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MMMMeditations in

Third Hour

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BBBBy Anna Anahit Paitian

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political, cultural, and religious life of the society on display

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Presented are private thoughts and inner revelations of the

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Sharing personal experience in utmost sincerity is to have a real charity ; it is about exposing weaknesses and strengths . You never know which ones are dominant .

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M e d i t a t i o n s i n T h i r d H o u r

By Anna Anahit Paitian

Copyright ©2012 by Anna Anahit Paitian All rights reserved including the rights of reproduction in whole or in part of any form.

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The time is out of joint . O. cursed spite, That ever I was born to set it right!

Nay, come, let’s go together.

W. Shakespeare

Observations included the philosophy of the modern world- in all its social spheres.

Post -Soviet Russian phenomenon ; a great nation in great trouble. What is going on in Vatican: take the snake from its head, or it will bite you? USA; a lost national identity. "Je pense donc je suis"; " I think, therefore I am." I feel, therefore I am. I pray, therefore I am. I am, therefore I am. ---------------------------------

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The society of dead conscious , dead heart, and implanted brain of advanced ape, Quo vadis?

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Listen to your heart connected to your mind.

Listen to your mind connected to your heart. If you listen to your heart disconnected from your mind, Or you listen to your mind disconnected from your heart- you will be a victim, or a murderer.

The Golgotha of Suffering -

This is what Russian , all former USSR nations went through daily in Communist regime. This people living in their exclusive hellish environment had created the treasures of art and culture, literature and science.. Every day I used to listen to Dimitry Shostakovich, 6th , 7th symphonies, and I cried with bitter tears, long-long, again and again feeling the immense suffering of the nations enslaved and chained to demonic lies with utmost cruelty… It has been twenty years I live in USA, I can not get healed from the wounds my family , my nation went through … If I see in USA streets or parks, in public area a single portrait of Roosevelt , or even of Washington , or Bush, or any political leader- I won’t live in USA a single day. I will leave this country. The public monuments of USA politicians have only a historical value. Nothing else. No fetish is created in national state, which would belong to free people. NONE! In USSR all environment, cities , mountains, parks- were ‘decorated’ with Communist party mottos and dead leaders portraits –as they would say, ‘This all belong to us!’ Stalin, the personification of the ideology starting from Cain to UN, had engraved following messages in all hearts, walls, textbooks:

- Do you want a Patria ? I am your homeland! - Do you want education? I am your education!

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- Do you want power? I am your power! - Do you want a family? I am your family!

- Therefore, I am who I am: Your only Yahweh !

Why we wake up every day with sunrise?

To go to work to make money? And if we don’t, our life is over, and we slowly die of depression and meaninglessness of the life? That is what this New Age has prepared for us! A rich person does not have anything- mind, heart, honor, virtue- he has money only, from which he thinks he can derive all the rest, which he has not . And when he meets a person with real qualities, the first thing he thinks is to kill this man of honor and virtue, or make him miserable by all means. A honest man of honor is a mirror in which the dishonest man with no honor sees own end. The virtuous woman is a hell for liberal society living in animal sex of a neo-communist paradise. Money making mania is like a drug addiction; you have to have it more and more, or you will die. Holy poverty is when you give away not only from your excess, but also from your necessities. If you don’t know the value of your honesty, your innocence, and your virginity- you don’t have them. They make you into a trash before you know it. Greedy people can not be happy , as people who love bodily pleasures darkening their reason, can not be happy as well. Inner emptiness - is the reward of those, who do not follow after intellectuality and spirituality.

The more you feel elevated and puffed up because of your talent, fame, or a social

status, the deeper you will be crashed down.

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Oxymoron of XXI Century;

Economic freedom is an economic slavery. Love is a Murder. Religion is a Poison. Murder is fun. Men is humanless. God is Godless. As seeds of a genetically modified fruit will never give a seed again, same way the ‘fruits’ of Vatican II’s syncretism will never give a spiritual 'seed' again, mentioned in Luke 8:11. A New Age, with its new religions and economics, is a barren dead corp . The New Age no longer can define ‘SIN.’ The New Age no longer can define ‘LOVE.’ The New Age no longer can define ‘HONOR.’ The New Age no longer can define ‘FAMILY.’ The New Age no longer can define ’Justice.’ False Humanism vs. Divine Rights of human. False Communism vs. Creative Gene of Human. False economic freedom vs. True Spiritual Freedom of Human.

What was the most memorable event of my life?

It is when I was given the IX century manuscript of Gospel written on a calf skin, by Armenian ancient monks. I could read it for one hour , in the basement of Armenian National Museum of Ancient Manuscripts called Matenadaran, by the special permission of KGB, 1989. The guard was with me in a small basement room all the time, when they brought the manuscript about 2.5 feet long , carried by two people. They laid it in front of me. I felt the basement enlightened . For long time I did not dare to touch that breathing book. It was more than a book. I felt it had a soul and heart. I opened the first page ; the skin-page was soft and smelt perfume. I used both my hands to turn the pages. Ancient letters of Armenian language as blossoming flowers popped up before my view,

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turning my inside out- I was diving deep inside myself with a speaking God ; just me and Him. Ever since… In 1900s during the Great Genocide of Armenians , guess what Armenian people used to take with them, when they started their escape from Turkish murderers? Not a gold, or silver- it was the ancient manuscripts , which Armenian families were venerating from generation to generation, and which they brought carrying them for thousands miles to Eastern regions of Armenia, which was under Russia, to save rather the God‘s heritage than own life. This is the nation I belong to!

Whenever we say, ‘Be Your Will!’-

we mean we trust God to lead us, and our trust means ‘obedience .‘ We wake up with sunrise to say hello to angels, to smell the fresh air, to find somebody to say,“I love you.” I see all people as precious creatures of God, who make me immensely happy. I see so much merits in every person, me -as a least of them. Let the punishment of criminals fits the crime- never the less. it is so important, for it saves people from the eternal damnation. There are human rights of human, and there are divine rights of human The elimination of the capital punishment and the ’humanization’ of civil laws are against the divine rights of men.

