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Asl ividAw Asl ividAw

(vrosweIAW rUhW dIAW suhwauxIAW XwdW)

fw. jsvMq isMG nykI

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Asl ividAw Asl ividAwAsal VidyaVarosaaeeaan Roohaan Diaan Suhauniaan YaadaanbyDr. Jaswant Singh Neki52, Hemkunt Colony, New Delhi - 110048M : +91-98716-28810email : [email protected] : www.jsneki.com

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1. rb Koty vI Kry kr idMdw hY 13

2. pMcwimRq kI hMudw hY? 143. pwT - qoqy vWgUM jW Bgq vWg 154. AMdr vI iek KyqI hY 175. kwly ilK n lyK 19

6. msqk ivc lwltYn 207. kMm SurU kro, iqAwrI mgroN ho jwvygI 218. sMswr byivswhI nwl nhIN cl skdw 229. sMqoK 2410. Asl ividAw 25

11. iek ivicqr kbwVI 2612. cqurweI nhIN, ibbyk 2713. klm dI krwmwq 3014. swihq kI hMudw hY? 3115. AKMf pwTI 33

16. nv-nwsiqkqw 3417. iek dosqI dI dwsqwn 3618. iek scw FwfI 3719. Sukrwny dI jWc 3820. Aihswn 39

21. sbr, sMqoK qy Brosw 4022. idb idRStI 41

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Asl ividAw Asl ividAw23. iksy bzurg dw mzwk nw aufweIey 4324. mnuK dI brdwSq... 4425. lwltYn ik AwrsI 46

26. AnuBvI ArQ 4727. grmI ho qb BI roqw hY, srdI ho qb BI roqw hY 4928. auh scmuc rMg ivc sn 5129. iksy mMgqy koloN nw mMgxw 5230. gurU kw lMgr kdy msqwnw nhIN hMudw 53

31. DMnvwd dw hkdwr vwihgurU hY 5532. kwnMUn dw sbk 5733. jy inkIAW glW ivc hwr jweIey 5834. myrI ivdwiegI nw lmkwE 5935. suDweI 61

36. vwihgurU bcwauNdw qW hY, pr..... 6337. klgIAW vwly, bwjW vwly 6538. so dru 6639. scy FwfI 6840. AikRqGxqw 69

41. Sukrwnw 7042. Dup BwvyN ickV qy pvy 7143. Awpwq leI iqAwrI 7244. tyFI KIr 7445. inMdw BlI iksy kI nwhI 77

46. iek pivqr Awqmw dw dIdwr 7847. sMudr jI 7848. Ardws dI smJ 80

49. jo qklIP guzr jwey... 8250. &irj ik ZrIb mwr 83

51. iek AnUTI pRyrxw 8452. ipT ipCy vI inMdw nhIN krdy 8553. iek dYvI sunyhw 8654. iqRkwl drSqw dw Byd 8855. Srq nhIN kyvl smrpx 89

56. horW qoN gux ivhwjIey 9057. swihby-kmwl dw iDAwn 9258. iPr vI KuS nw hovW? 9459. Ardws dw ivgws 9660. DMn su dys jhw qMU visAw 97

61. dosqI nMU bj lg jwxI sI 9862. iek scw jn-ihqYSI lIfr 10063. dunIAw Br ivc myrw koeI..... 10164. AwpxI ZrIbI leI Sukrguzwr hoxw 10365. siq nwm = pivqr Awqmw 104

66. l&zW dI BUl-BuleIAW 10567. eykWq dw lwB 10668. dwr jI 10869. ASlIl bolW dw inXMqRx 110

70. gurU goibMd isMG nMU gvwh.... 11271. myry gurU nwl lV skx dw... 11472. hor koeI nhIN rb Awp sI 11673. iek dwnvIr dI bwq 118


muK Sbd

mYN bVw KuSiksmq hW ik muJ mUVH dI izMdgI ivc AweIAW keI

byAMq vrosweIAW rUhW dIAW suhwauxIAW XwdW Aj vI myry cyqy ivc mOjUd

hn[ ienHW XwdW ny myry AMdr nvW Brosw jgwieAw, myrI BwvnwvW nMU syD

idqI, myrIAW doicqIAW dUr kIqIAW qy pCqwvy rihq izMdgI ijaUx ivc

myrI shwieqw kIqI[ aunHW mYnMU isKwieAw, ik mYN AwpxIAW swrIAW

icMqwvW qy inrwsqwvW, swry Bau qy sMsy, Akwl purK dI byhd SkqI vwlI

ingrwnI dy spurd kr idAW qy inq aus dI bKSI hoeI muskwx dw hj

auTwauNidAW jIvW[ AYsIAW swdr qy guxvwn XwdW dI pwTkW nwl sWJ

pwaux ihq ies pusqk dw sMkln kIqw hY[ ijnHW mhwn ijaUiVAW dy

dIdwr mYnMU pRwpq hoey, aunHW mYnMU Awpxy AOgxW qy dubwry nzr mwrx dw

Avsr vI nsIb krwieAw[ swnMU vI qy siqgurW dw AwdyS hY:

swJ krIjY guxh kyrI Coif Avgx clIAY]

(pM: 766)

iPr vI mYN ieh dwAvw krn dI Xogqw nhIN rKdw ik mYN aunHW

sB guxW nMU ijnHW dy mYnMU Jlkwry pRwpq hoey, AwpxI izMdgI ivc vI pUrI

qrHW Gtw pwieAw hW[ qW vI aunHW guxvwnW leI siqkwr myry mn ivc

AvS auqpMn hoieAw qy iek hlUxw vI AwpxI suDweI krn leI jqnSIl

hox dw imilAw[

gurU Arjn dyv jI dw iek pRisD slok hY:

ijnHW idsMdiVAw durmiq vM\Y imqR AswfVy syeI]

hau FuFydI jgu sbwieAw jn nwnk ivrly kyeI] (pM:520)

AYsy ivrly purK jo durmiq AQvw BYVI buDI dUr kr skx dI

iesy klm qoNDrm SwsqR :

Ardws - drSn, rUp, AiBAwsivSv Ardwssdw ivgwsgurmiq mnoivigAwn (Aw rhI)

kwiv :Asly qy Ehlyieh myry sMsy myry gIqismirqI dy ikrn qoN pihlWkruxw dI CUh qoN mgroNpRiqibMbW dy srovr 'coNsiq suhwxnw ieh gIq nw ibrhVwibrKY hyT siB jMqgIq myrw soihlw qyrw

bwl gIq :pwxI ivc pqwsy

Awqm kQw :myrI swihqk svY-jIvnIkoeI nwau n jwxy myrw (kwiv svY-jIvnI)

mnoivigAwn :Acyq dI lIlw

lok-sihq :sugMD AwbnUs dI (A&rIkn lok-gIq)pMjwbI hws-ivlws

English:Spiritual Heritage of the Punjab

Divine Intimations: Nitnem

Guru Granth Sahib and its Context (edited).

Pilgrimage to Hemkunt (lllustratrd)

The Prophet of Devotion (lllustrated)

Basking in the Divine Presence : Jap Sahib

In the Footsteps of Guru Gobind Singh (lllustrated)


SkqI rKdy hn, jd kdy swfI izMdgI ivc AwauNdy hn qW iek ivicqR

AxugwQw swfI XwdwSq ivc AMikq kr jWdy hn[

AxugwQw (anecdote), pRsMglI jW lGuvwrqw iksy aucycy nukqy dI

DwrnI hMudI hY qy ieh iksy izMdgI ivc vwprI koeI AYsI Gtnw hMudI hY

jo icq nMU pRsMn krdI, BwvW nMU hulws dyNdI, qy Awqmw nMU srSwr krdI

hY[ AYsI pRBwvSwlI vwrqw suxnhwry aupr iek AYsI BwvpUrq Cwp Cf

jWdI hY jo BulweI nhIN jw skdI[ myrI injI izMdgI ivc kuJ AYsIAW

GtnwvW vwprIAW hn, ijnHW mYnMU hlUixAw, koeI nvIN AMqr-Jwq jgweI

jW myrI Awqmw nMU aumwihq kIqw[ kuJ AYsy vfy mnuK Awey jo myrI buDI

dI hIxqw qoN sihvn mYnMU vwkP krw gey, myrI durmiq JwV gey qy iksy

nvIN pRyrxw dI jwg myry AMdr lgw gey[

AYsy mnuK, zrUrI nhIN ik mShUr ivAkqI hI hox, pr aunHW

dIAW AwqmwvW pws koeI AYsI ipAwrI rws mOzUd hMudI hY jo AwpxI muhr

sRoqy dI cyqnw aupr sihvn hI Typ jWdI hY[ AYsIAW vwrqwvW dw lGU

Awkwr iksy vfy sc nMU Awpxy AMdr smytI bYTw hMudw hY[ kdy-kdy qW AYsw

vI ho skdw hY ik AYsI Cwp koeI pMCI jW koeI Pul-bUtw vI Cf jWdw hY[

AYsIAW lGU vwrqwvW Awm qOr qy iek-bcnI dy rUp ivc pRgt

hMudIAW hn, pr hryk iek-bcnI lGUvwrqw nhIN bx skdI[ AYsIAW

AnukQwvW dy bol swDwrn izMdgI ivcoN auBrdy hn[ ieh inkIAW khwxIAW

vrgIAW nhIN hMudIAW ikauNik ieh mno-klipq glp nhIN hMudIAW[ ieh

ijaUNdIAW AwqmwvW dI imhrwmq hMudIAW hn[ zrUrI nhIN ik ienHW dw

mMqv iksy dw suDwr krnw hovy[ ieh swDwrn jIvn dI swDwrn qOr qy

vwprI hoeI koeI vwrqw vI ho skdI hY jo sRoqy dI cyqnw ivc Gr pw geI

hovy qy iPr QoVHy kIqy aus dI cyqnw ivcoN Alop nhIN ho skI[

jd mYN ienHW AnugwQwvW nMU aunHW dy vwprn dy smyN Anuswr

kRmvwr qrqIb ivc lwieAw qW mYnMU spSt hoieAw ik krIbn ADIAW

XwdW bcpn qy nOjvwnI dy smyN dIAW hI hn[ ies dw iek kwrx qW ieh

hY ik AwXU dw ieh Bwg bVw pRBwv-gRwhk hMudw hY[

dUjy, ieh ik aus smyN dw bhuqw ihsw Awpxy Gr ivc hI kitAw,

so dwdikAW qy mwipAW dw Fyr swrw injI pRBwv pRwpq hoieAw[ qIjy, aus

aumr dIAW XwdW vfI aumrw ivc vI hrIAW-BrIAW rihMdIAW hn, jd

ik buFypy dIAW XwdW buFypy ivc hI DMudlIAW pY jWdIAW hn, qy aus aumr

ivc pRBwv-gRwhkqw vI bVI Gt jWdI hY[

iek pRBwv jo skUl dy smyN qoN lY ky Aj qoN cwr swl pihly qk

vI mYnMU nsIb hMudw irhw, auh ipRMsIpl nirMdr isMG soc horW qy aunHW dy

GroN bIbI suKvMq horW dw irhw[

iesy qrHW ipRMsIpl qyjw isMG horW dw qy DMn bIjI dw vI myry aupr

rjvW pRBwv irhw, pihlW kuJ vrHy gvWFI dy qOr qy, Aqy ipRMsIpl swihb

dy guzr jwx mgroN aunHW dy ADy Gr ivc ikrweydwr dy qOr qy[ hr swl

swrw tbr mYnMU Awpxy Gr dw jIA hI prvwn krdw irhw[ vYsy ipRMsIpl

swihb dw pRBwv aunHW dy lYkcr Awid sux ky myry aupr nOjvwnI dI aumry

hI pYxw SurU ho igAw sI jo Aj qk vI bdsqUr kwiem hY[

ibdySW ivc vI keI suhwxIAW AwqmwvW dy ivSyS dIdwr hoey[

ienHW ivc lygws, nweIjIrIAw, dy fw. AlI swihb, dwrs-slwm, qnzwnIAW

dy &wdr Xoieny qy ausy dyS dy hYlQ minstr swihb, Aqy AYfnbrw,

skwtlYNf, dy pRoPYsr kwrstyArz pRmuK hn[

jykr mYN Aj qIkr ienHW vwrqwvW nMU Awpxy cyqy ivc sWB

sikAw hW qy Aj ienHW nMU kwZz aupr auqwrn dI KuSI lY irhw hW, qW

zrUr ieh iksy AnUTy gux dIAW DwrnI hoxgIAW[ ijnHW injI GtnwvW nMU

mYN ies sMgRih ivc pyS krn dw ivcwr kIqw, auh mYnMU aulws-jnk qy

aumwh-jnk lgIAW qy ies Aws nwl ienHW nMU AMikq krdw hW ik pwTkW

AMdr vI ieh koeI aucycw aumwh jgw skxgIAW[

suikRq trst vloN ienHW XwdW nMU Asl ividAw nwm dy sMgRih

hyT Cwp ky ivSySkr ividAwrQI vrg qk phMucwx dw auprwlw kIqw jw

irhw hY[ ies sMsQw vloN sRI gurU gRMQ swihb jI dy sihj pwT krn dI

lihr pihlW hI dyS-ivdyS ivc sPlqw sihq pRPuilq kIqI jw rhI hY[

Asl ividAw Asl ividAwividAwrQIAW nMU AiDAwqmk, ividAk Aqy kwrobwrI srvSRySTqw

(Spiritual, Academic & Professional Excellence) v`l pRyirq krn

leI suikRq dy auprwly SlwGw BrpUr hn[ myrI qih idloN Ardws hY ik

ies sMsQw dy swry syvwdwr Aqy kwrkun prspr pRym Aqy iqAwg dI

Bwvnw nwl sdw inSkwm syvw ivc juty rihx[

2 julweI, 2011 jsvMq isMG nykI

52, hymkMut kwlonI,

nvIN idlI[

do Sbd

s: jsvMq isMG jI nykI iek nwmvr fwktr, auc pwey dy kvI,auqikRSt swihq rcnwkr, Drm dI fMUGI sUJ rKx vwly Aqy isK jgqivc bVy siqkwr nwl jwxy jWdy mhwn gurisK (sMq) hn[ kyvl iehInhIN hY ik auh ieko smyN fwktr, lyKk qy Dwrimk KojI hn blik aunHWny ienHW iqMnW hI KyqrW ivc isKrnwqimk nwmxw vI KitAw hY[

hQlI pusqk “Asl ividAw” dI jd mYN prU& rIifMg krirhw sW qW bwr-bwr myrIAW AKW ivc vYrwgI hMJU Clk pYNdy, mYnMU GVImuVI mMUh Dox leI jwxw pYNdw Aqy Agy pVHn leI iPr qoN Awpxy Awp nMUsMBwlxw pYNdw[ sbb nwl myry kmry ivc bYTy iek irSqydwr ny iehvrqwrw dyK ky mYnMU puiCAw, “ieh kI pVH rhy ho[” auqr dyx dI bjweymYN iek vrkw aunHW vl pVHn leI srkw idqw[ pVHn qoN bwAd AKW qyhQ rKI auh vI mUMh Dox vl qur pey[

myry iek dosq jo pihlW myry nwl kwlj pVHwauNdy sn qy ipCoNipRMsIpl bx gey qy hux irtwierf hn, Swm nMU mYnMU imlx Awey qy iespusqk dw KrVw bdo bdI pVHn leI lY gey[ Agly idn jd swfI glhoeI qW kihx lgy, “ies ny mYnMU bhuq qMg kIqw[” mYN hYrwn ho ky puiCAw,“ikauN, kI gl ho geI?”

kihx lgy, “mYN SurU kr bYTw, hr vwrI Awpxy Awp nMU khW ikiek hor vwrqw pVH ky sON jwxw hY, pr ieh eynIAW vDIAw hn ik mYN rwqbwrW vjy qk pVHdw irhw[ myrIAW AKW nMU bhuq drd hox lg peI qWmYnMU sOxw ipAw[ AglI svyr bwkI rihMdIAW pVHIAW qW mn nMU bVI AjIbiksm dw hulwrw imilAw[ ieh eynIAW cMgIAW ny ik disAw nhIN jwskdw[”

Agly idn, iek nOjvwn jo IIT idlI ivKy ieMjInIirMg kr irhwhY, mYnMU imlx Aw igAw[ aus ny vI iek do khwxIAW pVHIAW qW bwkIpVHn leI eynW izAwdw auqsk ho igAw ik bwr-bwr &on krky puC irhw


r`b Koty vI Kry kr dyNdw hY

mYN qIsrI klws iv`c pVHdw sW[ ikqoN ie`k Kotw ruipAw myrypws Aw igAw[ auh ieqnw Kotw sI ik ijs iksy nMU idqw aus ny BYVIqrHW myry v`l vyiKAw qy ruipAw moV id`qw[ mYN iPr auh ikqy clwxdw iÂwl iqAwg idqw, pr auh mYN AwpxI jyb ivc, pqw nhIN ikauNr`K CìfAw[ jd k`pVy bdlW qW vI mYlI kmIz ivcoN k`F ky aujlIdI jyb ivc pw ilAw krW[

iek idn bsqw k`Cy mwrI skUl qoN prq irhw sW ik ie`kmuslmwn &kIr mYnMU rwh ivc rok ky AwKx lgw, “bytw &kIr ko rotIiKlw do[” mYN ikhw, “myry kol qW pYsw koeI nhIN[” kihx lgw, “eykruipAw qo hY[” mYN ikhw, “auh qW Kotw hY[” kihx l`gw, “muJy mwlUmhY, pr Awj clygw[” mYN ikhw, “jy clygw, qW zrUr rotI ûAwlidAWgw[”

nu`kr 'qy nwnbweI dI dukwn sI[ auQy mYN &kIr nMU lY igAw[mYN pihlW ruipAw jyb 'coN k`F ky nwnbweI nMU id`qw qW ju jykr ausnMUKotw l`gy qW qurMq moV dyvy[ pr ausny moiVAw nhIN, sgoN myry v`lvyKx l`gw ik mYN iks leI id`qw hY[ qd mYN ausnMU AwiKAw, “A`TAwny dI rotI &kIr nMU KuAw dy qy bwkI mYnMU moV dy[” ausny AwpxI pCIiv`coN iek ATwnI mYnMU moV id`qI qy &kIr nMU rotI Kwx leI bYTx dwieSwrw kIqw[

mYN &kIr nMU slwm kIqw qy iejwzq leI[ &kIr ny myry kMnivc ikhw, “nIAq rws rKIey qW r`b AwpxI imhr nwl KotyvI Kry kr dyNdw hY[ isrP isìkAW nMU hI nhIN, bMidAW nMUvI[” (1933)

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hY, “pusqk kdoN CpygI mYN jldI pVHnI cwhMudw hW["so myrI cMgI qrHW qslI ho geI hY ik fwktr nykI swihb jI

dIAW iehnW 'hf bIqIAW' dy qIr swry ienswnI mnW qy AwpxI mwr krskdy hn[

hryk AnugwQw isDy rUp ivc ienswnI auicAweIAW dw koeI nwkoeI spSt sunyhw dyNdI hY[ ieh scy-sucy vrqwry jo fw: nykI swihb dIizMdgI ivc Gty hn, aunHW bVI KUbsUrqI nwl mnoivigAwnk AnuBvqwrwhIN Awm pwTk dy cyqMn mn Aqy ArD cyqMn mn ivcoN dI lMGw ky DurAcyq mn qk phMucwaux dw sPl Xqn kIqw hY[

jdoN mYnMU ies pusqk dy bwry ivc ilKx leI ikhw igAw qy myrwisr Srm nwl Juk igAw[ AYfy vfy fw: nykI swihb qy ieqny vfy aunHWdy qjrby, ivcwr qy AnuBv, mYN ZrIb Blw kI ilK skWgw ijsnMUmYQymYitks (gixq) dy kuJ svwl kFx qoN ibnHW hor kuJ nhIN AwauNdw[mYN qW iek hI gl ilK skdw hW ik fw: nykI swihb jI dI Gwl nMU kyvlpiVHAw hI nw jwvy jIvn ivc ApxwieAw vI jwvy[

AKIr ivc mYN fwktr jsvMq isMG jI nykI jI dI ivdvqw AqygurisKI pRqI suihrdqw Agy isr JukwauNdw hW Aqy suikRq trst dwDMnvwdI hW ijnHW ny AYsI vDIAw pusqk isK jgq dy jn sDwrn pwTkqk phMucwaux dw auprwlw kIqw hY[

2 julweI, 2011mohn isMG (fw.)

swbkw muKI, gixq ivBwgsrkwrI kwlj (lVky)

luiDAwxw[


pMcwimRq kI hM udw hY?

myry dwdw jI ny mYnMU puiCAw, “kwkw qYnMU pqw ey AMimRq kI hMudwey?” mYN auqr id`qw, “hW bwbw jI[ gurU goibMd isMG jI ny srb lohdy bwty ivc jl pw ky, bIr Awsx ivc KMfy nwl ausnMU miQAw qy nwlpMj bwxIAW dw pwT vI kIqw[ mwqw swihb dyvW ny iv`c pqwsy pwey[ies Adu`qI rswiex nMU AMimRq kihMdy hn[”

“kwkw auh qW AMimRq hY eI, jo gurU goibMd isMG jI dI bKiSShY[ iek AMimRq hor vI hY ijsdw BuMcn qMU hr roz krdw hYN[ auh qyrImW isrjdI hY[ svyry-svyry jpujI swihb dw pwT kridAW qyrwnwSqw iqAwr krdI hY[ iPr suKmnI swihb dw pwT kridAWdupihr dy lMgr dw AwXojn krdI hY[ iPr lOFy vyly AnMd swihb dwpwT kridAW Swm dy cwh-pwxI dw bMdobsq krdI hY[ rwqIN rhrwisswihb dw pwT kridAW rwq dI rotI bxw ky prosdI hY; qy mgroNkIrqn soihlw dw pwT kridAW quhwfy leI du`D dw iglws lY kyAwauNdI hY[ auh, pMj vyly dw ieh pMcwimRq quhwfy leI iqAwr krdIhY[ iesy nMU C`qI AMimRq vI kihMdy hn[ jwh! AwpxI mW nMU rb dw rUpsmJ ky m`Qw tyk!”

“bwbw jI! qusW myrI mW dw jo rUp myry 'qy spSt kIqwhY, auh qW idn ivc pMj vyly m`Qw itkwaux dw AiDkwrI hY[mYN zrUr m`Qw tyikAw krWgw qy nwl quhwnMU vI cyqy kirAw krWgw,ijnHW ieh m`q id`qI ey[” (1934)

pwT - qoqy vW|UM jW Bgq vW|U

byjI (dwdI jI) myry iblkul inr`Kr sn[ aUVw AYVw vI nhINsn jwxdy[ pr bwxI bVI kMT sI[ auTidAW-bihMidAW koeI n koeISbd gungnwauNdy rihMdy sn[ iek idn gw rhy sn:

qyrw qy kIqw mYN jwiqE nwhIN mYnMU jog kIqoeI]mYN inrguxIAwry mYNFw koeI gux nwhI,Awpy hI qrs ipEeI]mYN koloN dI lMiGAw qy jo auh gw rhy sn myry kMnI Awx ipAw[mYN ikhw, “byjI, qusIN ieh qukW TIk nhIN pVH rhy[ ieh ies

qrHW hn:qyrw kIqw jwqo nwhI mYno jogu kIqoeI]inrguixAwry ko guxu nwhI Awpy qrsu pieEeI]

qW AwKx lgy, “mYN ijsnMU suxwaunI peI hW Awpy TIk krGIsI[”

mYN muskrw C`ifAw[ myrI mwqw jI vI lwgy sn, auh vImuskrw pey[

Agly idn mYN gutky qoN suKmnI swihb dw pwT kr irhw sW[myry mwqw jI nwly mYQoN pwT sux rhy sn, nwly myry leI iek suvYtrbuxI jw rhy sn[ auhnW dy h`Q sdw kwr v`ly rihMdy sn, qy ic`qkrqwr v`l!

mYN qyrHvI AStpdI dw pwT kr irhw sW[ ieh qukW pVH irhw sW:sMq ky dUKn qy muKu Bvy]sMq kY dUKin kwg ijauN lvy]

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Asl ividAw Asl ividAwsMq ky dUKin srp join pwey]sMq ky dUKin iqRgd join ikrmwey]………

bIjI ny mYnMU toikAw qy ikhw, “kwkw vyK ky pVH[ qMU pwT Zlqkr irhYN[” mYN ikhw, ijsnMU mYN suxwaunw ipAW, Awpy TIk kr GIsI[”bIjI ny suvYtr pry r`K id`qI, a~uT ky myry kol Awey qy myry h`Q ivcoNgutkw lY ilAw[ kihx l`gy, “A`gy pwT kr[” mYN ikhw, “gutky qoNbZYr mYN ikvyN krW,” kihx l`gy, “jd qMU gutky qoN vyK ky pwT nhINkrnw qW gutky qoN ibnW hI kr[” mYN auhnW vl svwlIAW ingwh nwlvyiKAw[ auh kihx lgy, “qMU dwdI jI dIAW rIsW krn jogw kdy nhINho skdw[ auh inr`Kr hn pr auhnW ieqnI bwxI kMT kIqI hoeI hYijs dw qMU Anumwn vI nhIN lgw skdw[ jd auh kMT bwxI pVHdy hn,qW Awpxy BwvW nMU vI Swiml kr lYNdy hn[ qdy qW auh pVHdy hn,

qyrw qy kIqw mYN jwiqE nhI mYnMU qy jog kIqoeI]auhnW dw pwT auhnW dy idl dIAW fUMGwvW ivcoN inkldw hY

qy auh is`Dw r`b dy kMnI pYNdw hY[ auh AwK skdy hn "ijsnMU mYNsuxwaunI peI hW auh Awpy TIk kr GIsI[”

pr qUM qy AnpVH nhIN[ hQ ivc qyry gutkw hY[ qMU pVH skdweyN, pr pVHn leI vI iDAwn cwhIdw hY – kyvl qoqy vW|MU pwT nhINkrIdw[ jo qukW qMU pVHIAW ny auhnW ivc qMU 'sMqn ky dUKn' nMU vI 'sMqky dUKn' piVHAw hY[ mYnMU auhnW gutkw iPr pkVw id`qw qy ikhw huxpVH[ mYN piVHAw, qukW ieauN sn:

sMq ky dUKin qy muKu BvY]sMqn kY dUKin kwg ijau lvY]sMqn kY dUKin srp join pwie]sMq kY dUKin iqRgd join ikrmwie]

AwKx l`gy, “hux TIk hY[ bytw jI, pwT qoqy vw|MU nhINkrnw Bgq vw|M U krnw hY[ quhwfw ipAwr, quhwfI BgqI,quhwfw Awqm smrpn quhwfy pwT iv`coN pRgt hoxw cwhIdwhY[" (1935)

AMdr vI iek KyqI hY

swfy ipMf ie`k ikswn sI BweI suvrnw[ auh myry dwdw jIkol gurmuKI is`Kx AwauNdw irhw[ jd pYNqI pk geI qy mwqrw dI vIsmJ Aw geI, qW Awpxw nW 'svrn isMG' aus ny Awp iliKAw qy ncipAw[ kihx l`gw, “mYN A`j pihlI vwr 'suvrny' qoN svrn isMGbixAw hW[”

iPr auh gutkw lY AwieAw qy jpujI swihb dw pwT krnl`g ipAw[ koiSS krn l`gw qy hr h&qy iek pauVI kMT vI krlvy[ lMmIAW pauVIAW qy do-do, iqMn-iqMn h&qy lgdy sn, pr swlBr ivc aus ny swrw jpu jI swihb kMT kr ilAw sI[

hux auh myry dwdw jI pwsoN ies bwxI dy ArQ smJx AwauNdwsI, hr roz bVy nym nwl[ iPr auh bImwr ho igAw, qy keI idnAwieAw nw[ myry dwdw jI aus nMU vyKx cly gey[ aus nMU do-iqMn idnqoN buKwr cVHdw irhw sI, pr hux auqrdw jwpdw sI[

myry dwdw jI aus dy pws ausy dy mMjy 'qy bYT gey[ auh kihxl`gw, “myrw jI krdY hux mYN KyqI dw kMm b`icAW dy spurd kr idAWqy Awp AtMk ho ky bih jwvW[” myry dwdw jI kihx l`gy. “BweIsvrn isMG jI, b`cy quhwfy v`fy ho gey hn, kMm sWB lYxgy, byS`kauhnW nMU dy idE, pr Awp AtMk ho ky bih jwx dw kMm nw krnw[bYT nhIN jwxw[ quhwfy AMdr vI iek KyqI hY, aus ivc iDAwndI nok nwl isAwVW k`FxIAW qy iPr nwm dw bIj pw ky sMqoKnwl isMjxw[ iPr jo Pl l`gygw auh sWiBAw nhIN jwvygw[”

do-iqMn swl guzr gey[ b`icAW ny bld vyc ky tYRktr lYilAw[ Gr ivc lihr-bihr ho geI[ svrn isMG AMdrlI KyqI

1716

Asl ividAw Asl ividAwivc l`gw irhw[

iPr AsIN ipMf CoV ky koietw Aw gey[ au~Qy myry dwdw jI nykwrobwr SurU kIqw sI[ iek idn Swm dw vylw sI ik swfy Gr dw bUhwKVikAw[ mYN drvwjw KoilAw, qW kI vyKW A`gy swfy ipMf dw svrnisMG Kloqw hY[ mYN ausnMU lY ky AMdr dwdw jI pws lY igAw[ auh dwdwjI dy crnW kmlW ivc hI bYT igAw qy kihx l`gw, “ijs KyqI qyqusIN mYnMU lw gey sau, ausnMU Pl pY igAw hY[ mYN rih nhIN sikAw,jI kIqw quhwfy drSn kr AwvW, so ipMfoN iesy leI ie`Qy AwieAwhW[”

dwdw jI ny pùiCAw, “aus PulvwVI dw swrw hwl suxw jo qMUAMdr lweI sI[” kihx l`gw, “jd mYN AMdr isAwVW k`Fx dwsoicAw qW nw mYnMU koeI DrqI id`sy nw[ pr mYN iDAwn joVI rìKAw[qd mYnMU DrqI nhIN, AMdr AwkwS idsx l`g ipAw[ mYN soicAw iesynMU hI DrqI smJ ky vwh lYny hW[ so mYN iDAwn dI nok nwl isAwVWk`Fx dw kMm AwrMB id`qw[ mYnMU Eho mihk Awaux l`gI jo bYlW nwlKyq ivc isAwVW k`FidAW AwieAw krdI sI[ iPr mYN bIj pwauxwsI[ so AMdr 'vwihgurU' bol bol ky bIj vI pwieAw[ sMqoK dyjl dI smJ nw AweI, so Awpxy hMJUAW nwl pwxI dyx l`gipAw[ ijauN-ijauN hMJU ikrn AMdroN mYL sw& hMudI jwvy[ijs Asmwn nMU mYN vwhMudw AwieAw sW, auh ilSk ipAw,AMdr jgmg-jgmg ho geI[ mYN kI d`sW ijMd hor dI hor hIho geI[ smJ nw Awvy kI ho irhw hY[ so quhwfy pws cilAw AwieAwhW, pùCx vwsqy ik ieh kI ho irhw hY[”

myry dwdw jI ny ausnMU gly lgw ilAw qy ikhw. “gurmuKw qyrIGwl kbUl hoeI hY[ A`j mYN iek qpw muSikAw vyK irhw hW[”

(1936)

kwly ilK n lyK

ieh vwikAw EdoN dw hY jd koiety dy BUcwl qoN mgroN mYN isbISihr dy gOrimMt skUl ivc CyvIN jmwq ivc pVHdw sW[ qd qk mYnMUkivqw ilKx dI cytk l`g geI sI—kivqw nhIN, qukbMdI ijhI[auh vI aurdU ivc jo auQy pVHweI jWdI sI[

swfI jmwq ivc iek mMufw sI ijs nMU swry CyVdy hMudy sn[mYN aus au~pr iek nzm ilKI ijs nMU hjU ikhw jw skdw hY[ auh mYNklws ivc suxweI jd mMufw auQy nhIN sI[ iek jmwqI ny mYQoN auh lYky aus dw auqwrw kr ilAw qy mgroN aus mMufy nMU jw idqw[ aus ny AgoNauh vrkw mwstr mOlw bKS horW nMU jw id`qw[ auh mwstr jIAnuSwsn vjoN swry skUl ivc mMny hoey sn[ auh vrkw pVHidAW hIauhnW mYnMU sd GìlAw[ mYN phMuicAw qW auhnW dy h`Q ivc vrkw dyKky myry qW soqr su`k gey[ mwstr jI ny aus mMufy nMU ikhw, “bytw! qMUjwh, ies kmb^q nwl mYN is`Jdw hW[” mYN nIvIN pweI KloHqw sW[auhnW myrw mMUh au~pr cuikAw qy mYnMU puiCAw, “ieh qMU iliKAY?” mYNnIvIN pw leI qy isr ihlw ky “hW” ivc jvwb dy idqw[ myrw iÂwlsI ik iek qwV krdw qmwcw auh qurMq mYnMU rsId krngy[ pr AYswnw hoieAw[ sgoN auhnW myrI ip`T qy h`Q PyirAw qy bVy drd Brylihjy nwl ikhw, “Eey kmb^qw! A`lw qAwlw dw qyry qy AYfw krmhoieAw, qYnMU SwierI dI inAwmq bKSI, qy qMU kwly lyK ilKxy SurU krid`qy[ qObw kr, muV kdy kwly A`Kr nhIN ilKyNgw[”EdoN qObw dwmqlb s`cmuc qObw hI hMudw sI[ aus idn dI qObw A`j q`k nhINBulI[ Asl pCqwvw hI mn dw sMSoDn krdw hY[ bwl-kvI mn leIauhnW dw ipAwr-aupdyS pRQm kwiv-sMiQAw bx igAw[

(1937)

