Surrender by Elana Johnson

7/31/2019 Surrender by Elana Johnson

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4/98

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5/98

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8/98

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9/98

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10/98

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11/98

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oinrs vaos vb ajc je|jcb% Resjd env%

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kb sn dnnh os js/ irs J hb}s kz bzb| ne sab nny% Vaz oyb znr

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eosjne sn sab |o`b%

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13/98

77

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o sodd fdo||% J lnrdces vnyh r} benrfa |odjpo sn |voddnv% Abc

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14/98

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Cjyblsny|$ ens nedz abyb je @ybbcnk$ irs saynrfanrs sab

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djefbyjef ne kb%

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ofoje%

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ebs coz ib`nyb fbebsjl| ldo|| ibfoe% Iyjbz$ J sanrfas oinrs

kz knk% Vbc odvoz| }ynsblsbc bola nsaby$ oec J vo| knyb


15/98

7

Zb|$ J laossbc npby sab lolab sn ajk$ lnk}dbsbdz sjlhbc os

aj| lnecb|lbecjef sneb%Oyb vb |blryb>

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jsb }by|ne ne boysa% J |ajpbybc os sab sanrfas n` kbbsjef o

|bbhby+|}jcby je sab cboc n` ejfas% Syrsa ib sndc$ J cjces voes

sn fbs je sab voz n` o |bbhby os oez sjkb% ]ynfyokkbc iz

sab ajfaby+r}| je sab Sbla Yj|b$ |bbhby+|}jcby| aoc o `nry`ndc

kj||jne7 ec$ cbsoje$ yblnyc$ yb}nys%

J` J vo| `nrec$ vbdd$ J cjces voes sn sajeh oinrs sabcbsoje }oys% Jc |bbe o `bv snn koez }yngblsjne| cbsojdjef

bolsdz vaos sab |s+|jwbc |}jcby| lnrdc cn sn o arkoe

incz%

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Be`nylbkbes N`lby| ny syj} |nkb |jdbes odoyk ny saynv snnkoez sanrfas| jesn sab ojy% Oez n` san|b lnrdc ir|s kb ib`nyb


19/98

76

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Jc bpbe ibfre% J lnrdces o``nyc saos% Cjyblsny Ajfasnvby

voesbc kbirs ab voesbc kb ldboe%Aj| corfasby voesbc kb snn%

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|ryb J fns annhbc r} je oe Je|jcby+knejsnybc os%

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sn |nkbneb bd|b% J |byjnr|dz an}bc Yojeb aoc |nkbsajef

okowjef }doeebc `ny sab ejfas%

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sbc olyn|| kz ovoybeb||$ sbddjef kb n` aby lnecbelb oec lodk+

eb||% J |ajpbybc$ irs js aoc ensajef sn cn vjsa sab ybbwjef sbk}|%

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ib`nyb J gnjebc aby ybibd|%

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ddbc kz pj|jne+|lybbe$ iyjfasbejef js vjsa aby }odb |hje$ coyh

idrb bzb|$ oec |syovibyyz+idnecb aojy% \nkbsajef djhb o |ni

fosabybc je kz saynos%

J |anrdcpb |ojc fnnc+izb sab yjfas voz$ vaosbpby vozsaos vo|%


20/98

71

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sn fjpb js sn znr vabe znr vbyb ybocz%

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koe Jc ebpby kbs% O koe vanc ibbe cboc |jelb ib`nyb kz

ijysa%

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gnryeod% J dnpb znr$ |ne%

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sab dbssby ddbc kz p+|lybbe% Sab vyjsjef dnnhbc òcbc$ irs

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cnve oe oddbz$ nedz sn |bb occjsjneod }je}yjlh| n` ybc% Knybyblnycjef| ibjef kocb%


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22/98

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r}|bs% Aj| db cj|o}}boybc `ynk sab dj|s n` }n||jidb Be`nylb+

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Ky% Gokb|ne%

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