If a woman belongs to a man, she will become a prostitute,

If a woman belongs to God, she will become a saint. A woman* as a creature is incomplete, and by nature ( Genesis 2:21–24) she sees her continuation in man , in order her to be complete. But when she overcomes her feminine nature, she no longer is bound to a man (as a mean of her completion). It is because she is united to Christ. True freedom and dignity of a woman is in Christ. Armenian language is a perfect example of it. Pronouns do not indicate sex. “Նա

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գ ալ ի ս է -" meaning “He+she is coming.” And this is a fair language to free people from sex boundaries, making them like angels. (*I am talking of normal women, not demonic perverts like lesbians, or sexual maniacs who live for sexual orgasm only, eventually being killed from own pleasure-system of cruelty).

There is the beginning of the life

Now you are young, you think you will be always as you are: happy with your youth. And there is the ending of the life. You are losing all- your vigor, beauty , possessions … Now you are panicked, as all is hitting the bottom. Empty yourself from yourself and start a true life, where there is no beginning and the end! Can you hear the music? Can you see the violet -blue sky? Can you understand that it is open for you?

If I am not in physical pain, I am in thrill , I taste eternity, it touches me soo gently .

God is so delicate.. So delicate… You want to turn into a ray of light to have His Touch… I had lived in Sorrow. I die in Joy. Joy which no one can take away from me!

I saw the holes on ancient stone floor : my tears are making them-

enough ,Lord, my Lord, let me go. Let me leave… Call me Anna of a Seamless Robe of Christ-

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as I spent my whole life looking for it, may be making one with my tears…bloody tears… The synonym of love is loyalty.

Food can be an idol, which we worship.

It is important to know that TV food advertising should be avoided to watch. The devil works to break our fast by inciting appetite through adds. Overweight is a direct consequence of adds which keep the desire for food in our subconscious.

A true Church never can be reformed by men, as Christ can not be reformed .

The dogmatic teaching and worship rituals of the Catholic Church are a divine revelation: infallible, canonized-unchanged. The salvation and damnation is defined already infallibly by the Church too- all you have to do is to obey and follow God. God is not ‘a nice guy’ to play with around! From 1958 Catholic Church ceased to exist, for Vatican II Council with all its popes and curia , hierarchy – is simply demonic. God left that Church , as He did it to Jews, when He destroyed their temple, to Anglicans and all ’reformers-’and now mankind is dying in its sins . And that is a great chastisement described in Apocalypses . Only 1/3 of mankind will be saved , starting from its creation , to fill the place of fallen angels. Which means, yes, one of every million men has a chance to be saved, because of the ancient Luciferian arrogance of rebellion . As the divine Torah was substituted with a man-made Talmud, same way the divine institution of Roman Catholic Church was substituted by a man-made Vatican II Council’s Modernist Gnostic Theology. The result is- ongoing genocides/wars in this life, eternal hell in another. Our fundaments are holy apostles and Christ Himself- whoever built his ‘house’ on the Rock (St. Peter)-

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will never lose the faith. All self-appointed ‘apostles’ will be deprived of faith soon or later and will perish in eternal hell. This is the truth a modern man scorns now, later – he will prefer if he had never had been born. The sculpture “Triumph of Faith over Heresy , by Peter Le Gros, 1666-1719, stands to the right of the altar over the tomb of Saint Ignatius Loyola. Two crashed heretics, Luther and Calvin, are depicted under the feet of the holy Angel of the Faith, all Protestant works and books destroyed. To have the truth is to have: 1. Fundamental principles of Faith , passed to us by our Lord and His chosen Twelve apostles . 2.The doctrine kept in integrity and purity ( as we pray in Armenian Liturgy , “Lord, keep your Church unchanged,” by St. Khorenazi, V AD). 3.The Church, which is sanctifying. (Above statement about truth is a summary of Pope's Leo XIII, Satis Cognitum).

We are led by Christ to eternal life not for our merits,

but for our full knowledge of His merits. And how do I know His merits unless I have myself before God as I am; naked ? “I am a sinner, I am innocent “- this is a model I reserve for myself through that nakedness of a newborn… The truth you have found is false if it is not proven by death and life. It is not that you can quote from the Scripture, agreeing with it, or not- and pretend that you have a Holy Spirit. Holy Spirit should be in you. It can happen only when you know yourself vs. God, and you know yourself in God. “Indeed, the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life." John 4:14

Do not judge lest you be judged.’ Matt. 7:1

"If any one of you is without sin, let him be the first to throw a stone at her." John 8:7

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Above passages told by God can be used by the devil. The devil uses them as a green light for sins, in order the sinners can not be reproached . In fact, whoever has taken the plank out from own eye, has a duty to judge the sinners serving the devil, as it is told by the apostle! “Do you not know that the saints will judge the world?” 1 Corinthians 6:2 “You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye.” Matthew 7:5

‘I f someone strikes you on the right cheek, turn to him the other also.’ Matthew

5:39 The above passage told by God can be used by the devil. The devil uses it to destroy the image of a Christian, depicting him/her as a powerless idiot without any backbone . In fact it means , “Do not be vindictive, and never get even with devil possessed evil men Our Lord never said it is right thing to do : striking the cheek . "If I said something wrong," Jesus replied, "testify as to what is wrong. But if I spoke the truth, why did you strike me?" John 18:23

You have to know yourself , in order to live your own life .

And very often we live other’s life rather than our own, it is because we are seduced into delusions and falsehood commonly presented , and we do not have enough will to get out of that "comfort" zone of shared alike-mentality. When we know who we are, only then we understand who we want to be. And we know who we are when God leads us to temptations. God needs to show us our weaknesses through which we work out our muscle of strength . And when we pray, “Et ne nos inducas in temptation”- we will not be led to temptations only when we know our weaknesses beforehand . And if we are in self-deception and self-denial, God will always send us temptations to open fully the specter of our full capabilities. If you can not express yourself as you are , then you are in prison. Guess what? You create that prison for yourself.

