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T H E - S T R U G G L E - W I T H I NO L G I V A N N A - L L O Y D - W R I G H T

H O R I Z O N P R E S S N E W Y O R K

Copyright 1955, Olgivanna Lloy WrightLi!rary o" Congr#$$ Catalog Car No% 55-11&'(

IS)N (-*1*(-1+11-rint# in th# Unit# Stat#$ o" ./#ri0a

CONTENTSPrologue

1 Knowledge of Oneelf! "on#$ou S%ruggle

& E'o%$on

( )$nd* You%+ ,nd Old Age "+,nge of S%,%e

. Re/len$+$ng Our Energ$e0 T+e Neg,%$e "urren%

2 "onfl$#%13 Se,r#+ for , True )o%$e

11 4,$%+1! ),n5 P6#+olog$#,l 7ungle1& A%%r,#%$on ,nd Re/ul$on

1( Influen#e1* )e'or6

1 Reul% of A#%$on1. 4e,r ,nd %+e 84,le Self9

10 Ignor,n% ),n ,nd Enl$g+%ened ),n12 O/$n$on

!3 E%+$#,l Sene!1 Ide,l

!! "re,%$e S/$r$%

!& Inner Knowledge!( Infle:$;$l$%6

!* N,%ur,l L,w < Inner L,w! T+e 4or#e ",lled Pro$den#e

!. Inner A##e/%,n#e!0 T+e Re,l' of "on#$oune

!2 A#=u$$%$on of S/$r$%u,l Knowledge&3 Our Rel,%$on w$%+ O%+er

&1 D$$$on ,nd >n$%6

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ROLOGUEW+o #,n #l,$' %+e d$#oer6 of %+e $''or%,l$%6 of %+e +u',n oul? W+o #,n#l,$' %+e d$#oer6 of God? T+ee ,re %$'ele #on#e/% e:/reed $n ,r6$ng%er' fro' gener,%$on %o gener,%$on $n u##eed$ng er,< All gre,% rel$g$ou /+$-

loo/+$e of %+e world +,e eoled ;6 ,;or;$ng ,nd ,ug'en%$ng %+oe %+,%/re#eded %+e' $n %+e e=uen#e of %$'e< W+,%eer $ #o'/re+ended %+roug+ e:-/er$en#e ;e#o'e , new for' of e:/re$on ,dd$ng %o %+e u' of +u',n under-%,nd$ng< In eer6 er, %+ere $ need for %+e re-$n%er/re%,%$on of $''or%,l #on#e/%nle +e+, %+e #our,ge %o ,d'$% +$ /re%ene %o +$'elf +e $ rendered $r%u,ll6 uele ;6$% no%w$%+%,nd$ng +$ %reng%+< Gre,% $de, ,re /re,d ;efore u< We ,re ,lw,6 ,%, /er/e%u,l fe,% of endle ,r$e%6< We re,d %+e $'/le /r,6er of D,$d 8T+ou/re/,re% , %,;le ;efore 'e $n %+e /reen#e of '$ne ene'$e9 ;u% we %urn our

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;,#@ %o %+e %,;le ,nd ',@e ene'$e of ourele< In f,#%u,l ',%%er of ',%er$,ln,%ure we ,re w$ll$ng %o le,rn< Fu% %+e 'o'en% we 'oe $n%o ,n ,;%r,#% ,ndu;%le re,l' w+ere we +,e %o dr,w fro' w$%+$n we reen% our own $gnor,n#e,nd /re%end$ng @nowledge le,e %+e %,;le /re,d ;efore u full ,nd un%ou#+edn,w,re %+,% %+e $n%$n#% of %+e ungle,n$',l ,re 'ore /redo'$n,n% w$%+$n %+e'ele %+e6 #on%$nuoul6 ,roue o%+eru;#on#$oul6< So'e l$e $n %+e /6#+olog$#,l ungle w$%+ou% re#ogn$%$on elf-

