Outermost Vol 1 Issue 8

7/25/2019 Outermost Vol 1 Issue 8

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Vd``dhk Ebrtbe ds h rbufmejol hei prbnjssdbeh` wjìjr wmbspjeis kbst bn mds t dkj de tmj 0rjht ;mdtj Ebrtm bn ;jstjre$hehih. ;mje ebt gusy be tmj rdf sdtj# ;d`` dhk wrdtjs omd` ` defspjou`htdvj ndotdbe hei devjstdfhtdef tmj rukbrs# kytms hei`jfjeis mj mjhrs de tmj smhol. bu ohe ndei mds ndotdbe de_thrl@dfmt Srjss pug`dohtdbes suom hs _thrl@dfmt ^bùkj 7,Mjhrts Hsueijrhei _mhkrbls, _hdets hei _theidef _tbejs #hvhd`hg`j ht www.sthrl`dfmtprjss.obk9sthrl`dfmt+prjss+gbblstbrj9

Hetmbey _thrl ds h wrdtjr hei jidtbr wdtm h gholfrbuei dejefdejjrdef# sodjeoj hei kjidodej. 0rbwdef up de tmj wdìs bn tmjnhr ebrtm mj mhi h `bt bn t dkj tb mbej mds sld` `s gbtm de rjsjhromhei de obkkuedohtdbes. ;dtm h wjh`tm bn jxpjrdjeojs hei trhvj` mjmhs h prhotdoh` hpprbhom tb wrdt def hei tb ` dnj. 5j mhs thufmt

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"nbr nue" hei kbvdef be tb wrdt def tjomedoh` kheuh`s# hrtdo`js# ebvj`s hei smbrtstbrdjs. 5ds hrrhy bn th`jets ds usjnu` de ejhr`y hey ndjì `jeis dtsj`n jspjodh``ytb tmj idvjrsj wbrì bn wrdt def# tb wmdom mj hiis mds bwe deehtj idvjrsjprhfkhtdsk.
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ablj wdtm tmjk hei shdi# N bbl tmjrj# h unb....mhmhmhmhN.... gut ht tmj tdkj dt whs be`y tmht# hablj. ;j obetdeuji tb whtom dt hs dt rhpdi`y sthrt tb hpprbhom us. tmje tmj dfmt sthrtji tb idkbut hei wj obu`i sjj h ihrl nbrk bvjr dt. 8y sbe tmje sthrtji tb `dtjrh``y nrjhl but. -mht tmdefohkj hgbut F:: kjtjrs nrbk us hei dt whs h ihrl s6uhrji wdtm rbueiji obrejrs tmdef#

orudsdef tmj sly# eb sbuei wmhtsbjvjrMMMMMMM -mj vdijb ibjse"t rjn`jot jvje C:D bn tmj o`hrdty bntmj sdfmtdef. uenbrtuehtj`y pmbej ohkhrhs hrj mbrrdg`j# spjodh``y ht ihrl. 'ut dt whs sb o`jhr tbus. dt sjjkji tb gj tmj sd3j bn h ohr aust orusdef tmjrj# wdtm h`kbst tmj shkj ob`br bn tmjgholfrbuei. 8y sbe ds std`` smholdef. 5j ejvjr gj`djvji de heytmdef phrhebrkh`. O hkhvhd`hg`j tb fdvj ijthd`s dn ybu ejji. tls.

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gjobkj mhrijr hei mhrijr tb idnnjrjetdhtj gjtwjje `jfdtdkhtj G%s hei irbejs tmht o`uttjrtmj sldjs.

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O fbt tmds 6ujstdbe de ky de gbx hei O ljpt gukpdef dt nrbk ky "tb heswjr `dst" uetd` O whsspjodndoh``y brijrji gy tmj bvjr`bris wmb rue utjrkbst tb ndei sbkjtmdef "h`dje+y" nbr tmj twbtmjkji h`dje jidtdbes bn utjrkbst.

O mhtj 6ujstdbes hgbut "mbw ib O omheej` g`hel" gjohusj tmjwhy tmht ybu omheej` heytmdef ds gy bpjedef ibbrs heiwdeibws tmht# ue`jss ybu lebw wmht ybu"rj ibdef# smbu`irjh``y sthy o`bsji. On ybu mhvj tb hsl# ybu hrje"t rjhiy.

O ndeh``y ijodiji tb thol`j tmds 6ujstdbe mjhi bej gjohusj tmjrj ds sbkj skh`` khfdoh`rjhsbedef gjmdei tmj dijh bn omheej`def h`djes nrbk tmj S`jdhijs7s. -mj rjhsbe O shy tmds dsgjohusj tmj $mjrbljj Ehtdvj *kjrdohes gj`djvj tmjksj`vjs tb gj ijsojeiji nrbk gjdefs

tmht ohkj nrbk tmj S`jdhijs7 sthr systjk sb dt dse"t hotuh``y omheej`def h`djes# ebt dn ybu"rj h$mjrbljj heywhy. *t tmht pbdet dt"s hgbut heojstbr wbrsmdp wmdom khljs h `bt kbrj sjesj.

O mhvj h `bt bn wmholji but nrdjeis hei O rjkjkgjr wmjeO whs ndrst rjh``y jkgrhodef ky khfdoh` sdij bvjrmjhrdefh`` tmjsj obevjrshtdbes hgbut# "O omheej` tmjsj h`djegjdefs nrbk sbkj sthr br btmjr hei tmjy"rj tbth``ygjejvb`jet hei `dlj lebw jvjrytmdef wj"rj ibdef wrbefhs h rhoj.)

(vje tb h ybuef "sjjljr" tmds sbueiji `dlj gu`` orhp tbkj. ;mjrj hrj tmjsj h`djes" orjijetdh`sA *ey spdrdt oheobkj h`bef hei shy dt"s nrbk heywmjrj hei gby ds dt jhsytb mhvj heswjrs tb h`` tmj prbg`jks bn heywmjrj tmht ybuibe"t pmysdoh``y `dvj. Ib ybu lebw tmj prbg`jk wdtm Ejw

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_bkj pjbp`j oh`` tmds gjdef bgajotdvj# O oh`` dt gjdef nu`` bn smdt.

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;mje O rjsjhromji h`djes tmj bej bvjrwmj`kdef tmdef O nbuei whs tmht tmjrj hrj vjry njwpjbp`j wmb omheej` tmjk ebw. Ot sjjks tmht tmbsj pjbp`j wmb idisb idie"t ndei dt h `bef+tjrk sbùtdbe. Oe nhot# h `bt bn tmj wjg+sdtjs O`bblji ht prbkdsji tmht hntjr >:C> bur gjejndojet h`dje bvjr`briswbuì smbw us h`` mbw tb gj `jss sj`n+ojetjrji hei khtjrdh`dstdohei tmds wbuì gj tmj sthrt bn h tru`y wbeijrnu` tdkj nbr mukhedty.

>:C> ohkj hei wjet hei tmj pbsts s`bwji ibwe. 8bst bn tmj wjgphfjs stbp pbstdef gy tmj jei bn >:CF. -mj h`djes tmht tmjy"i gjjeomheej`def idie"t sjjk tb mhvj mdt heytmdef be tmj mjhi jxojpt

tmj didbt "omheej`def" tmjk. -mj wbrì# de nhot# whs fjttdef wbrsj. Khoj whrs idie"t jei# de nhottjesdbes fbt wbrsj. Sb`ùtdbe fbt wbrsj. (vjrytmdef suolji h `dtt`j kbrj hei ebej bn tmjrhdegbws hei Sjfhsusjs tmht wjrj prbkdsji wjrj ij`dvjrji. *ntjr >:CF dt"s prjtty ihke mhritb ndei h wjg phfj tmht th`ls hgbut ijkbes hs pbsdtdvj spdrdts. -mjrj ds bej khabr bej heitmjy"vj hotuh` khij tmjdr spjodh` `dtt`j h`dje fuy h rjfdstjrji trhijkhrl. 'jejvb`jet h`djeswhet tb gj trhijkhrljiA

*ntjr >:CF dt"s mhri tb ndei h sdef`j p`hoj tmht rjfhris h`djes hs fbbi spdrdts# gut dn ybu typj deh`djes hei "jvd`" br "ijkbe" ybu"`` fjt h `bt bn mdts. D$tmbsj pjbp`j wmb shdi tmjy wjrjomheej`def h`djes hotuh``y wjrj omheej`def# tmje tmj spdrdts tmjy omheej`ji wjrj `dhrs# nhd`deftmht tmj pjrsbe whs jdtmjr `ydef br ijùiji. *eywhy ybu `bbl ht dt# dt"s he jkghrrhssdefsdtuhtdbe.

_b gjnbrj ybu sthrt omheej`def heytmdef nrbk tmj heywmjrj systjk mhvj h fbbi pjrusj betmj hrtdo`j tmht 6ujstdbes dn h`djes hrj hotuh``y ijkbes# gjohusj tmjrj hrj sbkj fbbi pbdetstb tmht dijh. 8hygj ebt h`` bn tmjk# gut tmjrj hrj h `bt bn mb`js de h `bt bn tmjdr stbrdjs. ;mjrjib ybu obkj nrbkA -mj 8bbe ybu shyA ;j``# wj"vj gjje tmjrj... idie"t sjj ybur nb`ls tmjrjAbu surj ybu"rj nrbk tmj 8bbeA

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nrbk -mj S`jdhijs hei wj mhvje"t mhi h fbbi `bbl ht tmjk wdtm prbgjs br tj`jsobpjs yjt# Ofujss tmht"s pbssdg`j...

Ebw tmj `htjst# ebw tmht wj"rj sthrtdef tb fjt o`bsjr tb fjttdef h `bbl nurtmjr hei nurtmjr detbtmj fh`hxyA -mjy"rj h`` nrbk obevjedjet "btmjr idkjesdbes". Os tmht h nheoy why bn shydef tmjrjh`k bn spdrdtsA ;mht sbkj khy oh`` purfhtbry br mj``... whdt h kdeutj# O"k njj`def `dlj wj"vj

gjje mhiM ;j mhi tmds obevjrshtdbe ghol h obup`j tmbushei yjhrs hfbM

-mj stbrdjs ljjp omhefdef hei tmht"s ebt h fbbi sdfe. Ejdtmjr ds tmj nhot tmht h`` tmjomheej`def mhse"t sjjkji tb grdef hgbut jvje bej bn tmj prbkdsjs tmjsj wbeirbus gjdefsmhvj khij.

!b heswjr ybur "ujstdbe# $j rjh``y fu``d%`j hei %j`dj&j wmhtj&jr heyspdrdt nrbk hebtmjr rjh`k tj``s ybu. 'b tmds hei ybu(`` %j mheej`def nrbktmj )`jdhijs %jnbrj ybu he shy, (*pje 'bbrwhy(.


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Vmht(s +p Vdtm 'u`jgy !drfdedh $hrrhwhy _thrl

On ybu"vj ebtdoji# tmjrj hrj sjvjrh`rjnjrjeojs tb Iuòj de tmds dssuj bnutjrkbst. 'y ebw ybu kdfmt gjwbeijrdef wmy tmht ds. _b mjrj"s h6udol bvjrvdjw nbr ybu dn ybu"vjejvjr mjhri hgbut Iuòj gjnbrj brdn ybu ejji h 6udol rjkdeijr# brkhygj ybu"`` `jhre sbkjtmdef ejwjvje dn ybu tmbufmt ybu h`rjhiylejw jvjrytmdef tmjrj ds tb lebwhgbut Iuòj.

Iuòj ds tmj kbst nhkbus bn tmj hei ejnhrdbus bn tmj h``jfji fbvjrekjet+h`dje ghsjs. -mjywjrj ndrst grbufmt tb tmj httjetdbe bn tmj pug`do de C=+CB:. * `bt bn pjbp`j shy tmht tmjh``jfhtdbes bn wmht fb be de Iuòj hrj tmj kbst butrhfjbus hei hgsuri bn h`` tmj pbssdg`jh``jfhtdbes bn fbvjrekjet9h`dje obespdrhodjs. -mds khy gj truj# Iuòj mhs h``jfji`y mhi Ij`th%broj hdr ndfmts wdtm h`dje smdps bvjr Iuòj# dt ds h``jfji tb gj tmj ojetjr nbr fjejtdo tjstdef#mukhe o`bedef hei h vhst hrrhy bn btmjr h``jfhtdbes tmht wd`` gj mbrrdnydef hei prbghg`y`hufmhg`j tb sbkjbej rjhidef hgbut tmjk nbr tmj ndrst tdkj. -mj pjrsdstjeoj bn tmj rukbrs bn"wmht fbjs be" de Iuòjobetdeuj tb surnhoj hskbrj sjourdty heikd`dthry pjrsbeej` spjhlup. Ibjs tmds khlj dttrujA Genbrtuehtj`y tmjpug`do lebw `dtt`j tbebtmdef hgbut tmj trutmhgbut Iuòj.

-mj *kjrdohe0bvjrekjet o`hdks tmhttmj be`y frhdes bn trutm tbtmj Iuòj kytmbs ds tmhttmjrj ds h ijhotdvhtjiobì+whr jrh kdssd`jsd`b9gueljr de tmj hrjh.


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_deoj eb bej ds h``bwji tb sjj dt wj mhvj h mj shys9tmjy shy sdtuhtdbe. *oobridef tb tmjfbvjrekjet tmj wmb`j tmdef ds khij up hei tmjrj dse"t heytmdef tb sjj sb O"k ebt fbdef tb shyheytmdef kbrj hgbut tmjdr pjrspjotdvj hs tmjrj dse"t heytmdef tb shy.

Oestjhi O wd`` tj`` ybu wmht tmj btmjr "tmjy" shy hgbut Iuòj. -mjy shy tmht h`djes `dvj ueijr 8t.*romu`jth de Ejw 8jxdob# G_*. -mjy shy tmht dt"s tmj gdffjst h`dje ueijrfrbuei ghsj#

pbssdg`y de tmj wbrì gut ojrthde`y de *kjrdoh. -mjy shy tmht Kjptd`dhes hei 0rhy *`djes wbrlwdtm mukhe ibotbrs tb ib jxtjesdvj tjstdef be mukhes de phrtdou`hr mygrdid3htdbe# omdpdkp`hets nbr trholdef# omhefdef gjmhvdbr tmrbufm kdei obetrb` hei ohusdef idsjhsjs dn tmjpjrsbe ihrjs tb spjhl but. -mjrj hrj h`sb kbrj sjjkdef`y deeboubus tmdefs `dlj trydef tbueijrsthei hei rjhi tmj mukhe hurh. -mds ds h``jfji`y h stuiy bn detjrjst gjohusj tmjsjh`djes ohe sjj mukhe hurhs kuom `dlj mbw sbkj hedkh`s ohe sjj G! `dfmt hei tmjy hrjtrydef tb ueijrsthei mukhes gjttjr. ;myA 'johusj tmjy whet tb thlj bvjr tmj p`hejt heigrjji wdtm bur wbkje uetd` bur idnnjrjeojs hrj nbrfbttje.

On ybu hrj detjrjstji de `jhredef kbrj hgbut tmjnhots hgbut tmj obestruotdbe bn Iuòj# obkp`jtjwdtm gd``def sthtjkjets hei pdoturjs bn jebrkbustrhespbrts grdefdef j6udpkjet hei h `hgbr nbrojijsdfeji tb gudì kuom kuom kuom kbrj tmhe hkdssd`j gueljr# sjhrom nbr dt be bu-ugj. -mjrjhrj h `bt bn pjbp`j wmb mhvj ibej jxtjesdvjrjobri sjhromdef hei wbrlji nbr yjhrs be tmdshrjh bn stuiy hei kbst bn wmht O mhvj tb tj`` ybuds rjdtjrhtdef spjou`htdbe nrbk pjbp`j wmb jdtmjr

o`hdk tb mhvj gjje mjì de Iuòj br wbrlji tmjrj br tb idrjot ybu tb pjbp`j wmb sjjk tb mhvjibej tmjdr mbkjwbrl.