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If our children , grow as they grew in accelerated rate when they were in our

wombs for nine months, then in one-two years God would raise them to the perfect age of an adult . But God had designed us differently . God wanted us to dedicate our entire life to our children . Our eternal aim is God. However, the definition of our earthly life are children.

Sin is something which splits us into two; our lower self, and our higher self.

Our lower self eventually will devour our higher self, if we are not redeemed by Christ. True nobility consists in ; 1. gratia sanans (a healing grace- which makes us into a perfect human ) , 2. Gratia elevans (elevating grace - which makes us into a God in Christ ).

‘Such tender words, like “My life, my soul, my darling” keep for your Spouse ,

not to anyone else . Such expressions are very womanish. I do wish rather you appear valiant and manly.” St. Theres D’Avila, “The Way of Perfection.”

Listen to your heart?

First clean it up, then listen to it! If we don’t clean up our senses, eventually we will wake up in hell. If you can not say to yourself “no-” you are a lost person, with gradual degradation of your humanity. As a wild horse is controlled with a bridle , same way we control our senses with our reason in God, or we are beasts.

This Age is too ‘intellectual’ for Christ.

It killed its own heart and conscious .

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If a natural man is dead in men, how can a supernatural man live in men?

Communism: Definition

‘Communism’ is not about social-economic system only. Communism has to be defined as an uniform mentality of masses which creates own ideology and moral standards which are not rooted in God’s eternal values, but on its ‘leaders’’ delusions. Communism is a scientific definition of Death, as a death sentence of individuality , of a genius substance, free of mass-mentality . In order to confirm this universal doctrine of Death , Communists have to annihilate these great individuals who are in fact the engines of societies. Bolshevism means that mass- mentality of Scientific Death is majority’s choice, and the minority of dissidence should be eliminated . These clandestine norms are defining their legal systems Bolsheviks forced people to change even their family names. For example, my family name “Paitian” was given by Bolsheviks in 1938. I don’t know what is my real family last name. No one knows. And “Paitian” which literally means ‘ Woody-” was chosen, because my great grandfather was owning the woods of Northern Armenia , and they were a royal family , a very popular one, descending from King Vache of Atraxaid dynasty , loved and commemorated by the people up until these days. The local population of Tavoush region nowadays even erected a monument dedicated to royal son Sargis, the last pre-Communist era representative of Armenian Royalty. All archives and ancient buildings were burned and destroyed by Bolsheviks: the castle, the church , even the cemeteries. Today there are only ruins remaining in Tavoush region, where my ancestors had settled after the fall of Great Armenia. Bolsheviks have killed many members of my family, and whoever had survived was kept in abject poverty. They make all to mock us, to hate, and to treat us as dust. I remember it, the sufferings of my father , who was a real noble person; I never heard in my childhood a filthy language or swearing, and I remember him adoring my mother, kissing her hands, loving her tenderly. He died in 1985, Winter. He had a big vine orchard. In the Spring of that year, our vine orchard did not give any green leaves. It was dead too.

The Image of God is imprinted in men as a creativity.

Yes, CREATIVITY!

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You kill creativity in a person, you kill God in a person. Every each of us has a specific genius capability , which we have to let it out. That process can not be motivated by money. It is the ultimate freedom of a man. The ultimate freedom of a spirit in us. We block our genius gene to work when we make it to serve money or self-glory . Divine capacity in us will hide itself, if we are not free – free of all, which keep us in this world chained, hindering us to glance through eternity. To express your ultimate genius gene by glancing through eternity- this is the definition of death, which at this point ceases to exist. We overcame the limits. We are God- with, in God: eternal.

Is heroism dead in USA?

Are there heroes in this society who can stand above own ego and look forward to eternity confirming eternal values? Living with animal instincts, on the animal level of comfort, adjusting all to own standards of twisted humanism , manipulating the notion with misinformation and pervert culture , depriving it from high and sublime- with all these, in a complete absence of a true heroism- this is a lost society, which no longer has a purpose of life.

Love is a deep feeling of commitment and loyalty, meanwhile emotion is an

expression of feelings . It is great when it is an expression of a true love, not a sensual excitement . Purified emotions have high value. Those people who hate and mock the nature of emotion - are dead robotics. They just envy you , because they are deprived of that gift. King David felt to dance naked before God’s Arc - And God highly valued this sincere emotional act. Meanwhile the evil daughter of Saul mocked him, and got punished by God.

If you have a wealth, you have nothing but wealth.

If you don’t have a wealth, you have everything but wealth.

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Love, loyalty , meaning, poetry, flowers, memory, self-respect are looking forward to eternity. To turn a Budget -man into a vagabond violinist - is a task royal highly unanticipated and impossible ! I sell my flowers to all for free- because they blossomed for me, without charging me or keeping me as a debtor. I have to open my windows: The Vagabond Violinist is here…

There is something, which is above your nationality and genetic DNA.

It is our good –will: a Succeeded Identification Ideology. USA is the only country on earth created by good-will people (Jesuitical friars) , to celebrate a good-will. How perfectly they succeeded - doesn't matter? The Good-Will is our national identification now , national ideology, and character.

All we have now to see how long the conspiratorial political parties will go on

serving the ‘conquerors. ‘ We are wrong when we think that these ‘conquerors’ are Soroses, Clintons, Bushes, Rockefellers…. No. It is our brothers, fathers, sisters, neighbors…Close people to our very heart, who betray our sanctuaries. That is the dehumanization syndrome of the century- and it spreads like cancer ulcers .

I was born as Armenian , raised as such- and this identity singles me out.

