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    Zachary Jackson

    AKA

    N WeK

    Tuesday, July 21, 2009

    This New World

    In the month of December,

    On the twenty first day,

    Of the year twenty twelve,

    We begin a new day,With a new way of thinking,

    Comes a new way of life,

    With this shift of perception,

    Comes a world void of strife,To obtain divine conscience,

    One must conquer all fears,Learn to balance their virtues,

    To a point that is clear,

    If we visualize beauty,

    Love, truth and respect,In our lives we will prosper,

    Thats the karmic effect,

    One mustn't dwell on the past,Mustn't bother with ego,

    Mustn't dwell on such questions,As, in death where do we go?Just let life take its course,

    As it comes drift along,

    Everything happens for a reason,No matter how right or wrong!

    Copyright 2009 Zachary Jackson

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    Tuesday, July 21, 2009

    The Root of Inspiration

    I set out on a quest today,

    Compelled to write a poetic story,

    I thought perhaps Id write about,The mind in its infinite glory,

    While philosophizing life

    I wondered, what is inspiration?So I continued on my noble journey,

    Through the minds vast imagination,

    I was full of motivation,

    As I made my faithful way,And neurological obstacles,

    Kept getting in my way,

    Soaring through the universe,

    I came unto a vibrant light,As i set my hand upon it,

    I was filled with divine insight,The gleaming light then vanished,

    And an angel had appeared,

    Dressed in a robe of white,

    Dawned with a halo in her hair,A silky voice then asked me,

    Is it knowledge you require?

    She said again as if shed known,Then ask what you desire,

    I was wondering where it was,

    That inspiration is derived,Then as I came unto the light,

    Id understood as I arrived.

    Copyright 2009 Zachary Jackson

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    Tuesday, July 21, 2009

    A Force in Disguise

    I have come to believe,

    That a force in disguise,

    Has an influence great,On the mind and its eyes,

    We manifest our evolution,

    As we live life to learn,How to live in the light,

    It's a right we must earn,

    This existence is a puzzle,

    Its an unspoken test,Of our will to live righteous,

    Of our desire to live blessed,

    To believe there's no evil,

    Is to believe there's no light,Yet to believe there is nothing,

    Is unjust and not right,Though this life that were living,

    Is hard to perceive,

    If you just put in the work,

    You will come to believe,That a power exists here,

    A power divine,

    A power that does its work,Through the subconscious mind,

    Yet these messages relayed,

    On a subliminal level,Are sometimes distorted,

    Through the works of the devil,

    Yet that's part of the battle,Of this life there's no doubt,

    That our job here as humans,

    Is to figure this out.

    Copyright 2009 Zachary Jackson

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    Tuesday, July 21, 2009

    Divine Energy

    Have you seen the little floaters?

    Drifting high in the skies,Little children with wings,

    That exists in our eyes,

    They're black in the centers,Surrounded in white,

    They're a scratch on the lenses,

    Protecting the eye,

    I've observed a new kind,That dance and move free,

    Could it be that this matter,

    Is divine energy?

    From the light of the moon,They're produced overnight,

    Charged up by the mind,Then dispersed through the light,

    To the trees and all nature,

    To all living things,

    Do we play the top role?Because we're human beings,

    Colors of purple,

    Neon and white,Inactive at nighttime,

    Running free by daylight,

    Are they just an illusion?Or just and divine,

    Do they have an influence?

    On the subconscious mind,Why are they here?

    And what are they for?

    To create a distraction,

    Or to show us the door,To a whole other realm,

    A place full of love,

    For all of gods' children,Who try to live pure as doves,

    Search within yourselves,

    Maybe ponder all of this,Gods kingdom is amazing,

    Are you living its bliss?

    Copyright 2009 Zachary Jackson

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    Saturday, July 18, 2009

    Earth Angel

    From the moment that I met you,

    As I gazed upon your eyes,

    I felt comfort and passion,As I began to realize,

    That you are my soul mate,

    You balance me out,That youre the yin to my yang,

    In my mind theres no doubt,

    So I share with you this poem,

    To express my emotions,For you as a person,

    Theyre as deep as the oceans,

    An earth angel in spirit,

    You're living in the light,You give power unto others,

    Through knowledgeable insight,Youre a beautiful person,

    Your hearts filled with love,

    Youve the mind of a goddess,

    Intentions pure as doves,Your figure is as gorgeous,

    As the moon and the stars,

    You motivate others,To seek out whom they are,

    Your aura shines vibrant,

    Your smiles gleam bright,The advice that you give,

    It reflects divine light,

    If the whole world could meet you,They'd begin to believe,

    That through thinking divinely,

    True beauty is achieved.