Iuòj whs tmj ndrst bn tmj khabr ueijrfrbuei ghsjs tb gj "jxpbsji" tb tmj pug`do gut tmjrukbrs ibe"t stbp wdtm Iuòj# dt whs aust tmj ndrst hei hpphrjet`y tmj `hrfjst. -mj rukbrs bnueijrfrbuei ghsjs hei detjrobeejotji tueej`s obeejotdef tmj ghsjs hs nhr ebrtm hs Ihwsbe$rjjl# $hehih h odty de $hehih tmht whs gud`t gy tmj G._. 8d`dthry tb gudì h rbhi tb *`hslh tbmj`p ijnjht tmj *xds jejkdjsJ hei hs nhr sbutm hs _he Idjfb. -mj systjk strjtomjs nrbkbojhe tb bojhe hs wj``. Ot"s h gdf o`hdk hei dt sbueis hgsuri. ;mje pjbp`j mjhr hgbut h`djesobkdef tb jhrtm# wj h`` whet dt tb gj `dlj _thr -rjl hei ebt `dlj "_phoj Oevhijrs"# ejvjrtmj`jsstmj rukbrs wd`` ebt idj. -mj rukbrs hrj obesdstjet wdtm jhom btmjr# jhom hoobuet sjjkdef tbgjhr up be tmj btmjr hoobuets. -mj obkkbe tmjkj ds tmht wj hrj ebtmdef tb tmjsj devhidefspjodjs. ;j hrj grjjijrs. ;j hrj omhttj`. ;j hrj ideejr.

-mj obkkbe tmjkj bn Iuòj ds h`` bn bur wbrstedfmtkhrjs bn sphoj devhsdbe.

-mjrj ds h `bt bn denbrkhtdbe be tmds sugajot.-mj nbur+obrejrs kjjtdef bn sthtjs tmht ds ejhrIuòj mhs tmj mdfmjst kdssdef pjrsbes rhtj detmj obuetry. -mj pjbp`j wmb fb kdssdef hrjomdìrje wmb hrj h``jfji`y ljpt de ohfjs heitmje jhtjeJ# wbkje bn omdì+gjhrdef hfj heiybuef# mjh`tmy kje. *`` tmj stbrdjs hrj mbrrdndo


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hei h`` tmj pjbp`j wmb h``jfj tb mhvj wbrlji de Iuòj shy tmj shkj tmdefs? -mjrj hrjkbestjrs ibwe tmjrj# jspjodh``y de @jvj` _jvje wmjrj tmj rjh` jxpjrdkjets fb be. -mj wbrstbejs.

;bkje hrj rbutdej`y dkprjfehtji hei tmjdr njtusjs rjkbvji ht tmrjj kbetms... ht wmdom tdkjtmjy hrj fjejtdoh``y h`tjrji hei usuh``y fdvje hooj`jrhtji frbwtm. -mj 6ujstdbe rjpjhts hfhde

hei hfhde? ;my wbuì heybej ib tmdsA

*`` tmj heswjrs hrj nrdfmtjedef hei ybu wd`` ejji tb sthrt ij`vdef detb sbkj ijjp whtjrs tbndei heytmdef hpprbhomdef he heswjr. -mj prbg`jk wdtm idsoussdef heytmdef tb ib wdtm h`djesds tmht mukhedty mhs h fut rjhotdbe tb kbol heytmdef tb ib wdtm h`djes. Sjrsbeh``y# dt whs tmdsrjhotdbe de kysj`n tmht khij kj sthrt tb prbgj phribe tmj pueJ kbrj ijjp`y kysj`n. ;myidskdss heytmdef tb ib wdtm `dnj nrbk btmjr p`hejts hs ùidorbusA

vjr tmj ijohijs dt mhs gjobkj kbrj hei kbrj njhsdg`j tmht tmjrj 8G_- gj btmjr `dnj de burfh`hxy. -mjrj hrj sb khey p`hejts gjdef idsobvjrji de "tmj 0bìd`bols" 3bej bn vhrdbus sthrs#wmy wbuì detj``dfjet `dnj mhvj be`y jvb`vji be jhrtmA Ot"s ebt `bfdoh`# dt ibjse"t khlj sjesj tbtmdel wj hrj tmj be`y bejs hei tb rdidou`j heybej wmb tmdels idnnjrjet`y. *s bur sodjeojjvb`vjs wj h`sb sjj kbrj hei kbrj mbw jhsy dt wbuì gj tb fb nrbk wmjrj wj hrj ebw tbgjdef hg`j tb trjht tmj jetdrj fh`hxy hs bur gholyhri.

-mds idsobuets tmj dijhtmht tmj "h`djes" mhvj denhot gjje be tmds p`hejths `bef br kuom `befjrtmhe wj mhvj. -mht tmj"h`djes" wjrj de nhot tmjibkdehet `dnj nbrk brtmbusheis bn yjhrs.-mjrj hrj hs kheytmjbrdjs bn wmht "obuìgj" hs hey pjrsbe ohespjou`htj be wdtm tmjsohttjrdef bn nhots tmhtwj mhvj hoojss tb.;mht ohe"t gj ijedji dstmj g`hthet ijsdrj gytmj "-mjy" de omhrfj tbobvjr up nbr sbkjtmdef.

O"k ebt hsldef ybu tb gj`djvj de heytmdef# wmht O hk hsldef ybu tb ib ds tb tmdel hgbut tmdefsgjnbrj ybu kbol br ijrdij tmjk. Ib O gj`djvj de tmj rukbrs hgbut IuòjA O ibe"t lebw. ;buìO whet tb fb tmjrj hei ndei but nbr kysj`nA Eb# O"k tbb kuom bn h obwhri nbr tmht hei O tmdel hphrt bn kj gj`djvjs tmht ht `jhst sbkj bn dt ds truj.

;mht O"k hsldef ybu tb ib ds tb aust bpje ybur mjhrt# bpje ybur kdei hei ibe"t gj h oyedo.Ibe"t gj ijrdsdvj# dt dse"t sodjetdndo hei dt wbe"t `jhi ybu tb h truj obeoùsdbe. Ib rjsjhrom be


13/48

tmj sugajots nbr ybursj`n hei gj grhvj jebufm tb ebt `hufm ht wmht nrdfmtjes ybu. -mj $O*hikdts tb obkdef up wdtm tmj dijh bn obkdef up wdtm h tjrk tb ijrdij heybej wmb trdji tb th`lhgbut sbkjtmdef tmht tmjy shw. -mj tjrk tmjy ohkj up wdtm whs "obespdrhoy tmjbrdsts". -mdsmhs gjobkj h sohr`jt `jttjr tmht beoj hpp`dji tb sbkjbej ds eb idnnjrjet tmhe h whredef sdfetmht shys# &Ihefjr# $rhy+$rhy *mjhi). -b bpje`y hikdt# tb prdijnu``y hikdt tb obkdef up wdtmsuom h tjrk hei nbr pjbp`j tb std`` gj`djvj de dt hs h skjhr ds h suspdodbus hot h`` be dts bwe.

-mdel bn tmj $O* hs h o`hssdo sbodbphtm. ej bn tmjghsdo kjtmbis h sbodbphtm usjs be tmjdr thrfjts ds tbobevdeoj jvjrybej hrbuei tmjk tmht tmjdr vdotdks hrjtbb orh3y tb gj trustji. "Ibe"t `dstje# tmjy"rj deshej"#tmht"s wmht h`` tmj wbrljrs rjpbrt gjdef tbì hgbut tmjpjbp`j de ohfjs. 'jdef phdetji hs orh3y# heytmdefsbkjbej shys br ibjs ds rjhotji tb wdtm sobre heiidsihde br ht gjst# pdty. ;mht h trdji hei truj kjtmbitb pu`` tmj wbb` bvjr jvjrybej"s jyjs. @jts ebt `jtheybej tj`` us wmb ds orh3y br shej# `jt"s ndfurj dt but6udjt`y# stuidbus`y hei nbr bursj`vjs. ej wj"vj ibejtmht wj ohe sthrt tb ijodij wmjrj tb p`hoj bur trusthei khygj bej ihy tmds wd`` `jhi tb ndeidef but ";mht"sGp ;dtm Iuòj".

-mhels nbr tmdeldef.

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_burojs?

-mj Iuòj 'bbl 'y 'rhetbe

Hetmbey _. _hemj -hei Ob`bej` /


14/48

J3trhtjrrjstrdh` $jdefs 8hy Vh`l Hkbef +s# Vmht 'b 7bu $j`dj&j?

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15/48

ougdo njjt bn hikdedstrhtdvj nd`js# tmdrty+sjvje ougdo njjt bn deidvdiuh` ohsj nd`js jhom rjobrijisjphrhtj`y# hei tmrjj ougdo njjt bn rjobris de rjfhris tb tmj nndoj bn _pjodh` Oevjstdfhtdbes br_O. ;dtmde tmjsj nd`js hrj C>#HCB sdfmtdefs bn uedijetdndji n`ydef bgajots bn wmdom =:C rjkhdeuedijetdndji. _b wmy idi tmds prbajot suiije`y ojhsj tb jxdst de CH wmje tmjy wjrj o`jhr`ybgthdedef pjrtdejet ihth hei mhi ohsjs tmht wjrje7t sb`vjiA

_deoj tmj o`bsurj bn Srbajot 'ùj 'bbl tmjrj hrj eb iboukjetji ohsjs bn uedijetdndji n`ydefbgajots# yjt tmj detjrejt ds skhttjrji wdtm pdoturjs ijpdotdef n`ydef sphoj orhnts. ;mje tmjprbajot obeoùiji he jxhkdehtdbe whs obeiuotji gy tmj _O bn tmj ihth rjobvjrji hei dt whsnbuei tmht, eb uedijetdndji n`ydef bgajot tmht mhs gjje rjpbrtji# devjstdfhtji# br jvhùhtji mhsjvjr gjje h tmrjht tb ehtdbeh` sjourdty# tmjrj mhs gjje eb jvdijeoj tmht smbws tmht hey bn tmjG%s mhvj hivheoji tjomeb`bfy br hrj bn h`dje brdfde# hei tmht tmjrj whs eb Kbswj``# Ejw8jxdob deodijet de C4=. -mds sbueis `dlj h gueom bn mbfwhsm tb kj. Ose7t dt nueey tmht hedevjstdfhtdbe be h fbvjrekjet gbiy tmht whs gjdef hoousji bn h fbvjrekjet obvjr+up7 whsibej gy tmj fbvjrekjetA _b bn obursj jvjrytmdef7s pjhomy ljje hei bn obursj tmjrj whs ebfbvjrekjet obvjr up. n obursj tmjrj wjrj eb jxtrhtjrrjstrdh` gjdefs br hey jxtrhtjrrjstrdh`khttjr br khtjrdh`. Sjrmhps tmj =:C uedijetdndji bgajots wjrj irbppdef h`djes bnn tb `dvjhkbef us# tb grjji wdtm us# tb obmhgdthtj wdtm us.

Oe C=4 $hr` _hfhe hei mds guiidjs ijodiji tb sjei he *rjodgb kjsshfj detb butjr sphojvdh rhidb whvjs. -ures but dt whs tmj kbst pbwjrnu` grbhiohst jvjr detjetdbeh``y rj`hyji detbsphoj. -mds kjsshfj whs hdkji ht h khss bn sthrs >2#::: `dfmt yjhrs hwhy. -mds kdssdvj whsh pdotbrdh` ijpdotdbe bn h mukhe nhoj# h sdfeh` ijpdotdbe bn (hrtm7s `bohtdbe de tmj fh`hxy# ljyj`jkjets bn bur khtm hei sodjeoj# hei tmj hetjeehj tmht E*_* usji tb sjei tmjtrheskdssdbe. *`` wdtm mdfm mbpjs tmht tmjrj whs jxtrhtjrrjstrdh` detj``dfjeoj but de tmjuedvjrsj. Ebt surprdsdef`y de >::C# >= yjhrs `htjr# h khssdvj orbp odro`j hppjhrji tmht whsejhr`y dijetdoh` tb tmj kjsshfj tmht whs sjet de C=4. -mj kjsshfj pbppji up de h ndjì rdfmtejxt tb 'rdthde7s `hrfjst tj`jsobpj# $md`gb`tbe. 'j`bw ds tmj kjsshfj tmht whs sjet gy $hr`_hfhe de C=4.


16/48

'j`bw ds he dkhfj bn tmj kjsshfj tmht hppjhrji de tmj nbrk bn h orbp odro`j de >::C.


17/48

;mjtmjr ybu gj`djvj tmht tmjsj dkhfjs wjrj khij gy h`djes br mukhes# ybu mhvj tb hikdttmj `dljejss bn tmj twb pmbtbs ds ueoheey tb shy tmj `jhst. -mds ijpdotdbe `bbls dijetdoh` tb tmjbej tmht wj trheskdttji tb butjr sphoj# jxojpt tmht dt smbws h idnnjrjet sb`hr systjk# h pdoturjbn tmj h`dje sjeijr# ebe+mukhe IE*# hei h kdorbwhvj hetjeeh rhtmjr tmhe tmj rhidb whvjhetjeehj wj sjet burs wdtm. n obursj khey mhvj wrdttje tmds pmjebkjebe bnn hs h mbhx.Sjrsbeh``y O gj`djvj wj sjet h kjsshfj hei wj rjojdvji he heswjr ghol. 8hygj dt tbbl sb

`bef gjohusj tmjsj gjdefs mhi trdji tb fjt tmjdr kjsshfj horbss# gut mhie7t suoojjiji.8hygj dt tbbl sb `bef gjohusj tmht7s mbw `bef dt thljs. ;mb lebwsA

O wbeijr dn tmjrj whs h rjhsbe tmht tmj kjsshfj bn wdtm tmj nhoj smbwji up tmrjj ihys gjnbrjtmj btmjr rjothefu`hr pdotbrdh` dkhfj. ;mje tmj *rjodgb kjsshfj whs trheskdttji dt whs ibejsb de 'dehry nbrk. Ot7s ebt surprdsdef tb `jhre tmht de tmj Ehtdbeh` _jourdty *fjeodjs iboukjettdt`ji# -jy tb tmj /trhtjrrjstrdh` jsshfjs tmht tmjrj wjrj h sjrdjs bn > kjsshfjs nrbkbutjr sphoj de 'dehry nbrk. _deoj tmj ihwe bn tdkj hstrbebkjrs mhvj sjhromji nbr sdfes bndetj``dfjet `dnj btmjr tmhe mukhes de tmj uedvjrsj hei bn obursj wmje wj ndei tmjk tmjy hrjobvjrji up br wrdttje bnn hs h mbhx. ;mht ib ybu gj`djvjA

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18/48

+r%he @jfjeis# 2rbk Heeuehld tb $bmjkdhe Crb&j, h %rdjn b&jr&djw

-mj *eueehld nrbk Edgdru

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19/48

sphoj. Ijpdotdbes bn tmdsrjptd`dhe rhoj mhvjhppjhrji de tjxt sdeojtmj gjfdeedef bn tdkj. _bhrj tmj *eueehld heiS`hejt X h gdf mbhx# he

urghe `jfjei br ibjstmds sdedstjr rhoj bngjdefs rjh``y jxdstA

*gbvj ds he dkhfj bnhe h``jfji *eueehld tmhtwhs ueobvjrji gyhromjb`bfdsts.

*oobridef tb hutmbr hei

obespdrhoy tmjbrdst IhvdiOolj tmj *eueehld hrjwdolji`y rjh`. 5j jvje

fbjs sb nhr hs tb sthtj tmht nbr tmj phst 42:#::: yjhrs tmj *eueehld mhvj gjje ru`def (hrtm deidnnjrjet idsfudsjs hei nrbk idnnjrjet rjh`ks bn jxdstjeoj. -mds ds pbssdg`j gjohusj tmj

*eueehld mhvj thkpjrji wdtm bur fjejtdo obij de brijr tb obetrb` tmj jvbùtdbe bn mukhes tbkhlj us tmjdr pjrsbeh` `holjys. Oolj jvje o`hdks tmht tmj *eueehld mhvj nbrfji fjejh`bfy tbobkkhei mukhe gjdefs nbr tmjk. O7k ebt smbolji tmht tmjsj phrtdou`hr fjejtdoh``yjefdejjrji nhkd`djs std`` ru`j tmj wbrì tbihy.

-mds wbuì sjjk tb mbì tmj heswjrs nbr wmy tmj j`dtj be p`hejt jhrtm hrj bgsjssji wdtmg`bbi`dejs hei `dejhfj. Ot mhs fjejrh``y gjje hssukji tmht tmj detjrgrjjidef tmht tbbl p`hojde hrdstborhoy whs iuj tb mhufmtdejss hei hdrs hei frhojs. * sbrt bn Gs vjrsus tmj$bkkbejrs pjrspjotdvj7. -mht7s ebt tmj ohsj tmbufm. -mj *eueehld idi tmds tb khdethde hprjodsj fjejtdo somjkhtdo tmht h``bws tmjk tb khdethde ojrthde sld``s# `dlj smhpj+smdntdef nrbk`d3hri tb mukhe nbrk. 5bwjvjr# tmht *eueehld ohe thlj be hey nbrk tmjy ombbsj. _bkj bn tmj

*eueehld rjkhde be (hrtm wdtm tmj mygrdis tmjy orjhtji# wmd`j sbkj bn tmjk obetrb` mukhes

vdh tj`jphtmy nrbk tmj `bwjr rjfdbes bn tmj 4 tmidkjesdbe. -mj *eueehld mhvj orjhtji hed`ùstrdbus sjorjt sbodjty tmht fhvj tmjk rjdfe tb thlj obkp`jtj obetrb` bn (hrtm.