As an Armenian I feel I am an ancient mammoth ‘s skeleton exposed in museum . Armenian civilization is long gone … In USA we live like soft worms. I am thinking- if I have stayed in USSR murdered by Clinton and damned to hell by UN- I would be better off before God as a soul going through death , deprivation, hunger, and

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humiliation.. To live in USA with pain-killers ,without knowing anything at all about real pain… This people don’t suffer, they are perpetually in Halloween party even when they are in grief.

‘I will not sin , never- even under the penalty of death!’- that is the definition of

human dignity. My human dignity is not measurable by the society standards, or can be assessed by men. My human dignity is granted by Almighty God and no one can take it away from me, but by Almighty God Himself.

The annihilation of Palestinians is symbolic.

Every each of us , who has a soul, is like a Palestinian - they try to take all from us, to destroy the soul and body- they, the handful people, who enjoy wealth and earthly comfort like rats enjoying swage waters- and for them all is for selling and buying. XXI century is an enormous Wave to wipe all human values away . And it hits in a first place those who have spiritual connections and values. I met once a Muslim guy with his family doing his prayer in Griffith Park. We spoke about his issue . He said sadly, “ My home is all I have, and they destroyed it.’ Same way all highly spirited primitive cultures were destroyed; first Christian Armenians, Japanese Samurais, American Indians … I am thinking that the XXI century is a death sentence for Russians ; after all, they killed Russian Soul.

Russian issue is a key to understand the current socio-political life, as it was told

also by Blessed Virgin Mary in Fatima, Spain, 1916. I find the Russian nation to be most controversial : from absolute heroes and human virtues to most low natured- individuals can be found in that society, which is a concentration of races and political ideologies , religions , and culture. And this concentration is not an amalgam as it is created in USA. Russia never dissolved cultures in one, it influenced and contributed to form the individual nations and ethnics, outlining for each own identity and character. Even the uniformed Communist ideology was not capable transform this unique essence of a great Russian nation. Organization, thinking ability, self-sacrifice, are typical to Russians.

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Drinking to death, betraying ,and urinating on the altars are typical to Russians too. The point is- which Russia is alive, which one will live, and which one will die away this time? Russia- coming and going- Tsars’ glory , Lenin’s madness and Bolshevik rage, Soviet military greatness and socialists’ fake paradise : in every phase of its existence Russia has lost and she has found – always coming out as a new entity . No one can predict Russia’s future , or record her past history in complete statements . It would be wrong. Russia is an enigma . There is man , his nickname is Victor Suvorov’s (aka Vladimir Bogdanovich Rezun), who was a KGB agent and a defector, who escaped the country and abandoned the criminal organization, simply because ‘he could not take it anymore;’ Let us summarize what this most important person in USSR history, presents based on his serious and tedious researches. In 1939 Stalin signed a pact with Hitler in Moscow , known as “Ribbentrop /Molotov “ pact. According to this pact Stalin and Hitler should have divided Europe between themselves : Stalin should attack Poland in 1941 from the East , and Hitler from the West, dividing Poland between Germany and USSR. Meanwhile Hitler was busy attacking Europe, Poland, and USSR attacking Finland - Stalin accumulated the Red Army across the borders of Poland, and the navy in Baltic Sea , however refused to attack Poland in the last minute, outsmarting Hitler. Stalin’s real intention was to make Hitler to attack Great Britain , then after Germany was exhausted from wars, to attack Hitler and establish his Chekist regime in Europe. Starting from 1939 more than one million of army divisions with ammunition were transported from all corners of USSR to the Poland/USSR border (Mr. Suvorov brings many sources, proving that this top secret operation of Stalin is a fact, which was kept confidential up until these days ). When Hitler did understand the conspiracy of Stalin (that he will not attack Poland , and instead he turned against him)- he attacked USSR in June 22, 1941. In just couple days he exterminated all Red Army groups and captured millions of tones fuel and ammunition , because imbecile Stalin prepared the army for an attack not for defense . That was the real reason why Hitler could march freely into deep inside Russia, to Moscow in just couple weeks. A professional bank robber and thief Stalin being a petty crook, counted his chances to continue his conspiracy against all his allies and enemies on international level, and at this point, the wolf (Hitler), which he pushed to the wall , attacked him with the utmost desperation of a dying beast. Both wretched sociopaths knew that was their end. Stalin knew that that was the end of USSR as well. After World War II the 99% of USSR was destroyed, 70% of its population killed. Stalin himself was poisoned and killed by another group of conspirators (Khrushchev),

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who continued Stalin’s policy to keep the world in terror : in 1961 the greatest atomic Tsar-Bomb was exploded in far Arctic, causing a huge ecological disaster . The crimes of Stalin and his entourage against the USSR nations and all mankind the USSR Chekist serial murderers always had presented as a ‘legacy,’ using a huge propaganda machine to falsify the history, to annihilate the facts and documents, to present themselves as ‘heroes.’ From the real sources Mr. Suvorov smashes the false authority of Marshal Joukov, presenting his real Chekist face , as a liar, coward , and murderer. Enough to say that it was his army which stepped into Berlin, 1945, May, and it was by his order Red soldiers engaging in mass rapes and loot; every German woman , as young as 3-yers-old, was raped by Red ‘heroes.’ Joukov also stole a huge amount of art works, diamonds, and SS gold. He was prosecuted later and exiled by same Stalin, his partner in crimes , but not for his misdeeds : it is because Stalin has overdone when creating Loukov’s false heroic image, after which the nation started to depict all victories against Fascism to Marshal Joukov, not to Stalin. Ambition clashes is common in every clandestine groups In the end they annihilate each other. How could USSR win the WW2 after all? USSR under the provincial serial killer Stalin never won the WW2. As Napoleon had self-annihilated in 1812 in Russia, because of the exhaustion and degradation of French army, same way for Germans it was impossible to control immense Russia with its cruel climate , in winter of 49 degree Celsius below zero. There was also the real heroic people like Marshal Rackosovski, Marshal Bagramian, Marshal Koniev, etc. great generals leading Russian heroic people to the battle for Fatherland and Holy Orthodox religion. And that was nothing to do with Stalin’s group of serial criminals in Kremlin. Who won the WW2? Stalin, or Joukov who in fact were no more than butchers , stealing and appropriating the glory and names of other heroes? I will tell you who won WW2. The generation of the nobility still present in USSR, who were endowed of a great courage , passing by the academic military schools of General Koutuzov and Suvorov. My Uncle was a hero of WW2. I remember Marshal Bagramian visiting our home . I was a little girl and could not understand much what was happening around me, but I remember the big smile on the kind face of the Marshal, making jokes and laughing with most happy laughter . Marshal Bagramian was the military adviser of Joukov during the WW2, and he was from the ‘Melik’ family , an old aristocracy of Armenian Highlands . I always was proud of the people, who built USSR, not who owned it!

