YAMS.16.Voiceless Baby Ordeal in Intensive Care that Flips a Character on a flight for Life
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"Stone" sit in the language of the journey, on the ancient trail of Germanic Angles, virtual streaming from the heights of an accidental rocky region. Over the left bank the English left Wallonia as an impression of the walls. Whilst over the right bank, we went on pursuing Flemish flat lands, Martine and I, lost sight of the gyrating blue light flashing through the tenebrea. Continuing along the directives of the ambulance driver earlier, swerved off the straight and anticlockwise home grounds, worming through a subtle yellow lit ring around the capital . The busy road signs in repetition d ropped off in passing by commu nities. At loss of the iconic wings of “Zavent em -- Internationa l Airport,” measured up to the next outer northern exit ramp toward “Antwerp.” Cruising on the deserted highway across the viaduct wayside void plummeting over industrial sites, across the valley on the inner circle rises over a wide spread of flocculent canopies, the emblematic first moon of the silvery Atomium. To a series of busy interlocked interchanges left place to eastern floundering suburbs, when Martine hint at a lonely wayside pointer. She reminded me, “That's the exit.” Sibylle, by her official name in the coming school years, exposes her mental scars of the hundred mile freeway ride, whereby, as parents we failed our baby daughter at the departing hospital. In the trail of the ambulance, and our faith of the medic corps, Martine navigated by recollecting names. Engaging the off ramp in a left coil down, emerging the narrow subway and a gateway to Brussels. On the rise with the pass in view, stands alone an emblematic red cross alongside the unencumbered abbreviations, "[Dutch] AZ VUB," speaking for itself, You're on course . Visibly lendin g a right c ontour of the bushy hillock, clearing a wedgy society in the midst of the scintillating sleeping capital lights. When the wayside decor out of a straightening curve, a Egyptian pale hewn stone block mushroomed from an evanescent hill flank in the tenebrae. Along the dual parkway arouse a symbolic and preemptive ambivalent eyesight promenade. Exposing the exterior extent, foresight for a dramatic three-year, at the amplitude of
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Over time, I discover in my notes, inspiring to develop in this chapter the rhythm of a screaming baby. The emergent universal deep and light tones, leading onto distinguishing syllables, and like a dream, before reaching the strength of a vision, the wavy words which isn't without meaning. The animal language at seducing parent to hear out a child's self expression and needs for parental attention.
Transcript of YAMS.16.Voiceless Baby Ordeal in Intensive Care that Flips a Character on a flight for Life
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"Stone"sitinthelanguageofthejourney,ontheancienttrailofGermanicAngles,virtualstreamingfromtheheightsofanaccidentalrockyregion.OvertheleftbanktheEnglishleftWalloniaasanimpressionofthewalls.Whilstovertherightbank,wewentonpursuingFlemishflatlands,MartineandI,lostsightofthegyratingbluelightflashingthroughthetenebrea.Continuingalongthedirectivesoftheambulancedriverearlier,swervedoffthestraightandanticlockwisehomegrounds,wormingthroughasubtleyellowlitringaroundthecapital.Thebusyroadsignsinrepetitiondroppedoffinpassingbycommunities.AtlossoftheiconicwingsofZaventem--InternationalAirport,measureduptothenextouternorthernexitramptowardAntwerp.Cruisingonthedesertedhighwayacrosstheviaductwaysidevoidplummetingoverindustrialsites,acrossthevalleyontheinnercirclerisesoverawidespreadofflocculentcanopies,theemblematicfirstmoonofthesilveryAtomium.Toaseriesofbusyinterlockedinterchangesleftplacetoeasternflounderingsuburbs,whenMartinehintatalonelywaysidepointer.Sheremindedme,That'stheexit.
