My Dear Roommate

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MY DEAR ROOMMATE Characters - Milla-A highschool dancer Jessica-milla's bestfriend Alex-Milla's Room mate Mary-milla's mom John-milla's dad Adele-jessica's room mate Amanda-the blonde model Tom-collage best footballer Nev-Alex's Brother

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A romantic story about a girl in the 17's age.

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MY DEARROOMMATECharacters - Milla-A highschool dancerJessica-milla's bestfriendAlex-Milla's Room mateMary-milla's momJohn-milla's dadAdele-essica's room mateAmanda-the blonde modelTom-collage best footballer!e"-Alex's #rotherChapter1 - On a hot sunday" Yeah back to hell" i said while standing in front of newyork universty and talking on myiphone" Where are you bitch ?"i said" m in my new room!i dont get the idea of changing the rooms every year "" "ow is your room mate?"said" #he sucks her name is adele she is a nerd she is calling me $ess nobody can call me thate%cept you "&&&" What?no way" i said because im the one who created $ess because $ess hated her name$essica" 'hank god you have no room mate "" Yeah!i will" i had no room mate because im the collage dancer who made them win thenationals last year when i was a $unior so they made me have no room mate to focus ondancing!yeah i love that ("need to go to the princpal" i added" )!bye" k was our thing like okay of augutus and ha*el !always of monica and i*ac but kwas our bff always didnt tell you guys that i was a book addict or maybe $hon green fan i dont really know was heading to the princpal+s office when i saw that blue-eyed young man getting outfrom the princpal+s office thought that i have seen him before,nd he was smiling at every one with a sweet +good morning+ and yeah i felt the punch inthe heart which say that i liked him,nd then he left and i went to the princpal" -ood morning "" Oh!good morning miss milla "" You wanted me sir "?" ,haa!i know that you need your space and (((((((" alot of the bla bla about freedom andstuff its like what your boss will say when he will fire you but i was diffrent" You will have a room mate" the princpal said" Wait!what?"said with my mouth wide open"cant have a room mate she will not give me my space&i need to dance everyday&&" added" ,bout she" he said" "is name is ale% "" Waiiittt! a boy???"shouted"know this will bother you but we dont have a place for him" he said " i cant live with him im sorry " i said" m not trying to be strict or somthing but if you dont want to live with him then leave "('hose words came into my ears like knives i cant leave ny universty are you kidding ?#o i said yes and i went to my room to see who my new room mate will be (&Chapter. - Wearing my headphone and heading to "room /." my room ( spent my $unior year dancing in it because i had no room mate that year because thenumber of students wasnt that big i was lucky (((0ut now im not (,s i was opening the door a tall boy wearing a black shirt and a white shortunpackinghis bag and giving me his back"e twisted to see me1verything happened in a slow motion guess you all now what happened (Yeah he is the blue eyes boy" "i" he said" "ey" i said after a while" ,le% "" 2illa "" Yeah i know "" What?" 3or a moment an imaginary thought came to my mind that he was my fan and hecame here to be with me because he love me! im pathetic i know (" 'he princpal told me that your name was milla "" Ohh!yeah" i said putting my hand on my neck thought when i see my new room mate i would fight with him and those stuff but i wasso calm standing in front of my hot room mate ("love the colour of your eyes" he said" Yeah me too " " What?"he said" 4mm(mean i like yours "" ,hhhaa! thank you " headed to my bed and waited((((alot (,nd finally he talked " you dance " ?" Yeah! i do("loved this 5uestion so much dancing was like breath to me " ballet? Or hip hop " ?" 6ethier ballet nor hip hop i dance the free style its a collection of all of this "" 'hats cool" he said " thanks!what do you do?mean your hobbies "(" 3ootball "(" Cool" i added (0eing in the bussines ma$or sucks6ot for evergone here but for those who have hobbies like me i hated this but im here formy dad (O47 C,7 was our company so im here because one day i will be responsable for thisfucking company (8 knocks 89essica comesin and stares at my new room mate like a girl found her charming prince (" "i $ess" i said" "i" said $essica with her mouth wide opened" ,le% this is $ess my bestfriend!$ess this is my room mate ale%" i said" "i $ess "" Wait what?"$essica said" Yeah the princpal said they have no rooms"i said" 4mm( 2illa look i have to go so please dont close the door because i still have nokeys!nice to meet you by the way "" Oh you to $ess" ale% addedas ale% left the room" W"O '"1 "1:: W,# "1???" 9ess shouted" ,le%" i said" Yeah i know!girl he is so damn hot "" 4mmm" i said" Okay its time for our first day vines yaaay ",bout the vines we make every new year a vine about our vacationChapter; - t was 1< pm"e didnt came back and im afraid and i want to close the door i thought he might be atclub or something getting drunkso i was angry like really angry so i closed the door andslept i hate people who dont get rules stuff serious'he ne%t morning ! got ready and called $ess to meet her at the library,nd i opened the door founding ale% sleeping in front of the door" Omg i forget you" i said" ,lee%%!allee%%% wake up ""e was cold" 2illa hi" he said" m so sorry i forgot you im so sorry ale%&"said" 'hats ok you slept and i came late its your right to close the door" he said while gettingup with my help" Where have you been?"said" 4mm its private im so sorry" i added feeling tottaly embaresed" ts ok if you want to know i will tell you "" 6o no its your life im sorry" i wanted to know but i dont know " i have to leave i have leactures " i saidWhile going out and thinking about the blue eyed boy in my room &" 9ess"" i said huging her back" Who the hell are you" a girl shouted!im in a deep trouble that was amanda the college+smodel the blonde girl with the green eyes my eyes were green also but she was way moreprettier than me0ut yeah i dont care" m so sorry " i said" m sorry will fi% you piece of shit touching my body "?"said im sorry what the hell?"shouted" 0ecause you are the dancer and omg the girl on fire you will do anything you want?"#he said" ,mandaa calm the hell down and stop being $ealous "she hit my shoulder that made me fell on the ground,nd some how i found a boy proposing his help i felt pathetic but some how specialbecause that was tom our collage hottest guy picking me up from the ground (0ut that didnt really happen ("e hold my hand and while getting me up he let go of my hand and told me " get updancing machine ",nd amanda was standing laughing right over there i felt embarssed like reallyembaresed,6= '"16'hat happened a sweet ama*ing voice " are you ok milla?" 