20/48

-mj 6ujstdbe ds? ;my wbuì tmjy gbtmjr wdtm mukhes dn tmjy7rj sb hivheojiA -mds 6ujstdbeobkjs up rjpjhtji`y de hrfukjets hfhdest tmj obeojpt bn tmjsj `bwjr idkjesdbe rjptd`dheh`djes. -mj heswjr ds tmht tmj *eueehld ejji jhrtm`defs? nbr ideejr.

Ebkebkebk, `jts fb but hei fjt us sbkj ides!

;mje bej thljs h `bbl ht vhkpdrjs hei tmj *eueehld tmjy ndei khey sdkd`hrdtdjs gjtwjje tmjtwb# suom hs, dkkbrth`dty# `bvj bn obesukdef g`bbi# sjx wdtm vdotdks# smhpj smdntdef#

mypebtdsk# hei sjorjt brfhed3htdbes. *`gjdt tmjsj 4tmidkjesdbeh` rjptd`js wjhr tmj mukheslde `dlj h fjejtdo obht hei wmje h mbst idjs tmj *eueehld sdkp`y kbvj uetb tmj ejxtvuèjrhg`j prjy. Ot7s ejojsshry nbr tmj *eueehld tb irdel g`bbi br j`sj tmjy wbuìe7t gj hg`j tbsmdnt detb mukhe nbrk. Ebt be`y tmht tmj *eueehld tmrdvj bnn bn mukhe njhr# hffrjssdbe# heibtmjr ejfhtdvj njj`defs. -mds ds shdi tb gj gjohusj tmjy7rj hiidotji tb hirjehòmrbkj wmdomwj jkdt de sdtuhtdbes bn sjvjrj tjrrbr. -mj *eueehld ibe7t gdtj tmjdr vdotdks# gut sykgb`doh``ys`doj tmjdr tmrbhts nrbk `jnt tb rdfmt hei sdp tmj g`bbi nrbk fbg`jts. * sjxuh` jeobuetjr wdtm bejbn tmds khefy rjptd`js wbuì gj h mbrrdnydef jxpjrdjeoj bn vdb`jeoj# rhpj# kurijr# hei shthedordtuh`.

Mukhe jxorjtdbes nrbk tmj grhde de tdkjs bn jxtrjkj njhr br phde hrj h``jfji`y tmj grjhi hei guttjr

tmht tmj Heeuehld obkj tb bur p`hejt hei idkjesdbe tb njhst be.


21/48

-mj sjxuh` hgusj ib`ji but gy tmj *eueehld ds usji tb g`holkhd` hei khedpu`htj tmjdrvdotdk7s psyomj. -mjsj vdodbus rjptd`js mhvj he dendedtj ejtwbrl bn vdotdks tmjy rhpj# hgusj#hei rdtuh`dstdoh``y shordndoj. -mjy jvje mhvj eukjrbus p`hyfrbueis tmht wbrì `jhijrsobefrjfhtj ht# `dlj 'bmjkdhe 0rbvj.

Butjrkbst Abureh` wbuì `dlj tb spjodny tmht tmjsj hrj h``jfji kjkgjrs bn tmj bmjkdhe rb"j ou`tkjkgjrs. #bst bn tmj hotd"dtdjs ht bmjkdhe rb"j hrj rhkphet spjou`htdbe hei Butjrkbst ibjs ebt

o`hdk tb mh"j j"dijeoj bn hey bn shdi hotd"dtdjs. $mds ds rjpbrtji hs phrt bn %rghe &jfjei

;mdom ds h >#=::+horj obkpbuei `bohtji aust ebrtm bn _he %rheodsob. 'j`djvj dt br ebt tmdsobkpbuei ds h khssdvj frhvjyhri tmht mbìs eukjrbus vdotdks irhdeji bn tmjdr `dnj7s g`bbihei tmjdr sbu`7s jejrfdjs.


22/48

$mj khps bn wmjrj tb ndei bmjkdhe rb"j hei tmj

hpprbxdkhtj `hybut ghsji bnn bn dend`trhtbrs hei ijnjotbrs wmbmh"j gjje s`bw`y wbrldef tb jxpbsj tmj ou`t hei tmjdr ejnhrdbus

hotd"dtdjs.

-mj heodjet _ukjrdhes ijsordgji tmds p`hejt hs h wdefjiidso hei tmht7s mbw tmbsj tmht mhvj rjojet`y sjje tmdsp`hejt ijsordgj dt hs wj``, h p`hejt wdtm wdefs.

O7k hssukdef tmht Edgdru ds ebw sjtt`ji gjtwjje :C2.5bwjvjr ebw rjpbrts bn dt gjdef spbttji de tmj gjfdeedefbn 8hy mhvj jkjrfji nrbk Kussdh#


23/48

*n 8hfejts hei 8jshsHe J3jrpt nrbk Ky Nhtmjr's _tbry ds Ky _tbry%y !bey _thrl

&;h`l wdtm kj# !deojet.)

O `bblji up nrbk ky irhntdef thg`j ht tmj vbdoj de tmj ibbrwhy. -mj wdeibw tb ky `jnt rjn`jotjibnn tmj phpjr grdfmt`y jebufm tb mhvj g`deiji ky vdsdbe# hei tmj vbdoj gj`befji tb be`y hsd`mbujttj nbr h kbkjet br twb. Ot rjsb`vji detb tmj sth`whrt nrhkj bn ;jeij`` 5bwj``# idrjotbrbn odvd``dhe bpjrhtdbes ht $mdeh @hlj.

&"/hy#) O rjp`dji# stuggdef but ky odfhrjttj detb tmj gjet obnnjj ohe O mhi gjje usdef nbr kyibf jeis. 0rhggdef ky aholjt kbrj nbr tmj skbljs dt mhi de dts grjhst pboljt tmhe nbrdesu`htdbe# O smbbl ;jeij``"s mhei.

;jeij`` mhi mdrji kj nrbk Kbkj ghol de "2H. 5j mhi gjje h ybuefjr jefdejjr tmje# std``bìjr tmhe kj# gut bej bn tmj hssdsthets nbr tmj *kjrdohe tjhk wmb mhi obkj tb ib tmj ndeh`survjy bn tmj h6ujiuots O mhi rj+jefdejjrji. 5j hei O mhi mdt dt bnn# hs kuom hs heybej obuìwdtm ;jeij``# heywhy. 5j whs h idstrhotji# dewhri+turedef khe# wmb whs prbej tb strjhls bnbiidty de mds gjmhvdbur hei frbss omhefjs bn kbbi tmht khij mdk ht tdkjs hwlwhri bridsobkndtdef tb gj hrbuei. Sjbp`j shdi tmjy fbt hffrhvhtji gy mds tjeijeoy tb obetrhidotmdksj`n nrbk ihy tb ihy# bpdedbe tb bpdedbe. O mhi ejvjr rjh``y kdeiji tmht sbrt bn tmdef+tjeiji tb `bbl rdfmt tmrbufm dt+ hei auifji ;jeij`` be mds hgd`dty hs h fjb+jefdejjr hei hirhfmtskhe. 5j jxoj``ji ht gbtm# hei bej bn tmj p`hojs wmjrj mj ejvjr frjw idsabdetji whshrbuei tmj gùjprdets# sb O obuetji ;jeij`` hs h nrdjei.

;j wh`lji ht h 6udol o`dp ibwe tmj wdij# hrky ghsj mh``why# mjj`s o`doldef de sthoohtb rmytmkbe tmj `deb`juk. ut tmj ibug`j# grhss+mhei`ji ibbrs wdtm h pbp hei ibwe tmj ojkjet stjps.-mj mjht bn tmj Ejvhih ijsjrt# wmd`j nbrkdihg`j de tmj bnndoj# mdt bej `dlj h wrbufmt drbe nrydefphe gjtwjje tmj jyjs hs sbbe hs wj wjrj de tmj bpje. -mdol hei iry wdei# `bhiji wdtmg`bwdef shei# phssji us gy de smjjts tmht sjjkji tb kbvj tbb s`bw`y tb gj hdrgbrej. _bkjbn tmj iust whs g`bwdef up nrbk nrbk tmj rjojet gbkg tjsts# O obuì tj`` gy tmj why dt khijjvjry pbrj be ky slde sthei tb httjetdbe. _bkj bn dt whs g`bwdef h`` tmj why nrbk ;mdtj_heis# eb ibugt. O wbeijrji wmy de mj`` ;jeij`` wbuì whet tb thlj h strb`` hrbuei tmj"ohkpus"# hs wj `hufmdef`y oh``ji dt# be h mbt+ghlji ihy `dlj tmds.

&;mht"s upA) O hslji mdk# wbris kunn`def tmjksj`vjs hrbuei tmj odfhrjttj O whs trydef tb `dfmthfhdest tmj wdei. ;dtm sbkj idnndou`ty# O fbt dt fbdef# hei f`heoji bvjr ht 5bwj`` wdtm sbkjskh`` drrdthtdbe. 5j std`` mhie"t heswjrji kj.

5bwj`` whs `bst de mds bwe tmbufmts hfhde# mds nhoj rjkhrlhg`y s`hol# mds kbvjkjetshutbkhtdo. ;j mhi khij h gjj`dej nrbk tmj ibbrs bn tmj smhol tmus nhr# hei O jyjgh``ji burijstdehtdbe. Ot whs h obvjrji hrky ajjp wdtm twb 8.Ss de dt.

On tmds mhi gjje h kbrj ebrkh` odvd`dhe+kd`dthry bpjrhtdbe# O wbuì mhvj gjobkj hgrupt`yobeojreji. 8.Ss usuh``y ib tmht tb odvvdjs hei sbìdjrs h`dlj. 'ut tmj 8.Ss be tmds ghsj wjrjf`brdndji omdì+kdeijrs hei sjourdty fuhris? tmjy idi jvjrytmdef nrbk grdef us nrjsm whtjr nbrtmj obb`jrs tb# hs de tmds ohsj# irdvj us nrbk pbdet * tb pbdet '. *eytmdef wdtmde tmj rhtmjr `hrfj


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ob``jotdbe bn jefdejjrdef gudìdefs# smbps# bnndojs hei hromdvjs whs std`` de pbdet *# hei O obuìmbp de h ajjp hei tbbi`j hrbuei tb hey bn tmjk# br but tb tmj khde fhtj tb fb mbkj tb ky@uodh ht edfmt# dn O whetji. 'ut pbdet ' obesdstji bn hey bn tmj nbur tmbushei br sb mjothrjs bnsh`t n`ht# ijsjrt rdifjs# sjorjt hdrndjìs# kdssd`j sd`b ghsjs hei btmjr butgudìdefs tmht khij uptmj $mdeh @hlj nhod`dty. _b O obuì tmjrjnbrj surkdsj tmht wj wjrj mjhiji tb bej bn tmjsjpbdet 's gy tmj di`def# 8.S+denjstji ajjp.

&bu"rj ibdef dt hfhde# ;jeij``#) O hivdsji ky obkphedbe. 5j g`delji hei mds kbutm twdtomjihs tmbufm O mhi pdeomji mdk# hei mds jyjs o`jhrji. -mjy g`delji hwhy shei nbr tmj ndrst tdkjde tmds `bef aburejy horbss tmj shei.

&m# sbrry#) mj kuttjrji# wdpdef mds ebw strjhkdef jyjs wdtm h mheiljromdjn. &@bst de ky+)

&+bwe tmbufmts#) O ebiiji# skdrldef. &O lebw. bu whetji O smbuì tj`` ybu# tmbufm.)

5bwj`` ebiiji vdfbrbus`y# gut mds nhoj whs h`rjhiy gjobkdef s`hol hei idstrhotji hfhde.>jh``y ?rjbu?dji,O tmbufmt# nrbwedef.

5j bpjeji up tmj n`dksy ibbr bn tmj bì whr ajjp hei dt n`hppji but bn mds mhei# wmdppjihgbut gy tmj hefry wdei. O ibvj detb tmj rj`htdvj smj`tjr bn tmj vjmdo`j hei ;jeij`` nb``bwjikj murrdji`y. 5j struff`ji wdtm tmj ibbr hfhdest tmj strjeftm bn tmj fust# hei tmje wj wjrjsjh`ji detb tmj vjmdo`j wdtm tmj 8.Ss.

&5dyh# !deojet#) tmj 8.S. Oe tmj phssjefjr sjht frjjtji kj di`y. 'd``y whs h sb`di nj``h, wjwbuì jxomhefj h skblj bn he jvjedef hei `bbl but ht tmj dkkjesdty bn tmj edfmt sly._bkjtdkjs h n`hsl wbuì gj jxomhefji.

&5d# 'd``y#) O rukkhfji de ky pboljt hei thppji h skblj but bn ky phol. 5j tbbl dt# `dt dt wdtmmds bwe `dfmtjr. 5j `bblji h `dtt`j frdk# `jss gubyhet tmhe mj usuh``y whs. * grdjn smhibwn`doljrji horbss ky kdei... hk D de sbkj ldeih trbu(`j#O wbeijrji. 'ut eb# fdvdef mdk hkjeth` pblj wdtm ky kdei# O obuì sjj dt whse"t heytmdef `dlj tmht. 5j whs std`` aust ndej thldefskbljs O bwji mdk# wmdom h khe de mds pbsdtdbe wbuìe"t rjh``y whet tb ib de nrbet bn btmjrs dn Omhi gjje be tmj mbt sjht. Ot whs aust h ldei bn... suprjssdbe. * g`jhlejss# br h rjsdfeji#6udjt`y jkghtt`ji hdr. @dlj 'd``y whs gjdef ohrtji bnn nbr $mrdstkhs wdtm tmj de+`hws.

-mj irdvjr ldolji tmj bì trheskdssdbe detb fjhr hei wj ùromji bnn de sjobei fjhr# pdoldef upspjji de rboldef ndts hei sthrts uetd` wj wjrj h gb`t horbss tmj n`hts. O tbbl tmj rboly sthrt"sidstrhotdbe tb ohtom h pjjl ht tmj btmjr 8.S, mj whs h fuy O mhie"t jvjr sjje gjnbrj. 5j whsgdffjr tmhe 'd``y gy h nhdr gdt# wmdom khij mdk pbsdtdvj`y khssdvj gy ky smrdkpy stheihris.5j whs bej bn tmj ijjp ghsj 8.Ss# sb oh``ji gjohusj tmjy kbvji be nrbk tmj khde fhtjijjp desdij tmj dkkjesj nhod`dty tb pbsts uelebwe. -mjy mhi h khssdvj# grdol wh`` 6uh`dtyhgbut tmjk# wdtm frjht mufj ejols `dlj Obwh nhrk mheis hei tdey `dtt`j jyjs sjt ijjp detbtmdol# rhtmjr ohrdohturji grbws. -mjy idie"t jvjr th`l kuom# `hufmji `jss# ejvjr sjjkji tbtmdel hgbut heytmdef gut tmjdr iuty. O ebtdoji nbr tmj ndrst tdkj tmht h`` tmbsj ijjp ghsj 8.Ssmhi tmj shkj g`jhl rjsdfehtdbe tb tmjk tmht O ebtdoji mhi sjtt`ji be 'd``y. -mj shkj shiidstheoj tmht whs sb idstrhotdef ;jeij``.

O nj`t eb suom bprjssdbe# jxojpt tmbsj oujs O whs pdoldef up nrbk ky tmrjj obkphedbes tmhttmds whs ebt h tdkj nbr di`j omhttjr br wdsjorhols. Gsuh``y wmje h frbup bn us mjhiji bnn


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horbss tmj n`hts wj wbuì orhol h ablj br twb# mhvj h gdt bn nue. %`hsm 0bribe wbuì gjkjetdbeji be khey boohsdbes. ;j wjrj h`` aust gbys std``# jvje tmbsj bn us wdtm wdvjs heildis# hei wj obuìe"t mj`p gut jeaby tmj nhot wj mhi h frjht gdf nhst ajjp hei kd`js bn sphojtb ohrjje hrbuei desdij. -mht whs phrt bn tmj nue bn dt but de tmj kdii`j bn fbiihke ebwmjrj,ybu fbt tb mhvj h gdt bn nue.

