Think Big: Unleashing Your Potential for Excellence by By: Ben Carson, M.D. With: Cecil Murphey

8/3/2019 Think Big: Unleashing Your Potential for Excellence by By: Ben Carson, M.D. With: Cecil Murphey

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Ktolr Akk`s ay Ale Ihrske

Djntlc Ohecs (wjto Ilijb Furpoly)

Sol Ajd ]jiturl (wjto Drldd Blwjs)


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Soje` Ajd

Ikpyrjdot 8::1 ay Aleghfje Ihrske, F.C.

Qlqulsts nkr jenkrfhtjke sokubc al hccrlsslc tk7

Wkeclrvhe, Drhec Qhpjcs, Fjiojdhe 3::==-?

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8. Lxilbbleil Qlbjdjkus hsplits Iorjstjhejty. 1. Yuiilss Qlbjdjkus

hsplits Iorjstjhejty. 9. Iorjstjhe bjnl 8:>= 3. Ihrske, Ale. . Elurksurdlkes \ejtlc Ythtls ajkdrhpoy.

J. Furpoly, Ilijb A. JJ. Sjtbl.

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Sk hbb toksl jecjvjcuhbs alojec tol silels

wok fh`l jt pkssjabl nkr fl

tk prhitjil elurksurdlry

hec stjbb rlfhje skijhbby hitjvl.


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Sk soh`l tol trllKn bjnl jtslbn hec arjed ckwe nrujt

ueolhrc-kn!L. H. Qkajeske


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Iketlets

Jetrkcuitjke :

]hrt 8

Djvjed Soljr Alst hec Soje`jed Ajd

8. Ck Jt Alttlr! 89

1. Fy Fktolr, Ykeyh Ihrske 98

9. Fletkrs, Jespjrlrs, hec Jenbuleilrs


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]hrt 1

Zku Ihe Djvl Zkur Alst hec Soje` Ajd

8=. Soje`jed Ajd 8:

81. Jesjdotnub Sokudots 844

89. Ejil Duys Njejso 8: SOJE@AJD

toht J whs tol cufalst `jc je njnto drhcl, aut kn ikursl, J elvlr

tkbc olr toht.

J gust cket `ekw woht tk ck hakut yku akys, sol shjc.

Jf dkjed tk thb` tk Dkc hakut yku hec Iurtjs. Yol phuslc,

sthrlc jetk sphil, tole shjc (fkrl tk olrslbn tohe tk fl), J ellc

tol Bkrcs dujcheil ke woht tk ck. Zku gust ihet arjed je hey

fkrl rlpkrt ihrcs bj`l tojs.

Hs nhr hs J whs ikeilrelc, tol rlpkrt ihrc fhttlr whs kvlr.

Sol elxt chy whs bj`l tol prlvjkus kels gust hektolr ahc

chy je siokkb, hektolr chy kn aljed bhudolc ht alihusl J cjc ektdlt h sjedbl prkablf rjdot je hrjtofltji hec ikubcet dlt hey

wkrcs rjdot ke tol splbbjed tlst. Hs skke hs J ihfl okfl nrkf

siokkb, J iohedlc jetk pbhy ibktols hec rhe kutsjcl. Fkst kn tol

akys fy hdl pbhylc skntahbb, kr tol dhfl J bj`lc alst, Sjp tol

Skp.

Tl pbhylc Sjp tol Skp ay pbhijed h akttbl ihp ke kel kn tolsjclwhb` irhi`s. Sole th`jed h ahbb hey `jec toht akueilc

wlc sthec ke h bjel hec th`l tures torkwjed tol ahbb ht

tol akttbl tkp, tryjed tk nbjp jt kvlr. Toklvlr suiillclc dkt

twk pkjets. Jn heykel hituhbby fkvlc tol ihp fkrl tohe h nlw

jeiols, ol wke njvl pkjets. Sle pkjets ihfl jn ol nbjpplc jt jetk

tol hjr hec jt bheclc ke tol ktolr sjcl.

Tole jt drlw chr` kr wl dkt tjrlc, Iurtjs hec J wkubc njehbby

dk jesjcl hec whtio S . Sol slt sthylc ke uetjb wl wlet tk alc.

Alihusl Fktolr wkr`lc bked okurs, sol whs elvlr okfl uetjb

gust alnkrl wl wlet tk alc. Ykfltjfls J wkubc hwh`le wole J

olhrc olr uebki`jed tol ckkr.

Swk lvlejeds hntlr tol jeijclet wjto tol rlpkrt ihrc, Fktolr

ihfl okfl hakut he okur alnkrl kur alctjfl. Iurtjs hec J

wlrl sprhwblc kut, whtiojed S^. Yol whb`lc hirkss tol rkkf,

sehpplc knn tol slt, hec nhilc akto kn us. Akys, sol shjc,

ykurl whstjed tkk fuio kn ykur tjfl je nrket kn toht tlblvj-


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CKJSALSSLQ! 84

sjke. Zku cket dlt he lcuihtjke nrkf sthrjed ht tlblvjsjke hbb

tol tjfl.

Alnkrl ljtolr kn us ikubc fh`l h prktlst, sol tkbc us toht

sol ohc alle prhyjed nkr wjsckf. Sol Bkrcs tkbc fl woht tk

ck, sol shjc. Yk nrkf ekw ke, yku wjbb ekt whtio tlblvjsjke,

lxilpt nkr twk prlslblitlc prkdrhfs lhio wll`.

Gust twkprkdrhfs; J ikubc ohrcby albjlvl sol wkubc shy

suio h tlrrjabl tojed. Sohts ekt

Hec kebyhntlr ykuvl ckel ykur okflwkr`. Nurtolrfkrl,

yku cket pbhy kutsjcl hntlr siokkb, ljtolr, uetjb ykuvl ckel hbbykur okflwkr`.

Lvlryakcy lbsl pbhys kutsjcl rjdot hntlr siokkb, J shjc,

uehabl tk toje` kn heytojed lxilpt okw ahc jt wkubc al jn J

ikubcet pbhy wjto fy nrjlecs. J wket ohvl hey nrjlecs jn J sthy

je tol okusl hbb tol tjfl

Soht fhy al, Fktolr shjc, aut lvlryakcy lbsl js ektdkjed tk al hs suiilssnub hs yku hrl

Aut, Fktolr

Sojs js woht wlrl dkjed tk ck. J hs`lc Dkc nkr wjsckf,

hec tojs js tol heswlr J dkt.

J trjlc tk knnlr slvlrhb ktolr hrduflets, aut Fktolr whs

njrf. J dbheilc ht Iurtjs, lxplitjed ojf tk splh` up, aut ol cjc

ekt shy heytojed. Ol bhy ke tol nbkkr, sthrjed ht ojs nllt.

Cket wkrry hakut lvlryakcy lbsl. Sol wokbl wkrbc js nubb

kn lvlryakcy lbsl, yku `ekw toht; Aut keby h nlw fh`l h sjd-

ejnjihet hiojlvlflet.

Sol bkss kn S^ hec pbhy tjfl whs ahc lekudo. J dkt up

knn tol nbkkr, nllbjed hs jn lvlrytojed whs hdhjest fl. Fktolr

whset dkjed tk blt fl pbhy wjto fy nrjlecs, hec tolrl wkubc

al ek fkrl tlblvjsjke hbfkst ekel, heywhy. Yol whs stkppjed

fl nrkf ohvjed hey nue je bjnl.

Hec toht jset hbb, sol shjc. Ikfl ahi`, Aleejl.


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8? SOJE@AJD

J turelc hrkuec, wkeclrjed woht lbsl tolrl ikubc al.

Je hccjtjke, sol shjc, tk ckjed ykur okflwkr`, yku ohvl

tk rlhc twk akk`s nrkf tol bjarhry lhio wll`. Lvlry sjedbl

wll`.

Swk akk`s; Swk; Lvle tokudo J whs je njnto drhcl, J ohc

elvlr rlhc h wokbl akk` je fy bjnl.

Zls, twk. Tole yku njejso rlhcjed tolf, yku fust wrjtl

fl h akk` rlpkrt gust bj`l yku ck ht siokkb. Zkurl ekt bjvjed up

tk ykur pktletjhb, sk Jf dkjed tk sll toht yku ck.

\suhbby Iurtjs, wok whs twk ylhrs kbclr, whs tol fkrlrlalbbjkus. Aut tojs tjfl ol sllflc tk drhsp tol wjsckf kn woht

Fktolr shjc. Ol cjc ekt shy kel wkrc.

Yol sthrlc ht Iurtjs. Zku ueclrsthec;

Ol ekcclc.

Aleejl, js jt iblhr;

Zls, Fktolr. J hdrllc tk ck woht Fktolr tkbc fl jtwkubcet ohvl kiiurrlc tk fl ekt tk kaly aut J cjc ekt bj`l

jt. Fktolr whs aljed uenhjr hec clfhecjed fkrl kn us tohe

ktolr phrlets cjc.

Sol nkbbkwjed chy whs Sourschy. Hntlr siokkb, Iurtjs hecJ whb`lc tk tol bkihb arheio kn tol bjarhry. J cjc ekt bj`l jtfuio, aut tole J ohc ekt splet toht fuio tjfl je hey bjarhry.

Tl akto wheclrlc hrkuec h bjttbl je tol iojbcrles slitjke,

ekt ohvjed hey jclh hakut okw tk slblit akk`s kr wojio akk`s

wl whetlc tk ioli` kut.

Sol bjarhrjhe ihfl kvlr tk us hec hs`lc jn sol ikubc olbp.

Tl lxpbhjelc toht akto kn us whetlc tk ioli` kut twk akk`s.

Toht `jec kn akk`s wkubc yku bj`l tk rlhc; tol bjarhrjhe

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CKJSALSSLQ! 8:

Hejfhbs, J shjc hntlr toje`jed hakut jt. Ykfltojed hakut

hejfhbs.

Jf surl wl ohvl slvlrhb toht ykuc bj`l. Yol blc fl kvlr

tk h slitjke kn akk`s. Yol blnt fl hec dujclc Iurtjs tk hektolr

slitjke kn tol rkkf. J nbjpplc torkudo tol rkw kn akk`s uetjb

J nkuec twk toht bkk`lc lhsy lekudo nkr fl tk rlhc. Kel kn

tolf, Iojp, tol Chf Aujbclr hakut h alhvlr whs tol njrst

kel J ohc lvlr ioli`lc kut. Hs skke hs J dkt okfl, J sthrtlc tk

rlhc jt. Jt whs tol njrst akk` J lvlr rlhc hbb tol why torkudo lvle

tokudo jt tkk` fl twk ejdots. Qlbuithetby J hcfjttlc hntlrwhrctk Fktolr toht J rlhbby ohc bj`lc rlhcjed hakut Iojp.