    Copyright 2009 Zachary Jackson

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    Thursday, July 16, 2009

    Subliminal Warfare

    Ill never fully understand,

    Why any sane man would believe,

    That an explosion could create,All that exists to be conceived,

    That almost 14 billion years has past,

    Of evolutionary change,We used to swing form tree to tree?

    To me, that sounds a little strange!

    So do they fully understand,

    The inner workings of the mind?Did they come across Pandoras box,

    While excavating mines?

    Or have they traveled back in time,

    To watch the process of creation?Maybe they've made contact with E.T.s

    From a parallel dimension?Were they given sacred knowledge?

    Of this existence and the stars?

    Do they now know where we come from,

    Why were here and who we are?They're our top government officials,

    The NSA and FBI,

    They are the people, whom have power,Over people like you and I,

    Or are they simply just misled?

    Unconscious soldiers for the devil,A pawn in a war theyll never win,

    And fighting upon a subliminal level!

    So, do they know not what is going on?Or do they simply choose not to care?

    Do they understand what happening here?

    Its called subliminal warfare!

    Copyright 2009 Zachary Jackson

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    Sunday, March 08, 2009

    Lifes' Riddle

    The foundations of life,

    The existence of the divine,

    The why not, whats and whys,For the creation of time,

    For the answers sought out,

    They shall never be found,Theyre what keep our minds wandering,

    Thats why lifes so profound,

    Just be real to yourself,

    Try to live in the minute,Take advantage of this life,

    Respecting everything in it,

    Do not dwell on the past,

    Do not bother with ego,Try not to ask yourself questions,

    Like in death where do we go?Just make plans for the future,

    Whats your next step in life?

    Is it time to grow older?

    And settle down with a wife,Should I have a few children?

    Could I support them if so?

    Would I make a good parent?Im confused, I dont know,

    Just let life take its course,

    As it comes sail along,Everything happens for a reason,

    No matter how right or wrong!

    Copyright 2009 Zachary Jackson

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    Beauty Within the Beast

    Once upon a time, beyond societies portrayal,There lived a beast of harmony, and a lie he would not tell,

    Full of love and divinity, yet sadness dwelled within,

    This beast was kind, he wanted peace, just wanted to fit in.But waking days, were not astray, of mountainous abuse,

    Mobs with pitchforks, nasty words, they spewed their vile views,

    His nappy hair, his fangs and ears, brought him pointed stares,Provoked by words, tormenting gestures, and many frightened glares.

    Until one day, he said no more, pain will this beast take,

    He stayed indoors, and never left, his heart was cold and ached,On the floor, devoid of warmth, a stranger to this place,

    His mighty body shook and shivered, tears fell from his face.

    Do my looks; absolve my right, to live, my right to be,

    I'm not aloud, to wonder round, to live amongst society,Do I not cry; when I am pained, bleed when I am pricked,

    You mock me with, your judging eyes; a monster is your verdict?

    I am saddled, with this curse, I'm nature's dirty secret,

    How The Fates, have cursed on me, no longer can I take it,

    Then suddenly, a flash and bang, an angel then appeared,She wore a gown, held out a wand, and had a halo in her hair.

    I'm your fairy godmother, your pain I'll take away,

    The path I show, is based on faith, so follow what I say,Go on a journey, traveling north, beyond the fiery trees,

    You'll find a castle, made of glass, and the knowledge that you seek.

    For countless days, he traveled north, all around the earth,

    Illusions came, to mystify, and test him in his worth,

    Self belief, propelled him as, he reached his destination,He went inside, yet found nothing, this filled him with frustration.

    You surrendered to me as, you made your fateful way,

    Now here you stand, before my eyes, a voice began to say,

    Stand before the mirror beast, ask what you desire,Behold the truth, the inner you, the knowledge you require.

    Mirror mirror let me see, the true beauty inside of me,The surface glistened; a picture beamed, and a beast he did not see,

    The beast fell down, on hands and knees; and did nothing but cried,

    Said Who I am is not the flesh, im the light that's deep inside.