Ebt sb tbihy# mbwjvjr. -mjdr bpprjssdvj pjesdvjejss mhi ydjìji h orhw`def# frbwdefhpprjmjesdbe tmht gbrijrji be nueotdbeh` phedo de tmj ojetjr bn ky spdej. O whs houtj`y hwhrjtmht tmds whs ebt tmj wbrì bn pbdet * O whs tbbi`def hrbuei de+ wj wjrj ueijr tmj pbwjr bn tmjirdvjr ebw# hei mj whs kbst ijndedtj`y h pbdet ' ldeih fuy.

O obuì njj` he h`kbst huidg`j pbp hs wj `jnt tmj wbrì bn $mdeh @hlj tmht O mhi gjje desdijhei jetjrji tmj wbrì bn tmj ijjp ghsj. Ot whs h pbp tmht O nj`t de ky nbrjmjhi# `dlj hkjkgrhej bn swjjt# gbydsm prbtjotjiejss mhi strjtomji hs nhr hs dt obuì hei mhi aust gurstnrbk hrbuei ky strhdedef slu``. -mj wbrì hrbuei kj detb wmdom O mhi jetjrji sjjkji g`jhldeijji# g`jhl hei gùj hei jkpty. *ei mbrrdg`j sbkjmbw# tbb# hei O usj tmht de tmj sjesj bn"nu`` bn mbrrbr". O obuì sjj h ihrlejss s6uhrj de nrbet bn kj# sjj dt o`jhr`y hs O obuì sjj tmjkjsh rdsdef up hs wj hpprbhomji. *ei nrbk tmht ihrlejss wbuì sprdef kbestjrs. Ebw tmhttmj kjkgrhej bn rjh`dty mhi pbppji hei O whs sjjdef tmdefs hmjhi o`jhr`y# O mhi eb ibugttmht tmjrj wjrj mbrrbrs up hmjhi.

O f`heoji ht ;jeij``. 5j whs sthrdef mh`n but tmj p`hstdo phssjefjr wdeibw, tmjy wjrj sbpbolkhrlji wdtm iust hei frdt tmht dt whs h pbdet`jss jxjrodsj. 5j whs kjrj`y mdidef nrbk kjtmj nhot mj whs omjolji but beoj kbrj. O f`heoji ht 'd``y. 5j whs skbldef tmbuftnu``y# `bst demds bwe tmbufmts# wmdom# nrbk tmj `bbl be mds nhoj# ojetjrji hrbuei wmhtjvjr ihrlejss mhisuiije`y gjobkj hpphrjet tb kj.

&8dei fdvdef kj h mdetA) O euifji ;jeij`` fjet`y. Geijr ebrkh` odroukstheojs# O wbuì mhvjfdvje mdk h fbbi ahg ueijr tmj rdgs wdtm ky j`gbw# gut O whs suiije`y obeojreji tmht# dn O idi#;jeij`` kdfmt sehp hei strdlj but ht kj# br wbrsj. -mdefs idie"t sjjk ebrkh` ht h`` ebw.-mjy sjjkji `dlj h orbss gjtwjje tmht Edfmt bn tmj @dvdef Ijhi kbvdj hei 'biy _ehtomjrs.

*ei sbkjtmdef j`sj O mhi ejvjr sjje be tmj sd`vjr sorjje wmd`j @uodh oùtomji ky lejj heis6ujh`ji detb ky vjst. 'ut tmht sbkjtmdef whs nhkd`dhr. %hkd`dhr de dts tjrrbr.

O ghelji tmht tmbufmt# thffji dt nbr `htjr obesdijrhtdbe. ;jeij`` mhie"t rjspbeiji tb kj# austtureji mds mjhi hei pjjrji tmrbufm tmj iusty wdeisorjje uetd` mj shw wmhtjvjr mj ejjijitb sjj h`bef tmj kjsh.

&;j"rj h`kbst tmjrj#) whs h`` mj shdi.

Vmht tmj "ul,O tmbufmt tb kysj`n. buì tmds fjt hey kbrj rjj?smb!#

-mj nbous bn mds vdsdbe whs bej bn tmj kdssd`j ghsj ibbrs sjt detb tmj kjsh. -mjsj wjrj fdhetobeorjtj hei stjj` ghsthris tmht wjrj tmrjj njjt tmdol hei# gjtwjje tmj phdr bn tmjk# obuìbpje wdij jebufm tb `jt ndvj thels jetjr hgrjhst.

&mj 6htjs b" bribr,O tmbufmt# surprdsdef kysj`n gy tmj vjmjkjeoj bn ky detjreh` vbdoj. Omhi sjje tmjsj ibbrs fhtjs# O hkjeiji desthet`y de ky kdeiJ gjnbrj# wmje O mhi ndrst obkjtb wbrl ht $mdeh @hlj. -mjy wjrj aust kdssd`j ghsj ibbrs# `dlj hey btmjrs O mhi sjje. -mj


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hrky# ebw tmj hrky hei tmj hdr nbroj# mhi ib3jes bn tmjk h`` bvjr tmj wbrì. 'ut tbihy#khygj dt whs aust tmj wjdriejss bn ky obkphedbes" hotdbes# br khygj dt whs tmht sjesj bn"pbppdef" but bn ky `dnj"s rjh`dty# gut tmbsj gdf ghy ibbrs idie"t `bbl `dlj ejhtb# br hkh3def# brobb`db orjhtdbes tbihy. -mjdr bpje khw `bbkji `dlj tmj ihrlejss O mhi gjje sjesdef# tmjwjdfmt bn tmj stjj` de tmjdr ibbrs jkhehtji h mjhvy ndeh`dty ht tmj ajjp"s hpprbhom.

-mj 8.S. Irbvj tmj ajjp rdfmt detb tmj khw bn tmj kbuethdesdij# `dfmt tureji tb ihrl# tmjrukg`j bn vuòhed3ji ruggjr be shei tureji tb tmj jj`+s`dppjry mdss bn tmj shkj be pb`dsmjiojkjet. ;j wjrj tbth``y de tmj ihrl nbr h kbkjet gjnbrj tmj 8.S. -ureji be tmj ajjp"smjhi`dfmts. Oe tmht tdkj# O obuìe"t mj`p kysj`n. O tureji hei whtomji tmj ebw nhdet ijsjrt `dfmtstrjhkdef tmrbufm tmj bpjedef rjojij ht he h`kbst tjrrdnydef`y rhpdi rhtj. -mj wjdfmt bn tmjkbuethde prjssdef ibwe be us whs ph`phg`j, dts dkkjesdty 6uhd`ji tmj rhys bn `dfmt hs tmjyjetjrji tmj ibbrwhy. -mjy wjrj wjhl hei n`hoodi# hei idie"t jvje try tb nb``bw kj detb tmjihrlejss.

O tureji nbrwhri de ky sjht aust hs tmj 8.S. -ureji be tmj mjhi`dfmts. 8y jyjs wdijeji heiky odfhrjttj muef bnn ky `dp hs O tbbl de tmj truj soh`j bn tmj tueej` tmrbufm wmdom wj spji.

*s nhr hs tmj mjhi`dfmts obuì rjhom# tmj tueej` strjtomji but de h obkp`jtj`y strhdfmt `dej. Of`heoji gjmdei us aust de tdkj tb sjj tmht tmj dendetjsdkh``y skh`` s6uhrj bn `dfmt nrbk tmjjetrhoj whs gjdef jo`dpsji rj`jet`jss`y gy tmj ojkjet wj mhi trhvj``ji. Ot wdelji buthgrupt`y# hei wj wjrj de ihrlejss. _b wj wjrj mjhiji ibwe# O tmbufmt.

-mj irdvjr s`bwji tmj ajjp# fdefjr`y hei jhr`y hs tmj grhljs `bolji up `dlj gu``s" mbres be tmjojkjet. * strdef bn bvjrmjhi `dfmts hei sdij+kbuetji `hkps frjjtji us# hei g`delji hmypebtd3def rmytmk hs tmjy strjhkji phst us. -mj sdij `hkps wjrj h pjou`dhr gùj+frjje# tmjbvjrmjhis tmj ob`br bn khssdvj mhefhr br fykehsduk `dfmts. O `bblji ibwe ht ky lejjs hswj ohkj de nbr h `heidef ht wmhtjvjr bur ijstdehtdbe kdfmt gj, dt wbuì gj tbb jhsy tb fjthotuh``y mypebtdsji gy tmj `dt tueej` hntjr h`` tmds njhr. hy(j tmht=s !mht tmjy !hetji# Owbeijrji tb kysj`n. &jeijrd4j kj u? !dtm sbkj frdk -h"lh htdbe. O nrbweji tb kysj`n#pdoldef ht tmj jifjs bn ky tmukgs de wmht O lejw whs h ijfjejrhtj ejrvbus mhgdt gut ebwwhs tmj gjst why O mhi ht n`hrdef bnn tmj vjry `jfdtdkhtj tjrrbr bn gjdef swh``bwji gy hkbuethde wmd`j de tmj oustbiy bn pjbp`j O tmbufmt wjrj ky nrdjeis gut ebw O whs `jfdtdkhtj`yobeojreji wjrj fbdef tb idshppjhr kj br gjht kj br khygj ombw ibwe be kj br wbrsj.

O mh3hriji h f`heoj up ht tmj wdeismdjì. -mj `dfmts wjrj s`bwdef de tmjdr ueiu`htdef phsshfjphst us# gut std`` jhsy tb fjt mypebtd3ji. -mjrj whs prjodbus `dtt`j j`sj tb sjj jxojpt nbr tmjdrrjfu`hr jkhehtdbes. -mjrj whs# mbwjvjr# h grdfmt phtom up hmjhi. Ot whs h `hrfj kustjr hrjhht tmj jei bn tmj tueej`. Ot whs phdetji wmdtj. O obuì sjj orhtjs hei gbxjs hei khomdejryhei h`` sbrts bn rjfu`hr hrky typj stunn. -mjrj wjrj kbrj kdssd`j ijnjesj ibbrs# tmjsj bejsphdetji gùj. ;brljrs kbvji tmdefs hgbut. -mjy mhi ob`brji obvjrh``s be# bejs tmht wjrjgrd``dhet brhefj. -mjy `bblji `dlj `dejskhe nbr tmj j`jotrdoh` frdi# gut tmjy wjrj ibdef rjfu`hrswhkpdef. 'ut tmds whs dt+ jei bn tmj `dej.

-mjrj whs h phusj# `dlj h vjry s`bw sbntgh`` mhi gjje `bggji detb tmj hdr hei tmje ohkj ibwehfhde de h p`hyjr"s kdt.

&(ei bn tmj `dej#) 'd``y jombji ky tmbufmts wdtm h kurkur. O whs surprdsji# hei njrrjtji tmhthwhy nbr pjrush` ht h shnjr tdkj. O whs ebt usuh``y tmj ldei bn fuy tmht obuì pusm pjbp`j"skdeis. O whse"t tmj sbrt bn fuy tmht obuì khlj mds ph`s fb tb tmds oùg bvjr tmht oùg# mhvj mds


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wdnj ndx tmds nbr ideejr destjhi bn tmht... ebt wdtm ky tmbufmts# heywhy. O whs pjrsuhsdvj# vjrykuom sb# hei obuì ljjp up h mheiy ghetjr tmht wbuì khlj h fuy tmdel mj mhi whetji tb fbtb tmj $hgheh destjhi bn tmj _tjhlmbusj h`` h`bef# gut O mhi ejvjr# ejvjr sjje tmht sbrt bntmdef trhes`htj butsdij ky bwe mjhi wdtmbut prbkptdef gjnbrj. O lejw dt obuì mhvj gjje hehromjtyph` ldei bn tmbufmt+ dt whs vjry obkkbe phr`heoj# hntjr h``. 'ut O ibe"t lebw mbw tbjxp`hde dt# tmjrj whs aust tmds `hf be ky tmbufmt# `dlj h trhd` bn h n`hrj de tmj ihrl edfmt sly. Gp#

up# bvjr# bvjr... pùkkjtdef ibwe hei.... detb 'd``y"s mjhi. ;mje mj shdi dt# dt sbueiji `dlj dtwhs kj. Ebt tmht mj shdi dt de ky vbdoj# jxhot`y# gut tmht wmht mj shdi+ tmht whs kj.

dfmt (j tmj be`y !hy tb fjt ybur srh!ey hss but b" tmds mb`j, ybu=rj fbeeh rjkjk(jr tmht,Owhreji kysj`n wdtm h frdk khohgrj ojrthdety tmht whs h`sb surprdsdef`y ueomhrhotjrdstdo. Ofu`pji# hei mbpji eb bej mjhri. -mj ajjp whs obkdef tb h stbp gy h `dtt`j `bhidef ibol ejhrtb tmj gùj ibbrs.

O mhie"t gjje hg`j tb pdol dt but tmrbufm tmj wdeisorjje hei tmj n`hsmdef `dfmts# gut tmjrj whshotuh``y h rhd` `dej tmht rhe rdfmt ibwe tmrbufm tmj ibbrs. -mjy wjrj aust ebw gholdef up hgbxohr tb tmj ibol. -mj jefdej tmjy wjrj usdef whs sbkj ldei bn j`jotrdo# O spbttji tmht hssbbe hs O o`dkgji but ky ibbr be tmj irdvjr"s sdij. Ot whs sd`jet# hei ebt h stdtom bn jxmhust. Otkbvji tmj sd3jhg`j gbxohr wdtm swdnt jnndodjeoy. O tbbl h stjp hrbuei tmj ajjp hei hs sbbe hs Owhs o`jhr O nj`t tmj slde be ky nbrjhrks orhw` wdtm jejrfy. -mht `dtt`j rdef hrbuei ky hel`jstmht tbì kj O whs de tmj prjsjeoj bn h mjhvy j`jotrbkhfejt pdeomji up tdfmt. 8y tmrbhto`jeomji.

&;mht ds tmht#) O hslji ;jeij``. &* khfejtdo trhdeA)

;jeij`` `bblji ibwe ht kj hei skd`ji. Ot whs h strhefj# h`kbst phtrdhromh` skd`j# hs tmbufmmj wjrj khey yjhrs ky sjedbr hei O mhi ibej mdk prbui.

&Ot ds#) mj hivdsji kj. &bu hrj hgsbùtj`y rdfmt.)

O wmdst`ji# wh`ldef hs o`bsj tb tmj grdfmt yj``bw jefdej hs O obuì wdtmbut ky gbiy ordol`defwdtm tbb kuom pbtjetdh`. O nj`t ky ùefs whet tb o`bsj up# hei O stbppji# tbbl h stjp ghol hstmj jefdej o`bsji tmj rjkhdedef idstheoj gjtwjje dtsj`n hei kj. O tbbl h kbkjet tb `bbl httmj gbxohr.

Ot whs th``# nhr th``jr tmhe sjjkji shnj nbr tmj tmde rhd` bn tmj `dej. 'ut tmht khij sjesj# idie"t dt#dn ybu wjrje"t rj`ydef be h tru`y khi obkgdehtdbe bn frhvdty# dejrtdh hei smjjr futs tb pu`` yburohrfb ibwe tmj `dej. Ot whs khij bn sbkj ldei bn smdey kjth`. Srbghg`y hùkdeuk# gut dt whstmdol hei iurhg`j `dlj stjj`. -mbsj brhefj aukpsudts sthrtji pholdef gbxjs detb dt hs sbbe hstmj jefdej stbppji.

-b ky surprdsj# hebtmjr `dtt`j ijvdoj ohkj sobbtdef ibwe tmj trhols hei wjet nrbk nu`` spjjitb stbppji de hgbut sdx njjt. Ot ohkj tb h rjst hgbut mh`n h nbbt nrbk tmj jefdej. 8y jyjgrbwso`dkgji. -mds whs nuturdstdo smdt tmjy mhi ibwe mjrj. Oe spdtj bn tmj whredef gj``s tmht tmjndgrjs bn ky gjdef mhi gjstbwji upbe kj# tmj jefdejjr de kj whs ij`dfmtji. -mj nhots tmhttmj khfejtdos bn tmj trhol nj`t `dlj ijhtm hei tmj jetdrj kustjr hrjh whs o`bhlji de tmht shkjiu``# nbrjgbidef ibbk tmht mhi sjtt`ji be 'd``y hei whs frbuei detb bur irdvjr nhiji de kykdei.