Tjtoje h fketo J ikubc njec fy why hrkuec tol iojbcrles

slitjke bj`l skflkel wok ohc dkel tolrl hbb ojs bjnl. Ay tole

tol bjarhry sthnn `elw Iurtjs hec fl hec tol `jec kn akk`s wl

ioksl. Soly kntle fhcl suddlstjkes. Olrls h clbjdotnub akk`

hakut h squjrrlb, J rlflfalr kel kn tolf tlbbjed fl.Hs sol tkbc fl phrt kn tol stkry, J trjlc tk hpplhr jecjnnlr-

let, aut hs skke hs sol oheclc jt tk fl, J kplelc tol akk` hec

sthrtlc tk rlhc.

Alst kn hbb, wl alihfl nhvkrjtls kn tol bjarhrjhes. Tole elw

akk`s ihfl je toht toly tokudot ljtolr kn us wkubc legky, toly

olbc tolf nkr us. Ykke J alihfl nhsijehtlc hs J rlhbjzlc toht

tol bjarhry ohc sk fhey akk`s hec hakut sk fhey cjnnlrlet

suaglits.

Hntlr tol akk` hakut tol alhvlr, J ioksl ktolrs hakut hej-

fhbs hbb typls kn hejfhbs. J rlhc lvlry hejfhb stkry J ikubc

dlt fy ohecs ke. J rlhc akk`s hakut wkbvls, wjbc ckds, slvlrhb

hakut squjrrlbs, hec h vhrjlty kn hejfhbs toht bjvlc je ktolr

ikuetrjls. Keil J ohc dkel torkudo tol hejfhb akk`s, J sthrtlc

rlhcjed hakut pbhets, tole fjelrhbs, hec njehbby rki`s.

Fy rlhcjed akk`s hakut rki`s whs tol njrst tjfl tol jenkr-

fhtjke lvlr alihfl prhitjihb tk fl. Tl bjvlc elhr tol rhjbrkhc


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1= SOJE@AJD

trhi`s, hec wole Iurtjs hec J tkk` tol rkutl tk siokkb toht

irksslc ay tol trhi`s, J aldhe phyjed httletjke tk tol irusolc

rki` toht J ektjilc altwlle tol tjls.

Hs J iketjeulc tk rlhc fkrl hakut rki`s, J wkubc whb` hbked

tol trhi`s, slhriojed nkr cjnnlrlet `jecs kn stkels, hec tole sll

jn J ikubc jcletjny tolf.

Kntle J wkubc th`l h akk` wjto fl tk fh`l surl toht J ohc

bhalblc lhio stkel ikrrlitby.

Hdhtl, J shjc hs J torlw tol stkel. Iurtjs dkt tjrlc kn fy

pji`jed up stkels hec jcletjnyjed tolf, aut J cjc ekt ihrlalihusl J `lpt njecjed elw stkels hbb tol tjfl. Ykke jt alihfl

fy nhvkrjtl dhfl tk whb` hbked tol trhi`s hec jcletjny tol vhrj-

ltjls kn stkels. Hbtokudo J cjc ekt rlhbjzl jt, wjtoje h vlry sokrt

plrjkc kn tjfl, J whs hituhbby alikfjed he lxplrt ke rki`s.

Sol wkrbc kn akk`s js tol fkst rlfhr`habl irlhtjkekn fhe0 ektojed lbsl toht ol aujbcs lvlr bhsts.

Fkeuflets nhbb0 ehtjkes plrjso0 ijvjbjzhtjkes drkw kbc

hec cjl kut. Hntlr he lrh kn chr`elss, elw rhils aujbc

ktolrs0 aut je tol wkrbc kn akk`s hrl vkbufls toht

bjvl ke stjbb hs ykued hec nrlso hs tol chy toly wlrl

wrjttle, stjbb tlbbjed fles olhrts kn tol olhrts kn fle

ileturjls clhc.

Ibhrleil Chy

Swk tojeds ohpplelc je tol slikec ohbn kn njnto drhcl toht

ikevjeilc fl kn tol jfpkrtheil kn rlhcjed akk`s.

Njrst, kur tlhiolr, Frs. Tjbbjhfske, ohc h splbbjed all lvlry

Nrjchy hntlrekke. Tlc dk torkudo hbb tol wkrcs wlc ohc sk

nhr toht ylhr. Ykfltjfls sol hbsk ihbblc kut wkrcs toht wl wlrl

suppkslc tk ohvl blhrelc je nkurto drhcl. Tjtokut nhjb, J hbwhys

wlet ckwe ke tol njrst wkrc.


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CKJSALSSLQ! 18

Kel Nrjchy, tokudo, Akaay Nhrflr, wokf lvlrykel hièkwb-

lcdlc hs tol sfhrtlst `jc je kur ibhss, ohc tk splbb hdrjiub-

turl hs ojs njehb wkrc. Hs skke hs tol tlhiolr prkekueilc ojs

wkrc, J tokudot, J ihe splbb toht wkrc.Gust tol chy alnkrl, J

ohc blhrelc jt nrkf rlhcjed kel kn fy bjarhry akk`s. J splbblc jt

ueclr fy arlhto, hec jt whs gust tol why Akaay splbblc jt.

Jn J ihe splbb hdrjiubturl, Jbb alt J ihe blhre tk splbb hey

ktolr wkrc je tol wkrbc. Jbb alt J ihe blhre tk splbb alttlr tohe

Akaay Nhrflr.

Gust toht sjedbl wkrc, hdrjiubturl, whs lekudo tk djvl flokpl.

Sol nkbbkwjed wll`, h slikec tojed ohpplelc toht nkrlvlr

iohedlc fy bjnl. Tole Fr. Ghli`, tol sijleil tlhiolr, whs

tlhiojed us hakut vkbihekls, ol olbc up he kaglit toht bkk`lc

bj`l h pjlil kn abhi`, dbhss-bj`l rki`. Ckls heyakcy ekw woht

tojs js; Toht ckls jt ohvl tk ck wjto vkbihekls;Jfflcjhtlby, alihusl kn fy rlhcjed, J rlikdejzlc tol stkel. J

whjtlc, aut ekel kn fy ibhssfhtls rhjslc toljr ohecs. J tokudot,

Sojs js strhedl. Ekt lvle tol sfhrt jcs hrl rhjsjed toljr ohecs.

J rhjslc fy ohec.

Zls, Aleghfje, ol shjc.

J olhrc seji`lrs hrkuec fl. Sol ktolr jcs prkahaby tokudot

jt whs h gk`l, kr toht J whs dkjed tk shy skfltojed stupjc.

Kasjcjhe, J shjc.

Sohts rjdot! Ol trjlc ekt tk bkk` sthrtblc, aut jt whs kavj-

kus ol ohcet lxplitlc fl tk djvl tol ikrrlit heswlr.

Sohts kasjcjhe, J shjc, hec jts nkrflc ay tol suplrikkb-

jed kn bhvh wole jt ojts tol whtlr. Keil J ohc toljr httletjke

hec rlhbjzlc J èlw jenkrfhtjke ek ktolr stuclet ohc blhrelc,

J aldhe tk tlbb tolf lvlrytojed J èlw hakut tol suaglit kn

kasjcjhe, bhvh, bhvh nbkw, suplrikkbjed, hec ikfphitjed kn tol

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11 SOJE@AJD

Tole J njehbby phuslc, h vkjil alojec fl wojsplrlc, Js

toht Aleejl Ihrske;

Zkurl haskbutlby ikrrlit, Fr. Ghli` shjc hec ol sfjblc ht

fl. Jn ol ohc heekueilc toht Jc wke h fjbbjke-ckbbhr bkttlry, J

ikubcet ohvl alle fkrl pblhslc hec lxijtlc.

Aleghfje, tohts haskbutlby, haskbutlby rjdot, ol rlplhtlc

wjto letousjhsf je ojs vkjil. Ol turelc tk tol ktolrs hec shjc,

Soht js wkeclrnub! Ibhss, tojs js h trlfleckus pjlil kn jenkr-

fhtjke Aleghfje ohs gust djvle us. Jf vlry prkuc tk olhr ojf

shy tojs.Nkr h nlw fkflets, J thstlc tol torjbb kn hiojlvlflet. J rlihbb

toje`jed, Tkw, bkk` ht tolf. Solyrl hbb bkk`jed ht fl wjto

hcfjrhtjke. Fl, tol cuffy! Sol kel lvlryakcy toje`s js stu-

pjc. Solyrl bkk`jed ht fl tk sll jn tojs js rlhbby fl splh`jed.

Fhyal, tokudo, jt whs J wok whs tol fkst hstkejsolc kel

je tol ibhss. Hbtokudo J ohc alle rlhcjed twk akk`s h wll`alihusl Fktolr tkbc fl tk, J ohc ekt rlhbjzlc okw fuio

`ekwblcdl J whs hiiufubhtjed. Srul, J ohc blhrelc tk legky

rlhcjed, aut uetjb tole J ohcet rlhbjzlc okw jt ikeelitlc wjto

fy siokkbwkr`. Soht chy nkr tol njrst tjfl J rlhbjzlc toht

Fktolr ohc alle rjdot. Qlhcjed js tol why kut kn jdekrheil,

hec tol rkhc tk hiojlvlflet. J cjc ekt ohvl tk al tol ibhss

cuffy heyfkrl.

Nkr tol elxt nlw chys, J nlbt bj`l h olrk ht siokkb. Sol gk`ls

hakut fl stkpplc. Sol `jcs sthrtlc tk bjstle tk fl. Jf sthrtjed

tk ohvl nue wjto tojs stunn.

Hs fy drhcls jfprkvlc je lvlry suaglit, J hs`lc fyslbn, Ale,

js tolrl hey rlhske yku ihet al tol sfhrtlst `jc je tol ibhss; Jn

yku ihe blhre hakut kasjcjhe, yku ihe blhre hakut skijhb stuc-

jls hec dlkdrhpoy hec fhto hec sijleil hec lvlrytojed.

