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Social Science & Medicine 59 (2004) 1329–1337
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While there’s life yhope and the experience of cancer
Miles Little*, Emma-Jane Sayers
Cancer Survival Project, Department of Surgery, Centre for Values, Ethics and the Law in Medicine, Building D06, University of Sydney,
Sydney, NSW 2006, Australia
Abstract
Hope is the subjective probability of a good outcome for ourselves or someone close to us. During mortal extreme
experience, observers and participants in the experience hope for life over death. In cancer, the illness/treatment
experience is similar to the experience of dying, but with the redeeming element of hope for cure, for life over death. If
cure is not obtained, hope for the participant moves to a ‘good death’.
If the outcome is cure, however, the hope for life has been realised for both participant and observer. Hope, which is
always for the future, may now diverge between participant and observer. Observers hope for a return to normality, and
use a discourse of normality which emphasises such things as ‘getting over it’, ‘moving on’ and ‘getting back to normal’.
Survivors may not find the realisation of hope for life to be as comfortable as might be expected. After the euphoria
of being declared free of disease, about 30% of survivors develop post-cancer distress with death salience. They
recognise, whether they want to or not, that they have confronted their own annihilation, and that they will at some
stage have to do so again. We all know that we will die, but there is a greater vividness and proximity in that knowledge
for someone who has been through mortal extreme experience.
Death salience provokes a confrontation with meaning in a person’s life. Thus survivors turn inward to their deep
selves in order to establish an understanding of what their life projects might become. Observers, on the other hand, find
death salience hard to live with, and may turn away from the distressed survivor.
The hopes and discourses of survivors and those close to them may have different structures and different objects.
These differences may help to explain the frequency with which stress and disruption affect close relationships after
cancer and other life-threatening experiences.
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Keywords: Hope; Mortality salience; Cancer; Survivors; Australia
Introduction
Hope is a word much used. Its meaning is assumed to
be clear. There are, however, evident ambiguities. Hope
can be seen as ‘a support or as a source of disruption in
the care of the cancer patient’ (Bresnahan & Merrill
1999, p. 43). It becomes a ‘disruption’ when it is ‘false
hope’. There are other ambiguities of meaning. It is an
abstraction, with usages that refer to everything from
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high degree of certainty about an outcome (Nuland,
1997, p. 222) to confidence in the meaning of a life
(Nuland, 1997, p. 242). That sense in which meaning
sustains a sense of hope is found in Agich’s account as
well ‘y hope refers to the prospect of meaningful
experience with others at those times when one
most needs comfort and companionship’ (Agich, 1993,
p. 113).
Lupton also describes a ‘discourse of hope’ directed
particularly at cancer. She writes ‘To despair, to lose
hope, are frowned upon as strategies of dealing with
diseases such as cancer. People with cancer are lauded if
they appear to be brave, never allowing themselves to
d.
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‘‘give in’’ to the disease. There is an emphasis on ‘‘will’’
which argues that ‘‘if one has enough hope, one may will
a change in the course of the disease in the body’’y’
(Lupton, 1994, p. 67).
Hope can more broadly be defined as a subjective
probability of a good outcome. Probability is used in a
technical sense, to mean the full range from the
‘possible’ to the ‘very likely’. Subjective probability is a
mental state ‘in which the probability of an event, as
judged by any given individual, is a statement of that
person’s degree of belief in the occurrence of that event’
(Heap, Hollis, Lyons, Sugden, & Weale, 1994, p. 46).
Hope, therefore, is a kind of belief state. The belief is in
the level of probability of good outcome. ‘Good’ refers
to a subjective judgement of benefit for oneself, a loved
other or others in a context and at a particular time, and
hope can thus also be regarded as an emotion
(Nussbaum, 2001). The judgement of what is good
may vary during the course of an experience. We will say
more about this in the context of illness. Hope is
narratively constructed (Mattingly, 1998, p. 70) and
future oriented (Mattingly, 1998, p. 73).
