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Transcript of Smoke and Mirrors (Excerpt from Pour Some Sugar On Me: Tales from an Ex-Stripper)
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PourSomeSugarOnMe:
TalesfromanExStripperB ChristineMacdonald
A candid, oftenfunny memoir
about nine
years in the
life of a
dysfunctional
sex worker
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Pour Some Sugar On Me: Tales from an Ex-Stripper
(Excerpt)
By Christine Macdonald
Smokeand Mirrors
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Throughcloudydarknessmyheartracedwithinthewallsofneon
flickeringlights.Fourfeetabovethefloor,thestagecarriedmybodywhilethe
drugstookholdofmyinsides.
Keepittogether.Justonemoreset.
Feelingmyplacewithinthemelody,myhipskissedthesmokyairandI
continuedon,bendingover,extendinggarter,acceptingtip;Iwaspartofthe
conveyorbeltofflesh.
Thanks,seeyoutomorrow.Throwingatwentydownonthebar,I
pickedupmydufflebagandthrewitovermyshoulder.Thelightsandmusic
stillpounding,myheartplayedhideandseekwithitslimitsbutonthe
outside,Iwasapro.
Thewallsofmyapartmentwerestill,decoratedwithneatlyframed
partypeopleflashingcrookedsmiles.Iwantedtobenearthem.Iwantedto
belonginaplacewithoutjudgment,whereunabashedpraiseflowedlikea
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rivertomypersonalstreamsofnarcissismandperceptionofworth.Ishoved
ahandfulofbillsdowntheinsideofmybootandheadedforthenightclub.
Fourinthemorningalwaysarrivedbeforereasoning.JustasIwas
settlingintoirresponsibility,thecalltoleavewasannouncedoverthe
speakers.
Wannashareacab?KatieseyesremindedmeofMartyFeldmansin
YoungFrankensteinandherjawwasgrinding.
No,noImgonnawalkhome.EvenIwassurprisedatmyanswer,as
myjawwasgrindinginunison.
Really?
MartyFeldman,partyofone.
Okayhun,seeyoutomorrownight.
Ifinishedmyvodkaandcranberry,stoodupandgaveKatieahug.
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Lyinginthebathtubinmytwostorywalkup,Iletgoofmychoices.
Breathingslowanddeliberate,IclimbedmywaybacktothetightropeIknew
sowell.
Ihungontothenight,longenoughtowitnessanotherlavenderhorizon
wavingherarmsthroughtheglassshuttersinthebedroom.
Throughmyfoggymind,levelingfromthehigh,forthefirsttimesinceI
wasalittlegirl,Iwroteapoem.
Themusicengulfsher
hereyesbegintoclose
Thebeatgoesboom-ba-da-boom
andnoonereallyknows
Thatasshelaythere,besideherself
Insidethatfishbowlofsmoke
Sheisjustaballerina
tryingnottochoke
Hereyesgazeintothecrowd
beyondtheblinkinglights
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Herbodygoingthroughthemotions
itsjustanothernight
Shesjustaballerina
Tip-toeingthroughtheshow
Anangelwithabrokenwing
Tryingtomakeitthroughthesnow
Shesjustaballerina
Tryingtosurvive
Withablanketofhungersurroundingher
Itsawondershesstillalive
Shedreamsofthequietridehome
Themomentsheslipsintobed
VisionsofSugarPlumfairies
Stillverymuchaliveinherhead
Shesjustaballerina
Tiptoeingthroughtheshow
Anangelwithabrokenwing
Tryingtomakeitthroughthesnow
Shesjustaballerina
Tryingtosurvive
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Withablanketofhungersurroundingher
Itsawondershesstillalive
Myeyesweredryandnumbwithindifference.Withthesuntogreet
me,Iacceptedhercompany,ratherthanfighttheattempttosleep.Sleep
wouldcomewhenshewasgoodandready.
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