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In late 1970s I was a student in Yerevan State University and was sent to the

remote highlands of Armenia to collect the pieces of a folklore literature . In Zangezur I met old people , who lived the period of Bolshevik Revolution in Armenia, 1920s. They told me that by the order of Lenin the ill patients from the hospitals of venereal diseases were released and the army of Russian syphilitics attacked Armenian villages raping women. There were people in villages still without ears or disfigured faces… The degeneration , dislocation, and the genocide of the Armenian population was a special program for Stalin too, not only for Ottomans . They told me that by the order of Stalin all Armenian Bolshevik writers like Bakunz, Charenz , etc, were arrested and executed, and also that Agasi Khanjian, a very popular leader of Armenian Bolshevik party, was called to Moscow to meet Stalin. Khanjian was shot in Stalin’s office by Stalin himself. They said that if someone was called by Stalin to his office, he/she entered to his office and never came out; Stalin himself executed all of them. By the order of Stalin Tamanian Armenian division was executed in 90% , when soldiers were insisted to take a first blow if German Army on themselves , being armed but with ancient ‘nagans ‘ (WW1 Russian handguns ). I heard this from common villagers who by that time still were living in fear and despair . People told names who served communist murderers, being denouncers, false witnesses . They remembered all these famous butchers, informers, as this story was not their past but a lingering biography never forgotten. I had done so much researches and never came across of this information in official sources. I understand that at least 90% of Communists’ crimes are not disclosed up until now.

Explaining Russian phenomenon : summarizing journalist Maxim Shevchenkos

presentation . This talented thinker, political analyst, describes Russian national existence as a ‘Russian Project’ which can be divided into three historical phases; 1. Imperial Russian led by military Russian Aristocracy , when Russia tended into expansion, and that expansion was accomplished by non-Russians very often, because the purpose of the expansion of Russian territories was not colonial ; Russia expanded its high culture and gave all possibilities to nations to be developed in perfect freedom, which gave them to form their national identities forming the national elite classes as well . 2. The second phase of Russian Project was connected with Bolshevik Revolution and formation of USSR , which can be called a Totalitarian Political Project .

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In this phase the clash between national masses and elites was stopped , and the ordinary working masses were elevated with their dreams as professionals, dreamers, scientists, etc. 3.The third phase started with collapse of USSR, which he calls Bureaucratic Imperial Project; this is a leading power which thinks only about personal comfort and advantages meanwhile controlling all. Bureaucratic Empire is an annihilation of Russia. It is the end of the Russian Project, for it exists because of favors granted to it by some individuals . In fact- it is a bribery in global senses. He confirms that Russia should step into a different third phase to continue her existence as a nation which holds essential values , and it should be done not by the elevation of her ethnic character, by nationalizing her, or by creating Russian national ideologies controlled by cosmopolitiians from somewhere. Russians, having whole experience from own history, can prevent this by creating a Democratic Political Project . And it can be done only when the mottos like ‘freedom’ and ‘democracy’ will be taken from the enemies of Russia , because Russia has its best model of freedom, free market economy, the critical thinking ability, creativity with great talent.. Russia should create the principles of democracy , which would not be deceptive and false, as it is in Western countries. Critical thinking is a mere Russian phenomenon inherited from Russian ancestors , those who fought to profess their faith, to stand for their freedom from government , yes , even the Bolshevik revolution can be an example of Russian free thinking . Russians need a Democratic Code of Principles which would attract all nations with readiness of all to sign under this good -will. The Russian Political Nation can be formed this way and can be led as a victorious historical phenomenon , or Russia will cease to exist.

Whoever thinks that human civilization is about love, sojourns in delusional

falsehood. As a prototype of the human civilization, the story of Abel and Cain shows that mankind’s history is rather about hatred . The problem is who will kill who the first; the unjust will kill the just for the sake of chaos and disorder , as it was the case of Abel and Christ, or the just will kill the unjust for the sake of order and harmony, as it was a case of historical Roman Catholic Church? We live in exceptional society when the demons on loose rape all sacred in ’tenderness’ using all civilized laws against civilized laws.

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The material wealth empties the heart , meanwhile the spiritual wealth is a full and

happy life in God. Blessed poverty is a key to sanctity. How do we define the material ‘poverty?’ It is a lack of basic necessities to extremes . How do we define the ‘poverty of heart?’ It is when you don’t have any need to be connected to anybody or anything and live in God’s presence all the time.

Society which is not ruled by God is ruled by Satan.

To cover up this fact, the mind controllers kill both notions , or unite them in one . Democracy is an ideological psychopathology as Communism is - no difference; both are fictions.

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and all life, Day and all life.. Have you gotten your Day? There are dead, there are living dead - both are useless on earth and in Heaven. Life is something which never stops singing as a flowing river over pebbles, Never stops blossoming as an orchard after the rains in a Spring time, Never stops recreating itself in its lower and higher points - always emerging as a perfection; a Life in God is a Victory in all.

You said- I am angry.