    Copyright 2009 Zachary Jackson

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    The Crucible Hike

    I can only begin,To express what its like,

    To have gone through such things,

    As the crucible hike,54 hours of torturing pain,

    Which only got worse,

    When it started to rain,6 hours of sleep,

    Issued 3 MRE'S,

    5 recruits dropped,

    Overcome by the heat,After 2 days of hiking,

    We were issued our masks,

    Taken into a chamber,

    Were we get CS gassed,With the rest of our strength,

    We head for the reaper,Into the mountains,

    We hike deeper and deeper,

    80 pounds on our backs,

    M16 to our side,Ascending the mountain,

    Screaming painfully inside,

    The Reapers a monster,It can swallow you up,

    A truck had to follow,

    To pick recruits up,though it felt like forever,

    We had finally arrived,

    Beyond exhausted,and sleep deprived,

    Then the DI's scream out,

    lets pack up our trash,

    its time to head out,So get off of your ass,

    The hike back was torture,

    But as we got back,we ate a meal fit for warriors,

    then marched straight to our racks,

    Some thought they'd been dreaming,Some wild cartoon,

    But we had really overcome it,

    As a team, a platoon!

    Copyright 2009 Zachary Jackson

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    Tuesday, January 13, 2009

    Writers Block

    As I wrote down this poem

    Confusion kicked in

    Didnt know what to writeWhere to start or begin

    Right before I sat down

    To express my emotionsI envisioned a white light

    Illuminating the oceans

    I was soaring above it

    As if I had wingsI understood it to be

    Divine light of all beings

    The cause for existence

    For the cosmos and mindLeaving secrets in shadows

    For all species to findMoving closer to see it

    I awoke with a jolt

    Awaken by thunder

    And a bright lightning boltRan inside with excitement

    For this vision I had

    As I sat down to write itI forgot and got mad

    I leaned back in frustration

    Anxiety kicked inI was thinking so deeply

    My mind started to spin

    I then closed my eyesAnd again I saw light

    My vision had come back

    I now knew what to write

    Copyright 2009 Zachary Jackson

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    Greatest Grandmother

    To the greatest grandmother,Of all times from above,

    I write you this poem,

    Full of blessings and love,You're an angel of light,

    And a blessing from heaven,

    a gift to the world,And the mother of seven,

    Your aura shines vibrant,

    Your smiles gleam bright,

    The advice that you give us,Reflects divine light,

    You have twenty-two grand kids,

    And you've helped raise us all,

    From the time we were born,Past the time we could crawl,

    You were there to help guide us,From the time we were walking,

    You were right there beside us,

    When we first started talking,

    And now that we've grown up,To have kids of our own,

    You have sixteen great grand kids,

    How the family has grown,You have two great, great grand kids,

    What a lifetime of bliss,

    An amazing achievement,That began with a kiss.

    Copyright 2009 Zachary Jackson

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    Saturday, November 22, 2008

    Endless Heartache

    Do you know what its like?

    To have fallen in love,

    To have given it your all,To then be gotten rid of,

    Your body feels cold,

    Your heart fills with hate,And if it's happen to you,

    Then you can maybe relate,

    You think of the times,

    That love filled the air,Ask yourself what went wrong,

    To bring on this dis-pair,

    When you crawl into bed,

    Is when it hurt you the most,With theres no one to hold you,

    Nobody to pull close,Your face floods with tears,

    You toss and you turn,

    As you try to forget them,

    Yet cannot help but yearn,For the love which was once there,

    That love of your life,

    You may have felt that you'd end up,As a husband and wife,

    But now it's all over,

    For now youre all alone,You just want to be able,

    To pick up the phone,

    To just dial their number,For that line to pick up,

    To just speak with this person,

    To just kiss and make up!

    Copyright 2009 Zachary Jackson

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    Thursday, May 14, 2009

    The powers that be!

    Be conscious of the elements that affect reality,

    Enjoy this everlasting divine state of harmony,

    Allow yourselves to become an all-powerful creator.When your life begins to flow, you are the instigator!

    Be in an emotional resonance with your lifes intention.The level that you resonate is equal to divine intervention.

    With your newly inspired motivation, how do you feel?

    You are sharper, clearer, more in the zone and it is very real.

    You can do amazing things, that baffle others awareness,

    Everything that is can be controlled by our consciousness.

    Know that this existence is under your command.

    Knowing this, you never have to fear bad luck again.

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    Thursday, May 14, 2009

    When I write...

    I write when Im underground so that my words feel deeper when you read them. I can

    feel the earths pulse surround me, and engulf me with the knowledge to become who,

    and what ever I want to be in this life and the next. Life altering describes my words.

