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WHEN LOVE FAILS

My love has come to destroy your love, Im sorry

I let my heart stray, I couldnt control my emotions

And I wish you to suffer no more.

For the pain Ive caused you, by affecting you with my emotions

For your time I wasted, by giving you all my love unconditionally,

I am truly sorry.

I wish not to, again burden you with my own problems.

I dont deserve to live, such love, as yours is not meant for me.

The roots of my love for you go deeper than you can imagine

I have never loved anyone in such a manner, and

I shall never in such a way love, but Im sorry.

This pain eats out my heart, my own lifes burden is too heavy for me

Ive tried to heave and Ive failed, Im a failure.All Ive touched Ive hurt, and I dont want to hurt also you

Whilst we are still happy, my life has reached its margin

I cant handle life anymore and Im ashamed

As I stray in the dark shadows of life

Im sorry

YOU MAKE ME WHOLE

Ive tried for so long to be calm,

To control and rein my emotions.

To just ignore that smile and move on with life.To just brush aside the twinkle in those eyes,

And take another breathe in lifes journey.

Ive for so long been trying to avoid a furore.

To avert the war Id cause if Id reveal my emotions to you.

To stop the eminent pain to many hearts if I spoke.

I cant hold on any longer,

I cant bottle this any more.

My heart aches for you

My sun rises in your sky,

Your smile makes me whole

LIFE

Life I hope it treats you kind.

I hope it introduces you to love,

Which is stronger than a ships stern

Because love is not feeble or easily creased.

Love is stronger than those hugs and kisses.

Indeed love is stronger than walking arm in arm.

Love is mightier than sharing the same bed.

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It is deeper than the skin, maybe in the marrow.

Love never minds but always controls.

Love is magnetic and within the soul and mind.

Love is sweeter than even an orgasm

And more worth than a million caresses.

If you are strong enough, then I want to tell you that

Im not strong enough.

Im weak, and I cant stand this anymore.

Am I an addict to you?

Why cant I just forget about you and

Carry on with normal life?Calling and not being able to talk to you

Chills my spine.

Why cant I just forget for a day.

Its like I cant live without you

Just as the blood in my veins

Thoughts of you flow in my brains.

I really cant control the pains,

As I miss you and as I ponder on you

I cant really count the gains.

Not talking to you is like torture on my soul.

If you dont love me, no one will.

If I dont love you, Ill love no one else.

Tell me - what will I be if I lost you?

What meaning would life have, if I havent got you.

Of cause before I met you I had a life,

But I started life the moment I found courage to tell you,

The deepest secrets of my heart.

I know that deep down you might think that Im gone

I know deep down that you think that Ive forgotten all about you.

I know that somewhere in your heart something is telling you,

That Ive blown the candle out.

I know that in the abyss of your heart, you see me like all

Those other guys.

I know that within your soul, you think Ive found another.

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But I want you to know that none has taken your place.

To know that you can trust me with your heart.

I want you to know that my love for you will never die.

My love for you could never be a joke, I swear.

This silence of mine, must never be a sign, that my love is an illusion.

Believe me

I lament, at the effects of this disease

Love cant even stand it, as it cautiously speeds away.

As none want association with it or with anyone with it.

Why does love fear AIDS, with such passion.

Why does it have to end the moment its announced.

Is love really there and does love, mean love.

Love must be mighty, to even fight such tragedies in life.

Understanding the depth of our love

And the history, which weve made, makes

My tongue tied, as you lambaste me with your

Words of farewell.

As you resolve that I no longer have a place in your heart.

Sometimes you cant erase the linesYou draw in this book of life.

WHY DOES LOVE HAVE NO FRIEND?

When life suddenly gets empty and

You feel your heart disappear within.

This cold ice eats away at what you think is your heart

This adze chops away at your soul

As lonely and void within you feel.

This gorge none can feel

As you heart you know you can never findAs you soul you know you will never discover,

As heartbreak, from horizon you can visualize,

But your hands are tied, you cant move

But you have only to wait until this

Whirlwind within it sweeps you away.

Death flashes itself within you soul as

On the edge of life you sit and ponder

As the pages of your whole life you peruse,

Within these fast seconds.

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The adze pokes your vulnerable heart as

You ponder on all that trust you had invested within,

Another persons soul.

As the promises, your ears took down you now

Like curds, chew and their bitterness you feel.

You reminisce of hate, but this pot hate doesnt cook.

Does life have to go on? You question your motionless

And emotionless soul as it wriggles in pain

Why does the deepest love brew the most intense pain?

Why does love have no friend?

WALLS OF THIS TOWN

Building these walls has never been so easy

For me all my life.As much as Ive built them I have destroyed them often

To let in another soul

To succumb to the passion of love.

Never in my eeriest dreams did I reverie that Id for you

Erect these walls and shut you out.

Never did I imagine such thoughts I could harbor,

To lock you out of this town of my heart.

Within which pots of passion boil

Where rallies agendas thong on no more love topics

This town within which pain is sweet

And heartache is the supper we sup on.

AS I LOSE YOU

Eminent is the fact that Ive lost you

And yet Ive no one else but you, who

Could understand me, who left me out in the cold

At a point when I needed you the most in this love.

I feel you slip through my fingers as to grasp

I try not, because of this numbness.

I see your soul in a distance as my heart you have chosen to

Throwaway and this union finally thaw.Like a child with an unclipped and untied umbilical cord

I feel the life draw out from within.

Never will I blame you, doing that would be selfish

All Ill have to do is swallow this pill and walk on.

Even though my destiny in the sunset I cant visualize,

My fate is my own folly.