1918


msqk ivc lwltYn

EdoN swfy ipMf ibjlI nhIN sI AweI[ lwltYn jW lYNp hIjilAw krdy sn[ swfy pVHn vwsqy Syf vwlw lYNp huMdw sI[ bwkIkmirAW ivc, rsoeI ivc qy ifauFI ivc lwltYnW hI huMdIAW sn[

aus lYNp dI qy auhnW lwltYnW dIAW icmnIAW sw& krn,auhnW dIAW bqIAW nMU kt ky isDw krn qy auhnW ivc kYrosIn pwauxdw kMm myry izMmyN l`gw hoieAw sI qy mYN hI krdw sW ikauNik krnwpYNdw sI[ pr AMdroN duKI ho ky krdw sW[ kdy-kdy GusweI vI mwrjWdw sW[ kdy A`Dy-pc`Dy kMm nwl hI clw lYNdw sW[

aus kMm ivc myrI rqw ijMnI vI rucI nhIN sI[ hOlI-hOlI iehrucI n&rq ivc pirvriqq ho geI[

iek idn mYN ies kMm leI bYTw qW AMdroN bVw hI AOKwmihsUs kr irhw sW[ jI kIqw icmnIAW qoV idAW[ iPr iÂwlAwieAw, qd mYnMU SISy dIAW TIkrIAW qy kxIAW vI smytxIAWpYxgIAW, bwzwroN jw ky icmnI vI ilAwxI pvygI, qy sw& vI krnIpvygI[ qd mYN dV v`t ky bYT igAw, pr myrIAW A`KW ivc A~QrUAwaux nMU iPrdy sn[

myry swhmxy mMjy qy myry dwdw jI bYTy hoey mwlw Pyr rhy sn[auhnW dI ip`T myry v`l sI[ auh AwpxI msqI ivc sn, qy

mYN Awpxy duK iv`c[ iekw iek myry mMUhoN 'hwey rbw' inkl igAw[ myrydwdw jI ny prq ky myry vl vyiKAw[ myrIAW AKW Clk AweIAW sn[

auh auTy, myry pws Awey, AwpxI auNglI myry m`Qy 'qy r`KI qyikhw, “r`b ny swnMU ûS rihx leI ByijAw hY[ jy AsW duKIrihx dw &Yslw hI kr ilAw hY qW aus dw kI ksUr hY?” mYnMUieauN lgw, myry dwdw jI nhIN koeI pYZMbr bol irhw hY[ rb dw pYZwm

hI qW mYnMU suxw rhy sn[ rqw ku cup ho ky iPr boly, “pùqr mq smJqYnMU vgwr pweI geI hY[ ieh smJ ik r`b dy id`qy Gr ivcjgmg jgwaux dI syvw dw suBwg qYnMU pRwpq hoieAw hY[”

mYN hMJU pMUJ ley, dwdw jI dy crnW 'qy m`Qw tyikAw qy sBicmnIAW ieqnIAW ilSkw idqIAW ik Gr scmuc jgmg krn l`gipAw[

iPr swfy Gr vI ibjlI Aw geI[ lwltYnW smwpq hogeIAW, pr jo lwltYn myry dwdw ny myry msqk ivc aujwlIsI, auh A`j vI jgmg krI jw rhI hY[ (1937)

kMm SurU kro, iqAwrI mgroN hMudI rhygI

myry in`ky vIr prkwS isMG nMU gurU gRMQ swihb dI crnINlgwaux leI myry ipqw jI iqAwrI krw rhy sn[ ie`k idn auhnWikhw, “kwkw! hux qyrw mhwrwj dy crnIN l`gx dw smW Aw igAwhY[”

kihx l`gw, “pwpw jI! Ajy iqAwrI nhIN[”ipqw jI ny ikhw, “jy izMdgI ivc koeI cMgw kMm krnw

hovy qW pihlW aus nMU krnw SurU kro[ aus bwry pUrI jwxkwrI qyhor iqAwrI nwl-nwl Awpy SurU ho jweygI[ koeI vI bMdw kMm SurU krnligAw aus ivc inpMun nhI hMudw[ pr kMm kridAW-kridAWinpMun ho jWdw hY[ jo inpMunqw pihlW Bwldw hY, auh kMm SurUhI nhIN kr skdw[”

prkwS isMG gurU dI crnIN l`g igAw qy nw kyvl cMgw pwTIhI bx igAw, sgoN bwxI dw cMgw ivAwiKAwkwr vI ho igAw[

(1938)

2120


sMswr byivswhI nwl nhIN c`l skdw

ieh vwikAw myry bcpn dw hY[ audoN mYN koeI bwrW qyrW kuvirHAW dw sW[ AsIN koietw (bloicsqwn) ivc rihMdy sW[ myry bwbwjI dw EQy qkVw kwrobwr sI jo d`Kx ivc irAwsq k`lwq qk qyp`Cm ivc eIrwn qk PYilAw hoieAw sI[ k`lwq dw bwhlw ielwkwryigsqwn hI sI[ EDr nw koeI ryl jWdI sI nw koeI sVk[ kyvlaUTW 'qy hI AwvwjweI sI qy aUTW vwly kw&ly bxw ky AwieAw-jwieAwkrdy sn[

ie`k vyrW myry bwby ny irAwsq k`lwq dy wn nMU pMj sO muhrWByjxIAW sn[ auhnW idnW ivc Ajy sony dIAW muhrW dw is`kw cldwsI[ bwby nMU pqw l`gw ik iek kw&lw EDr jwx vwlw hY[ so bwbw,qurn l`gy kw&ly dy swlwr nMU jw imilAw[ mYN audoN bwby dy nwl sW[

bwby ny swlwr nMU ikhw, “mYN ieh guQI klwq dy wn nMU ByjxIhY, qusIN lY jwEgy?” aus ny ikhw, “lY jwvWgw[” bwby ny ikhw, “iesguQI ivc pMj sO muhrW hn qy nwl wn v`l ilKI hoeI ieh ic`TI hY[ies ivc mYN iliKAw hY ik do muhrW wn qYnMU ikrwey vjoN dy dyvy[”bwby ny gu`QI qy ic`TI aus nMU PVw id`qIAW qy Gr vl prq ipAw[

mYN bwby nMU puìCAw, “ijs nMU qusW muhrW id`qIAW hn, aus dwnW pqw jwxdy ho?” bwby ny byprvwhI ijhI nwl ikhw, “nhIN[” mYNikhw, “iPr qusIN pMj sO muhrW dI guQI aus nMU pkVw ikvyN Awey?”bwby ny ikhw, “ieqbwr krky[”

mYN pùiCAw, “qusIN ausnMU jwxdy qk nhIN, qW ieqbwr krilAw[ quhwnMU ikvyN pqw hY auh quhwfIAW muhrW wn nMU phMucw dyvygw?”bwbw muskrwieAw qy kihx lgw, “mYnMU aus dIAW AKW ivc BlymwxsIJlkdI pRqIq hoeI sI[”

mYN ikhw, “BlymwxsI pRqIq hox ivc ZlqI vI qW lg skdIhY[ Aw^r pMj sO muhrW dI g`l hY, koeI CotI-motI rkm nhIN[ qusWieqbwr ikvyN kr ilAw?” bwbw kihx l`gw, “r`b Awsry” iPr mYNboilAw nhIN, pr myry idl ivcoN qOKlw nhIN igAw[ soicAw, “bwbydIAW muhrW qW geIAW[”

do mhIny lMG gey[ kw&ly vwly dI koeI knso nhIN AweI[kw&ly Awm qOr 'qy mhIny fyF mhIny ivc prq AwieAw krdy sn[mYN bwby nMU pùiCAw, “auh kw&ly vwlw priqAw nhIN?” kihx l`gy,“Ajy nhIN[”

mYN ikhw, “bwbw pqw nhIN auh kw&lw prqygw vI jW nhI; qyjy priqAw vI qW auh bMdw quhwnMU imlygw vI jW nhIN[ aus nMU qW qusWAwpxw nW pqw vI nhIN dìsAw hoieAw[” bwbw Pyr muskrwieAw qykihx lgw, “auh wn aus nMU ds dyvygw[” mYN idl ivc soicAw bwbwbVw hI JbXkInw mnùK hY[ iek mhInw hor lMG igAw, aus bMdy dIkoeI au~G-su`G nw AweI[ mYnMU XkIn ho igAw ik swfIAW muhrW qWgeIAW[

qd iek idn mYN Gr bYTw sW qW lOFy vyly swfy Gr dw bUhwiksy KVkwieAw[ mYN bUhw KoilHAw qW kw&ly vwlw AwdmI KVw sI[kihx lgw, “srdwr jI hY?” mYN aus dIAW A`KW ivc vyKx dw swhsnw kr sikAw[ aus dw h`Q PV ky AMdr lY AwieAw qy bYTk ivcibTw ky bwby nMU AMdroN auhnW dy kmry ivcoN lY AWdw[

bwbw AwieAw qW aus bMdy ny Juk ky bwby nMU pMj vwr slwmkIqw qy ikhw, “qyrI ic`TI nMU wn ny Awpxy isr nwl lwieAw, A`KWnwl lwieAw qy iPr piVHAw[ qusW do muhrW mYnMU dyx leI aus ic`TIivc iliKAw sI, wn ny mYnMU pMj muhrW idqIAW qy ikhw qMU myry dosqdw pYZwm ilAwieAw hYN[” bwby ny aus dI ip`T qy h`Q PyirAw qyikhw, “ûdw qyrw sdw muhwPz hovy[” qd auh kihx l`gw, “^wn nyquhwfy vwsqy kuJ quh&y Byjy hn; bwhr CkVy qy pey hn, AMdr mMgvw

2322

Asl ividAw Asl ividAwlau[”

Srm nwl myrIAW A`KW Ju`k geIAW[ bwby ny vyK ilAw, mYnMUCwqI nwl lw ilAw qy ikhw, “pu`qr sMswr ivswh kIiqAW hIc`l skdw hY, byivswhI nwl nhIN[” (1938)

sMqoK

ieh myry bcpn dI g`l hY[ AsW EdoN iek motr kwr KrIdIsI, pr swfI &rm dy BwgIdwrW dI Awps ivc Tn geI[ aus kwrdI mwlkI JgVy ivc pY geI[ auh ie`k Koly ivc KVI kr idqIgeI[ keI mhIny auQy KVI rhI[ lok Awpxw kUVw-krkt qy gohwAwid aus Koly ivc su`tx l`g gey[ auh kwr kUVy ivc hI d`bI geI,pr kcihrI ivc aus dI mwlkI dw koeI &Yslw nw hoieAw[

qd iek idn aus dw &Yslw swfy hk ivc ho igAw[ hux kwrnMU mlby hyToN kFwaux dw qy aus nMU sw& krvwaux dw kMm drpyS sI[ipqw jI ny guAWF rihMdy bloc nMU aus dI Ju`gI ivcoN bulwieAw qyikhw, “ies kwr nMU kUVy hyToN kF ky ies nMU sw& krnw hY, ikqny pYsyleyNgw?” aus ny ikhw, “ijqny munwsb smJo, dy dyxw[”

auh svyry ds vjy l`gw qy Swm dy cwr vjy kwr nMU kUVy hyToNk`F ky Do ky iqAwr kIqw[ ipqw jI ny Aw ky vyiKAw qy aus dy kMm qy^uS ho ky aus nMU iqMn rupey dy idqy[ auh pRsMn ho ky clw igAw[ iPrauhnW soicAw, “AMdroN vI sw& krvw leIey[” aus nMU bulw ky kwr nMUAMdroN vI sw& krvw ilAw[ pu`iCAw, “AMdroN sw& krn dw kIidAW?” kihx l`gw, “qusW A`gy hI iqMn rupey dy idqy hn[ iehmyrIAW A`j dIAW loVW leI bhuq hn[ mYnMU hor pYsy nhIN cwhIdy[”ipqw jI dy idl qy aus dy eyfy sMqoKI hox dw bVw Asr hoieAw[

ausy idn ivroDI DVy ny hweI kort ivc ApIl kr id`qI[ipqw jI ny soicAw, jy ieh kMmI iqMn rupey ivc sMqoK kr skdw hY

qW mYN hzwrW qy ikauN nhIN[ ies kwr KuxoN myrw kI G`t cilAY? soauhnW AglI pySI qy kcihrI jw ky kih id`qw, “mYN ies kwr dImwlkI dw dwAvw C`fdw hW[” (1938)

Asl ividAw

qd mYN A`TvIN jmwq ivc pVHdw sW[ rwq sOx ligAW mYNpMj-s`q imMt lw ky socdw sW ik skUloN imilAw swrw kMm ^qm hoigAw ik nhIN[ iPr skUl dI koeI ikqwb k`F ky Agly idn pVHweyjwx vwly sbk nMU pihlW vyK lYNdw sW[ iPr kIrqn soihly dw pwTkrky sON jWdw sW[

ie`k rwq mYN Agly idn dy BUgol dw sbk pVH irhw sW, jdipqw jI Awey qy mYnMU pu`Cx l`gy, 'bytw, kI pVH rhy ho?” mYN disAw,“BUgol pVH irhw hW[” kihx l`gy, “bVI cMgI g`l kr rhy ho[ pr,myry pws iek slwh hY, jy kho qW dsW?” mYN ikhw, “quhwfI slwhmyry vwsqy hukm hovygI, zrUr d`so[” auh kihx l`gy, “rwq sOx qoNpihlW G`to-Gt vIh-pMJI imMt koeI AYsI cIz pVHnw jo quhwfI pwT-pusqk ivc nw hovy[ jykr myrI ies slwh qy Aml krogy, qW iekidn bVy ivdvwn ho jwEgy[”

mYnMU ieauN pRqIq hoieAw ijvyN Asl ividAw qW skUl dIAWpwT-pusqkW qoN bwhr hY, myry ipqw jI aus v`l mYnMU ruicq krnwcwhMudy hn[ mYN ieh ivcwr aunHW nwl sWJw kIqw qy auh muskrw kykihx l`gy, “Asl ividAw auh hMudI hY jo EdoN vI quhwfy pwsrihMdI hY jdoN pwT-pusqkW ivcoN piVHAw hoieAw Bu `l vIjwvy[”

aunHW dI ieh slwh mYN hmySW leI Awpxy AMdr vsw leI[ (1938)

2524


iek ivic`qr kbwVI

koiety kbwVI bwzwr ivc ie`k bu`Fw kbwVI sI, jo kyvlikqwbW hI rKdw sI[ rihMdw swmwn auh hor kbwVIAW pws vyc dyNdwsI[ ikqwbW sjw ky AwpxI dukwn dy SYl&W aupr r`K lYNdw sI[ rozaunHW nMU JwVdw, pwtIAW hoeIAW dI murMmq krdw, ijldW bMnHdw qykeIAW nMU AMgIAW vI pihnwauNdw[ ikqwbW auh Awm kr ky vycdwnhIN sI, jd qk ausnMU ieh XkIn nw ho jwvy ik lYx vwlw s`c-m`ucpVHn vwlw ivAkqI hY[

ieauN hzwrW ikqwbW dI lwiebRyrI aus ny joV r`KI sI[ ausbwry swry Sihr ivc crcw hox lg peI sI[ mYN EdoN nOvIN jmwq ivcpVHdw sW[ myrw jI kIqw mYN aus kbwVI nMU iml ky AwvW[

mYN clw igAw[ ibrD kbwVI dukwn ivc iek qKq poS qybYTw hoieAw sI[ dukwn dy AMdr SYl& hI SYl& sn ijnHW auprikqwbW bVy slIky nwl joVIAW hoeIAW sn[ mYN bwby nMU slwm AwiKAw[bwby ny ikhw, “pu`qrw qMU ieQy kI lYx AwieAw eyN?” mYN ikhw, “bwbw,ikqwbW dyKx AwieAW[”

“dyKx hI ik pVHn vI?”“bwbw pVHn qoN pihlW dyKxw qW pvygw hI[”“dyK ky qYnMU kI pqw l`gygw?”

“pihlW qW ikqwbW dw nwm[ idlscp hY ik nhIN[ iPrKolHWgW, vyKWgw smJ Awaux vwlI hY ik nhIN, ik myry isr qoN auproNhI lMG jwx vwlI hY[ jy smJ AweI, qW do iqMn s&y pVH lvWgw,vyKWgw ik aus ivclw mzmUn myry mqlb dw jW myrI idlcspI dwhY ik nhIN[ iPr aus dw mu`l pu`CWgw, jykr mYN mu`l dy skdw hovWgw

qy ikqwb myry psMd dI hoeI qW ^rId lvWgw[”ibrD bwbw muskrw ipAw[ ip`T myrI qy h`Q Pyr ky AwKx

l`gw, “Sukr hY, A`j keI idnW bwAd koeI pVHn vwlw AwieAw ey[mYN qW keIAW nMU JwV ky dukwn ivcoN k`F cukw hW[ AYvyN Aw vVdy ny[”rqw ku ruk ky iPr kihx lgw, “AYh iek twrc peI hY, nwl lYjwE[ AMdr jgw ky ikqwbW vyK lE[ jo koeI psMd AweI lY Awauxw[”

mYN AMdr clw igAw[ ikqwbW vyKdw irhw[ iksy-iksy nMU KolHky pVHdw vI irhw[ jo psMd nw AweI vwps aus dI QW qy r`K dyNdwirhw[ Aw^r iek CotI ijhI ikqwb lY ky bwby dy hQ ivc Aw id`qI[“bwbw jI, ies dy ikqny pYsy?”

bwby ny ikqwb vyKI[ aus dw nwm “Is There a God?” (kI koeIr`b hY vI?) bwbw muskrwieAw qy kihx l`gw, “bytw ieh ikqwbikauN cu`k ilAwieAW ey?”

mYN ikhw, “kI pqw ieh r`b dy dIdwr krw dyvy[”bwby dIAW A`KW ivc hMJU auqr gey[ ausny Gut ky mYnMU CwqI

nwl lw ilAw qy ikhw, “ies pusqk dw koeI mul nhIN[ ies buFy vloNqYnMU ieh ipAwr ByNt hY[ pr Xwd r`KIN 'piVAY nwhI Bydu buiJAYpwvxw[” (pM: 148)

aus qoN bwAd mYN keI vwr bwby dI dukwn qy igAw[ iksyikqwb dw aus ny myry pwsoN iek Awny qoN v`D mu`l kdy nw ilAw[ bwbynMU imilAw A`j s`qr vrHy bIq gey hn[ aus dw ichrw, aus ichrydw jlwl, qy aus dy bol A`j vI mYnMU k`l vwgMU cyqy hn[ (1939)

cqurweI nhIN, ibbyk

mYitRk dw iemiqhwn ho ky hitAw sI[ Ajy nqIjw nhIN sIinkilAw[ AsIN lok ivhly hoey hoey sW[ swfI pMjW jixAW dI FwxI

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Asl ividAw Asl ividAwhuMdI sI[ mYQON (myry qoN) Cu`t, aus FwxI ivc bldyv isMG, vzIr cMd,Twkur isMG qy bMsI lwl sn[ AsIN pMjy lwiebRyrI jWdy qy auQy kuJ nwkuJ pVH AwieAw krdy sW[ iek idn lwiebRyrI qoN bwAd swry swfy Gr Aw gey[ ipqw jIvI aus vyly Gry sn[ AsIN aunHW nMU pRxwm kr ky Kwxy vwly myz dIAWkursIAW au~pr bYT gey[ g`lW g`pW SurU ho geIAW[ bldyv isMG swfy iv`coN rqw gMBIr suBwA vwlw sI[ auhlwiebRyrI ivc iek lyK pVH ky AwieAw sI qy aus bwry d`sx l`gw,"bVw vDIAw lyK sI[ aus ivc ijMmyvwrI dI g`l kIqI sI[ aus ivcdìsAw hoieAw ik ikvyN izMmyvwr mnu`K BrosyXog qy nYiqk Awcrxvwlw huMdw hY[" qd mYN ausnUM puiCAw, "kI izMmyvwr mnuK zrUrI nYiqkvI hMudw hY ? ho skdw hY auh mwlk nMU uS kr ky AwpxI qr`kI p`kIkrnI cwhuMdw hovy qdy kMm izMmyvwrI nwl krdw hY[ jW koeI b`cwmwipAW dy fr qoN izMmyvwrI inBwauNdw hovy[ ienHW ivc nYiqkqw qWkoeI nhIN, izMmyvwrI zrUr hY[" vzIr cMd kihx l`gw, "BwvyN koeI AwpxI qrkI vwsqy izMmyvwrInwl kMm kry qy BwvyN t`br dI uSI wqr, dohW g`lW ivc nYiqkqw vIqW zrUr hY[" mYN boilAw, "zrUrI qW nhIN[ ho skdw hY auh mwlk nUM uS krky iksy AYsy swQI nMU pCwVnw cwhuMdw hovy jo iesdy ijqnw hI qr`kIdw h`kdwr hovy[ iPr qW nYiqkqw qW nhIN, ûdZrzI spSt vrqrhI hovygI[ Awpxy t`br dI ûSI cwhux iv`c vI iek pRkwr dIûdZrzI hI qW hY[" qd bMsI lwl kihx l`gw, "izMmyvwr bMdw &rz qW inBwauNdwhY nw[ &rz inBwauxw nYiqkqw nhIN qW hor kI hY ?" mYN iPr boilAw, "kdy soicAw jy &rz huMdw kI hY ?" Twkur isMGjo hux qk ^wmoS bYTw sI, kihx l`gw, "&rz dy l`Cx ijqny ku mYNsmJy hn, quhwnUM dsdw hW[ &rz kro..." mYN aus dI gl ivcoN hI kt

ky boilAw, " '&rz kro' AwK ky qMU &rz dy ArQW dw Gwq hI kr idqwhY[" swry h`s pey[ ieqny ivc myrI BYx dieAw, swfy leI cwh lYAweI qy AsIN cwh pIx l`g pey[ cwh qoN bwAd mih&l br^wsqho geI[ jd auh swry cly gey qy myry ipqw jI ny mYnMU bulw ky Awpxy kolibTwieAw qy kihx l`gy, "mYN qusW dosqW dI swrI vwrqwlwp suxdwirhw hW[ qMU hr iksy dI g`l k`tx ivc l`gw irhw[ ies ivcqyrI cwqurI qW JlkdI sI, isAwxp nhIN[ cwqurI qy isAwxpdo v`KrIAW cIzW hn[ dyK! jd vI koeI g`l krdw hY qW auh quhwfy pRqI iek pwT pySkrdw hY[ ausnUM pwT dw drjw idau, ho skdw hY aus dI soc kmzorhI hovy, jW aus dI pySkwrI iFlI jW nwmukMml hoovy[ pr jy ausdI glip`Cy suihrdqw vrq rhI hovy qW aus suihrdqw nUM smJxw qy ausv`l suihrd huMgwrw Brn ivc hI isAwxp hY[ bihs krn ivccwqurI vrqdI hY[ qusIN Agly dI dlIl hI nhIN k`t rhy huMdy, ausdI suihrdqw nUM vI cot phuMcw rhy hMudy ho[ nwly hr g`l ivc ijqnw s`c hY, ausnUM qW gRihx kro[ jy krausnUM hor spSt kr skdy ho qW kro[ iesy ivc hI quhwfI isAwxpJlkygI[ s`c, BwvyN A`Dw ADUrw vI hovy, ausnMU k`txw isAwxp nhINhMudI[ hr iksy pws AwpxI dlIl, Awpxw qrk, Awpxy Bwv,qy Awpxy ierwdy huMdy hn, jo ausdI g`l dy auhly pey huMdy hn[vyKo ienHW ivcoN ikhVw suMdr hY, ausnMU smJo[ aus dy pRsMskbxo[ iesy iv`c ibbyk hY[ qyry iek dosq ny '&rz' Sbd nUM iek vKry ArQ ivc vriqAw[qUM aus dI iK`lI aufw id`qI[ isAwxp krdy qW socdy ienHW do v`Ko-v`Kry ArQW ivc sWJ kI hY ? ies nwl qyrw igAwn vI vfyrw huMdw

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Asl ividAw Asl ividAwqy Awpxy dosq nUM qUM AwpxI g`l pUrI kr skx dw Avsr vI dyidMdw[ qyry pws cqurweI zrUr sI, pr ibbyk nhIN sI[ pr gurU jI qWswnUM smJw rhy hn : cqurweI n cqurBuju pweIAY[ (pM: 324) cqurBuju dI g`l qW quhwnUM Swied dUr dI l`gy, ies nwl qusWbMidAW dy nyVy vI nhIN ho skdy[ aunHW qoN dUr hI ho skdy ho[ aunHW nMUpry hI htw skdy ho[ nyVy hox leI suihrdqw drkwr huMdI hY["

(1940)

klm dI krwmwqiek vyrW pMifq kwlIdws jI nwl gujrWvwly myrI mulwkwq

hoeI[ qd mY pMdrW ku virAW dw sW[ mY vI kuJ-kuJ kivqw ilKxl`g igAw sW[ ieh g`l myry bwbw jI ny pMifq jI hurW nUM d`sI hoeIsI [

mY igAw qW kihx l`gy, mYN hIr-rWJy dw ik`sw iliKAw sI [myrw iÂwl sI ik ieh vwirs Swh nwloN svwieAw ey[ lau ieh bYNqsuxo vwirS Swh dw :

igAw B`j qkdIr dy nwl TUTwLY jw kImq swQoN m`t dI vy […iPr aunHW Awpxw suxwieAw[ auh scmuc vwirs Swh nwloN

svwieAw sI[ mYnUM kihx lgy, “myry kol keI Swier pMjwbI dy AwauNdyhn[ mY aunHW nMU kihMdw honW do lweInW iesy kw&Iey rdI& qy qusIN vIAwK ivKwE, pr koeI kuJ AwK nhIN sikAw[ mYN suixAw qyry bwby koloNqMU vI kivqw ilKx lg ipAw eyN [ qMU koiSS kr iSAr iek-do iesykw&Iey rdI& qy bxw["

mY ikhw, “ pMifq jI mY qW isKWdrU hW, kvI nhIN pr quhwfwhukm nhIN twl skdw[ mYnUM iek-do imMt socx leI dy idE”[ pMifq

jI kihx lgy, “ do imMt ikauN cwr imMt lau”[ iPr mYnMU iekilAW CoVky bwhr cly gey qy pMj-sq imMtW qk prq Awey, qy puiCAw, “ kuJbxI gl” ?

mYN ikhw, “ jI do iSAr qusW bwry khy hn”[auqsuk ho ky kihx l`gy, “ myry bwry ? suxwE iPr” [mYN pihlW KMGUrw mwr ky glw sw& kIqw qW kihx l`gy, “gw

ky suxwvNygw?” mY ikhw , “mY gwaux jogw ik`Qy hW ? quhwfy ruAb A`gyjurAq krn lìgAw glw ûSk ho igAw sI, ies leI KMGUrw mwrky glw sw& krn dw jqn kIqw[” kihx lgy, “glW hI krI jweyNgwik suxwvyNgw vI?” mYN suxwaux l`gw :

klm qusW dI vhy qW Zzb Fwhy,ieh qW rUhW dy rMg pl`tdI vy[sIs Awpxw klm krvw AweI,qy hux inMdkW dy sIs k`tdI vy [pMifq jI auTy, myry isr 'qy h`Q PyirAw, AMdroN imsrI qy

lwcIAW lY Awey qy mYnMU pRSwd id`qw[ nwly AsIs id`qI, “prmwqmwkry srsvqI qyrI rcnw qy bYTy” [

eyfy v`fy Swier qoN ieh AsIs pRwpq krky mYN v`fw-v`fwpRqIq krn l`g ipAw[ (1940)

swihq kI hM udw hY?

koiety dy BUcwl qoN bwAd do swl is`bI rih ky AsIN vwpskoiety prqy qW hr QW nvIN auswrI AYsI ho rhI sI ijs nMU BUcwl nwlnukswn nw ho sky[

swfy skUl dI Ajy p`kI iemwrq bxnI sI, k`cI iemwrq hIbxI sI[ zmIn ivc lkVI dy b`ly gf ky bwhr lohy dIAW cwdrW Tok

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Asl ividAw Asl ividAwky kmry bxw ley gey sn[

pMjwbI myrw mzmUn nhIN sI[ mYN swieMs dy mzmUn ley hoeysn[ pr swieMs dI jmwq Gusw (C`f) ky bVI vwrI pMjwbI dI klwsivc Aw bihMdw sW[ igAwnI nirMdr isMG soc horIN swnMU pMjwbIpVHwauNdy sn[ auh bVy idlcsp AiDAwpk sn[ auhnW dI jmwqivc bYTxw cMgw lgdw sI[

ijs kmry ivc auh jmwq lgdI sI, auh ividAwrQIAW nyskUl dy jmWdwr qy munSI dI mdd nwl Awp bxweI sI[ bVI byFbIbxI sI, pr aus dw nwm soc jI ny 'SIS mh`l' r`K id`qw sI[ b`cyAwpxy ies byFby kmry nMU mwx nwl slwihAw krdy sn[

iek idn swieMs dw pRYktIkl CyqI mukw ky ausy 'SIS mh`l'ivc mYN pMjwbI pVHn clw igAw[ soc jI pVHw rhy sn[ auhnW bicAWnMU pu`iCAw[ “swihq iks nMU kihMdy hn?”

iek b`cw, “pVHn vwlIAW ikqwbW nMU[”dUjw bcw, “pVHn vwlIAW auhnW ikqwbW nMU jo skUl ivc nhIN

pVHweIAW jWdIAW[” sB b`cy h`s pey[qIjw b`cw, “nroeIAW pusqkW nMU[”soc jI! SwbwS b`cy, swihq ivc kyvl nroeIAW pusqkW hI

Swiml hn[ pr nroeIAW pusqkW ivc swieMs dIAW pusqkW vISwiml hn[ qW vI aunHW nMU swihq nhIN ikhw jWdw[ jo pusqkW kyvljwxkwrI dyNdIAW hn, auh swihq nhIN hMudIAW[”

ie`k hor b`cw, “ijnHW pusqkW qoN mnorMjn imly auh swihqhuMdIAW hn[”

soc jI : SwbwS b`cy, mnorMjn swihq dw iek gux hY[ prkyvl mnorMjn dyx vwlIAW pusqkW zrUrI nhIN cMgw swihq hox[ASlIl ikqwbW qoN ie`k hoCw ijhw mnorMjn qW imldw hY, pr auhnwl auqyjnw vI jgwauNdIAW hn[ cMgw swihq auqyjnw nhIN jgwauNdwsgoN rs dyNdw hY[”

ie`k b`cw : qusIN Awp d`so nw swihq kI huMdw hY?soc jI : swihq, sw…ih`q dw ArQ hY ipAwr vwlw[

jo pusqkW ipAwr vwlw Awcrx jgwaux auh hI nroey swihqdw Bwg huMdIAW hn[ sB qoN v`D ipAwr iks dy kol hY?

ie`k b`cw : r`b kol !soc jI : SwbwS ! r`b qW suDw ipAwr hY[ ieh smJ lau,

auh ipAwr ho ky hr QW smwieAw hoieAw hY[ ij`QoN-ikqoN vI swnMUipAwr pRwpq hMudw hY – BwvyN mwipAW dw, BwvyN BYx-BrwvW dw, BwvyNswk-sbMDIAW dw, BWvyN dosq-im`qrW dw qy BwvyN mIAW jW bIvI dw –auh r`b dw ipAwr hI hMudw hY[ jo swihq sB nMU ipAwr krnwisKlWdw hY auhI sB qoN au~qm swihq hMudw hY[ iksy AYsI pusqkdw nwm lau jo sB nMU ipAwr krnw isKlWdI hY[

ie`k b`cw : sRI gurU gRMQ swihbsoc jI : jIaUNdw rho[ siqgurU qYnMU cVHdIAW klW bKSy[ ies

Drm gRMQ qoN v`D s`c-muc hor koeI swihq nhIN! (1940)

AKMf pwTI

dsvIN jmwq dw iemiqhwn nyVy Aw phuMcw sI[ swfy skUl dIirvwieq sI ik iemiqhwn qoN pihlW AKMf pwT dw Bog pwieAwjWdw sI[ skUl dy nwl hI gurduAwry dI iemwrq sI[ auQy pwT rKdysn qy ividAwrQI GMty-GMty dI ifaUtI dyNdy sn, bYT ky pwT suxn dIqy jykr pwTI nMU koeI loV hovy qW ieSwrw smJ ky auh loV pUrI krndI, qy Agly pwTI nMU vyly isr phMucx dI Xwd idvwaux dI[

myrI ifaUtI rwq dy 12 qoN 1 vjy dI sI[ ausy smyN hI soc jIdI pwT dI ifaUtI sI[ auh ds imMt pihlW hI phMuc gey[ auhnWpihlW cY~k kIqw ik ifaUtI 'qy b`cy phMuc gey hn ik nhIN[ AsIN

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Asl ividAw Asl ividAwcyqMn ho ky A`gy hI bYTy hoey sW – mYN qy myry nwl dw dUjw swQI vI[soc jI ny Aw ky mYnMU ikhw, “bytw! A`j myrI QW qMU pwT kryNgw, qy mYNqyrI QW syvw dI ifaUtI idAWgw[”

mYN ikhw, “mYN pwT qW kr lYNdw hW, pr AKMf pwT ivc kdynhIN bYTw[ nwly gurduAwry dI bIV pd-Cyd vwlI nhIN, mYQoN ZlqIAWho jwxgIAW[”

soc jI kihx lgy, “icMqw nw kro mYN quhwfy ipCy KVw hovWgw,ij`Qy AVogy jW aukweI hovygI, auQy bol ky TIk krw idAWgw[”

hukm mMn ky mYN vyly isr pwT dI vwrI qy soc jI dI QW bYTigAw[ GMtw Br pwT kIqw qy Agly pwTI ny mYnMU Awx auTwieAw[ socjI ny mYnMU j`PI ivc lY ilAw qy ikhw, “Aj qoN ieh bytw AKMf pwTIho igAY[ s`cy pwqSwh qYnMU iemiqhwn ivc au~cqm kwmXwbIbKSy[” scy pwqSwh ny sc-muc hI bKS idqI[ (1941)

nv-nwsiqkqw

qd mYN eIsweIAW dy &wrmn ikRscIAn kwlj lwhOr dwividAwrQI sW[ gurU nwnk swihb dIAW jnm swKIAW ivcoN krwmwqWdIAW swKIAW suxdw, qy iPr hzrq eIsw dIAW krwmwqW dIAWswKIAW bwry jwxUM huMdw mYN ieh swr kiFAw sI ik krwmwqW dw Drmnwl Ain`KVvW sMbMD hY[ pr swieMs dw ividAwrQI hox krky mYnMUswieMs dIAW krwmwqW Drm dIAW krwmwqW qoN vfIAW lgx lgIAW[so mYN ijvyN Drm v`loN kuJ ASrDk ijhw ho igAw[

iek idn bweIbl klws ivc sbk sI, “mwlk hI dyNdw hYqy auhI swQoN vwps vI lY skdw hY[” qy pVHwaux vwly pRo&Ysr swihbny ikhw, “ieh izMdgI vI swfI nhIN, ijs ny id`qI hY, lY vI skdwhY[” myrw i^Awl hY mYnMU ies g`l qy XkIn nhIN sI AwieAw[ mYNsoicAw, “ieh izMdgI qW myrI hY, mYN jo cwhy ies dw bxw skdw jW

ivgwV skdw hW[” so mYN auT ky eyho g`l pRo&Ysr swihb nMU kihidqI[ swrI klws myry vl pRSMsk nzrW nwl vyK rhI sI[ mYnMU lgwijvyN mYN Awpxy sihkrmIAW dy mn dI pRqIinDqw kIqI hY – so mnhI mn ies g`l dw AiBmwn hMFw irhw sW[

qd pRo&Ysr swihb boly, “ieh izMdgI qyrI hY?”“hW jI[” mYN ikhw[“qMU ^rIdI hY? qyrI in`jI jwiedwd hY?”“mYN ^rIdI qW nhIN pr hY qW myrI, iksy hor dI qW nhIN[”“SwbwS!” pRo&Ysr swihb ny ikhw, “qy qMU jo cwhyN ies dw kr

skdw hY?”“hW jI[”“qW iPr Awpxw iek pYr au~pr cu`k[”mYN cu`k idqw[“hux dUjw vI cu`k[”mYN pihlW r`K idqw qy dUjw cu`k ilAw[“mYN qYnMU pihlw pYr vwps rKx nMU qy nhIN sI ikhw, dUjw pYr

vI nwl auTwx leI ikhw sI[”“ieh ikvyN ho skdw hY? ieh qW nhIN ho skdw[”“bs ! qMU qW ikhw sI 'mYN jo cwhW kr skdw hW[' dovyN pYr qW

qMU cu`k nhIN sikAw[”“ieh qW DrqI ivc, gRYvytI kr ky hY[”“bytw gRYvytI r`b dI pYdw kIqI hoeI iek SkqI hY[ aus

dIAW pYdw kIqIAW hoeIAW byAMq AYsIAW SkqIAW hn[ AsINiksy dI vI aulMGxw nhIN kr skdy[ swieMs ny kyvl iehnWSkqIAW nMU BwilAw hY qy auhnW qoN &wiedw auTwaux dw jqnkIqw hY[ auh iksy AYsI SkqI nMU pYdw nhIN kr skdI[ bwkI rhIg`l qyrI izMdgI dI, qMU Awp socIN, ik kI s`cmuc ieh qyrI hY?”