* 0jejrh` fbt but bn tmj `dtt`j sobbthgbut# hs O mhi h`rjhiy obkj tb oh`` dt. 5j mhi mds mht de mds


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mhei hei mj put dt be mds mjhi wdtm prhotdsji kbtdbe. 5j strbij horbss tmj `bhidef ghy heimbppji ibwe tmj stjps. 5j whs ebt hnnjotji gy tmj iu``# bpprjssdvj n`hvbr bn tmj wbrì ueijrtmj kbuethde. 8y mjhrt bpjeji h gdt kbrj. Sjrmhps ebt jvjrybej wbuì suooukg tb tmjg`jhlejss bn tmj p`hojA -mds 0jejrh` mhi h sprdef de mds stjp# surj`y.

O `bblji ht mds nhoj# mbwjvjr# hs mj khij mds why bvjr tb us. 5j whs skd`def# ht kj kbst`y#

mds jyjs `bolji be ky bwe. *ey tmbufmt O mhi tmht khygj tmds p`hoj whs be`y nbr tmj grhvj#br tmj vdsdbehry# jvhpbrhtji. -mjrj whs ebtmdef ht h`` de mds jyjs tmht advvji wdtm tmj ahuetykbvjkjets O mhi sjje. -mjy wjrj he hot# hs prhotdsji hs heytmdef 0defjr Kbfjrs hei %rji

*sthdrj jvjr ijvdsji. -mjy# `dlj mds dkkhou`htj uednbrk hei smdey# khedourji ehd`s# wjrjijsdfeji tb irhw ky hnnjotdbe hntjr tmj idsturgdef jetry detb tmj sugtjrrhejhe. -mjy wjrj hrji mjrrdef bn ebrkh` de tmds upsdij ibwe wbrì. O whs tb o`jhvj tb tmjk# hei tb tmds khesthrdef tbb mhri rdfmt ht kj hs mj hpprbhomji. 8y guiiy. 8y nrdjei. * ldeirji spdrdt ibwemjrj de tmj ihrl.

y (dffjst jejky# O tmbufmt tb kysj`n hs O `bblji detb tmbsj jyjs. -mjy wjrj g`hol# pjrmhpsid`htji nrbk tmj idkejss bn mds ohrrdjr# pjrmhps ihrljeji gy sbkjtmdef j`sj. 'y sbkjtmdefibwe mjrj. O obuì sjj hs mj o`bsji tmj rjkhdedef idstheoj gjtwjje us tmht tmjy wjrjtjomedoh``y frjy# gut tmjy wjrj aust... ihrl. '`hol. Ot `bblji nrbk jvje h kdii`j idstheoj hstmbufm mds jyjs wjrj h`` pupd`. *ei tmjy ejvjr g`delji.

5ds nhoj whs omdsj`ji `dlj h 0jejrh`"s smbuì gj# gut mds slde whs wjhtmjrji de h`` tmj wrbefwhys. -mdol `dlj tmj ijjp ghsj 8.Ss slde# `dlj h obw mdij destjhi bn mukhe slde. Ihrlgrbwedsm purp`j nrbk h`` tmj vjeubus g`bbi de dt. !dsdg`j jvje ueijr mds the. 5ds njhturjs wjrjbnn# tbb, ebsj tbb pdeomji hei mhwl`dlj# omde h `dtt`j orbblji# grbw rdifjs... tmjy wjrjorbblji# tbb. 5ds jyjs wjrj idnnjrjet mjdfmts be mds nhoj# `dlj mj mhi mhi tmj `dvdef smdtpbueiji but bn mdk hei tmje sbkj vjry ijojet ibotbrs mhi put mdk ghol tbfjtmjr. Ebt `dlj hkhsl# gut `dlj h nhoj tmht mhi gjje rjobestruotji hs gjst tmjy obuì.

O obuì sjj eb sohrs be tmj tmdol# rbufm slde# gut tmht"s wmht mds uetrustwbrtmy vdshfj khijkj tmdel. Kjobestruotji. >jbestdtutji 6jejrh`,O tmbufmt.Hei mj !hets tb (j ky s?jdh`(uiiy.

&;jòbkj tb 'ùj 'hsj# 8r. _thrl#) tmj 0jejrh` wjòbkji kj wdtm butstrjtomji mhei. 5jmhi h ;jst Sbdet rdef be mds ndefjr. 5ds vbdoj mhi tmht shkj rjh``y ijjp# musly tbej# tmdol bnsy``hg`j# tmht tmj ijjp ghsj 8.Ss mhi. @dlj h mjhvywjdfmt gbxjr# br h strjjt tmuf. 'df# gdfvbdojgbx# `hrfj# `hrfj ùef ohphodty. *ei tbb kuom kuso`j de tmj tbefuj hei tmj ahw tb gjijnt jebufm tb khlj tmj wbris obkj but wdtm rjhsbehg`j h`hordty.

&O"k 0jejrh` ;h``hoj#) mj hiiji. &Idrjotbr bn pjrhtdbes be tmds ghsj.)

O smbbl mds mhei wdtm wmht O mbpji whs `jss mjsdthtdbe tmhe O nj`t. O bnnjrji mdk ky gjstomhrkdef skd`j# hei trdji tb `jt mdk lebw wdtm ky jyjs tmht 8r. $mhrk whs ebw ky supjrguiiy# tmht mds p`he whs wbrldef. &S`jhsji tb kjjtomh# 0jejrh`#) O tbì mdk. &;mht ohe O ibnbr ybu tbihyA)

&;h`l wdtm kj#) mj shdi# hei O 6udrlji ky mjhi tb tmj sdij. -wb bn tmbsj de bej ihy# de bejmbur. ;j``# tmht whs strhefj# whse"t dt# O rjkhrlji. -mj nd`j khrlji# $br @htjr,whs frbwdef6udol`y. O idi hs mj shdi hei wh`lji gjsdij mdk. 5j whs thldef kj up tmj ibol stjps hei


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tbwhri tmj `dtt`j sobbthgbut. 8y ndefjrs hei tbjs wjrj tdef`def `dlj O mhi nh``je hs`jjp be tmjkhei tmjy wjrj aust whldef up. O whse"t ojrthde O obuì frhg sbkjtmdef wdtm rj`dhgd`dty ht tmjkbkjet. O wbuì mhvj tb trhde kysj`n tb ib tmdefs de tmds strbef j`jotrbkhfejtdo ndjì#hpphrjet`y.

-mj 0jejrh` tureji hei vjry ij`dgjrhtj`y g`bolji tmj ibbr tb tmj orhnt mj mhi# aust h kbkjet

gjnbrj# gjje pbdetji`y wh`ldef kj tbwhri. O stbppji# trdji tb `bbl di`y ht mdk# kdì ourdbsdty#eb kbrj. :b ebt (jtrhy hey strbef jkbtdbe ht tmds ?bdet# O whreji kysj`n.

&O mjhr ybu"rj h vjry fdntji khe wmje dt obkjs tb obeejotdef tmj ibts#) 0jejrh` ;h``hojdenbrkji kj.

O trdji ky gjst tb `bbl ebeomh`het. 5ds wbris# wmd`j ij`dvjrji hs h obkp`dkjet# mhi o`jhr`ygjje ombsje nbr tmj bkdebus ueijrtbejs tmjy obuì dkp`y. O whs tbb de tmj tmdol bn tmdefs tbgj thlje be h fdhet odro`j ajrl strhdfmt tb stbolhij# sb mj whs aust trydef tb uesjht kj. O fhvjh smruf# h sj`n+jnnhodef skd`j.

&bu fbt sbkj ibtsA) O hslji# kjjtdef mds fh3j.

-mj 0jejrh` fhvj h mjhrty# ghrldef `hufm tmht sthrtji tbb sbbe hei jeiji hgrupt`y. Otrjkdeiji kj bn mds `dtt`j sobbthgbut# rboljtdef but bn tmj gùj ghy ibbrs hei stbppdef be hedolj`+ be mh`n h idkj.

&js# O ojrthde`y ib# sbe#) mj tbì kj# hei usmjrji kj detb mds vjmdo`j. O trdji tb obvjr ky fu`phs O iuolji ky mjhi detb tmj skh`` ibbrwhy hei sht ibwe.

Ot whs rjkhrlhg`y rbbky desdij nbr dts butjr idkjesdbe. * wj``+ijsdfeji# jrfbebkdo sphoj. Otobuì sjht nbur# hei hntjr h kdeutj# ;jeij`` 5bwj`` abdeji us. 5j sht# uesurprdsdef`y# gy tmj0jejrh`. -mj ibbr jhsji detb p`hoj hutbkhtdoh``y.

&bu sjj#) tmj 0jejrh` tbì kj hs O nj`t tmj khfejtdo tbr6uj rhkp up. O nj`t hs tmbufm tmj tbp`hyjr bn ky slde whs gjdef pjj`ji bnn gy tmj nbroj bn dt. Ebtmdef O obuì ib ebw# sb O nbousjidestjhi be tmj vjrgh` jefhfjkjet de nrbet bn kj.

&;j"vj fbt sbkj bn tmjsj `dtt`j mb`js de tmj wh`` h`` bvjr# hei wj ejji tb ndei h why tb obeejottmjk h`` up.) 5j hei ;jeij`` sthrji ht kj# ;h``hoj wdtm tmht pjejtrhtdef fh3j# ;jeij`` wdtmh nhrhwhy bej. -mj obkgdehtdbe whs sbkjwmht idsobeojrtdef. Ot sjjkji hs tmbufm O whs htbeoj suprjkj`y idsdetjrjstdef hei prbvbohtdvj`y nhsodehtdef ht tmj shkj tdkj. O dfebrji tmdsjnnjot hei nbousji# hfhde# be tmj pbdet tb tmj 0jejrh`"s vjd`ji wbris.

&_b ybu whet h tueej` nbr bej bn tmjsj ghgdjs#) O phttji tmj wh`` bn tmj vjmdo`j. Ot smuiijrjis`dfmt`y ueijr ky tbuom+ dt kust gj pbwjrdef up nbr thljbnn# br wmhtjvjr ybu"i oh`` dt. &;het tbgj hg`j tb kbvj tmdefs nrbk pbdet * tb pbdet ' usdef tmbsj mheiy kjth` gbxohrs# destjhi bn$+2:s br truols.)

-mj 0jejrh`"s rdfmt jyj twdtomji. 5j phusji# hei mds omuk`y nhohij nh`tjrji jvjr sb s`dfmt`y. Omhi mdt tmj ehd` idrjot`y be tmj mjhi# hei O whtomji wmht mhppjeji hs O idi sb. *e h`kbsto`hssdoh``y mukhe smhibw phssji bvjr mds nhoj+ mhi O gjje spydef be tmjkA Ot whsdkpbssdg`j# O shw mds grbw ueorjhsj hei orjhsj# tj``def kj tmht. ;mht whs O# jxhot`y# tmht O


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obuì rjgudì heodjet Kbkhe h6ujiuots hei khlj ueijrfrbuei strjhks n`bw hfhde wmjrjtmjy mhi ebt sdeoj tmj whr gjfheA _prdefdef nrbk ebtmdef kbrj tmhe iry jhrtmA ;mht whs Otmht O ndfurji tmds butA

-mje# hei tmds omd``ji kj kbrj tmhe heytmdef# mj idskdssji mds mukhe 6ujrydef. 5j o`dolji dthwhy nrbk mds kdei# ebt detb h nd`j khrlji $br @htjr# br jvje trbi ibwe detb mds sugobesodbus.

5j idsohriji dt hs drrj`jvhet# dkkhtjrdh` tb mds abg. *ei wmht O ohufmt but bn mds kdei whs tmjtru`y tjrrdnydef phrt. -mj ijthomji sobre tmht orbssji mds nhoj `dlj h nhst o`bui kbvdef bvjr tmjsue nrb3j kj obì. 5j idie"t ohrj wmht O whs tmht O obuì ndfurj tmds but hei ndx up tmht. 5j mhisjje h`` ldeis bn nrjhly smdt ibwe mjrj# hei mj lejw tmht dt obuì ib stunn mj obuìe"t pbssdg`ydkhfdej. 5j idie"t ejji tb dkhfdej dt+ gjohusj ebw mj mhi kj. *ei wmhtjvjr O whs tmht Oobuì surprdsj mdk kbkjethrd`y dt idie"t khttjr bej wmdt. O whs aust hebtmjr bn tmj hebkh`djstmht `dvji ibwe mjrj# wbrlji ibwe mjrj# ebw, nhethstdo nrjhls tmht khij up tmj tmdefs tmhtmhi oh``busji mds shedty tb tmj pbdet tmht jvjrytmdef hgbut mdk tmht whs ebrkh` whs nhlji.

-mht whs wbrsj. 'ut tmj wbrst tmdef whs tmht O ohufmt but bn mds jyjs o`jhr`y# hs o`jhr`y hs Ohk th`ldef tb ybu ebw# wmht `hgj` mj put be tmht sbrt bn nrjhl bn ehturj. 8hygj dt whs hrjsbeheoj jnnjot bn tmj khfejtdo ndjì tmht `jt kj pdol up mds tmbufmt# br put ky bwe detb 'd``y"mjhi jhr`djr. 8hygj dt whs tmj kbuethde# br khygj O whs aust sb orh3y nrjhlji but O whsohrjjedef wdì th`jets hgbut de he httjkpt tb fjt he jifj. 'ut rdfmt wmje mj idskdssji kj hshe deidvuh` mj mhi tb ljjp mds shedty dethot hrbuei# rdfmt hntjr mds nhoj n`dolji kj hwhy wdtmsobre# mds jyjs n`hsmji ht kj hei mj tmbufmt+

h`dje.

8y ghol whs orhw`def ebw# hei dt whs idnnjrjet nrbk tmj jnnjots bn tmj trhde. Ot whs tjrrbr. Orjh`d3ji tmht tmj ihrlejss O mhi sjje whs std`` `ydef gjnbrj kj# br rhtmjr# gjmdei ky ghol hs Osht de tmj rjhrwhri nhodef sjht bn tmj sobbthgbut. Ot whs std`` tmjrj# hei ky spjodh` guiiy0jejrh` ;h``hoj mhi aust put h ehkj tb tmj wrdtmdef kbestjrs de tmj ihrl. %`hsmjs bn obkdogbbls hei kbvdjs wmdr`ji tmrbufm ky mjhi. 8jth` kje wdtm `dfmts obkdef but bn tmjdr jyjs._trhefj ob`brji kje wdtm ijj`y gbppjrs be tmjdr mjhis. 8bestrbsdtdjs gjttjr rjprjsjetji wdtmh phdetgrusm hei del tmhe wdtm obstukj hei oj`ù`bsj. -mht whs wmht whs whdtdef nbr kjwmje tmds trhde fbt ueijrwhy.

_b wmy tmje idi mj oh`` kj tmj shkj hs tmjkA ;my idi mj `bbl ht kj `dlj O whs mh`n+orh3y#mh`n+usj`jss# h`` drrj`jvhetA

jhusj, iuk(hss,ky kdei omhstdsji kj#mj tmdels ybu=rj tmj shkj hs tmjk. 1bu he (btmib tmj tmdefs mj heebt bk?rjmjei. _b ybu hrj h`dje. &b mdk.

-mj ibbr swuef bpje s`bw`y. O wbeijrji nbr h kbkjet dn ky hgajot# sorjhkdef ohtjrwhu`deftjrrbr mhi smbrtji but tmj trhde.

*gsbùtj smbol kdef`ji wdtm 6uhd def idsphdr hs O shw tmht wj mhi hrrdvji ht h tbth``y idnnjrjetsthtdbe. -mj `bhidef ibol whs ebt khljsmdnt# ebr whs dt obevjetdbeh`. Ot whs sbkj ldei bnskbbtmji# mdfm`y kbìji obeorjtj br rbol hei whs phdetji wmdtj wdtm frjje. 'jybei tmj vjryswdsm p`htnbrk whs h sthdrwj``# hei h sjt bn obrrdibrs. _bkj pjbp`j de aukpsudts hei h njw dehrky hei hdrnbroj uednbrks wjrj wh`ldef gy be tmjdr rjfu`hr gusdejss.


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&;j"rj mjrj#) 0jejrh` ;h``hoj denbrkji kj wdtm h sbkjwmht vdodbus tbej de mds frhvj``yvbdoj. O mhi gjtrhyji kysj`n hei mj mhi sjje. O mhi eb dijh wj wjrj jvje kbvdef. 5dsfhkjs mhi wbe bvjr kj# hei ebw mj mhi h vjry gdf pdjoj bn tmj pu33`j tmht whs ky kdei.;mjrj ky wjhl spbts wjrj. O brdjetji ghsji be oujs bn tmj gjdefs hei struoturjs hrbueikj. -mht whs h `bt bn denbrkhtdbe tb aust nuoldef mhei bvjr tb h khe wmb tmbufmt bn ybu hssbkj h`dje pdjoj bn omhttj` br sbkj tmdef.