Soht sjedbl fkflet kn trjufpo pusolc fl tk whet tk rlhc

fkrl. Nrkf tole ke, jt whs hs tokudo J ikubc ekt rlhc lekudo


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CKJSALSSLQ! 19

akk`s. Tolelvlr heykel bkk`lc nkr fl hntlr siokkb, toly ikubc

usuhbby njec fl je fy alcrkkf iurblc up, rlhcjed h bjarhry

akk` nkr h bked tjfl, tol keby tojed J whetlc tk ck. J ohc

stkpplc ihrjed hakut tol S^ prkdrhfs J whs fjssjed0 J ek bke-

dlr ihrlc hakut pbhyjed Sjp tol Skp kr ahslahbb heyfkrl. J gust

whetlc tk rlhc.

Je h ylhr hec h ohbn ay tol fjccbl kn sjxto drhcl J ohc

fkvlc tk tol tkp kn tol ibhss. \enkrtuehtlby, J ohc ekt alle

iketlet gust tk rlhc hec tk blhre. J hbsk nlbt J ohc tk blt lvlrykel

lbsl je tol wkrbc ekw okw arjbbjhet J ohc alikfl. Ht tol tjfl,J okelstby albjlvlc toht J èlw fkrl tohe hey kn tol ktolr `jcs

je fy ibhssrkkf. J tokudot J whs arjbbjhet0 hituhbby, J whs qujtl

kaekxjkus.

Sojs jfpkrthet nhit cjc ekt sthrt dlttjed torkudo tk fl uetjb

J whs je tol ejeto drhcl. Kel chy J hs`lc kel kn fy ibhssfhtls,

wok ohc elvlr trlhtlc fl wlbb ek fhttlr okw ohrc J trjlc tk alnrjlecby, Toy hrl yku sk okstjbl; Toy ck yku ohtl fl;

Alihusl ykurl kaekxjkus, ol shjc. Alihusl yku èkw sk

fuio hec yku whet tk fh`l surl lvlryakcy èkws jt.

J cket èkw jn J heswlrlc kr gust whb`lc hwhy, aut J elvlr

nkrdkt ojs wkrcs. Je njnto drhcl, lvlrykel ohc bhudolc ht fl

wole J cjc ekt èkw heytojed0 ekw toly ohtlc fl alihusl J

hitlc hs jn J èlw lvlrytojed.

\etjb toht fkflet, alihusl èkwblcdl whs elw hec wke-

clrnub hec lxijtjed, J tokudot lvlryakcy whetlc tk olhr hakut

lvlrytojed elw toht J blhrelc. J ohc ekt rlhbjzlc okw kvlr-

alhrjed J ohc alikfl. Fy ibhssfhtls iuttjed wkrcs fhcl fl

hwhrl kn okw wrked J ohc alle.

Sol rlfhr` cjc ekt iurl fl, aut jt cjc nkril fl tk hcfjt

toht J ellclc tk iohedl fy httjtucl. Hec J cjc sbkwby. \enkr-

tuehtlby, jt tkk` h nlw fkrl lxplrjleils alnkrl tol flsshdl

rlhbby dkt torkudo.


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13 SOJE@AJD

Keil J alihfl èkwe hs Ale Ihrske, tol arjdotlst stuclet

je ojs ibhss, J spkutlc knn heswlrs ht lvlry kppkrtuejty. Fkrl

tohe gust heswlrs, wole hey suaglit ihfl up, J sthrtlc tlbbjed

he jecjvjcuhb kr h drkup fkrl tohe heyakcy lvlr whetlc tk

èkw hakut tol tkpji.

Hs J bhtlr rlhbjzlc, phrt kn tol jssul jevkbvlc dlttjed ahi` ht

toksl wok ohc bhudolc ht fl je njnto drhcl. Soly ohc ihbblc fl

stupjc hec cufa, aut J `lpt prkvjed hdhje hec hdhje toht toly

wlrl wrked. Ay tole toly wlrl ikevjeilc, aut J `lpt ke. Jt whs

jffhturl kn fl hec fjsth`le, aut tohts woht J cjc heywhy.Sol aky wok elvlr dkt hey heswlrs rjdot ke h tlst je fhto

ohc tkthbby rlvlrslc lvlrytojed ay tol tjfl ol tkk` hcvheilc

hbdlarh. Tl ohc h fjctlrf tlst hec tol tlhiolr hcclc twk lxtrh-

irlcjt qulstjkes. Tole sol phsslc ahi` tol lxhfs, J shw toht kel

kn tol sfhrtlst akys je tol ibhss ohc fhcl h :8. Hntlr ibhss J wlet

up tk ojf hec hs`lc, Oj, woht cjc yku fh`l ke tol tlst;J fhcl :8.

Fkflethrjby J whjtlc nkr ojf tk hs`, Toht cjc yku dlt;

Tole ol cjc ekt hs`, J vkbuetllrlc, J dkt 88= lvlrytojed

rjdot hec tol twk akeus qulstjkes tkk.

Ko, ylho. Soht sk; ol shjc hec sthrtlc tk whb` knn.

Tlbb, fhyal ykubb ck alttlr elxt tjfl, J shjc.

Zlho, ol heswlrlc wjtokut turejed hrkuec.

Jn yku ellc hey olbp, blt fl èkw!

Ol cjc ekt hièkwblcdl toht ol ohc olhrc fl.

Ay lblvleto drhcl J ohc dkttle sk ihudot up je hiojlvlflet-

gust-nkr-hiojlvlflets sh`l toht jt fust ohvl alle hwnub nkr

ktolrs tk al hrkuec fl. Sole, je kel kn fy iolfjstry lxhfs,

J fhcl keby h ::, wojio whs he H aut twk ktolrs dkt h 8==.


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1> SOJE@AJD

rlhbjzlc okw hpphrlet jt fust al tk lvlryakcy toht J whs hbwhys

tryjed tk al tol sfhrtlst plrske je tol irkwc. Soly cjc ekt

hpprlijhtl tol ikesthet jenkrfhtjke toht J trjlc tk djvl tolf.

Ekel kn tolf sllflc tk bj`l fl hey alttlr wole toly cjsikv-

lrlc toht J whs sfhrt je nhit, fhyal skfl bj`lc fl blss.

Sole hektolr tokudot ojt fl7 Fhyal tohts ekt tol why J

sokubc al. Toht jn J try tk al ikenjclet je woht Jf ckjed hec

ekt fh`l jt sk kavjkus toht J ohvl tk al tol alst; Jn J èkw hbb

kn tojs hec usl jt, jset toht woht ikuets; Tok shjc toht J ohvl

tk puso hbb tojs jenkrfhtjke ke lvlryakcy;Nrkf tole ke J cjc iohedl, alihusl J plriljvlc fy ellc tk

al cjnnlrlet.

Je rltrksplit, hs J hehbyzl tol jetlbblituhb fkestlr J ohc

alikfl tk h cldrll, jt lvkbvlc alihusl J nlbt pusolc. Fktolr

`lpt rlfjecjed fl, shyjed elhrby lvlry chy skfltojed bj`l,

Zku sokubc al tol alst. Soht jclh ohc alikfl jedrhjelc jefl. Zlt, sol ohc ekt jetleclc nkr fl tk akhst kr nllb sfhrtlr,

ekr ohc sol flhet toht J whs tk ohub kut fy èkwblcdl hec

cjspbhy jt hc ehuslhf.

Jt tkk` h bked tjfl tk kvlrikfl toht ellc tk al alttlr tohe

lvlryakcy lbsl. Njehbby, J drhsplc toht Fktolr ohc alle tryjed

tk dlt fl tk ueclrsthec sjfpby toht J ohc tk ck fy alst gust

fy alst hec toht fy ckjed fy alst whs hbb sol whetlc kr

toht heykel ikubc lxplit. Yol lvle shjc toksl vlry wkrcs fhey

tjfls, aut jt stjbb tkk` h bked tjfl nkr jt hbb tk ikfl tkdltolr.

Sol alst ture kn lvlets toht olbplc fl dlt hbb tojs je plrspli-

tjvl ihfl hakut wole J letlrlc Zhbl \ejvlrsjty. \etjb tole J ohc

okelstby albjlvlc toht J whs sfhrtlr tohe heykel lbsl. Sole J

flt ktolr stuclets (skfl je tol dlejus ihtldkry) wok ohc alle

ht tol tkp kn toljr ibhss je ojdo siokkb, wok ohc fuio wjclr

èkwblcdl tohe J, hec wok èlw okw tk stucy je-clpto. J nlbt

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CKJSALSSLQ! 14

Aljed hrkuec toksl thbletlc stuclets nkrilc fl tk fh`l sjd-

ejnjihet rlhcgustflets je fy toje`jed hakut fy hajbjty. Nkr h

nlw wll`s J lxplrjleilc tol lfktjkes kn njnto drhcl hbb kvlr

hdhje. J cjc jetlesjvl skub-slhriojed hec prhyjed. Sojs jetrk-

splitjke fhcl fl rlhbjzl toht J whs sfhrt, yls, aut ekt sfhrtlr

tohe lvlryakcy lbsl. Solrl whs ek rlhske toht J sokubc lxplit

tk al sfhrtlr tohe lvlryakcy lbsl. Jn J wlrl dkjed tk hiojlvl

dkhbs, J whs dkjed tk ohvl tk wkr` nkr tolf gust hs lvlryakcy

lbsl ckls. J whs ekt he jeehtl dlejus.

Fhyal toht js tol alst blsske J blhrelc je fy njrst slflstlr

ht Zhbl, alihusl jn J ohc dkel tk h blss-clfhecjed siokkb hec

iketjeulc tk shjb hbked ke tol tkp, J hf surl J wkubc elvlr ohvl

htthjelc tol suaslqulet hiojlvlflets je fy bjnl.

Kel ktolr nhitkr pbhylc he jfpkrthet rkbl je fy clvlbkp-flet. J ohc hbwhys ohc h tlrrjabl tlfplr, strj`jed kut htheykel wok kppkslc fl. Kel hntlrekke wole J whs nkurtlle, J

hrdulc wjto h nrjlec ehflc Aka. ]ubbjed kut h ihfpjed `ejnl, J

buedlc ht fy nrjlec. Sol stllb abhcl strui` ojs flthb albt aui`bl

hec sehpplc.Qlhbjzjed toht J ikubc ohvl `jbblc fy nrjlec, J rhilc okfl,

bki`lc fyslbn je tol ahtorkkf, hec sht ke tol lcdl kn tol

tua fy olhrt njbblc wjto sohfl hec rlfkrsl kvlr woht J ohc

ckel. J prhylc nkr Dkc tk th`l hwhy fy tlfplr.

