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Writing Roots
On
Raining Days
Around the age of five, I began to make sense
of those books in our study. My father often sat at
his drafting table, feverishly flipping through the JC
Whitney Catalogs. He always had a project that he
was working on down below the study in his garage.
The hard back green books had a special place on the
shelves. Those catalogs
were where I could reach
them too.
I remember hefting
one off the shelf, trying
to figure its content. I
took it to the window to
watch my father down
below. He didn’t take
them downstairs. Instead, he made trips back and
forth from the study to the garage. I made the con-
nection of its content and images and began to won-
der into his garage. I learned by observation, not to
read for pleasure, but for progress. My father fixed
and built many things in that garage. He was a me-
chanical engineer and inventor.
My invitation to learning took root on rainy
days in that study, when I could not go outdoors.
Nothing held my interest inside the home, except for
those books. I was not like my sis-
ters, who liked to be with Mother;
making crafts, sewing, painting, and
cooking. I liked to be outside ob-
serving nature, building things, and
learning the skills of my father’s
trails and trade.
Many kinds of books seated
and remained untouched. I cultivat-
ed a love of reading nonfiction on those lower
shelves, researching information on the earth and
stars, America, people and cultures, inventors and
inventions, and interchangeable parts. The World
Book Encyclopedias were never taken outside the
house, but often I would race back and forth to iden-
tify any simple life that sur-
rounded me.
The first time I laid
eyes on an American corn
snake, I thought for a mo-
ment it was a coral snake. I
had studied the head
shapes and eyes. I wanted
to believe it was a coral
snake, but I knew better, because the encyclopedia
was fact. It didn’t take me long to grow a tale. I took
the “S” encyclopedia to convince my dad that I knew
what I had seen, and that there was a coral snake in
the yard. I went so far as to research the territory
where the snake was indigenous to another region
and formed a rebuttal with the change of terrains
from population and weather. My father reluctantly
came with me to see the serpent.
other lined the wall behind the built-in bookcase
with corduroy upholstery fabric. Oxblood red
and rough cedar shelving spanned wall to wall
and from floor to a twelve-foot redwood tongue-n-groove ceiling. Moth-
er and father gifted the shelves with reclaimed books from the down-
town law library of Little Rock, Arkansas. They adorned their study
with library tables and chairs from the demolition of the old structure
in 1975, when the new William H. Bowen Law School was built.
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“To do things worthy the writing
and to write worthy the doing
thereof and thereby to make the
much loved earth more lovely.”
Philip Sidney
After all, I was holding a book of facts and swore by
what I’d seen. The snake had slithered away before I
had returned with my father, hand in hand. I attested
that it was a coral snake, even though I knew that it was-
n’t. I wanted it to be and had almost convinced myself
of an untruthful deception. I formed an art to lying in
my youth.
I began writing stories around the age of seven. Oh,
how I would stretch the truth. This isn’t the case in my
adult life; many hard lessons in truth and trust continue
to mold me into who I am.
My luck in lessons come with
a price in understanding many
facts of manipulation and de-
ception. They are crafts of de-
ceit. I wish to go back to the
time of youth, where I mar-
veled in understanding the
beauty of nonfiction, because
it was my connection with re-
ality. That connection is what
led me to the writing depart-
ment at UALR. Learning and
progressing through research
of interests enables a busy body to do what it wants and
needs to do for progress. I did not always make short
tales with what I read in younger years. Some of what I
studied came into good use.
The medical encyclopedias from the law library interest-
ed me for months and years. There were eight of them,
hardback. Petit in comparison to the JC Whitney cata-
logs, short and thick. Any time I heard of a new aliment
or disease at school, I would race to the study when I
got home and research for hours. One afternoon, as we
were stepping off the school bus, a neighbor boy suf-
fered a grand mal seizure. I knew exactly what to do. I
directed four people, including the bus driver, to assist
in laying him flat, holding his head, shoulders, hips and
limbs, while I took his belt off to depress his tongue, so
that he would not swallow it and cut off his airway.
There have been several other incidents in my life that I
called my hours of study to offer first response and di-
rect others to assist. My interest for learning and discov-
ery has become a lifelong habit.