3rom ale% was surprised like really,ll the collage was staring at usOh wait a minute #',76- ,' "2" 2illa are you ok?" "e reapted " Yeah i guess" i said" You cant hit a girl dumb ass" said ale% heading to tom" ts ok!ale%("said" "i there" said amanda i wanted to punch her but i couldnt" #eriously amanda?are you kidding?" While putting my middle finger in front of her faceand leaving to the libaray was angry really i couldnt even thank ale% & went to $ess and told her about what happened and she said" O2- :O>1111 '7,,,666-::1" with that ryhme of an opening film" #hut up" i said" #hhhh" said the library lady" Okay sorry" we said,nd that how the day was spent at the boring library(( Chapter? -went back to my room i $ust wished that my handsome room mate wasntthere because i didnt like to practice in front of anyone!as i was opening the door i foundamanda sitting ne%t to ale% with her two monkeys 8well!they werent monkeys but weused to call them monkeys me and $ess 8 " "i milla" said amanda to me" "i" i said she was trying to act cute and i hated that if she wanted ale% she can take himand go away i $ust want to practice" are you going out today ale%?"said that because i thought maybe this will make themleave!thanks god it made them leave (" Yeah im going you can close the door i have got my keys" ale% said" Okay" i said " oh so girls we should leave! nice to meet you ale%" amanda said " and you too!milla" she added looking at me from head to toe " ale% " i said " what ? " ale% said"will practice and i turn the volume of the speaker to the ma%! so if that bothers yousorry but thats how to live with" i said" =espite that you are being mean my dear room mate! but i will like to watch! can ?",le% saidWell! i wasnt loving the idea of him watching me dancing ! but i loved the idea of himcalling me my dear room mate"guess" i said"e sat on his bed starying at me with a look like the loom of ansel in tfios when he was inthe pre-funeral didnt love that (,s elastic heart of sia started":O>1 '",' #O6-" ale% shouted" #ame here" i said " i guess we have commons my dearroom mate " he saidOmg omg does he called me my dear room mate again?maybe it was so chessy thinkingthat he liked me but what i knew i liked that blue eyed boy watching me practcing started dancing i felt i was flying! oh well i feel flying all the time but that time it wasdiffrent!i didnt know why ( 36#"1=" O" 2Y -OO=61##! You are good(" ,le% said" Wait what? -ood? 2y dear room mate you are a-m-a-*-i-n-g amanda style "We laughed" 'hank you!ale%("said" :ets watch a movie" he said" What movie" i said" 'he breakfast club" he said " i love this movie" i said " our commons are so many milla " he said " i know " i said#o we watched a movie and then he gone to that place which i dont know an i slept(Chapter@ -waaked up with the same ama*ing voice of ale% saying "wake up milla youhave lectures" for a second i thought we were a married couple0ut yeah! we were $ust room mates (" You came back late!and waked up early how " i said " i have some special gifts you know? " he said " ahaa! then my room mate is a powerfulguy " i said" yeah! 0ye milla "" 0ye" i said ( went to the french lecture in the third floor ! in this lecture tom and amanda was withme! hated this ( walked in the class " oh our school dancer is here " amanda said " are you a belly dancer also?guess in eastern bars they need you " the whole classlauged ! i wasnt that kind of girl to stand watching everybody laughing at her "-41## YO4 ,6= YO47 A:,#'C -7:3716= 611= 'O -1' '",' 1B,2, =,6C17 .B 2 6O' '"1 'YA1 O3 A17#O6 YO4 21## W'" ;B 01::Y=,6C6- # ,7' ,##"O:1 ?B YO4 0O'" 611= ,6O'"17 #47-17Y ! 6O'O6:Y 6 :A# O7 "A# ,2,6=, 6 "1,7'! YO4 ",>1 -O' 16O4-"#47-71# 04' '"1 O61 YO4 611= '"1 2O#' # '",' O61 " i shouted i dontknow those words came from where! but i said them!yeah i did (,ll the class looked at me with their mouth wide opened and "ooohooo" and "ouch" and"omg" was said by everyone in the class i left them standing in front of the door i hittedamanda+s shoulder while walking i was trying to be from mean girls and it did work ( was the talk of the universty i was always the talk but now it wasnt about dancing it wasabout me being that brave (,manda was speechless!tom also ('om kept looking at me during the class was afraid to be honest ('he french class ended but amanda left in the middle of the classbecause she had to dothe competiton stuff 8competition of abilties not the abilites its related to hobbies but iguess out princpal didnt find a proper name its done every year i havent one even onceamanda always won 8,fter class i was heading to my room t hear that voice from my back" ,manda wait " Okay! that was tom (" What do you want?"said " i $ust wanted to say sorry " he said " is this another kind of prank?im fed up okay? You fake couple im really fed up with you" i shouted " no no ! we are not couple " ("dont even care( " i said " im so sorry i know i gave you hard time yesterday " he said with the puppy eyes (Auppy eyes was my weak point (" 6o problem" i said " are you still mad at me?" "e said " no ! im not " i said " you are ! i have a game tonight can you come? Alease? ,nd bring your friend which idont know her name " he saidi smiled ( " i love your smile " he said with the puppy eyes ( figured out after a while that i was asked to come to the game by 'O27eally?am i dreaming?this cant be happening ( called $ess after that she was busy at her history lecture so i went to my room to practiceon my new dance " problem bh ariana grande " 'hanks god ale% wasnt there(ChapterC -seriously hate that ale% ! hate those people who dont follow the rules ! hate those who take life easy !:ike going to collage in the morning because parents want to !-oing to club at night !=rinking alchol (What is life to them?no goals ?2aybe because they are pretty and those stuff they think they have got everything?hatethat ( didnt have lectures today so i opened my facebook account founding that tom sent me afriend re5uest and a mesaage accepted because seriously that was tom our collage hottest boy sending me a friendre5uest &" O2-!W,' , #1CO6=&&& '"11 -,211! 3O7-1'"i shouted i really forgtten allabout the game ( opened tom+s message"you didnt accept my apology then?are you still mad?i reallyhoped you would come to the game!can we meet "?am shocked ('ottally shocked ("e hoped i would come to the game?seriously!me ? really need to respondcalled $ess to come to my room!she came (Ofcourse she didnt beleive and started shouting and saying "omg milla "3inally!she calmed down (" 0ut wait a second" she said " what? " i said" ,manda will kill you " ("dont care about amanda " i told her what happened at the french class#he said i was brave tottaly and we decided that i will ignore tom ('hats weird as hell i know but i didnt like tom to be honest i liked that he is good lookingbut he wasntneither my type nor $essie+s (2y type was the fictional people which werent aliveor the tennis players which werentalso in my collage (9ess had some home problems she didnt like to talk about it ! hated seeing her faking a smile hated seeing her getting hurt i knew somthing happened today and she didnt tell me so iwanted to know" ,re you okay?"said" m fine" she said" 6o you arenot " i said" "ow is your brother?"said"er brother left home when he was 1D! he only talked to $ess (" "e is in orlando!with his girlfriend "#he said" What about your mom and dad?"said " dad busy like usual! mom is busy with her charity parties" she said " good!everyone is okay then("said" Yeah" she said hi**itated " +ll always be beside you! until the very end (Wiping all your tears away! being your best friend (+ll smile when you smile! and feel the pain you do (,nd if you cry a single tear!promise +ll cry too $ess(" We didnt usually say this stuff toeach other or i love you or anything but i felt something lead me to say this maybe $ess+srespond will be fool but im happy i told her that" =ont be a drama 5ueen milla" she said " lets go for a walk " she said! i agreed for sure i thought this might make her feel better (ChapterD - t was french class again!i still didnt know what i will do to that tom but $esssuggested i would