Ht kel pkjet J sbjpplc kut kn tol ahtorkkf bked lekudo tk

drha h Ajabl, kple jt, hec aldje tk rlhc ]rkvlras. Sol vlrsl tohtstrui` fl tol fkst pkwlrnubby whs, Alttlr h phtjlet fhe tohe

h whrrjkr, h fhe wok iketrkbs ojs tlfplr tohe kel wok th`ls

h ijty (8>791).


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1? SOJE@AJD

Curjed tol twk kr torll okurs toht J rlfhjelc je tol ahto-

rkkf, Dkc plrnkrflc h fjrhibl je fy bjnl Ol tkk` hwhy fy

tlfplr, hec J ihe okelstby shy J ohvl elvlr alle trkuablc wjto

hedlr sjeil.

J rlikuet tojs stkry alihusl toht chy whs tol aldjeejed kn

h bjnlbked ohajt tol chjby rlhcjed kn ]rkvlras. Nrkf toht chy

ke J ohvl rlhc nrkf ]rkvlras hbfkst lvlry chy. Nkr h bked tjfl

J cjc ekt phy fuio httletjke tk tol vlrsls rlbhtjed tk prjcl, aut

toksl vlrsls, bj`l tol ikesthet hcfkejtjkes nrkf fy fktolr,

wkubc lvletuhbby sje` je.Tkrcs nrkf ]rkvlras njehbby dkt torkudo tk fl hec nkrilc

fl tk rltoje` fuio kn bjnl. Lsplijhbby J rlihbb 1:7197 H fhes

prjcl arjeds ojf bkw, aut h fhe kn bkwby spjrjt dhjes okekr.

Sol fkrl J rlhc nrkf ]rkvlras, tol fkrl J aldhe tk blhre

okw Dkc ohtls prjcl hec hrrkdheil. Sol fkrl J rlhc hakut

prjcl, tol fkrl J ueclrstkkc toht tol Bkrc whs ekt dkjed tk alpblhslc wjto fl jn J iketjeulc tk al hrrkdhet. J ohtl prjcl hec

hrrkdheil, lvjb alohvjkr hec plrvlrsl spllio (?789).

Aljed slt nrll nrkf hrrkdheil cjc ekt ikfl kvlrejdot, aut

jt aldhe toht chy. Nrkf tole ke, wolelvlr J dkt he jecjihtjke

nrkf skflkel toht J whs aljed hrrkdhet, jt wkubc nllb bj`l h

sohrp gha je fy stkfhio.

Lvle ekw, wjeejed hdhjest prjcl js h struddbl. Tolelvlr h

plrske ckls heytojed lxtrlflby wlbb hec ktolrs rlikdejzl jt, jt

wjbb al h struddbl. Nkr fl jt js wkrsl, alihusl nhfjby flfalrs kn

phtjlets nrlquletby shy `jec tojeds suio hs, Ko, ykurl nheths-

tji! Zkurl drlht, wole wl ohvl suiilssnub surdlrjls, hec `llp

rlplhtjed, Zkurl wkeclrnub. Zkurl sk djntlc. J ekw toht toly

flhe wlbb, aut J hbsk `ekw toht J ck ekt ohvl h suiilssnub sur-

dlry wjtokut tol olbp kn euflrkus ktolr djntlc plkpbl ahi`jed

fl up. Fkrlkvlr, J ekw toht jn Dkc ohc ekt djvle fl tol hajbjty

tk al h elurksurdlke, J ikubc ekt hiikfpbjso suio suiilssls.


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CKJSALSSLQ! 1:

Hs hrl fkst plkpbl, J hf ueikfnkrthabl wjto prhjsl. Jt js

lfahrrhssjed tk al tol suaglit kn h strjed kn ikfpbjflethry

rlfhr`s. J ohvl hiojlvlc suiilssls hec lxplit tk hiojlvl

ikesjclrhaby fkrl aut rlfjec fyslbn toht J ikubc ekt ohvl

hiikfpbjsolc heytojed wjtokut tol olbp kn he lxilbblet suppkrt

sthnn hec tkp-quhbjty ikbblhduls wok olbplc wjto tol prlkplrh-

tjvl cjhdeksjs hec pbheejed. J ohc tk ohvl suplraplkpbl tlec-

jed tk tol irjtjihbby jbb phtjlets curjed pkstkplrhtjvl plrjkcs.

Solrl js pblety kn irlcjt tk dk hrkuec, lsplijhbby tk tol Bkrc,

wok ohc tk ohvl hrrhedlc tol ijriufstheils hec djvle hbb kn us

tol hajbjtjls tk ck kur wkr`.

Je rlvjlwjed tol phst nlw ylhrs ht Gkoes Okp`jes, J ohvl alle

tol prjfhry surdlke, kel flfalr kn h tlhftoht ohs plrnlitlc

olfjspolrlitkfjls.* Je bhtl 8:?4 hbked wjto sjxty-ejelktolrs

J hiojlvlc h njrst je flcjihb ojstkry ay suiilssnubby slphrht-

jed Yjhflsl twjes gkjelc ht tol ahi` kn tol olhc suiilssnub

alihusl akto akys survjvlc. Qlflfalrjed toksl slvlety kto-

lrs, jt js lhsy nkr fl tk rlflfalr wole plkpbl sthrt pkurjed ke

tol prhjsl, toht jt js ekt gust J wok sokubc rliljvl tol irlcjt.

Sorkudo tol ylhrs, J ohvl ikfl tk rlhbjzl toht Dkc ohs djvle

fl ekt keby tol ehturhb djnts kn h surdlke aut hbsk tol slesjtjv-

jty tk nllb tol ourt kn fy phtjlets. Sojs, okwlvlr, ckls ekt djvl

fl tol rjdot tk akhst J hf keby usjed tol djnts toht wlrl djvle

tk fl.

@ekwjed tojs ckls fh`l fl tohe`nub.

* Olfjspolrlitkfy7 Tl rlfkvl ohbn kn tol arhje kn phtjlets tk iurl toljr

jetrhithabl sljzurls.


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Yk fhey tjfls wole J whs drkwjed up, Fktolr whs sthecjedalsjcl fl, shyjed, Aleejl, yku ihe al heytojed yku whet.Gust hs` Dkc nkr olbp. Dkc wjbb olbp yku jn ykubb olbp ykurslbn

ay djvjed ykur alst.

Kr sol ohc tkbc fl hakut tol rjio hec tol ojdo hiojlvlrs hec

shjc, Aleejl, yku ihe ck heytojed toly ihe ck keby yku ihe

ck jt alttlr!

Hbb kn tol fhey blsskes fy fktolr thudot fl J ihe ikfajel

jetk tojs fhxjf7 Hbwhys djvl ykur alst.

Je pkeclrjed toht sjfpbl hcvjil tk hbwhys djvl kels alst,J ohvl rlhbjzlc toht jt js kel kn tol slirlts kn okw J ohvl ikfl

nrkf h elhrby jbbjtlrhtl, abhi` jeelr-ijty eljdoakrokkc tk h

pbhil kn prkfjeleil. Fkrlkvlr, J whet tk `llp strlssjed toht J

elvlr cjc jt ay fyslbn.

Je tol nkbbkwjed iohptlrs, J whet tk tlbb yku ekt keby okw

J fyslbn ohvl trjlc tk djvl fy alst tk Soje` Ajd aut hbskhakut ktolrs wok, je djvjed toljr alst, ohvl iohedlc bjvls.


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IOH]SLQ 1

Fy Fktolr, Ykeyh Ihrske

H fktolr js ekt h plrske tk blhe ke,

aut h plrske tk fh`l blhejed ueelilsshry.

Ckrktoy Ihenjlbc Njsolr

Djntlc Ohecs rlhbby jset hakut Ale Ihrske. H wkfheshjc toht tk Ili Furpoly, fy ik-hutokr, hntlr sol ohcnjejsolc rlhcjed tol akk`. Jts h akk` hakut h fktolr hec olrjenbuleil. Lvle je tol iohptlrs wolrl sols ekt fletjkelc, sol

js stjbb tolrl prlslet je lvlrytojed Ale ckls.

Soht wkfhes plrilptjke fhy al ikrrlit. Ilrthjeby heykel

wok `ekws fl kr ohs rlhc heytojed hakut fl `ekws toht fy

fktolrs plrskehbjty ohc h strked jfphit ke fy bjnl. Alihusl

tojs js h akk` hakut Soje`jed Ajd hec djvjed kur alst tk olbp

ktolrs, J whet tk tlbb yku hakut fy fktolrs jenbuleil je fy

lhrby ylhrs.

Je tojs iohptlr, Ykeyh Ihrske splh`s nkr olrslbn, usjed olr

kwe wkrcs tk tlbb hakut rhjsjed fy arktolr hec fl.

Ykeyh Ihrske7

Fy kwe bjnl sthrts kut bj`l tol lec kn h rkfhetji ekvlb. Ht

hdl tojrtlle, wjto prhitjihbby ek siokkbjed, J fhrrjlc h ohec-

skfl fhe wok prkfjslc tk fh`l fy bjnl ohppy hec lxijtjed.

\etjb tole, fy bjnl ohc ekt alle ohppy kr lxijtjed. Hbtokudo Jrlflfalr hbfkst ektojed hakut fy kwe phrlets, J ck vjvjcby

rlflfalr fkvjed nrkf kel nkstlr okfl tk hektolr hec aljed

jdekrlc kr bhudolc ht nkr aljed cjnnlrlet nrkf tol ktolrs.


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Sk tojs chy J cket èkw okw fhey iojbcrle wlrl je kur

nhfjby. J ohvl olhrc toht tolrl wlrl twlety-nkur, aut J cket

rlflfalr nkr surl. Alsjcls fyslbn, J plrskehbby èkw tojrtlle

kn tolf ilrthjeby h bkt.

Hs h iojbc, J cjc ekt ohvl nrjlecs, ekt lvle hfked fy sja-

bjeds. Nrkf hs nhr ahi` hs J ihe rlflfalr, J nlbt cjnnlrlet, J whs

cjnnlrlet hec toly blt fl èkw jt. J whs iouaay, hec fy ohjr

ohc h rlccjso tjet. J ikubcet thb` pbhjeby, hec toly bhudolc ht

tol why J prkekueilc wkrcs. J whetlc tk albked, aut J elvlr

cjc njt je.Sole J flt tol fhe wok wkubc th`l fl hwhy nrkf hbb kn

tol phje hec pkvlrty7 Qkalrt Ihrske, tol fjejstlr kn h sfhbb

iourio, wok sllflc tk al lvlrytojed J whetlc je bjnl. Je tol

aldjeejed ht blhst, J toje` J wkrsojplc ojf fkrl tohe J cjc

Dkc. Ht tol tjfl, J cjc ekt èkw fuio hakut Iorjstjhejty, sk

ol ohc tk tlhio fl lvlrytojed. J wlet tk iourio, cjc lvlrytojedol tkbc fl, hec trjlc tk hit bj`l lvlrykel lbsl.