I say- I am never angry. I am aggressive ! If you trespass- you will be buried in a same hole you dig up for others.

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I Am Aggressive! I Am a Power! I Am My Lord’s Truth! I am who I am with I Am Who I Am. Alleluia!

When I drive my car so comfortable feeling myself united to it- I am an idolater .

When I sit in my house- so comfortable feeling secure in my couch - I am an idolater. When I eat, feeling food to be so pleasant- I am an idolater. Bank account? It goes up, goes down -for sure, I am an idolater. When then I am a saint? Whenever I feel I have nothing , I am a visitor, I am just waiting for Him- to leave all behind and go.

‘Idiot’ of Dostoevsky

Nastasia Filiopovna knowing herself, knowing all, knowing the society- decides to laugh at all; everything is for buying and selling- she knows it. Her price given by her owners-hundred thousand ruble- is the price of their own perversion: and she burnt it! She went after Ragojin, knowing that he will kill her, which he did. Her dream-life with Prince Mishkin is not in this life, can not be in this world. This life is not worthy of her. And she won’t be with Prince Mishkin either , an innocent baby-soul which she will not touch either. Gania kept his dignity and did not crawl for money , meanwhile they were burning in fire. She kept her dream in Prince Mishkin intact, sacred.

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Ragojin took her with him for the last orgy to adore her and to kill. And she is ready to be killed, for that is her only desire.

If a Muslim is keeping his Ramadan fast as an offer to his demon, he gets a power

usually to kill/rape those who are not protected from this evil spiritual power. Against all evil power we, Christians, have the Passions of Christ, which we have our connection with through the liturgical seasons . When we augment our participation in Christ’s Grace, we save the world from curse of the evil powers. After long hours of debate with a Muslim guy, who pretended to be ’civilized and spoke reasonable with me- he suddenly sent me a message , and I saw the devil without a mask in him, ’ I could not break you! Now I am told to realize the last thing- to find you, to rape and kill you.” That how powers work. I told him, ’Before you find me, you will be dropped dead, for my God is God, your god is a devil.’ The most evil power of Spiritists are; -Islam Ramadan -Human sacrifices in Pagan, Freemasonic/Jewish occult sects. These evil can not harm those, who are in Grace of our Lord Christ. One Holy Mass offered to God is enough to nullify all powers of evil at once! If you can avoid of evil person, absolutely discard him/her from your life, your sight and memory, for your peace in God (means prayer and meditation) is the most important goal of your life. If the evil man can not be avoided- then look for God’s message in your situation. As soon you understand God’s message and obey Him- He will deliver you from evil. Some times God keeps the enemy close to us to teach us a lesson. The diamond is becoming more precious from the pressure .

Your personal enemy is not God’s enemy.

God’s enemy is your personal enemy. We honor the priest not for his personal merits, but for the office he holds. If we hate the Catholic, or Orthodox, (or both together) priests- we hate God.

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Christ’s Church is a Mystical Body of Christ. It is composed of; 1. Triumphant Church (which is in Heaven) 2. Militant Church (which is on earth). Hell will never prevail the Mystical Body of Christ, as our Lord says, and He will be always with us ( Matthew 16:18, 28). However- the Church will be taken away from unworthy people on earth, as Paradise was taken up from the earth to Heaven, to punish unworthy. Woe to you, O Catholics, who are given much, and who are no more than a fruitless fig tree cursed by our Lord! (Mark 11:12-14) You need to suffer! The wine from the grape vinery which grows on the stone and thorns are the best, for it struggles for itself to survive. Where there is a struggle, where there is fire, there is also a purification of gold passing through the fire. You are so hated by God, He denies you even the suffering. And you die- abandoned from God. Woe to you, Roman Catholic Church, desolated and abandoned! Why? Because you are the measure of faith and judgment that God has assigned for all, including yourself; 'I will punish the world for its evil, and the wicked for their iniquity; I will put an end to the pomp of the arrogant, and lay low the pompous pride of the ruthless. 'Isaiah 13:11

What ‘Allah ‘ means for a Muslim?

It is their Fear turned into Cruelty turned into a Universal Ghost. Our Lord said, “You are the salt of the earth. “(Matthew 5:13) Meaning; in you there are Seven Gifts of the Holy Spirit. It means you have an obligation to go to the people and show an example of a true Christian- not by flattering people, but by showing your true love for Christ (Who is the source of Gifts) . We are salting things to make them incorruptible (skin, fur, meat, vegetable, etc.), we are salting things to make them eatable. Salt is an essential element both for animal food and cultivating crops too.

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“But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled by men.” Meaning: if you lose the Seven Gifts of the Holy Spirit- how can the world be kept incorruptible?

We need very little to be completely happy. It is to be honest to ourselves and to

others. That’s all.

St. Dominic , when preaching to the Protestants, never said , “You are right too”

He called them for public debates, ordering to make a fire , and then taking the Protestant bible declared it to be a trash . He threw the Catholic Holy Bible and protestant false book into the fire. And when the fake book burned, meanwhile nothing happened to Holy Bible- people knelt in shock and fear. That is how Catholics used to work! Same way , when St. Francis Xavier performed great miracles in the court of Chinese Emperor, the Emperor accepted Christ as God and Savior, in one condition, if Rome allowed some changes in holy Mass with the pagan elements of national character. Rome refused. It is better to lose one nation, than all mankind in present and in future, altering the Word of God and abominating it. The same way Rome refused Henry VIII, him, as a founder of sex revolution, who in a state and ecclesiastical level for a first time destroyed the foundation of a family. He had been excommunicated - with him all his nation, who followed him.

In whose name Vatican II puppet ’popes ’ now publicly and openly declare,

“You all are right”- as the absolute truth no longer belongs to God with authority given to Peter, as the key given to Peter is not God’s, but their own? If a man claims the throne and authority of God, it means there is no God’s justice , there is no God’s absolute morals/ faith teaching on earth. In whose name now Vatican acts as a headquarter of UN? Not Christ’s ! Not God’s. In the name of Lucifer, the liar and deceiver .