Certainty is not an object of hope. Hope implies a
degree of uncertainty. Thus, someone who ‘knows’ that
he or she will be cured of cancer is not hopeful of cure,
but certain of it. Others observing the person with
cancer may have various levels of hope about cure, but
be far from certain. Therefore, levels of hope may vary
widely within a community of people involved in the
extreme experience of one or more members of the
community. Hope is a continuum, not dichotomous.
When we talk about not giving up hope we are talking
about maintaining (or raising) a level of subjective
probability, rather than shifting it downward.
Hope exists in social contexts. Hope is comforting. In
the context of extreme experience, there is a subject who
feels a particular level of hope, and observers whose
hope levels may differ. Differences in level of hope can
cause interpersonal judgements to be made and com-
munications to become strained. Observers may make
the kinds of negative judgements of ill people that
Lupton refers to if ill people ‘despair’ or ‘lose hope’.
Hope is ‘unrealistic’ when someone enters a particular
state of belief that clashes with the subjective probabil-
ities of others. When there is a conflict between beliefs,
there may be no resolution because beliefs are at stake.
‘True’ belief can only be confirmed by outcome and in
retrospect. Hope is—technically—always irrealis in the
linguistic sense of something which is non-actual or non-
factual.
Sources of data
The methodology used in this paper is similar to that
reported earlier by the authors (Little & Sayers, 2003).
We have derived the data for this paper from four
main sources:
1. Extended narrative interviews with 15 survivors of
large bowl, liver and breast cancer, Hodgkins
lymphoma and leukaemia. The methodology of these
interviews and their analysis has been published
elsewhere (Little, Jordens, Paul, Montgomery, &
Philipson, 1998; Little, Jordens, Paul, Sayers, &
Sriskandarajan, 1999, 2000; Little, Jordens, Paul, &
Sayers, 2001, 2002; Little, Paul, Jordens, Sayers,
2000; Jordens, Little, Paul, & Sayers, 2001). Inter-
viewees were recruited by personal reference from
clinicians and other cancer survivors. Each was
invited to participate in a narrative interview, as part
of a research project examining the experience of
cancer. The interviews were conducted as open-ended
conversations between subject and interviewer. The
opening prompt was ‘‘Tell me the story of your
illness.’’ Few prompts were used thereafter, the
narrator being allowed to develop his or her own
topics. Prompts were mainly used as means of
keeping the conversation going. Question sheets were
not used, so that the great bulk of the transcripts
record uninterrupted narratives.
2. Similar interviews with three people who were
partners and carers of cancer survivors.
3. Published accounts of survival of bone marrow
transplantation for leukaemia (Miles, 1995, 1997,
2000; Handler 1996).
4. Anatole Broyard’s (1992) detailed account of his
experience of dying from prostate cancer.
We have read this material for instances of expres-
sions of hope in its many variations. In doing so, we
have used Grounded Theory (Strauss, 1987; Strauss &
Corbin, 1990), and methods of narrative analysis, both
familiar (Kleinman, 1981, 1988; Hawkins, 1993; Mish-
ler, 1995, 1996; Mattingly, 1998) and novel (Jordens
et al., 2001). We have followed the classical pattern of
Grounded Theory, using a process of background
reading, preliminary theorisation, weekly meeting,
memo generation and exchange, re-theorisation, re-
reading, consensus, formulation and publication. We
have conducted workshops in most states in Australia
presenting the material and seeking systematic, struc-
tured feed-back and evaluation. Feed-back has been
incorporated into reviews of theory.
We have also examined the records of 50 people,
treated by one of the authors (M.L.), apparently cured
of abdominal cancers and alive for at least 2 years after
treatment, for evidence of the kinds of distress we have
reported elsewhere. Post-cancer distress requiring spe-
cific support was present in 16 of the 50 (32%, 95%
confidence intervals 21–45%). We certainly do not
believe that the problems we report in this paper affect
all survivors.
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Extreme experience
There is inevitably a difference between those who
observe and those who participate in mortal extreme
experience, the experience which threatens life. Partici-
pants are aware that their lives are actually at risk.
Observers know that a life is at risk, but not their life.