Jn J wkrsojplc fy ousahec, ol trlhtlc fl hbfkst tol shfl

why. Sojs js fy bjttbl iojeh ckbb, ol wkubc shy wole ol jetrk-

cuilc fl. Jt whs ekt sk fuio kn he lxhddlrhtjke, alihusl tohts

lxhitby okw ol trlhtlc fl. J ohc bkst fy iojbcokkc nht, hec

nkuec toht aljed h bjttbl cjnnlrlet fhcl fl sthec kut. Sol chy

wkubc ikfl wole J aldhe tk wkeclr jn ol ohc fhrrjlc fl gust

tk put fl ke cjspbhy. Nkr ylhrs J blt ojf trlht fl bj`l tol nrhdjbl

irlhturl ol shw fl hs. Fr. Ihrske ikesthetby akudot fl elw

ibktols hec trjlc tk fh`l bjnl ejilr hec lhsjlr nkr fl. Tole Jc

prktlst hakut tol fkely ol splet, ol wkubc shy, J bkvl auyjed

glwlbry hec fje`s hec heytojed lbsl toht sokws knn fy alhutj-

nub bjttbl iojeh ckbb.

Hntlr wl ohc alle fhrrjlc njvl ylhrs, J njehbby hs`lc, Toy

cket wl ohvl iojbcrle;

Iojbcrle; Ol bhudolc. Ahay, wl cket ellc iojbcrle!


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FZFKSOLQ, YKEZHIHQYKE 99

Yurl wl ck, J shjc. Tole plkpbl dlt fhrrjlc, tohts kel

kn tol tojeds toly ck. Soly rhjsl h nhfjby. Sol njrst nlw tjfls J

arkudot up tol tkpji kn iojbcrle, ol arusolc hsjcl tol jclh. Aut

J whs plrsjstlet.

Curjed kel kn tol tjfls toht J arkudot up tol suaglit, ol

shjc, Zku cket ellc iojbcrle. Zku cket ellc tk flss up ykur

alhutjnub njdurl ay ohvjed iojbcrle. Tl ihe ohvl bkts kn nue

wjtokut iojbcrle.

J cket wkrry hakut fy njdurl, hec J whet iojbcrle.

Zkuvl dkt fl, ol shjc. Jf hbb yku ellc. Hec ykurl hbbJ ellc.

Ojs heswlrs strui` fl hs strhedl, alihusl fkst fle sllf

tk whet iojbcrle. Jt wkubc al ht blhst tle fkrl ylhrs alnkrl J

njdurlc kut woy ol hitlc tol why ol cjc.

Je tol flhetjfl wl bjvlc ikfnkrthaby, fhyal lvle buxurj-

kusby. Ol bkvlc tk phrty hec ihfl up wjto lvlry jec kn lxiusltk dk tk kel. Kntle wl sthrtlc ke Sourschy ejdot hec cjc ekt

stkp uetjb tol lhrby okurs kn Yuechy fkrejed. Fhey Yuechy

fkrejeds ol ohc tk crje` okt shuil tk wh`l ojf up hntlr h

phrty. Soht whs tol keby why ol ikubc al rlhcy tk sthec je tol

pubpjt twk okurs bhtlr.

Ekt `ekwjed hey cjnnlrletby, J wlet wjto fy ousahec tk

iourio ke Yuechy hec tol fjcwll` slrvjils. Alykec toht, J

rlflfalr bjttbl lbsl alsjcls tol lecblss eufalr kn phrtjls. Hs

nhr hs tol nue tjfls wlet, J cjc ekt ihrl fuio nkr tolf, aut, try-

jed tk al tol dkkc wjnl, J wlet wjto ojf.

Ekt ohvjed dkel tk iourio kntle hs h iojbc, J cjc ekt ueclr-

sthec fuio kn woht wlet ke, sk J whtiolc tol kbclr wkfle (fkst

kn tolf kbc lekudo tk al fy fktolr kr drhecfktolr), cltlr-

fjelc tk ck wohtlvlr toly cjc. Soly wkubc sthrt sjedjed hec,

hntlr h nlw fjeutls wole tol fusji dkt nhstlr hec bkuclr, toly dkt

lxijtlc. Alnkrl bked, tolyc sokut hec swhy je tjfl tk tol fusji.


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J cjc gust hakut lvlrytojed toly cjc, lxilpt gkje je tol sokut-

jed (hbtokudo J cket toje` heykel ektjilc). J ikubc elvlr qujtl

njdurl kut woht toly wlrl sokutjed hakut, hec J gust cjc ekt sll

hey rlhske tk ck jt. (Jf tol typl kn plrske wok ellcs tk ohvl

h rlhske nkr tol why J rlhit, hec J ikubcet gufp hec sokut gust

alihusl lvlrykel lbsl cjc.)

Ykfltjfls, okwlvlr, J nlbt dujbty hec ikeclfelc fyslbn

alihusl J ikubcet rlspkec je tol why toly cjc. Js jt alihusl

toly èkw tol Ajabl hec ihe rlhc jt,hec J ihet;J wkeclrlc.

Hrl toly gust alttlr Iorjstjhes;J cjc ekt ekw tol heswlrs, hecJ elvlr ohc hey ibksl nrjlecs je tol iourio toht J ikubc hs`.

Sol bkedlr J sthylc hrkuec tol iourio, tol fkrl J shw kn

okw jt kplrhtlc.

Fr. Ihrske hec ktolr fjejstlrs albkedlc tk skfl `jec kn

fjejstlrjhb hsskijhtjke hec splet h bkt kn tjfl tkdltolr. Keil,

wole wl httleclc h ikevletjke, kel kn tol ktolr prlhiolrssthrtlc thb`jed tk Fr. Ihrske hec fl. Ol whs h fhe toly ihbblc

ojp alihusl ol whs thbb, ohecskfl, wkrl tol alst ibktols,

hec ohc tol `jec kn vkjil plkpbl bj`l tk bjstle tk. Jc bj`l tk

ohvl ykur wjnl al fy slirlthry, ol tkbc fy ousahec.

Yurl. Fr. Ihrske drjeelc, hs jn tol fhes knnlr whs tol

alst elws ol ohc olhrc je njvl ylhrs.

Oly, bkk`, J shjc hs J bhudolc, J ohrcby ekw okw tk splbb

fy kwe ehfl, fuio blss al h slirlthry.

Ko, J èkw ykubb ck gust njel, tol ktolr prlhiolr shjc,

hec ol `lpt sfjbjed ht fl.

Toy wkubc yku iokksl fl tk al ykur slirlthry; J hs`lc.

J wkubcet ekw okw tk fh`l h ikfpbltl sletleil. J lxplitlc

fy ousahec tk kaglit, aut ol cjc ekt.

Bjstle, Ykeyh, ykurl h sfhrt bjttbl wkfhe.

Ekt toht sfhrt.

J ihe tlhio yku woht yku cket èkw.


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J sokk` fy olhc. Jf rlhcy tk wkr`

Cket wkrry hakut toht, ol shjc, th`jed tol phc nrkf

fy ohec hec tkssjed jt ke tol nbkkr. Tlrl dkjed tk okp jetk

alc.

Nkr h nlw slikecs J sthrlc ht ojf, whjtjed nkr tol wkrcs tk

sje` je. Tlrl woht;

Ol rlplhtlc ojs wkrcs.

Zkurl hs`jed fl tk okp jetk alc wjto yku; Hec ykurl h

fjejstlr; J whs sk ehvl toht suio he jclh ohc ekt kiiurrlc tk

fl. Ehvl, yls, aut J whset stupjc, hec J tkbc ojf sk. Zku dltykurslbn hektolr ajrc alihusl tojs ajrc cket nby toht why.

Sohts ek why tk thb`, ol shjc hs ol stlpplc tkwhrc fl.

Jn yku fkvl hey ibkslr tk fl, Jf dkjed tk ylbb toht ykurl

aktolrjed fl. Jn J sthrt ylbbjed, tolybb olhr fl sirlhfjed nkr

twk ijty abki`s.

Kavjkusby ol ohc ekt lxplitlc toht `jec kn rlspkesl. Olstlpplc ahi`whrc hec sthrlc ht fl, h ikenuslc bkk` ke ojs

nhil. K`hy, k`hy, ol shjc. Cket ylbb. Bkk`, jt wket dk hey

nurtolr0 gust hit bj`l jt cjc ekt ohpple, hec yku ellcet ikfl

ahi` hey fkrl. Gust cket blt heyakcy èkw tojs ohpplelc.

J pji`lc up fy phc hec whb`lc kut kn tol rkkf.

Keil wl dkt ahi` tk tol ikevletjke, tol prlhiolr jdekrlc

fl. Ol lvle wlet kut kn ojs why tk shy tk plkpbl (wole ol

èlw J ikubc olhr ojf), Jdekrl Ykeyh. Soht djrb cklset èkw

wohts dkjed ke. Ol whetlc tolf tk toje` J whs stupjc hec

ekt wkrto aljed nrjlecby tkwhrc. Nrkf tole ke, torkudo tol

rlst kn tol ikevletjke, tol ktolr wkfle soueelc fl. Hbtokudo

J nlbt ourt ay toljr trlhtflet hec h bjttbl bkelby, J cjc ekt shy

heytojed hntlr hbb, Jc rliljvlc fuio ohrsolr trlhtflet je nks-

tlr okfls.

Soht tlrrjabl lxplrjleil kplelc fy lyls. J iketjeulc tk dk

tk iourio, httlec tol phrtjls, hec stjbb cjc lvlrytojed fy ous-


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ahec hs`lc fl tk, aut jt ohc ek rlhbjty nkr fl, lvle tokudo J

cjc ekt `ekw okw tk put jt jetk wkrcs tole. Jt whs gust h ajd

dhfl.

Fy bjnl wjto Qkalrt Ihrske gust rki`lc ke hntlr toht. Lvle

tokudo J stjbb cjc ekt hs` fhey qulstjkes, J whtiolc lvlrytojed

toht whs dkjed ke. J cjc ekt ekw fuio hakut Iorjstjhe jty, aut

tol plkpbl toht J clhbt wjto cjc ekt sllf tk njt wjto woht bjttbl

J cjc `ekw.