O tbbl hebtmjr `bbl but ht tmj p`htnbrk hfhde wmd`j ;jeij`` stbbi up hei khij mds why but.-mjrj whs eb pbdet tb mdidef ky gjih33`jkjet ht tmds, tmht oht whs h `bef whys but bn tmjghf.


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@jvj` _jvje'y !drfdedh $hrrhwhy _thrl

O rjkjkgjr tmdeldef h `bt bn tmdefs gut wmht O rjkjkgjr kbst whs tmdeldef bn ky nhtmjr heiwmht mj wbuì tmdel hei h ihrl 6udjt phrt bn ky kdei# tmj phrt tmht wbeijrs h`` ihrl tmbufmtshei prbtjots us nrbk gjtrhyh`# wbeijrdef dn mj mhi mhi sbkj skh`` phrt de ky hgiuotdbe.

5bw tb jxp`hde... mjrj"s ybur jxp`hehtdbe. 8y `dnj# ky hgiuotdbe hei ky "ijhtm" wjrj nuolji.-mjy std`` hrj. O"k ebt fbdef tb try tb rhtdbeh`d3j tb ybu. O ibe"t ejji tb jxp`hde tb ybu wmht hmbkueouùs ds# O ibe"t ejji tb jxp`hde mbw bej fdr` ohe mhvj khey phrjets. O ibe"t ejji tbjxp`hde heytmdef tb ybu br heybej. -mds ds tmj trutm hei eb khttjr mbw O austdny# jxp`hde#jiuohtj br kdtdfhtj# ybu hrje"t fbdef tb gj`djvj h wbri bn dt hei ybu"rj fbdef tb fjt dt h``wrbef.

O mhvj khey nhtmjrs# gut tmj nhtmjr O whs tmdeldef bn de phrtdou`hr de tmds ohsj mhi mj`pji tbpdbejjr tmj prbfrhk tmht O whs deiuotji detb detb wmht whs hgbut tb gj tmj mdfmjst# br rhtmjr#tmj `bwjst `jvj`s.

O whs gbuei# fhffji hei iruffji gut O whs hwhrj. O gure tmrbufm tmbsj omjkdoh`s 6udol`y# h``phrt bn tmj khfdo nrjhl smbw tmht ds kj.

-mjy mhi kj be h trb``jy ohrt de tmj j`jvhtbr. 2...4...F...>....C...'...+C...+>....+F...+4...+2#...+H...+=

-mj ibbrs bpjeji. 8y mheis wjrj wrhppji hrbuei kysj`n hei gbuei wdtm mjhvy `jhtmjrstrhps mbìdef tmj strhdfmt aholjt de p`hoj. -mjy wjrj thldef eb omheojs tmbufm# tmjy mhigbuei ky `jfs. O whs wrhppji up `dlj he (fyptdhe 8ukky hei ky g`hol mhdr# std`` skj``def bniyj nj`` horbss ky jyjs. Ot wbuì gj frbwe but hei ghol tb rji gy tmj tdkj O fbt but bn tmjrj.-mj frbwdef bn ky mhdr whs tmj be`y why O mhi tb tj`` tdkj hei dt dse"t hs hoourhtj hs h o`bol. O`jt ky mjhi `b`` nbrwhri wmje tmj j`jvhtbr ohkj tb h stbp. O mhi `jnt dt ghol tb try tb fjt he jyjnu`` bn wmjrj O whs fbdef gut ebw O mhi tb mdij tmj nhot tmht O whs hwhlj.

O whs de sbkj ghsjkjet wdef de `jvj` =. O idie"t ebw ht tmj tdkj wmht nhod`dty O whs de gut O"imjhr sbbe jebufm. ;mjrj idie"t khttjr. *`` tmht khttjrji ebw whs jsohpj. (sohpj hei p`hypbssuk uetd` O obuì. O mhi eb dijh mbw nuolji O rjh``y whs# dn O mhi lebwe wmht ohkj ejxt Owbuì mhvj gjje sorjhkdef hei ebt mhi ijùsdbes bn jsohpj. O fujss dt"s h`` tmj `jhredefourvj bn hey ejw tbrturj# dt wbuìe"t gj `bef gjnbrj O wbuì mjhr wmht dt whs oh``ji? Iuòj.

O `jt ky kuso`js fb `dkp. _thrtdef ht ky nhoj hei wbrldef ibwe ky ejol hei smbuìjrs# kyhrks hei mheis wjrj mhri. -mjy whetji tb rjsdst tmj sturiy oruj` strhps gut O khij tmjk`bbsje. *eybej wmb tbuomji kj mhi tb mhvj tmj dijh tmht O whs std`` ueobesodbus. O mhi tbobuet be tmjk `jttdef ibwe tmjdr fuhri br O wbuìe"t mhvj h omheoj de mj``. ;mdom whs nueeygjohusj 5j`` whs jxhot`y wmht tmjy h`` oh``ji tmj sjvjetm `jvj` de tmj ghsjkjet de Iuòj.

-mjy sthrtji tb `bbsje tmj ohrfb strhps tmht mjì kj tb tmj mhei trb``y. 8y rj`hxji gbiy s`dihs tmjy sthrtji tb uegdei kj hei O wbeijrji dn O whs hgbut tb mhvj h mhri `heidef gut `jtkysj`n sthy `dkp h`` tmj shkj. 5heis stbppji kj gjnbrj O mdt tmj frbuei. -mjy frhggji kj gytmj `jhtmjr strhps tmht wjet hrbuei kj hgbvj kj grjhsts hei iruf kj sb ky `jfs wjrj std``strhdfmt. O tmbufmt eb tmbufmt# be`y stjh`def h pjjl br twb bn wmjrj O whs wdtm tmj kjrjst


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f`dkkjr bn h s`dt bn ky jyj bpje nrbk ueijr ky mhdr smrbuiji nhoj.

&_mj"s std`` but obì#) _hdi h rbufm vbdoj.

&Ejvjr hssukj tmht ybu hss br ybu"`` fjt wmht ybu ijsjrvj bej ihy hei jei up de bej bn tmjfbbp gdes#) -mj btmjr vbdoj whs obì hei iry. Oemukhe.

O nj`t h ejji`j s`dij tmrbufm tmj ohevhs hei detb ky hrk. -mj pùefjr pusmji O nj`t hsugstheoj stdef ky vjdes hei idssdphtj up tmrbufm kj hrk hei ibwe tb ky ndefjrs hei tmjeh ijjp sjesj bn sùkgjr ohkj bvjr kj. O struff`ji hfhdest dt. O mhi tb rjkjkgjr wmjrj tmjytbbl kj.

_thydef hwhlj whs tbrturj de dtsj`n. _`jjp ijprdvhtdbe# tmj wbrì spdeedef hei tmjy `dntji kjup betb h mbspdth` sty`j gji. 8brj strhps tb tdj ibwe tmj strhps tmht mjì kj.

Kbufm vbdoj spblj hfhde# &;j``# smj"s h ndfmtjr sb O ibe"t g`hkj ybu nbr gjdef ohrjnu`.)

$bb` hei iry rjp`dji# &O sjj ybur nhoj dse"t `bbldef sb prjtty#


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mhppjeji tmje mhppjeji ebw# O wbuìe"t mjsdthtj hei O wbuì khlj surj tmht h`` bn tmbsjkje mhi gjje ijhi br tmjy wbuì mhvj mhi tb ld`` kj tb shvj tmjksj`vjs. O `jhreji tb ejvjrjvjr jvjr stbp.

-mjy deorjhsji tmjdr fhdt tb ohtom up wdtm ky `bef gut uemurrdji strdijs hei surrbueiji kj#tmjdr `jhijr# O tmdel bej bn tmjk oh``ji mdk Kbfjr# stbbi de nrbet bn kj be tmj sdijwh`l. O tbbl

h sdij stjp tb fb hrbuei mdk# O whs `bbldef up ebw# khldef jyj obethot wdtm mdk.

O whetji mdk tb lebw tmht O mhi sjje mds nhoj# tmht ky jyjs wjrj uehnrhdi hei kbst bn h`` tmhtO whse"t prjy hei tmht O wbuì nuol mdk up. _jj ky jyjs, D=`` fjt ybu ht `jhst hs ybu fjt kj, Oshdi wdtm ky fh3j. O shw sbkjtmdef j`sj de mds jyjs tmbufm. 5j whse"t h rue+bn+tmj+kd``prjihtbr wmb whetji ohsm hei h fdr` mj obuì frhg gy tmj mhdr hei irhf gjmdei tmj gusm nbrsbkj bn tmj "bì de+but# de+but" tb 6ubtjH `bl!brl 0rhefj. -mds whs ebt sbkj irbbf# tmdswhs h khe be h kdssdbe.

O whs ijnjesdvj jvje hs h prjihtbr# ebw O wbuì lebw gjttjr hei wbuìe"t mhvj fdvje tmjk homheoj tb khlj tmj ndrst kbvj.

O tbbl h stjp tb tmj btmjr sdij# tmj btmjr wjrj o`bsdef de# Kbfjr# O tmdel mds ehkj whs Kbfjrshdi# &5jy swjjtmjhrt# wj aust whet tb th`l tb ybu# ibe"t khlj tmds mhri.)

&bu ibe"t `bbl `dlj sbkjbej O whet tb th`l tb# gut tj`` ybu wmht# oh`` ky sjorjthry hei khygj Oohe ndt ybu de tbkbrrbw.)

&bu ibe"t wheeh fjt skhrt wdtm kj#) 5j shdi hei O shw tmj gu`fj bn h fue wmje mj put mdsmheis be mds mdps tb sp`hy mds `jhtmjr obht bpje hei smbw tmj mheifue tmht rjstji tmjrj.

O ojhsji h`` tmdeldef prbojss hei `jt ky gbiy nh`` detb ndfmt kbij. 8y mjhvy stuiiji pursj mdtKbfjr nu`` be de tmj nhoj# leboldef mdk grdjn`y but bn ky phtm. O sthrtji tb rue hei nj`t sbkjbejfrhg kj gy tmj ghol bn ky aholjt# thef`def wdtm ky ejw`y g`hol mhdr de tmjdr rbufm ndefjrs. Ospue hei ahggji tmj `jttjr bpjejr detb tmj fuy wmb mhi frhggji kj gy tmj tmrbht hei tbrjibwewhri. 5j `bblji gjwdìjrji hei `jt fb bn kj tb frhg mds hrtjrdh` sprhydef ejol. O lejwebw tmht O mhi whdtji tbb `bef# tmj g`hol mhdr# tmj omhefj de o`btmjs# dt mhi h`` obkj tbb `htj. Omhi gjje de tmjdr sdtjs tbb `bef.

ej bn tmj btmjrs rhe tb mj`p mds nrdjei wmb mhi nh``je tb tmj frbuei. Kbfjr mhi gjje sprhyjigy tmj iydef khe"s g`bbi hei bej lebol nrbk ky pursj mhie"t ibej kuom tb s`bw mdk ibwe.Kbufm !bdoj


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hs sbbe hs mj whs tureji tb kj hei mj jeiji up de tmj gusmjs.

@jhijr ohkj ht kj hfhde# O mhi `bst tmj `jttjr bpjejr# O tmdel dt whs wmje O smji ky aholjt#gut tmht phrt ds g`urry. O lejw tmht jxojpt nbr ky ljys O mhi `bst ky `dfmt obht hei be`y mhi hthel tbp hei grh ueijrejhtm. O mhi eb kbrj hrkbr# ebt kuom heywhy. O mhi eb obeojre hgbut`bsdef ky thel tbp dn dt kjhet wrdff`def nrjj jvje nbr bej kbrj kdeutj. Kbfjr `bblji `dlj mj

kjhet gusdejss ebw. 5ds jhr whs irdppdef g`bbi# O mhie"t khehfji tb khlj mdk `bsj hey bntmj n`jsmy gdts# gut dt whse"t jxhot`y h`` tmj why htthomji heykbrj.

O rhe# tureji tb


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dt `hgbrdbus aburejy up tmj md``. O mjhri fue ndrj tmje hei nj`t sbkjtmdef# `dlj h whsp stdelguredef ky ehlji smbuìjr. O lejw dn O put h mhei tmjrj tmht O wbuì gj g`jjidef gut smbuìjrwbueis ibe"t obuet nbr kuom. Ebt ht tmj tdkj# heywhy. O mjhri ohr ibbrs s`hk hei tdrjss6ujh`def de h u+ture.

*mjhi bn kj whs h phrtdh` omhde del njeoj hntjr h skh`` ndjì# dn O obuì fjt phst tmjrj# -mjy

wbuìe"t gj hg`j tb nb``bw kj de tmjdr g`hol sjihe. -mj frbuei whs tbb grblje up hntjr tmhthei tmje tmjrj wjrj gudìdef# obevjedjeoj stbrjs# sbkjbej# heybej tb mj`p h ihksj` deidstrjss. -mj ohr ahkkji detb tmj ghr mbìdef tmj ejhr sdij bn tmj omhde `del njeoj wmjrj O mhip`heeji tb sldrt hrbuei dt hei detb tmj `jss tmhe mbspdthg`j tb ohrs grblje up ndjì.

8y phtm g`bolji. Eb bej hrbuei. -mj kje pburji but bn tmj ohr# wj wjrj de h sjkd+deiustrdh`hrjh hei tmjrj whse"t heybej hrbuei ht tmds tdkj bn ihy. O sthrtji tb sorjhk nbr mj`p heywhy.&KhpjM) O sorjhkji# &_bkjbej mj`p kjM KhpjM)

-mjy wjrj ht o`bsj rhefj ebw# &_hy tmht bej kbrj tdkj hei O"`` fdvj ybu sbkjtmdef tb sorjhkrhpj hgbut hntjr O ahk ky fue de ky kbutm tb ljjp ybu tmj nuol 6udjt.)

O o`bsji ky kbutm hei stbbi tmjrj de tmj mjhi`dfmts bn tmj ohr. 'ueom bn kbbls de g`hol`jhtmjr# tmjrj wjrj sjvje bn tmjk hei bej bn kj# O shw sjvjrh` fues pbdetji ht kj.

&Irbp ybur wjhpbe hei put up ybur mheis#) Irdvjr shdi.

O skdrlji de tmj mjhi`dfmts hei irbppji ky ljys tb tmj frhss hei frhvj` ht ky njjt. buwbuì mhvj tmbufmt dt whs h fbiihk gh3bblh tmht O mhi irbppji destjhi bn ky ljys tmj whytmbsj kje swhrkji hrbuei kj hntjr O irbppji tmjk. -mht wbuì gj tmj `hst tdkj O"i gjfrdeedef nbr hwmd`j gut dt whs h p`jhshet tmdef tb tmdel bn# sjvje gdf kje hnrhdi bn h fdr` austorjstdef ndvj njjt hrkji wdtm mjr mbusj ljys.

-mjy wjrje"t fjet`j. -mjy wjrje"t oruj` jdtmjr hei Irdvjr idie"t khlj fbbi be mds tmrjhts sb Ofujss tmht"s h ohsj nbr omh`ldef bej up nbr tmj fbbi fuys. -mjy wjrj h`` gusdejss hei Owdsmji tmht dt obuì mhvj gjje h 6udol fhef# "mbw"s ybur nhtmjr". -mjsj kje wjrje"t hntjr sjx#tmjy wjrj hntjr kj. -mds whs kuom wbrsj.

(nndodjet`y tmjy frhggji kj# ounnji kj hei tmje O nj`t tmj gdtj bn h syrdefj de ky ejol. Otmbufmt# De ky "uldef ejl# ;bt bb`, iuij.

O whs ghrj`y obesodbus wmje tmjy mhi put tmj strhdfmt aholjt be hei O ibe"t rjkjkgjr tmjkgdeidef ky `jfs. O wblj up grdjn`y aust gjnbrj tmjy s`hkkji tmj truel smut be kj. Orjkjkgjrji tmdeldef tmht tmjy kust"vj gjje pd`ji de tmht vjmdo`j `dlj dt whs h o`bwe ohr tb ndttmbsj sjvje mjhvy+sjts detb h kdi+sd3ji sjihe.

O mhi wblje up hfhde wmje tmjy wjrj strhppdef kj tb tmj trb``jy. -mj mhei trb``jy whs de tmjghol bn tmj ohr wdtm kj. Ot whs brhefj hei mhi omdps bn phdet thlje but bn dt jxpbsdef tmjrjiidsm kjth` ueijrejhtm. O fujss tmjy idi tmds h `bt tmje# br khygj tmjy aust mhi h `bt bnorhtjs tb kbvj hei tydef h fdr` tb dt whs h spjodh` boohsdbe. O ejvjr shw hey bn tmjk hfhde tbhsl. O idi mbwjvjr# lebw tmht dt whse"t h vjry obknbrthg`j tmdef tb spjei tdkj de h truel wdtmhei ky ejol hei ghol wjrj stdnn hs mj``.