My father built a
loft in the bookcase for
me. The solid frame tow-
ered the opposite side of
the seven foot oblong win-
dow and stood about eight
feet high. I pulled a twin
mattress up to the plateau.
This vantage lead me
through a journey of
books nestled on those
upper shelves that I could
not have otherwise
reached. I had climbed the
shelves for curiosity, and been told not to because it was
dangerous. I gained access to some books that I should
have left alone by following my naughty temptations,
like “Valley of the Dolls,” by Jacqueline Susann.
Right about that time, my mother took a job at Ander-
son News. She was undergoing chemotherapy and radia-
tion for breast cancer that had spread to her lymph, but
she sought life and healing through work. She brought
home magazines and books with the covers torn off,
often bestsellers which pop culture deemed relevant and
critics marveled.
“Happiness itself is sufficient excuse.
Beautiful things are right and true; so
beautiful actions are those pleasing to the
gods. Wise men have an inward sense of
what is beautiful, and the highest wisdom is
to trust this intuition and be guided by it.
The answer to the last appeal of what is
right lies within a man’s own breast. Trust
thyself.”
I soon lost my love for reading as a teen. My fiction con-
sumption of Dean R. Koontz and Stephen King novels
lead me to the self-help section at the local library. I
read “Feeling Good” by David D. Burns,
“Psychocybernetics” and “The Magic Power of Self-
Image Psychology,” by Maxwell Maltz. I needed to heal,
I had already seen too much and hurt for what I had
witnessed.
My writing took a turn toward truth in my
teens, but I kept it hidden. I did not wish to share my
personal thoughts and experiences. They were private. I
didn’t share and kept long hours to myself on the oppo-
site end of the rock and cedar house’s study. I remained
opposite of everyone in my home. My parent’s became
curious of my isolation and my father invaded while I
was away at school, he found my compilation of stacks
of stories in an octagon shaped curio. It was a penuri-
ous piece of Asian teakwood that my mother had
picked up at some yard sale.
My father approached me one evening at the
dinner table, “Kim, I think you are a good writer. You
don’t have to lock yourself up in your room to write.
Why don’t you use the study?” He went on to talk
about a character and plot that I had written and my
mind went blank. My ears started buzzing and my heart
raced from embarrassment in the one sided conversa-
tion. I remained silent.
Later that week, after my father ap-
proached my secret, I rebelled against my own self. I
drug my curio out back, in the yard, behind my parent’s
sliding glass doors, doused it with lighter fluid, and
watched it burn. In the seconds the pages started to
curl, I’d wished that I could visit the stories again. I told
myself, they were my stories and would forever be in my
head. I did not write again for a while, until my early
twenties.
Moving back in with my folk’s after being
stalked by a mental escapee who hitchicked his way
from Virginia to torment me, a stranger; a man shoot-
ing and robbing my purse at an ATM, a stranger; and I
had moved back in with my parent’s, but they had built
a new home atop Tucker Mountain. That’s where I be-
gan to write the story of a tri-state bank robbery, based
on truth. Again, in hiding, writing my first script. The
endeavor ended in corruption by a lightning storm. I
thought the odds were against me for becoming a writ-
er.
I had tried to go back to the house that I grew
up in, but it was desolate. My mother held onto that
home for years, leaving it vacant—but fully furnished.
The books in the study, still, dormant and collecting
cobwebs. They were auctioned off with the contents of
the house, when mother decided it was time to let it go
of the past. I began journaling for the first time and try-
ing my hand at calligraphy in personal correspondence.
I fell deeply in love with the art, collecting ink, pens,
and different fibers of paper.
In my thirties, I picked up reading fiction again;
John Steinbeck, Robert Penn Warren, William Faulk-
ner, Elmore Leonard, Larry McMurtry, and Charles
Portis. Several titles from each of these authors gave me
a love of fiction that I had never known, yet nothing
seemed to fill the void and need, except nonfiction. It
drives me. I believe it is the truth that makes us healthy
and able to survive. After my first paid job as a technical
writer in the automotive industry, I knew that I needed
to go back to where I started. I entered into a writing
program at the university to refine myself.