Nevertheless, observing the suffering of another is
disturbing. Terror Management Theory concludes that
observers are made mortality salient—that is, uncom-
fortably aware of mortality as the common and
inevitable fate of humankind (Pyszczynski, Greenberg,
Solomon, & Hamilton, 1990; Solomon, Greenberg, &
Pyszczynski, 1991; Arndt, Greenberg, Simon, Pyszc-
zynski, & Solomon, 1998; Solomon, Greenberg, &
Pyszczynski, 2000; Greenberg, Arndt, Schimel, Pyszc-
zynski, & Solomon, 2001; Strachan, Pyszczynski, Green-
berg, & Solomon, 2001). Mortality salience seeks relief
in acts of bonding with one’s in-group, looking for
confirmation of personal values and evidence that those
values will persist beyond one’s own death. It is, in
effect, an outward turning to others for reassurance and
bonding.
There is another kind of extreme experience in which
the threat is to identity, rather than life (Little et al.,
2001, pp. 94–105). Situations such as prisons, concen-
tration camps, hostile occupation of a country, systema-
tic discrimination and torture all rob people of
autonomy, alter their relationships with communities
of support, reduce or remove any sense of security and
the capacity for human flourishing. This might be called
identity extreme experience. The two forms of extreme
experience are closely related. Those enduring the
mortal kind face challenges to identity. Reynard, a
retired medical practitioner, treated by stem cell
transplant for acute leukaemia, says:
I had four central lines, and I had two bouts of
septicaemia, I lost every hair on my body, and it is,
the part of it that was really hard was the, the fact
that you lose your identity. Because even when I was
at the hospital, and I would go down in the lift and
up in the lift, and I would meet some of my
colleagues after and had to introduce myself. People
I had known for twenty or thirty yearsy
Those enduring the identity kind frequently question
whether death might be a better alternative: suicide
among prisoners is relatively common. While recognis-
ing this nexus, we will deal predominantly with mortal
extreme experience in this paper.
To be the participant in a mortal extreme experience is
to be confronting dying with hope. That is, the subjective
probability of dying is less than 1. As the course of the
experience is run, bifurcations in the course appear and
the participant moves closer to or further away from the
path to his or her own death. At each bifurcation, the
subjective probability of death changes towards or away
from 1. This is mortal extremity salience. Samantha
Miles reflects on an episode which made her aware of the
reality of dying as she is treated for acute leukaemia. In
her book Topic of Cancer, she writes
One afternoon, as my mother read in the armchair
and I lay across my bed writing a letter and spitting
into my plastic bowl, the telephone rang. It was my
friend Catherine.
‘Bruce Bell is dead,’ she said.
I was shocked into silence.
‘He went into a coma a few nights ago and never
recovered.’ Catherine paused. ‘Man, are you still
there?’
‘Yeah,’ I managed.
She went on talking but I wasn’t listening. I felt
frozen. I had never ad to cope with somebody I knew
dying before. Especially someone like Bruce, some-
one like me.
‘What’s the matter?’ my mother asked when I’d
hung up.
‘Bruce is dead.’
‘Oh, no,’ she exclaimed. ‘Oh my God.’
I was silent. I couldn’t quite work out what I felt. I
think I was mostly petrified. If it could happen to
Brucey
(Miles, 1995 p. 267)
Anna was 13 when her liver cancer was diagnosed. In
her spoken narrative, she says:
There were times there after the first operation and
the first lot of chemo when I had no idea what this
chemo was going to do to me, and what it had done
to me, there was just no way that I was going back to
that hospital. And I remember saying ‘I am not
going, I am not going’, and mum was like, well ‘Let’s
go and buy you a coffin then, because that’s what it’s
going to be’, and then that is the first time that I
thought ‘Hang on a minute, this is pretty serious, I
have got to go back’, but every other time, like she
was just so positive that I never thought that wasn’t
going to work.
Bert was in his late sixties when he underwent surgery
for colon cancer, which left him with a colostomy. The
deaths of others made him aware that his own death was
possible:
Well I suppose in a sense you were helpful to each
other [in the hospital ward], you know, in there with
a common bond. And unfortunately while I was
there two people died. But uh apparently their’s was
found a bit late. And um, so I believe. And that’s a
bit traumatic (nervous laugh). Well they do it very
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discreetly of course, but you have, you know, a ward,
an area where there are pretty sick people.