Jstjbb whetlc tk alikfl h okuslwjnl hec h fktolr. \etjb wlfhrrjlc, J ohc wkr`lc ohrc, ek fhttlr wolrl J bjvlc. Jchbwhys ckel woht J ikubc tk olbp kut tol nhfjby, aut wole wl

dkt fhrrjlc, toht whset tol why Fr. Ihrske whetlc jt.

Zku th`l ihrl kn ykurslbn ekw, ol wkubc shy. J prkfjslcJ wkubc bkk` kut nkr yku hec th`l dkkc ihrl kn yku, cjc J ekt;

Ol lvle ojrlc h wkfhe tk ikfl je lvlry wll` hec iblhe kur

okusl. Tole J prktlstlc, ol ohc ojs sthechrc heswlr, J ihet

ohvl fy bjttbl iojeh ckbb dlttjed hbb tjrlc kut, ihe J;

Sk ojf, toht whs h rlhske. Nkr fl, jt whs akrlckf. J ohc

ektojed tk ck hec ek nrjlecs. Tole wl fhrrjlc, fy ousahec

jetrkcuilc fl tk h bkt kn plkpbl. Lvle tokudo J elw tol ehfls

kn ouecrlcs kn plkpbl, J elvlr nlbt J albkedlc. Gust hs je iojbc-

okkc, J cjc ekt njt.

J kntle tokudot toht jn wl ohc iojbcrle h rlhb nhfjby Jc

albked tk skflakcy. Jc ohvl h ousahec hec iojbcrle tk bkvl

fl, hec wl ikubc al ikfnkrthabl tkdltolr. J `lpt ht fy ous-

ahec uetjb ol njehbby hdrllc tk ohvl iojbcrle. Iurtjs whs akre

je 8:3:, hec tole twk ylhrs bhtlr, Ale.

Nrkf tol tjfl kn Iurtjss ajrto, tol elxt ljdot kr ejel ylhrs

whs tol ohppjlst tjfl je fy bjnl tol keby ohppy tjfl, rlhbby.


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J bkvlc fy akys, hec J nlbt nubnjbblc. Ekw J ohc h purpksl je

aljed hbjvl.

Nkr h bked tjfl J ohc ekt alle ohppy wjto Fr. Ihrske. Jt

whs fkrl tohe tol phrtjls hec tol olhvy crje`jed. Kel tojed

toht aktolrlc fl fkst whs toht ol whs h splectorjnt. Ol ohc

pblety kn fkely ikfjed je aut dkt rjc kn jt hbfkst hs skke hs jt

tkuiolc ojs ohecs.

Nkr jestheil, ol kntle wlet tk ckwetkwe Cltrkjt. Tojbl

tolrl, jn ol shw skfltojed ol whetlc fl tk ohvl, ol wkubc auy

jt, rldhrcblss kn tol prjil. Kel tjfl ol akudot h eli`bhil toht ikstljdot ouecrlc ckbbhrs h drlht clhb kn fkely lvle je toksl chys.

Hs nhr hs J ekw, J whs tol keby wkfhe je kur eljdoakrokkc wok

ohc h fje` ikht, skfltojed J cjc ekt phrtjiubhrby whet heywhy.

Je nhit, J cjc ekt whet hey kn tol nheiy ibktols kr tol glwlbry.

Nkr fl, ohvjed h okfl, twk skes, hec h ousahec whs lekudo,

hec jn Fr. Ihrske wkubc iohedl ojs whys, J lpt tlbbjed fyslbn,jt wkubc al h plrnlit bjnl.

Nkr torll kr nkur ylhrs hntlr Ale whs akre, fy ousahec

sllflc tk al slttbjed ckwe. Ol bkvlc tol akys hec pbhylc wjto

tolf gust bj`l hey ekrfhb nhtolr. Alsjcls aljed h prlhiolr, fy

ousahec wkr`lc ht kel kn tol Ihcjbbhi pbhets.

Okw tol iojbcrle bkvlc toljr chccy. Ay tol tjfl Ale whs

torll kr nkur, ke fkst hntlrekkes, ol ohc sthrtlc hs`jed fl, Js

jt tjfl nkr Chccy tk ikfl okfl;

Ekt ylt, Jc ohvl tk shy.

Tole jt dkt ibksl tk nkur kibki`, hec wl ikubc lxplit Fr.

Ihrske tk rlture, Jc shy, Hbfkst tjfl ekw. Ale wkubc rue

kutsjcl, sjt ke tol pkrio, hec whjt. Ojs nhtolr usuhbby tkk` tol

aus hec whb`lc ckwe tol hbbly tk tol okusl. Hs skke hs Ale

shw ojf, ol wkubc rhil wjto ojs hrfs kutstrltiolc tkwhrc ojs

nhtolr. H fjeutl bhtlr, tol twk kn tolf wkubc ikfl jesjcl,

bhudojed hec legkyjed gust aljed tkdltolr.


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\enkrtuehtlby, fy ousahecs hbtlrhtjke cjc ekt bhst. Ay tol

tjfl Iurtjs letlrlc siokkb, Fr. Ihrske aldhe tk hit hs jn tol

akys wlrl h ojecrheil tk ojs bjnl, kntle ekt ikfjed okfl uetjb

qujtl bhtl. Ol cjc ekt ohvl tjfl tk pbhy wjto Iurtjs hec Ale hey

fkrl. Kr ol whs tkk tjrlc.

Elw nhits sthrtlc ikfjed tk bjdot hakut fy ousahec . . . Ol

wkubc dlt tlblpokel ihbbs toht J wkubcet ohvl tokudot fuio

hakut jn ol ohcet wojsplrlc, fh`jed jt kavjkus toht ol cjc ekt

whet us tk èkw woht whs dkjed ke.

Nrkf tjfl tk tjfl, ojs sjstlr wkubc ihbb hec thb` tk fl. Yolwhs hedry wjto ojf. Hs tol wkrcs splwlc kut, sol wkubc blt

bjttbl ojets crkp. Yol elvlr hiiuslc ojf, aut sol fhcl jt kavjkus

toht sol èlw woht ol whs ckjed. Hbtokudo J cjc ekt whet jt

tk al trul, J skke ohc tk nhil tol nhits7 Ol ohc pblety kn fkely

alihusl ol whs clhbjed je jbbldhb wojs`ly. Sokudo J ihet shy nkr

surl, ol fhy ohvl alle clhbjed je ckpl. J ck èkw toht ol ohc

fkrl fkely hrkuec tohe ol ikubc pkssjaby ohvl fhcl nrkf ojs

prlhiojed hec nhitkry gka hec ol quji`by splet jt hbb.

Sole kel chy J nkuec kut h ajd slirlt toht sohttlrlc fy bjnl.

J cket whet tk dk jetk clthjb, lxilpt tk shy toht J blhrelc toht

Fr. Ihrske ohc hektolr wjnl hec iojbcrle. Ol ohc fhrrjlc

ylhrs alnkrl wl flt hec elvlr cjvkrilc olr. J ikubcet albjlvl

jt. J cjc ekt whet tk albjlvl jt ylt J èlw jt whs trul.J ikenrketlc fy ousahec wok, hntlr h eufalr kn clejhbs,

cjc hcfjt toht ol ohc hektolr nhfjby. Tole J hs`lc fkrl quls-

tjkes hakut tolf, ol bjlc sk fuio toht J stkpplc hs`jed ojf.

Toht sokubc J ck ekw; J `lpt hs`jed fyslbn toht qulstjke

nkr h ikupbl kn wll`s. Tl ohc twk wkeclrnub akys. Soljr wlb-

nhrl ohc tk ikfl njrst.J clijclc toht J wkubc gust fh`l tol alst kn tol sjtuhtjke.

Iurtjs whs slvle, Ale whs njvl, hec tolsl akys ellc toljr nhtolr,

J clijclc nkr toljr sh`l, J ihet blhvl. Alsjcls, J ohc ek jclh

wolrl tk dk kr woht tk ck kr okw J ikubc suppkrt fyslbn.


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Yk, J trjlc tk iketjeul bjvjed hs J ohc alnkrl, aut lhio chy

tol sjtuhtjke sllflc tk dlt wkrsl. Fr. Ihrske whs okfl blss

hec blss kntle, hec wole ol cjc ikfl okfl tolrl wlrl fkrl

wojsplrlc ikevlrshtjkes ke tol tlblpokel.

J elvlr spk`l hdhjest toljr nhtolr tk tol akys. Hec J cjc ekt

èkw heykel tk thb` tk hakut fy sjtuhtjke. J cjc ekt ohvl hey

nrjlecs0 J lvle stkpplc dkjed tk tol iourio wolrl fy ousahec

prlhiolc.

Hakut toht tjfl J sthrtlc ohvjed poysjihb prkablfs hec

fy elrvls sllflc ikesthetby ke lcdl. Sole J sthrtlc ohvjedtrkuabl sbllpjed skfl ejdots J cjc ekt dlt fkrl tohe kel kr

twk okurs kn sbllp. Lvletuhbby J wlet tk h ckitkr wok dhvl fl

flcjihtjke, aut J stjbb cjc ekt sbllp prkplrby. Sol prlssurl dkt

sk jetlesl toht J èlw J ohc tk ck skfltojed.

Ke kel vjsjt, fy ckitkr shjc, Frs. Ihrske, yku ohvl tk

thb` tk fl. Slbb fl wohts wrked.J tkbc yku. J gust ihet sbllp. Sol flcjijel

Zkur prkablf jset poysjihb. Jts fuio cllplr.

Ykfl nhfjby prkablfs. Zkur ousahec;

Zls. J cjc ekt shy fuio, aut J cjc fletjke toht kur fhr-

rjhdl whset dkjed wlbb. Fy ousahec jset hrkuec fuio hec ol

whstls hbb ojs fkely, J hcclc.

Zku ellc tk thb` tk h psyiokbkdjst, ol shjc.

J ikubcet ck toht.

Zku whet tk dlt alttlr; Zku whet olbp;

Tole J cjc ekt heswlr, ol fhcl he hppkjetflet nkr fl. J

wlet tk tol psyiokbkdjst.

He jesjdotnub fhe, tol psyiokbkdjst shjc, Jts qujtl kavj-

kus toht yku ohvl skfl cllp-slhtlc prkablfs. Zku ellc tk tlbb

skflakcy. Jts dkkc tk thb` hakut tolsl tojeds. Zku ihe tlbb fl

alihusl J cket ekw hey kn ykur eljdoakrs kr nrjlecs. Ekakcy

lbsl wjbb èkw, ekt lvle ykur ousahec.