    When I write,

    You laugh, you cry, youre hurt, youre uplifted, youre calm, youre angry, and forever

    changed.

    When I write,

    I make it so that you can feel what I feel, be what I am, and be what I am not.

    When I write,

    I pass wisdom to all my sisters, brothers, mothers, fathers, aunts, uncles, and grand-parents.

    When I write,

    A small piece of my soul and my personality is left lingering on these pages. Every letter,

    one after the other encourages me to write just another word, just another sentence, just

    another paragraph, just another story and just another book. But my words are not justanother persons words, they are my words.

    When I write,

    My words are in my perspective. My words give my hardships a face so that other may

    identify with my life and my quest to find what everybody needs, wants and has AVOICE!

    When I write,

    I dont just write for me, I write for the world and everybody who needs a powerful voice

    to give them comfort and peace in a time of need.

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    Friday, February 27, 2009

    20 Things to Know Before Entering the Battlefield of The Subconscious!!!

    Before Entering Battle Against the Subconscious Mind

    Understand These 20 Things About Your Enemy:

    These things about your enemy are true:

    The enemy is resilient and determined; he will fight until the last breath.

    The enemy is deceitful; he will blind you with trickery.

    The enemy knows your weaknesses; he will take advantage of them.

    The enemy knows you better than you know yourself.

    The battlefield is the enemys home; he knows the terrain and you dont.

    The enemy employs guerrilla tactics; he will do anything to ensure his victory.

    The enemy has more soldiers than you.

    The enemy has ruled since the day you were born; hes been building his defenses sincethen.

    The enemy employs spies you may think are your friends.

    The enemy will attack you during your weakest moments.

    Victory over such an enemy may seem impossible,

    but remember your advantages:

    The enemy is resilient and determined; he will fight until the last breath.

    Your determination can be built faster than his.

    The enemy is deceitful; he will blind you with trickery.

    The enemy is incapable of learning new tricks; understand his tactics, they will never

    change.

    The enemy knows your weaknesses; he will take advantage of them.

    Reinforce your weaknesses; the enemy will not see this happen.

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    The enemy knows you better than you know yourself.

    The enemy will not learn as fast as you; he will only know who you were, but never whoyou are.

    The battlefield is the enemys home; he knows the terrain and you dont.

    You have the ability to study the battlefield from a safe distance.

    The enemy employs guerrilla tactic; he will do anything to ensure his victory.

    The enemy employs guerrilla tactics because he is afraid of you.

    The enemy has more soldiers than you.

    His soldiers are slow and dim-witted; you can outmaneuver and outsmart them.

    The enemy has ruled since the day you were born; hes been building his defenses since

    then.

    You can maneuver and attack from the rear.

    The enemy employs spies you may think are your friends.

    His spies will give themselves away if you look hard enough.

    The enemy will attack you during your weakest moments.

    You know exactly when the enemy will attack.

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    Friday, November 14, 2008 11:11 PM

    What is Wisdom?

    Wisdom is the ability to understand and work with our higher selves, to be able to use

    your minds powers for the better. Ignorance is not taking advantage of this warrior withinall of us. So train your minds, mold them into your own kingdom, manifest your destiny.

    It can be done! It just takes motivation, and that is hard to achieve. Through believing in

    yourself or having confidence in the person that you are, it is by all means achievable.There's allot of beauty in the universe, are you really trying to just let that all pass you

    by? Love one another, you are the same in many ways. Think about it, were all connected

    in every way with everything under the sun and the moon, there is both positive and

    negative energy floating around everywhere, the divine matrix connects all that weconceive as matter to the eyes in this reality, affecting the way we think, the decisions we

    make, the people we come across, the phone calls we receive, all manifested

    subconsciously through the divine matrix. Its all real, and very powerful. So think about

    your decisions before you make them, if it wasn't meant to happen, then it wont, if youknow it needs to be done, then do it, without regret, hold nothing back from yourself our

    the people around you! Never take advantage of this, the dark side is much fun and youwill learn allot from the journey back, if you choose to partake in this perilous journey. Its

    an unspoken subconscious battle that can and will be won! Stay true to this and you will

    see the changes in your every day life, i promise you this!!! Life's way stellar, beautiful,

    lets try to not take advantage of that!

    Peace within One Love!!!

    Copyright 2009 Zachary Jackson

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    Saturday, February 07, 2009

    Cause or Effect?