(1943)

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ie`k dosqI dI dwsqwn

inhwl isMG horIN lwhOr kwlj pVHdy sn, jd mYN Ajy skUlivc nOvIN jmwq ivc sW[ auh lwhOroN grmIAW dIAW Cu`tIAW ivckoiety Awey hoey sn[ koietw TMFI QW hox krky auQy srdIAW ivcCu`tIAW hMudIAW sn, grmIAW ivc swfw skUl l`gdw hMudw sI[

ihswb dy swfy mwstr jI bImwr ho gey qy hYfmwstr swihbny inhwl isMG horW nMU swnMU pVHwaux leI AwK idqw[ inhwl isMG horINie`k svwl ilKvwaux l`g pey[ mYN swrw svwl BWp ilAw qy auhnWdy ilKvWdy-ilKvWdy k`F ky auhnW kol lY igAw[ auh bVy cikq hoeyqy myry pRSMsk bx gey[

idn-bidn swfI nyVqw bVI v`D geI[ mYN auhnW nMU Awpxwvfw Brw qy auh mYnMU Awpxw in`kw Brw mMnx lg gey[ hY sn qW mYQoNCy-sq swl v`fy, ies leI mYnMU hukm dy skx dw h`k smJdy sn[ mYNvI aunHW dy ies h`k dw siqkwr krdw sW[

dsvIN pws krky mYN lwhOr kwlj dw^l ho igAw sW qy iehvI EQy ieMjInIAirMg kwlj ivc pVHdy sn[ iek idn mYnMU imlx myryhostl Awey[ bYiTAW-bYiTAW, g`lW-g`pW mwridAW rwq pY geI[AsW rl ky rotI KwDI qy myrI bynqI qy auhnW rwq swfy hostl ivcmyry pws rihxw prvwn kr ilAw[

koTy aupr mMjw fwh ky iek drI hyTW qy iek cwdr aupr lYky AsIN dovyN Awpxy mMjy 'qy lyt gey[ b`dlvweI ijhI iPr rhI sIso grmI v`loN hux kuJ Awrwm sI[ Ajy ADw GMtw vI nhIN sI lMiGAwik ibjlI ilSkI qy DVw-DV mINh pYxw SurU ho igAw[

inhwl jI kihx l`gy ieh mINh J`t ku nMU bMd ho jWdY, AYvyN

jldI nhIN krdy[ hyTW bVI grmI hovygI[ AsIN ieh gl kr hI rhysW ik zor dI hvw AweI qy swfI cwdr au`f geI[ Gbrw ky jd AsINau~Ty qW swfy au~Tdy swr hI drI vI qy isrhwxw vI au~f gey[ bVImuSikl AsW mMjw C`jy hyTW KVw kIqw qy nIcy auqr Awey[ rwq AsWijvyN-ikvyN k`tI[ svyry A`T ku vjy jd AsIN nwSqw kr rhy sW qWmyrw nOkr tRyie ivc myrw ig`lw isrhwxw cu`k ky lY AwieAw[ srdwrjI ieh ip`Cy lw`n ivc ipAw hoieAw sI[

inhwl jI h`s ky kihx lgy, “qyry ibsqry dw rwqIN jo BVQwbixAw, auh ieh tRy ivc pw ky lY AwieAY[” aus nMU ikhw, “jwh iehikqy su`t dy[ ieh hux iksy kMm dw nhIN irhw[”

GVI ku nMU auh Awpxy kwlj vl rvwnw ho gey, pr GMty mgroNhI prq Awey[ iek drI, iek Kys, iek cwdr, iek isrhwxwbwzwroN lY ky Aw gey[ kihx lgy, “mYN soicAw, ibsqry ibnW rwqsovyNgw ikvyN[" mYN idl iv`c soicAw, “myry aupr qW s`c-muc auhnWdI rihmq brsI hY” qy mYN auhnW dy pYrIN h`Q lwaux leI JuikAw qWauhnW mYnMU glvkVI ivc lY ilAw qy ikhw, “rwq dI vrKw ny hI iehsyvw myry izMmy lweI[” (1944)

ie`k s`cw FwfI

BweI cWd gurU Gr dw rbwbI sI[ bVw pRis`D, bVw hridlAzIz sI[ pihlI vwr mYN aunHW nMU bcpn ivc suixAw sI[ auh koietyisMG sBw dy slwnw dIvwn ivc Awey sn[ pihly idn aunHW iekslok gwieAw:

nwnk gur ibnu mn kwqwku n auGVY Avr n kMujI hiQ[ (pM: 1237)koeI svw GMtw iesy bwry pRmwx idMdy rhy[ Kbry ikqnI bwxI

3736

Asl ividAw Asl ividAwaunHW nMU kMT sI[

Drupd qy iÂwl gwiekI dy ausqwd sn[ kdy-kdy k`vwlIdw rMg vI Aw jWdw[ Awvwz bVI rs iBMnI qy BrvIN sI[ kIrqniB`j ky kirAw krdy sn[ bMdSW dw aunHW pws BMfwr sI[

iek idn auh kIrqn qoN bwAd auTy qW myry ipqw jI nyieSwrw kIqw ik mYN aunHW dw vwjw cu`kx dI syvw krW[ mYN vwjw cu`kky nwl qur ipAw[ ipqw jI ny aunHW nMU puìCAw, “quhwfw swry idn dwpRogrwm kI hMudw hY?” kihx l`gy, “jW in`q-nym jW irAwz[ idny, jyivhl iml jwvy qW GMtw ku Awrwm, bwkI do vyly Kwxw, rwqIN jldIsO jwxw qW ju AMimRq vyly au~T skIey[”

mYN idl ivc soicAw, ienHW dy idl ivc cMgy-cMgy is`KW nwloNgurU Gr leI vD pRym hY[ qd ipqw jI ny aunHW nMU puiCAw, “jo kuJ BytwAwp jI nMU imldI hY aus ivc Awp dw inrbwh ho jWdw hY?” kihxl`gy, “gurU dy dr qoN Cu`t iksy hor dr dI Jwk r`KxI mYN pwpsmJdw hW[”

“quhwfIAW GrogI izMmyvwrIAW ikMnIAW ku ny?”“myrI koeI izMm yvwrI nhIN[ ijs dw mYN FwfI hW,

swrIAW izMmyvwrIAW aus nMU Arpn kr id`qIAW hn[ qy auhmYQoN v`D BlI-BWq inBwaux dy smr`Q hY[” (1944)

Sukrwny dI jWc

swfy kwlj dw iek ividAwrQI pIrzwdw sI[ bVw qkVw,sufOl qy sun`Kw aus dw srIr sI[ &u`tbwl bhuq A`Cw Kyfdw sI[XUnIvristI tIm ivc &ul bYk sI[ kwlj dy pRbMDkW dw iÂwl sIik auh rwStrI tIm ivc cuixAw jw skdw hY[

pr, dyv nyq aus dI sjI tMg iek AYksIfYNt ivc tut geI[

hspqwl ivc aus dy pl`sqr lwieAw igAw jo do-iqMn mhIny bwAdhI Ku`lHxw sI[ so auh &utbwl KyfxoN rih igAw[

mYN qy myrw iek jmwqI aus dy Gr gey, ies g`l dw A&soskrn[ auh swnMU h`s ky imilAw qy kihx l`gw, “tMg tùtx dw qWsuAwd hI Aw igAw[”

AsIN bVy hYrwn hoey[ AsW AwiKAw, “qyrI tMg tut geI qyqMU kihMdw ey suAwd eI Aw igAw[”

auh kihx l`gw, “im`qro! tMg hI tutI ey koeI idl qW nhINtùtw[ tMg vI pUrI aumId hY juV jweygI[ qy &utbwl koeI zrUrI ey?&utbwl nwloN izMdgI v`fI hMudI ey[ mYN jo do idn hspqwl irhW, mYNipAw hoieAw tYgor dIAW khwxIAW pVHdw irhw[ mYN qW smJnw tYgornMU pVHnw &utbwl Kyfx nwloN ikqy v`D PwiedymMd sI[ hspqwloN GrAwieAW qW Awpxy BYx-BrwvW nwl bYT ky ipAwr dIAW g`lW krnW[A`bw pwsoN kurwn mjId dy mwAny suxnW[ myrI qW tMg tutx nwlizMdgI hI saur geI ey[

myry mMUhoN qurMq inkl igAw, “Sukr guzwr qW bySk ho rhIN,iksy joS ivc Aw ky dUjI tMg dw tutxw vI nw mMg bYTIN[” kihxl`gw, “i&kr nw kr ikqy dUjI vI tut jWdI qW r`b jwxy mYnMU kI kuJhor pRwpq ho jWdw[ mYnMU hux Sukrwny ivc rihx dI jwc Aw geI ey[”

(1944)

Aihswn

myry bwbw jI dy muslmwn dosq vI bVy sn[ auh bwbw jI nMUbVw ipAwr qy siqkwr dyNdy sn ikauNik bwbw jI nMU krIbn swrwkurwn zbwnI kMT sI qy aus dy ArQ vI jwxdy sn[ auhnW ivcoN iekmIr mu`lw muhMmd sI[ aus dy Fyr swry bwZ sn AMgUrW qy bdwmW dy[myvy dy sOdwgr aus pwsoN bwdwm qy ikSimS lY jWdy sn ikauNik aus

3938

Asl ividAw Asl ividAwdy bwZ dy ieh myvy bVy Awhlw drjy dy sn[

iek swl aus ny m`ky h`j qy jwx dw ierwdw kIqw[ Ajy ausdI &sl iqAwr nhIN sI qy rc jogy pUry pYsy aus kol nhIN sn[ hjqy jwx leI aus nMU hzwr ku rupey dI loV sI, jo vwps Aw ky aus nymoV dyxy sn ikauN ik jd nMU aus dIAW zmInW qoN &slW Aw jwxIAWsn[ aus ny myry bwbw jI pws g`l kIqI qy bwbw jI ny aus nMU hzwrruipAw dyx dI hwmI Br idqI[ auh khy, “mYN sUd qy lvWgw[” qybwbw jI kihx, “qMU h`j qy jw irhYN, vwps Aw ky moV vI dyxw ey, mYNsUd nhIN lYxw[” auh kihx l`gw, “jy qMU sUd nhIN lvyNgw qW h`j dwPl swrw mYnMU nhIN imlygw[ ikRpw kr ky sUd lY-lY qW ju mYnMU h`j dwPl pUrw pRwpq ho sky[” do pYsy rupey ip`Cy sUd dw &Yslw ho igAw,qy mùlW horIN Aw ky hzwr ruipAw lY gey[

auh jd hj qoN muVy qW hzwr ruipAw vI moV gey, sUd vI lwhgey[ iek borI bdwm dIAW igrIAW dI, iek ikSimS dI qy doborIAW dwlW dIAW vI lY Awey[ “ieh myry vloN Sukrwny dI Byt hY, qusWmyrI hj krvweI hY[ mYN pRx kIqw hY ik jd qk mYN izMdw hW hr vwFIqy kuJ nw kuJ quhwnMU ByijAw krWgw[ qW vI mYN quhwfw Aihswn nhINcukw skWgw[” jd qk mulk vMifAw nhIN igAw, auh hr swl vwFIqy swnMU do-cwr borIAW auprokq vsqW dIAW ByijAw krdw sI[

dyS dI vMMf hox qoN mgroN iek idn aus dI ic`TI AweI myrybwbw jI v`l, “mYnMU bVy sb`b nwl quhwfw pqw imilAw hY[ ieQy iekisK &OjI A&sr AwieAw sI, auh quhwnMU jwxdw sI[ ausny ieh pqwid`qw hY[ mYN Awpxw vwAdw inBwaux qoN kwsr ho igAw hW, pr hrswl auh vsqW qyry nwm qy qyry vloN ^Yrwq kr dyNdw hW[” (1944)

sbr, sMqoK qy Brosw

sMq rwm isMG jI dy nwl mYN quirAw jw irhw sW[ sMq jI bVy

im`Ty suBwA vwly bMdy sn[ boldy vI bVw im`Tw sn[ mYN aunHW dy bolsuxn ih`q gurduAwry qoN muVidAW aunHW nwl qur ipAw sW[

AsIN qury jWdy sW qy iek mMgqw sMq jI dy Agy Aw Kloqw qyvwihgurU dy nwm qy aunHW qoN Kwxw Kwx leI mMgx lgw[ sMq jI pihlWhI h`Q ivc kuJ pYsy PVI bYTy sn, so auh aunHW aus dI JolI ivc pwid`qy[ mYN hYrwn hoieAw ik sMq jI Awp qW ku`J kmwauNdy nhIN, iPrvI aunHW ies mMgqy nMU pYsy ikvyN dy idqy[ mYN pùC ilAw, “sMq jI qusWies mMgqy nMU pYsy ikauN id`qy?” kihx l`gy, “mYN socdw hW, ik jymyrw mwlk ies nMU izMdgI dy skdw hY qW kI mYN ies nMU iekfMg dw Kwxw vI nhIN dy skdw?” mYN iPr pùiCAw, “qusW h`Q ivcpYsy pihlW hI PVy hoey sn, ieh ikauN?” kihx lgy, “kl jo kuJ mYnMUsMgqW v`loN pRwpq hoieAw aus iv`coN ieh bc rhy sn[ so mYN PV C`fyik jd koeI AiBAwgq imlygw, ausnMU dy idAWgw[” “quhwnMU ieh kdyiÂwl nhIN AwieAw ik Acwnk loV vwsqy kuJ Awpxy pws vIrihx idau?” kihx l`gy, “jd mYN Awpxy Awp nMU Awpxy srbSkqImwn mwlk dy spurd hI kr idqw hY, qW myrI dyK-Bwlkrnw hux aus dw kMm ho igAw hY – qy mYnMU myry mwlk ny kdyinrws hox dw mOkw nhIN id`qw[” (1945)

idb idRStI

koiety ivc isMG sBw dw iqMn-rozw dIvwn ligAw krdw sI[bVI rOxk lgdI sI[ au~Gy qoN au~Gy rwgI, kQwkwr, sMq qy kvI jnauQy bulwey jWdy sn[ iek vwrI auQy iek nwbInw (nyqRhIx) sMq jIkQw krn leI bulwey gey[ nwm aunHW dw gwlbwn moqI rwm jI sI[bVI ipAwrI kQw sRI gurU gRMQ swihb jI dI kirAw krdy sn[ gurUmhwrwj dI qwibAw bih ky koeI isMG vwk lYNdw sI, sMq jI styj qybYT ky kQw kirAw krdy sn[ iek idn pqrw rwmklI rwg dw KulH

4140

Asl ividAw Asl ividAwigAw, qy bwxI AnMd swihb dI sI[ qwibAw bYTy isMG ny vwk ieQoNSurU kIqw,

ey nyqRhu myirho hir qum mih joiq DrIhir ibnu Avru n dyKhu koeI]hir ibnu Avru n dyKhu koeIndrI hir inhwilAw] (pM: 922)sMq jI kQw krn l`gy qy ikhw, “hy gurU svwry Bwgvwn nyqRW

vwilE, A`j ies nyqRhIx pwsoN gurU dw aupdyS suxo, gurU kI kihMdwhY[” sMq jI dy msqk qy jlwl sI, qy sMgq ivc bYTy hr pRwxI dynyqRW ivc hMJU sn[

sMq jI kihx l`gy, “ienHW nyqRW nwl vI pRBU idsdw jy[ nyqRWnwl kudrq idsdI hY, qy kudrq ivc kwdr vyKx dw sbb bxdw hY[kdy soicAw jy in`kI ijhI inmOlI inMm dw ibrC ikvyN bx jWdI hY[aus dI hr twhxI AwpxI QwauN PùtdI hY[ iek tihxI k`t idE, qWdUjI aug KloNdI hY[ ibrK dw qvwzn kwiem r`Kx leI[ ieh iksydy hukm ivc ho irhw hY[ ijnHW vI nyqRW nwl vwprdw qW vyiKAw,pr aus dy ip`Cy vwprdw hukm nhIN pCwixAw, aunHW pwsidRStI qW hY, id`b idRSit nhIN hY qy ijnHW pws idb idRStInhIN auh AMDy hI rhy[ iPr myry ivc qy aunHW ivc koeI &rk nhIN[pr ijMnHW aupr ikRpw ho geI, gurU dy lV l`gy, qW siqgurW aunHW dIidb idRStI dy cKSU KolH id`qy[ AwE myry nwl rlo siqgurW Agy mQwtyko qy idloN mMgo, “dwqw idb idRStI dI ikRpwlqw kro[” ieh nyqR qWAMnHy jy, “nwnk sy AKVIAW ibAMin ijnW ifsMdo mw iprI[”……(pM:577)

sMq jI dI qW ies qoN bwAd vI kQw jwrI rhI, pr mYN iesArdws ivc hI juitAw rih igAw ik “hy mwlk! ikrpw kro qy kdymyry idb idRStI dy cKSU vI KolH idE[”…

(1945)

iksy bzurg dw mzwk n aufweIey

vIr inhwl isMG horW dw ieMjInIAirMg kwlj ivc Aw^rIswl sI[ mYN qd mYfIkl kwlj ivc dw^l ho igAw sW[ inhwl isMGvIr jI ny qd hostl C`f idqw sI qy kwlj dy lwgy bwZbwnpury ivciek mkwn ikrwey qy lY ky au~Qy rihx lg gey sn[ EQy hI auhnWpws auhnW dy ipqw jI (jo hux rItwier ho gey sn) qy mwqw jI vIAw gey sn[

iek idn mYN auhnW nMU imlx auhnW pws igAw[ EQoN jd mYNprqx l`gw qW vIr jI kihx l`gy, “AsIN sweIkl qy cly jWdy hW[mYN qYnMU qyry hostl auqwr idAWgw qy Agy AnwrklI inkl jwvWgwauQoN bUt lY AwvWgw[”

AsIN jwx l`gy qW auhnW dy bwaU jI (ipqw jI) kihx l`gy,“dovyN jxyN jw rhy ho, iDAwn nwl sweIkl clwxw, sweIkl ikqy tutnw jwey[” AsIN dovyN h`s pey – “sweIkl vI kdy tu`tdy ny?” inhwlvIr jI ny ikhw[

AsIN sweIkl qy svwr ho inkl pey[ vIr jI sweIkl clwrhy sn qy mYN ipCy kYrIAr qy bYTw sW[ Ajy msW iek PrlWg hI GroNinkl ky Awey sW ik sVk dy iek toey ivc Aglw phIAw jw v`jwqy Dmwky nwl Agly phIey dw icmtw tu`t igAw[ Aglw phIAw l`Qky pry jw ipAw[ Sukr kro, swnMU koeI s`t nhIN l`gI[

AklmMd hMudy qW AsIN EQoN Gr prq jWdy; pr jWdy ikhVymMUh nwl? bwaU jI ny jd ikhw ik iDAwn r`Kxw ikqy sweIkl tùtnw jwvy, qW AsW auhnW dI iK`lI aufw id`qI sI[ hux tùtw hoieAwsweIkl lY ky Gr ikvyN jweIey?

4342

Asl ividAw Asl ividAwAsW soicAw iek-iek phIAw ryVH ky rylvy stySn q`k lY

jWdy hW jo auQoN koeI mIl, svw mIl 'qy sI[ EQy sweIkl-stYNf qyies nMU r`K idAWgy qy Awp iksy tWgy qy bYT jwvWgy[ tWgy vwlw ieksvwrI dy cwr Awny lYNdw sI, qy sweIkl r`Kx dy do Awny hI l`gxysn[

jd AsIN rylvy stySn dy sweIkl-stYNf qy phMucy qW stYNfvwly ny sweIkl r`KxoN ienkwr kr idqw[ auh kihx l`gw, k`l nMUqusIN ieh khogy, sweIkl qW qusW swbq riKAw sI, stYNf ivc tu`twhY[ AsIN ieh izMmyvwrI nhIN lY skdy[ AsW ikhw qMU do itktW dy dy– iek Agly phIey dI, iek ipCly dI[ pr auh kihx l`gw, qdqW myrI izMmyvwrI do sweIklW dI ho jweygI[ AsW bVy qrly kIqy, prauh t`s qoN m`s nw hoieAw[

qd AsW tWgy vl mMUh kIqw[ tWgy vwlw swnMU svwrIAW dyihswb ibTwx nMU iqAwr nw hoieAw ikauNik swfy kol tu`tw hoieAwsweIkl sI[ auh kihx l`gw, swlm tWgw kr lau qW lY c`lWgw[pr sweIkl dy pYsy v`K hoxgy[ &Yslw fyF rupey qy hoieAw[ tWgyvwlw swnMU myry hostl C`f igAw[ sweIkl AsW auqwr ilAw qy dovyNih`sy AsIN Al`g-Al`g ryVH ky AMdr lY gey[ ijs iksy ny swnMUvyiKAw, KUb hìsAw jW muskrwieAw[

sweIkl dy dovyN ih`sy AsW nOkr nMU idqy qy ikhw jwh nvWicmtw puAw ilAw[ jd auh lY igAw qW vIr jI kihx l`gy, “clogurduAwry c`lIey qy gurU dI hzUrI ivc pRx krIey ik kdy iksybzurg dw mzwk nhIN aufwvWgy[” (1945)

mnu`K dI brdwSq, hr drd qoN v`fI

lwhOr mYfIkl kwlj dy hostl dy bwhr sVk t`p ky iek

Ku`lyH mYdwn ivc, is`K ividAwrQIAW ny iek in`kw ijhw kmrw pw kygurdAwrw bxwieAw hoieAw sI[ au~Qy hr AYqvwr ividAwrQI AwpAwsw dI vwr dw kIrqn kirAw krdy sn, bwhr kr ky ietW dw iekQVHw ijhw sI[ aus aupr iek ADKV bzurg, mwstr gMgw isMG Awky bYT jwieAw krdy sn ikauNik auhnW nUM joVW dIAW drdW sn qy auhAMdr cONkVI mwr ky nhIN bYT skdy sn[ auh dsdy sn ik rwqIN drdhor vI qyz ho jWdI hY qy auhnW dy mMUhoN aucI aucI "hwey, hwey" inklxl`gdI hY[ iek idn Acxcyq, auh AMdr Aw ky BuM\yN bYT gey[ AsIN sBcik`q ho gey[ AsW pùiCAw, qW kihx l`gy, "bwhr bYTy nUM kIrqnqW Gt suxdw sI, kwrW dy hwrn, CkiVAW dI KV-KV, tWgy vwilAWdIAW hwkW qy kùiqAW dy BONkx dIAW 'vwjW sB mYnUM duKI krdIAWsn[ mYN soicAw, ikayu nw AMdr hI jw bYTW[ AMdr kIrqn cMgI qrHWsuxWgw[ suhxy ichry, suhxIAW p`gW, id`sxgIAw[ iDAwn lwaux nUMDMn sRI gurU gRMQ swihb jI nMU vyKWgw[ iehnW swrIAW suhwvIAWsMvydnwvW qy jy iDAwn lwvWgw qW Swied drd vydnw vI G`t jwvy[ so &Yslw kr ky AzmwieS krn leI ihMmq jutweI hY qy gurU dIikrpw nwl sPl hoieAw hW[ pqw nhIN drd GitAw ik myrIbrdwSq aucI ho geI hY[ myrw iÂwl hY kIrqn suxidAW brdwSqhI au`cI hoeI hY[ Agly h&qy auh iPr AMdr hI Aw ky bYTy[ mgroN d`sx l`gy,ipCly AYqvwr jd mYN eyQoN igAw qW mn bxwieAw ik rwqIN BwvyNikqnI vI drd ikauN nw hovy, mYN hwey-hwey nhI krWgw, sgoN vwihgurU-vwihgurU krWgw, auh vI au`cw nhIN, sgoN idl ivc hI[ vwihgurU-vwihgurU kridAW brdwSq hor au`cI ho geI[ ik`Qy myrI hwey-hweysB nMU duKI krdI sI, rwqIN vwihgurU vwihgurU kridAW mYN Awp sONigAw[ mYN qW ies nqIjy 'qy phuMicAw ik r`b s`cy ny koeI pIVmnùK dI brdwSq qoN v`fI nhIN bxweI[ jykr idl CoV dyvIey

4544

Asl ividAw Asl ividAwqW Awp Psdy hW[ auh vI hY sn ijnHW ny bMd-bMd ktvw ley,crKVIAW 'qy cVH gey, AwirAW nwl cIry gey, pr sI qknhIN aucwrI[ AsIN in`kIAW-in`kIAW pIVW 'qy hI hwey-hweykrn l`g jWdy hW[ pIV vI pRBU dw pRSwd hY[ gurU jI vI qWkihMdy hn : kyiqAw dUK BUK sd mwr ]

eyih iB dwiq qyrI dwqwr ] (pM : 5) (1945)

lwltYn qy AwrsI

swDU rwGvwnMd jI koeI 70-75 swl dy sn[ aumr BwvyN v`fIsI, pr srIr qkVw qy ishqmMd sI BwvyN kyvl du`D qy kuJ PlW 'qyhI guzwrw krdy sn[ AMn Awid hor kuJ vI nhIN sn KWdy[ auh keI vwr swfy Gr myry dwdw jI nwl AiDAwqmk vwrqwlwpkrn Aw jwieAw krdy sn[ auhnW dI swrI jwiedwd DoqI kurqw qyiek kmMfl sI[ sONdy vI BMu\y hI sn[ bVy qp`svI sn[ iek idn auh Awey qW dwdw jI Gr nhIN sn[ mYN Gry sW, mYNauhnW nUM AMdr ibTwieAw qy dìsAw ik dwdw jI CyqI hI Aw jwxgy,gurduAwry m`Qw tykx gey hn[ jd AsIN dovyN sW qW mYN swDU mhwrwj nUM pùiCAw, "AMqr joiqikvyN jgdI hY ?" kihx l`gy, "do qrHW, iek lwltYn rwhIN, iekAwrsI rwhIN[" mYN ikhw mhwrwj Awp dI g`l myrI smJ nhIN peI[ kihxl`gy, "lwltYn dw Bwv hY iksy dy AMdroN suqY pRkwS ho jwvy[ iehprmwqmw dI ikrpw nwl iksy nUM vI iksy vyly ho skdw hY[ dUjwAwrsI dw Bwv Agly nUM ijvyN AwrsI ivc Awpxw mMUh idsdw hY, auvyNaus nUM aus dy AMdr joiq dy dIdwr krwauxy[ ieh gurU krwauNdw hY[

pihloN aus nUM AMdr dI joiq vloN Awgwh krdw hY, qy iPr aus joiqdy drSnW dw swDn d`sdw hY[ Ajy swfI g`l ieqnI hI hoeI sI ik dwdw jI Aw gey qy mYN dohWjixAW nUM prspr ivcwr-vtWdry leI CoV ky bwhr Aw igAw[ swDU mhwrwj nwl myrI jo vwrqw hoeI aus bwry mYN Awpxy dwdwjI nUM dìsAw qy ikhw myrI ijigAwsw ivcy hI rih geI ikauNik qusINAw gey qy mYN quhwnUM swDU mhwrwj kol ie`kilAW CoV Awauxw auicqsmiJAw[ dwdw jI muskRwey qy kihx l`gy ieauN smJ gurU nwnk swihb dyAMdr prmwqmw ny Awp joiq jgweI, jd vyeIN vwly swky ivc auhdYvI drbwr ivc prmwqmw dy snmuK hoey[ pr gurU AMgd swihbivc joiq gurU nwnk swihb ny jgweI[ pihlI joiq is`DI lwltYn dIjoiq vrgI sI BwvyN ies dw cwnx lwltYn vrgw nhIN, keI sUrjWvrgw hMudw hY[ ieh joiq mOjUd qW sB dy AMdr hY, pr krmWhyT F`kI huMdI hY[ aus nUM koeI vyK nhI skdw[ gurU AwpxIimhr dI nzr nwl ijigAwsU nUM aus dw Jlkwrw ivKw skdyhn, Awp aus dI AwrsI bx ky[ ijigAwsU ieh qW hI vyKskdw hY jy Awpxy Awp nUM gurU A`gy Awpxw Awqm-smrpnkr dyvy[ (1946)

AnuBvI ArQ

lwhOr AnwrklI bwzwr ivcoN iek glI ink`ldI sI[ nu`kr auqyiek KoKw-numw dukwn sI, pMjwbI dy pRkwSk 'isMG bRdrz' dI[ srdwrsyvw isMG g`dI 'qy bYTdy sn[ suMdr KulHw dwhVw, kwly rMg dI AkwlIpg, gly ivc gwqRw, gwqRy ivc ikrpwn, gurmùK, rMg-rqy mnuK sn[pMjwbI dy isrkF lyKkW dy auh pRkwSk sn, so auh lyKk aunHW dy Pyrwmwrdy rihMdy sn[ mYN kwlj ivc dw^l hI hoieAw sW, so pMdrW ku

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Asl ividAw Asl ividAwswl dw hI hovWgw[ mYN h&qy ivc iek idn zrUr aunHW dy jw AwauNdwsW[ iksy nw iksy lyKk nwl auQy mulwkwq ho jWdI sI[ s&Ir swihb,dugl swihb, bwvw blvMq, eISvr icqrkwr, sujwn isMG Awid mYnUMpihlI vwr auhnW dy hI imly[ syvw isMG horIN bVy imhnqI vI sn, idAwnqdwr vI[ s`cIrihq qy sucI ikrq aunHW dI izMdgI dw dsqUr jwpdw sI[ ies leIswry lyKk auhnW nUM psMd krdy sn[ iek idn bYTy auh iksy KrVy dw prU& dyK rhy sn[ mYN jw kykol Klo igAw[ GMtw ku auh prU& dyKdy rhy qy mYN kol KVw vyKdwirhw[ prU& pVHn dI jwc mYN ieauN aunHW pwsoN is`K leI[ iek idn kihx l`gy, "nykI jI, jpu jI swihb ivc do qukWAYsIAW hn ijnHW dy lokW ny ArQ qW kr id`qy hn, pr aunHW dwAMqrIv Bwv aujwgr nhIN kr sky[ iek quk hY : 'DOlu Drmu dieAw kw pUqu ] sMqoKu Qwip riKAw ijin sUiq ]' (pM : 3)

qy dUjI : 'suAsiq AwiQ bwxI brmwau ] siq suhwxu sdw min cwau ] (pM : 4) mYN jpu jI swihb dw pwT bVI vwrI kIqw sI, pr kdy ausdyBwv ArQW bwry nhIN sI soicAw[ pihlI vwr mYnUM i^Awl AwieAw,mYnUM Bwv ArQ smJxy cwhIdy hn[ mYN jpu jI swihb dy do tIky ^rId ley - iek BweI vIr isMGhorW dw, qy dUjw pRo: swihb isMG horW dw[ Gr jw ky pVHy[ pihlI vwrmYN mihsUs kIqw ik bwxI kyvl pVHn dI vsq nhIN, ivcwrn dIvsq hY[ keI-keI idn muV-muV pwT kIqw[ auh do qukW qW kI, keI horqukW dy ArQ vI dohW tIikAW dy bwvjUd smJ nw Awey[ mYN AglI vyr syvw isMG horW dy igAw qy auhnW nwl ies bwry

izkr kIqw[ kihx l`gy, "nykI jI, tIikAW ivc qW A`KrIArQ hI hMudy hn[ AnuBvI ArQ qW AnuBv vwilAW pws hIhMudy hn[ jy iksy AnuBvI Awqmw nwl quhwfw myl ho igAw qWauh quhwnUM sB ArQ smJw dyxgy[ "mYN ikhw, "AnuBvI AwqmwimlygI ikvyN", kihx l`gy, "jy auh s`c-m`uc dI AnuBvI Awqmw hY qyjy quhwfI ijigAwsw vI s`cI hY, qW quhwnUM aus nUM l`Bx nhIN jwxwpYxw[ auh Awp quhwnUM l`B leygI[" (1946)

grmI ho qb BI roqw hY, srdI ho qb BI roqw hY

qd mYN lwhOr kwlj ivc pVHdw sW qy grmIAw dIAW Cu`tIAWivc Awpxy Gr koiety jwieAw krdw sW[ koietw iek phwVI vwdIivc visAw rmxIk Sihr sI[ aus qoN koeI sO mIl pihlW iek horSihr isbI sI[ auh purwxy ihMdusqwn dw sB qo grm Sihr sI[ ausijhw hI iek hor QW Fwfr sI ij`Qy vYsI hI grmI sI[ iek &wrsISwier ny ienHW bwry iliKAw :

is`bI v Fwfr sw^qI [doz^ icrw prdw^qI [Bwv hy rbw jd qMU isbI qy Fwfr bxw idqy sn, qW iPr nrk

bxwaux dI kI loV sI ? is`bI qy koiety ivckwr iek hor QW sI mC[ieh bVI aucweI 'qy sI ieQy grmIAW ivc vI bVI TMF huMdI sI[

iek vwr mYN lwhOr qoN koiety jw irhw sW [ jd ryl gfI isbIphMucI qW ausdy ieMjx ivc koeI nuks pY igAw[ duiphr dw vylw, lUc`l rhI, qy g`fI c`l nhIN rhI sI[ swrw srIr psIno–psInwhoieAw[ psInw k`piVAW nMU vI iBauN irhw sI [

qd mYN g`fI dy bwhr v`l dyiKAw [ pwxI dw iek bMbw ijs'coN ieMjx ivc pwxI pWdy hn, bVI qyzI nwl c`l irhw sI [ aus nMUdyK ky myrw nhwaux nMU jI kr AwieAw [ mYN gfI 'coN auqirAw qy bMby

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Asl ividAw Asl ividAwkol jw pujw [ pwxI 'c hQ rK ky vyiKAw, pwxI bhuq TMFw sI [ mYN kpVyauqwr ky lWBy rK idqy qy Awp vgdy bMby hyT jw viVAw [ TMFy- TMFy pwxIhyT bVw AwnMd AwieAw qy mYN ikqnw icr ieh AwnMd lYNdw irhw[

iPr jd pwxI 'coNN bwhr inkilAw , qW prny nwl srIr nMUpMUJx lgw qW kVkdI Dùp srIr 'qy peI, qy iekdm swrw srIr ipqnwl Br igAw [ mYN 'auP! auP !' krdw g`fI dy kmry ivc prqAwieAw [ auQy hMums nwl swh Guty nwly ipq iqVky qy mYN 'auP! auP!'krI jwvW [

iek pTwx mOlwnw, isr 'qy ku`ly vwlI p`g , krV brVIdwVHI, bVI SwqI ivc myry kol bYiTAw hoieAw sI [ myrI 'auP! auP!'sux ky mYnMU pùCx lìgAw , “ikAw qklI& hY” ? mY ausnMU dìsAw ikmYN bMby hyT nhwaux clw igAw, pr nhwaux mgroN ijMny icr ivcipMfw pUMiJAw, qyz Dùp nwl myry swry srIr 'qy ip`q in`kl AweI[iqVk-iqVk ky duKI krI jw rhI hY[” pTwx ny myrI ip`T 'qy h`QPyirAw qy nwl hI muskrw ipAw [