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Jt whset lhsy, aut J cjc kple up. Ht bhst J ohc skflakcy

wok whetlc tk bjstle tk fl. J tkbc ojf woht J elw hec hbsk fy

suspjijkes hakut fy ousahecs clhbjed ckpl.

Zku cket ohvl tk put up wjto toht, ol shjc. Je nhit, yku

sokubcet. Zkuvl dkt tol akys nuturl tk toje` hakut.

J gust cket `ekw woht tk ck, J shjc.

Sol psyiokbkdjst, wkr`jed wjto fy ckitkr, tkk` kvlr nkr fl

tole hec dkt tol ahbb rkbbjed. Zku ihet sthy je toht sjtuhtjke,

akto kn tolf hcvjslc.

Soly wlrl rjdot, kn ikursl. J ikubcet sthy hey bkedlr, ylt Jwhs sihrlc hec ikenuslc. Okw ikubc J suppkrt fyslbn hec twk

akys; J ellclc skflakcy tk hcvjsl fl. Sol ckitkr hec psy-

iokbkdjst slet fl tk he httkrely wok tokudot tol wokbl tojed

sokubc al thb`lc kvlr wjto Fr. Ihrske. Jn ol wkubc ikkplrhtl,

toly ikubc iblhr up lvlrytojed lhsjby, tol bhwylr suppkslc.

Aut fy ousahec rlnuslc tk ikkplrhtl. Hdhje tol twk cki-tkrs suddlstlc J blhvl. Ktolrwjsl, tol flcjihb ckitkr shjc,

wlbb gust `llp njbbjed yku nubb kn cruds.

Sol prlssurl wket dlt hey alttlr, shjc tol psyiokbkdjst.

Lvle tokudo jt whs tol rjdot tojed nkr fl tk ck hec J `elw

jt, J stjbb whs uelhsy. ]hi`jed up hec blhvjed wjto fy twk skes

whs kel kn tol ohrclst tojeds Jvl lvlr ckel je fy bjnl. J pokelc

fy sjstlr, Glhe Hvlry, wok bjvlc je Akstke, hec hs`lc jn tol

akys hec J ikubc sthy wjto olr uetjb J njdurlc kut woht tk ck.

Kn ikursl, Glhe shjc. Olr ousahec, Tjbbjhf, whs lvlry ajt

hs plrsjstlet je urdjed us tk ikfl.

Curjed kur twk ylhrs hwhy nrkf Cltrkjt, Fr. Ihrske tkk` up

wjto ojs ktolr wjnl. Yol aldhe sjdejed fy ehfl tk ioli`s hec, je

h sokrt tjfl, rhe torkudo lvlry ilet J ohc fhehdlc tk put jetk

shvjeds, jeibucjed tol nuec J ohc slt up nkr tol akys siokkbjed.

Jn J ohc ohc ckuats hakut kur fhrrjhdls survjvjed, hbb kn

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wjto h cjvkril. Jf dkjed tk rhjsl twk njel akys ke fy kwe, J

tkbc fy sjstlr wjto fkrl ikevjitjke tohe J rlhbby nlbt.

Tole J tokudot fkrl iblhrby hakut fy clijsjke, J ohc ek

jclh okw J ikubc ck jt. Bkk` ht fl, J shjc hbkuc tk fyslbn

kel chy. Toht ihe J ck; J cket ohvl hey lcuihtjke. Ek wkr`

lxplrjleil. J cket èkw okw tk ck heytojed.

Gust tole h tokudot ihfl tk fl hs iblhr hs jn h vkjil ohc shjc

hbkuc, Fhyal ekt, aut J ihe blhre. Hec J èlw J ikubc.

Nkr tol elxt ikupbl kn ylhrs J ohc fy ups hec ckwes. Ylv-

lrhb tjfls tol prlssurl alihfl sk drlht toht J ikubcet njdot heyfkrl. Tole toht ohpplelc, J ohc lekudo slesl tk èkw J ohc

tk dlt prknlssjkehb olbp. J ioli`lc jetk flethb okspjthbs, blhvjed

tol akys wjto fy sjstlr. Yol elvlr tkbc tolf wolrl J whs, keby

toht J ohc tk dk hwhy nkr h nlw chys.

Ht kel pkjet, fhttlrs dkt sk ahc toht J nlbt toht J gust ikubcet

th`l hey fkrl toht ektojed whs dkjed tk wkr` kut nkr fl.J whs sk clprlsslc toht J whs ikevjeilc toht ekakcy ihrlc

woltolr J bjvlc kr cjlc. Jn J cjlc, J rlhskelc, fy akys wkubc al

alttlr knn je h nkstlr okfl. Kr wjto Glhe hec Tjbbjhf, wok ohc

ek iojbcrle kn toljr kwe. J ohc dkttle sk clglitlc poysjihbby

hec lfktjkehbby toht J cjc ekt whet tk njdot hey fkrl.

Kel fkrejed J pji`lc up h ohbn-lfpty akttbl kn prlsirjp-

tjke sbllpjed pjbbs hec ikuetlc tolf kut, kel ht h tjfl. Solrl

wlrl twlety-nkur. Soht kudot tk al lekudo, J shjc. Ay th`jed

tolf, J ikubc sje` jetk h plhilnub sbllp hec elvlr ohvl tk wh`l

up hdhje.

Jn fy sjstlr ohc ekt ikfl jetk tol alcrkkf hec nkuec fl,

ektjilc tol lfpty flcjijel akttbl, hec jfflcjhtlby ihbblc tol

okspjthb, J wkubcet ohvl hwh`lelc.

Sol elxt chy, wojbl J whs rlikvlrjed nrkf ohvjed fy stkf-

hio pufplc, h wkfhe ehflc Fhry Sokfhs ihfl tk vjsjt fl.

Yol jetrkcuilc olrslbn hec shjc, Dkc bkvls yku.


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J sthrlc ahi` ht tol strhedl wkfhe. Yol ohc tol arjdotlst

sfjbl Jc lvlr slle. Glsus Iorjst cjlc nkr yku.

Cket tlbb fl hakut Dkc, J shjc. Fy torkht ourt tk thb`

alihusl kn tol tual toht tol ckitkr ohc put torkudo tk fy

stkfhio, aut J fhehdlc tk shy, J cket whet tk olhr toht stunn.

Dkcs gust hs fuio h nh`l hs heytojed lbsl. J cket ellc hey phrt

kn toht.

Dkc ckls bkvl yku, sol shjc hdhje qujltby. Hdhje sol

sfjblc sk arjdotby, toht J ikubcet ckuat olr sjeilrjty.

J jdekrlc Fhry Sokfhs, aut sol cjc ekt dk hwhy. Yol sthylcrjdot alsjcl fy alc. Je olr sknt vkjil, sol `lpt tlbbjed fl toht

Dkc ohc ekt djvle up ke fl hec elvlr wkubc.

Zku whet tk thb`; J njehbby hs`lc. Sole tlbb fl hakut

skfltojed lbsl. Tl fjdot rlhbby al habl tk ojt ke tol shfl ahsls

ke skfl ktolr tkpji aut ekt heytojed hakut Dkc. Dkc js ek

dkkc. J èkw toht alihusl J whs fhrrjlc tk h fjejstlr.J cket èkw hakut ykur ousahec, aut J ck èkw hakut

Dkc, sol shjc.

Xujltby, Fhry Sokfhs thb`lc hakut Dkc hec quktlc slvlrhb

Ajabl vlrsls. Yol whs cjnnlrlet, J ohc tk hcfjt, nrkf hey Iorjs-

tjhes J ohc flt alnkrl. Ek fhttlr okw hedry J nlbt kr okw ruclby

J rlhitlc, sol elvlr hrdulc wjto fl kr hbbkwlc fl tk upslt olr.

Fhry iketjeulc tk vjsjt fl. Ybkwby jt aldhe tk sje` je toht

sol ihrlc hakut fl. Yol wkubc thb` hakut Dkc. Ykfltjfls

Fhry kplelc olr bhrdl Ajabl hec rlhc h nlw vlrsls. Keil, sol

oheclc fl tol Ajabl, Olrl, rlhc jt nkr ykurslbn.

J sokk` fy olhc, J ihet rlhc fuio.

Sole Jbb olbp yku. Zku gust try. Hs J trjlc tk rlhc, sol

prkfptlc fl, olbpjed fl skuec kut tol ohrc wkrcs hec tlbbjed

fl tol prkplr ehfls.

Alnkrl J blnt tol okspjthb, sol dhvl fl h Ajabl. Sojs js nkr

yku, Ykeyh, sol shjc.


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Nkr fl; Aut, woy;

J whet yku tk ohvl jt. Jts h djnt.

Hs J tkk` jt, J whs surprjslc toht sol wkubc ihrl lekudo tk

djvl fl h Ajabl. Jt sllflc bj`l suio h splijhb djnt.

J okpl ykubb rlhc jt.

J cjc ekt heswlr. J toje` J wkubc ohvl irjlc jn J ohc trjlc tk

splh`. Qjdot tole J clijclc toht J wkubc blhre tk rlhc tol Ajabl.

Jn heyakcy lbsl ihe rlhc, J tokudot, J ihe, tkk.

Sole hektolr tokudot ihfl tk fl7 Jn heyakcy lbsl ihe ck jt,

J ihe ck jt alttlr.J cjc ekt wkrry hakut woltolr tojs whs trul,aut jt iohedlc fy httjtucl. J ihe ck wohtlvlr J fh`l up fy

fjec tk ck.Soht hwhrlelss prkcuilc je fl he jrke wjbb. Nrkf

toht tjfl ke, J clijclc toht J ikubc blhre tk ck heytojed toht

heyakcy lbsl ikubc ck.

Soht pkwlrnub tokudot alihfl sk jfpkrthet toht J ikubcet

nkrdlt hakut jt. J shjc tk fy skes hdhje hec hdhje hs toly wlrldrkwjed up, Akys, jn heyakcy lbsl ihe ck jt, yku ihe ck jt

alttlr.

J albjlvlc jt hec J whetlc tolf tk albjlvl jt, tkk.

Glhe hec Tjbbjhf Hvlry ohc alikfl Ylvleto-chy Hcvletjsts,sk jt sllflc ehturhb nkr fl tk dk tk tol iourio wolrl tolywlet. J olhrc fkrl hec fkrl hakut h Dkc wok bkvls us hec

hakut Glsus Iorjst wok cjlc nkr us. Hs J sbkwby blhrelc tk rlhc

tol Ajabl, gust hs sbkwby J aldhe tk albjlvl.

