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Room by MoonlightAuthor(s): Barbara MooreSource: The North American Review, Vol. 266, No. 3 (Sep., 1981), p. 59Published by: University of Northern IowaStable URL: http://www.jstor.org/stable/25124185 .
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dismantle the tower and lug its skele
ton down the mountain. They waited
for a windless day after a drenching rain and they burned it.
The spectacle swiftly fills me: the mountain peak like a great torch, a
volcano. The tower heaving on its
nine legs. The windows bursting from the heat, tumbling among the
rocks, fusing into molten blobs, the
glass taking on whatever shape it
cooled against.
There should be nails. Looking closer I find them among the shards of glass, sixteen-penny nails mostly, what we called spikes when I was
building houses. Each one is somber with rust, but perfectly straight, never having been pried from wood. I think of the men who drove those
nails, the way sweat stung in their
eyes, the way their forearms clenched
with every stroke of the hammer, and
I wonder if any of them were still around when the tower was burned.
The Geological Survey marker, a round lead disk driven into a rock beside one of the piers, is dated 1916.
Most likely the tower already stood
atop the mountain in that year. Most
likely the builders are all dead by now.
So on its last day the Hardesty fire-tower became a fire-tower in ear
nest. Yesterday I read that two
American physicists shared the
Nobel Prize for discovering the back
ground radiation left over from the
Big Bang, which set our universe in
motion some fifteen billion years ago.
Some things last. Not forever, of
course, but for a long time, like radia
tion, like bits of glass. I gather a few of the nails, some lumps of glass, a
screw. Stuffing these shreds of evi
dence in my pocket, I discover the
graham cracker in its wrapping of cel
lophane, and I realize I have not
thought of Jesse for some minutes,
have forgotten that he is riding me.
That can only mean one thing. Sure
enough, he is asleep, head scrunched
down into the pack. Even while I
peek at him over my shoulder he is
changing, neurons hooking up secret
connections in his brain, calcium
swelling his bones like mud in river deltas.
Smell warns me that the clouds
have reached us. Looking out, the
only peaks I can see are the Three
Sisters, each of them a shade over
10,000 feet. Except for those peaks and the rocks where I stand, every
thing is cotton. There are no more
clouds to watch, only Cloud, unani
mous whiteness, an utter absence of
shape. A panic seizes me?the same
panic I used to feel as a child crossing the street when approaching cars
seemed to have my name written on
their grilles. Suddenly the morning's
nightmare comes back to me: every
thing I know is chalked upon a
blackboard, and while I watch a hand erases every last mark.
Terror drives me down the Har
desty trail, down through vapors that leach color from the ferns, past trees
that are dissolving. Stumps and
downed logs lose their shape, merge
into the clouds. The last hundred
yards of the trail I jog. Yet Jesse never wakes until I scooch him out of the
backpack and wrestle him into the car-harness. His bellowing defies the
clouds, the creeping emptiness. I
bribe him with sips of water, a graham cracker. But nothing comforts him, or
comforts me, while we drive down
the seven gravelled miles of logging road to the highway. There we sink into open space again. The clouds are
a featureless gray overhead. Jesse's
internal weather shifts, and he begins one of his calm babbling orations,
contentedly munching his cracker.
The thread of his voice slowly draws me out of the annihilating ocean of
whiteness. "Moon," he is piping from the backseat, "moon,
moon ! ' '
-Scott Sanders
BARBARA MOORE
ROOM BY MOONLIGHT
In a saving smell of bedclothes, the moon
Collects, fire shirt
At the window; our search develops
In this direction. What are deaths,
There is only this road which leads from
The thought of you emerging like a clarity At my elbow, nor is there anything like
Our salt.
Music has porches, pitched this way From cadence to cadence, what
You took up when you lifted me
Thus far: I address myself to your hands
As we redden, you ascend my spine,
The bedclothes thump, all
The hampers in the land responding, And we allow ourselves space to rain
In this skin which leans like a bush
From the crevice of our departures.
Don't move, the door will open, a sentence
Slip through, perfecting itself,
Threatening us with dazzling coherencies
In the room where we have just been born.
Sleep, it's
What we come for, the juices
Drying on our foreheads,
Riding, riding until morning, Your shoulder which bumps and stays.
This is the moon, a thin tunic,
White enough by most standards
To do justice to our eyes, their defections, Our bodies opening like bewildered cliffs,
Grappling, unsteady with candor.
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