Jt ku nMU gfI qur peI qy do ku GMitAW ivc mC StySn 'qy jwphMucI[ auQy bVI TMFI phwVI hvw cl rhI sI[ nqIjw kI hoieAw ikmyry ipMfy dI swrI ipq Bur geI pr cmVI ksI geI[ mYN iPr qoN 'auP!auP!' krn lgw[ pTwx ny piCAw, “srdwr Ab ikAw hUAw? iPr sy'auP! auP!' ikau kr rhy ho”? mYN ikhw, “mOlwnw myry srIr dI ipq qWieQoN dI TMF nwl Bur geI hY, pr nwl hI myrI cmVI vI iKcI geI hY[auh hux qMg kr rhI hY[” pTwx muskRw ipAw qy mYnMU kihx lgw,“srdwr! ikAw kuPrwny inAmq (rb dI imhrbwnI dw nwSukrwpn)hY[ udw grmI Byjqw hY qb qum roqw hY, udw srdI Byjqw hY qb qumroqw hY[ iXh ku&rwny inAmq nhIN qoN Aor ikAw hY?”

aus idn qo bwAd mYN kdy mOsm bwry iSkwieq nhI kIqI[vwihgurU jYsw mOsm dyvy Sukrwny nwl prvwn kr lYNdw hW[

(1946)

auh s`cmuc rMg ivc sn

mYN mYfIkl kwlj AMimRqsr pVHwauNdw sW[ fwktr syvw isMGvI au~Qy AiDAwpk sn qy myry bVy snyhI sn[ iek idn mYnMU kihxl`gy, “c`l Xwr BweI vIr isMG horW dy drSn kr AweIey[”

AsIN dovyN pYdl aunHW dI koTI vl qur pey[ rsqy ivc iekmweI imlI[ aus dy ichry qy bVI SWqI sI[ iksy rMg ivc rMgIjwpdI sI[ auh fwktr syvw isMG horW nMU jwxdI sI[ pu`Cx l`gI,“BweI swihb v`l jw rhy ho?” fwktr syvw isMG jI ny 'hW' ivc isrihlwieAw[ AwKx l`gI, “jwE, A`j auh bVy rMg ivc hn[” iPrmuskrweI qy ivdw ho geI[

AsIN jd BweI swihb dI koTI phMucy qW auh Awpxy bwZ ivctihl rhy sn[ AsIN Awey qW auh kihx lgy, “syvw isMG jI, iehkOx Awqmw Awp dy nwl AweI hY?” syvw isMG jI ny myrw pircXkrwauNidAW ikhw, “ieh fwktr jsvMq isMG hn[ kivqw vI ilKdyhn[ nykI ienHW dw q^lus hY[ myry bVy snyhI hn[ Aj myry nwl AwpjI dy drSnW leI cly Awey hn[” BweI swihb ny myry moFy qy hlkIijhI QwpI dyNidAW 'jIE AwieAW' AwiKAw[ iPr AsIN dovyN aunHW dIichlkdmI ivc Swiml ho gey[

qd iek bVI sMudr iqqlI au~fdI-au~fdI iek suhxy iKVyPu`l au~pr Awx au~qrI[ AsIN iqMny au~Qy Klo gey[ J`t nMU auh iqqlIau~f geI[

BweI swihb ny syvw isMG horW nMU mu^wqb krky ikhw, “gurUipAwirE kI vyiKAw jy?” syvw isMG jI kihx l`gy, “iek iqqlIAweI, Pu`l 'qy bYTI qy iPr au~f geI[” iPr BweI swihb ny myry v`lAwpxI svwlIAw nzr PyrI, mYN ikhw, “ie`k sMudrqw ny dUjI suMdrqw

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Asl ividAw Asl ividAwnMU cuMimAw, rs ilAw qy clI geI[” BweI swihb muskrwey qy kihxlgy, “bVI sMudr idRStI hY quhwfI, pr, Ajy dYqÍ ivc hY[" qd AsWdohW, ijvyN, iek Awvwz ho ky pùiCAw, “BweI swihb jI, qusW kIvyiKAw?” muskrw ky AwKx lgy : “Awpy rsIAw, Awp rs, Awpyrwvxhwr[”

auh s`cmuc rMg ivc sn[ (1948)

iksy mMgqy koloN nw mMgxw

1949 eI: dI g`l hY[ mYN EdoN Awl ieMfIAw is`K stUfYNts&YfrySn dw pRDwn sW[ swfI AMiqMRm kmytI ny &Yslw kIqw ik pwauNtwswihb ivKy isrk`F vrkrW dw tRyinMg kYNp lgwieAw jwvy[ aus dyleI mwieAw drkwr sI[ iksy ny slwh id`qI, mwstr qwrw isMG jIies kwrj leI loVINdI shwieqw kr skdy hn qy mYnMU aunHW dI syvwivc hwzr hox leI pRyirAw igAw[

mYN AMimRqsr aunHW dy invws AsQwn 'qy pu`jw qy aunHW nMUigAwq krvwieAw ik AsIN vrkrW dw tRyinMg kYNp lgwaux dwierwdw bxwieAw hY[ aunHW ny ies ierwdy dI SlwGw kIqI qy AMdroNsO rupey dw ie`k not ilAw ky mYnMU id`qw qy ikhw, “ies kwrj leIieh shwieqw myry v`loN pRvwn kro[” mYN ieqnw mwXUs hoieAw ik mYNauh not moVidAW ikhw, “mwstr jI, ieh rihx idE, quhwfy horiksy kMm Aw jweygw[ mYN vwihgurU pwsoN loVINdI shwieqw mMg lvWgw[”mYnMU aus vyly kdy Awpxy dwdw jI dy pihlW dy khy hoey bcn XwdAwey[ aunHW ikhw sI, “bìcAW, kdy iksy mMgqy koloN nw mMgIN,kyvl dwqy koloN hI mMgIN qy dwqw kyvl iek vwihgurU hI hY[”

mwstr qwrw isMG horW nMU mYN kih qW AwieAw, “mYN vwihgurUpwsoN mMg lvWgw, pr mYnMU Ajy smJ nhIN sI mMgxw ikvyN hY[” mYN

AMimRqsroN luiDAwxy clw AwieAw qy rwq sR: Bwn isMG horW dy GrTihirAw[ aunHW nMU mYN mwstr jI qoN pRwpq hoeI mwXUsI dI gl dsI[aunHW slwh id`qI, “klH svyry AYqvwr hY, isMG sBw dy gurduAwrydIvwn sjdw hY[ auQy c`l ky sMgq pws ApIl kr vyKdy hW[”so Agly idn qVky hI AsIN isMG sBw dy gurduAwry phMuc gey[ BweIsmMud isMG jI dw pRis`D jQw kIrqn kr irhw sI[

Bog ipAw qW mYN sk`qr swihb pwsoN is`K ividAwrQIAW dykYNp leI mwiek shwieqw dI sMgq pws ApIl krn dI AwigAwmMgI[ aunHW AwigAw dy id`qI[

mYN sMgq nMU sMboDn kridAW AwiKAw, “ieh Prz qW mwipAWdw sI ik Awpxy bìcAW nMU Awpxy Drm nwl jwxUM krwauNdy, pr ieauNhoieAw nhIN[ ies leI bìcAW ny ie`k-dUjy nMU Awpxy Drm nwl jwxUMkrwaux leI iek tRyinMg kYNp lgwaux dw sMklp kIqw hY[ Awp pwsies kwrj leI mwiek shwieqw leI bynqI hY[

aus vyly BweI smMud isMG horW nMU iekvMjw rupey kIrqn BytwvjoN isMG sBw vloN pRwpq hoey sn[ aunHW AwpxI jyb ivcoN pMjwh rupeyhor k`Fy qy iek sO ie`k rupey mYnMU PVwauNidAW ikhw, “ieh Bytw swfyv`loN kbUl kro, qy ijqny idn quhwfw kYNp l`gygw, doey vyly dI SbdcONkI dI syvw swfw j`Qw krygw[” aunHW dw ieh kihxw sI, ik sMgqWny mwieAw dw Fyr lw id`qw[ (1949)

gurU kw lMgr kdy msqwnw nhIN hM udw

1949 eI: dI g`l hY[ qd Awl ieMfIAw is`K stUfYNts&YfrySn dI slwnw kwn&rMs luiDAwxy ivc hoxI sI[ svyry kIrqnsMq rxDIr isMG jI horW kIqw qy kwn&rMs dw audGwtn mwstr qwrwisMG jI ny kIqw[ ienHW dohW SKSIAqW dI iKc kwrx swfI aumId

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Asl ividAw Asl ividAwqoN ikqy v`D hwzrI ho geI[ AsW pMfwl 30 hzwr vwsqy bxwieAwsI, pr sMgq ies qoN vI v`D pMfwl qoN bwhr bYTI hoeI sI[ lMgrAsW 30 hzwr vwsqy hI iqAwr krvwieAw sI[ so auh msqwnw hMudwidisAw[ sR: Bwn isMG jo swfy sk`qr sn myry pws Awey qy kihxl`gy, “vIr jI, lMgr msqwnw ho cilAY[ msW iek pMgq hor bYTygI[ pr Ajy qW keI hzwrW ivc sMgq ny lMgr Ckxw hY[” mYnMU QoVHIicMqw hoeI[

EdoN ie`k gurmuK swfI g`l sux irhw sI[ myry moFy qy aus nyAwpxw imhr BirAw h`Q riKAw qy ikhw, “fwktr swihb! gurUkw lMgr kdy msqwnw nhIN hMudw[ qusIN AglI pMgq Bugqwau,rihMdI swrI sMgq vwsqy gurU bMdobsq kr dyvygw[”

auh s`jx tRWsportr sI[ aus dy ds-bwrW tr`k cldy sn[aunHW dy frweIvrW nMU aus ny AwdyS idqw ik iqMn jxy Sihr dy swryFwibAW qy rYstorYNtW ivc GMum jwE[ jo vYSno Kwxw pìkAw hovy cùkilAwE[ dwlW iek BWfy ivc puAw ilAwauxw, SbzIAW ie`k horivc qy rotIAW qIjy ivc[ bwkIAW nMU ikhw ik ipMfW ivc cly jwEqy ijs-ijs Gr ivc jo kuJ pìkAw hY puAw ilAwvo[ A`Dy GMty ivclMgr Awauxw SurU ho igAw qy GMty fyF ivc ieqnw lMgr Aw igAw iksB dy Ck cùkx mgroN vI bc igAw[

Bwn isMG jI qy mYN aus gurmuK dw DMnvwd krn leI aus dyGr pu`jy[ AsW jd Sukrwny dI Bwvnw pRgt kIqI qW kihx l`gw,“SukrIAw qW mYN quhwfw krnw hY, qusW myry leI syvw dw sb`bbxwieAw[ syvw vI mYN nhIN myry frweIvrW ny B`j-dOV kr kykIqI hY[ SukrIey dy h`kdwr qW Eho ny[ jy kdy Pyr loV pvyqW dws nMU cyqy kr lYxw[”

AsIN dovyN aus gurmuK dy nUrwnI ichry dw pRBwv Awpxy AMdrvsw ky prqy[ (1949)

DMnvwd dw h`kdwr vwihgurU hY

qd mYN mYfIkl kwlj AMimRqsr ivc hwaUs i&zISn sW[hspqwl ivc mYnMU iek kuAwrtr imilAw hoieAw sI[ a~uQy mYN iekhor hwaUs i&zISn nwl rihMdw sW[

au~Qy iek idn inhwl vIr qy bMsI BwbI dovyN Awey[ BwbI jIdI KbI AK coN pwxI ifg irhw sI ijs nMU auh bwr-bwr pMUJ rhy sn[mYN puiCAw ik kI hoieAw qW kihx lgy pMdrW idnW qoN qklI& ho geIhY[ ieho idKwx vwsqy ieQy Awey hW[ mYN ikhw klH svyry hI AKW vwlyfwktr swihb nMU idKwl idAWgy[

vIr jI kihx lgy, “mYN qy A`j prq jwxw ey[ ieh qyry kolhI rih jweygI qyry kmry ivc[ mYN Awpxy nwl dy hwaUs iPzISn nMUpùiCAw, auh kihx l`gw, “jI AwieAW nMU, zrUr rihx[ swfy pws dokmry qW hYn; iek ivc qusIN ho jwxw dUjy ivc mYN ho jwvWgw[ koeIkiTnweI nhIN hovygI[”

so BwbI jI myry pws ruky[ svyry mYN fwktr mwn isMG inrMkwrIswihb kol lY igAw[ auhnW nMU disAw, A`K ivcoN hlkw-hlkw pwxIisMmdw rihMdw nwly C`pr Jmkx ivc QoVHI rVk vI pYNdI hY[ fw:swihb ny ikhw, “ieh pwxI iek nlkI rwhIN A`K 'coN n`k iv`c clwjWdw hY qy swh nwl sukI jWdw hY[ jy auh nlkI iksy kwrx bMd hojwvy qW pwxI n`k ivc nhIN jw skdw, A`K dy bwhr if`gx lg pYNdwhY[ so aus nlkI nMU KolHx dw jqn krnw pvygw[ jy qusIN aufIko qWADy GMty nMU mYN EprySn QIeytr ivc ieh nlkI KolHx dw auprwlw kridAWgw[”

A`Dy GMty mgroN auhnW aus nlkI ivc dI qwr lMGw ky aus nMUKolH id`qw qy swnMU ihdwieq kIqI ik hr pMj imMt bwd pYnislIn dyGol dIAW do-do bMUdW ienHW dI A`K ivc pweI jwxIAW[

5554

Asl ividAw Asl ividAwAjy msW rwq peI sI ik BwbI jI dIAW A`KW ivc cIs pYxI

SurU ho geI[ pihlW qW auhnW brdwSq kIqI iPr auh hor qyz hogeI[ mYN smiJAw auh qwr pweI sI, kuJ qW JrIt AMdr pY geI hoxIhY aus leI drd ho rhI hovygI[ mYN fwktr swihb nMU tYlIPon krndI koiSS vI kIqI pr auh iksy dy Gr Kwxw Kwx gey hoey sn[

swrI rwq mYN dvweI pWdw irhw qy BwbI jI 'hwey vIr jI','hwey vIr jI' kih ky qVpdy rhy[ mYN auhnW dy isrwxy mUVHy qy bYTwauhnW dy kysW ivc h`Q Pyrdw qy 'hW BwbI jI,' 'jI BwbI jI' kih kyauhnW dy Awvwzy dw jvwb dyNdw irhw[ nwly aunHW dw d`uK dyK ky roNdwvI irhw[

svyry AsIN fw. swihb v`l gey qW auh kihx l`gy, ieh GolienHW nMU rws nhIN AwieAw[ aus dy kwrx ieh cIsW pYNdIAW rhIAW[mYnMU bVw A&sos l`gw, jykr pqw hMudw qW Gol pwauxw bMd hI krdyNdw[ mYN Awpxy Awp nMU doSI smJx l`g ipAw[

Gol qW AsW bMd kr idqw, pr cIsW Ajy vI bMd nhIN sIhoeIAW[ mYN BwbI jI nMU fwktr sohx isMG horW kol lY igAw[ auhnWnMU sB gl dsI[ auhnW ikhw, “icMqw n kro gurU BlI krygw" AMdroNauhnW iek SISI kFI aus ivc ictw ijhw iek pwaUfr sI[ aus dIiek slweI auhnW “vwihgurU” AwK ky BwbI jI dI AK ivc pw idqI[ijvyN koeI jwdU ho igAw[ cIsW clIAW geIAW[ iek puVI bMnH ky auhnWswnMU nwl dy idqI qy ikhw “Avl qW loV nhIN pvygI, pr jykr koeIcIs au~TI qW iek slweI hor pw dyxw[” pr auh nObq hI nw AweI[

Agly idn BwbI jI kihx lgy, “clo fw: swihb dw DMnvwdkr AweIey[” AsIN gey qy auhnW dw DMnvwd kIqw[ auh kihxl`gy, “DMnvwd dw h`kdwr mYN nhIN vwihgurU hY ijs dw nwmlY ky mYN auh slweI iehnW dI A`K ivc pweI sI[”

(1949)

kwnMUn dw sbk

sR: Amr isMG AMbwlvI AYfvokyt au~Gy AkwlI lIfr sn[auh dlyr vI bVy sn qy Dun dy p`ky vI[ iek vwrI auh qy mYN ie`kTyryl ivc s&r kr rhy sW[ hyTlIAW brQW aupr AsIN dovyN sW qyauprlI iek brQ aupr iek hor B`dr purS lyitAw hoieAw sI[rwq dw vylw sI, qy swry sOx dI iqAwrI kr rhy sW[

kuJ imMtW bwAd aupr lyty aus B`dr purS ny isgrt sulgwleI[ sR: Amr isMG horW aus nMU AwiKAw, “ipAwirE ikrpw krkyisgryt bMd kr idE[" auh hitAw nw, sgoN kihx l`gw, “ikQyiliKAw ik mYN isgrt nhIN pI skdw?” Amr isMG horW ikhw,“swrI qwzIrwqy ihMd ie`Qy ilKI nhIN ho skdI[ ieQy ieh vI qW ikqynhIN iliKAw hoieAw ik mYN quhwnMU Q`pV nhIN mwr skdw!”

auh AwdmI kihx l`gw, “qusIN jwxdy nhIN mYN &st klwsmYijstRyt hW[” Amr isMG jI kihx l`gy, “qusIN vI nhIN jwxdy mYNkOx hW[ mYN keI mYijstRytW nMU kwnMUn pVHwieAw hoieAY[”

pl ku ipCoN aus 'B`dr purS' ny isgrt dw iek hor k`SlwieAw qy DMUAW hyTW v`l PUikAw[ Amr isMG horIN au~Ty, h`Q ivcauhnW dy A^bwr sI[ aus nMU lpyt ky auhnW aus dy isgrt qy mwrIqy isgrt if`g ky pry jw ipAw[ nwl hI Amr isMG horW g`fI KVIkrn vwlI zMjIr iK`c idqI[ g`fI pMj ku imMtW qk KVI ho geI[gwrf swihb swfy f`by ivc Aw gey qy auhnW p`uiCAw, “zMjIr iksny iK`cI hY?” Amr isMG jI ny ikhw, “jI mYN iK`cI hY[" gwrf nypuiCAw, “ikauN”? “ikauN ik ieh bwaU jI isgrt pI rhy sn qy swfIbynqI dy bwvjUd iehnW isgrt bMd nhIN kIqI sgoN jwx buJ ky DMUAWswfy vl suitAw[ nwly swnMU DmkI idqI ik 'mYN &st klws mYijstRythW[”

5756

Asl ividAw Asl ividAwgwrf kihx l`gw, “srdwr jI, kyvl isgrt vwlI g`l

ipCy g`fI qW KVI nhIN kIqI jw skdI[”“jykr iksy AOrq dy Drm 'qy koeI AwkRmx kry qW kI auh

zMjIr iK`c skdI hY?”“hW! AYsI AvsQw ivc auh iK~c skdI hY[”“jykr Awpxw Drm bcwaux Kwqr AOrq g`fI KilAwr

skdI hY qW myry Drm qy AwkRmx hovy qW mYN ikauN nhIN KVIkr skdw? isgrt qMbwkU myry Drm ivc b`jr kurihq hY[”

gwrf ny ikhw, “mYnMU qW irport ilKxI pvygI[”Amr isMG horW ikhw, “zrUr ilKo[”irport dI g`l suxidAW hI mYijstRyt swihb dI ^winEN

geI[ mYijstRyt ho ky auh Awp kwnMUn qoVn dy jvwbdyh hoey pey sn[nwly auh gwrf dy qrly krn l`gy, nwly Amr isMG horW dy[ gwrfkihx lgw, “jy srdwr horIN mMn jwx qW AsIN irport nhIN ilKdy[”

Amr isMG horIN kihx l`gy, “swfy v`loN irport nw ilKo qWkoeI g`l nhIN[ AsW qW mYijstRyt swihb nMU kyvl kwnMUn isKwlxwsI, so isKwl id`qw[”

iPr auhnW mYijstRyt swihb v`l mMUh Pyr ky ikhw, “ikauNmYijstRyt swihb! Ajy ieqnw sbk hI kw&I hY nw?” (1950)

jy in`kIAW g`lW ivc hwr jweIey

sR. AjIq isMG srh`dI pwiksqwn bxn qo pihlW srh`dIsUby ivc vzIr rih c`uky sn[jd dI ieh g`l hY qd auh SoRmxIAkwlI dl dI vrikMg kmytI dy mYNbr sn[ mYN jylH ivc vI aunHW nwldo ku mhIny k`ty sn[ bVy dwnw, qy bVy sw&go ienswn sn[

auhnW dIAW do bcIAW myrIAW ividAwrQxW sn, ies kwrnvI auh mYnMU bVw ipAwr krdy sn[

iek idn AsIN iek mIitMg qoN iekTy prq rhy sW[myry pwsaudoN do tMgW qoN ielwvw hor koeI vwhn nhIN sI, auhnW pws bVI sMudrkwr sI[ mYnMU auhnW AwpxI kwr ivc bYTx leI ikhw, “AwE quhwnMUquhwfy Gr CoV idAW”[

mYN ikhw, “quhwnMU AYNvy vlw pvygw[ mYN irkSw lY lYNdwhW”[kihx l`gy, “ieh syvw mYnMU dy idau[ mYN DMnvwdI hovWgw”[ mYNcu`p-cwp kwr ivc bYT igAw[

rsqy ivc AsIN g`lW krdy Awey[ auhnW do vwr ieh vIduhrwieAw ik auhnW dIAW bytIAW kihMdIAW hn, ik qusIN bhuqA`Cw pVHWdy ho[

qd nMU myry Gr dI glI dw moV Aw igAw mYN srh`dI swihbnMU ikhw, “mYnMU ieQy nu`kr 'qy hI auqwr idau, glI AMdr quhwfI kwrsOiKAW muVygI nhIN[” auh kihx l`gy, “ nykI swihb, jy in`kIAW-in`kIAW g`lW ivc hwr jweIey, qW v`fIAW g`lW ivc ikvyNsPl hovWgy? myrI kwr Awpy muV jwvygI, mYN quhwnUM qoV quhwfy Grq`k hI C`f ky Awauxw hY[” (1951)

myrI ivdwiegI nw lmkwE

mYN aunHI idnIN AMimRqsr mYfIkl kwlj dy ivc rijstRwr l`gwhoieAw sW[ swfy nwl fw: ASok kumwr hwaUs i&zISn sn[ aunHW dyipqw, koeI sqr-bhqr swl dy lhU dy rog kwrx swfy hspqwl ivcdw^l hoey[ aunHW dy lhU ivc icty koSy jo A~T-ds hzwr &I imlImItrhuMdy hn, l`KW dI igxqI ivc ho gey sn[ bhuq kr k`cy-ip`ly hIsn[ ieauN jwxoN ijvyN ienHW ic`ty koiSAW dw kYNsr ho igAw sI[ is`tyvjoN lwl koSy bhuq Gt rhy sn ijs kwrx swry srIr ivc AwksIjnpUrI qrHW nhIN sI phuMc rhI[ rMg vI aunHW dw AwpxI lwlgI guAw

5958

Asl ividAw Asl ividAwbYTw sI[ aunHIN idnIN ies bImwrI dw koeI p`kw ielwj swfy pws nhINsI[ kyvl iksy nroey bMdy dw Ûn Aijhy bImwr nUM cVHw ky aus nUMAwrjI qOr 'qy kuJ cMgw kr skdy sW[ so AsW aus bzurg nUM do boqlWÛn dIAW cVHw idqIAW jo aunHW dy hI iksy irSqydwr ny id`qIAW sn[ pMdrW idnW qk iPr Un dI loV pY geI[ AsIN aus idn pihlIboql cVHwaux leI iqAwrI kr leI[ bzurg nUM smJ Aw geI ikAsIN iPr qoN lhU cVHwaux dw bMdobsq kr rhy hW[ mYN vwrf dw dOrwkrdw jd aunHW dy ibsqry pws pu`jw qW mYnUM AwKx l`gy, "fwktr jI,kI iPr qoN Un cVHwauxw cwhuMdy ho ? Ajy qW ipClyry h&qy cVHwieAwjy[" "quhwfI bImwrI AYsI hY ik lhU CyqI-CyqI pqlw pY jWdY, so swnUMbwr-bwr Un cVHwauxw ipAw krygw[" "fwktr jI, ikqnI vwr ies qrHW Ûn cVHwEgy ?" "ijqnI vwr loV pYNdI rhygI[" "ipAwirE ! mYN 72 swl jI ilAY[ mYN AwpxIAW sMswrkizMmyvwrIAW qoN mukq ho cukW[ bcy pVHw id`qy, ivAwh idqy[ Gr vwlIdI aupjIvkw leI loVINdI ienSorYNs krvw C`fI[ hux myry KuxoN kuJvI QuiVAw nhIN rihxw[ b`cy cMgy hn, mW dI dyK-Bwl kr lYxgy[ jymyrw smW Aw igAY qW myrI ivdwiegI nUM lmkwE nw[ hux mYnUM hor Unnw cwVHo, swrw zwieAw jwvygw[ iksy AYsy ivAkqI leI sWB rKo ijsdI AwXU iek do boqlW nwl v`D skdI hovy, jW ijs dw EprySn hoxwhovy qy aus leI drkwr hovy[ ikrpw kro mYnUM hor Un nw cwVHo[ iessrIr ny klH vI Kyh hoxw hY, A`j huMdY qW ho jwx idau[ mYNAwpxy AslI Gr CyqI phMuc jwvWgw[" bzurg dy ichry 'qy iek AnoKw jlwl sI[ mYN aunHW dI idRVHqwqy isAwxp nUM nmskwr kIqI qy Un nw cVHwaux dw &Yslw lY ilAw[

(1954)

suDweI

koietw Sihr keI g`lW iv`c AswDwrn sI[ iek g`l Es iv`cieh vI sI ik au~Qy keI swry pMjwbI dy kvI sn[ jgq isMG jgq,pUrn isMG BOr, hrsw isMG cwqr cMgy Swier sn pr ieh swrygurdws rwm Awlm qoN hyTW hI AwauNdy sn[ gurdws rwm Awlm gurmuKI qoN ielwvw kuJ vI nhIN sI piVHAwhoieAw, pr kvI bVw cMgw sI[ vwirS Swh dI hIr aus nUM krIb-krIb swrI kMT sI[ Awp vI hr pRkwr dw CMd kih skdw sI[ koiety, iehnW kvIAW ny rl ky iek kvI sBw bxweI hoeI sI[aus ny smyN-smyN isr kvI drbwr AwXojq krny[ mYN audoN dsvIN pwskIqI sI qy kivqw ilKx ivc mMUh mwrn l`g ipAw sW[ audoN kvI sBw ny iek kvI drbwr AwXojn krn dw pRogrwmbxwieAw ijs leI qrHw imsrw sI, "qkdIr n iksy qoN h`tdI vy["Awlm horW kvI drbwr qoN pihlW sB kvIAW qoN auhnW dIAWkivqwvW suxIAW qy auhnW dI suDweI vI kIqI[ myrI k`cI-ip`lI kivqw vI auhnW iDAwn nwl suxI[ iPr kihxl`gy, "Ajy kvI drbwr ivc suxwaux jogI nhIN hoeI[" iPr mYnUMsmJwaux lgy AmkI quk dw vzn v`D igAY - ivcoN Amkw Sbd GtwidE, vzn TIk ho jweygw qy m&hUm vI kwiem rhygw[ keI QW 'qykw&Iey bdlx leI vI rwey id`qI[ nwly ikhw pihlw SyAr (mqlw)qy Aw^rI (mkqw) bVy jwzb hox qW cMgy v`sdy hn[ ies kivqw nUMjy soD sko qW cMgw rhygw[" mYN kivqw dubwry ilKx dy jqn ivc ju`t igAw[ ijauN-ijauN mYNilKI jwvW Awlm jI dI suDweI dI kdr myry AMdr hor-hor pYdw hoeIjwvy[ auhnW dI suc`jI rwey sdkw mYnUM pRqIq hox lgw ik myrI kivqws`c-mùc ilSk peI sI[

6160

Asl ividAw Asl ividAw jd AwpxI vwrI Awaux qy mYN AwpxI kivqw suxweI qW mYnUMl`gw ik iek nvW Awqm-ivSvws myry AMdr jwg ipAw sI[ myrIkivqw bVI cMgI v`sI[ kuJ sRoiqAW ny do-do rupey dy not vI ienwmvjoN myry leI Byjy[ auhnW ivcoN iek gurdws rwm Awlm Awp vI sIijsnUM kyvl iek ruipAw roz mzdUrI imldI sI[ jd auhnW dw nwmilAw igAw qW myrIAW A`KW ivcoN hMJU Clk Awey[ mYN styj qy Klo kyikhw, "jy Awlm swihb ny myrI kivqw dI suDweI nw kIqI hoNdI qWieQy suxwaux dy kwbl vI nhIN sI[ ieh ienwm jo suihrd sRoiqAWny mYnUM id`qy hn, iesdy Asl h`kdwr Awlm swihb hn; pr auhnWAwpxy Awp nUM ienwm dyx vwilAW ivc Swml kr ky mYnMU AjIbaulJn iv`c pw id`qw hY[ mYN kyvl auhnW dy crn CUh ky auhnW A`gyAwpxI ikrq`gqw dw pRgtwvw krnw cwhuMdw hW[" qy mYN kol bYTyAwlm swihb dy crn CUh ley[ smW guzr igAw[ dyS vMf ho geI[ mYN fwktr bx igAw[mYfIkl kwlj AMimRqsr ivc pVHwaux l`g ipAw[ EdoN qk myrIplyTI dI kwiv-pusqk 'Asly qy auhly' Cp cu`kI sI[ iek idn mYN iek`lw Gr bYTw sW, qW kI vyKW gurdws rwmAwlm horIN ikiqEN Aw gey[ mYnUM AwKx l`gy, "qusW iek idn myrypYrIN h`Q lwieAw sI[ A`j mYN quhwfy pYrIN h`Q lwaux AwieAw hW[mYN quhwfI pusqk pVHI hY, idl bwg-bwg ho igAY[" mYN ikhw, "iehquhwfI kIqI suDweI dw Asr hY[" Awlm horW mYnUM Gùt ky sIny nwllw ilAw[

(1956)

vwihgurU bcwauNdw qW hY, pr.......

prkwS isMG, myrw Cotw Brw, vfw ho ky qW swD-suBw ho igAwsI, pr bcpn ivc bVIAW SrwrqW kirAw krdw sI[ iek idnd`sx l`gw, "vIr jI ! mYN roz svyry au`T ky soicAw krdw sW ik A`jikhVI Srwrq krnI hY[" SrwrqW kwrn roz ausnUM iJVkW qy bVIvwr mwr vI pYxI[ pr auh sI ik bwz hI nhIN sI AwauNdw[ swfy Gr nwl lgdw iek pTwx dw Gr sI - Abdùlw aus dwnwm sI[ aus dw iek lVkw prkwS isMG dI aumr dw jW rqw ku ausnwloN Cotw jW v`fw sI[ iek idn dovyN Kyf rhy sn ik iksy g`l qyAwps iv`c JgVw ho igAw[ prkwS isMG ny pTwx dy pu`qr nUM kuuu`tkìFAw[ auh roNdw roNdw Gr clw igAw[ pMj ku imMt bwAd aus dw bwp GroN inkl AwieAw[ prkwSisMG ny soicAw ik pTwx Awpxy pùqr dw bdlw lYx leI AwieAw hYqy mYnUM mwrygw[ so pihlW qW dOVx l`gw, pr pTwx ny ikhw, "dOVomq, hm sy bwq kro[" prkwS isMG ruk igAw[ au~Qy mkwn bx irhwsI qy gwry dw Fyr l`gw hoieAw sI[ prkwS isMG ny dovW h`QW ivcgwrw cùk ilAw qy hQ Awpxy ipCy kr ley[ jdoN pTwx nyVy AwieAwqW dohW h`QW nwl gwrw aus dIAW A`KIAW 'qy dy mwirAw[ pTwx prq igAw[ Gr jw ky mUMh Doqw, k`pVy bdly qy myryipqw jI dy Gr prqx dI ieMqzwr krn l`gw[ QoVHy icr qWeI ipqwjI bzwroN jo sOdw suk lYx gey sn, lY ky prqy[ jdoN pTwx dy Gr AgoNlMGy qW pTwx ny Awvwz mwr ky bulw ilAw[ kihx lgw, "mYN qYnUM qyrybyty vloN mubwrk dyxI hY[ pihlW qW aus ny myry puqr nUM kut kiFAw[mYN soicAw, vyKW qW shI auh kOx dlyr lVkw hY ijs ny pTwx dy mMufynUM kùt kiFAw hY[ mYN bwhr inkilAw qW auh Ajy au~Qy hI glI ivc

6362

Asl ividAw Asl ividAwKloqw sI[ mYnUM vyK ky dOVn lgw qW mYN ausnUM ikhw dOV nw mYN qyry nwlg`l krnI hY[ qd aus ny glI ivc pey gwry 'coN do bùkW cùk leIAWqy jd mYN kol phuMicAw qW ies qoN pihlW ik mYN aus nwl glbwq krskdw aus ny gwry dIAW dovyN bùkW myrIAW A`KW aupr dy mwrIAW[" ipqw jI ny pTwx pwsoN mw&I mMgI qy bVy kRoD ivc Gr Awey[Aw ky aunHW iek hwkI sitk cuk leI qy prkwS isMG nUM Awvwz mwrI[prkwS isMG nUM smJ Aw geI aus dI murMmq hox vwlI hY[ ipqw jIdy h`Q ivc PVI hwkI sit`k nUM vyK ky qW hor GbrwieAw[ mn hImn "vwihgurU-vwihgurU" krn l`gw[ ipqw jI ny au`cI swrI ikhw, qUM jo krqUq A`j kIqI hY aus nymYnUM bhuq Srmswr kIqw hY[ ieh kihx dy nwl hI zor dI hwkI ausdy pt qy dy mwrI[ prkwS isMG AMdry AMdr "vwihgurU-vwihgurU" clirhw sI, s`t peI qW au~cI-au~cI "vwihgurU-vwihgurU" aus dy mMUhNoinklx l`g ipAw[ ipqw jI nUM l`gw ikqy bhuqI s`t v`j geI sU joqVp ky "vwihgurU-vwihgurU" krdw ipAw hY[ aunHW hwkI qW sut idqIqy ausnUM kw&I burw Blw AwiKAw, pr hor mwirAw nhIN[ mYN ies vwrdwq smyN Gr nhIN sW[ SwmI hnyrw pYx qypriqAw sW[ rwq peI qW AsIN dovyN Brw ieky kmry ivc sOx leIcly gey[ QoVy icr mgroN prkwS isMG au~T ky myry mMjy qy Aw igAwqy kihx l`gw, "vIr jI iek g`l d`sxI hY[" mYN ikhw "d`so[" qdausny idny hoeI auprokq g`l suxweI qy kihx l`gw, "vIr jI,vwihgurU bcWdw qW zrUr hY pr pihlI sotI pYx dyNdw hY qWjo byvkUPW nUM Akl Aw jwvy[ mYN quhwfI ies ipAwr glvkVIivc pRx krdw hW ik A`gy qoN AYsI koeI Srwrq nhIN krWgw["