ignore him ( entered the class i found him sitting on that desk ne%t to me and amanada behined himas i entred ! " 2illa" tom said" "i tom" i said while sitting on my desk ('hanks god professurmark came hated french but i was good at it the professur was e%plaining a grammer lesson calledA,##E CO2AO#E"e asked tom to correct a sentence but he couldnt" 2iss milla! can you correct it?" "e said to me" Yeah! 2a 2ere allF au marche" i said" 0ravo" he said" ,ll of you will have to work in groups to help each other the e%cellent one will help theweak one" he added2y heart beated so fast which was so weird why would i be afraid?its $ust a group thing iwont be with tom or amanda why im acting weird ? " sam with ellen,manda with helen6ancy with edile'om with milla "W"""",,,'''' 6OO '"## C,6' 01 ",AA166- & O2- 6O & " you must study together from now on!5ui* ne%t lecture!have a nice day" the professeursaid while walking out the class! i must leave the class really fast i walked slowly towardsthe door while tom held my hand i was shocked " milla wait " he said " w-w-what?"said" m sorry really!sorry ("he said" 'hats okay" i said" 'hen" he said" 'hen what?"said" 'he french" he said " i will call you! i have to go" i said" Wait i dont have your number&" "e said" 3acebook" i said while running what i knew later that amanda wanted to kill me ( went to the library!i met ale% honstely i acted like i dont know him" 2illa" ale% said" Oh ale% hi " i said" =o you know where i can find amanda "?What???amandaa???? ,nd ale% ???'he heck is happening here ?"dont know probably with tom or her bestfriends"i said " i $ust wanted to tell her that im not free on fridaycan you tell her please "?"e said"cant!sorry" i said" Oh okay" he said2oment of akward silence" 2illa!can i show you something "?"e said" Yeah sure" i said" Come" he said!he opened his laptop and put the headphones on my head i heard a remi%of human-christina perri which was my favorite and a mash-up between $ust a dream and$ust the way you are which also were my favorites &" Wow!ale% thats cool&&"said"made them " he said putting his cap on which was reallyy reaalllyy cute" ,le% you are good&"said" You have your dance i have my music we can make a great team 8wink8 " omg hewinked!omg &" Yeah" i said" ,nd guess what we are room mates also" he saidWe laughed there was nothing to laugh at but we did (Chapter( -Gopened my facebook!i was e%cited to see any of tom"s messages but there were .messages one from $ess which was weird!we usually talked on cellphone and anothermessage!which was from tom ( opened $ess+s message " 2illa the world is wrong " she said from .< minutes " what? " i said ! she has been typing for along time and then answered with" 6othing "( knew something was wrong i couldnt love sitting doing nothing ( ran to her room i found only adele (" ,dele!have you seen 9essica?"said"dont care" #aid adele" ,71 YO4 C7,HY O7 #O21'"6-?W"171 # 91##C,&" i shouted"#aiddont care & " she said!i didnt have time to fight with her i needed to find $essica ran the whole collage asking about her ! i sent her like /< messages she didnt answereven one & didnt gave up!but i wanted to go to my room to bring the keys because if ale% went outand closed the door i wouldnt go inside the room (While i was going back! i found her (#itting on the bench facing the garden" 91##" i said" Omg where were you?"said again" its none of your bussniess!you dont even care!stupid dancer(" #he said even withoutlooking at me ! was shocked!really shocked (" ,re you okay?"said#he got up leaving me standing alone ! dont why she did that but i couldnt think!her words hit me like knives i sat on thatbench!overthinking and overthinking (" ts okay milla! maybe she didnt mean it "Yeah!that was ale%+s voice (" ,le%?what are you doing here?"said "was in the room and found your keys so i kept searching for you" he said" #o you heard everything?"said"didnt mean to!0ut she might be having hard time! when people have hard time theydont care how there words might hurt another one but they dont mean to" he said "know!but im afraid she is not okay("said" -ive me my keys please("added! i needed to set alone" ,re you okay my dear room mate?" "e said smiled at him and took the keys and left ( went home and cried( ,lot ( dont know why?i knew she wad angry and aad from something&but hell yeah i searchedfor her everywhere & kept listening to music!all night long ((((Chapter-/t has been ; days since me and $essica has talked ( sent her a message saying are you okay she didnt answer ! gave up (2aybe she is angry?or she wanted to be alone ?dont know!i cant even think ( $ust went to meet tom for our studying for the french ( went to the library where we were supposed to meet !" 2iss milla!sorry for being late(" "e said " you are not! i have $ust arrived" i said" Cool! can we study at starbucks?" "e said"will buy for you" he added smiled with a cute " okay " "ow can i smile while my bestfriend is sad ? felt that bad feeling! you dont deserve to be happy (,s we walked through the door saw $essica sitting with amanda and laughing like nothing on the world is happening" 9essica&"said!she looked at me without saying a word " what do you want? " amanda said" 6one of your bussiness" i said" ts mine!tell her $ess" amanda said" 9ess?"said" Okay! i cant take it anymore amanda! 2illa amanda told me that if i didnt gave you hardtime she will tell everybody about my brother story!Well 2Y 07O'"17 :13' "O21W"16 "1 W,# 1D 01C,4#1 "1 ",'1= 2O2 ,6= =,= 01C,4#1 =,=C"1,'1= O6 2O2 ,6= #"1 ==6' =>O7C1! 1>17Y O61 )6OW# 6OW?"9essica shouted" 2illa!im sorry k?" #he said while running" 2illa i guess we should go" he said while holding my hand and going outside"guess we should study another time" he added" 'hank you("said" 6o probelm" he said" 2illa!think of all the beauty around you and be happy" he said" ,nne frank?love her" i said"know" he said! how does he know ? ! i couldnt think anyway ( went to my room founding $essica standing in front of the door" 2illa! im sorry" she said" are you stupid? ts okay im not mad i will never be mad at you! you are my to%ido andim your bow tie" i said8 you are my to%ido and im your bow tie was a lyric from cherlolyd song oath i knew$essica loved her 8"love you so much bestfriend" she said"do more" i said (Chapter1< - '# .D-.!Our school dancing day!oh god i love this day (" -ood morning!ale%" i said" -ood morning milla!i see you are happy" he said" Yeah!its .D-."i said" ,n important day for you?your boyfriend birthday?" "e said"dont have a boyfriend(((("i said " tom?" "e said" What about tom?"said"heard that you are in a relationship with him(" "e said" What?rumors&& 2e and tom?6o for sure("said" ,hhaa"he said" Why are you even asking?"i said" 9ust asking" he said" 4mmmm" i said! i hated saying umm and people who say ummm but i said it (" 'hen what about .D-.?" "e said after a while" ts our collage dancing day!you pick a song and a dance and you contact ma% in theproudcing room to play your song!everyone pick a dance!it will be ama*ing("i said" Woow!will you so something?"he said "Yeah!wait and see((" i said while leaving i was soe%cited!i practeced alot so yeah (While i was going to pick up $ess" -ood luck for today my french teacher" tom said" Oh hi tom " i said" 2iss milla!you know what?those three words changed my whole mood " he said" Oh hi tom ! changed your mood?"said while laughing" 3rom you its diffrent" he saidWe kept looking for each other my heart kept beating so fast (" When will you dance today?" "e said" 3ood court("said " nice choice! i will stay