Helen reports her reaction to a common event in
hospital wards:
So as soon as I kind of arrived at the hospital the
priest came in and I thought: ‘Oh shit, this is it.’ You
know what I mean?
She also records a common response to a cancer
diagnosis:
I suppose when I heard about it I thought—you
think of cancer, death. I mean you just think of
dying, you don’t think of the people that recover.
Lynn remembers waiting in the operating suite for the
anesthetist and surgeon to arrive:
I thought: ‘This is it. I could die’. But I wasn’t scared
of that. Like I wasn’t scared of dying, because I have
got that hope, you know, afterwards. But I thought:
‘Yeah well this could be it for me. I could be going
to die’.
Mark accepts that he may have a price to pay because
he have a permanent colostomy, but asks the surgeon to
save his life, whatever the cost:
He [Mark’s surgeon] says: ‘You are going to get two
options. You either keep your bowel, keep the rest of
your bowel, or the whole lot’s gotta go, and you’ll
have a bag for the rest of your life’. And I said: ‘Well
whatever the case may be as long as you keep me
alive’.
In each of these quotes, the possibility of death is
entertained, but not its certainty. Only in K .ubler–Ross’s
phase of acceptance during dying does the subjective
probability of death reach 1, or asymptotically close to
1. At that stage, the mortal extreme experience moves
into the salience of dying (dying salience) (Little &
Sayers, in press). Nuland writes about this transition
from extremity to dying salience (Nuland, 1997, pp.
222–262), as he observes it in his brother and his friend
Robert DeMatteis during their terminal illnesses. Dying
salience is the developing awareness that this experience
is the experience of dying, an experience that will
culminate in personal death and extinction, a ‘demotion
down the evolutionary scale into nothingness’, as
Broyard writes in Intoxicated by My Illness (Broyard,
1992, p. 91):
There is sudden pathos. I had seemed to friends and
acquaintances to be good for another twenty years.
They found a dying Anatole easier to like, more
interesting. I have become a ghost who is at the same
time more real than they are. I have lost my
remorselessness. I find it difficult to be serious, to
give up a lifetime of irony.
(Broyard, 1992, p. 68)
Death salience
Death salience is the reflective awareness in a survivor
that a mortal extreme experience could have led the
subject down a fork in the road of serious illness to
death and personal extinction (Little & Sayers, 2003). It
is an inability to deny the reality of personal death by a
person who has life. It is also a confrontation with
meaning in a life, a recognition that ‘Any meaningy is
better than none’ (Broyard, 1992, p. 65). It implicitly
raises the reality that the whole process will have to be
lived through again and perhaps again, but that at some
time death will be the outcome. Anna, finishing her
chemotherapy for liver cancer before her surgery,
remembers the moment when her own possible death
becomes an overpowering reality:
When I had my last treatment, I asked Prof K, what
would have happened, you know, how long would I
have had if the chemo hadn’t done anything, and he
said, ‘Well you probably would have given you two
months’. And I kind of just, well I didn’t really know
that it was that serious, kind of, you know, and I
don’t know looking back whether that would have
been a good thing to tell a thirteen year old. I don’t
think, I think it is dependent on the age and the
mental stability, as well of the patient whether the
patient is coping with the actual fact that they have
their illness, it’s really touchy ground to decide
whether you know.
Reynard, 2 years after successful stem cell transplan-
tation, wonders where he stands now in relation to his
own death, asking
Am I now in God’s antechamber?