(1940)

klgIAW vwly, bwjW vwly

Ardws is`K Drm dw Ain`KV AMg hY[ ijs gurmuK ipAwrygRMQI jI nUM mYN hr roz Ardws kridAW suxdw sW auh "ipRQm BgauqIismr kY" vwlI vwr isrI BgauqI jI dI pihlI pauVI iv`c nON gurUswihbW nUM ismrn-iDAwaux qoN mgroN dsvIN pwqSwhI gurU goibMdisMG jI nUM iDAwauNidAW auhnW dy nwm dy nwl 'klgIAW vwly', 'bwjWvwly', 'nIly GoVy vwly', ivSySx lgwauNdy sn[ mYnUM vI ieh ivSySxkMT ho gey[

iek idn rihrws swihb dy pwT mgroN ipqw jI ny mYnUMArdws krn leI ikhw[ mYN ies syvw nUM suBwg smiJAw qy Ardwskrn lg ipAw[ dsvyN pwqSwh gurU goibMd isMG nwl mYN auh kMT hoeyivSySx vI lw id`qy[ Ardws qoN bwAd myry ipqw jI kihx l`gy,"bytw auh iqMn ivSySx ijhVy qusIN gurU goibMd isMG nUM cyqy kridAWlgwey sn, zrw muV ky d`so[" mYN suxw id`qy[ ipqw jI muskRwey qykihx l`gy, "kwkw! klgIAW vwly qy bwjW vwly qW hzwrW hoeyhn, GoiVAW vwly l`KW hoey hn[ ieh ivSySx lgw ky AsINgurU jI dI vifAweI nhIN krdy sgoN auhnW nUM auhnW hzwrw-l`KW Awm mnu`KW ivc jw rlwauNdy hW[ jW qW koeI ivSySx nwlwE, ijvyN bwkI gurU swihbW nwl nhIN lgwey gey[ jy lgwxyhI hox qW AYsy ivSySx lgwE ijnHW qo N gurU swihb dIvifAweI pRq`K pRqIq hMudI hovy["

mYN pùiCAw, "mYnUM AYsy ivSySxW dI soJI krwE[" kihx l`gy,"dsvyN pwqSwh dI ivsyS mhq`qw drswaux vwly ivSySxies pRkwr dy ho skdy hn : 'srbMs dwnI' - auhnW jYsw hor koeInhIN hoieAw; 'AMimRq dy dwqy' - auhnW dy AMimRq sMskwr ny bMidAW

6564

Asl ividAw Asl ividAwnUM scmùc mOq dy BY qoN mukq kr id`qw; 'Drm riKAk' - ipqw jInUM Shwdq leI qor ky auhnW Dwrimk ivSvws dI AwzwdI dw AsUlsQwipq kr id`qw; qy 'nIcoN aUc krn vwly' - ijnHW lokW nUM ihMdUvrxwSRm Anuswr sB qoN hIxy mMinAw jWdw sI auhnW nUM sUrbIr bxwid`qw[ AYsy ivSySx hI mhwrwj gurU goibMd isMG jI dy nwm nwl joVyhoey SoBw dyNdy hn["

Es idn qoN ieho ivSySx mYN dsvyN pwqSwh dy nwm nwl joVky Ardws iv`c auhnW nUM cyqy krdw hW[ (1940)

so dru

pRo&Ysr pI.AweI. pyNtr iksy aucy AMgryz Kwndwn ivcoN sn[ihMdusqwn ivc AweI.sI.AYs. irtwier hoey qy iPr AY&.sI. kwljlwhOr ivc AMgryzI dy pRwiDAwpk l`gy[ mYN AY&.sI. kwlj dy ijshostl ivc dw^l hoieAw sW aus dy supirMtYNfYNt vI sn[

iek idn hostl dw dOrw krdy krdy auh myry kmry AMdrAwey qW mYN h`QlI ikqwb myz pur r`K ky aunHW nMU pRxwm kIqw[ aunHWikqwb vl vyiKAw[ auh pUrn isMG dI ikqwb sI 'dI sipirtAw& ErIAYNtl poietRI' (pUrbI kwiv dI Awqmw) mYnMU pu`Cxl`gy, “qMU swieMs dw ividAwrQI nhIN?” mYN 'hW' ivc au~qr id`qw qWpu`Cx l`gy, “qYnMU ies ikqwb ivc kI idlcspI ho skdI hY? qYnMUsmJ AwauNdI hY?”mYN au~qr id`qw, “jnwb kw&I smJ AwauNdI hY[idlcspI ies leI hY ikauNik kwiv izMdgI nMU rOck bxwauNdw hY[”kihx l`gy, “ies ivcoN qYnMU kI smJ AwieAw hY?”

mYN ikhw, “mYN Ajy msW A`D qk hI pVHI hY, pr ieqnw smJAw igAw hY ik pUrbI kwiv dI Awqmw p`CmI kwiv nwloN v`KrI hY[jy s`c pu`CoN qW Awqmw qW hY hI pUrbI kwiv pws, p`CmI kivqwqW aus nMU BwldI iPrdI hY[ p`CmI kwiv bwhr vl vyKdw hY,

pUrbI kwiv AMdr vl JwqI mwrdw hY[” mYN Ajy ieqnw hI ikhwsI, ik auh kihx lgy, “mYN Swm nMU swFy cwr vjy cwh pINdw hW A`jmyry pws Aw ky myry nwl cwh pIvIN[” mYN ikhw, “myrw suBwg hovygw[”

mYN EdoN dsvIN pws krky kwlj ivc dw^l hI hoieAw sW[kwlj Awaux qoN pihlW swfy skUl ivc ijqnIAW vI iqMn kusO pMjwbI dIAW pusqkW sn, mYN sB pVH leIAW sn[ aurdUivc iekbwl, mIr, zOk qy Zwilb vI pVH ley sn[ &wrsI ivc vIswAdI qy hwi&z myry dwdw jI ny mYnMU pVHw id`qy sn[ ies leI mYnMUpUrbI kwiv dI QoVI-bhuq pkV zrUr sI[ jwpwnI jW cInI kwiv v`loNAnjwx sW, pr pUrn isMG dI pusqk ny aunHW bwry jwxkwrI pRwpqkrn leI vI auqsukqw jgw idqI sI[ swieMs vI idl lgw ky pVHdwsW, pr kwiv ivc idlcspI vI bdsqUr kwiem r`KI hoeI sI[

pRo: pyNtr dy Gr aunHW nwl cwh pIx dw Avsr mYN cwh pIxleI nhIN sI lYxw cwhMudw, aunHW dI Awqmw dw sMg krn leI lYxwcwhMudw sW[

mYN pUry swFy cwr vjy aunHW dw dr jw KVkwieAw[ aunHWdrvwzw KoilHAw qy mYnMU AMdr cly Awaux dw AwdyS idqw[ hwl-cwlpùiCAw qy iPr mYnMU kihx l`gy, “qMU pUrbI kwiv dI Awqmw dI g`lkIqI sI[ mYnMU koeI AYsI kivqw dw dIdwr krvw ijs iv`coN iehAwqmw sp`St idsdI hovy[” mYN ikhw, "mYN ies svwl leI iqAwrnhIN hW, so mYnMU do imMt dy idE ik mYN soc skW ik quhwnMU ikhVIkivqw suxwauxI hY[ iPr QoVHw smW hor idE ikauNik quhwnMU AMgRyzIivc aus dw m&hUm d`sxw hY[” auh h`s pey qy kihx lgy, “mYN cwhpw dyNdw hW, duD qy cInI Goldw hW[ quMU auqnw icr soc lY[” pr cwhpw ky dyx bwAd aunHW kuJ nhIN puìCAw[ ijqnw icr AsIN cwh pINdyrhy, auh ^wmoS rhy, qy mYnMU socx jogw smW dy id`qw[

AsIN cwh mukw cuky qW kihx lgy, “kuJ suxwaugy?” mYN ikhw,“kivqw qW mYN Bwl leI hY, pr suXog AMgryzI pUrI qrHW pRwpq nhIN

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Asl ividAw Asl ividAwhoeI, pr koiSS krdw hW[” mYN 'jpujI' swihb dI 27 vIN pauVI 'sodru kyhw, so Gru kyhw, ijiq bih srb smwly' suxwauxI SurU kIqI qynwly nwl AMgryzI ivc aulQweI igAw[ ijauN-ijauN mYN suxweI jwvWiqauN-iqauN pRo: pyNtr dIAW A`KW dI cmk vDI jwvy[ jd mYN mukweIqW mYnMU pu`Cx lgy, “ieh iks dI kivqw hY?” mYN ikhw, “gurU nwnkswihb dI[” pRo: pyNtr h`Q bMnH ky KVy ho gey qy bVy Adb nwl Jukky mYnMU kihx lgy, “qMU mYnMU guru nwnk dI Awqmw dw dIdwrkrvwieAw hY[ qyrw ieh Aihswn mYN aumr Br Bulw nhINskWgw[ qMU hr roz, jykr ivhlw hovyN qW myry pws cwh pIx AwjwieAw kr[”

ieauN gurU nwnk ny mYnMU iek Aiq ipAwrw dosq pRdwnkIqw jo BWvyN mYQoN koeI 50 vryH v`fw sI, pr ijs ny mYnMU mùC-Pu`ty nMU AwpxI dosqI ivc Swiml kr ilAw sI[

(1943)

s`cy FwfI

BweI swihb BweI smMud isMG jI bVy aucy jIvn vwly rwgIsn[ mYnMU auh bVw ipAwr krdy sn[ iek idn mYN aunHW nMU pùC bYTw,“BweI swihb jI! jo Sbd Bytw Awp nMU pRwpq hMudI hY, aus ivc Awpdw qy Awp dy pirvwr dw inrbwh TIk ho jWdY[”

kihx l`gy, “swnMU swfy bzurgW ny iqMn g`lW dw aupdyS id`qwsI[ pihlI ieh ik kIrqn gurU nMU suxwaux leI krIey ausnMUhwzr nwzr jwx ky[ lokW dI pRsMsw leI nw krIey[

dUjI ieh ik zrUrqW Gtw leIey qW QoVy ivc hIinrbwh ho jWdY, jy vDw leIey qW bhuqy ivc vI nhIN hMudw[

qIjy ieh ik Sbd-Byt nMU mnuKW v`loN id`qw dwn nw

jwxnw, pRmwqmw vloN id`qI dwq jwxnw[ ies dI Jwk nwr`Kxw[ jo pRwpq ho jwvy, aus dwqy dI bKiSS jwxnw, jy kuJvI pRwpq nw hovy qW vI aus dI imhr smJxw ik aus nykIrqn krn dw Aausr qW bKiSAw hY[

bwkI, Sbd-Bytw swnMU eynI ku pRwpq ho jWdI hY ikdsvMD k`Fx lìgAW AOK nhIN hMudI[”

mYN Awpxy mn ivc “bilhwr jwvW” AwiKAw qy BweI swihbdy crnW 'qy m`Qw tyk id`qw[

(1952)

AikRqGxqw

bwrSW dy idn sn[ sVkW auqy ic`kV qy toiBAW ivc pwxIBirAw ipAw sI[ iek sUrmw isMG sVk dy pwr jwx leI KVw sI[h`Q ivc aus dy ic`tI CVI sI, pr AwvwjweI qoN frdw QweyN KloqwsI[ mYN aus dy lwgy hoieAw qy puiCAw, “qusW sVk dy pwrly pwsy jwxwhY? mYN Awp dI mdd kr skdw hW?” aus ny myrw h`Q PVH ilAw qyhOlI-hOlI, bcdy-bcWdy AsIN sVk dy pwr ho gey[ sUrmw isMG kihxlgw, “gurduAwrw eysy pwsy hI hY nw?” mYN ikhw, “gurduAwrw qW prlypwsy hI Awauxw sI[” so mYN dobwrw aus nMU sVk pwr krvw ky, iPrgurduAry q`k lY igAw[ gurduAwry dw AWgn bVw Ku`lHw sI[ aus ivcKloiqAW jd mYN Asmwn v`l vyiKAw qW b`dlI dy PMBy iek-dUjy nMUbwhW ivc lYNdy jW iek dUey dw mMUh cMumdy idsy[ pMCIAW dw iek JuMfvI gurduAwry dy ivhVy ivc Kloqy inMm dy ibRCW qoN au~f ky myrIAWnzrW A`goN dI ho ky vwps ibRCW 'qy prq ky bih igAw[ ibRC dy Q`lyPrSI Pu`l keI rMgW dy iKVy hoey sn[

kuJ b`cy ayu~Qy Awps ivc g`lW krdy bwr-bwr iek dUjy nwl

6968

Asl ividAw Asl ividAwh`Q imlw rhy sn qy iPr muskrw rhy sn[ mYN soicAw, mYN qW iehidRS mwx irhw hW[ auh sUrmw isMG qW ies ûSI qoN vMicqhY[ mYN r`b dw DMnvwd kIqw ik aus ny nyqRW dI dwq mYnMU id`qIhoeI hY[ iPr ijauN-ijauN socI jwvW hor qoN hor dwqW nzrINAweI jwx[ mYN soicAw “ikqnw AikRqGx hW, mYN ieqnIAWdwqW leI kdy krqy dw Sukrwnw nhIN kIqw[” myrIAW A`KWies AxgihlI dy ivcwr nwl s`jl ho geIAW[ qd sUrmw isMGsihvn hI bol ipAw, “A`j b`dlvweI jwpdI hY—hvw TMFI vI hY qyies ivc nmI vI[ pMCI vI cihk rhy sn[ b`cy vI Kyfdy qy hsdy peyl`gdy hn[ eyQy qW AwnMd vrq irhY[” mYN soicAw, “AnMd mwxnleI A`KW zrUrI nhIN hMudIAW[” pr mYN qW A`KW hMuidAW vIAwnMd G`t hI mwixAw hY[ iek vwr iPr AikRqGxqw dw iehswsmyry AMdroN au~T Kloqw[ (1953)

Sukrwnw

swnMU pqw l`gw ik ipRMsIpl bwvw hrikSn isMG jI dw ie`ko-iek bytw jo iSmly rihMdw sI, guzr igAw qy ipCy do Coty-Coty bcy CoVigAw hY[ mYN qy myrw Brw, prkwS isMG, A&sos krn aunHW dy Grgey[ AsIN Ajy koTI dy bwhr hI sW qW AMdroN bVI au~cI hwsy dIAwvwz AweI[ AsW smiJAW, jW qW AsIN iksy Zlq Gr Aw gey hW,jW br Zlq sI[ bwhr KVy iek bMdy koloN AsW puiCAw, “ieh bwvwjI dw Gr hY?” aus ny 'hW' iv`c isr ihlwieAw[ iPr AsW ikhw,“AsW suixAw hY aunHW dw puqr guzr igAw hY, kI ieh sc hY?” ausnyiPr 'hW' ivc isr ihlwieAw[ hYrwn hoey AsIN AMdr cly gey[ golkmry ivc hyTW ivCIAW ictIAW cwdrW pur lokW dw jmGtw ijhw sIqy ivcwly bwvw jI bYTy aunHW nMU cutkly suxw rhy sn, qy sB lok h`srhy sn[

myry mn ivc iÂwl AwieAw bwvw jI Awpxy bcy dI mOq vloNSwied mwnisk qOr 'qy ienkwr krI bYTy hn[ mYN rih nw sikAw qyikhw, “bwvw jI mYN iek g`l quhwQoN pu`CxI cwhMudw hW[” kihx l`gy,“jykr mYN quhwfy pùCx qoN pihlW hI au~qr dy idAW qW quhwnMU koeIieqrwz qW nhIN hovygw? qy iPr myrIAW A`KW ivc A`KW pw ky kihxl`gy, “mYN bVy Sukrwny ivc hW ik aus mwlk ny pUry 35 swlaus ipAwrI Awqmw nMU myry pws rihx id`qw qy aus dw ipAwrsiqkwr mYnMU nsIb krweI rìKAw[ auh ausnMU pihly idn vIqW swQoN Koh skdw sI[” bwvw jI dIAW A`KW ivc jlwl sIqy myrIAW A`KW prm siqkwr ivc JukIAW hoeIAW sn[ swrykmry ivc SWqI vrq geI sI[

(1953)

Du`p, BWvyN ic`kV 'qy pvy

ie`k &kIr swfy Gr AwieAw – mMgx nhIN, myry dwdw jI nMUimlx[ auhdw srIr bVw B`dw sI, isr qy vwlW dIAW iltW b`JIAWhoeIAW sn[ k`pVy vI mYly-kucYly sn[ aus ny bUhw KVkwieAw qW mYNhI KoilHAw[ mYN smiJAw koeI mMgqw AwieAw hY[ mYN ausnMU bVI kYrInzr nwl vyiKAw, qy h`Q dy ieSwry nwl cly jwx leI ikhw[ myrydwdw jI ny AMdroN vyiKAw, qy J`t bwhr Aw gey qy &kIr nMU AMdr lYgey[ koeI GMtw svw GMtw auh bYTy vwrqwlwp krdy rhy[ mYN hYrwn hoky bwhr KVw irhw[

GMty svw GMty bwAd myry dwdw jI &kIr nMU ivdw krn vwsqyauhdy nwl bwhr dy drvwzy qk Awey[ mYnMU Pyr, jd &kIr myrylwigauN dI lMG ky igAw, bVI kicAwx AweI[ myry dwdw jI ny auhvI vyK leI[

ausnMU ivdw krky jdoN prqy qW mYnMU kihx l`gy, “&kIr bVw

7170

Asl ividAw Asl ividAwivdvwn hY[ ies nwl mulwkwq ivcoN mYnMU bVw kuJ l`Bw!”

mYN ikhw, “bwbw jI, qusW ausnMU Awpxy kol ibTweI rìKAw,quhwnMU kicAwx nhIN AweI?” bwbw jI kihx l`gy, “mYN aus dIivìdAw dw gwhk sW, aus dy srIr dw nhIN[ nwly bytw Xwdr`KIN, Du`p BwvyN ic`kV 'qy vI pvy qW vI inrml hI rihMdIhY[” (1963)

Awpwq leI iqAwrI

fw. mUrqI rwE srb ihMd mwnisk ishq sMsQwn bMglOrivc mnoicikqsw dy poR&Ysr sn[ auh bwhrI mrIzW dy mihkmy dyieMcwrj vI sn[ aunHW pws rogW dI TIk qSÎs krn dI bVI BwrIXogqw sI[ muSikl qoN muSikl rog dI vI auh shjy hI qSÎs krlYNdy sn[ aunHW nwl hr isiKAwrQI dI ifaUtI iek-iek mhIny leIlgweI geI sI[ mYN vI aunHW nwl iek mhInw kMm kIqw[ pqw nhINikhVI gly myry qy ieqny pRsMn ho gey ik mYnMU pUrw swl Awpxy mihkmyivc kMm krn dI AwigAw dy id`qI[

iek idn mYnMU kihx l`gy, “myry nwl mYsUr c``lyNgw?” mYNpuìCAw, “jI mYsUr kI hY?” kihx l`gy, “auQoN dw rwj kumwr bImwrhY qy mYN ausnMU vyKx jwxY[” mYN ikhw, “jI mYN auQy jw ky kI krnY?”“qyrI mYnMU loV hY[” aunHW ikhw, qy mYN ibnW hor kuJ pu`Cy aunHW dy nwlho igAw[

mYnMU aunHW kwr ivc nwl ibTw ilAw[ jdoN AsIN bMglOr SihrqoN bwhr inkly qW mYnMU kihx l`gy, “mYsUr dy rwj kumwr ny AwpxyAwp nMU iek kmry ivc bMd kr ilAw ey[ kol aus ny koeI ATqwlIboqlW Srwb dIAW r`KIAW hoeIAW qy nwl hI rIvwlvr pkiVAwhoieAY qy kih irhY '^brdwr jy koeI AMdr AwieAw, mYN golI mwr ky

aufw idAWgw[ mYN ijqnI jI krygw Srwb pIAWgw[ ijs ny Drm rwjpws qurMq A`pVnw hovy auhI mYnMU rokx dI koiSS kr skdY[' fw. nykImYN qYnMU ies iemiqhwn iv`c pwaux leI nwl lY ky AwieAw hW[”

mYN kihkw mwr ky h`s ipAw qy ikhw, “fw: swihb jykrqusW soicAw ik mYN mrno fr jwvWgw qW Zlq soicAw[ ijsDrm dw mYN s`ds hW aus dy sMcwlk ny swnMU mOq dy fr qoNmukq kr id`qw hoieAY[ ieh syvw mYN Av`S kr idAWgw[”

myrw au~qr sux ky fw: mUrqI rwE iekdm TTMbr gey qykihx l`gy, “myrw ieh mqlb nhI sI ik qYnMU mrn leI A`gy krnwhY[ mYN qW ies smìsAw qoN qYnMU jwxUM krwieAw sI qW ju qMU mYnMU pu`CyNies dw mYN kI hl soicAw ey[”..iPr Awpy hI kihx l`gy, “ieh drIjo ipClI sIt 'qy r`K ky mYN nwl ilAwieAw hW, ieh swfw sMd hY[ies nMU do jxy, iek, iek pwisEN, qy dUjw dUjy pwisEN, pkV ky rwjkumwr dy drvwjy Agy qwx dyxgy[ qd mYN iek pwsy Klo ky rwj kumwrdw drvwzw KVkwvWgw[ auh jW qW bMd drvwzy coN hI golI clwdyvygw, jW drvwzw KolH ky rIvwlvr h`Q ivc lY ky bwhr Awaux dwjqn krygw[ jy bwhr Awvygw qd drI pkVI dovyN jxy rIvwlvrsmyq ausnMU drI ivc lpyt lYxgy[”

mYnMU fw. mUrqI rwE dy dsy qrIky ny bVw pRBwivq kIqw[ jdmYN ies dI qwrI& kIqI qW kihx l`gy, “fw. nykI swfI hrsmìsAw dw ielwj ikqwbW ivc nhIN id`qw hM udw[ bhuqQweIN AwpxI soJI drkwr hMudI hY[”

eyny nMU AsIN mhl phMuc gey[ auQy rIhrsl kIqI[ iPr drIrwj kumwr dy bUhy A`gy qwx ky Klo gey[ qd fw: mUrqI rwE ny bUhwKVkwieAw[ AMdroN Awvwz AweI, “kOx hY?” “mYN fw: mUrqI rwE qyrwhwl-cwl pùCx bMglOr qoN AwieAW[”

“AMdr Aw fwktr”“pr qMU qW hukm kIqw hoieAw ik jo koeI AMdr AwieAw, mYN

7372

Asl ividAw Asl ividAwgolI nwl aufw idAWgw[”

“pr ieh mYN fwktr leI QoVHw ikhw? fw: qW dUjw r`b hMudyny[ qMU inJ`k AMdr Aw jw[”

AsW drI htw id`qI qy bUhw KolH ky AMdr cly gey[ kursI qyrwj kumwr bYTw sI[ A`gy-ip`Cy Srwb dIAW boqlW sn kuJ BrIAWhoeIAW qy kuJ wlI[ jwpdw sI cOvI GMty qoN pINdw hI irhY[ swhmxytybl qy aus dw rIvwlvr ipAw sI[ fw:mUrqI rwE ny ikhw, “mYN qYnMUAwpxy nwl bMglOr iljwx AwieAW[”

“ijQy mrzI Awey lY cl fwktr[ mYN ieQy bVw Avwzwr hoigAW[”ipClI sIt qy mYnMU rwj kumwr dy nwl aus dI sMBwl krnihq ibTw ky fw: mUrqI rwE Awp kwr clw ky swnMU bMglOr lY Awey[rwj kumwr nMU iek kmry ivc dw^l kr id`qw qy nrsW nMU aus dyielwj dI ihdwieq dy ky, auh mYnMU Awpxy nwl iek rYstorYNt iv`ckw&I pIx lY gey[ au~Qy jw ky mYnMU kihx lgy, “fw: nykI qyry nwl hoxnwl mYnMU bVw sOK hoieAw[ auNj qMU vI mihsUs kIqw huxY ikiqAwrI swnMU hr sMBv Apwq dI pihlW qoN hI soc ky krlYxI cwhIdI hY, BwvyN zrUrI nhIN ik aus dI loV pvy[ loVpvy qW AsIN iqAwr hoeIey, nw pvy qW Bgvwn dw DMnvwdkrIey[” (1956)

tyFI KIr

pihlI vwr jd mYN ipRMsIpl qyjw isMG nMU vyiKAw qW aunHW dIbwbwxI, Pbq, nUrwnI ichry, icty lMmy dwhVy, qy duD icty pihrn qoNbVw pRBwivq hoieAw[ auh ieMjInIAirMg kwlj lwhOr ivc gurUnwnk swihb dy gurpurb 'qy lYkcr dyx Awey sn[ jd auh boly qWaunHW dy hr vwk ivc vrqdw sihj, aunHW dw TrMHmydwr lihjw qyAwvwz dI imTws ijvyN sRoiqAW nMU suqy-is`D mMqR-mugD krI jWdy sI[

mYN qy fMigAw eI igAw[qd mYnMU nhIN sI pqw ik kudrq mYnMU aunHW dI BrpUr sMgq dw

sb`b pRdwn kr skdI hY[ mYN jd mnoicikqsw dI isKlweI pRwpqkrky AMimRqsr priqAw qW rihx leI Gr Bwl irhw sW[ ipRMsIplswihb dy Gr dy lwgy iek Gr mYnMU ikrwey qy iml igAw[ so swfIrws rl geI[

ipRMsIpl swihb qd syvw mukq ho ky pky qOr 'qy AMimRqsr Awgey sn[ so auh qkrIbn hr vyly Gr hI hMudy sn[ mYN jd AwpxykMm qoN prqxw qW aunHW mYnMU bulw Byjxw qy AsW GMitAW- bDI iekiTAWbih ky gurbwxI bwry ivcwr krny[ aunHIN idnIN aunHW sRI gurU gRMQswihb dw AMgRyzI ivc Anuvwd krnw SurU kIqw hoieAw sI[ jd vIkoeI nvIN AMqr soJI aunHW nMU gurbwxI dy AiDAYn qoN pRwpq hoxI, aunHWmyry nwl sWJI krky mYnMU ikrqwrQ krnw[

ie`k idn ieh quk Aw geI:ijsih jgwie pIAwvY iehu rsuAkQ kQw iqin jwnI] (pM: 13)

mYN p`uC ilAw, 'AkQ kQw' ikvyN jwxI jw skdI hY, jd auhhY hI Ak`Q[”AwKx lgy, “ie`Qy, iksy rs dI bwq hY[ rs AnuBvdI vsq hY[ jy iksy vI rs dw quhwnMU kdy AnuBv nhIN hoieAw qWquhwnMU koeI smJw nhIN skdw[ tyFI KIr dI g`l qusW suxI hoxI hY…”

mYN ivcoN ikhw, “ieh iek AKwx hY[” auh kihx lgy, “hrAKwx ip`Cy koeI khwxI hMudI hY[ ies ivclI khwxI quhwnMU pqwhY?” mYN ikhw, “nhIN jI[” qW kihx lgy, lau pihlW ieh khwxI suxo!

iek AwdmI jnm qoN AMnHw sI[ iksy ny ausnMU puiCAw, "KIrKwEgy?" ausny puiCAw, 'KIr ikho ijhI hMudI ey?' aus AwdmI ny auqridqw, :ic`tI hMudI ey?' AMnHy nMU ic`ty dw koeI AnuBv nhIN sI[ so ausny puiCAw, 'ic`tw kYsw hMudw ey?' aus AwdmI ny ikhw, bgly vrgw['qd AMnHy AwdmI ny puiCAw, “bglw ikho ijhw hMudw ey?' aus AwdmI

7574

Asl ividAw Asl ividAwny AwpxI bWh qy hQ moV ky bgly vrgy kr ley qy ikhw, "ies qrHWdw[" qd AMnHy ny Awpxy h`Q nwl aus dI bWh 'qy hQ PyirAw qy ikhw,"ieh qW bhuq tyFw hY[ mYN AYsI tyFI KIr nhIN Kw skdw["

so AnuBv qoN ibnW swDwrn KIr vI tyFI KIr bx jWdI hY[pihlW hoey AnuBv ibnW koeI iksy nM U AnuBv krw nhINskdw, nw smJw hI skdw hY[ suAwd dI vI ieho g`l hY[ijs dI rsnw ivc im`Tw pCwxn dI Xogqw dI AxhoNd hovy,aus nMU qusIN nhIN smJw skdy ik im`Tw kI hMudw hY[ Bly khoieh Sihd dw, imsrI dw, guV dw suAwd hY[ pr ijs ny im`Twc`iKAw hI nhIN aus nMU qusIN ieh swrw kuJ d`s ky vI im`Ty dw suAwdAnuBv nhIN krvw skdy[ ieh g`l qW swDwrn, ieMdirAwvI suAwdWdI hY[ pr iek rs hY jo ienHW qoN aupr hY qy ijs bwry kbIr jI nyikhw hY,

ieh rs Cwfy auh rsu Awvw]auh rsu pIAw iehu rsu nhIN Bwvw](pM: 342)

ieh AiDAwqmk rs dI bwq hY jo ieMdirAwvI rsW qoN auprau~Ty ibnW pRwpq nhIN ho skdw[ ieh rh`swqmk rs hY[ pr AsINlok jo ieMdirAwvI rsW dI pRwpqI leI B`jy iPrdy hW AiDAwqmkrs vloN vWJy rihMdy hW[ mwieAwvI rs iqAwgo qW dYvI rs pRwpqhovygw[ qdy gurU jI kihMdy hn, "ijs iksy nMU hrI Awp mwieAwvInINd ivcoN jgw ky Awpxy rh`swqmk rs nwl jwxUM krwauNdwhY, auho ies rs dI AkQ kQw nMU jwx skdw hY[”

mYN soicAw, qyjw isMG horIN swDwrn ivdvwn nhIN[ ieqnIkTn g`l nMU ieqnI suKYqnw nwl smJw skxw iksy swDwrn ivdvqwdy p`ly nhIN[ mYN aunHW nMU ikhw, “mYnMU roz ieho ijhy bcnW nwlikrqwrQ kirAw kro, qW jo mYN AMDuly nMU vI koeI tyk iml jwvy[”

h`s pey qy kihx lgy, “ijhVw vyKx dw AiBlwKI hMudwhY[ r`b Awp aus dw qIjw nyqr KolH idMdw hY[ Ardws kro qy

aus pl dI aufIk ivc SrDw hor pkyrI krI jwE[”mYnMU ligAw, “ienHW dy mMUhoN qW Awp gurU nwnk boldw l`gdw

hY[” (1959)

inMdw BlI iksy kI nwhI

btwly ivc eIsweIAW dy kwlj iv`c ie`k sYmInwr sI[ au~QyipRMsIpl joD isMG, fw: qwrn isMG, poR. gurbcn isMG qwlb Awidisrk`F is`K ivdvwn Awey hoey sn[ mYN vI auhnW pws bYTw hoieAwsW[ qd iek s`jn, jo iksy AkwlI nyqw dw irSqydwr sI EQyAwieAw qy wlI peI kursI 'qy bYT igAw[ AwauNidAW hI aus ny keInyqwvW dI inMidAw AwrMB id`qI[ ipRMsIpl joD isMG jI ny ikhw,"gurmuKo inMidAw CoVo, koeI hor g`l kro[" auh kihx l`gw,"ipMRsIplswihb! kI kihMdy ho? jy AsI iehnW nyqwvW dy doK nhIN d`sWgyN qWieh TIk ikvyN hoxgy? "ipRMsIpl swihb kihx l`gy, "dUijAW 'qyiek auNglI auTweIey qW bwkI dIAW auNglW Awpxy v`l au`TKloNdIAW hn[ ies g`l dw iDAwn r`Kxw cwhIdw hY[" prauh 'gurmuK' kdoN h`tx vwlw sI ? kihx lgw, "qusW suixAw hoxw ey,jQydwr.....isMG dw puqr piqq ho igAY[" qd ipRMsIpl swihb boly,"gurmuKo, piqq auh huMdw ey ijs ny AMimRq CikAw hovy qy kys kqlkrvw ley jW koeI hor bjr kurihq kry[ ijs bMdy dI qusIN gl krrhy ho, kI auh AMimRqDwrI sI ?" "ieh qW mYnUM pqw nhIN[" qd ipMRsIpl swihb ny aus dy moFy 'qy QwpVw dyNidAW ikhw,"pihlW pUrI vwk&I ilAw kro, iPr loV hovy qW inMidAw kr ilAwkro!" pr inMidAw r`b dI nzr ivc kurihq hMudI hY[ qusIN ijMnHW dIinMidAw kr rhy ho, cMgw hovy auhnW dy suDwr leI Ardwskro[" (1960)

7776


iek piv`qr Awqmw dw dIdwr

bIbI suKvMq iek bVI ipAwrI Awqmw sI[ kdy aus dy m`Qy 'qyiSkn nhIN sI ipAw[ pqlI vI, m`DrI vI, pr jwn Skqvr!qVkswr au~TdI, ismrn krdI, Swm nUM hirmMdr swihb jw ky BWfymWjx dI syvw krdI[ swrw idn t`br dI syvw ivc guzwrdI[ iek idn jd mYN aunHW dy Gr igAw qW iek`lI, A`KW mItIArdws krI jw rhI sI[ mYN ibnW KVwk kIqy pws jw ky bih igAw[auh kih rhI sI, "r`bw qyrw Su`kr hY qUM mYnUM &rS id`qy hUMJx nUM,drvwzy id`qy pUMJx nUM, Gwh id`qw k`tx nUM, kbwV id`qw sùtxnUM, k`pVy id`qy Dox nUM qy b`cy id`qy mohx nUM, ijnHW dI syvw ny myryGr qweIN surg bxwieAw hY" mYN sdw bIbI dw ipAwr mwxdw AwieAw sW, A`j ausdI Awqmwdw dIdwr pRwpq ho igAw sI[ mwvW ieh sB kuJ krdIAW qW mYNbVIAW vyKIAW hoeIAW sn, pr ies qrHW dI Ardws mYN iksy mUMhoNnhIN sI suxIN[ (1961)

sM udr jI

suKvMq bIbI dy iek irSqydwr sn; nwm mYnUM ies vyly cyqy nhINAw irhw[ suMdr sun`Kw srIr, BrvW ichrw, slIky nwl sWiBAwhoieAw dwhVw, sMvwr ky bMnHI hoeI dsqwr auhnW dI S^SIAq nUMidliKcvW bxwauNdy sn[ bol vI auhnW dy imTy sn[ auh jd vI kdyAwpxI Gr vwlI dI g`l krdy bVy ipAwr nwl auhnW nUM 'suMdr jI'kih ky Xwd krdy[ rihx vwly luiDAwxy dy sn qy jd vI imlx swnUM