there " he said " i have to go bye" i left! without even waiting for him to say bye back (me and $ess kept going from lecture to lecture seeing people dancing every where! musiceverywhere ( love that spirit (t was time for amandas song ! knew she was a good singer but a shity dancer! i was a good dancer but a shity singer (" 'he hearts wants what it wants by selena gome* by the beautifl amanda ""er voice was ama*ing but her dancing sucked! she kept waving her hands around i keptlaughing !0ut yeah she was cool (,le% was standing ne%t to me !,fter she finished she left all of her fans and came and pushed me a little bit and said" ,le%!will you be my boyfriend?" #he saidWait a minute!"ow?? #he hardly know him!its his second week here omg (" What?" "e said" What?" i said! he looked at me that puppy look !but the sad one (" #ayy yees!sayy yees " all of the people who were in the food court said (f i was in his place!which was impossible but i would say yes because if i didnt i willembarse her (" say yes" i told him (Okay i was tottaly lying ((((( left before he say his answer0ut i heard he said yes (" "OW! 91## "1 #,= Y1#?,6= "OW =O1# #"1 #,Y '"#?# #"1 C7,HY?#"1W,#6' 1>16 120,71##1=" i said and i kept talking about this for along time till ((( " Why do you even care? " $ess said " i dont care " i said! but i did care!i didnt know why but i did care (Chapter11 - t was the time for meeting tom for studying french i suggested going to thelibrary but he insested on coming to my room ! i said okay!it was like two hours till i goto the food court for my dance (,le% was supposed to be out ('om came with flowers" What is this "?" ts flowers?havent you seen any of them before? " he saidWe laughed ("e made coffe ! its weird because he was the guest but i dont care8 knocks 8i opened it was ale% and amanda holding hands (3our of us kept standing" ohh tom why are you here?" ,manda said"came to see milla " he said" 3or studying french" i said 5uickly" Yeah!for that(" "e said while looking down! i embaressed him (0ut he is the one who embaressed him self he lied he came for studying" We came to ask you if you need something" ale% said" 0ut i guess you dont" he added " well!he wanted to ask! i didnt"amanda said" 6o!thank you" i said!what did he meant by saying i guess you dont?seriously ?" :ets go babe" amanda said" :ets stay" ale% said" We were supposed to go to kfc" she said" We can order" he said " i will buy " tom said winking to me!why did he winked despite the fact he lookedcute!butt why?we are not in a relation ship or something!ale% will miunderstand ! waitwhy do i care about what ale% think?why ?" Okay "('ime passed studying french with tom!ale% and amanda sitting over there doing nothingbut watching us and amanda te%ting"guess its ok till now!i have to go("said (" you will do your dance now?" ,le% said" Yeah" i said"will go with you" tom said" 2e too" ale% said!tom looked at ale% in a bi**are way,manda stayed ( was walking with them ! the hottest boys in the collage!every one looked at me !it wasweird (" =ance like nobody is watching" ale% said!i remeber i told him i love that sentence called ma% to play lips are moving-meghabt started ( felt like i was alone ! my hair was flying and all of the people in the food court starteddancing with me (,nd singing i was dancing like i was dancing in the nationals or something!i guess asthey say i killed it ( C"- 1. , week after .D-. " was the talk of the collage!they called me the girl on fire (ts like katniss from hunger games ! she was my hero when i was a teen ! spent the whole week studying with tom french we laughed alot w knew each othermuch more i have gone couple times to his game!he played very well" ts our last time to study together! i really en$oyed it" i said" #ame here! you know what?if i had got an e%cellent mark on the 5ui* will you do me afavor?" "e said" Yes sure!what is it?said" 0e my girlfriend" he said" What?"said! i knew he wont get e%cellent mark on that 5ui* because he wasnt thatgood in french i was really speechless"will count this as a yes! i will better shut up and go study that pathitic french" he saidwhile leaving ! i was smiling ale% came as tom left we didnt talk" You will say yes?" ,le% said after a while"dont know" i said (t has been ; days since i have last seen tom!;days are left for the french 5ui* ! asked his friend mike" =o you know where is tom?"said " so you are milla? " he said" Yeah im " i said" Omg! girl this boy is cra*y about you! he is studying&&can you imgaie" he said" 'om is studying?"said" Yeah he is(" "e said" 'hats weird("said"know right?" "e said" ,nyway he is in the gym right now training"he added" 'hanks" i said while leaving! i went to the gym" :ong time no see " i said" 2illlaaa"he said" Where have you been" i said" #tudying training studying training(((etc" he said" Oh"i said" :ets have coffe" i said " no im sorry i have to study" he said"will another time!but when you are mine"he said while leaving ( seriously cant breathe (7eally ? 2e ? Why ? went to see $ess ! i opened the door seeing her talking with adele which was weird" "ii guuysss" i said" You look happy" $ess said" Yes im!im happy to see youI" i said" #o chessy" adele said" "appy to see you too adele" i said"dont care" she said told $ess what happened#he told me to say yes cause its obvious that he like me ! i was hi**itated ((((" 0ut he wont get an e%cellent mark" i said" 6o he will!for you " she said" :ets watch the break fast club" i said" ,rent you sick of love movies?" #he said"hate love movies" adele said" -uys love movies are cute and not real" i said" 6o!they are you are living one milla" $ess saidWe watched it(then i went to my room founding ale% going out! i really wanted to knowwhere he goes everynight ( followed him i thought i was going to a club or something!but then i found myself infront of a children+ s hospital!as he walked in i asked the nurse why he is here!she lookedat me in a weird way but i needed to know (" 'o see his brother(" the nurse told me" What brother?"i said" "e is brother!nev!who has got a touch of cancer" she saidWhat?ale%?nev?what?what on earth is happening ?Chapter1; -went home!did nothing but thinking! thinking!thinking ( didnt sleep till ale% came !" ts weird!why you are not sleeping?" ,le% said" ,re you okay?"said" m on a roller coaster that only goes up my friend" he said" You are lying " i said"dont lie" he said" You do! you go everynight to hospital and tell me you are going out to hang out! maybewe arenot that close!im not important to you!but at least you could have told me to coveryou when you are out" i shouted" you are(" "e said " what? " i said" 6othing!then you knew! how?" "e said"followed you yesterday" i said" You are smart" he said " can you dont tell anybody?and forget?i hate being an attention seaker"he said" What?attention seaker?you are not( "e is your brother! are you cra*y?whaat is attentionin that?"said"dont want anybody to feel sorry for him!me!us&&&he will be better im trying to let himbeleieve in that "&"e shouted!i didnt answet because i didnt actually had an answer" m sorry" he said" 6o ! its my bad" i said" =o you want to see nev?he will like you!he love to dance alot!we used to dance when wewas in calofornia" he said while that sadJhappy tear fell from his blue eyes" #o you came here for him?"said" Yes"he said"will really like to see him" i said! he smiled ("e showed me some pictures of nev"e was blue eyed also but with gold hair!yeah they were both handsome (0ut i was like a potato!