The faith in Jesus Christ comes from Himself Jesus Christ , when He invites us to

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share His glory showing Himself to us , pouring in us the supernatural understanding of unseen . Unless He grants privileges us with this exceptional grace- we can not belong to Jesus Christ. The Faith in Jesus Christ is a personal revelation of Jesus Christ . Only after this revelation we see His story in Gospel in full and right meaning , we see His presence in the Bible , we see the actions of apostles, and we understand the system of the Church. After this revelation we live in Jesus Christ’s eternal life conquering the death . We obtain the perfect knowledge of God through Himself- Jesus Christ, who does not give His grace equally . That is why He chose His twelve apostles, giving even more privilege to St. Peter, later on keeping this lineage until His second coming , through which His grace flows . And we are like God, in a measure we see God. And we are perfect and saint when we accept that full knowledge of God in Holy Dogmas, defined eternally and infallibly. All dogmatic formulas of Roman Catholic Church are axiomatic , as laws can be precisely in natural sciences, physics, mathematics. Dogmas are revelations from God about Himself, it includes also the canon law of anathemas , the eternal condemnation of those who try to kill the Church and God’s presence in this world condemning souls to eternal damnation. It includes the heretics , who deny the dogmas, the schismatics, those who claim an authority without being appointed by God. The primacy of St. Peter and the Pontiff of Rome is dogmatic ( Matthew 16:18). And as Lucifer had rebelled in Heaven against the Throne of God, the same way Eastern Orthodox and Protestants rebelled against the Throne of Christ , which represents the Pontiff , his Chair in Rome, which, by the direct order of our Lord , was established to replace the Caesar , who was the ruler of the earth. Rome is not a mere city- by Rome we recognize that Christ is the King on earth and in Heaven. By the Chair of St. Peter we recognize that Moses’ legislative authority is carried on. The Eastern Orthodox some cleric land owners inspired by petty ownership lust and greed separated themselves from Rome, after which God sent His angel to strike them, and using Ottomans , Constantinople , which made from itself a ‘seat of glory-’ became the seat of perpetual slavery and woe . The same way in Russia the state political national religion ’Orthodoxy’ gave birth to Bolshevik Revolution , which ideology is spread throughout after, and through socialist priesthood of the church was organized the Vatican II Council. This sect (Vatican II ) presents itself the union of all heretics and schismatic, against which Holy Scripture says, “ And then the antichrist will be revealed, whom the Lord Jesus will overthrow with the breath of his mouth and destroy by the splendor of his coming. “ 2 Thessalonians 2:8 This Great Apostasy time all chosen by Christ are the members of the Mystical Body of

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One, Catholic Orthodox, Apostolic Church, serving God in humility and justice . All of the rest will be cast out. People who are going after their own logic instead of being entangled , eventually they lose the faith. And it is because of lack of obedience to the Church elders and true love to the Lord.

God +1= An Army

By St.Thérèse d'Ávila

Mozart was in a masonic club with his father, insisted and controlled by his

father. Then he left this demonic sect in order to exposed them in his works. The ‘brothers’ of Lucifer went after him and killed him. In past centuries there was no open information about this secret society, and these devil worshippers did all to seduce people deceiving them by all means, especially alluring the special people into ‘intellectual looking’ clubs. Only after being there, and after awhile, they could understand that they are in religious satanic club, after which usually they left. Once the Satanists got the eminent names enlisted , they immediately publicized it using these names for their glory, as it is the case with Mozart and many others. Even now the Masonic Satanists boast, bringing a large list of genius people as ‘freemason’- all is a lie! Enough to say, none of these people ever admitted that they were Masons, or they had ever promoted a Masonic mentality and theory. Ataturk, Lenin, Stalin, Hitler , Darwin, Bush- are open Masons, being heart and soul of it. You will see the freemasons never mention these names , but they boast that Bach, Mozart, Beethoven , Hayden ,etc were Masons- which is a complete fabrication. All great people eventually rejected Masonic Satanic sect, fully denying it. Example ; George Washington lived and died as a true Roman Catholic, after his involvement in that cult. There are authentic information from his confessor priest in record. Freemasonry , Islam, Communism, Pagan neo-religions, Gnosticism , Cabalistic Jewish, Secular Liberalism – all are branches of Satanism. After the information technology , in the middle of 20th century, they understood that their game is over, that is why they created an additional mythology as a new tactic for further global action; 1. The military State of Israel

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2. The worship of Jewish Holocaust . These two political tools are based on Zionist/socialist/Marxist Christianity, and that is how they took over all denominations of social life promoting the myth of the ‘chosen‘ people, to destroy, kill, to spread the Liberal Satanism through movies and culture, to rape all which is sacred, including Roman Catholic Church through Vatican II and its Satanist ‘popes.‘

Was Moses fallible when he wrote God’s Law?

No. He personified God! He was infallible. Were Apostles fallible when they dictated the Holy Gospel- the New Law? No. They presented Jesus Christ . They were infallible. Is Roman Catholic Church fallible when she presents the Gospel and Holy Tradition through St. Peter and his successor, who personifies Jesus Christ? No. For Christ commanded to obey everything He has commanded us. ‘And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age." Matthew 28:20 To reject the infallibility of St. Peter and his successor - it is to proclaim Christ dead, which is a blasphemy .

Catholic “priests,” who are in fact none- Catholic infiltrators, rape innocents and say-

‘Hell will not prevail the Church.’ And it did. The imposter none-Catholic ’pope’ kisses the demons’ textbook (Koran) , bare- feet making pilgrimages to the demonic temples and sites (Mosques, Synagogues), where the sorcery black magic is practiced and say- “Hell will not prevail the Church.’ And it did. The imposter ‘Catholic’ hierarchy invites the pagans, Hindus , Jews, Voodoo witches, etc to the holy place where once was a real Roman Catholic Church, making them worship the devils on the Holy Altars once, and they say- ‘Hell will not prevail the Church.’ And it did. In fact, yes , “Hell will not prevail the Church-” for the Church is taken to Heaven now and it is no longer on this world visibly for these blasphemers to mock, as God did take Paradise up to Heaven too. And what about us? Whoever sees this abomination, feels pain, fights against- is given 100% grace and blessing of the Roman Catholic Church.