Awpxy Gr Awaux leI AwiKAw krn[ AsIN vI socdy sW ik auhnWnUM zrUr iml ky AweIey ijnHW nUM auh 'suMdr jI' kihMidAW r`jdy nhIN['auh s`c-mùc bhuq suMdr hoxy hn !' auhnW nUM vI vyK ky AweIey[ iek vwrI myrw qy myrI Gr vwlI kMvrjIq dw iksy kMm ip`CyluiDAwxy jwxw hoieAw[ kMvr mYnUM kihx l`gI, "sb`b nwl luiDAwxyAwey hoey hW, 'suMdr jI' nUM hI iml AweIey[" so AsIN id`qy hoey pqyAnuswr auhnW dy Gr jw phMucy qy drvwzw KVkwieAw[ bUhw KoilAwqy iek motI ijhI AOrq, ijs dw gUVHw sWvlw rMg sI, ichry 'qy mwqwdy dwZ sn, grdn ndwrd vrgI sI, bwhr JwkI[ AsW smJ ilAwauhnW dy Gr koeI kMm krn vwlI hoxI hY[ AsW ikhw, "AsIN suMdrjI nUM imlx Awey hW[" auh kihx l`gI, "myrw nwm hI suMdr hY, AwEnw qy swnUM ieSwry nwl AMdr Awaux leI ikhw[" qy auh swfy A`gy-Agy AMdr qur peI[ mYN qy kMvr ny iek-dUjy v`l hYrwnI dI nzr nwlvyiKAw ijvyN kih rhy hoeIey, 'ik iesy sMudr jI nUM vyKx Awey hW[' pr jd AsIN AMdr pujy qW swrw Gr ieqny slIky qy s&weI nwlsWiBAw sjwieAw hoieAw sI ik AsIN bVy pRBwivq hoey[ swnUM aunHWibTwieAw, jwx-pCwx pu`CI, qy kihx l`gI, "srdwr jI pwsoN quhwfwnwm qW bVI vwr suixAw ey, A`j qusW swfy crn pwey, ies qoN v`fwsuBwg myry leI kI ho skdw ey[" iPr ausdI ^wqrdwrI, ijs ivc aucyc koeI nhIN sI,ipAwr Bwvnw r`j ky sI[ Awvwz ausdI ivc idliKcvINloc, bol ausdy ipAwr ivc gùJy hoey[ 'jI jI' qoN ibnW koeIvwk vI nw inkly[ dsW pMdrW imMtW ivc hI swnUM aus nyAwpxw grvIdw (ipAwrvwn) bxw ilAw[ ADw ku GMtw aus pws ruk ky jdoN AsIN bwhr Awey qW mYN qy kMvrdohW ny iek vwr iPr iek dUjy v`l vyiKAw qy iek Awvwz ivc bolau~Ty, "ieh qW s`c-mùc 'suMdr jI' hY[" (1960)

7978


Ardws dI smJ

iek Gtnw myrI iek mrIz dI pRiqBw nwl sMbMiDq hY[ aus dIs`jI CwqI iv`c ausnUM cYrI dy dwxy ij`fI igltI pRqIq hoeI[ auhfwktr pws geI qy ausny muAwieny qoN bwAd ikhw, igltI qW CotIjhI hY pr quhwnUM mYmogRwm (CwqI dI ws AYksry) krwauxw cwhIdwhY, ikqy ieh kYNsr hI nw hovy[ kYNsr dw nW suxidAW hI auh muitAwr Z`S Kw ky if`g peI[fwktr ny aus nUM pwxI dy C`ty mwry, hoS AweI qW auh kihx l`gI,"kYNsr nwloN qW mYnUM AwqmGwq kr lYxw cwhIdw hY[ myrI mW nUM vIkYNsr sI qy auh keI swl illkVIAW lYNdI rhI qy h`fIAW dI mùT hoky mrI[ mYN aus qrHW iGst-iGst ky mrnw nhIN cwhuMdI[" fwktrW ny ikhw, "zrUrI qW nhIN ieh kYNsr hI hovy[ ho skdwhY, swDwrn koeI igltI hI hovy[ mYmogRwm qW krwE[" mYmogRwm hoigAw, pr aus qoN koeI inSicq nqIjw nw inkilAw[ fw. ny aus nUMbwieEpsI (igltI coN in`kw ijhw tukVw kFvwaux) dI slwh idqI[ qd qoN auh mrIz qy aus dy Gr vwly ArdwsW krn l`g pey ikieh kYNsr nw inkly[ bwieEpsI pMdrW idnW bwAd hoxI sI, qy swrwt`br qy dosq im`qr doey vyly Ardws kirAw krn[ bwieEpsI hoeI qy kYNsr inkl AwieAw[ aus mrIz dy swryt`br nUM bVI mwXUsI hoeI, pr mrIz bVy roh ivc AweI[ "ieqnyidnW qoN ieqny bMdy idn rwq ArdwsW krdy rhy, pr kYsw r`bhY ijs ny ie`k nw suxI ?" ies mOky qy aus dy Gr dy jIA aus nUM myry pws lY ky Awey ikauNikaus dI nINdr auf geI sI[ bVI BwrI icMqw ny aus nMU gRisAw hoieAw

sI[ aus dI Bu`K qm sI[ aus dw Bwr koeI cwr iklogRwm G`t igAwsI[ mYN pihlW qW aus AOrq nMU tIkw lgwieAw ijs nwl aus dI icMqwkwrx bixAw qxwE Gty[ pMdrW ku imMtW bwAd auh Awp bolI,'fwktr quhwfw kI iÂwl hY rb nUM swfy nwl ieauN krnw cwhIdw sI?fwktr kihMdw sI, 'r`b BlI krygw' - suAwh BlI kIqI sU ?" mYN aus dy moFy qy h`Q rìKAw qy ikhw, "bytI qMU mYnUM bVI aulJnivc PsI lgdI hY[ kYNsr nwl G`t, qy icMqw krky aus qoN izAwdw[" aus vyly pqw nhIN ikvyN iek bzurg bwbw mYnUM imlx Aw gey[mYN auhnW nUM AMdry bulwieAw qy aus muitAwr nwl auhnW dw pircYkrwieAw qy ikhw ieh bVI burI qrHW icMqw gRsq hY ikauNik auusdIAWArdwsW suxIAW nhIN geIAW[ ieh Ardws ieh krdI rhI hY ikaus dI CwqI ivc jo igltI inkl AweI hY auh kYNsr dI nw hovy[ prtYstW ivc auh kYNsr dI hI inkl AweI hY[" bwbw jI muskRwey, "AsIN swry ieho kuJ krdy hW qy aus nUMArdws smJdy hW[ Ardws koeI h`k mMgxW qW nhIN hMudw ^YrmMgxw huMdw hY[ AsIN ^Yr mMgdy hI nhIN, so ^Yr pYNdI hInhIN[ h`k smJ ky mMgdy hW, pr swfw h`k hY kI?" iPr ausny aus muitAwr dy isr 'qy h`Q PyirAw qy ikhw, "Bgvwn zrUr BlIkrygw[ Awpxy Awp nU M Bgvwn dy spurd kr dy[ ausdIrìKAw s`B qoN v`fI su`riKAw hY[ mMgIN kuJ nw, ijvyN auh toryturI c`lIN[" ieh kih ky bwbw jI cly gey mYnUM kih gey, "quhwnUM iPr Aw kyimlWgw[" auh muitAwr mYnUM puCx lgI, "ieh kOx sn ?" mYN disAw,ieh swfy gurduAwry dy gRMQI hn[" qd auh bolI, "do imMtW iv`c TMFvrqw gey hn[ jd mYN AweI sW koRD nwl kMb rhI sW[ hux icq sWqhoieAw ipAw hY ikauNik mYN auhnW dy kihx qy pRBU A`gy Awqm-sprpn dw mn bxw ilAw hY[ ieqny ivc hI icMqw auT geI hY[ hux

8180

Asl ividAw Asl ividAwkoeI bycYnI nhIN hY[ Aj mYnUM smJ AweI hY ik swnUM Ardws krn dIkoeI smJ nhIN[

(1961)

jo qklI& guzr jwey, aus nU M Xwd nhIN krdy

lygws, nweIjIrIAw, ivc swfy hspqwl ivc iek fwktrAlI swihb vI sn[ auh fwktr vI bVy kwbl sn, qy mnu`K vI bVycMgy sn[ iek qsbI (mwlw) g`l ltkweI r`Kdy sn[ jy pMj cwrimMt vI ivhl iml jwvy qw ivrd (jwp) kr lYNdy sn[ iek idn swnUM pqw l`gw fw: AlI horW nUM rwqIN idl dw dOrwpY igAw qy auh hspqwl ivc dw^l hn[ mYN qy myrI Gr vwlI aunHWdI ibmwr-pursI leI hspqwl aunHW nUM imlx gey[ ibsqry ivc lyty hoey sn qsbI Pyr rhy sn, A`KW mItIAWhoeIAW sn[ AsW bulwieAw qW A`KW KolHIAW, swnUM vyK ky muskRwey qykol pey stUl 'qy bYTx dw ieSwrw kIqw[ AsW hwl puiCAw qW kihxl`gy, "A`lw qAwlw kw krm hY, mOj myN hUM[" AsW ikhw, "suixAwquhwnUM idl dI qklI& ho geI ey[" kihx l`gy, "idl ko hUeIhogI[ hmyN qo hUeI nhIN[ hm qoN A`lw ky hwQ myN hYN, jYsw r`KyvYsw hI ^Ub hY[ sry qslIm Km hY jo imzwjy Xwr myN Awey[" AsW vyiKAw, fw: AlI dy ichry qy bVI SwqI sI, icMqw dw nwminSwn vI nhIN sI[ Alw A`gy Awqm smrpn kr ky icMqw mukq hoeyhoey sn[ "jb vuh rihmwn hY qo hmyN i&kr iks bwq kw hY ?" "XhW bYTy hYN qo Awp jYsy z`rw invwzoN kI suhbq nsIb hY[cly jwqy qo A`lw qAwlw kw kurb nsIb ho jwqw[ hmwry qo donoN hwQl`fU hYN[" mYN puiCAw,"qklI& ikAw hUeI QI ?"

kihx l`gy, "jo qklI& guzr jwey aus ko Xwd nhIN kIAwkrqy[ A`lw kw Sukrwnw krqy hYN ijs ny qklI& r&w krdI[" mYN ikhw, "iXh qsbI Awp Sukrwny kI Pyr rhy hYN ?" kihx l`gy, "qsbI pr qo roz m`rw kw ivrd kr rhw Qw,Sukrwnw qo idl sy krqw rhw hUM, krqw rhUMgw !" mYN ikhw, "fw: AlI swihb ! Awp sy iml kr qo myrw eImwnBI qwzw ho igAw[" "ienSw A`lw, bdsqUr qwzw hI rhy !" qd AsIN iejwzq lY ky prq Awey[ pr fw: AlI dI rUhwnIbSwSq (AnMd) dI Xwd nwl lY ky Awey[

(1965)

&irj ik ZrIb mwr?

ipMRsIpl qyjw isMG horW dy GroN DMn bIbI jI bVy hI suMdrAwqmw vwly ivAkqI sn[ kdy mQy 'qy vt nhIN sI huMdw aunHW dy[ kdyaunHW nUM au~cw bolidAW nhIN sI suixAw[ hr Awey gey dI syvw qnoN-mnoN krdy sn[ nOkrW, kwimAW dw qW aucycw i^Awl krdy sn[ jo kuJ AwpKWdy nOkrW nUM vI auhI kuJ idMdy[ "ieh vI myry r`b dy jIAhn[ myrw ikqnw kMm swrdy hn[ mYnUM Awrwm idMdy hn[ mYNienHW dw iDAwn nw r`KW qW dyxdwr hovWgI[" aunHW dy Gr &irj kMm nhIN sI kr irhw[ mYN kih bYTw, "mYNiksy imsqrI nUM bulw ilAWdw hW, Aw ky TIk kr dyvy[" kihx l`gy,"mYN Ajy ivcwr nhIN bxwieAw[" mYN hYrwn hoieAw, Gr ivc &irjipAw hY, ^rwb ho igAw hY, murMmq krwaux dw ienHW ivcwr nhINbxwieAw[ mYN soicAw, Swied pYsy dI ikrs kr rhy hn[ mYN ikhw,

8382

Asl ividAw Asl ividAw"bIbI jI! imsqrI myrw cMgw vwk& hY, mYN aus dI lVkI dw ielwjkr irhw hW, swQoN koeI pYsy nhIN lvygw qy &irj cldw kr dyvygw["kihx lgy, "pùqr nykI! qYnUM nhIN pqw ijs idn ieh &irj AwieAwsI, mYN ipRMsIpl swihb nUM AwiKAw sI ieh 'grIb mwr' qusIN vI lYAwey ho ? Agy jo kuJ b`c jWdw sI, grIbW nUM iml jWdw sI[ hux iesivc rìKAw jwvygw[" pr AsW &irj bhuqw vriqAw nhIN[ job`c rihMdY, Ajy vI AsIN grIbW, nOkrW ivc vMf dyNdy hW[ jy^rwb ho igAY qW mYnUM koeI &rk nhIN ipAw[ iesy ivc myryr`b dI rzw hY[ (1966)

iek AnUTI pR yrxw

1967-1968 dI g`l hY[ mYN EdoN lygws nweIjIrIAw ivc sW[myrw iek dosq au~QoN dy iek lyKk nUM imlwaux lY igAw jo auhnIN idnINlygws AwieAw hoieAw sI[ auh bcpn qoN hI Apwhj sI[ hux vIphIAW vwlI kursI 'qy rihMdw sI[ aus nUM imly qW auh bVI ivicqR jhI muskwn nwl imilAw[ichry dy mws p`Ty aus dy ju ivgVy hoey sn[ pr auh bqOr lyKk dybVw sPl hoieAw sI[ swfy igAW 'qy do jxy hor aus pws bYTy hoey sn jo pùCx l`gy,"qusIN lyKk ikvyN bxy ?" auh kihx l`gw, "mYN soicAw, myry pYr qWiblkul nhIN c`ldy; h`Q ieqny qW cldy hn jo mYN iehnW nwl Kw pIskdw hW[ jy Kw pI skdw hW qy ilK vI skdw hW[" qd myrImulwkwq iek v`fy lyKk nwl hoeI jo myry cwcy dw dosq sI[ mYN ausnUM puìCAw, "cMgw ilKx dw FMg kI hY?" kihx l`gw, "ieh bVIkiTn Gwlxw hY, qyry v`s dI g`l nhIN[" pr mYN soc ilAw, 'ilKxw zrUr hY[' mYN r`b dw nwm ilAw qyaus idn dy A^bwr ivc jo v`fI ^br sI, aus bwry Awpxy ivcwr

ilK ky aus A^bwr dy AYfItr nUM Byj idqy[ mYN hYrwn hoieAw jd auhCp gey[ mYN smJ igAw jy r`b dw nW lY ky ilKIey qW ilKqshI hMudI hY[ qd iek hor iÂwl AwieAw, "jy dYvI pyRrxw nwlilKIey qW hor vI cMgw hovygw[" mYN bVy iDAwn qy sMqoK nwlAwpxy Drm bwry ilKx l`gw[ pihloN-pihl iek do vwrmyrI ilKq nw mnzUr vI hoeI[ pr ijauN-ijauN mYN ilKIigAw, r`b ny myrI ilKq ivc Awpxw rs pwauxw SurU krid`qw qy A`j A^bwr vwly mYQoN lyK mMgdy hn[" mYN soicAw, ieh jmWdrU Apwhj jy r`b 'qy iDAwn lgwky ieqnw cMgw ilK skdw hY qW mYN, ijs dy h`Q pYr swlmhn, ikauN nhIN ilK skdw? qd qoN mYN Drm dy bwry pVHxw qyilKxw SurU kr id`qw[ r`b dy iDAwn ny qy aus A`gy kIqIpRwrQnw ny, mYnUM vI Dwrimk lyKk bxw id`qw[

(1968)

ip`T ip`Cy vI inMdw nhIN krdy

poR&Ysr kwrstyArz sMswr dy supRis`D mnoicikqskW iv`coNmMny-pRmMny ivSyS`g sn[ Awp Xwrk XUnIvristI dy vweIs cWslrvI rhy[ ieh EdoN dI gl hY jd auh ivSv mwnisk suAsQ dy pRDwnsn[ aunHW mYnUM eySIAw KMf dw mIq pRDwn inXukq kIqw hoieAw sI[ iek idn AsIN dovyN AYfnbrw bYTy slwh kr rhy sW ik kONsldIAW do ^wlI QwvW 'qy iks nUM nwmzd krwieAw jwvy[ mYnUM aunHWpùiCAw, "quhwfI rwie Anuswr iks nUM kONsl ivc inXukq kIqwjwvy?" mYN ivcwr ky iek s`jx dw nW ilAw jo mYnUM auic`q l`gdw sI[auh kihx l`gy, "fw: nykI, myrw qW jIA krdw ey ik quhwfI rwey nUMsvIkwr kr lvW, pr iek mjbUrI mYnUM AYsw krnoN vrj rhI hY[" mYNaunHW nUM puiCAw, "auh mjbUrI kI hY ?" kihx lgy, "ausy dyS dw iek

8584

Asl ividAw Asl ividAwsjx swfI kONsl ivc Agy vI hY[ iek hor lYx nwl iksy hor dys dIhk ql&I ho jwvygI[" swfI gl ieQy hI rih geI ikauNik koeI horsjx auhnW nUM imlx leI Aw igAw[ mYN iejwzq lY ky bwhr Aw igAw[ bwhr aunHW dy Amly dy do s`jx KVy sn[ mYN aunHW nwl g`lbwqkrn leI aunHW nwl Klo igAw[ g`lW-g`lW ivc mYN izkr kIqw ikAsIN kONsl dIAW do wlI QwvW 'qy bMdy inXukq krn leI glbwq krrhy sW, qy mYN..... dw nwm pyS kr id`qw...[" myrI g`l tok ky hI aunHWpuiCAw, "qW kwrstyArz swihb ny kI ikhw ?" mYN disAw, "auh myryvloN pyS kIqy hoey nwm nwl qW Asihmq nhIN sn, pr ies leImjbUr sn ik aunHW dy dyS dw iek bMdw A`gy hI kONsl ivc hY[" auhdovyN s`jx h`s pey qy ikhw, "sBX g`l krnI koeI fw: kwrstyArzqoN is`Ky[" mYN ikhw, "mYN smiJAw nhIN, mYnUM smJw skdy E ?" kihxl`gy, "ijs dw qusW nwm ilAw hY, auh bVw cwlU AwdmI hY[quhwnUM qW pqw nhIN aus dy cwl-cln bwry ienkuAwrI c`l rhIhY[ fw: kwrstyArz ies g`l qoN jwxU M hn[ pr auh kdy iksydI ip`T ip`Cy vI inMdw nhIN krdy[ ies leI aunHW quhwfw suJwEnw mnzUr krn leI iek mwkUl vjwh pyS kr idqI qy qusIN ies nUMpRvwn kr ilAw[" myry idl ivc fw: kwrstyArz leI siqkwr A`gy qoN vI au`cwho igAw[ (1971)

ie`k dYvI sunyhw

1973 dI g`l hY, myrw kwr clwauNdy dw hwdsw ho igAw[h`fIAW swbq G`t bcIAW, tutIAW vDyry[ KoprI iek kMn qoN dUjy kMnqk hyTly pwisEN cIrI geI[ mYN qW byhoS ho igAw, pr Un kMnW ivcoNvI, n`k ivcoN vI, mMUh ivcoN vI vgI jwey[

smrwly lwgy ieh hwdsw hoieAw sI[ QoVI surq AweI qW mYN

iksy hspqwl ivc ipAw sW[ fwktr koeI myrI nbz 'qy h`Q r`K kyKloqw sI[ kih irhw sI, “nbz qW nWh vrgI hI cl rhI hY[” iPraunHW myry lhU dw dbwE vyKx vwlw XMqR myrI bwh qy bMinAw[ “bl`fpRYSr vI bhuq Q`ly hY[ ifRp lgwE[” myrI surq iPr clI geI[

pr AMdr iek ivcwr AwieAw, “Swied hux Aw^rI smW hY,clo vwihgurU nMU hI Xwd kr leIey[” pr ies qoN pihlW ik mYNvwihgurU dw nwm lY skdw, surq in`pt guAwc geI[

jd hoS prqI qW mYnMU fw. AlI Xwd Awey[ mYN hr Bwxy leIiqAwr ho igAw[ iqRlocn Bgq dy ieh bol myry AMdr gMUj gey[

AMq kwl nwrwiex ismrY] AYsI icMqw mih jy mrY]bidq iqRlocn qy nr mukqw pIqWbru vw ky irdY bsY]iek pl leI mYnMU jwipAw mYN iksy in`GI Du`p dw pihrn

pihinAw hoieAY[ suriq iPr guAwc geI[iPr suriq prqI qW kMvrjIq myrw h`Q PV ky KVI sI[

puCx lgI, “kYsy ho?” “iblkul TIk hW” mYN ikhw[ puCxw cwhMudw sW,“myrw Du`p dw pihrnw ik`Dr igAw?” pr surq iPr clI geI[

jd prqI qW mYN Gusmusy ivc sW[ jo mYN vyiKAw, pqw nhINauh bwhrlI hkIkq sI jW myry AMdr kuJ vwpr irhw sI[ iek suMdrsuAwxI myrw hwl p`uCx AweI[ mYN ausnMU pCwx nhIN sW sikAw, prlgdw sI ikqy vyKI hoeI hY[ aus ny myry m`Qy 'qy h`Q riKAw qy iPrAwpxw h``Q cMum ilAw[ mYnMU l`gw ik BuVI mnzUr ho geI[ mYN bcigAw hW[

iPr mYN cMgI qrHW A`KW KolIAW, qd mYnMU iek-iek dI QW do-do ids rhy sn[ mYnMU smJ Aw geI ik myrIAW AKW nMU ihlwaux vwlyqMqUAW nMU s`t l`g geI hoeI hY[ qd mYN vyiKAW myrI s`jI tMg nMU iekvzn bMnH ky auh vzn iek pulI qoN ltkwieAw hoieAw hY[ mYnMU pqwl`g igAw ik myry p`t dI h`fI t`ut geI hY qy ieh vzn bMn ky ausnMUQW isr kIqw igAw hY[ iPr mYN vyiKAw myrI K`bI bWh plsqr ivc

8786

Asl ividAw Asl ividAwb`JI hoeI hY[ AnuBv ho igAw ik kw&I cotW AweIAW hoeIAW hn qykw&I h`fIAW tu`tIAW hoeIAW hn[

qd mYnMU iÂwl AwieAw, “h`fIAW qW bhuq tut geIAW hn,KoprI vI cIrI geI hY, pr idmwZ TIk hY, nhIN qW mYN ieh swrw kuJikvyN soc skdw sW?” qd mYN Sukrwny ivc gVUMd ho igAw[

QoVy icr nMU KVwk hoieAw qW mYN A`KW KolHIAW[ ie`k inhMgisMG Kloqw sI[ kihx lgw, “swnMU hukm hoieAY Awp dy drSn krndw[” mYN puiCAw, “iks dw hukm hoieAY?” auh gj ky boilAw, “POjWnMU isvw klgIDr pwqSwh dy hor iks dw hukm ho skdY? swnMU hukmhoieAw Awp nMU ieh pRSwd pucwieAw jwvy[” mYN s`jw hQ A`gy kIqw[K`bw qW bìJAw hoieAw sI[ pr aunHW pRSwd is`Dw myry mMUh ivc pwidqw[ mYN pRSwd AMdr lMGw ilAw[ ieqny ivc inhMg isMG horI 'AOhgey AOh gey' ho gey[

auh bwhr inkly hI sn ik myrw Cotw vIr s.s. jogI AwigAw[ mYN pùiCAw, “qusW koeI inhMg isMG bwhr jWdw vyiKAw?”kihx lgw nhIN[” mYN ikhw, “ auh drvwzy 'coN bwhr inkilAw hIsI ik qusIN AMdr Awey, qusW vyiKAw nhIN?” kihx lgy, “nhIN!”

mYN smJ igAw klgIDr dw sunyhw sI, ieh pRSwd Byj kyd`sxw ik mYN iblkul TIk ho jwvWgw[ so ho igAw[ (1973)

iqRkwl drSqw dw Byq

ie`k vwr mYN Eslo hvweI A`fy qoN jhwz qy ciVHAw[ mYN glIvwly pwsy dI sIt qy sW qy iek swDU jI iKVkI vwly pwsy dI sIt qy[jd hvweI jhwz aufwx Br ky rqw au~cw hoieAw qW swDU jI iKVkIivcoN bwhr vyKx lgy[ iPr muskrw pey[ mYN Jkdy-Jkdy puìCAw,“mhwrwj qusIN muskrw rhy ho, hyTW koeI ws g`l hY?” kihx lgy,

“qusIN vI vyK lau[”Awp auT ky myrI sIt qy Aw gey qy mYnMU AwpxIsIt 'qy ibTw idqw[ mYN hyTW vyiKAw, “smMudr 'coN auTdy b`dl iGrky Awey hoey sn, bwrS vI ho rhI sI[ prbq auqoN ndIAW vih kyhyTW Aw rhIAW sn, iek dirAw ijhw bx igAw sI jo vwps smMudrivc smw irhw sI[ mYN ikhw, “mhwrwj ! hyTW koeI Alokwr g`l qWho nhIN rhI[”qy jo mYN vyiKAw sI dìsAw[ kihx l`gy, “ies swrIpRikirAw dI jo hyTW vwpr rhI hY, quhwnMU jwxkwrI Av`S hY[ priek v`fw AMqr vwpr igAw hY[ qusW vI qy mYN vI skUly jugrwPIeyivc piVHAw sI, pihlW smMudr qoN hvwVW au~TdIAW hn qy b`dlbxdIAW hn[ iPr, iehnW b`dlW nMU hvwvW prbqW qk lY jWdIAWhn[ au~QoN dI TMF ivc auh b`dl brsx l`gdy hn[ iPr prbqW qoNnwly ndIAW bx ky hyTW mYdwn v`l au~qrdy hn[ au~Qy ieh rl kydirAw bxwauNdy hn[ iPr ieh dirAw mYdwnW QwxIN Flwx v`lsrkdy smMudr ivc jw if`gdy hn[ ieh swrw iek islslw hY-pihloN qy ip`CoN dw[ hux jd AsIN DrqI qoN kuJ hI au~pr au~TyhW qW 'pihlW ieh, qy ipCoN auh dw islislw smwpq hoigAw hY[ swrw kuJ ieky vyly vrq irhw hY[ ieh qW AsINkyvl BOiqk qOr qy au~pr au~Ty hW, jo koeI AiDAwqmk qOrqy au~pr au~T jwvy qW, kI s`c-m` uc iqRkwldrSI nhIN hojwvygw?” (1974)

Srq nhIN kyvl smrpx

kuJ vryH ismrn ivc iDAwn l`gx qoN bwAd ie`kw-ie`kiDAwn auK`Vn l`g ipAw[ jo svwd pihlW AwieAw krdw sI, auhCuVk igAw[ iek AjIb ijhI bycYnI pRqIq hox l`gI[ ijnHW pwsoNismrn dI dwq pRwpq hoeI sI, auh colw iqAwg gey sn[ iks pwsoNshwieqw mMgx jwvW?”

8988

Asl ividAw Asl ividAwqd iek idn ieknw sMqW nwl myl ho igAw[ aunHW nMU sinmr

ho ky p`uiCAw, “mhwrwj, myrw ismrn ivc iDAwn l`gxoN ht igAwhY[ koeI rwh d`so muV ismrn ivc iDAwn l`g pvy[” AwKx l`gy,“jwp swihb dw pwT kirAw kro[” mYN ikhw, “auh qW mYN roz krdwhW[” kihx l`gy, “iek hor kr ilAw kro[” mYN koiSS kIqI, prdUjI vwr jwp swihb dw pwT krn ligAW iDAwn aus pwT ivc vInw l`gy[

iekw iek sMq pMifq inScl isMG jI jgwDrI vwilAW nwlmulwkwq ho geI[ aunHW nMU vI mYN auhI pRSn pwieAw, “jy ismrn iv`ciDAwn lgxoN ht jwey qW kI krnw cwhIdw hY?” hs pey qy myrI ipTqy h`Q PyridAW AwKx l`gy, “ismrn ivc l`gy rho, Gwl nwCoVo[ ipCoN jw ky quhwnMU pqw c`lygw ik jd iDAwn nhIN vIsI l`g irhw, qW vI kuJ ho irhw sI[ krqw purK dI imhrleI AsIN koeI Srq nhIN r`K skdy, kyvl smrpx drkwrhY[” (1974)

horW qoN gux ivhwjIey

Bwpw pRIqm isMG horIN swry pMjwbI jgq ivc hrmn ipAwrysn[ aunHW dI izMdgI keIAW vwsqy rhnumweI krdI sI[ mYnMU vI aunHWdI sMgq dI dwq pRwpq hMudI rihMdI sI[

ie`k g`l jo mYnMU aunHW isKweI, ieh sI ik auh tYlIPonAwvy qy cu`k ky A`go 'hYlo!' nhIN sn boldy[ sdw 'hW jI!'kihMdy sn, bVI imTws nwl!

iek vwr aunHW dy invws AsQwn 'qy aunW dy pws bYTw hoieAwsW jd iek Bdr purS hor aunHW nMU imlx Aw igAw[ Bwpw jI ny aunHWnwl myrI jwx-pCwx krvweI[ auh vI 'lyKk' sn qy Bwpw jI kolAwpxI iek ikqwb ilK ky ilAwey sn Cpvwaux leI[

Bwpw jI ny pusqk dw KrVw ilAw[ pihlw s&w piVHAw qyiPr AMqlw s&w piVHAw qy aunHW nMU ikhw, “ieh pusqk Ajy horimhnq mMgdI hY[ iksy cMgy Awlock nMU ivKw ky rwey lau qy ies purQoVHI imhnq hor kro[” auh B`dr purS bVy mwXUs hoey[

QoVy icr mgroN hI aunHW krqwr isMG du`gl horW bwry bolxwSurU kr idqw, “aus dIAW ikqwbW qW qusIN Cwp idMdy ho[ aus nMU qypMjwbI vI cMgI qrHW nhIN AwauNdI, ivcy poTohwrI mwrI jWdY[” BwpwjI ny ikhw, “poTohwrI vI qW pMjwbI dI aupBwSw hY, aus nMU vrq kyauh pMjwbI dw Gyrw moklw hI krdw hY[”

auh c`up ho igAw[ pr imMt ku ip`CoN iPr bol ipAw, “qusWnwmDwrIAW dy gurU bwry vI iek pusqk CwpI hY[ cMgy isK ho?” BwpwjI muskrwey qy kihx lgy, “vIr jI! mYN pRkwSk hW[ ikqwbW Cwpxwmyrw kMm hY[ jo ikqwb mYnMU cMgy p`DrW dI ilKI imldI hY, mYN CwpxleI rwzI ho jWdw hW[ bwkI rhI gl nwmDwrIAW dI[ aunHW ny gurU jIdy kIrqn dI bVI sMBwl kIqI ey[ aunHW qoN v`D ies smyN iksy nhINkIqI[ aunHW dw qW swry is`K pMQ nMU irxI hoxw cwhIdw hY[”

auh B`dr purS iPr cup kr gey[ pr pMj imMtW bwAd iPrboly, “qusW AimRqw pRIqm dIAW ikqwbW vI CwpIAW[ aus ny kys ktwley, isgrt Srwb pIx l`g peI[ nwm nwl pRIqm ilKI iPrdI ey,pr vsdI horW nwl hY[ AYsI AOrq dIAW ikqwbW ikvyN Cwpdy ho?”Bwpw jI AYqkI muskrwey nhIN pr mQy vt vI nhIN pwieAw qy kihxlgy, “vIr jI! qusW du `gl swihb dI vI inMidAw kIqI,nwmDwrIAW dI vI inMidAw kIqI, hux AMimRqw pRIqm dI vIinMidAw hI kIqI hY[ ienHW iqMnHW ivc koeI gux vI qW hoxgy[swnMU aunHW guxW ivcoN qW kuJ pRwpq ho skdw hY[ inMidAw ivcoNkuJ nhIN l`Bxw[ nwly mYN qW rcnw dw mu`l pwauxw hY, bMdy dwnhIN[ mYN pusqk Cwpdw hW, bMdy nhIN Cwpdw[”iPr h`s kyboly, qusIN bVy cMgy ienswn ho, mYnMU ipAwry l`gdy ho, ilKq quhwfI

9190

Asl ividAw Asl ividAwAjy hor imhnq mMgdI hY, so mYN quhwnMU Arz kr id`qI ey[”

mYN Bwpw jI dy jd vI drSn kIqy kuJ nw kuJ isìKAw hI[aus idn vI isìKAw[ swnMU inMidAw coN kuJ nhIN l`Bxw, horW dygux ivhwjy jwx qW hI kuJ l`B skdw hY[”

(1974)

swihby-kmwl dw iDAwn

sMMMM M Mq iekbwl isMG jI bVyy msq mlMg iksm dyyyy sMq sn[nyyqr aunHW dy hr vyly nwm dI ûuumwrI nwl m^mUr rihMdy sn[ iekidn mYN aunHW nUM pùiCAw, "qusIN ikhVy nwm dw jwp krdy ho ? muskRwky kihx l`gy, "AsIN aus nwm dw jwp krdy hW jo swnUM dsm pwqSwhqoN pRwpq hoieAw hY[ mYN hYrwn hoieAw, dsvyN pwqSwh qoN nwm ikvyNpRwpq hoieAw[ mYN pùiCAw, "supny ivc ?" h`s pey qy kihx l`gy,"supny ivc nhIN, sInw-bsInw clidAW ! dsm pwqSwh koloN nwmdI dwq bwbw klwDwrI swihb ny pRwpq kIqI qy iPr AiDkwrIjigAwsU nUM qorI[ A`goN aunHW dy pRymIAW ivcoN jo srboqm sn aunHWAglI pIVHI nUM qorI[ swfy BwgIN pMj pIVHIAW qoN mgroN AweI hY[ AsINdsvyN pwqSwh dy iDAwn ivc lIn ho ky aunHW dy b^Sy ausy nwm dwjwp krdy rihMdy hW[" myry mn dw sMsw bol ipAw, "dsvyN pwqSwh gurU goibMd isMG jIdIAW qW keI v`K-v`K qsvIrW bx geIAW hn; qusIN ikhVI nUMiDAwn ivc Drdy ho ? auh h`s pey qy kihx l`gy, "iDAwn qsvIrdw nhIN mYN s`cy pwqSwh dw lgwauNdw hW[" mYN hor vI hYrwn hoieAw,"mYN i^mw cwhuMdw hW, pr, qsvIr qoN ibnHW kws dw iDAwn krdy ho?"AYqkIN myry svwl pr h`sy nhIN, sgoN gMBIr ho ky kihx lgy, "mYN ausgurU goibMd isMG dw iDAwn Drdw hW ijs ny cmkOr dy Xu`Divc Awpxy h`QIN Awpxy byty ShId krvwey[ auh koeI qsvIr

nhIN, koeI srIr vIN nhIN, auh gurU qW srboqm Awqmw hY[mYN 'srboqm Awqmw sI nhIN ikhw, 'srboqm Awqmw hY'[gurU srIrnhIN Awqmw huMdw hY[ srIr in`bV jWdw hY pr 'kaux khY sRI gurum uieE?' auhI Awqmw mYnUM mwCIvwVy jMgl ivc swQIAW qoN ibnHW qurIjWdI idsdI hY[ k`pVy pwt gey hn, srIr lMgwirAw igAw hY, jùqItut geI hY, pYr ivlMUDry gey hn, FIm dw isrhwxw kr ky rVy hI lytgey hn pr Awqmw kih rhI hY, 'XwrVy dw swnUM sQr cMgw'[ iPr jdCoty swihbzwidAW dI qy mwqw gujrI jI dI Shwdq dI ^br suxdyhn qW Akwl purK dw Sukrwnw krdy hn[ ijhVI Awqmw Awpxyipqw nUM Awp Shwdq leI qordI hY, cwry lwl qy AwpxI pUjnIX mwqwdI Shwdq nUM vI mwlk dI imhr mMndI hY, AsIN aus prm Awqmwdy prm aupkwr dw iDAwn Drdy hW, iksy qsvIr dw nhIN[ qsvIrdw iDAwn qW bùq-pUjw dy qùl hY[ jd dsm pwqSwh dy srbMsdwn dw iDAwn krdy hW qW nyqr Awp muhwry syjl ho jWdyhn[ Awqmw Awp muhwry dRv jWdI hY; iPr jd aunHW dy b^Syhoey nwm dw jwp krdy hW qW dwqw Awp swfI Awqmw nUM AwpxyAilMgn (g`lvkVI) ivc lY lYNdw hY[ ies imlxI nUM iqAwgx dwicq nhIN krdw, pr hukm huMdw hY, 'jwE Awpxy sMswrk &rz vIinBwE'[" mYN pùC bYTw, "vsl mgroN ieh &rwk kYsw l`gdw hY ?" kihxl`gy, "&rwk qW vwprdw hI nhIN[ kyvl srIr nUM sMswrk kMmkrn dw AwdyS huMdw hY[ Awqmw hr vyly aunHW dy AwqimkAilMgn iv`c hI rihMdI ey[" mYN sMqW dy crnW 'qy m`Qw tyikAw[ aunHW myrI ip`T 'qy h`QPyirAw qW myrI Awqmw Jrnw geI[