$ust a potato ! saw a picture of ale% and a beautiful lady ! i thought she might be his mom" Your mom is beautiful" i saidd" #he was beautiful" he said" Omg!im sorry"i said" 6o! she is not dead!she is not beautiful anymore thats it" he saidWe laughed" You say sorry alot" he said" Yeah("said" Aeople who say sorry alot are the most pure hearted people(" "e said!i smiled with noanswer because really why is he cute with me?he have amanda ( opened my laptop founding a message from $ess saying" when i die dont come near my body because my hands wont be able to wipe your tearsanymore(i love you so much "(What?i love you?tears?die? What is happening!it was from ; hours ago found myself running along to her room to find adele saying to me" m sorry "(Chapter1? - We kept standing" What?sorry for what?"said#he didnt answer she looked down" #orry for what adele!where is $ess&&"shouted#he cried ( dont know dont know what to say dont know anything" Wheree is $ess!answeerr meee&"said"dont know!she said she will end it today" she said" 1nd what???"said" "er life(" #he said ran everywhere to search for her!i may find her dead or alive really dont know saw everyone running to the ambluance car i knew that $ess might be there#ofainted (((" 2illa are you there?" ,le%+s voice started openeing my eyes" "ey there " tom said'om and ale% and me !n the hospital !2om is here ! =ad also (#omething weird is happening here" 2h sweetheart" mom said crying'he point is i fainted why is she crying?what is happening" Why im here?"i said" 0ecau((" ale% said" You fainted!we were afraid! so we brought you here!everything is fine "'om said inturpting ale%" 2om!dad why are you here?"i said" 0ecause the were worried" tom said!again (" Worried!because i fantied?"said" Yeah yeah you are important to all of us milla" tom said looked all over the room searching for her! if fainted and mom and dad are here!why isshe not here ?" Where is $ess?"said2om+s crying increased6obody answered" W"171 # "17"#"O4'1=" m sorry ale% said" 'hey couldnt save her" he addedmy tears began to fall !3ast and then faster couldnt breathe" A-p-p-please tell me you are $ockingg" i said" m sorry" ale% said started to cry really hard i couldnt see anything from my tears i felt my life has becameto its end" 9ess cant die#he cant told her everything will be okay9ess cant die#"1 C,66'' =11" i said2om hugged me,nd i cried alot'hey gave me aspreen alot of aspreens (i calmed down a little bit'he told me she killed herself the found her dead at the bathroom of the collage!herfuneral will be tommorrow (,le% stayed here all night" Why did she leave me alone "?Why is she being selfish ?Why?i need her ( need herWhy ?#he lied she told me she was fine'o let me not worry used to cut but she didntnow i know she did used not to care about her problems and care about mine all the time! am i the reason?am i?didnt mean to ! can she come back?please ale%( Can she?need her so much " isaid,le% hugged me"will help you in your speech" he said" 6o!i will write it" i said" -o to nev" i said" ,re you sure "?" m fine! i need to be alone("said wasnt fine i was lying but i needed to be alone)now i really have no one#he died ( sat all night crying wont lie i tried to kill myself twice that night wrote the speech dont know from where the words came ! but they came ( miss her (Chapter1@ - ,s they say funeral are for alive people not for dead !"er mom was there!her brother!and father ('hey met on her funeral day ( was like a dead person2y eyes were red"er brother brad came to me and hugged me" ,re you alive?" 0rad said" 9ust breathing "(" #he loved you so much " he said " i did way more " i said"e left (,ll of the people read a speech!it was the time for mine!the last one( ",nd now milla!herbestfriend(" 'he preist said" 9essica young! my bestfriend am such a cruel person was so busy with my probelms and letting her face hers alone#he was the most caring person you can ever meet#he was beautifulher smile could stop wars $ust wanted at least to tell her goodbye'ell here i was there for her'ell her im sorry'ell her everything will be fine'ell her not to leave me alone wish i could call and tell hercant sleep wish she could see that it hurts so deep wish she would care enough to see me smile wish she could hold me at least for a little while wishwasnt this lonely tonight wishcould hug her and keep her so tight wish for once morecould feel her touch wishdidnt have to miss her this much wish i could say sorry for not caring "'hat was my speech! i really hoped she can hear me6obody can imagine how this day passed still miss her miss her dumb voice telling me to cheer up miss her calling me water mellon miss her hugging me miss being happy with her (Chapter1C - =ay.-without $ess ! cant take it anymorecan she come back9ust for a while ? need a hug (" t has been three days since you have eaten anything" ale% said"dont want to" i said"know!nobody wants to but wait if she was here "" #"11 # 6O'' "1711" i said inturpting him started crying"e smiled and said" ts okay!the sky cries sometimes "" Why she didnt tell me she was having hard time?i know we could have solved it somehow"i said" #ometimes people dont like to share there problems milla" he said" :ike you" i said" Yeah((((like me(((" he said2om and dad came" "er mom wants to see you" mom said"dont want to see her" i said" :et her alone ! mary " dad said thought for a moment she might tell me something important" 6o i will go" i said"will go with you " tom said standing in front of the door" okay" i said#he was at the garden" "ow are you milla?" #he said" fine" i didnt want to say that i wasnt fine that i was broken!about to give up!going to fallapart at any moment ! alone and on the verge of tears but fine was so much easier" Why did she do that?" #he said crying" You are asking why?"said really didnt know why but i knew one of the reasons was them" Yes" she said" 01C,4#1 O3 YO4? 27 YO46-? 07,=? 07O)16 3,2:Y?CO6'7O::6-"17?C"O#6- "17 :31?=O YO4 "1,7 21? "17 :31(" i said#he cried and then hugged me which was weird i was completely mean'om whispered that i was harsh goes if $ess was here she would say i did the right the thing ( went back home when mom and dad and $ess+s parents left found an ipod on my bed with a note" :isten Alease (((- ,le% " t was train song calling all the angels and some cherlloyd songs" #he loved cherlloyd" i said,nd little mi% songs which i used to love and some of his mashe ups,nd then i found him coming"e didnt go to his brother"wont go today" he said " no go " i said " no ! i know you need to talkm here for you!talk(" "e said started crying and talking about $ess and our memories and how beautiful was she andhow ama*ing her smile was and why she killed herself ?,nd he told me she is in a better place and i need to focus on my life to make her happyandalot of people need me" 6obody needs me!the one who lobed me ! is dead now("said" 6o(" "e said while he held my hand and kissed me (Yeah he did,le% did pushed him away,nd ran !7an !'o the street i took a ta%i went to the cemtrey ! i sat ne%t to her place'his is first time i will talk to her without her answering me back (Why $ess ?Why did you live me alone $ess ?why did he kissed me ? What about amanda ?What will i do $ess ? ,6##WW1177 2111Why did you die ?Why $ess ? need you ( know you needed me knowOne day eventuallyknowOne day +ll have to let it all go0utkeep it $ust in caseYeah!keep it $ust in casen case You+re missing what you had n case You change your mind! +ll be waiting heren caseYou $ust want to come home will be waiting for you (Chapter1D -spent my night at a hotel ! was weird i didnt want to see ale% thought all night about him=oes he love me ?6o ?