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eoj O whs strhppji tb tmj furejy O trdji tb ljjp trhol bn tmj twdsts hei tures gut tmj irufswjrj wbrldef hei tmjy ib wbrl be kj. O aust mhvj he hivhethfj# he hivhethfj tmht $bb` heiIry whs o`jhr`y hwhrj bn. O obuìe"t rjkjkgjr rdfmt tb `jnt hei nj`` hs`jjp. O obuì mjhrsorjhks. _orjhks hei sorjhks# tmj mbw`s bn tmj ihkeji. $rdjs bn tbrturj# tmj 3hp bnj`jotrdodty hei tmj stjeom bn ijhtm hei ijohy. 'uredef mhdr hei n`jsm. ;mdkpjrs bn tmdefs# ebt6udtj mukhe tmdefs tmht wjrj de obesthet phde. -mbsj wjrj tmj tmdefs O rjkjkgjrji hs O

nhiji de hei but# ebt mbw khey tures wj mhi khij. -mht hei tmdeldef tmht tmj wbri# "furejy"whs suom he uf`y wbri.

-mj furejy whs pusmji detb h rbbk. * obeorjtj rbbk wdtm h stjj` ibbr. ;dtmbut ojrjkbeytmjy `jnt hei O nj`` hs`jjp. O nj`` hs`jjp hei whs f`hi aust nbr tmj rjspdtj. O idie"t tmdel heytmdefj`sj.

;mje O wblj up O whs kbkjethrd`y idsbrdjetji hei tmje wmje O struff`ji be tmj furejy tb sdtup hei nbuei O whs std`` de tmj strhdfmt aholjt hei ndrk`y heombrji de h`` idrjotdbes O mhi hkbkjet bn uttjr phedo. O whetji tb sorjhk nbr mj`p. 8y mheis hei njjt wjrj obì hei eukghei ky `jfs hei hrks murt nrbk tmj `bef dkkbgd`dty.

O idie"t sorjhk. O idie"t sorjhk. O whetji tb sorjhk gut O idie"t sorjhk. -mht whs wmht tmjywhetji hei tmje wmhtA -mje wmht deijjiA

O oh`kji kysj`n gy obuetdef# ndrst aust eukgjrs hei tmje hs O wblj up kbrj O obuetji orholsde tmj ojkjet ojd`def# tmj be`y tmdef O obuì sjj bn tmj rbbk whs tmj ojd`def hei tbp obrejrs bntmj wh``s.

@j'j` 5.O rjkjkgjrji. -mht"s wmjrj O whs. O whs mjrj hei eb bej lejw dt. O whs `bst tb tmjwbrì hei ht tmj kjroy bn wmbjvjr# br !mhtj'jr, ky trhdtbr kdei wmdspjrji tb kj# ohkjtmrbufm tmj ibbr.

O obuì sjj tmht tmjrj whs h ohkjrh whtomdef kj. O obuì hssukj tmjrj whs h kdorbpmbej bedt. O obuì hssukj tmht# dn tmjy ohrji# tmht tmjy lejw O whs hwhlj hei wjrj whdtdef nbr kj tbgrjhl. -mjy wbuì whet kj tb phedo# tb sorjhk. 8hygj bej bn tmjk wbuì gj ky mjrb heiobkj hei uetdj kj hei sbbtmj kj hei tj`` kj tmht dn O aust idi wmht mj shdi mj obuì prbtjotkj nrbk tmds sbrt bn trjhtkjet. ;mht fbbi nrdjeis tmj twb bn us wbuì gj.

8y kbutm whs phromji hei iry. O idie"t jvje lebw dn O obuì sorjhk dt nj`t `dlj ky tmrbht wbuìorhol bpje wdtm iryejss. eoj ebtdoji tmj tmdrst obesukji h`` ky obeojetrhtdbe.

O trdji tb nbous be tmj jvjets bn tmj prjvdbus edfmt. ;mht mhi mhppjeji. O o`bsji ky jyjs heigrbufmt tmj kjkbry ghol. O grbufmt tmjdr nhojs ghol. O grbufmt jhom kbvjkjet ghol. ;mhtobuì O mhvj ibej idnnjrjet`yA 5bw obuì O mhvj ijnjhtji tmjkA -ry hs O obuì# O obuìe"t sjjwmht O obuì mhvj ibej idnnjrjet`y jxojpt tb ebt mhvj fbej but. ;mht whs O fbdef but nbrA Oobuìe"t rjkjkgjr tmht phrt. Ot whs s6udsmji hfhdest ky ejji nbr h irdel.

;mht mhppjeji ejxtA 5hvj ybu jvjr gjje detjrrbfhtji hei ebt lebwe wmht ybu wjrj gjdefdetjrrbfhtji hgbutA Ot whs tmht# dt whs sb kuom wbrsj tbb.

8y kjkbry nh`tjrs de hei but mjrj. * th``# frhy h`dje wdtm g`hol guf jyjs ohkj hei fhvj kj hirdel. -mj whtjr whs gdttjr gut O irhel dt. 5j tbuomji ky mhdr# ky nhoj# tmj phrt bn ky ejol


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tmht whs jxpbsji wdtm mds `bef# n`jsmy ndefjrs. 5j hslji kj de ky kdei ky ehkj hei tmjewmje O idie"t supp`y dt nhst jebufm mj pu``ji dt but bn ky kdei wdtm h ùromdef ajrl de ky mjhitmht murt kbrj tmhe tmj uetjeiji gu``jt wbuei be ky smbuìjr.

O ordji but hei s6ujj3ji ky jyjs smut.

Hrj ybu std`` tmdrsty, kjht (hf#, 5j9Ot hslji.

&js# p`jhsj# whtjr.)

:be=t usj ybur "d`tmy kbutm tb s?jhl !dtm. Ots vbdoj whs nd``ji wdtm idsfust. Ot `jnt hei O mjhritmj sbuei bn whtjr rueedef# tmjrj whs h sdel de tmj rbbk# tmje. -mht whs fbbi. On O obuì fjttmjk tb uetdj kj O obuì mhvj whtjr.

D$ !j uetdj ybu,Ot rjkdeiji kj wdtm wmht obuì be`y gj oh``ji h kjeth` skdrl. utwhri`y Ot"snhoj whs jxprjssdbe`jss. Ot whs `dlj trydef tb detjrprjt tmj njj`defs bn h n`y br he het gy `bbldefht tmjdr nhojs.

Ot fhvj kj kbrj whtjr. -mds whtjr whs `jss gdttjr gut thstji `dlj drbe pdpdef.

Ot stbbi hei whtomji kj hei tmje dt `dntji dts mjhi. Ot mhi twb skh`` mb`js de dts nhoj tmht dt whssojetdef tmj hdr wdtm. Ot kbvji tbwhris kj hei O nj`t dts skh``# tbbtm`jss kbutm njj`def h`befky slde. O wbuì mhvj pu``ji hwhy tmje dn O obuì mhvj# gut O obuìe"t sb O aust grjhtmji de heibut# de hei but. Ots kbutm nbuei tmj gu``jt wbuei hei O nj`t h rbufm tbefuj `hppdef up tmjg`bbi hei p`hskh tmht mhi obvjrji dt.-mds sjjkji tb fb be nbrjvjr gut suom uep`jhshet pmysdoh` tmdefs ohe thlj h smbrt pjrdbi bntdkj hei wdtmbut h o`bol ohe sjjk `dlj mburs. Ot whs h mbrrdg`j vdb`htdbe gut tmjrj whs ebjsohpj# O obuetji typjs bn ob`brs de ky kdei# h3urj# hkjtmyst# shnnrbe# yj``bw# suesmdej#wmdtj# orjhk# dvbry...

O mypebtd3ji kysj`n hwhy hei `jt mdk ib wmht mj whetji tb ib. Ot whs eb idnnjrjet tmhe heybtmjr uep`jhshet thsl. Ot std`` `jnt h nd`tmy njj` hei O mhtji jvjry sjobei bn dt. O tmbufmt bn p`hydefde tmj mhy gh`js hs h omdì. O tmbufmt bn p`hydef "aukp" nrbk bej kbeb`dtmdo gh`j tb hebtmjr. Otmbufmt bn ky grbtmjr `hufmdef hei oh``def kj h sohrjiy oht wmje O mjsdthtji ebt nhdr# mj whsth``jr tmhe kj# mj mhi `befjr `jfsJ hei tmje aukpdef hei khldef dt hei tmj oh`` bnfrhssmbppjrs hei tmj sbkjmbw swjjt hei ebt uep`jhshet skj`` bn smjjp iuef.

*ntjr mj whs ibej mj stbbi hei whtomji kj. O nj`t idrty hei tmje# jvje strbefjr tmhe gjnbrj# Onj`t Ot idffdef tmrbufm ky kdei. (vje tmbufm O obuì tj`` dt whs rjhidef ky kdei# be`y n`hsmjsbn tmbufmt ohkj tb kdei nbr kj hei O idie"t lebw wmht Ot whetji tb lebw hgbut mbw O mhi hp`hyji de ky grbtmjr"s trjj mbusj br wmht O tmbufmt bn ky mdfm sombb` gdb`bfy tjhomjr. 8hygjdt `jhreji jvjrytmdef dt ejjiji tb rdfmt tmjrj hei h`` tmj rjst whs wdeibw irjssdef. O ibe"tlebw gjohusj mj`` ds tmj p`hoj wmjrj ebtmdef ds jvjr jxp`hdeji tb ybu hei jhom ebw mbrrbrobkjs wdtmbut ueijrstheidef. ;mht wd`` mhppje ejxtA ;mht idi O ib tb ijsjrvj tmds ejwphdeA Ot wbuì ejvjr gj jxp`hdeji# be`y jeiurji hei jeiurji.

O rjp`hyji tmj sojej be tmj mhy gh`js# p`hydef thf. -mj skj`` bn tmj iry mhy tmj swjjtjstskj`` de tmj wbrì hei iheij`dbe hei pbp`hr sjjis n`bhtdef tmrbufm tmj hdr.


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-mj tmdef `jnt hei hntjr hwmd`j h mukhe ohkj de. Idi tmj kbestjr fjt wmht mj whetji nrbk kykdeiA 5bw tb tj`` wmje tmjdr kbtdvjs wjrj `dlj tmjk? h`dje. -mds ejw mukhe `bblji `dlj hrjfu`hr pjrsbe# ebt sbkj tmuf# mj rj`jhsji tmj strhps tmht mj`i kj tb tmj furejy hei tmje`bblji ht kj ohrjnu``y hei spblj s`bw`y hs tmbufm O khy ebt ueijrsthei (ef`dsm br jvjespjjom vjry wj``.

&On O uetdj ybu# wd`` ybu gj h fbbi fdr` nbr kjA Eb murtdefA


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grh# smbjs# sbols# phets hei ueijrwjhr# h`whys hvjrtdef mds jyjs nrbk ky jyjs hei kygbiy. *`whys trjhtdef kj `dlj h tmdel hei ebt h wbkhe.

5j tdji tmj fbwe nbr kj. -mjrj whs eb oruj`ty de mdk hgbut dt. 5j mj`pji kj wdtm tmj rbgjhei tmj phpjr sbols. 5j tureji tb fb.

O oh``ji but tb mdk# ky vbdoj whs std`` orholdef wdtm tmdrst# &S`jhsj# O"k obì hei tmdrsty.)

5j sdfmji hei ruggji mds tjkp`js. 5j mhi put ky o`btmdef be tmj furejy h`bef wdtm tmjstrhdfmt aholjt hei btmjr strhps. 5j pburji kj h phpjr oup bn whtjr hei ohrjnu``y mj`pji kjtb irdel wmje mj shw tmht O obuìe"t khlj ky ndefjrs wbrl tb mbì dt.

&_bkjbej j`sj wd`` ijodij dn ybu fjt h g`heljt.)

O whs nrjj3def# gbtm nrbk tmj omd`` jkhehtdef nrbk tmj ojkjet hei tmj smbol# &S`jhsj# mj`pkj#) O gjffji.

5j f`heoji beoj# surrjptdtdbus`y hei 6udol`y ht tmj ohkjrh hei tmje orukp`ji tmj phpjr oupde mds ndst hei put dt wdtm tmj rjst bn ky tmdefs be tmj furejy# &O"vj ibej kbrj tmhe jebufm nbrybu h`rjhiy.)

5j ue`bolji tmj ibbr wdtm h phss obij hei h sohe bn mds tmukgprdet hei tmje wmjj`ji tmjfurejy nrbk tmj rbbk. -mj stjj` ibbr o`bsji hfhde wdtm h s`hk. O whs wbrrdji# tmds whse"t mbwtmjsj tmdefs wjrj suppbsji tb p`hy but. 5j mhi khij eb httjkpt tb rjh``y gj ky h``y# ebhttjkpt tb gy ky nrdjei. 5j whs tbb njhrnu`. -mjrj whs sbkjtmdef mjrj tmht stuel.

O our`ji up be tmj obt hei idi ky gjst tb put ky obì njjt ueijr ky rbgj wdtm ky mheis tmhtkbvji `dlj g`bols bn wbbi. -mj njj`def de tmjk whs sthrtdef tb rjture hei tmj phde bn tmj pdeshei ejji`js whs ejhr`y hs uegjhrhg`j hs ky tmdrst mhi gjje. O rbolji fjet`y tb ljjp tmjg`bbi kbvdef hei tb sbbtmj kysj`n. On O wjet detb smbol# O wbuì idj hs surj`y hs dn O mhi gjjesmbt. 5hi tmj h`dje rjh``y `hppji ht ky gu``jt wbuei `dlj h oht `hps up kd`lA

O smuiijrji jvje kbrj. -mj rbbk whs `dt wdtm h frbtjs6uj frjjedsm `dfmt. O o`bsji ky jyjshei tmbufmt bn tmj sue be ky nhoj hei tmj skj`` bn khfeb`dh hei mbejysuol`j. O tmbufmt bn`ydef de h mhkkbol de tmj gholyhri wdtm tmj sue iheodef be ky slde gjtwjje tmj ihpp`def bntmj `jhvjs bn tmj khfeb`dh trjjs tmht frjw tmjrj hei rbolji hei rbolji. O rjodtji sb`d`b6uyhntjr sb`d`b6uy de ky mjhi# O mhi `jhreji 5hk`jt"s nhkbus sb`d`b6uy ndrst hei dt whs jhsdjst tbrjoh`` de ejji?

&b (j br ebt tb (j+tmht ds tmj CujstdbeVmjtmjr =tds eb(`jr de tmj kdei tb su""jr&mj s`defs hei hrrb!s b" butrhfjbus "brtuej,0r tb thlj hrks hfhdest h sjh b" trbu(`js,

Hei, (y b??bsdef, jei tmjk. &b idj, tb s`jj?+;b kbrj+hei (y h s`jj? tb shy !j jei&mj mjhrthmj hei tmj tmbushei ehturh` smbls&mht "`jsm ds mjdr tb+=tds h besukkhtdbe:j'but`y tb (j !dsmji. &b idj, tb s`jj?+&b s`jj?, ?jrmhej tb irjhk. Hyj, tmjrj=s tmj ru(,


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$br de tmht s`jj? b" ijhtm !mht irjhks khy bkj,Vmje !j mh'j smu""`ji b"" tmds kbrth` bd`,ust fd'j us ?husj. &mjrj=s tmj rjs?jt&mht khljs h`hkdty b" sb `bef `d"j.$br !mb !bu`i (jhr tmj !md?s hei sbres b" tdkj,&m= b??rjssbr=s !rbef, tmj ?rbui khe=s betukj`y,

O stbppji hei trdji hebtmjr bej# tmj pbjk


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ijhi# tmht"s wmht `jvj` sjvjes hrj khij bn.