Sibylle,byherofficialnameinthecomingschoolyears,exposeshermentalscarsofthehundredmilefreewayride,whereby,asparentswefailedourbabydaughteratthedepartinghospital.Inthetrailoftheambulance,andourfaithofthemediccorps,Martinenavigatedbyrecollectingnames.Engagingtheofframpinaleftcoildown,emergingthenarrowsubwayandagatewaytoBrussels.Ontherisewiththepassinview,standsaloneanemblematicredcrossalongsidetheunencumberedabbreviations,"[Dutch]AZVUB,"speakingforitself,You'reoncourse.Visiblylendingarightcontourofthebushyhillock,clearingawedgysocietyinthemidstofthescintillatingsleepingcapitallights.Whenthewaysidedecoroutofastraighteningcurve,aEgyptianpalehewnstoneblockmushroomedfromanevanescenthillflankinthetenebrae.Alongthedualparkwayarouseasymbolicandpreemptiveambivalenteyesightpromenade.Exposingtheexteriorextent,foresightforadramaticthree-year,attheamplitudeof
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specializeddepartmentsunabletodiagnoseourbabydaughter'spersistentupcominganomalies.
Inaseriesofwakinghazydoorwaylights,wesoughtforthesignofmotion,untilattheupcomingendoftheblock.Guidedbyanescapingblindinglightthatshapedthecornercutoffanglewithatranslucentfaciaspell"Emergency."Thedrivewayclearedawaythroughasetofrisingbooms,towatchedafigureemergingtherecessedentrancelight.Svelteinarushfortheambulanceredhotunderthehood.Theyoungdrivercomingaroundreadytostepin,todriveoff,asweswervedawayparkingthecar.
Atafastpacesteppingthroughtheleaddoorway,andoutfromaheatedlock.Martinemerelytouchedacrossthehallthebreasthighreceptioncounter,theledgehidingthreenightshiftloungingfiguresfromimmediateview.Sheneedn'task,asheengagedhimself,saying,[Dutch]She'sherealreadyforthepasttenminutes--Youmayproceedtotheintensivecareunit."
Amalenurseinwhiterosefromhischair,steppingoffrightdisappearingbehindablinddogleg.Atthehatch,hewaitedforMartineandI,tocatchup.Trailingthefigurethroughamonotonecorridor.Weighingupalongtheskirtinganunendingvinylredencrustedstrip.Shortoftheleadingwhitefloorwhichnotchedoffside,themanswervesinoppositionbringingustostandbeforetheredelevatordoors.Slittingandslidingintothewings,westepon,whilehepressedoncemorethecallbutton.Theluminescentwhiteringjumpeddownafloor,andacrossthewayhurtbysightatransversalwhitewall.Swervingleft,andinstinctivemovingbyarearbuildingpassageway.Toolate,steppingthroughthemiddleofaseriesofdoubleswingpairofdoors,tokeepcount.Oneaftertheothersystematiccrossinganenclosedcubicspaceforanorientation.Until,thatsquareareabecameaturningpointforourguide,saying,[Dutch]Waitheretilltheexaminationisover."
Assmooththanthewhitecoatedconcreteslabsurface,fenestrated-lesshardwallsalike,claimedasilenthospitalresonance.Weturnedawayuncoordinatedinourmovements,clockandanticlockwisefromtheanti-slumberingseatingatcrossingtheroom.There,turningbacktofacetheredchainofmeshchairsbetweenflashpaneldoorways.Above,crawlingonthewall,thelongarmofanenlargeddialtickingawayoneminuteatthetime.Timeandagain,westeppedintheleftcorner,reading"IntensiveCareUnit."Themonotonywhitemattsurfaceofpairedflashpaneldoors.Arousinganunbearablerestlessness.Listless,turningaway.Startinganewanotherboxedcycle,returningwithpleadingeyesonthedigitalnumbertwoandthree,betweenthemgraspingtheshortneedle,failingtimetomovealong.
Suddenly,fromtotaldesperation,hingingadoorwaylightclearingtheinterior,figuredthesubstitutepediatrician,invitingMartineandI,entry.Thefiguredisappearedinviewofthestainlesssteelbarsofacradle,impededourwaytothegreatersurroundedmedicalassortedequippedroom.Approachingourbabydaughter'slargepetrifiedeyesdartingus.Arousingawildtamingscreams,inatonespeakingofherinflictedbrutality.Henceforth,intheyearstocome,recurrentofherevanescentparentsinanoutofsighttenebrea.Exposinghermind,forapsychicflipofanemergentlightshadowingthereturningghostlymediccorps.