=oes he like me ?What im sure of is that i like him0ut amanda ?:ike seriously ? dont know (0ut $ess once told me" 2illa you only live once for hiding you feelings " wanted to talk to him about what happened#o i went back to the room (,s i was opening the door i found amanda+s arms around his neck and they were kissing (then amanda saw me" "i milla" she said left the room as fast as i can" 2illa wait" ale% shouted ran had nowhere to go6o $ess6o friends6o room6o life ( dont know why0ut i called tom!"e came really fastwe went to a french restaurant was really a mess !2ess hair !2ess clothes (" 'om!this place is classy&super classy&cant go there lets go to starbucks" i said"like you who you are" he said with that puppy look ((((( ,m i supposed to be sad about ale%?or about $ess?or happy because im with my dreamcrush ?We went inside the place was ama*ing thought i was in paris or something" 0on$our milla " tom said" #o! you are speaking french" i said" am a good teacher " i added"really wanted to tell you that before but because of circumstances i couldnt"he said" 'ell me what?"said" =uring 'he hell week you lived we took our french 5ui* marks ! got an , " he said" Oh my gosh" i said"told you i was pretty ama*ing" he said smiled ! so it was like talking french and eating in a french restaurant and having , infrench ?"e is cool or romantic (,n awkward silence ((t lasted alot" 'hen?the deal?" "e said" What deal?"said " you?me?together?remember?" "e said didnt answer didnt know what to say0ut that one 5uestion that was on my mind" Why me?"said"e hi**itated and gave me that cute puppy look & "e was shy ?????'om was shyy ???0ecausee of mee ???" 0ecause that day when you shouted at me and amanda you were attractive!brave anddeepWhich is my kind i loved the way wasnt afraid from amanda or meYou was like the mean girls version? Or those teenagers movies you are the hero of thecollage and that day i was only thinking about you!only you ( saw your dancing videos i loved themand how your eyes looked sad and depressed iwanted to know why!i asked ma% about you! or maybe everyone?yeah i did that in oneday(" "e said"like you milla" he added (Okay i think im in a love triangle:ove?i guess its s5uare or something ( like ale% ! ale% like amanda ! tom likes me and amanda liked tom and now ale%ts complicated ! blused because i was really speechless ("dont know" i said" :ove is like a flower-you+ve got to let it grow(" "e said" 9hon lennon" isaid " yeah " he said love the way he knew whom i like and what i do and what i prefer !9hon lennon was an english singer"e was one of the founding members of the beatels (We spent our night talking,nd talking and eating ("e drove me to $ess+s room i will sleep there tonight he asked why i told him because imiss her! that wasnt the only reason ofcourse ale% was the other reason (" You didnt gave me an answer" he said"guess my answer will be " i said " what???" "e said ! he was scared (" Yes" i said!i didnt know why i did that!but i guess i have to choose the people whochoose me (" Omgg are you kidding????" "e said" Ommgg i lovee you" he said"e was blushing ! i was too ("e hugged me and left (,s i opened the door i found adele "you two are cute together" she said" =o you think?"said and while she was going to her bed to sleep she said with a smile" f $essica was here she would have said the same thing "Chapter1G -walked up with the perfect morning message !from my mom (" 0eing deeply loved by someone gives you strength! while loving someone deeply givesyou courage (9essica is in better place now honey "(2y mom wasnt that kind of moms who courages their kids alot !0ut she really made me smile ( didnt thought about being tom girlfriend!he sent me a message that he will pick me up atseven (Our collage was big the buildings of our rooms was far away from the buildings of thecollage !#ome people go with cars!some with biscyles and some on foot !Which was me (0ut i liked it !6ow i will go with tom (Cool ( went down to the garage to go to the lecture!with him (3ounding ale%!amanda and tom standing (" good morning honey" to said while putting his cap on my head!that was cute (,le% looked at tom with the "hate look "" :ets go friends" tom said,manda and tom went to their cars" m sorry" ale% said coming closer tom" -o away" i said" You dont understand anything" he said" Who said i want to" i said" Comee milla" tom said went with tom ! amanda went with ale%We was like on a double date or something ( thought all way about what i dont understand have no lectures none of us had" What about going to the sea" tom said"really needed that" i said " 'he best remedy for those who are afraid! lonely or unhappy is to go outside!somewhere where they can be 5uiet! alone with the heavens! nature and -od( 0ecauseonly then does one feel that all is as it should be "(" ,nne frank!milla+s favorite("ale% said " 'here+s only one rule you need to rememberK laugh at everything and forget everybodyelse& t sound egotistical! but it+s actually the only cure for those suffering from self-pity"it was also said by anne frank i said while hugging tom i tottaly ignored ale%! i thought imust take care of the people who love me after i lost $ess (" You are my cure" tom said" 'wo loving pathetic birds" amanda said,le% left to his car!i dont really care about him maybe i do sometimes but now i tottalyhate him (Chapter1/ - We went to the beach i put my headphones on listening to those demi lovatosongs!the sad ones and the e%citing ones"think you made your greatest mistake i think you really blow it this time" okay i saidthe lyrics of mistake very loud (,le% uderstood me" What?" 'om and amanda said" 9ust a song" i said putting back my headphones" :ets take some pictures!milla" tom said" 1%cuse me?,rent we invited?"amanda said" #ure you are(" 'om said'hey took alot of pictures went to sit with ale% i wanted to know what he really meant this morning" What did you meant this morning?"said" You said you dont care" he said"dont want to be a moran" i said,kward silence" Why did you kissed me! if you love amanda?"said"dont love her" he said" You are such an asshole&you play with our hearts& You kissedme then her& s this a kindof a game?"said"didnt kiss her&" "e said"did kissed you" he added" What?"said" #he kissed me when i told her that i dont love her and i love you milla ! she did that tomake you $ealous ! then she said that if you became my girlfriend tom will bully you&" "esaid"didnt want you to get hurt" he added,manda and tom disappered they went to buy snacks i guess" Why?why is she doing this to me?and why?why are you such a coward&,re you afraidfrom tom "?"wasnt&thought i could protect you!but you said yes to him&i was there!waiting for youto come back i knew you will go to $essica+s room" he said"said yes because of you& 0ecause i like you and i thought maybe i thought if im withtom i would forget you& 0ut i didnt& ,ll this days when i was with tom i thought aboutyou("said" =ont you think i also thought about you?i said yes to amanda because you told me to ithought that maybe i can forget you when im with amanda because you arent for me&"hesaid" What do you mean not for you?"said" 6othing"he said while leaving" 'ell amanda i will travel!i wont i will go to see nev but dont tell her ofcourse" he said ( thought when we started talking that the conversation will end in a magically way thathe will kiss me and we will be together and love stuff (0ut it didnt go that way (((Chapter.