(1975)

9392


iPr vI ûS nw hovW ?

fw: mYifRf bws iek suies mnoicikqsk sn[ auh ihMdusqwnAwey iek Koj krn ik ZrIbI dw mwnisk ishq 'qy kI Asr hMudw hY[ mYN audoN id`lI ivc sW[ mYnUM myry hspqwl Aw imly[ kihx l`gy,"mYN iek ivigAwnk Koj dw pRwjYkt lY ky AwieAw hW[" qd aunHW ausdw mnorQ dìsAw Aqy ieh vI ik iks ivigAwnk ivauNq nwl auhrIsrc krnw cwhMudy hn[ iPr mYnUM kihx lgy klH mYN ieh Koj AwrMBkrnI cwhMudw hW[ jykr klH svyry qusIN mYnUM Awpxy iksy bMdy nwl iksymwVI bsqI jW cMgV-muh`ly ivc iBjvw sko qy iek duBwSIey dw vIbMdobsq krvw idau qW DMnvwdI hovWgw[" mYN ieh ieMqzwm krvwdyx dw AwSvwsn id`qw[ auh DMnvwd kr ky cly gey[ Agly idn koeI ds swFy ds vjy dy krIb auh myry id`qy bMdynwl iek mwVI ijhI bsqI ivc jw phMucy[ pr bsqI dy lokIN kMmW'qy jw cuky sn so bsqI wlI-^wlI lgdI sI[ kuJ buFy mMjIAW 'qy bYTyDu`p syk rhy sn, qy kuJ b`cy gu`lI-fMfw Kyf rhy sn[ aus nUM dìsAwigAw ik ies bsqI dy bhuqy lokIN kMmW qy gey hoey hn, qkwlW mgroNhI prqxgy[ so aus ny au~Qy hnyrw pey muV prqx dw ierwdw bxwilAw[ c`lx qoN pihlW auh iek JùgI A`gy Klo gey, qy Dùpy bYTI iekbùFI nUM pùiCAw, "ieh jo swhmxy Ju`gI hY, qyrI hY ?" aus ny ikhw,"myrI qW nhIN[ ikauN kI g`l hY ?" "mYN ies dy jIAW nUM imlxwcwhWgw[ kI Swm nUM sB Aw jwxgy ?" aus ny pùiCAw[ bùFI ny "hW"ivc auqr id`qw[ "ies ivc ikqny jxy rihMdy hn ?" aus ny bùFI nUMpùiCAw[ "s`q jW A`T - mYnUM TIk pqw nhIN[" fw: bw`s ny soicAw, ieh Ju`gI qW myry Zusl^wny qoN vI CotI hY[ies ivc A`T bMdy rihMdy hn[ ieh qW izMdgI nwl bhuq nwrwz

hoxgy[ rwq peI qW auh muV au~Qy clw AwieAw[ jo aus ny vyiKAw,aus ny mYnUM Agly idn dìsAw[ kihx l`gw, "mYN au~Qy vyiKAw, JùgIdy ivckwr iek bùFI AOrq bYTI sI, qy iqMn b`cy aus dy pws sn[iek s`jy pwsy, iek auhdy K`by pwsy qy iek godI ivc[ auh aunHW nUMZwlbn khwxIAw suxw rhI sI[ b`cy vI qy bùFI vI J`t-J`t bwAdh`s pYNdy sn[ iek pwsy v`l iek jvwn muitAwr rotI pkw rhI sIqy do nOjvwn AwdmI aus dy Agy bYTy rotI Kw rhy sn[ iqMny glW-gpWmwr rhy sn, qy h`s rhy sn[ iek kony ivc iek bùFw AwdmI hu`kwpI irhw sI, qy iek b`cw ausnUM iclm PVw irhw sI[ bu`Fy ny b`cy dwh`Q PV ky cuMm ilAw qy b`cy ny muskRw ky bùFy dy pYrW nUM h`Q lwieAw[ aus JùgI ivc qW swry jIA uS sn[ eyfy hsUM-hsUM krdy ichrymYN qW Awpxy dyS dy SihrW ivc ikqy nhIN vyKy[ mYnUM XkIn ho igAwhY, fw: nykI, ik ûSI qy mwnisk ishq aupr grIbI dw koeIpRBwv nhIN hMudw[ qusIN ûS iksmq ho jo AYsy dyS ivc rihMdyho ij`Qy ZrIbI dy bwvjUd lokW dy m`Qy iKVy imldy hn[ Agly idn Awpxy duBwSIey nwl iksy pwsy inkl gey[ ie`QysVk bx rhI sI[ au~Qy iek mzdUr hQOVy nwl p`Qr qoV irhw sI[aunHW duBwSIey nUM ikhw, "ies nUM puCo ik kI ieh AwdmI AwpxI izMdgInwl ûS hY ? aus ny pùiCAw qW auqr imilAw, "hW bVw ûS hW["iPr puiCAw, "qYnUM imhnqwnw ikqnw imldw hY ? kihx lgw, "do vylydI rotI c`l jWdI hY[" iPr pùiCAw, "rwqIN sONdy ik`Qy E ?" kihxl`gw, "eyQy hI sVk dy iknwry pY jweIdw ey[ koeI gol p`Qrisr Q`ly r`K leIdw ey[ BùK vI cMgI l`gdI ey, nINd vI cMgIAwauNdI ey, kMm vI imilAw hoieAY, iPr vI ûS nw hovW qWbyvkU& hovWgw[" mYfirf ny AwpxI rIsrc qlWj id`qI[ (1976)

9594


Ardws dw ivgws

mYN EdoN id`lI dy v`fy hspqwl ivc fwktr sW[ bìcAW dyvwrf ivc myrI PyrI sI[ iek b`cw gMgw rwm au~Qy dw^l hoieAw-hoieAw sI ijs dy idl ivc kuQwvyN iek morI sI[ aus dw EprySnhoxw sI[ aus dI mwqw aus dy kol bYTI hoeI sI[ pihlW auh aus dykol bYTI roNdI rihMdI sI[ do idn qoN auh bcy dw hQ pkV ky qy A`KWmIt ky bYTI rihMdI sI[ fwktrW ny soicAw aus nUM audwsI rog hoigAw hY qy ausnUM vyKx leI mYnUM bulwieAw igAw sI[ mYN AwieAw qy vyiKAw auh A`KW mItI iblkul Aih`l bYTI sI[b`cy dw h`Q ausny Awpxy h`Q ivc ilAw hoieAw sI[ myry aus kolphuMcx 'qy vI aus A`K nhIN KolHI[ aus vwrf dy fwktr ny mYnMU ausbwry aus dy kol KiVAW hI aus dw hwl dìsAw sI, pr aus ny A`KnhIN KolHI[ mYN "vwihgurU" AwK ky aus dy moFy 'qy h`Q rìKAw qy ikhw,"b`cIey, Awpxy b`cy dI izMdgI vwsqy Ardws kr rhI eyN ?" aus nyA`KW KolHIAW qy ikhw, "pihly idn mYN eyho Ardws kIqI sI, A`jnhIN[" "A`j kI Ardws kr rhI eyN ?" pihly idn hI mYnUM smJ AwgeI sI ik myrI Ardws ûdZrzI nwl ilbVI hoeI hY ikauNik mYNvyiKAw myry b`cy dy s`jy vI, K`by vI hor b`cy pey hoey hn, ijnHW dwEprySn hoxw sI[ so myrI ihMmq nhIN peI ik mYN kyvl Awpxy bcy dIishqXwbI leI Ardws krW[ qd qoN mYN r`b nUM ieh kihx l`gI,"s`cy pwqSwh, eyQoN dy fwktrW dy h`Q ivc S&w b^SIN ik auh ijsb`cy dw vI ielwj krn auh rwzI ho jwvy[" pr ies Ardws ivcvI mYnUM svwrQ nzr Awaux l`gw[ klH dI mYN ieh Ardws kr rhIhW, "s`cy pwqSwh, sMswr dy sB fwktrW dy h`Q ivc S&wb^SIN qW ju iksy mW dw koeI vI rogI b`cw qyrI rihmq qoN

vW\w nw rhy["mYN aus dy isr 'qy h`Q rìKAw qy ikhw, "b`cIey, qUM A`j mYnUM

vI shI Ardws krnI isKw id`qI ey["aus dIAW A`KW iPr qoN muMd geIAW[ (1976)

Dn su dys jhW qUM visAw

BweI swihb BweI smuMd isMG jI pMQ dy supRis`D rwgI sn[bVy sùcy jIvn vwly sn[ kIrqn vI KùB ky krdy sn[

auhnW sRI hymkMut swihb dy drSnW leI jwx dw sMklpbxwieAw[ aus qoN kuJ icr pihlW hI auh idl dw dOrw hMFw cùkysn[ ies leI Gr dy jIA auhnW dy ies sMklp qoN icMqwqur sn[prauh isrVI p`ky sn, Awpxy h`T 'qy f`t gey[

sR: SmSyr isMG horW dw j`Qw sRI hymkMut swihb jwxw sI;Awp aus j`Qy iv`c Awpxy sMgIAw smyq Swiml ho gey[ rsqy ivcsMgqW nUM kIrqn nwl inhwl krdy gey[ vwhvw rMg bMinHAw[

goibMd Dwm qk ibnW iksy qklI& dy phuMc gey[ Agy cVHweIbVI iq`KI sI[ j`Qy nwl jo fwktr sn, auhnW BweI swihb nUM slwhid`qI ik auh A`gy nw jwx, auhnW dw idl A`gy dI cVHweI J`l nhINpweygw[ nwly ijauN-ijauN au`pr jwE vwXUmMfl dI AwksIjn G`tdIjWdI hY qy idl dy mrIzW leI hor vI qklI& dw kwrx bxdI hY[pr BweI swihb nw mMny[ kihx lgy, "vD qoN v`D mYN mr jwvWgw nw[jy gurU dy rwh ivc jWidAW mr jwvW qW ies qoN au`pr ikhVIûSiksmqI ho skdI hY?" fwktr lok inrùqr ho gey[

Agly idn sMgqW ny svyry 5 vjy goibMd Dwm qoN sRI hymkuMtswihb vwsqy cwly pwauxy sn[ BweI swihb cwr vjy hI iqAwr hogey qy Awpxy kIrqnI jQy dy dUjy donW jIAW nUM vI iqAwr krvw ilAwqy aunHW smyq cwr vjy inkl pey, mqy sMgqW jW fwktr muV aunHW nUM

9796

Asl ividAw Asl ividAwrokx dw Xqn krn[

nwly qurI gey, nwly ismrn krdy gey[ Aw^r sMgqW dyphuMcx qoN pihlW sRI hymkMut swihb A`pV gey[ swQIAW ny vyiKAw,Awp dw rMg nIlw pY igAw hY[auhnW BweI swihb nUM iltwieAw qy hQpYr J`sy[ pMjW ku imMtW bwAd BweI swihb swvDwn ho ky au~T Kloqy[k`pVy auqwry qy srovr ivc ieSnwn kIqw[ iPr qwzw k`pVy pihny qysMgIAW nUM ikhw clo gurduAwrw swihb phMucIey qy kIrqn AwrMBkrIey[

Jbdy hI gurduAwrw swihb phuMc gey[ m`Qw tyikAw qy gurUjI dI hzUrI ivc caukVI mwr ky bYT gey[ Sbd lwieAw : 'DMnu su dysu jhw qUM visAw myry sjx mIq murwry jIau]' (pM: 96)

ieqnw iB`j ky kIrqn kIqw ik nwly nwl gweI jwx qy nwlynwl roeI jwx[

jd sMgqW phMucIAW qW auh vyK ky hYrwn ho geIAW ik BweIswihb auhnW qoN pihlW phuMc vI gey sn qy kIrqn vI kr rhy sn[BweI swihb dy nYxW 'coN Jrny Pùtdy vyK, sMgqW dy nyqr vI syjl hogey[

sRI hymkuMt swihb dI ieho-ijhI Xwqrw kdy nhIN hoeI hoxI[ (1976)

dosqI nUM b`j l`g jwxI sI

fw: hirBjn isMG horW nwl myrI bVI gUVHI im`qrqw sI[AsIN dovyN iek-dUjy dI idloN ie`zq vI krdy sW, ipAwr vI[ jdoN mYNid`lI huMdw qW aunHW nwl h&qy do h&qy mgroN zrUr mulwkwq ho jWdI[aunHW koloN aunHW dy gIq suxny mYnUM bhuq cMgy lgdy[ aus qoN pihlW vI jd mYN AMimRqsr ivc sW qW vI ieh jd

grmI dIAW Cu`tIAW ivc id`lI qoN AwauNdy qW mYnUM myry hspqwl hIimlx Aw jWdy qy GMitAW-b`DI mYnUM mrIzW nwl g`lbwq kridAW nUMvyKdy qy suxdy rihMdy[ jd mYN id`lI qoN pI.jI.AweI. dw fwierYktr ho ky cMfIgVH AwigAw, qW swfw zwqI sMprk G`t igAw[ pr iek idn iek AwdmImyry pws aunHW dw iek rukw lY ky Aw igAw[ mYnUM, aunHW dw rukw vyK ky,cwA ijhw cVH igAw[ aus rùky ivc swihb slwm qoN bAwd iliKAw sI, "nykI, iehswihb jo ieh rukw qyry pws ilAw rhy hn, myry cMgy jwxU hn[ ienHWnUM quhwfy gocry koeI kMm hY[ ienHW dI mdd krnI[" mYN aunHW nUM pùiCAw, "d`so kI kMm hY ? mYN quhwfI kI mdd krskdw hW ?" kihx l`gy, "myrw lVkw fwktrI ivc pVHdw hY; aus nyiemiqhwn id`qw hY Aqy prcy quhwfy hyT kMm krdy iksy fwktr kolAwey hn[ qusIN ausnUM kihxw ik ausnUM pws kr dyvy[" mYN aunHW nUM pùiCAw, "qusW fwktr hirBjn isMG horW nUM dìsAwsI ik iks kMm leI myrI mdd lYxw cwhMdy ho ?" kihx l`gy, "ausdI qW nObq hI nhIN AweI jI[ mYN jd aunHW nUM dìsAw ik mYnUM quhwfygocry kMm hY qW aunHW ikhw, "nykI nUM qy mYN kih skdw hW - auh vI mwxnwl[ qy ieh rùkw qurMq ilK ky mYnUM dy id`qw, jo mYN uSI-ûSI quhwfypws lY AwieAw hW[" mYN ikhw, "fwktr hirBjn isMG myry bVy gUVHy im`qr hn[quhwfw DMnvwdI hW ik qusIN aunHW vloN myry v`l rukw lY ky Awey ho[ prmYnUM Kyd hY ik mYN quhwfI, ies mwmly ivc, koeI mdd nhIN krskdw[" auh kihx l`gy, "aunHW dI ic`TI dy bwvjUd vI ?" mYN ikhw, "jIhW[" kihx l`gy, "cMgI dosqI hY quhwfI ?" mYN ikhw, "qusIN jw kyhirBjn horW nUM kih dyxw ik mYN quhwnUM t`ky vrgw jvwb id`qw hY[quhwfy ieh d`sx nwl dosqI dI AzmwieS vI ho jwvygI["

9998

Asl ividAw Asl ividAw auh s`jx mwXUs ho ky cly gey qy id`lI jw ky aunHW fw: hirBjnisMG nUM ikhw, "bVw dosq leI iPrdw sYN, auhny qW swnUM tky vrgwjvwb dy id`qw[" hirBjn isMG ny pùiCAw, "kMm kI sI quhwfw ?" aunHW jd kMmdìsAw qW hirBjn isMG ny aunHW nUM ikhw, "mYN quhwQoN AYsy zlIl kMmdI aumId nhIN krdw sW[ mYnUM qusIN pihlW dìsAw huMdw, qW mYN quhwnUMeyQy hI TMfw kr dyxw sI - nykI horW kol Byjxw hI nhIN sI[ jy auhmyry rùky nUM vyK ky kmzor pY jWdw qy ieh kMm krvw idMdw qWswfI dosqI nUM b`j l`g jwxI sI[ mYN qW aus dw DMnvwdI hW ikaus myrI koqwhI dy bwvjUd swfI dosqI nUM bcw ilAw[" jd mYnUM pqw l`gw fw: hirBjn isMG horW aus s`jx nUM kI ikhwhY qW myry mn ivc aunHW dI ie`zq hor vI v`D geI[ (1980)

iek s`cw jn-ihqYSI lIfr

ivSv ishq sMsQw (WHO) dw slwhkwr ho ky mYN dwrsslwm (qnzweIAw) phMuicAw sW[ au~Qy A`pVn swr hI fwktrW dIiek bYTk ivc ih`sw lYx igAw ijs dI pRDwngI hYlQ iminstrkr irhw sI[

mIitMg ivc ieh ivcwr ho rhI sI ik, dyS dy bjt ivc jnsuAsQ leI ijqnI ku rkm rwKvIN hY, aus ivc hr iksm dIAWdvweIAW qW muheIAw nhIN krvweIAW jw skdIAW[ ies leIjIvn-bcwaux vwlIAW qy hor zrUrI dvweIAW dI sUcI iqAwr kIqIjwvy qW ju G`to-G`t ieh dvweIAW qW hr hspqwl qy hYlQ sYNtrivc pRwpq hox[

ie`k kmytI ny dvweIAW dI sUcI iqAwr kIqI hoeI sI ijsbwry ivcwr ho rhI sI[ ijs vyly imrgI rog dIAW dvweIAW bwryivcwr ho rhI sI, aus vyly iek AwdmI bwhroN AwieAw qy aus ny

hYlQ iminstr dy lwgy jw ky aus dy kMn ivc kuJ AwiKAw[ hYlQiminstr dIAW A`KW ivc hMJU Aw gey, qy aus ny aus bMdy nMU ikhw,“nhIN mYN ies dI iejwzq nhIN dy skdw[” qy aus dIAW A`KW ivcltkdy hMJU myz au~pr if`g pey[

swry hYrwn ho gey[ dlyrI kr ky swfy ivcoN iek ny pùiCAw,“swihb! kI gl hoeI Awp bVw duK mnw rhy ho?” iminstr ny rumwlnwl Awpxy hMJU pMUJy, iPr h`Q nwl Awpxy vwl ip`Cy kIqy qy ikhw,'eyQy jo bMdw AwieAw sI, ausny disAw ik myry Brw dy gurdy &ylH hogey hn, qy fwktrW ny ikhw ik aus dy vwsqy fwieAYilisz dI mSInlYxI pvygI, jo guridAW dw kMm krdI hY[ nwl hI ausny dìsAw, ausmSIn dI kImq ikqnI hY qy mYnMU ikhw ik mYN auh mSIn KrIdx dIiejwzq dy idAW[”

aus vyly myry mn ivc iÂwl AwieAw, eynI rkm nwl qWmyry dyS dy imrgI dy swry mrIzW dw ielwj ho skdw hY[ somYN mSIn KrIdx qoN nWh kr idqI[”

“hMJU myry Brw leI sn[ mSIn leI ienkwr myry dyS vwsIAWleI sI, ijMnHW dI izMmyvwrI mYnMU sONpI geI hY[”

ieh g`l sux ky au~Qy bYTy sBnW dIAW A`KW ivc hMJU auqrAwey[ (1981)

dunIAw Br ivc myrw koeI mukwblw nhIN

EdoN mYN mwnisk ishq dI AMqrrwStrI &YfrySn dw AwnryrIsk`qr sW[ qd iek XhUdI AOrq dw nwm aus &YfrySn dy iPrqUrwjdUq dy pd leI qjvIz hoieAw[ auh inaUXwrk rihMdI sI qy mYNQoVHy idnW nMU inaUXwrk jwxw sI[ so mYN ausnMU imlx dy ierwdy nwlausnMU tYlIPon kIqw[ aus ny myry au~Qy Awaux qy pRsMnqw pRgt kIqI qyimlx leI iek rYsqorW ivc AsW smW mukrr kr ilAw[ mYN ausnMU

101100

Asl ividAw Asl ividAwpihlW kdy nhIN sW imilAw[

imilAw qW auh pihlI nzry mYnMU swDwrn ijhy pihrwvy ivcswDwrn ijhI AOrq jwpI[ hsmuK bhuq sI, qy hwsw aus dw bVwrOick sI[ pr jd aus nwl kuJ smW bYiTAW ho igAw qW mYN ausnMUikhw ik auh mYnMU Awpxy ipCokV bwry kuJ d`sy[

h`s peI qy kihx l`gI, “smJ nhIN AwauNdI ik`QoN SurUkrW[” mYN ikhw, “ij`QoN mrzI SurU kr idE!” auh iPr h`sI qyiekdm gMBIr ho geI[ kihx l`gI, “mYN XhUdI hW qy XhUdI hox qymYnMU grb hY[ myry dwdw jI nwzIAW dy cMugl qoN msW hI bcy sn[ auhkeI rwqW s&r krdy qy idny lukdy jrmnI qoN AYmstrfYm qkphMucy[ auQy aunHW nMU pqw lgw ik auhnW XhUdIAW ny jo jrmnI 'co bcinkly sn, iek kwn&rMs Awpxw BivK socx leI bulweI hY[ so auhauQy kwn&rMs ivc Swiml hox leI cly gey[

aus kwn&rMS ivc jo rYzoilaUSn pws hoey aunHW ivcoN do auhAwpxy p`ly bMnH ilAwey[ iek ieh ik Awpxy bìcAW nMU AwpxyDrm qy sìBAwcwr nwl joV ky r`Kxw qy dUjw aunHW nMU ieqnIivìdAw idvwauxI hY ik dunIAW ivc aunHW dw koeI mukwblwnw rhy[ ies mqy dI g`l aunHW myry nwl kIqI qy mYnMU ikhw, “b`cIeyqyry dwdy ny ies bwry Awpxy Awp nwl pRx kIqw hY[ qMU ieh pRxinBwaux ivc myrI mdd krIN[” so mYN aunHW nMU bcn dy id`qw[

“iPr mYN pihlW mwnv-ivigAwn dI AYm.ey.pI.AYc.fI. kIqI[iPr mnoivigAwn dI, iPr smwj-ivigAwn dI[ iPr mYN kwnMUn dIAYl.AYl.AYm kIqI qy AMqrrwStrI inAwie ivc ivSySgqw pRwpqkIqI[ Aw^r ivc mYN Drm-ivigAwn dI fwktRyt kIqI[ ieh myrwivìdAk ipCokV hY[ myrw dwdw myry nwl bhuq pRsMn hY, qy mYN dwdynwl ijs ny mYnMU ieqnw auqSwh idqw[ hux vwkeI dunIAW Br ivcmyrw koeI mukwblw nhIN[”

mYN aus bzurg nMU idl hI idl ivc slwm kIqw qy soicAw,

“kwS! myrI kOm vI AYsw koeI &Yslw kr sky!” (1983)

AwpxI ZrIbI leI Sukrguzwr hoxw

suAwmI SrDw nMd jI dwrs slwm Awey hoey sn[ mYN auhnWdw pRvcn suxn jwxw cwhMudw sW, pr hspqwl ivc ausy smyN myrwrwaUNf sI ijs ivcoN inklxw sMBv nhIN sI[ BWvyN auhnW ijQy pRvcndyxw sI, auh swfy hspqwl qoN koeI pMj-s`q imMt dI ivQ 'qy sI, prieh pMj s`q imMt hI pUrw ie`k GMtw ho gey[ qy jd nMU mYN ivhlwhoieAw qW Zwlbn auhnW dw pRvcn smwpq ho cu`kw hoxw sI[

qW vI, mYN Gr jwx qoN pihlW AwpxI kwr ausy pwsy v`l lYigAw[ Ajy pRvcn jwrI sI jW qm hox vwlw sI, pr qm hoieAwnhIN sI[ pMfwl dy bwhr sVk qoN vI lwaUf spIkrW kwrx auhnW nMUsuixAw jw skdw sI[ mYN iek pwsy krky AwpxI kwr rok leI,drvwizAW dy SIsy hyTW kr ley qW ju Awvwz sux skW[

qd auh kih rhy sn, “AsIN kdoN r`b nMU Bwldy hW, r`bhI swnMU Bwldw hY….ijsnMU auh Bwl lYNdw hY ausnMU Coty qoN Cotyrsqy rwhIN Awpxy kol lY AwauNdw hY[ AYsy bMdy dI rucI iPrsMswrk nhIN rihMdI[ aus dw pUrw smW iPr bynqIAW ivc,iDAwn ivc, pUjw Arcw ivc guzrdw hY[ hux aus nMU koeIjwiedwd drkwr nhIN huMdI, koeI p`Kw nhIN, koeI ey.sI. nhIN koeImotr nhIN, koeI Awrwm nhIN cwhIdw lgdw[ hux auh AwpxI Awqmwdy eykWq ivc Kloqw AwpxI ZrIbI au~qy Sukr guzwr hMudw hY[ Bgqo!kdy-kdy qusIN vI AwpxI Awqmw dy swhmxy AwpxI ZrIbI auqy Sukrguzwr hoxw, iPr vyKxw ikqnI v`fI Awqmk AmIrI quhwnMU pRwpqhMudI hY[

(1983)

103102


siq nwm = piv`qr Awqmw

&wdr Xoieny dwrs slwm ivc ausy hspqwl dy pwdrI snijs ivc mYN kMm krdw sW[ auh pUrbI A&rIkw ivc pop dy zwqInumwieMdy sn[ bVy ivdvwn sn[ Drm-ivigAwn dy hI mwhr nhINsn, mno–ivigAwn dy vI mwihr sn[

mYnMU auQy ligAw Ajy mhInw hI hoieAw sI ik auh iek idnmYnMU imlx Aw gey[ aunHW AwpxI jwx-pCwx idqI qy mYnMU ikhw, “quhwfybwry mYnMU quhwfy kuJ mrIzW ny bVw kuJ ds idqw hY[ bwkI mYN fwktrWkoloN sux AwieAw hW[ auqsk sW quhwnMU imlx leI[ GMtw ku auh myrypws bYTy[ AsW bhuqI gl prmwrQ dI kIqI[ au~Tx ligAw kihxlgy, “AsIN hr h&qy iek GMty leI iesy qrHW iml sikAw krIey?' mYNikhw, “&wdr! ieh qW myry leI suBwg dI gl hovygI[”

so hr h&qy swfIAW imlxIAW hox l`gIAW[ iek idn mYnMUpu`Cx l`gy, “AsIN eIsweI lok qW mMndy hW ik sB bdI dw kwrxSYqwn hY[ quhwfy Drm ivc bdI kOx pYdw krdw hY?” mYN ikhw, “r`bAwp hI pYdw krdw hY[” auh hYrwn ho ky kihx l`gw, “hY?” r`b qWkyvl nykI dw sRoq hY bdI dw nhIN[ bdI dw sRoq auh ikvyN ho skdwhY?” mYN ikhw, “ijvyN sUrj kyvl Dup dw sRoq hI nhIN, CwieAw dw sRoqvI hY[” kihx l`gw, pr CwieAw qW qd hMudI hY jd ivcwly koeIbwDw hovy[” mYN ikhw, “bdI ivc vI bwDw hMudI hY, swfI haumYdI[ haumY v`l mMUh krdy hW qW dYvI cwnx v`l ip`T ho jWdIhY[ Awpxy Awp vloN ht ky jy mMUh dYvI pRkwS vl kr leIeyqW bdI dI CwieAw Alop ho jWdI hY[”

&wdr Xoieny socx l`g ipAw[ mYN ikhw, “&wdr! g`l qusINvI ieho kihMdy ho, pr zrw v`l pw ky[” “auh ikvyN?” &wdr nypuiCAw[ mYN ikhw, “quhwfw r`b srb SkqImwn hY nw?” &wdr kihx

lgy, “ibnW S`k dy[” mYN ikhw, “iPr jy auh cwhy qW bwZI SYqwn nMU^qm kr dyvy[ pr auh ieauN nhIN krdw[ SYqwn ausy dw GiVAwhoieAW hY qy auh aus nMU qm nhIN krdw[ so bdI dw sRoq vI auh AwphI hoieAw[” &wdr Xoieny kihx l`gw, “quhwfy Drm ny, jwpdw hY,imiQhws dI Et nhIN leI[”

qd mYN &wdr Xoieny nMU ikhw, “mYnMU quhwfI iqRkVI ivcoN r`bdI vI smJ hY, r`b dy byty dI vI, pr piv`qR pRyq dI smJ nhINAweI[” kihx l`gy, “pRyq nMU pRyq nhIN rUh smJo qy iDAwn lgwE,smJ Aw jvygI[”

mYN Agly idn qVky iDAwn ivc bYTw[ 'siq nwm' qy iDAwnlgw irhw sW[ 'siq' dw ArQ AsIN s`c vI krdy hW, hoNd vI[ prmYnMU i^Awl AwieAw siq dw iek ArQ pivqR vI qW hY[ iPr mYN'nwm' bwry socx l`gw[ nwm kIhY? myry idmwg ivc iek 'nwm' myzAwieAw[ mYN soicAw myz qW keI iksm dy hMudy hn : lkVI dy vI, lohydy vI, p`Qr dy vI[ cOrs vI hMudy hn, gol vI, iqkony vI, KtpKI vI[swdy vI hMudy hn, jVwaU vI[ pr 'nwm' sB dw myz hI hY[ myz vsqdw nwm nhIN, vsq dy swr, aus dI Awqmw dw nwm hY[ 'nwm' Awqmwho igAw[ 'siqnwm' 'pivqR Awqmw' AQvw 'rUhAlkuds','holI sipirt' ho igAw[

Agly idn mYN &wdr dw DMnvwd kIqw, “&wdr, quhwfI AsIsdI brkq nwl mYnMU 'piv`qR pRyq' dI smJ Aw geI hY[ DrmW ivcauqny vKryvyN nhIN ijqny AsIN smJdy hW[ bhuqw BwSw dwhI AMqr hY[” (1983)

lPzW dI Bul-BuleIAW

qd mYN dwrs slwm rihMdw swN auQy bVI vwr DrmW dy lIfrc`kr lwaux AwauNdy sn[mYnUM aunHW dy ivcwr suxn dw SONk pY igAw-

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Asl ividAw Asl ividAwcwhy auh iksy vI Drm dy ikauN nw hox[

iek vwr iek ihMdU suAwmI jI Awey[nwm mYnUM aunHW dw cyqynhIN irhw, pr iek gl jo aunHW khI auh cyqy ivc nkS ho geI[auhkih rhy sn cyqnw qy vwsqivkqw swnUM rlg`f hoey hI imldyhn[AsIN vsqW nUM cyqnw qoN A`f mMn ky BulyKy ivc pey rihMdy hW[XQwrQ AsW kdoN vyiKAw hY ? aus nUM qW AsW hmySw AnumwinAw hIhY qy Anumwn cyqnw dI pRikirAw hI hY[

iPr ausny i&izks dy iek au~c kotI dy pRO&Ysr dy bcnsuxwey: “XQwrQ auh hY nw, ijs nUM AsIN s~c mMndy hW! s`c auh hYijs pur AsIN ivSvws krdy hW[ivSvws aus dw krdy hW ijs nUMAsIN pRq`K vyKdy hW[pRq`K aus nUM pCwxdy hW ijsnUM Bwldy hW[swfIBwl swfy ivcwrW au~pr inrBr hY[ivcwr swfy pRq~K vyKx au~prAwDwirq huMdy hn[pRq~K swnUM auh idsdw hY ijsnUM AsIN aufIkdyhW[aufIkdy ausy nUM hW ijs iv`c ivSvws r`Kdy hW[ ivSvws ausy qyilAWaudy hW ijs nUM s`c smJdy hW qy ijs nUM s`c smJdy hW ausy nUMXQwrQ mMn lYNdy hW[” ikhw qW auhnW iblkul s~c hoxY, pr aus idnmYN aus Bul-BuleIAw ivcoN inkl nhIN sikAw[

mYN ies gl dw izkr &wdr Xoieny nwl kIqw[[&wdr Xoienyswfy hspqwl dy mu`K pwdrI sn qy myry im`qr ho gey sn[auhmuskrwey qy kihx l`gy, “kuJ lok hornW nUM l&zW dI BUl-BuleIAwivc Psw ky AwpxI vifAweI auhnW au~pr jqwaux dw jqnkrdy hn[ auhnW dy l&z ipAwz dy iClikAW vrgy huMdy hn--inry iClky hI iClky—ivc igrI koeI nhIN huMdI[ (1983)

eykWq dw lwB

sMn 1986 eIsvI dI g`l hY[ ivSv suA`sQ sMsQw ny mYnMUbrmw ByijAw, auQy mwnisk su`AsQ dIAW syvwvW kwiem krn iv`c

mdd krn leI[AsIN iqMn jxyN sW ie`k PrWsIsI, iek brqwnvI qy iek mYN

ihMdusqwnI[ pMdrW idn AsIN rMgUn ivc rhy qy fwktrW qy nrsW nMUmwnisk rogIAW dy ielwj dy swDnW qy jugqW nwl jwxUM krwauNdy rhy[

iPr hvweI jhwz rwhIN AsIN mWfly cly gey[ auQy iek JIldy iknwry iek bVy v`fy hotl ivc, jo rUsIAW ny bxw ky id`qw sI swfwauqwrw kIqw igAw[ AsW ds idn auQy rihxw sI qy iPr rMgUn prqky cwr pMj idn auQy rih ky GrW nMU prq jwxw sI[

mWfly kI phMucy, swfy phMucdy swr ibjlI clI geI[ pqwl`gw ik swry brmw dI ibjlI clI geI hY[ rylW nhIN c`lxgIAW,pRYs qy tIvI Awid bMd ho jwxgy ieiqAwid[ swfy hotl ivc idn vylyvI hnyrw rihx l`g ipAw[ ijQy AsW tRyinMg dyxI sI, auQy vI hnyrwvrq irhw sI[ so swnMU ibjlI dy prqx q`k aufIkxw pYxw sI[

myry dovyN swQI jo p`Cm ivcoN Awey sn, qy kdy in`cly nhIN snbYTy, bVy iqlimlw rhy sn[ GVI muVI d&qr jw jw ky p`uCx, ibjlIkdoN AwvygI[

mYnMU auQy dw rihx vwlw iek ihMdusqwnI imlx Aw igAw[ mYNaus nMU nhIN sI jwxdw[ aus nMU ikiqEN pqw l`gw ik iek ihMdusqwnIfwktr ieQy AwieAw hoieAw hY, so auh mYnMU imlx Aw igAw[ pihlWqW mYN soicAW ies bMdy nMU Awpxy leI jW Awpxy iksy sMbMDI leIfwktrI syvw dI loV hoxI hY, so myry pws Aw igAw hY[ pr myrwikAws Zlq inkilAw[ auh qW myrI mdd krn AwieAw sI[ auhboilAw, “fwktr jI, quhwnMU Bgvwn jI ny eykWq b^SI hY[ ies dwlwB auTwE[ iekWq ivc AYsI Awqmk AvsQw kwiem hoskdI hY ijs ivc AMdr c` up vrq skdI hY[ ies nM Uiek`lqw nw smJo, r`b dy smIp hox dw Aausr smJo[ quhwnMUAYsI iekWq Swied muV kdy nsIb nw hovy ijs iv`c iksy ny imlxnhIN Awauxw, koeI tYlI&on nhIN KVkxw, iksy mIitMg ivc hwzrI