#r$%$#$' or elf-re/ud$,%$on< Alee/ ,nd un,w,re of re,l$%6 %+e6 w$ll neer ,rr$e,% %+e @nowledge of +ow %o ue ,n$',l $n%$n#%< "$$l$Bed ',n $ ,l'o% en%$rel6l,#@$ng $n %+e r$#+ #on%ru#%$e ue of $n%$n#%< I% $ %+e w$f%e% ',%er$,l$%6 ,nd,#%$on we /oe< A /owerful gu$de $n /reer$ng /+6$#,l l$fe $n%$n#% #,n ,lo ;e/u% %o ue for %+e /reer,%$on of ',n5 $nner ;e$ng< Self-/reer,%$on , we@now $ %+e 'o% ele'en%,l e:/re$on of $n%$n#% eer6 ,n$',l l$e $n #on%,n%$n%$n#%$e ,w,rene of ,//ro,#+$ng d,nger< In%$n#% #,n %$'e our ,#%$on ,ndg$e u due w,rn$ng ;u% $% $ of%en u;'erged ;6 %+e u/er$'/o$%$on of %+e '$ndor e'o%$on< If $n%$n#% were free %o /l,6 $% /ro/er role %+e +,r'on$ou %$'$ng ofour ,#%$on would +,e /re#$$on< In%e,d our o'n,';ul$%$# ,%%$%ude le% %+e'run on %+e$r own ,##$den%,l #oure un#on%rolled< A#%$,%ed ;6 ou%w,rd %$'ul$

w+$#+ ,re $n#one=uen%$,l $n n,%ure we #o''$% ,#% w+$#+ ,re $''or,l or ,'or,lw$%+ou% , ene of re/on$;$l$%6 %+e6 ,re o;$oul6 unwor%+6 of +u',n d$gn$%6nle we le,rn %o ue ,ndd$#$/l$ne %+e w,nder$ng '$nd we ,re of%en $n , %,%e #o'/,r,;le %o %+,% of ,drun@en ',n< In +$' %+e d$#onne#%$on $ 'ore or le #o'/le%e< T+e elf +,;een $n , ene e:%$ngu$+ed ,nd +, d$,//e,red fro' %+e ;od6 %$ll +e ',n,ge%o w,l@ w$%+ou% %+e /reen#e of %+e '$nd< W+en %+e e'$-o'nolen% ;od6 +,/-+,B,rd ,nd d$#onne#%ed $n $% 'oe'en% $ #on#$oul6 e% $n%o #oord$n,%$on$% $ /rof$%,;le %o our $nner ;e$ng< T+ee ,re e:er#$e of ,n $n%er$or n,%ure ,ndeer6one #,n ;enef$% ;6 %+e'< W$%+ /l,%$#$%6 our ;od6 w$ll no% ;e#o'e r$g$d we

w$ll re%,$n %+e ,;$l$%6 %o ,;or; new $'/re$on ,nd %+e ;r,$n $n%e,d of %,gn,%-

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$ng $n re/e%$%$on of 'ere ,o#$,%$e /ro#ee #,n /rodu#e fre+ %+oug+% ,nd#re,%$e $de,< 4re=uen% ,;or/%$on of new ',%er$,l $ ne#e,r6 o %+,% we do no%for' ru% of 'en%,l e'o%$on,l or /+6$#,l ,#%$$%6< F6 /er$od$#,ll6 #+,ng$ng %+e',nner of our wor@ we ,o$d ;e$ng enl,ed ;6 $%< We of%en ,o$d do$ng , #er%,$n

%,@ ;e#,ue $% $ un/le,,n%< Fu% w+,%eer we ,%%e'/% %o e#,/e ,lw,6 /urueu< We ,re $n ;ond,ge %o %+e %+$ng we dre,d enl,ed ;6 %+,% w+$#+ we fe,r ,nd+,%e< T+u %+e6 ;e#o'e , +e,6 ;urden u/on u< T+roug+ %+e deelo/ed under-%,nd$ng %+,% we need no% +,%e or de/$e ,n6 wor@ we #,n d$ole %+e ;urden;e#o'$ng free of %+e #+,$n< W+en we ee@ new w,6 of wor@ ,nd new ,/e#% of$% we #on#$oul6 #on#en%r,%e ,nd $nul,%e ourele fro' defe,%$ng $nfluen#e;u% w+en we wor@ $n %+e lee/ of un#on#$ou ,##e/%,n#e we ,re $#%$' of ,ll$nfluen#e< So'e /eo/le l$e #o'/le%el6 $n ou%w,rd ,#%$$%6 ,nd ,re ,%$f$ed w$%+l$fe , $% $< T+e6 ee@ no%+$ng ;e6ond ,n $n#o'e ,de=u,%e %o ',$n%,$n , #o'for%-,;le +oue , well-fed f,'$l6 ,nd re,on,;l6 good en%er%,$n'en%< T+oe w+o l$e$n u#+ ,%$f,#%$on ,re ,lee/ e$%+er $n /le,,n% dre,' or $n eer-re#urr$ng n$g+%-',re uu,ll6 ;o%+< So'e l$e %o ,#=u$re 'ore r$#+e ,nd 'ore /ower ;u% w+en%+e6 ,#=u$re %+e' %+e6 uffer fro' fe,r of lo$ng %+e'< O%+er uffer ;e#,ue%+e6 do no% +,e enoug+ of r$#+e or /ower< Peo/le on ;o%+ %+ee leel le,d ,'$er,;le l$fe w$%+ /er+,/ , r,re $n%er,l of $nner freedo'< In our #$$l$B,%$on one