    To be the cause or to be the effect, that is the difference of a creation to a reaction. We

    have all been blessed with the same creator and given the ability to generate thought and

    emotion, as well as to believe in whatever we wish to be true, and it is through thatprocess of following our dreams and experiencing our desires that creation takes place

    and fulfills its promise.

    Thoughts and emotions are creative, they are what create your reality, along

    with your beliefs about what is real. For they are magnetic structures where

    like attracts like and different repels different. Creation includes the process

    of reaction and vise versa; the words themselves are just different arrangements of thesame letters. The creation of thought uses the process of

    reaction as each thought responds to the previous thought.

    The creation is an infinite reaction of free will where each focus ofindividualized awareness has the freedom to create or to react to any situation in any way

    that they choose. What does it mean to create? To create is to act in accordance withdivine will, with the original desire to seek and know yourself by creating intelligent

    illusions of patterns of light, where knowledge of your oneness with all can be gained.

    What does it mean to react? To react is to act in response to a creation that is already

    taking place, it is to use your will to try and change or control what is already happening.

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    Saturday, February 07, 2009

    Cause or Effect?

    That right there is the secret of creation, everything is already created or as

    the saying goes, "there is nothing new under the sun." Everything is already

    in its rightful place, everything is already unfolding perfectly. Humility arises when yourealize that there is nothing in the entire universe that needs to be changed. All you need

    to do is to remember that what is occurring is

    occurring with purpose, that purpose is to help you remember that all isone, that you are one with the creator that created all of creation with the

    original thought of infinite love and eternal light.

    As an example to help understand this lets say that an individual is having a

    bad day where nothing is going according to their plans and looks at you with a scowling

    glare. Now that is their creation and it is a result of the way they are reacting to the

    circumstances of their life. You can react to this individual's behavior in one of two ways:you can respond with love by creating your own cause in alignment with the primal cause

    of the creator or you can respond with fear by reacting as an effect to the other person'scause. If you choose to respond with love then perhaps you might put a smile on your

    face or say a gentle "hello" as you shine some light their way or if you choose to respond

    with fear then perhaps you will glare at them back or just avoid them all together by

    excluding and keeping them separate from your life.

    To react negatively to what another self creates is to be effected by it, to taketheir creation personally. The proper and positive response to any cause is the effect of

    love. If you can react with love to all that is created and comes

    your way than the Reactor and the creator become one for love is what thecreation is. The creator is the cause that sent love in motion and love is the

    effect coming back to its source. Imagine responding as love to all that you

    experience by accepting everything just the way that it is. So keep in mind that you arethe creator when you allow all to be as it is meant to be.

    Copyright 2009 Zachary Jackson

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    Friday, November 14, 2008

    Mental emotions

    Emotions are the strongest purest forces in the human body, and what in my

    Experience have melted me down into yet another mold of nothing. The saying pain is

    weakness leaving the body, refers to physical pains, not mental emotional pains. Sowhere do those pains come from and why? Over the past 3 years I have come to believe

    that emotions derive from mental weaknesses entering slowly into the body though old,

    sometimes forgotten mental scars from childhood, leaving behind emotions in these scarsas they leave the body in the form of pain, and pain is really emotion in one form or

    another, built up in these mental scars, that once the emotional pressure is too much to

    handle, burst open yet again, forcing out these emotions in the form of what society

    portrays as weakness or pain, but in reality is emotional pain, forced out by painfulmental emotional thoughts and feelings, creating fresher deeper scars, expanding from

    the brain, the mental portion, traveling through your neurological nerves, to your once

    impenetrable heart, that is emotion. Thus starting over the in some cases unbearable

    process of mental emotional pain, ultimately creating the eternal pendulum effects ofmental emotions, that define who you are as a person!

    Copyright 2009 Zachary Jackson

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    Saturday, October 18, 2008

    Mind Energy phenomenon exposed!

    A human mind absorbs and emits energy. I'm using this term because even though this is

    obviously not the 'correct' term, there is no term in the dictionary to explain this

    phenomenon. I'm using this term to mean mental energy/effort, etc. The mind is full ofeffort/energy. People are categorized by the amount of energy their minds are able to give

    and receive. Unfortunately, most people fall into the lower category, allowing themselves

    only a small amount of energy, thought, and effort to flow in and out. This results in thosewho appear to be stubborn, (little energy capabilities because unknowingly to themselves

    and others around them, they are simply not able to grasp certain views and ideas) and

    those who simply are much more able to adapt and adopt various views.

