Date : 9th April 2014 (Wednesday)

Time : 10.37pm

Concept : Self-serving attribution

I have really high self confidence in myself ever since young because I

was always categorized into the smart kids group. I was born in a family of 4

siblings and I was always told I’m the smartest child among them as I’m talented

and intelligent. With all kind of sources that keep telling me I’m good and I really

started feeling that way. Slowly as time goes by, I always over estimate myself

and think I can be good in most of the things. When I get really good results in

my studies I will think that it’s all because I’m born intelligent, I don’t really need

helps or consultations from the teachers, friends and I barely even need tuitions.

Until two years ago, my parents wanted me to continue my pre-u studies

in Form6. Form6 syllabus was really hard to handle and from there my results

started to get from bad to worse. I never once get a C for academic in my entire

studies life but in Form6 I failed almost all subjects and got GPA of not even 2.00

for my exams. I couldn’t even got an all pass.

Then I thought about the causes of this whole thing, first it was because I

entered Form6 around 3months late. Besides, my teachers were speeding in

their teachings because they wanted to finish everything fast before the final

exams. And I also started blaming my boyfriend for giving me pressure in every

way he could. I thought it was because of the overwhelming pressure given by

my parents and people around that made me hardly focus in my studies thus

caused my bad results. And I also kind of think that was because of the

unorganized academic system that made everything cramped together and it

made me so hard to fully understand and memorize whatever I have read.

My actions strongly reflect the self-serving attribution concept in me and

I always tend to only focus on my own strength and achievements. I thought that

the straights As good results I got all this while came from my intelligence and

hard work of myself. But when I come across obstacles or failures I will start

blaming it on other factors or even blaming people around me. I never really think

it’s my own problem and I tend to overlook my own weaknesses and bugs.