w+o $ ',rr$ed ,nd +, #+$ldren $ gener,ll6 #on$dered ,n ,dul%< T+ee ,re %+e=u,l$f$#,%$on for ,dul%+ood ,nd ',n ;el$ee +e +, %+ere;6 '$r,#uloul6 ;e-#o'e , re/on$;le +u',n ;e$ng w$%+ @nowledge of l$fe ,nd %+e ,;$l$%6 %o ',@e +$own de#$$on< Fu% de#$$on $n $%elf $'/l$e %reng%+< We of%en de#$de one %+$ng

%+en #+,nge %o ,no%+er< I% $ due %o %+e #on%,n% effe#% of $nfluen#e %+,% we loe$g+% of our or$g$n,l $n%en%$on< If we l$ed #o'/le%el6 #on#$oul6 we #ould ,d+ere%o our $n%en%$on no ',%%er w+,% d$ff$#ul%$e '$g+% ;e /reen%< Eer6one ,% one%$'e or ,no%+er +, , er$ou de#$$on %o ',@e< Fu% , ',n $ $n#,/,;le of ',@$ngone w+$#+ $ ;orn ou% of +$'elf ,lone ,nd en%$rel6 free of $nfluen#e $% $ w$e %oee@ ou% good $nfluen#e $n ',@$ng , de#$$on< I% $ w+en we ,re %rul6 ,w,re of ourd$$n$%6 %+,% we #,n 'oe 'ore freel6 of our own ol$%$on #,n o//oe $nfluen#e,nd #,n #olle#% our ;e$ng $n%o one ol$d w+ole< A wo',n w$%+ /neu'on$, w,uffer$ng , +$g+ feer< A% %+e #r$$ of +er $llne %+e nure ,w +er $% u/ $n ;ed

,nd ',@e ge%ure , $f /$#@$ng u/ o'e%+$ng %+,% +,d ;een #,%%ered< T+e nure,$d 8W+,% ,re 6ou do$ng?9 T+e wo',n re/l$ed 8Le,e 'e ,lone< I ,' ;u6/u%%$ng '6 ;od6 %oge%+er< I% $ ,ll ;ro@en $n%o /$e#e

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o%+er ,re d$%ur;ed ;6 %+e$r own #on$#%$on %+,% %+e6 +,e en%ered %+e world ,% ,d$,d,n%,ge $ll-e=u$//ed ;6 +ered$%6 for %+e %ruggle of l$fe< T+e6 ',6 $ndeed ;e$n$%$,ll6 l$'$%ed ;6 +ered$%,r6 re%r$#%$on ;u% neer%+ele %+e6 +,e %+e o//or%u-n$%6 %o e:/,nd ,nd $'/roe %+e'< If %+e6 l$e $n %ru%+ r,%+er %+,n $n elf-/$%6$ng

$llu$on #on#ern$ng ,n ,n#e%r,l defe#% %+e6 w$ll r$goroul6 $ne%$g,%e ,nd ru%+-lel6 e:,'$ne %+e %r,$% w+$#+ +,e ;een /,ed on %o %+e'< T+e6 +,e %+e o/-/or%un$%6 %o re/,$r ,nd re/len$+ %+,% w+$#+ +, ;een we,@ $n %+e$r ;lood l$ne ,nd

w+en %+e /o$;$l$%$e of $nner @nowledge ;e#o'e ,,$l,;le %+e /o$;$l$%$e for#+,nge ,re ,lo /reen%< >/on %ud6$ng %+e %r,$% of /re$ou gener,%$on we ',6;e d$#our,ged ;6 our +ered$%,r6 $nfluen#e< Fu% $% $ ne#e,r6 %o f$nd ou% e:,#%l6

w+,% f,;r$# $ our ,nd w+ere %+e we,@e% %+re,d of %+e #lo%+ ,re< We eldo'w,n% %o f,#e %+e %ru%+ +oweer ,nd o we ',@ %+e %ru%+ %o g$e $% , 'ore /le,-$ng ,/e#% ,nd #on$n#e ourele %+,% our ,n#e%r,l %r,$% ,re no% ne#e,r$l6 we,@