Danny, an actor apparently cured of bowel cancer,
and 3 years after treatment, recalls the time when the
reality of his confrontation with death makes its impact
in the second year after treatment:
I thought it would change my life, I was thinking it
was going to be like this forever now, you know, I
have had my major crisis, and I have realised you
know what the meaning of life type of thing, and then
you know, I wanted to have um, you know a negative
thought again you know, or, or you know a
depressive moment y And so that is what I am, I
think I got back to the, I haven’t changed. That was
the first thought, ‘Oh, I am still the same’ you know
to what I was. And then, and then I thought, and I
thought, I remember, I remember fighting them off
and not being able to say anything to anyone for
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quite a while, like probably a few months of, of
saying ‘Well, you—no, I cant’, and I, ‘cause I have
had you know this life experience, I have had this,
you know this amazing thing, a glimpse at death sort
of thing. And ah, I should be lucky that I am alive,
you know, and, and that, and that, not have to,
’cause I suppose in thinking about sort of life and
death terms I thought it was always sort of um you
know flirting with death and thinking you know that
um, you know questioning death, and you know sort
of investigating death in that sort of artistic way, but
also emotional way and what it means and stuff, but
having this, made me think that I would never you
know, um, not that I am talking about suicide or
anything like that. It is just that sort, that sort of um,
‘‘What is the point’’
Death salience—at least for younger people—takes
reflective time to develop. For both Reynard and
Danny, the realisation has taken about 2 years from
the end of treatment. During the mortal extreme
experience itself, the experience and the associated
(often suppressed) fear of death dominate. Relief, even
euphoria, at having survived characterises the post-crisis
phase. It takes a year or more for cancer survivors to
enter the phase of death salience. Even then, only about
30% are significantly affected by distress, and only a
small minority are explicit about their awareness of
challenges to meaning caused by the reality of their own
deaths (Little & Sayers, 2003). The rest become involved
in projects of restitution (return to the valued order that
prevailed before the illness) or heroic development
(expansion of the life lived before illness into new,
desirable and admirable projects) (Frank, 1995). Never-
theless, awareness of death is commonly expressed
indirectly. Ben, who has chosen a life of both restitution
and development and who rejects the idea that he feels
labelled by his cancer, still finds it difficult to name
cancer or death, or to explain his desire to avoid both:
Um and well I think: ‘Life’s for living’. You don’t
know whether something might come along and you
don’t even know—quite apart from that one [in-
dicates his lower abdomen] it [i.e. cancer] could start
up again totally unconnected with that one. And I
have got that in my head as a theoretical possibility.
And, um, I think: ‘Well that’s just unfortunate’ and,
er, not because I haven’t done anything to stop it.
But you have taken every possible precaution you
can. And uh so I continue y
Part of the distress may depend on recognising that, in
mortal extreme experience, hope is fragile and its end is
insecure. We hope to survive now—but in order to face
death again at some time. Hope is directed at the future,
but when the future has arrived and the hope is fulfilled,
another future will contain the end of hope. This is the
existentialist dilemma, which Helen and Jean express
with their accounts of lives troubled by the fear of cancer
recurrence:
Helen: I think if it came back, I wouldn’t cope as well
as I did the first time ’cause I think it would come
back as a secondary, which would be worse, and y
you know what I mean?
Jean: ‘Cause I think if I get a pain now: ‘Where is
it? Is it there? Or is it there?’ you know but that’s the
only thing that is worrying me now. If they hadn’t of
told me that I’d have been right. I would have
forgotten all about it. (Chuckles)
The objects and discourses of hope
Hope changes its object during the course of mortal
extreme experience. In cancer illness, for example, the
phase of mortal extremity salience is characterised by the
hope that life will continue. If the course moves into that
of terminal illness, hope moves its object to ‘good death’,
which usually includes hope for the formulation of
meaning for the life that is ending. Broyard, dying of
prostate cancer, pleads for understanding that might
give a context and meaning to his dying:
What a critically ill person needs above all is to be
understood. Dying is a misunderstanding you have to
get straightened out before you go. And you can’t be
understood, your situation can’t be appreciated, until
your family and friends, staring at you with an
embarrassed love, know—with an intimate, absolute
knowledge—what your illness is like.
