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an apologetic denial
this is another poemI started
to unite it all in one
Sankara has done ithe done it before
this was to be another
poem
there is no duality
it cannot be
it is words
a little weakness
perhaps
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ANTHEM
rejoice people
raise your voices and rejoicewar has been outlawed
by decree of the infallible popei suppose we should all go to church
get downon our knees
chant hail marys in trafalgar squareprofoundlyhe stated to the u.n.
that war is evil this great philosopher
theologianthe world is a marvellous place
such a beautiful place and by decreeof the vatican
we must love one another and i’m game
so long as i start with you
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EPITAPH
A diary is an epitaph,
The words of mine
Do not read sweetly,
But cold.
Corrosive, that’s what they are
I write of the mind’s corrosion,
Write out of fear
Not admiration,
But most importantly
I write to find love.
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Feel The Fear Tighten
Feel the fear tighten
as the manlooks at his freedom
and cannot find a wayto turn.
Feel the releaseas he is told
that things will not change -
and share his disbelief.
Feel the joy
of the man who findswhat he had lost
during the search.
Feel the fear tighten
as they discoverthe man has found himself.
Malcolm Evison
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METAPHYSICS
Eternity
with HitlerChurchill and Mussoliniconfirms a hell
heaven standards
are much greaterChrist will bein such
good company
imagine the milleniumwith Lenin and Trotsky
in dialectical debatewith the Almighty
Stalin might be in either camphe’s such a cunning
gentleman just think
of the ways to suppress
the good book
Christ would be exiled
to Hell
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NO FEAR CAN MATCH
There is no greater sorrow
Than that
When one weeps alone -
No fear can match
That of the lonely man.
No fear can match
That which I catch
In my solitary den
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POEM ON ARMISTICE DAY
be queer and proud
of it / if that’s the wayyou feel -
just love your neighbourfly your banners
high;
so high you flytoo
then gently
lay your poppywreaths
on the streetsof the living
dead
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RENEWAL
blood redthe rose displays its silver veins
now – in this empty solitude -
the vibrant easeof song floods out my mind –
her face appears torturedyet in peace -
the windows shine
with night gently stroked
by the last echoesof her song –
splintering
into my heavy eyes –feeling her sorrow yet not seeing
the full depthof her fear
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RESTORATION
A psychiatrist is dutycunningly disguised as man –
defending the historic truthsonce made by mindless menhe views the scapegoat
through a microscopeand the freedom
proves embarrassing –
the victim has the time
to stand and starebut will not say that
these are sheepand those are cows
he has no need
the doctor states it for him.
*************
Enter the clinic as a man
depart as a roleleaving the poem
unwritten.
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spaces of the free
enter the spaces of the freelike tied and structured
sheer fall of the well
break bonds of libertyand set the foot rest
shackles free
from their deformity -
the first noel is mylast heaven
Christ strewn across the soot hillsof the sky
the merry chantsof fiery spiritssing for hima lullaby -
wrapped in the sealed earsof the ploughed and ground down
beasts of dismay
wilting and coolingin the sun drenched
frost parcheddesert of the city
[cont’d overleaf]
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[spaces of the free - cont’d]
fearing the feelingfelt of former fun
and city streets full of sun-flowers that sparkle
like daisiesin the cool thighsof the girls
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T M
(A poem for Caroline)
Witnessing a frescoIn the chapel of my mind –I could not rest.
My past emblazoned on the walls
Of this my secret hermitage,I wept:
All colours had gone, and only wordsHung there, empty
Empty and cold.
Quietly in the night,I saw eternity decay,And knew my life must change.
I awoke,
You arrived,My transient future.
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THE CALLING
I walked by theresurrected Christand he looked
he looked at me - he saidtake up your cross
and follow me
No bloody fear I thought
no bloody fearI’m a coward
but I supposeit takes a brave man
to be a cowardwhen so summoned
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THE GIFT
Today is all my bygone daysthis evening is the dawn of my eternity,of loving faces, smiling eyesof touching fingerssliding carefree down the mossy slopesof always never.
Only then, will I see you smile,only now, do I feel your tearsgliding down the deitiesand landing on their feetof clay.
Today is mis-spent hourswasting into the gilt and glorythat was youth –no symbols, only words,softly spoken by the pollenfreely given to the bee.
And I receive themgratefully –feeling the touch of your fingersthrough my shroudof fear.
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THOUGHT
I often wonder about Godand how he got tangled up
in the thought process
the whole idea
of thinkingbaffles me - just how
could man thinkwithout language
I always thinkin terms of words
like you - me - the world
then I’m no longer puzzled
about God
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To TATTY & G
i hurt you
but then – coldly –
in swift pursuit
yr.tears
hurt me –
i weep too –
inwardly
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untitled - love song (for tatty)
it is because
and only
you areand because you are
only because
i am
happy i am
because you are
and i love you
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Untitled poem – needless
needless to say
christmas came early
that year
and i reached eternity
there
upon cloud nine
i saw my girl
with someone else
i was so happy
because she was functioning
i smiled and thought
i’ll function soon
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Untitled Poem - slightest chance
there’s only the slightest chance
to you it may seem
there’s no chance at all
and you may be right
i hope not
i hope that one day
we’ll feel it together
malcolm evison