Sunday Ramblings in Fiction, Fact and Imagination...Tao of Mind
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Flowers...CharlieKaufmanTheOrchidThief...SusanOrleansJohnLaRocheSusan:"Therearetoomanyideaswiddlestheworlddowntoamoremasterfulsize,feelingpassionateaboutsomething."Kaufman(streamofconsciousness)
Idon'tknowhowtodothis!I'mlosingmyhair!I'mfatandrepulsive!Susan:"FindthatonethingyoucarepasionatelyaboutIwanttoknowhowitfeelstocareaboutsomethingpassionately."DonarldKaufman:"InaDonaldsortofway.abattlebetweenmotorsandhorses,technologyandhorse."CharlieKauffmantoValerieThomas"SusanOrleanishere?""Ishouldprobablygo.""Idon'twanttobebeholden."
"I'malmostdone.""Atafuturedate,assheseesfit."InnerVoiceofCharlieinmyownselffatoldbaldrepulsiveKauffmantryingtogetawritingassignmentValerieThomas
Ifinishedmyscript.I'mdoneThe3.Thanks.thesnakeit'scalledouroboros,Ivewrittenmyselfintomyownscreenplay...ImfatImpathetic,IcaNTmakeflowersfascinatingBobshavingaseminarinNYthisweekend
Hey,IthinkIshouldplayme.
verypowerfulandintoxicatingtobearoundsomeonesoalivewonderfultoimagineandeasytofallinlovewith,butalittlefantasticandfleetingandoutofreachw/oconflictorcrisesnothinghappensintherealworld?areyououtofyourfuckingmind?ifyoucantfindthatstuffinlifethanyoudon'tknowathingaboutlifeidonthaveanyuseforit,idonthaveanybloodyfuckinguseforitrobertmckeewhatyousaidshookmetothefuckingbone
itsmorethanaboutmyfalsestartsandwronfapproachesandimwaypastmydeadlinewowthemintheendfindanendingbutdontcheatanddontbringinanexdeuxmachinayourcharactersmustchangephillipepsteincasablancatheyweretwinsfinestscreenplayeverwrittencatherinekeener?catherinekeenerisinmyhouse?Donald:yeahwe'replayingboggle.shesreallyinteresting.someglimpseoflifethatexpands,apaperballandaglassofwaterwhatturnedthatpaperballintoaflowercharles?thereissomethingmissingcharles...whatisasubtext?inthesubtext,careto
comment?bydefinitiion,reporter:subjectdinnerwithonehistoricalfigure,liveordead...einsteinorjesusverygoodinterestinganswer
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sheslying,heranswersweretoorightCharles,peoplewhoaretoorightareliars,whats"jesusandeinstein?"unitedtomiami1155ammananaIthoughtshewasdonewithlarocheagutwalksinheshandsomemustbeherhusbandshesactingweirdwithhimrightwhatisshehidingfromhim?
Donttellmyoldlady?Youmeanmom?No.Isaidohyeahbaby,comeherewhatIcametounderstandisthatchangeisnotachoicenotforaspeciesIliedaboutmychangeinmybooktomyhusbandIpretendedeverythingwasthesamebutsomethinghappenedintheswampthatday.Itsjustaflowerabouttheghost,okay?Ithinkitmighthelpya.theywantedtheghostjusttoextractthedrug?helppeoplebefascinated...Icouldextractitforya,IwannadothatforyaSuzie,I'mprobablytheonlywhiteguywhoknowshowImdonewithorchidslarocheauditoryfascination/bathroomtoothbrushing,skinandphonedialtone
JohnJOHNJohnny?Heyjohn...veryhappynow.wellimgladveryhappy,umjohn,willyougolikethis....hmmmmmmm,Laroche"hruuuuuuuu".Susan-"...no,keepgoing!"(laughs)"no,no,john,youhavetosustain,andIwilljoinyou...tryingtomakeadialtoneandIcantdoitbymyself."Doyouevergetlonelysometimesjohnny?Asakid,wantedsomeonetounderstandme,likemymom,exceptsomeoneelse,shewouldlookatmeandquietlysay"yes",andIwouldn'tbealoneanymore.
S:WowIwishIwereanant,awwwthey'resoshiny!
J:yourshinierthananyantdarlingS:thatsthesweetestthinganyonehaseversaidaboutmeJ:wellIlikeyou,iswhy.
susieyougottacalmdown
IlikeswampsceneconversationbetweenCharlieandDonaldonwhatloveis...youcanlovesomeonewithoutthemlovingyou,itisinthelovingthatyougainsomethingfromself,notfromtheobjectofaffection.
affectandeffecteffectmebecauseIdonotusethemeffectivelyandthismayeffectmyaffect,orviceversa.
obrelosojoimaginemeandyouIdosohappytogetherthemesinmylifeandinmymindareoneinthesame,orspringfromoneintotheother,lifeeffectinglifeaffectinglife,themeisamindgame,aword,madeupofletters,symbolsarbitrary,likecultureisarbitrary,likelettersarepartofthewhollyownedcultureofhumanity,onlychangingandevolvingasdoesall.lifefromdeath
itreallyisaboutdisappointmentIamsadeverythingshard
Iwantmylifebackiwannabeababyagain,Iwannabenew,IWANNAbenewwelostDonaldandLaRoche,bothinterestingcharacters,Mom...ch...arles?charl
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esisthatyou?charlesiscryingintothemouthpieceyouarewhatyoulove,notwhatlovesyou.
ThereisnoIinme.HowamInotmyself?
Schizophrenia...voiceinsideheadspeaksoutfrommouthofheadofbrainofvoic
einsideNonSchizophrenics...voiceinsideheadtalksinsidehead,andisneverheardbyothersoutsidehead...theselforegohearsthevoice(isthevoice)butdoesnotallowvoicetobeheardbyothers.Ifonesaysorspeaksoutloudusingthemind'segovoice'swords,itwillbedoneonaconsciouslevel.
Consciousandconscience
ouroboros