(Broyard, 1992, p. 67)
If a cure seems to have been achieved, the hope for life
has been realised, and hope turns to expansion of the
meaning of a life, to the finding of self-realisation and
expression. There are thus two scales along which hope
can be measured at different times in the cancer journey,
and two discourses in which they can be narrated. Hope
discourse 1 is the discourse of life and death. Hope
discourse 2 is the discourse of meaning in a life. Ben,
recovered from bowel cancer, reflects in his narrative on
the experiences that have given meaning to his life, even
if ‘something did happen now’:
I suppose I will either rationalise or put it into a total
picture. I mean I have lived overseas for ten years. I
have travelled a lot and I’ve enjoyed what I have
done, and um and I sort of think back. I did actually
think: ‘Even if something did happen now or then,
um, well I have done already a great number of
things which have contributed to the quality of my
life’, and in some ways I would have been able to
rationalise it in that way (laughs). It wouldn’t have
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meant you wouldn’t have regretted it or have been
sorry about it, but um but I could have seen it a bit in
those terms. Yes, yes. So actually I have got a very
positive sort of view point about it.
Helen finds meaning in everyday things because of her
cancer experience:
I think you appreciate the little things in life, um, that
you just take for granted y I mean I was up at
church and I was talking to a lady that’s dying of
cancer, and she said she just still likes to do the
dishes, and just the simple things in life like that—
Uh, you think you appreciate them.
Observer–participant relationships
Observers find it hard to understand when the object
of hope for a survivor changes from life to meaning.
During the illness, participant and observers are united
by the hope they have for achieving life and avoiding
death. Family members may become aware of death for
the first time, as Reynard records
But ah, in my case, it has been a treble whammy if
you like, I mean, my, my family have, have been
knocked for six, because of it. Because you know I
was always out there and backing them up and all
that sort of stuff, and then suddenly from one day to
the next, even my daughter who had been roving the
world said, you know she suddenly confronted her
own mortality.
During illness, observer and participant develop an
extraordinary relationship, and may say things to one
another they would not say under ‘normal’ circum-
stances. Observers offer love and admiration both
because they want to offer support, but also because
they fear that the participant is going to die. Some
observers feel impelled to make statements that reassure
the dying person that they have mattered and continue
to matter, while participants may venture into difficult
territory in order to confirm relationships and express
fears. Lynn records a conversation with her youngest
daughter:
She’s my youngest, and um, yeah, and I said: ‘‘I
could die, darling’’. And she said: ‘‘I knowwwww’’,
you know. The others didn’t show the same—but
they’re morey they are different. My younger one is
very y You know that she loves you because she
tells you. I know the others love me, but they
wouldn’t be able to say it you know. They ‘re all
different, aren’t they?
When the hope of life is realised, and it seems that
cure has been achieved, observers understandably seek a
return to ‘normal’. They may turn their hopes to
restoration of old relationships, to resolution of tensions
provoked by illness, and to their own needs and past
sacrifices made during the illness. They often want to put
aside the things said in loving support during the illness,
to get on with the remembered, familiar relationship.
They may even feel embarrassed, and as though the
recovered person has some hold over them because of
the things said. Evan Handler writes of the transition
from illness to recovery, and the penalties of spoken
commitment under extraordinary circumstances:
I am familiar with the emotional retreat that can
follow an episode of revealing too much; of promis-
ing more than can be delivered; of pledging a love too
large. When Jackie and I found ourselves spared the
brutality of a separation imposed by premature
death, what we discovered instead was the shame of
realizing we meant many of the things we’d said only
within a context in which they were inherently
impossible. The embarrassment suffered privately
then fermented into a resentment of the person whose
presence aroused it. And the prospect of living
happily ever after was not enhanced, but made to
seem ludicrous.
(Handler, 1996, p. 236)
If the ‘cured’ survivor seeks to meet the hope of
increasing the meaning of his or her life, it may seem like
rejection or selfishness to observers. In other words, the
survivor may pass from Hope discourse 1 to Hope
discourse 2, while the observers hope to move to
a discourse of normality (which we might call Hope
discourse 3). Lynn records that her husband seems to
want to play down the magnitude of Lynn’s cancer
experience, to normalise it:
And my husband says to me: [mocking, sing-song
tone] ‘You don’t know what life is all about’. And I
think: ‘How come he can say that to me when I have
had some of the experience?’ I said: ‘I don’t believe
I’ve had anything worse than most people, but I do
know what it is about. I have experienced some
things that some people will never have.’