Outweighingbuttocksspilledthechairtoexposestiltsupportsthroughthecornerwrappingfinechromestandsatthefootofthecradle.MartineandI,overlookedthesedifferences.Perceivinganindifferentobesenursefacingawayfromourcriticalill
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daughterinhercare,tofocusinourapproachingthroughtheinfantguardinaraisedatarms'lengthlatched.Ourcagedindaughterstrugglingatexposinghertieddownhands,andfeet.Inhercry,pointingoutthedrasticmeasuresusedtocontainher.Igraspedbysightoppositeherlittlestretchedfigure,herotherarmstraphiddenaroundherwrist.Inarisingangerofsuchunnecessarymeasures.Ididmyroundsbysightatheranklestiedtothefootbars.Thoughtfultakingachairalongsidethefront,tohearfrustratingfleshyheavylazylipsmashingwords,thevoicesaying,[Dutch]Wehadtotieherdown,fortheequipment!"
Nurturedbyahospitalconvenientroutine,seatedalongsidehermother,Ithought,Wasn'titthatstaffsparedtimeandeffortfromtalkingtoavoicelessbaby?Ireckonedwithadistinctivesignofcontradictingwordatlossinadvance.Bendingoverandcloser,ateyelevelthroughthechromestands,mindgearingupanunconsciousgatheringofelements,distinctiveplanningnevertoletmybabygirloutofsightagain.Henceforthstaggeringthroughbirthdays,myprojectedfirmingdisciplineofmyangel.
Ispokeoutofturnwithhermother,turningmybaby'sattentionawayfromthewhitevoluminousnurse,andthepersonnel'sfluorescentheavenlyworld.Droppingathought,addressingthenurse,"[Dutch]She,[Sibylle]doesn'tknowwhyshe'shere.Whysheisbeenkepttiedup.
Hermother'ssubtleappeasingtoneofvoice,hasthemedicsinperspective,saying,[Dutch]Youhavebeenverysick.
Unwillingtofallinanintuitivetrap,ourbabyattunedherscreamingofanangerforhavingbeenabandoned.Incessant,Martinerepeated,[Dutch]Wewon'tleaveyoumybaby--Wewillstaywithyou,andnotleaveyouherebyyourself...anymore.
Sensitivetomylittlegirl'sscreamingtone,hermeansofcallingforhelp.Ireadherthoughts,Doyouseewhattheydotome?andcallingonafatherlymiracleatstoppinghercrueltreatment.Exposingtorturebands,byvigorouswriststwistsvirtuallyunscrewingherhandsanddetachingfeetjerkingherlegs,wrestlingonherbackatraisingherlifetofreedom.
Thedilemmawithourbabygirlaccrued,connectedtomedicalequipment,andinoccurrencewondering,Howdidtheymanagedtoslipapajamatopoverherhead?Islippedmyhandthroughthechromestands.Addictive-automaticreactionofasilentpact,whicharoseduringlongmonotonemoments.Onlychilddwellingintherearhabitacleonthesefreewaydrives.Buckledinachildboosterseat,inthearmsofherpaddedclown,andleadingmeontoperceiveherlonelyunendingstareburningthebackrestofhermotherseatedbucketsseat.Wrenchingmyhandwithturnsandtwistsofthewrist,wormingthroughthegapofthebucketseats.Fingersintherearleadingagymnasticelbowandshoulderballjointroll.Eachwefetchedtheother'sfingertipstoholdjuiceupwithbodilyenergy.
Themessagepassedaroundtheyolkofone'sinherentpersonality,dissonant,outofmybabydaughter'spropercontrol.Mythumbtooktherelay,strokinglightlyoverthebackofherlittlehand.Afunctionalvalveopener,drainingoffapneumaticpressurebuiltupofanaggressivedefensiveenergy.Appeased,herscreamswineddown,strainedlimbsmusclesrelaxedherjointmovementstofeelfree.Beforelong,tensiondissolute,relentingherintransigentforceofmindfromfightingherself.Returningasufficient
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trustfulspiritexposedbyherdroopingeyelidsclosing,toherbeinginfreefallthroughadeepsleepspatialabyss.
Martineceasedchattingupourdaughter,astheobesenursereplicatedtoherconscious,saying,[Dutch]Yourdaughterdidwakeupintheambulance.Shepickedviolentfits.Wehadtroublesincontainingher.
Thedialsonthewalldisplayedquarterpasttwo,whenMartineandI,wejuggledwiththeidea.Shesaid,Shouldn'toneofusstaywithherthroughthenighthereintheintensivecareunit?
