
I await the crows pecking at my eyes
and the maggots to bury deep inside
This fire continues to eat me alive.
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We both take in drugs to cope
To get that satisfactory high
that deals this numbing agent
straight to our brain, forget all pain
Our drugs define us and our future
both only to end six feet under
Your dealer provides pills
My dealer hands me a razor
Sugar high drugs induce affects
reaching climax, a cool breeze state
a sense of calm finally passes through
My climax hits as blood runs red like hate.
Coming down you crash like waves
to your pillow, a place gone comatose
Blood dries up with my stained sheets
I drift, my mind gone blank it is my fast cheat.
Long term is apparent on your inside
Emotionally raw and used up by blunts
See, I wear my scars on my sleeve
The white lines Ive overcome
Im proud, Im done. Are you?
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You take another hit
with a little white pill
to be removed from all reality
You dont want to hear
what anyone has to say.
You take yourself away
from such unspeakable pain
Shut everyone out
close your mind down
You dont want to talk right now.
This is your broken heart
ruined and grey, lost in the dirt
Come on, let me in
Well find better ways
to deal with your pain.
So many days ago
you buried your soul to a grave
she stole your life, a piece of heart
Every day its hard to cope
your feet get so unsteady.
I dont want to dig another grave
for one more ruined heart
I promise you
well find better ways
to deal with your pain.
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I fall in love, not with
the sound of your
voice in the morning early
or with your timid smile
when I find you close in the night
nor with your grin when I snake
my hand though yours tight.
I fall in love with the sadness
deep in your eyes
the one you try so often to hide
with your undoubtful strength
and unwavering love for her and her lost life
I fall for the quiet moments we share
and the hopeful future we may have
someday
soon
somewhere.
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My heart no longer beats
in the same way
Instead it cracks every day
Im slowly learning
you are everything to me
while I am nothing to you
Breaking point reaches
these angels have left me
footsteps in the snow
patience runs slow
I can no longer wait
for you to fall into me.
Is this all we can be?
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maybe tonight I could stop dreaming
instead of hiding, start believing
I can step out of the darkness
so you can see me in a new light
before I leave forever again
leaving behind this fairy-tale
storing in my heart reality instead
with this sunset I fade out again
strangers in the street we meet
your eyes catch me again
lost in my dreaming again
but I step away from the games
I cant play with the flames
even if they bring light
they burn out my life
shadowing my dreaming
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Im left up here
an angel struck my face
a faint dust trail
moves through you
I find your name.
From forest greens
to fires blazing
you tread this ground
breaking your promises
this not all too kind.
I raise the dead
as I find your grave
a life restored
you gave me a light
we shall not break
I marveled at your strength
as I fell in tangled roots
painting a picture of you
I lost you in the dark
Mothers searching for you
shes coming soon
you lost her on the dark
side of the moon
a missing half to you.
England broke your bones
you smoke on Sundays
this highway line you follow
takes a toll on you
I still see the beauty in you.
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