< - On the ne%t morning ! thought about how he is not for me?or why ?"think yo must go back to your room" ,dele said" Why?"said" 2y boyfriend will stay here for a week!dont worry he wont touch any of $essica+s things"she said" Okay" i said!i didnt have anywhere to go ofcourse i wont go to tom have no place but my room went there! i didnt find ale% found a note" You can stay here!i will sleep at the hospital (" didnt know what the hell was happening so i decided to go to the hospital to see whatsgoing on ( saw while going insidethe hospital in the garden ale% standing with his mom and a tallperson giving me his back i didnt see his face,nd nev that cute little boy with that lovely smile he didnt have any hair his eyes werelight blue he kept smiling and running around them he was happy (0ut they were dicussing something'hat person twissted"e cant be him"e cant beOh my gosh"e was the boss of my dad+s company !=ad wasnt the boss he was the pre-manger (=ad talked about him all the time!about how mean he was and that he was married but henever saw his wife or children and his son might be the owner one day and ale% dadwanted to fire my dad once because he hated him and they were enimes not reallyeneimes but they hated each other because they used to be bestfriends but because ale%father wanted to be the first always he ruines dads car pro$ect which might have lead himto be the owner (6ow im in love with the son of my father+s enime!-reat ( knew now why he is not for me (Chapter.1 - ,le% noticed me and he told them something and held nev+s hand,nd he told me to follow them with the signs followed (" #o you knew everything" ale% said" Yes" i said" Who is she" nev said" Who are you" ale% said" m milla!ale%+s room mate"i said" "i" nev said" :ets go and sit ! nev go and play" ale% saidWe went to sit on a bench in front of the garden" m sorry" he said after a long silence" Why didnt you tell me?"said"have known when $ess died! i didnt know anything ! i didnt even know that i love you(""e said" #o that why you are not for me" i said" Yes(" "e said" okay milla im a coward im afraid from my father and from yours and im afraid fromeveryone okay? im a coward i cant protect you i cant protect me even nev i cant protecthim from the freaking cancer&" "e added" What will they do? )ill us?are you cra*y&"said" 'hey wont kill us because we love each other ale%&"added"my dad will do it" he said" #o?"said" m worthless milla!you are not mine "(" ts the end then?"said while that stupid tear falling=ont cry=ont cry=ont cry" m so sorry" he said stood up and ran away didnt know where to go i $ust ran ( took a ta%i to the cemetry9ess+s Alace ! found her dad there" are you okay milla?" "e said" m good what about you?"said" 6ot fine" he saidOfcourse he must be"is daughter killed herself"is son ranaway"killed her milla killed her" he said while his crying increased" W",'&"shouted" 'hat day she saw me" he said"e cried more"e sat beside her grave " i was with the woman i cheated her mom with before " he said" -eorigia?"said-eorgia was the woman he cheated $ess mom with in the past and her brother left becauseof that reason" Yes" he said" she saw you then " i said" Yes " he said"know you are older than me and this is rude but please leave " i said" m so sorry" he said looking to $ess"s grave" :eave!please("said"e left i sat ne%t to her" "i $ess#o you saw himWhy didnt you came to me $esswe could figure it out somehowWhy $ess ?You left me alone ?m done=one from everythingm sorry $essm sorry for blaming you for everything$ust couldn+t do,nd +ve hurt myselfby hurting you#ome daysfeel broke inside! butwon+t admit#ometimes$ust want to hide +cause it+s youmissWould you tell mewas wrong ?Would you help me understand ?,re you looking down upon me ?'here+s nothingwouldn+t do'o have $ust one more chance'o look into your eyes and see you looking backfhad $ust one more day!would tell you how much that+ve missed you since you+ve been away "Can we $ust go back time and fi% everything ?Can we go to anotherCountry ?Alanet ?World ?:ife ?Cause this life isnt easy (Chapter.. - t has been two weeks since i have last seen ale% and tom (Yeah about tom ! told him befor i went to see ale% that i want to end my relationship with him since then ! didnt see him3rom a lecture to a lecture (,le% is not my room mate anymore he slept in the hospital the whole time foucused on my dancing to beat my deprissionWhich kinda work ( 'he @< days left fornationals was working on beyonce irreplacable must foucus on singingnot dancing only haf to do some ballet moves worked hard ! studied hard ( wasnt doing this to win or to have a good life was doing this to kill time)ill sad feelings)ill overthinking)ill me0ut slowly!very slowly ( spent my free time in dancing courses'o make a new version of me desiceded to be happy desiceded to work on me6ew me'he happy me'he unbroken me'he not lonely me'he strong me desiceded to 3rown less! #mile more( 'alk less! =o more( Complain less! ,ppreciatemore( 3ear less! :ove more ( wanted to know new people i talked to everyone in the collage'hey told me they loved my friendship with $ess and how ama*ing i danceand how $esshad an ama*ing personalityWhen i saw ale% i acted like i didnt know him he tried to talk once but i didnt respond'om talked to me but not like before,manda became my friend which is so damn weird we hang out once and she told meshe hated being the collage model and this stuff ('his month was the weridesy ever guss i have changed1verything has changed2e and amanda was supposed to go to statbucks,s i was going to the garage to meet her met ale% (" 2illaa" he said" What" i said was mean but wait a second he is the one who let me go" you are missed(" "e said" 'hank you" i said while i was going away" 2illa!nev+s surgery tommorow know i was an asshole and coward but i need i really need you" "e said left ( didnt know what to say or whyWhy would i go and help him ?"e let me go &Why should i go and talk to himOr even be by his side ( cancelled my plans with amanada said i want to go not to do anything0ut $ust sitOkay ( will go to the hospital ((((Chapter.; -went to the hospital to nev+s room didnt see anyone in the roomt was empty2y thoughts was,Bnev is dead0B he is in the surgeryCBi dont know what the hell is happening asked the nurse about them (6ev i mean wasnt coming for ale% or somethingWait! was?" 6ev is now in a surgery pray for him" she said" Where?"said" 'hird floor the second hallway" she said" thank you" she said ran as fast i can took the stairs2y breatgh wasnt that strongto go up on stairs i had some probelms in my lungs so itshard for me because we was in the round floor0ut yeahwent up on stairs,le% was hugging his motherWho was crying so bad"is father wasnt there"ell yeah& "is son is dying and he is not here & went to the end of the hallway to stand beside them" "ow is nev" i said was afraid that the answer will be there is no nev really cant lose three people in the same year (" You came" ale% said while letting go of his mother"is mother smiled at me and said" #o you are milla ! he really needs you" and she left without saying where she was going" "ow is nev" i asked again"e hugged me and he started cryingts my second time to see a boy crying after $ess+s brother didnt hug him backt was too akward !:ike really (We were like this for .