-mjy wjrj mukhe hei demukhe# mygrdis hei tmdefs tmht wbuì ebw gj dijetdndji hs h`djes gutbeoj wbuì mhvj gjje oh``ji ijkbes. -mjy idie"t ohrj dn hey bn tmj tjst sugajots idji. -mjywjrj hiiji tb tmj vhts# tmj gdf vhts tmht sthel hei wjrj nd``ji wdtm h sbrt bn hodi hei ombppjiup phrts bn jvjrytmdef tmht whs jxpjrdkjetji be hei nhd`ji. (vjry ihy hs O whs irhffji phst

tmbsj vhts O wbeijrji? ds tmds tmj ihyA -mj ihy ky sunnjrdef wd`` jeiA

O ibe"t whet tb tj`` ybu kbrj hgbut tmj sbrts bn jxpjrdkjets tmht wjet be# ebt de ijthd`. -mht"sgjtwjje kj# kysj`n hei O. -mjrj wjrj desu`de obkhs wmjrj mypebtdo suffjstdbes wjrjrjpjhtji hfhde hei hfhde wmd`j wj vdotdks s`dppji de hei but bn obesodbusejss. -mjrj whsj`jotrbsmbol tmht whs sbkjtdkjs prjshfji gy gjdef mypebtd3ji hei9br iruffji brsbkjtdkjs nb``bwji gy tmj shkj br sbkjtdkjs whs aust ibej nbr tmj mj`` bn dt.

-mjrj wjrj deajotdbes bn strhefj tmdefs# sbkj tmht gureji `dlj ndrj h`` tmrbufm ky g`bbistrjhkhei btmjrs tmht lebolji kj but# btmjrs tmht khij kj orh3y# phrhebdi# tjrrdndji. O wblj uphntjr bej hei O mhi rdppji ky mheis g`bbiy be tmj obeorjtj wh``s trydef tb jsohpj. -mjrjwjrj btmjr tmdefs tmht mhppjeji. _bkj bn tmjk wjrj o`jhr tb kj. -mj rjkbvh` bn jffs nrbkky bvhrdjs# g`bbi nrbk ky vjdes# khrrbw nrbk ky gbejs. (xpjrdkjets.

O wh`lji gy tmj vd`j kbestjrs de ohfjs# mh`n mukhe# mh`n "btmjr" hei wbeijrji mbw `bef dtwbuì gj uetd` O wh`lji gy tmbsj ohfjs hei sbkj bn tmbsj mygrdis wbuì gj ky bwe omdìrje.8hij nrbk ky bwe jffs wdtm fbi lebws wmht# orydef# sbggdef# `hufmdef# sorjhkdef. 8hi#wj wjrj h`` khi ibwe tmjrj hei dn wj wjrje"t wmje wj ohkj wj sbbe ohkj tb gj khi.

-mj h`dje ibotbrs ohkj hei th`lji wdtm tmjdr kdeis br idie"t th`l ht h``. %hrkjrs ibe"t bntjeth`l tb ohtt`j sjt tb gj s`hufmtjrji hei wj wjrj ebtmdef kbrj tmhe tmht tb tmjk# ohtt`j. O lejwtmht wmje O shw bej bn tmj h`dje ibotbrs bej ihy# sobbpdef fbb nrbk tmj frjht vhts bn ohrehfjwdtm h `hi`j detb h gdf pbt gjnbrj thldef h gdf gdtj but bn dt. Oe tmj jei wj wjrj aust omuk nbrtmj smhrls hei tmj smhrls wjrj tmj bejs de tmj gbht wmd`j tmjy htj us. -mjy khij tmjdridsihde sb vjry o`jhr.

-mj mukhe sodjetdsts lbwtbwji tb tmj h`djes. Ot whse"t h rdii`j tb ndfurj but wmb whs deomhrfj.

-mj mukhes wjrj bntje ueijr`defs br jvje de khey ohsjs jetdrj rugjs wmb mhi eb dijh wmhtwhs fbdef be. -mjy wjrje"t stupdi tmbufm hei hs tdkj wjet be tmjy ndfurji but tmj sobrj.-mjy wjrj tbì tmht O whs deshej. -mjy wjrj tbì tmht jvjrybej be `jvj` sjvje whs ordkdeh``yhei ihefjrbus`y deshej hei tmht wj smbuì ejvjr gj spblje tb br `dstjeji tb ueijr heyodroukstheojs. Ot whs tbb ihefjrbus tb th`l tb us.

-mj kje idie"t h`whys nb``bw tmj ru`js tmbufm hei dt whs mhri nbr tmjk# jspjodh``y wmje tmjymhi tb ijh` wdtm tmj wbkje hei tmj omdìrje# jspjodh``y tmj skh`` bejs.

O p`jhiji wdtm tmjk# gjffji tmjk tb ndei ky nhkd`y# tbì tmjk tmht pjbp`j wbuì gj `bbldefnbr kj hei fhvj tmjk ky ehkj hfhde hei hfhde. *`` obeojpt bn idfedty mhi nhiji wdtm tmjphssdef bn tmj ihysA 5bw `befA ;mb obuì shyA 8bst bn tmj kje dfebrji kj# dfebrji tmjpjbp`j hei tmdefs O shw de ohfjs. O tmbufmt tmht h`` tmj kje idi# gut tmjrj whs bej khe wmbidie"t. 5j hslji kj bej 6ujstdbe# &;mjrj ds ybur nhkd`yA)


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O tbì mdk hei tmje mj idie"t rjp`y# aust `bblji ht kj# O kjkbrd3ji mds nhoj de tmht grdjnjxomhefj gjtwjje sbu`s. -mje mj `jnt hei `bolji kj de ky oj`` hfhde.

O idie"t mbì ky grjhtm be mdk ndeidef kj mj`p. (vje dn mj nbuei ky nhkd`y tmj gjst tmht O obuìmbpj nbr wbuì gj tmht mj obuì tj`` tmjk ky nhtj. O whs h `bst sbu` de tmj ijptms bn mj`` hei O

whs `bsdef ky shedty hei ky gbiy whs grjhldef#

'ut hntjr ht tdkj# dt sjjkji tmht jvje mj`` mhi# ht `jhst kbkjethrd`y rue but bn dts rjpjrtbdrjhei O whs fdvje sbkj rjspdtj.

-mjrj whs h mjsdthtdbe de tmj tbrturjs tmht wjrj vdsdtji be kj. O shw tmj khe wmb mhi hsljikj wmjrj ky nhkd`y whs hfhde# h`tmbufm mj hei O jxomhefji eb wbris. O std`` wbeijrji dn tmjohkjrh mhi pdolji up bur grdjn jxomhefj. 5j ejvjr fhvj kj mds ehkj hei wbrj eb ehkjthf. 5j whs aust# -mj khe wmb mhi hslji kj wmjrj ky nhkd`y whs.

ej ihy# -mj khe wmb mhi hslji kj wmjrj ky nhkd`y whs grbufmt kj h sthol bn gbbls.-mjy wjrj bì hei mhi phfjs kdssdef hei sbkj bn tmjk mhi kdìjw be tmjk gut O whsjtjreh``y frhtjnu` tb mdk. -b mhvj ebt jvje h pje hei phpjr# ebt h h gbbl# ebtmdef gut ky bwekdei tb p`hfuj kj whs sthrtdef tb khlj h`` tmj shnj p`hojs tmht O mdi de ky kdei nhij. O whssthrtdef tb `bsj tmj dijh tmht tmjrj mhi jvjr gjje heytmdef de ky `dnj gut tmds deshej p`hoj heiobesthet phde.

Ot whs dkpbssdg`j tb tj`` tmj phsshfj bn tdkj ibwe tmjrj. -mjy grbufmt kj nbbi ht wmhtsjjkji tb kj tb gj obkp`jtj`y rheibk detjrvh`s. O ndedsmji tmj sthol bn gbbls hei rjhi tmjkhfhde. O idie"t sjj tmj khe wmb mhi fdvje tmjk tb kj hfhde nbr h `bef tdkj hei tmje dt whsgrdjn`y hei mj whs iydef. O ejvjr lejw mds ehkj. 'jnbrj tmj `hst tdkj# tmbufm# O idie"t lebw dnmj mhi tbì ky nhkd`y wmjrj O whs# wmht whs mhppjedef# br dn mj mhi gjje ohufmt but nbrgjdef ldei tb kj hei ndrji. -mjy idie"t thlj ky sthol bn gbbls nrbk kj# tmjy sjjkji tb gj`bsdef detjrjst de kj. O mbpji tmjy wjrj# jvje dn tmht kjhet tmjy wbuì j`dkdehtj kj sbbe# ht`jhst dt wbuì gj bvjr.

ej ihy tmj ibbr tb ky oj`` bpjeji hfhde hei h`dje ibotbrs hei tmjdr mukhe obuetjrphrtsohkj de. -mj mukhes spblj `bui`y hei prbnjssdbeh``y# oh``def kj gy ky eukgjr hei brijrdefkj `bhiji betb h furejy tmht sbkj sbìdjrs mhi grbufmt de wdtm tmjk. O idie"t ndfmt# O idie"tjvje mhvj tb gj tbì# O fbt up nrbk tmj gji# s`bw`y hei phdenu``y hei o`dkgji betb tmj furejy.O put ky mheis ibwe wmd`j tmjy nhstjeji tmj rjstrhdets. O prhyji tmht khygj tmds whs dt#khygj tmds whs tmj jei. 0bi mj`p kj# O mhie"t ibej heytmdef tb whrrhet tmds mj``. Ebt nbrjtjredty.

-mjy wmjj`ji kj tmrbufm tmj mh``s# O mhi beoj trdji tb kjkbrd3j tmjk nbr jsohpj gut kykdei be`y phdi httjetdbe tb tmj twdsts hei tures wj tbbl ebw hs h fhkj. * why tb idstrhotkysj`n hei ebt wbeijr hgbut wmht kdfmt gj obkdef ht tmj jei bn wmhtjvjr mh``why wjjetjrji.

O mhi mhi pj`vdo jxhks hei "wbrl" ibej be kj gjnbrj. Ot whs h trdh` hei wmje tmjy `dntji ky`jfs up hei put ky njjt de stdrrups O sthrtji tb ory sd`jet tjhrs. On be`y O obuì fb nhr hwhy# Osthrtji ky bwe jsohpj mhtom# h ijvdoj de ky kdei O mhi obestruotji tb fjt hwhy wmje tmjphde whs tbb kuom. O mhi tb `jhvj 6udol`y. *eytmdef wdtm tmj stdrrups whs ghi. Ot whs sbkj bn


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tmj mhrijst phde tb jeiurj h`tmbufm O wbe"t shy tmj mhrijst gjohusj jhom tmdef ht tmj tdkjwhs tmj mhrijst de khey whys. (vje wmje tmj ibotbr wbuì uenhstje kj hei shy# "-mjrjebw# tmht whse"t sb ghi". Ot whs sb ghi. -mjy `dji `dlj tmht gjohusj tmjy wjrj std`` mukhesbkjwmjrj hei dt mj`pji tmjk tb s`jjp ht edfmt tb shy tmdefs `dlj tmht.

-mjy sthrtji he dv hei tmje tmj phde gjfhe. -mj phde whs frjht# O obuì sjj tmht tmjy wjrj

usdef tbb`s be kj hei destjhi bn sdeldef tb `bwjr `jvj`s bn obesodbusejss O n`ji ky gbiyh`tbfjtmjr. -mj khomdejry tmht kbedtbrji ky sthts sthrtji tb gjjp `bef hei mdfm hei Owhtomji nrbk hgbvj wdtm `dtt`j detjrjst de tmj sojej gj`bw.

O mhi frbwe vjry tmde hei O whs grudsji hei ghttjrji gut ebt wbrsj tmhe sbkjbej wmb mhigjje de h ghr ndfmt# ebt nrbk tmj butsdij. -mj desdij whs wmjrj tmjy idi tmj ihkhfj. O whswjhrdef h mbspdth` fbwe hei ky sldeey lejjs muef be `bbsj mdefjs n`bppdef butwhri. O shwtmht tmjy deajotji tmdefs detb kj hei tmj mjhrt kbedtbr sthrtji tb khlj g`dps hfhde. O nj`t htuffdef tb rjture tb ky gbiy gut O idie"t whet tb hei O rjsdstji.

* obri tdji kj tb tmj gbiy gj`bw kj# dt `bblji dlj dt whs s`jjpdef hei O obuì mjhr tmjibotbrs idsoussdef dt gut tmj wbris# "aust fjt dt ibej# wj"`` wbrry hgbut dt `htjr" prbiuoji h `hrfjijvdoj tmht `bblji `dlj h syrdefj tmht whs desjrtji detb kj hei h orjhky gùdsm nùdi deajotjidetb ky mb`y bn mb`djs.

_bkj kbrj tmdefs wjrj ibej tb ky gbiy gut O whs be`y detjrjstji de mbw tb fjt hwhy. O whstdji ndrk`y tb tmj gbiy gj`bw kj hei O idie"t lebw mbw tb fjt uetdji. *ntjr hwmd`j O whs ajrljirbufm`y hs tmjy pu``ji tmj furejy hrbuei hei but bn tmj rbbk. O whs tbwji h`bef gjmdei `dlj hmj`duk gh``bbe. eoj ghol de tmj oj`` bej bn tmj mukhe ibotbrs tbbl ky vdth`s hei idsoussjitmj khttjr wdtm tmj btmjrs# O mjhri wbris `dlj# "obkh"# hei "`hol bn hey rjspbesj tb stdkuùs."

-mj h`dje ibotbrs fhvj tmjdr brijrs. O obuì tj``# ebt gjohusj O obuì mjhr tmjk# gut gjohusjbn tmj sd`jeoj tmht nj`` hei tmje jvjrybej sthrtji tb kbvj de rjspbesj tb tmj sd`jet obkkheis._bkjtmdef whs deajotji detb tmj dv ghf hei O whs sthrt`ji gy h ajrldef be tmj obri tmht tdjikj. Ot whs `dlj gj h ghss hei s`bw`y rjj`ji de. -mjrj whs eb jsohpj# tmj mbbls wjrj tbbijjp. O wblj up wdtm h fhsp hei ky jyjs n`jw bpje. * ibotbr# O rjkjkgjr be`y gjohusj mjmhi rjkhrlhg`j frjje jyjs tbbl ky vdth`s hfhde wmd`j tmj btmjrs `jnt. 5j rj`jhsji kj nrbktmj rjstrhdets hei brijrji h sbìdjr tb ohrry kj tb ky gji.

&;j ejji ybu tb `dj ibwe nbr hwmd`j# ib ybu ueijrstheiA) 5j hslji kj.

O ebiiji# &S`jhsj mj`p kj.)

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O suppbsj tdkj phssji. Srbghg`y ihys# O rjhi tmj sthol bn gbbls hfhde. O whse"t oh``ji be tbib kuom jxojpt tb supp`y urdej hei g`bbi tb h tjomedodhe wmb ohkj de rjfu`hr`y hei tb h``bwh ibotbr tb thlj ky vdth`s. eoj de hwmd`j he h`dje ibotbr wbuì obkj de hei O wbuì njj` mdk`jhndef tmrbufm ky mjhi `dlj h gdeijr bn phpjr hei tmje mj wbuì `jhvj hfhde.

-mj ihy bn rjolbedef whs obkdef# gut O mhi eb why bn lebwdef tmht. O mhi eb why bn lebwdef

heytmdef. ej ihy O mjhri ebdsj de tmj mh``why. -mds whs ueusuh` gjohusj dt whs pueotuhtjiwdtm tmj sorjhkdef sbìdjrs khlj# kbrj `dlj mb``jrdef# wmje tmjy fdvj obkkheis hei tmjesthoohtbji wdtm fuendrj.

O sht up de gji. O mhi g`heljts ebw hei O mhi tmjk pu``ji up tb ky omde# O whs oùtomdef ky`jfs. O whs obvjrji de fbbsjn`jsm hei ky mjhrt gjht rhpdi`y. 'ut O ihrji ebt# O idie"t mbpj tbmbpj. 5bpj wbuì grjhl wmht `dtt`j whs `jnt bn kj dn dt whs ihsmji beoj kbrj. _td``# h phrt bnky vjry jssjeoj obuìe"t mj`p gut tmdel# "-mds ds dt# tmds ds jsohpj. O hk ebt nbrfbttje."

Ot whs tmj jxp`bsdbes tmht khij kj sthrt tb mbpj hei wmje O mjhri tmjk obkdef ibwe tmjmh`` O fbt but bn gji hei pjjrji be tdptbj but bn ky mdfm prdsbe wdeibw. O obuì sjje `dtt`j brebtmdef usuh``y gut ebw O shw sbkjtmdef uekdsthljhg`j? n`hkjs. O whtomji hei hebtmjrjxp`bsdbe wjet bnn# O mjhri tmj sbuei hei shw tmj n`hkjs smbbt detb tmj mh``why# rjn`jotdef bnntmj ojkjet hei `dfmtdef up ky nhoj.

O rhe tb ky gji hei tureji dt be dts sdij# grjhtm`jss wdtm mbpj ebw O tureji tmj `jfs tbwhristmj ibbr hei g`bolji kysj`n hfhdest t

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