Death salience and the deep self
Death salience breaches the barrier that normally
exists between the social self and the deep self, forcing an
unaccustomed encounter with the realities of the deep
self (Little & Sayers, in press). Handler describes the
experience of seeing into the depths of the self:
y I’m always aware of a little doorway that exists
down near the floor of my consciousness y when I
do open the door and bend down to its level, I feel
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like Alice after she passed through the looking glass
y It’s the land I inhabited when all I craved was a
day free of painy Those are the moments of my life
y The quickest way—sometimes the only way—to
conjure one of those moments, is to have a brush
with death.
(Handler, 1996)
Danny struggles with similar insights into deeply held
values that are hard to articulate:
So getting back in there, there is some sort of, some
sort of um blockage, some sort of you know trap
door or something that you, I can’t get into, so that is
why I feel I am sort of stumped about talking about
it, and maybe, huh, maybe there is that thing of, um
of um wanting to tell it in a, in a particular way or
something, I don’t knowy So (clearing throat), and
then, and also, the thing, in that period of when you
are told that you might not, you know that you might
not have long to live or you know, there was a real
sort of um, um a love of life, but not of any, of
anything that was living, you know, anything that
was, nothing else mattered except, I mean the things
that mattered were the leaves that were being blown
around by the wind you know, the the smell of
flowers or you know, my children and the things of
nature, the things that actually give life and are of the
natural sort of form, nothing that sort of that is
organised about life and that sort of stuff made any
sort of point you know.
Handler wonders whether mere existence may, for
some people, carry the meaning of their lives:
It started to dawn on me that the living of my life had
been my artistic expression for years already, and
that perhaps I was doomed and blessed to have
become one of those people whose mere existence
makes a greater statement than anything they might
ever do with it.
(Handler, 1996, p. 242)
These encounters with meaning challenge the survivor
to find a new balance between social and deep selves, in
order to restore the lost order and regain a sense of well
being.
Discrepancy theory and well-being
During the process of uncovering the deep self,
however, a survivor may become aware of discrepancies
and tensions between her models of the person she wants
to become (ideal self), the person she feels she ought to
become (ought self), and the person she actually is
(actual self). These discrepancies are the basis of
Discrepancy Theory (Higgins, Bond, Klein, & Strau-
man, 1986; Higgins, 1987). The experience of discre-
pancies between ideal, ought and actual selves may
cause a drastic loss of the sense of well-being, and to self-
censoring. ‘Survivor guilt’, for cancer survivors, often
reflects a sense of unfulfilled desires and expectations.
Danny clearly expresses the guilt that follows a
recognition that desires, expectations and actuality are
out of kilter:
Well I feel like it is, I feel like it is a weakness or you
know, a thing that I should be able to control, be, be
in charge of, my moods and be able to rise above
them, you know, and just go ahead and do what I
have to do, you know
Mending damaged well-being involves finding new
ways to realise and express oneself socially and
personally. Ryan and Deci (2001) believe that this
process involves the achievement of
* a degree of autonomy,* a sense of social and personal competence, and* awareness of an ability to enter and enjoy satisfying
personal relationships.
The sense of well-being is created and sustained within
hedonic or eudaimonic paradigms (Ryan & Deci, 2001).
Hedonic paradigms emphasise pleasure—such as travel,
company, recreations, entertainment. Eudaimonic para-
digms stress self-improvement—education, new skills,
spiritual and aesthetic development, service to others,
and the like. The two are closely linked. Many people
gain pleasure from self-development. Some kinds of
pleasure-taking (art, film, music, travel) enlarge the soul.
Predominantly eudaimonic patterns, however, are more
demanding for others to deal with. Someone whose hope
for the future is based on self-development and service
acts as a reminder to observers of their own potential
inadequacies and of their duties toward themselves and
others.