< minutesWe sat down'alked nothing"is mother came back nothing happened $ust scilence'he doctor came out of the surgery room really e%pected that nev would be dead i started to cry even eithout knowing whathappened his mother cried because of me" You have the strongest child madame!he beated the cancer(" 'he doctor saidt was kindda funny0ecause ale% mom fainted didnt laugh with voice but inside i was laughing (" 6ev is okay " ale% said" Yeah!nev is okay" i said smiling"e hugged his mom and then meOkay#eriously i forgut everything happneded $ust wanted to be with ale%Yeahlove him,nd i will fight for him'ill the very end (Chapter.? -6ev is okay!ale% will stay there with his mom and nev"e insisted on driving me back to collage'o be honest is was happy because,B nev is okay0B now am with the love of my lifeCouldnt ask for more" #o i guess we arrived" ale% said" Yeah"said" 'hank you milla3or being here i knowi have let you down alotknow i dont deserve youm sorry(" "e said hugged him" 6ever be sorry "said"e hugged me backWe were that cute couple hugging in the middle of the collage+s garage"love you(" ,le% said was going to answer him back0ut tom came from no where"e punshed ale%,le% fell on the flower"e kept hitting him did nothing but staring and screaming spearted tom from ale%" W",'' ,711 YO44 =O6---"shouted" What am i doing ?,re you serious ?You let me go ?3or him?after all of that ?#eriously milaa" 'om said and he left" ,re youu okkaay?"shouted to ale%" m okay !=ont worry(" "e saidWe went to my roomWait our room"e banded his face" ,re you okay?" said" Yeah" "e said" 'hanks god"said" Were you afraid?" "e said" 6o! saidWhy wouldbe afraid about you?"said" ,dmit it! you were(" "e said" 6o "said" :iaaaarrr" "e said" m not"said" :iar goes to fire milla" "e said" Who you do you think you are? "said" 7unning around leaving scarsCollecting you $ar of hearts" "e said" You are not funny"said " am!thats why you love me" "e said with the puppy look2y weakness point"dont "said" You do" "e saidWhile i was saying i dont again"e kissed mets like shut up kiss #17O4#:Y CO4:=6' ,#) 3O7 2O712e and ale% (9ust us!didnt think about tom or even ale%+s father or mine or anyone9ust us (Chapter .@1verything was okay6ev is okay!ale% with himWhile i was busy with collage+s stuff'he princpal called me to talk was afraid to be honest" 2iss milla you are missed " the princpal said" 'hank you "said and smiled" "ow are you? " "e said" 3ine! guess"said" 2iss milla! we know you are having hard time after you friend+s death and you are notpractcing!,nd nationals are soon" "e said" ,re you going to replace me?"asked" 6o!of course no" "e said" 'hen?"said"brought our old dancer2rs #andy!to practice you" "e said"dont need anyone"said" You will need her" "e said"e called his assistant and then that sandy came in" "ello 2iss 2illa" #he said" "i"said smiling#he was kinda cute" #o get ready ladies we have nationals to win" 'he princpal said"reserved a room ballet house for you" "e added0allet "ouse, room for met was like my own studio" :ets go miss milla" #he said smiling" 9ust milla"saidWe went to starbucks to talk'alk about what? really dont know" #o you know me?" #he said" Yeah ofcoursedo"said" 2y story!6ot me" #he said" 6o"said" Okay! my story isnt the kind of i waa born to dance or i danced when i was three or thisstuff2y story is diffrent" #he said" m e%cited to know"said" =ont be" she said smiling a sad smile'hat kind fake smile" Whenwas 1;used to go to alot of birthday parties because our family was big andhad alot of children'hey all used to dance good0ut me ! whendancedwas like a duck,nd all the family girls made me a $okethey called duck sandy'he sad part my parents used to laugh also instead of encouraging me they laughed didnt ask to learn dancing or something becausedidnt want them to know thatwas sadorcare when they laugh or something $oined my school dancing clubf i told you howwas getting bullied because of my dancing skills you will cry"#he saidwith the fake laugh" 'here was a boyused to like at that time he was the school+s best boy"andsome ! cool ! perfect smile and body and a football player"e didnt laugh at me or even bullied me once he used to smile at me"e won the proom king"#he said" 'he who was the 5ueen?his girlfriend" said" Yes,t that time there was a dance that someone must perform before the teenagers choosethe the proom king and 5ueen!6o one liked to do it wasntbullied becausewas ugly!but becausewasnt good enoughat anything#chool ! dancing ! grades (((etc#otold the princpal thatwould like to do that dance practiced day and night2g parents of course didnt encourage me they $ust wanted me to improve my grades wasbullied !lonely !useless to my parents or to everyone ! pathetic !empty and heartbroken0utpracticeddescided to not care about people+s opnion about me or anythingwentafter school everyday to a dancing school ! ,t that time i used to fight alot with myparents but i didnt care" #he said,nd she stopped talking (" 'hen what?"said" 'he proom 5ueen is me'he proom king is my husband,nd 'he best proom dance or the school+s best dancer is me" she said smiling withconfident" 2illa i dont want to show off my life or something but allwant to say no matter howmuch life is sucking dont give up on your dream"( #he saidChapter .COne week separtes us from the finals really have a very competitve eneimes:ike $essica martin from :a collageChristina from saint barbra collage"wont win!m sure(" said" Why?" #andy said" :ook how they can dance they can do alot of moves thatcant do"said" 0ut you do some pretty moves" #he said" #till!no(" said" =o you know that ,rthur ,she once said +#tart where you are4se what you have=o what you can+guess its enough said" #he said"er words are $ust ama*ing love how she can inspire me and make me feel good about myself,nd $ust how she has postive thoughts even that she faced alot of bad things ( went to the hospital to see ale%" "i"said smiling" "i milla" nev said while smiling that smile that e%press how happy he is" -ood morning " #aid ale%" -ood morning"said" Would you like to go on a walk?" "e said" Yeah sure"saidWe went to the hospital+s garden" "ow are you doing?are you practicing well?" "e said" Yeah!=idtold you about sandy my new teacher?"said" =ancing teacher?" "e said" Yeah"said" 'hats ama*ing" "e said" =o you remember that move i always practiced?the ballet one mi%ing with the freestyle?"said" Yeah ! 'he one you tried to do alot""e said" 0ut i always fail! m practcing on it againwant to do it"said"can see you doing that" "e saidhearing people say Li can see you doing thatM after telling them what you want to do inlife is honestly the best thing ever was so happy" :ets go on a date " "e said" What?"said" =ate" "e said"guess its not the perfect time for a date"said" 6o! ts" "e said" 'ommorow will pick you up at; O+Clock""e said" Okay"said smiling"e drove me back to the collage and leftsaw tom sitting on the bench doing nothing" "i"said but he looked at me with no answer"know you hate me now,nd you want to kill me"said"will 6ever think of that" "e said interupting me" m sorry tom butguess we are not for each other and we wont bem sure that there is an ama*ing girl waiting for you out there"said" 0ut$ust want you " "e said didnt answer himwas speechless dont know what to say or what to do" =o you love him?" "e said" m sorry! do " said"e smilied at me that fake smile" 2aybe in another life you would be my girl" "e said" )aty perry" said"$ust love how you know whatlove "said" Yeah!me too" "e said" m really sorry"said" We are still friends right?" "e said" 0ecause if we are notwill need to find another french teacher" "e said smilied" #ure we are"said went to my room to practice a little bit ( ts morning! must get ready for my super duper date with the blue eyed boy !ts .K@