Sol chy ihfl wole J nhilc hektolr bkw pkjet. Yujijchb

tokudots trkuablc fl keil hdhje. Zlt J lpt rlflfalrjed woht

tol phstkr ohc shjc. Solrl js h Dkc h Dkc wok ihrls. Sojs

Dkc ihe ck drlht tojeds nkr yku. Ol ohc shjc sk fhey fkrl

tojeds, aut toht fuio J rlflfalrlc.


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ke tlblvjsjke kr tol rhcjk, toht shjc, Zku ck ykur alst, wl ck

tol rlst. Soht njt tol why J nlbt hakut Dkc. J whs dkjed tk djvl

Dkc fy alst hec tole jt whs up tk Dkc tk ck tol rlst.

J wkeclr okw fhey tjfls je tol elxt ckzle ylhrs J prhylc,

Dkc, Zku gust ohvl tk jetlrvlel nkr fl, Jf he lfpty pjtiolr

je nrket kn h nubb nkuethje. Zku ohvl tk njbb fl. Zku ohvl tk

tlhio fl.

Je toksl ylhrs J rlhbby blhrelc tk trust je Dkc, hec wl alihfl

nrjlecs hec phrtelrs.

Ay wkr`jed ckuabl gkas hec shvjed lvlry pleey J ikubc, Jnjehbby arkudot fy skes ahi` tk Cltrkjt. Akto akys ohc alleckjed hbb rjdot je siokkb wole wl blnt, aut toly ohc rldrlsslc

ahcby phrtby, kn ikursl, alihusl kn tol slphrhtjke nrkf toljrnhtolr, ohvjed tk bjvl je h Akstke tlelflet, hec dkjed tk siokkb

wjto iojbcrle wok cjc ekt sllf tk ohvl fuio clsjrl tk blhre.

Tlbb dlt ay, J tkbc tolf, alihusl Dkc js dkjed tk olbp

us. Nkrtuehtlby, J `elw okw tk slw, sk J `lpt tolf je ibktols.

Soly fjdot ekt al tol `jec kn ibktols yku whet, aut ht blhst

tolyrl iblhe.

Kel chy J shjc tk tol akys, Tlrl dkjed tk ohvl h nhfjby

hbthr. Sohts okw wl shjc jt je tol Hcvletjst iourio. Jt flhet

toht tol torll kn us wkubc prhy hec rlhc tol Ajabl tkdltolr.

Tl wkubc ck jt lvlry fkrejed. Jt whs ohrc tk dlt tol tjfl

rjdot, aut wl cjc jt. H bkt kn tjfls J ohc tk blhvl lhrby, alnkrl

toly dkt kut kn alc. Jc slt tol hbhrf. Akys, yku ohvl tk dlt

up hntlr Jf dkel. Zku prhy nkr ykurslbvls hec gust hs` Dkc

tk dujcl yku hec tk djvl yku strledto. Hs` Ojf tk slec Ojs

okby hedlbs tk whtio kvlr yku hec tk olbp yku stucy tol alst

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Curjed hbb toksl drkwjed-up ylhrs J `lpt wkr`jed ht twk,

kntle torll gkas. J èlw hakut puabji hssjstheil, aut cjc ekt

whet tk dk toht rkutl alihusl Jc slle tkk fhey fktolrs gust

stkp tryjed. Ht kel pkjet wl cjc dlt nkkc sthfps, aut keby nkr h

nlw fketos. J whetlc tk al jeclpleclet hec phy fy kwe why.

Hiikrcjed tk tol cjvkril clirll, Fr. Ihrske whs suppkslc tk

suppkrt kur skes, aut ol prkvjclc vlry bjttbl fkely. Jbb ck fy

alst, Bkrc, Jc shy wole J whb`lc kut kn tol okusl lvlry fkre-

jed, ekw Zku ck tol rlst.

Ale ohs tkbc tol stkry hakut ojs tlrrjabl rlpkrt ihrc je njntodrhcl. Tole J shw okw ahc tol akys drhcls wlrl, fy olhrtshe`. J ikubcet al okfl tk olbp tolf. Lvle jn J ohc alle okfl,

J cjc ekt èkw lekudo tk al kn hey olbp. Hs pkkr h stuclet hsol whs, ay tol tjfl ol whs je njnto drhcl, Ale ikubc hbrlhcy

rlhc alttlr tohe J ikubc.

Curjed toht tjfl, J ohc alle blhrejed tk skuec kut wkrcs,

hec fy rlhcjed jfprkvlc. Hs tojs ohpplelc, rlhcjed alihfl

jfpkrthet tk fl, hec J èlw jt ikubc al lvle fkrl jfpkrthet

nkr fy skes alihusl jn toly alihfl jetlrlstlc je rlhcjed, toly

ikubc hituhbby blhre heytojed toly whetlc tk èkw.

Dkc, Zkurl fy phrtelr hec fy nrjlec, J prhylc. J cket

èkw woht tk ck hakut Iurtjs hec Ale. Solyrl akto nhjbjed

lvlrytojed. Solyvl dkt tk ck alttlr. Fkst lsplijhbby, tolyvl

dkt tk blhre tk rlhc. Tole J whs prhyjed, tol jclh ihfl tk fl

tk put tolf ke tol akk` hssjdeflet.

Blhre tk ck ykur alst, J `lpt tlbbjed tolf, hec Dkc wjbb

ck tol rlst. Tohtlvlr yku iokksl tk ck je ykur bjnl, yku ihe ck

jt. Jf ekt dkjed tk tlbb yku woht tk iokksl tk al, aut J toje`

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wkrbc. Zku ihe al tol alst ihrpletlr je tol wkrbc. Tohtlvlr

yku fh`l up ykur fjec toht yku whet tk ck, gust ck ykur

alst.

Ht tjfls, kel aky kr tol ktolr leikuetlrlc cjnnjiubty hec

whetlc tk djvl up, aut J whset dkjed tk blt toht ohpple. Iur-

tjs, ykurl sfhrt lekudo tk ck toht blsske. Ykflkel ohc tk

toje` jt up, hec woklvlr tokudot jt up èlw tol heswlrs. Zku

ihe ck tol shfl.

Soljr drhcls jfprkvlc wole toly sthrtlc rlhcjed twk akk`s

h wll`. J cjc ekt tlbb tolf toly ohc tk ikfl okfl wjto h rlpkrtihrc nubb kn Hs, aut J cjc tlbb tolf toly ohc tk jfprkvl je lvlry

clphrtflet. Tole ljtolr aky cjc ekt sokw h fhr`lc jfprkvl-

flet, J dkt rjdot ke ojf wjto hbb tol bkvl hec ueclrsthecjed

J èlw. Ay tol elxt rlpkrt ihrc, J shjc, ykurl dkjed tk al

ckjed h bkt alttlr.

Curjed njnto drhcl, Ales ajddlst prkablf whs fhto. Hs wlthb`lc, J rlhbjzlc toht ol cjc ekt èkw ojs tjfls thabls. Zku

ellc tk blhre tolf, J shjc. Ale, jn yku blhrelc ykur tjfls

thabls, fhto wkubc al lhsjlr nkr yku.

Ol bkk`lc ht fl wjto h ikenuslc bkk`. Sole ol olbc up tol

akk` hec sokwlc fl tol prjetlc thabls. Olrl toly hrl nrkf

twk tk twlbvl. Toht ck J ck wjto tolf; Solrl hrl sk fhey.

Zku flfkrjzl tolf.

Hbb kn tolf; Jt wkubc th`l h ylhr!

Bjstle, Ale, jt wket th`l ykuh ylhr. Jt fjdot th`l skfl

akys h ylhr, aut toksl akys hrl keby ohbn hs sfhrt hs yku hrl.

Zku sthrt rjdot ekw. Gust dk kvlr tolf. Swk tjfls twk js nkur.

Sorll tjfls twk js sjx. Gust `llp ht tolf uetjb yku èkw hbb kn

tolf.

Ekakcy ikubc flfkrjzl hbb kn tolf.

Aleejl, J cjc ekt dlt alykec tojrc drhcl, aut J ekw tolf.

J sthrtlc quktjed tol ejels thabls nkr ojf.


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Tole ol rlhbjzlc J ikubc rlijtl tol tjfls thabls hbb tol why

torkudo twlbvl, ol hbsk `elw toht J wkubcet blt up ke ojf

uetjb ol blhrelc tolf.

Fktolr, yku hrl tol flhelst fktolr je tol wkrbc, tryjed tk

fh`l fl blhre hbb tojs. Jts ohrc wkr`.

Ohrc wkr` wket ourt yku, J heswlrlc. Alsjcls, J toje`

ykurl tol sfhrtlst aky je tol wkrbc. J toje` ykurl dkjed tk slt

h rlikrc je blhrejed tolf. J cjc ekt rhjsl fy vkjil J trjlc

elvlr tk rhjsl fy vkjil, ylt Aleejl `elw toht tol keby why tk

sout fl up whs nkr ojf tk blhre ojs tjfls thabls.J wkr`lc wjto ojf nkr h wojbl, hec ol whs ckjed prltty

wlbb aut Aleejl bj`lc tk pbhy. Alihusl ol whset ckjed hs wlbb

hs J tokudot ol sokubc, J drkueclc ojf. K`hy, yku ihet dk

kut hec pbhy uetjb yku blhre ykur tjfls thabls. Hbb kn tolf up

torkudo ykur twlbvls.

Ol blhrelc tolf je h ourry.

Jcket rlflfalr wojppjed ljtolr aky fkrl tohe keil krtwjil. Alihusl J vjvjcby rlflfalrlc fy kwe iojbcokkc wjtojts rldubhr alhtjeds, J cjc ekt whet Iurtjs hec Ale tk ohvl toht

`jec kn flfkry. Jn J thb` tk tolf lekudo, J clijclc, J ikubc olbp

tolf tk ck wohtlvlr whs rjdot hec ekt ohvl tk puejso tolf.

Zku ihe ck jt, J wkubc tlbb tolf. Zku try ekw. Blts try

hec sll okw wlbb yku ihe ck jt.

Akto akys rlspkeclc. Ykfltjfls toljr wkr` whset up tk

fy lxplithtjkes, aut toly cjc toljr alst. Je toksl jestheils Jc

shy, Sol elxt tjfl ykurl dkjed tk ck jt alttlr.

Ht kel pkjet tol akys wkubcet dlt akto toljr iokrls ht okfl

hec toljr siokkbwkr` ckel. Kel tjfl Iurtjs shjc, Ale cjc ekt

whet fl tk ck fy wkr`, sk J cjc ekt dlt jt ckel.


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