    In addition to this note, I firmly believe that one can change the amount of energy his orher mind can perceive with the intention of truly wanting to do so. Much like other goals

    in life, determination ultimately prevails-even with the human mind. This, obviously,

    means that energy capabilities are not something I believe we were pre-disposed with.

    Various things factor into the reason for our energy capabilities including childhoodupbringing, environment, current life situations, friends, family, spouse, education, and

    physical health, to name a few.

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    Thursday, July 24, 2008

    Mist in the Universe of Mind!!!

    I have seen the top of the mountain, and it is good. The mist that rises there is cold and

    thick, leaving one to wonder why the top of the mountain is so good, Mist, that is the

    blockade of the mind, leaves the body to suffer, and this is not good, Freedom of this, iscreated by freeing the mind of desires, or the past, which appears all too often clouded in

    this mist, thick and cold, at highest peak, there is light, gleaming radiantly, white, This

    light penetrates the mist, and is glorious, potentially this light can be seen by all, Whatthen would be the point of seeing the top of the mountain? Why put forth such effort in

    climbing up and later focusing through the mist of the mountains if all could see this

    light? Personal clarity, of course, to seek out your own path through the powers of the

    universe, to maybe bring those around you to a new understanding, The mist restricts thechi, yes, but the mind sees the light, and is drawn to or fro, depending on intent, Think

    rationally about the process. The top of the mountain is above you, yet you are below the

    top. To see the top of the mountain requires not that you climb up physically, but that you

    allow the top to be at the same elevation in life as you are, once this is achieved you willhave found your balance, once you have mastered your balance, you will achieve

    enlightenment, never take advantage of this, there is a dark side in all light, don't let itdeceive you!

    Copyright 2009 Zachary Jackson

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    Saturday, November 29, 2008

    I wasnt born a marine

    I wasn't born a marine; I was melted down into a mold of nothing, a recruit

    if you will, then through 13 weeks of reconstruction was reconstructed into the

    Militaries version of a crocodile, a united states marine! there is no one elseas fierce or having more pride in who we are, although we do not have the

    Impenetrable hide of a crocodile, we have an impenetrable heart that has been

    reinforced with steel, our flesh is hard and firm, not soft and brittle likethat of our enemies, the iron that runs through our blood seems to be tempered

    working in a way like mercury does a thermometer, when the environment around us

    is cold our core temperature rises, when the environment is too hot our core

    temperature lowers, giving us the motivation needed to keep calm in times ofwar, our bodies are trained to withstand anything the enemy has to offer, gases,

    physical and mental harm, to keep calm when the rest are freaking out around

    you, to be able to make decisions during these harsh times, we still eat sleep and die just

    like everybody else we just do it with a bigger sense of pride. like everything underthe sun and the moon, steel although impenetrable by human flesh and iron which

    is in all blood, can both be melted down yet again at certain temperatures,which is what I cold heartedly believe is going on within me at this point,

    Emotions are the strongest purest forces in the human body, and what in my

    Experience have melted me down into yet another mold of nothing. The saying pain is

    weakness leaving the body, refers to physical pains, not mental emotional pains. Sowhere do those pains come from and why? Over the past 3 years I have come to believe

    that emotions derive from mental weakness entering slowly into the body though old,

    sometimes forgotten mental scars from childhood, leaving behind emotions in these scarsas they leave the body in the form of pain, and pain is really emotion in one form or

    another, built up in these mental scars, that once the emotional pressure is too much to

    handle, burst open yet again, forcing out these emotions in the form of what societyportrays as weakness, but in reality is emotional pain, forced out by painful mental

    emotional thoughts and feelings, creating fresher deeper scars, expanding from the brain,

    the mental portion, through to your neurological nerves, to your once impenetrable heart,that is emotion, thus starting over the in some cases unbearable process of mental

    emotional pain, ultimately creating the eternal pendulum effects of mental emotions, that

    define who you are as a person, your mentality and in my case, my motivation to perform

    my civil duties as an enlisted member of the united states marine corps. I became weakminded in this very way and for awhile, had lost all motivation, even to be alive. I had

    begun to do the exact opposite of what had been instilled in me during Marine Corps boot

    camp during 13-week transformation from a mere 17-year-old boy, to a grown ass man, amarine. I let it take over my mentality and it took 6 months spent behind bars in federal

    military confinement facility for me to begin to realize that it was my decisions that led

    me here, and only I could help myself get out.

    Copyright 2009 Zachary Jackson