The varied discourses of hope
We can now see that the emotion of hope, for both
participants and observers, focuses on different objec-
tives, and is expressed in different discourses, as the
course of a mortal extreme experience unfolds. The
illness phase, for both groups, is dominated by a
discourse of hope for life over death, because all those
involved in the experience want the participant to get
better, to recover, to be saved. For the participant, the
suffering of illness resembles the experience of dying—at
least the early stages of dying. The participant therefore
experiences dying salience with a level of hope.
If ‘cure’ is not the outcome, and the participant
accepts that he is now dying, his hope and his discourse
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change their objective to good death, a death which
confirms meaning in the dwindling life, with symptoms
controlled, dignity preserved, worth recognised and
important relationships confirmed.
If ‘cure’ is the outcome, the survivor is likely to feel
euphoric for some time—perhaps a year or more. The
objective of hope is that the heightened appreciation of
life will persist, the sense of gratitude and good fortune
will sustain a new and enhanced life. Survivors thus,
early in survival, may use a discourse of enhancement.
Since this is a positive discourse, it is generally approved
socially. It is life-enhancing, and reassuring to those
close to the survivor.
As the euphoric phase passes, survivors are challenged
to refashion their lives in the long term. Very broadly,
three discourses seem to be available. The first is the
discourse of restitution, the narrative of return to
‘normality’, to the person who existed before the illness
(Frank, 1995). The second is the discourse of Heroism,
the narrative of heroic re-creation as a better, stronger,
more aware person. Those who follow this course tell
the narrative Frank (1995) characterises as the Heroic
Quest. Both these discourses are generally socially
approved, because they are comforting and reassuring
to those close to the survivor. They deny the reality of
death, and therefore help to keep mortality salience
at bay among observers. Our own studies suggest
that about 10% of survivors adopt the discourse of
Heroism, and about 60% adopt the discourse of
restitution.
That leaves about 30%, whose discourse is that of
sought meaning. These are the survivors who tell what
Jordens and colleagues have characterised as ‘hard-
working’ narratives (Jordens et al., 2001). These stories
use many linguistic genera, mixing true narrative,
anecdote, recount, exempla and observations to express
the complexity of the lives they reflect. They are complex
accounts of complex experiences. They work hard to
generate and capture meaning in disrupted lives. They
can be interpreted as creating meaning, as it were ‘on-
line’. Their complexity, the frequency with which they
stop and start or take new directions, reflects the
difficulty of constructing meaning, and expressing in
narrative the work of meaning under construction.
Frank (1995) refers to this kind of narrative as the
Chaos narrative. His term captures the effect that such a
narrative may have on an interlocutor. We prefer to
think of them as hard-working narratives, since there is a
purposeful structure underlying the apparent chaos, and
the purpose is the creation of meaning. In other words,
hope at this stage is turned toward the creation and
capture of meaning.
While observers develop these modes of discourse to
express and realise their hopes, observers also have their
own hopes and discourses. They turn toward a hope for
normality, and develop a discourse of normality which
records the hope that the participant will ‘get over it’,
‘move on’ and ‘get back to normal’.
It might help to make mortal extreme experience and
its aftermath more comprehensible if we could simply
accept that the mobility of hope determines varying
discourses that may clash in serious ways. During illness,
the bonding effect of illness is likely to make the
discourse among observers and between observers and
participants more monoglossic, to use Bakhtin’s (1981)
concept. But after ‘cure’, the ways may part. Discourses
of sought meaning may clash with discourses of
normality, in particular. A significant number of cancer
survivors (about 30%) will experience post-cancer
distress, and their discourse of sought meaning may
cause almost as much distress in observers committed to
a discourse of normality. We need to understand, if we
are to understand the evolution of inter-linked lives after
an experience like cancer, that people change their
membership of discourse communities (Little, Jordens,
& Sayers, 2003) as their hopes move from one object to
another.
We believe that our conclusions may be applicable to
other kinds of extreme experience than cancer. Re-
sponses to television and radio programs support this
belief. We have, however, so far worked only with
cancer survivors, and are reluctant to make claims
outside our research domain.
Acknowledgements
This work was supported by grants from the Thyne
Reid Trust No. 1 (Education), the late Mrs. Caroline
Simpson and Mrs. Clare Sayers.
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