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Asl ividAw Asl ividAwnhIN dyxI, iksy mihmwn dI mihmwn invwzI nhIN krnI, koeI ikqwbnhIN pVHnI, ieQoN q`k ik Gr vwlI ny vI 'vwj nhIN mwrnI[ kyvlqusIN hI hoxy ho[ ho jwE Awpxy r`b s`cy A`gy - nMgy, ins`kq, QuVWmwry, tuty hoey, pwpW nwl ilbVy hoey[ iPr AwpxI ie`kl nMU Awpxyklwvy ivc lY lYxw[ qd Awpxy mn nMU Awpxy ihrdy ivc auqrn dyxwqy auQy mOjUd r`b dy snmu`K KVHy ho jwxw[”

auh qW QoVy icr mgroN iejwzq lY ky clw igAw, pr mYnMUeykWq dy lwB qoN jwxU hI nhIN krw igAw, sgoN ieh lwB auTw skxdI ivDI vI d`s igAw[

mYN lwaUNj ivcoN au~T ky Awpxy hnyry kmry ivc clw igAw qyijvyN aus mYnMU disAw sI, auvyN hI kIqw[ mn nMU ihrdy ivc auqrnid`qw qy auQy mOjUd, pr Aid`K, r`b A`gy h`Q bMnH ky Klo igAw[ qdmYnMU jwipAw ik myry pRwx auh AMdroN bYTw Awp clw irhw hY[

(1986)dwr jI !

sR: gurbKS isMG pRIqlVI vwly iek idn pRIq ngr qoNAMimRqsr mYnUM imlx Aw gey[Awey qW kuJ kihx, koeI slwh lYxsn,pr mYnUM l`gw, kuJ aulJn ivc hn, so Jk rhy hn[

aunHW dw qxwA dUr krn leI mYN aunHw nUM ikhw, “dwr jI! mYNkwlj dy smyN qoN quhwfw m`dwh hW[bwhrvIN ivc pVHdw sW qW quhwfIbxweI hoeI pRx-pusqk piVHAw krdw sW[quhwfIAW khwxIAW nUMmwxdw sW[quhwfIAW ilKqW 'swvIN p`DrI izMdgI' qy 'suKWvI suDrIizMdgI' mYnUM syD bKSdIAW rhIAW hn[”

myrI g`l ivcy hI sI ik kihx lgy, “fw: nykI Aj mYN quhwQONslwh lYx AwieAw hW[iPr AwpxI izMdgI qy nzr mwrn l`g pey[kihx l`gy, “mYN bVw SrDk sW[nym nwl pwT krdw[ SrDw nwlgurpurbW ivc ih`sw lYNdw sW[ ie`k g`l, pr mYnMU sdw A`KrdI sI[

auh sI ik purwxy is`K gurmuKI dy iksy p`qry nUM hyTW nhIN sn if`gxidMdy[ jy ifg pvy qW cu`k ky isr nUM lwaudyN qy sWB-sWB r`Kdy[ mYnMUlgdw, iehnW pMjwbI bolI nMU v`Dx nhIN dyxw[pMjwbI aus idn vDygIjd pMjwbI dy kwgj eyny ho jwxgy ik pYrW ivc rulxgy[ so mYN soicAwpMjwbI nMU ieMnHW k`tV–pMQIAW h`QoN k`Fxw cwhIdw hY qy pMjwbI qygurmuKI nMU Drm dI jkV qoN mukq krwauxw cwhIdw hY[

qd mYN pRIqlVI vI clweI qy swihq vI auh ilKxw SurU kIqwjo cMgIAW kImqW dyyvy pr Drm qoN mukq hovy[mYN pMjwbI bolI nMU DrmdI jkV qoN Azwd krwaux dw ijvyN bIVw cu`k ilAw[

“ieh gl kimaUinstW nMU bVI psMd sI[aunHW myrI srpRsqISurU kr id`qI[ mYnUM vI ieh cMgI lgdI[ mwiek hwlwq vI suDrnlgy[ Gr ivc myrw dwmwd kimaUinst hox krky myry au~pr kimaUinstivcwrDwrw dw Asr vI hox l`g ipAw[

“audoN sovIAq rUs vwilAW ny pMjwbI ivc AwpxIAW bhuqswrIAw ikqwbW vI CpvweIAW[ mYN auh qW pVHdw hI sW, nwly AMgRyzIivc kimaUinst klwisk jo imly auh vI pVH ley[ienHW kr kyausdw myrI in`jI ivcwrDwrw qy coKw Asr ho igAw[

“ pr AMdroN mYN byAwrwm sW[mYnUM auhnW dI UnI ienklwb dIgl psMd nhIN sI[kdy koeI iksy dw Un vhw ky vI aus dw pirvrqnkr sikAw hY? pirvrqn qW ipAwr nwl hI ho skdw hY[ mYnUMl`gw,mYN iek k`tVqw ivcoN inklx quirAW sW,pr iek dUjI ktVqwivc Aw PisAw hW[mYN izMdgI ivArQ hI guAw id`qI hY[”

mYN ikhw, “dwr jI!...” myrI g`l ivcy k`t ky bolo, “qusIN mYnUMdwr jI ikauN bulWaudy ho?” mYN ikhw, “mYN qy nvqyj kwlj ivc iekTysW,auh mYQoN do swl A`gy sI[ mYN aus nUM AwpxIAw kivqwvW suxwauNdwqy aus pwsoN aus dIAW khwxIAw suxdw huMdw sW[auh jd quhwfI g`lkrdw sI qW 'dwr jI' kihMdw huMdw sI[ jy qusIN aus dy dwr jI ho, qWmyry vI dwr jI hoey[”

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Asl ividAw Asl ividAwiPr mYN gl jwrI rKidAW ikhw, “dwr jI, swfI ivcwrDwrw

swfy ADIn hoxI cwhIdI ey, swnUM iksy iek ivcwrDwrw dyADIn nhIN hoxw cwhIdw[ quhwfy pws AwpxI ivcwrDwrw mOjUdhY[aus ivcwrDwrw 'qy kjx ikauN pw idqw jy? qusIN mOilk jIaUVy ho,mOilkqw hI quhwfI izMdgI hY[”

gurbKS isMG horW dI A`K nm ho geI[ iPr AsIN koeI fyFku GMtw hor Awps ivc g`lW krdy rhy[

c`lx ligAW mYN dwr jI nUM ikhw, “qusIN myry Gr pihlI vwrAwey ho, kuJ jl-pwxI qW AMgI kwr krky jwE[” kihx l`gy, “jog`lW AsW kIqIAW hn kI auh iksy jl-pwxI dI ksr C`fdIAWhn?” sMqu imlY ikCu suxIAY khIAY imlY AsMqu msit kir rhIAY[” (pM: 870)

mYN ikhw, “dwr jI, kbIr jI dw ieh aupdyS jo qusW mYnUM XwdkrwieAw hY, mYN ies qy Aml krn dI koiSS krdw rhWgw[”

ASlIl bolW qy inXMqrx dI loV

kMvrjIq, myrI pqnI, qy mYN iek B`dr purS dy Gr auhnW nUMimlx pihlI vwr gey[auh sjx ieh qW jwxdy sn ik mYN kvI hWpr ieh nhIN sn jwxdy ik mYN ikqy vjoN mnoicikqsk hW[ nw hI iehjwxdy sn ik myrI pqnI mnoivigAwn dI pI.AY~c.fI hY qy mwnisksmisAwvW vwly jIAW nUM pySwvr slwh dyx dw kMm krdI hY[

mùFlI mihmwn invwzI dy dOrwn jd auhnW swfy ik`qy v`loNpuìCAw qW AsW auhnw nUM d`s idqw ik swfw pySw kI hY[ieh sux kyaus B`dr purS dI pqnI, swnUM l`gw, ku`J kihxw cwh rhI sI[ prAwpxy AwdmI dy vrjdy ichry nUM vyK ky bolI kuJ nhIN[

jd AsIN iejwzq lY ky ivdw hox l`gy qW aunHW dI pqnI swnUM

kihx l`gI, “iqMn idnW q`k swfI SwdI dI swligrwh hY[ swfIbynqI hY ik qusIN dovyN aus idn vI jy Aw sko qy swnUM AsIs dy skoqW AsIN DMnvwdI hovWgy[” myrI pqnI ny ieh inmMqRx prvwn krilAw[

aus idn bVI cihl-pihl sI[bVy lok Awey hoey sn[ UbjSn hoieAw[ iPr lokIN dubwry iqbwry mubwrkW dy ky ivdw hox lgy[jd AsW iejwzq mMgI qW auhnW dI pqnI swnUM kihx l`gI, “AjymYN quhwnUM qy kyvl quhwnUM Awpxy ivAwh dI AYlbm ivKwauxI hY[ AsINQoVI dyr hor ruk gey[

iPr auhnW dI pqnI AYlbm k`F ilAweI qy dovyN jI swnUMAYlbm idKwlx l`g pey[AYlbm A`D ivc sI qW auhnW dI pqnIkihx l`gI, “qusIN dovyN mnoivigAwn dy ivSySg ho[ mYN quhwQoN iekslwh lYxI hY[” myrI pqnI ny ikhw, “d`so!” auh kihx l`gI, “mYNipClI vwr vI puCxw cwhuMdI sW, pr Pyr pqw nhIN ikauN J`k geI[”myrI pqnI ny ikhw, “hux qW Jwkw lwh ilAw jy, hux hI d`so[”

auh kihx lgI, “ieh SRImwn jI, myry pqI, mwvW BYxW dIAWgwlHW qy aujf qy ASlIl glW Awpxy bicAW dy swhmxy hI mYnUM kihMdyrihMdy hn[”

mYN ikhw, “qusW keI vwr Awp iehnW nUM smJwieAw hoxY[”kihx l`gI, “mYN keI vwr ipAwr nwl vI bynqI kIqI hY qy gu`sy nwlvI[ pr ieh mMndy hI nhIN[” “kI kihMdy hn?” mYN puìCAw, qW auhBdr purS jI Awpy bol pey, mYN iehnUM kihMdw hW, “ieh gwlHW qy iehkwmuk g`lW ienHW sB Awpxy hwxIAW kolo suxIAW hoeIAW ny jW suxlYxIAw ny[ iPr myry kihx jW nw kihx nwl kI &rk pYdw hY[…”

qd myrI pqnI aunHW dI g`l ivcy tu`k ky bolI, “qusIN TIkkihMdy ho ik ies qrHW dI ASlIlqw quhwfy bicAW ny Awpxy hwxIAwpwsoN sux leI hoxI hY jW sux lYxgy[ ieho kwrn hY ik mwipAW leIlwzmI ho jWdw hY ik auh auj`f lokW vwly ASlIl bolW qoN

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Asl ividAw Asl ividAwprhyz krn qy bìcAW sWhvyN sBX p`Dr dy bolW dw nmUnwAivrl pyS krdy rihx qW ju auh qihzIb isK skx qysBX jgq dy Biv`K dy swjnhwr bx skx[”

aus B`dr purS ny myrI pqnI nUM pRxwm kIqw qy ikhw, “A`jqoN bwAd mYN koeI AYsy BYVy bol nhIN bolWgw[ quhwfy nwl myrw bcnirhw[” (1991)

“gurU goibMd isMG nU M gvwh bxw ilAw krWgI”

aunI sO nivAW dy ipCly A`D dI g`l hY[ SRI hymkuMt swihbdI Xwqrw 'qy gey sW[ nwl-nwl swfy kIrqnI jQy sn[swrw rwh nwmDun l`gI rhI[

goibMd Dwm AMimRq sMcwr dw pRogrwm AwXoijq hoieAw[ sR:SmSyr isMG jI, jo j`Qy dy sMcwlk sn, swrw ieMqzwm vyK rhy sn[aunHW sQwn dyiKAw ij`Qy AMimRq sMcwr hoxw sI[ aus dI s&weI dwbMdobsq krvwieAw[ pMj ipAwry ijnHW AMimRq iqAwr krnw sIauhnW nwl g`l bwq, slwh mSvrw kIqw[ smW mukrr kIqw qy iekidn pihly Swm dy dIvwn ivc AYlwn kIqw ik Agly idn svyry 10vjy AMimRq sMcwr hovygw[ AiBlwSI s`jx Awpxy nwm gRMQI swihb nMUilKvw dyx[

svyry-svyry iek ivAwhuqw lVkI myry kol AweI[ kihxl`gI, "mYN AMimRq pwn krn AweI hW[ gRMQI jI kol nwm ilKwx geIqW aunHW myrw nwm ilKx qoN ienkwr kr id`qw[" mYN aus nMU slwhidqI ik s: SmSyr isMG horW nMU imly[ auh imlI qW SmSyr isMG horWikhw, "ieh qW bVI cMgI gl hY ju qusIN AMimRq pwn krky gurU swihbdIAW lwflIAW &OjW ivc Siml hoxw cwhMudy ho[ pr mYnMU smJ nhINAweI gRMQI swihb ny quhwfw nwm ilKx qoN ienkwr ikauN kIqw?"

kihx l`gI, "auh pu`Cdy sn, kI quhwfw pqI AMimRqDwrI hY?

jy nhI qW kI quhwfy nwl AMimRq Ckx leI iqAwr hY? qd mYN ikhw'jI nhIN' qW aunHW ikhw qd quhwfI AMimRq dI rihq inB nhIN skygI[so quhwnMU AMimRq nhIN CkwieAw jw skdw["

s: SmSyr isMG horIN muskrw pey qy aus bcI nMU aunHW AwiKAw,"qusIN vyly isr Aw jwxw, quhwnMU AMimRq zrUr pwn krwieAw jwvygw["

auh lVkI bVI ûS ho geI[ s: SmSyr isMG horW dw ausDMnvwd kIqw qy Cuhly kdmW nwl iqAwr hox vwsqy prq geI[

pUry vkq isr AMimRq sMcwr dy AsQwn qy auh phMuc geI[s: SmSyr isMG horIN vI auQy sn[ ieqny nMU gRMQI swihb vI Aw gey[aunHW AwauNidAW hI aus lVkI nMU sMboDn kIqw qy ikhw, "bIbI quhwnMUikhw sI nw, quhwnMU AMimRq nhIN CkwieAw jw skdw[ qusIN Pyr ikauNAw gey ho?"

s: SmSyr isMG horW gRMQI swihb nMU pùiCAw, "ies b`cI nMUAMimRq ikauN nhIN CkwieAw jw skdw?"

gRMQI swihb ny ikhw, ikauNik ies dw Gr vwlw nw AMimRqDwrIhY Aqy nw AMimRq Ckx nMU iqAwr hY["

s: SmSyr isMG ny AwiKAw, "BweI swihb jI, ieh SrqqW ikDry nhIN ik jIvn swQI vI AMimRqDwrI zrUr hovy[ hovyqW cMgw hY, pr ieh koeI lwzmI Srq qW nhIN["

gRMQI swihb kihx lgy, "nhIN jI swnMU qW ieho pqY ik dMpqIdohW nMU AMimRq C`kxw cwhIdY nhIN qW inBdw nhIN[" s: SmSyr isMGhorW qd ikhw, "jy ieh gl hMudI qW gurU goibMd isMG jI ny jd pihlypMj ipAwirAw nMU AMimRq CkwieAw qW nwl aunWH dIAW Gr vwlIAW nMUvI CkwauNdy["

qd gRMQI swihb inruqr ho gey qy ikhw, "TIk hY, qusINkihMdy ho qW bIbI nMU AMimRq Ckw idMdy hW[ pihlW qW AsW ieMj kdynhIN CkwieAw["

AMimRq pwn krn auprMq auh bcI auQy AweI ijQy s: SmSyr

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Asl ividAw Asl ividAwisMG qy mYN Kloqy sW[ aus dy ichry qy Ajb nUr sI[ Aw ky aus ny&iqh gjweI qy iPr kihx l`gI, "Aj qoN koeI iksy lVkI nMU AMimRqCkwaux qoN nWh nhIN kr skygw[ nhIN qW mYN gurU goibMd isMG jI nMUAwpxw gvwh bxw ilAw krWgI[" (1996)

myry gurU nwl lV skx dw swhs r`Kdy ho?

mYN hymkMut swihb dI Xwqrw qy jw irhw sW[ iCAW idnW ivcauQy phMucxw sI[ rsqy ivc pMj pVw pYNdy sn[ hymkMut swihb&waUNfySn dw ieMqzwm sI[ koeI do ku sO dw jQw jw irhw sI[ rwgIjQy nwl sn, auh QW pr QW, ij`Qy Tihrnw hMudw kIrqn krdy sn[sMgqW Awp vI kIrqn krdIAW jw rhIAW sn[

mYN swrw rsqw AwpxI haumY nwl jMg kridAW quirAw igAw[mYnMU kdy i^Awl qk nhIN sI AwieAw ik ies nUM vI Fwh skxw ikqnwkiTn hovygw[ auh mYnMU kIrqn krdy nMU vI Awpxw idl KolxH nhIN sIdyNdI qW ju r`b myry AMdr nw Aw sky[ ismrn ivc bYTW qW mMUhoN'vwihgurU, vwihgurU' krI jwvW pr iDAwn hor keI aUl jlUl pwisAWv`l Btkdw iPry[

koeI nhIN sI ju rwhnumeI kr sky[ myrI ifaUtI, fwktrI dIvI sI, jykr koeI bImwr ho jwvy qW aus dI dyK Bwl krW[

iek lVkI koeI sqwrW-ATwrW swl dI pYdl qurdI peI sI,aus nMU Tyfw vjw qy auh au~lr ky ifg peI[ aus dI iek bWh mckoVIgeI qy dUjI KrMUFI geI[ aus nMU drdnwSk dvweI idqI[ aus dy pYrWqy drdnwSk krIm dI mwilS kIqI[ bVI bhwdr kuVI sI, swrIAWs`tW-PytW aus ny hsdy-hsdy J`lIAW[ jd mYN AwpxI syvw smwpqkrky ivdw hox l`gw qW aus ny myry kurqy dw dwmn PVH ky mYnMU rokilAw[ hMJU aus dIAW A`KW ivcoN iekdm vih qury qy kihx l`gI,

"kwS qusIN myry ipqw hMudy[" mYN ikhw, "bytI mYN vI qy ipqw ijhw hIhW[" auh BubW mwr ky ro peI, qy kihx lgI, "ieauN nw kho[ rb kryiksy dw ipqw vI myry ipqw vrgw nw hovy[ auhnW nMU qW jW AwpxISrwb drkwr hY jW swfI cup kIqI syvw[ jd mYN eyQy ifgI, jykr myryipqw jI kol hMudy qW pihlW mYnMU do QpV pYNdy qy kihMdy, 'qyrIAW AKWPutIAW hoeIAW hn, vyK ky nhIN quirAw jWdw[' iPr jy mYN pYr mckoVyjwx krky lMgVwdI qW kihMdy, "AYvyN mcl nw mwr[ mYN sB bhwnyjwxnW, qy ieh vI jwxnW auhnW nMU BMnI dw ikvyN hY["

mYN aus nMMU ikhw, "qMU Awpxy ipqw pwsoN Awpxw ipAwr nwprqw[ auhnW nMU ipAwr krI jw[ pr dlyr ho jw[ fr nhIN, frw kyr`K[ bhwdr bMdy swhmxy SrwbI it`k nhIN skdw["

pqw nhIN gurU ny kI bKiSS kIqI, auh b`cI iekdm au~TKloqI qy jYkwrw mwirAw, "bolo so inhwl[" lwglI sMgq ny "siq sRIAkwl" AwK ky jYkwry dw au~qr id`qw[

Swm nMU AMimRq sMcwr sI, aus b`cI ny AMimRq pwn kr ilAw[aus qoN bwd mYnMU imlx AweI[ kihx lgI, "A`j qoN gruU goibMd isMGmyry ipqw ho gey hn[ hux mYnMU koeI fr nhIN["

A`T-nO mhIny lMG gey[ iek idn auh b`cI myry hspqwlAweI qy mYnMU iml geI[ aus dy ichrw hMsU-hMsU kr irhw sI[ mYnMU ausny Gut ky AwpxIAW bwhW ivc lY ilAw qy mYnMU kihx l`gI, "fwktrjI, jdoN dw mYN gurU goibMd isMG jI nMU Awpxw ipqw Dwr ilAw, myryAMdr dy AwkwS qoN b`dl htxy SurU ho gey[ mYN jd Gr prqI qW mYNAYlwn kr idqw ik mYN AMimRq-pwn kr ky AweI hW[ A`j qoN gurUgoibMd isMG myry ipqw hn, auhnW dw ipAwr qy auhnW dI SkqI myrynwl hY[ A`j qoN Gr ivc koeI kurihq nhIN hovygI[ pr Swm nMU rozvWg myry dunIAwvI ipqw jI, Srwb dI boql lY Awey qy iglws iv`cSrwb pwaux l`g pey[ mYN rsoeI 'coN icmtw cu`k ilAweI qy auhnW dIboql vI BMn idqI qy iglws vI[ auh iqlimlw auTy qy myry au~pr

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h`Q auTwieAw[ mYN h`Q pkV ilAw qy ikhw, "gurU goibMd isMGnwl lV skx dw swhs r`Kdy ho? hux myry AMdr gurU jI Awpvsdy hn[' myrIAW A`KW vI aus vyly Aiq kRoDvwn hoeIAW hoeIAWsn[ myry ipqw jI TTMbr gey qy mMjy qy bYT gey[ iPr Awpxy h`QWivc Awpxw isr lY ky bYTy rhy[ mYN ikhw, "vwihgurU bolo, pMj vwrI["auhnW pMj vwrI vwihgurU bol idqw qy mYN au~QoN Awpxy kmry nMU clIAweI[ rwqIN ie`k vjy dy krIb auh myry kmry ivc Awey qy myry pYrW'c isr rK ky rox l`g pey[ auhnW dw srIr kMb irhw sI[ mYN auhnWnMU ikhw ieh kI kr rhy ho[ myry pYrW ivc Awp jI dw isr? kihxl`gy, "mYN qyry AMdr vsy gurU goibMd isMG jI A`gy m`Qw tyk irhwhW[ auhnW pwsoN myry vwsqy vI ^Yr lY dy[ bcIey qMU myrI boqlnhIN qoVI, myrw AiBmwn qoV id`qw hY[ ies vwrI mYN vI qyry nwlhymkMut jwvwgW qy au~QoN AMimRq Ck ky AwvWgw[ (1999)

hor koeI nhIN, r`b Awp sI

qd mYN luiDAwxy iv`c eIsweIAW dy mYfIkl kwlj iv`cpVHwauNdw sW[ GroN (kpUrQly) sunyhw AwieAw ik myry dwdI jI s^qbImwr hn qy mYnMU Xwd kr rhy hn[ Aw^rI b`s jwx ivc kuJ imMthI sn[ dr^wsq dy ky jwx jogw vkq hI nhIN sI[ mYN AwpxI jybfwierI ivcoN ausdw iek in`kw vrkw pwiVAw, aus aupr ipMRsIplswihbw v`l dr^wsq CùtI vwsqy ilKI qy sunyhw dyx vwly nMU bynqIkIqI ik ipRMsIpl swihb dy d&qr dy drvwzy hyToN lMGw dyvy ikauNikd&qr bMd ho cu`kw hoxw sI[

do idn bwAd jd mYN priqAw qW myrI pySI hoeI [ ipRMsIplswihbw ny myrI g`l suxy ibnW hI kih id`qw ik, “AsqI&w dy idau,qusIN swfy kwlj dy inXMqrx iv`c i&t nhIN bYTdy[” myry pws koeIcwrw nhIN sI so mYN AsqI&w dy id`qw[

Swm nMU, AYvyN, Awpxy ivcwrW ivc fubw iksy mhly ivc inkligAw[ auQy iek Gr A`goN lMiGAw ijs dI ifauFI dw drvwzw Ku`lHwsI qy ifauFI ivc iek bzurg, drI aupr bYTw hoieAw sI [ mYN A`goNlMG hI irhw sW ik bzurg ny mYnMU hQ dy ieSwry nwl roikAw qy ifauFIqoN hyTW Qly auqr AwieAw[ myry moFy 'qy hQ rK ky kihx lgw, “bytw,ies leI audws hYN ik nOkrI clI geI hY ? jw, inSicMq ho jw[ A`jqYnMU iqMn nokrIAW dI pySks AwvygI, ijhVI cMgI lgy kr lvIN”[ mYNhYrwn, glI iv`c rihMdy ies bùFy bwby nMU (ijs dI aumr s`qrW qoNaupr jwpdI sI ) ikvyN pqw myrI nOkrI clI geI hY, qy ieh ikvyNkih skdw mYnMU iqMn nOkrIAW iml skdIAW hn ? auh ikhVIAW hoskdIAW hn, mYnMU iksy iek dI sMBwvnw vI nhI sI suJ rhI[

^Yr, mYN auQoN A`gy nhIN igAw[ auQoN hI prq ky Awpxy Grclw igAw [ QoVI dyr mgroN drvwzw KVikAw qy fwkIey ny do icTIAWbUhy hyToN AMdr srkw idqIAW[ mYN cukIAW qy vwrI-vwrI KolH leIAW[

pihlI ic`TI myry iek dosq dI sI jo skUl ivc myrw jmwqIsI qy hux btwly ivc kwr^wnydwr sI[ aus ny iliKAw sI ik “ AsINbtwly dy kwr^wnydwr Awpxy kwimAW leI iek ifspYNsrI KolH rhyhW[ jykr qusIN Aw ky ies dw cwrj lY lau qW swnMU bVI ûSIhovygI”[

dujI ic`TI id`lI qoN sR: hukm isMG AYm.pI. dI sI (jo bwdivc spIkr bxy) auhnW iliKAw, “AsIN id`lI qoN iek h&qwvwrAMgRyjI A^bwr 'spoksmYn' nwm dw k`Fx l`gy hW[ jykr ies dwAYfItr bxn dI svIkwrqw dy sko qW swnMU byh`d ûSI hovygI”[

mYN hYrwn, bu`Fy dI pySIngoeI do iqhweI qW mukMml ho geI[mYN qIjI ic`TI aufIkx l`gw, rwq pY geI, auh AweI nhIN[ mYN sOigAw[ svyry au~iTAw qW cpVwsI iek qwr lY ky Aw igAw[ kihxlgw ik qwr rwqIN kuvyly AweI [ mYN quhwnMU jgwx dI ihMmq nw kIqI[so hux suvKqy hI lY AwieAw hW[ jykr AvigAw ho geI hovy qW iKmw

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Asl ividAw Asl ividAwkr dyxw["

mYN qwr lY leI qy pVHI [ ieh qwr mYfIkl kwlj AMimRqsrdy ipRMsIpl swihb v`loN sI[ iliKAw sI, “qusW kuJ icr pihlW swfykwlj ivc rijstRwr dI pdvI leI dr^wsq id`qI sI [ audoN iehAswmI wlI nhIN sI[ hux wLI ho geI hY, qusW Awauxw hovy qW qurMqieqlwh idau” [

ieh nOkrI myry mnpsMd sI [ so mYN ies nMU kbUl krn dIqwr dy id`qI [ pr ies ivc nvyN isry hYrwnI hMFweI ik aus bwby nMUikvyN pqw sI ik mYnMU iqMn nOkrIAW imlxIAW hn qy mYN ijhVI cwhWcux skdw hW[

myrw jI kIqw mYN aus bu`Fy dy drSn krW [ pr mYnMU Xwd hInw Awvy auh ikhVy muh`ly iv`c mYnMU imilAw sI – ikqnI by–iDAwnInwl audoN qurdw irhw hovWgw[ qW vI mY swrw Sihr Cwx mwirAw[audoN luiDAwxw Cotw ijhw Sihr sI ijs ivc GMty fyF ivc Awr-pwrjwieAw jw skdw sI [ kyvl iek vwr nhIN , mYN iqMn-cwr vwr Sihrdw c`pw-c`pw CwixAw[ pr aus ifauFI vrgI ifauFI vI mYnMU ikqynzr nhIN AweI ijs iv`coN ibrD bwbw inkl ky myry nwl hmklwmhoieAw sI [ mYnMU kdy vI pqw nw ligAw auh bwbw kOx sI [ mYN Awpxyiek im`qr nMU ieh g`l d`sI [ auh sux ky kihx l`gw, “ auh bwbw,hor koeI nhI sI, r`b Awp sI”[ (1952)

iek dwnvIr dI bwq

fw. mnmohn isMG audoN rwj sBw ivc ivroDI DVy dy lIfrsn jd aunHW BweI vIr isMG swih`q sdn dI pRDwngI svIkwr krndI bynqI pRvwn kIqI[audoN auprokq sdn dI kwrj-kwrxI sBw ivckeI au`c-pDry mnu`K sn[aunHW ivc sR: gurbcn isMG pUrv rwjdUq,

fw: AmrIk isMG pUrv vweIs cWslr, BweI mohn isMGieMfstRIAilst, jnrl AroVw swihb, jnrl joigMdr isMG, AwidSwiml sn[AmrIkw 'coN isMG swihb hrBjn isMG XogI jI, fw:kpwnI swihb qy fw. AmrjIq isMG mrvwh aucycy mihmwn hoieAwkrdy sn[ fw. mnmohn isMG horW mYnMU sdn dI AwnryrI jnrlsk`qr dI syvw dy id`qI[

qd swnMU pqw c`ilAw ik sdn ny ipCly swlW ivc pRwprtItYks Adw nhIN kIqw qy auh rkm 45 l`K dy krIb ho geI hY[fw:swihb ny AMiqMRg kmytI dI mIitMg bulweI qy aus ivc ikhw ik tYksnw dyxw gunwhgwrI qoN Gt nhIN hY qy mYN ies gunwhgwrI dw BwgI nhINbnxw cwhuMdw[ audoN aus smyN auprokq iqMnoN jxy AmrIkw qoN Awey hoeysn[ aunHW AwSvwsn idvwieAw ik ieh koeI vfI rkm nhIN jy iekgyVw AmrIkw dw mwr idE qW ies qoN v`D augrwhI krvw idAWgy[

kuJ idnW bwAd mYN fw: swihb nMU ikhw ik mYN Awpxy rc 'qyAmrIkw dw ckr lgw AwauNdw hW qy jo auQoN pRwpq hoieAw lYNdw AwvWgw[fw.swihb ny myrI qjvIz nMU srwihAw qy SuB-ieCwvW nwl qoirAw[

mYN AmrIkw jw ky AwpxI bytI kol syn hozy ngr ivc TihirAw[sB qoN pihlW auQoN pwlo Awlto ivKy fw. kpwnI swihb nMU imlx igAw[aunHW bVw vDIAw Kwxw KuAwieAw, pr jd mYN aunHW pws Awaux dw sbbdisAw qW kihx lgy, "mYN iqMn AmrIkI XUnIvristIAW ivc is~KI dIkursI sQwipq krn leI bhuq swrI rkm lw bYTw hW[ AYqkIN qWsdn dI mdd krnI muSkl hY[ kuJ icr mgroN Swied sMBv ho sky["

mYN mwXUs qW hoieAw, pr mYnMU iek purwxI gl Xwd Aw geI[koiety Sihr ivc isMG sBw vwly swlwnw dIvwn krvwieAw krdy sn[aus dy leI augrwhI krdy sn[ gurduAwry ivc ApIl krdy qy lokINnkd idMdy, jW iekrwr krdy qy skqr swihb AYlwn krI jWdy, PlwxyisMG dy eyny rupey nkd, jW eyny rupey iekrwrI[ iek isMG AYsy vI snjo iekrwr qW hr vwr kr idMdy sn , pr pUrw nhIN sn krdy[ aunHW

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Asl ividAw Asl ividAwies vwr Pyr iek vfI rkm dw iekrwr kr idqw[ skqr swihbaunHW dI rkm dw AYlwn krn lgy qW sihvn hI aunHW dy mUMh 'coN'iekrwrI' dI QW 'ienkwrI' inkl igAw[

qd mYN syn hozy qoN lws AYNijlIz bwkI dy dohW sjxW nMU imlxclw igAw[aunHW pwsoN vI kuJ hwsl nw hoieAw[ qd mYN Gr Aw kyArdws kIqI, “s`cy pwqSwh! mYN ijs kMm AwieAW hW qyrwAwsrw lY ky AwieAW hW, mYnM U AsPl ikvyN moV dyvyNgw,mwlkw?” qd mYN prq ky syn hozy Aw igAw ikauNik myry dohqy dwjnm idn sI qy myrI bytI ny Gr kIrqn krvwauxw sI[

mYN AwieAw qy myrI bytI ny ikhw, “ kIrqn qoN bwAd pMj-dsimMt qusIN vI bol dyxw[” mYN ikhw, "ûSI nwl! zrUr bolWgw”[

kIrqn hoieAw[ kIrqnI isMGW ny pihlW Sbd lwieAw,“swcy swihbw ikAw nwhI Gr qyry”, dUjw Sbd lwieAw,“myrI ieC puMnI”[ qIjw Sbd lwieAw, “Aausr l`jw rwiKlyhu sDnw jnu qyrw”[ mYnMU l`gw, gurU jI myrI Ardws pUrI krn dwAwSvwsn idvw rhy hn[

iPr mYnMU ds imMt bolx dw AwdyS hoieAw[ pqw nhIN myry 'qykI Asr hoieAw sI, mYN siqgurU dI imhr bwry hI boilAw[

Bog ipAw qy iek gurmuK s`jx fw: ieMdr mohn isMG jIpRDwn cVHdI klw sMsQw myry pws Awey qy pu`Cx l`gy, “fw: swihb,qusIN eyQy kyvl bìcAW nMU imlx hI Awey ho ik hor iksy kMm vI Aweyho?” mYN aunHW nMU AmrIkw Awaux dw Asl kwrn dìsAw[ aunHWpuìCAw, “tYks qwrn vwsqy ikMnI rkm cwhIdI hY[” mYN dìsAw,“koeI 45 ku l`K rupey[” qd aunHW AwpxI jyb ivcoN cYk bùk k`F kyiek lK fwlr dw cYk kt ky mYnMU dy idqw[ iek pwsy qW myry mn ivciÂwl AwieAw ik vwihgurU ny myrI Ardws sux leI hY[ dUjy pwsyieh iÂwl AwieAw ik jd qk AYsy dwnI vIr kOm ivc mOzUdhn, kOm cVHdIAW klW ivc hI jwvygI[

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