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The ABC of the Catholic Faith:

sinners are those who acknowledge own sins vs. God’s holiness and commandments, confess them , reject them and get healed through sacramental grace. Blasphemers are those who know the law of God and the requirement of the Church, yet consciously deny it, not only- they also try to reform the Holy institution according to their orientation toward sin. Vatican II is a blasphemous false council together with all its followers. They are not sinners, or they would become saints, they are blasphemers who over time transform into pedophiles , abortionists , demon worshippers, maniacs of all kind. We see this and proclaim this as a false church working vs. Holy Roman Catholic Church. And that is how “ The gates of Hell will not overcome it.” Matthew 16:18

Being a Creator of all creation-

God presents Himself to us as a Beggar. He denies all His rights of ownership as a Creator. He wants us to grant that Rights to Him, eternally glorifying Him and loving Him , putting Him where He belongs- in a Poverty of our hearts. O how sweet is the union of these two orphans : God and you!

When you see a spirit , you see one thing only in it-

it is good, or it is evil. So the only quality of the soul is evil or good. When you fully obey the Church, being under its sacramental laws - you nullify the evil in your soul, per se. God does it-according to His ‘contract’ with mankind through Christ.

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And what is evil? It is do not giving God, which is God’s.

The Gospel is a Story of Jesus Christ.

Baptism is a meeting with Jesus Christ. Catholic Church is living in Jesus Christ . We don’t worship the words in Scripture, as Protestants do. We worship the Word in Spirit , as real Catholics do. All Gospels are collected , translated and presented by Roman Catholic Church, and there were many other gospels which did not present infallible Word of God, and they are called ‘apocrypha ‘- because the human intervention in them is more than inspiration of God. Same way all Protestant gospels are considered worse that apocrypha- for Luther and Calvin had been led by the devil to pervert the holy texts.

God’s only commandment for Adam was ,‘ Do not eat from this tree!‘(Genesis

2:17). He never said- ‘Obey Me!’ Because Adam was with God, as His friend , and the clause ‘friendship’ includes itself loyalty and respect. In fact, it is based on these two factors. God’s only commandment to apostles was , ‘Listen to Him; he is my Son’ (Luke 9:35). And after Christ chose only twelve apostles, giving them all power He has (Matthew 16:18)- His massage for us is the same ,‘Obey them- obey Me,’ ‘ For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."(Matthew 11:30). Now- are you a creature Adam renewed in Christ, or the lurking snake of Paradise living as a parasite on a Knowledge Tree waiting for your opportunity to stray people?

Why God invites the male only to be a priest and forbids the female for the task

(Num 8:5-26; 1 Chron 23:28-32) ? Because Adam is a complete creature presenting the male and female union in his body. Creating Adam first, God took Eve from Adam’s rib . Eve saw God through Adam, as she sees now Christ through her husband (1 Corinthians 11:3). The priest is sacrificing to God the best for our salvation (spotless, perfect lam in Mosaic Law, Christ in a Catholic Church New Law)-and himself has to be perfect. Eve is subjected to Adam by function to bear his children , and by this function she is equal to God (in her co-creative function) .

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Equality of man and woman is devil’s ambition . Equality suggests priority or exception of priority. God is exempt from both: He does not have ‘priorities.’

Couple days ago my son dropped unconscious for about two hours.

Where would I be, if not God’s direct help, message, and encouragement to go through this treacherous natural law, trusting His Supernatural Power only? With the prayers and helps of my true brothers and sisters I stand strong as a tree no matter how hard the lightening strikes . His life is in danger . I might lose my only son any minute. God’s Message is, “You will only find him again and again and never will lose him!”

Learning the Catholic theology and going to the Mass every morning, as it is a part

of our breakfast, is not enough to be reformed in Christ. It is when we live the holy Faith, which turns us into the image of God , after which streams of living water will flow from within us (John 7:38). And living the faith means just one thing; to carry the Cross of Jesus Christ . When do we ‘carry’ the Cross of Jesus Christ? Whenever we see all in the Light of the Coming World- ready to sacrifice all for its sake. And what sacrifice? God tells us one at a time .

The traditional Catholic interpretation of the passage (Apocalypse, 3-15.” because

you are lukewarm--neither hot nor cold--I am about to spit you out of my mouth..”) means ; ‘Hot’ depicts great sinners who have a great conscience of guilt vs. God’s holiness , and they reach the perfect self- denial as true martyrs. Meanwhile, ’Cold’ depicts those who are in great sins feeling uneasy , troubled, however don’t have a perfect connection with God (the absence of the perfect knowledge of God because of circumstances ). On the other hands, the ‘Lukewarm’ are those who don’t have great sins, know God, yet don’t care about anything , and they are not capable of heartily any feelings- penance , regret, guilt, or love.

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I made some parallels after I met a soldier in Armenia, when the country was in

war with Azeries , Turkish tribes. He was a tankist . He told me a story how once he was in the battle with Turkish whole army all alone with his tank. He was depicting his tactics, how he defeated them hiding between the cliffs, picking up a right spot to attack the enemy. I was so impressed. Then he told me, that it is not easy thing to kill, that killing is against his conscious, no matter what . “ Every time I insist myself to focus and be cold , to be balanced in order to kill, or they would kill me. The thoughts that after they kill me, their brute herds will break into villages and massacre the innocent population too - made me to become a cold blooded focused killer.” I told him then,” No. You are not a killer, you are a hero, for God says there is no greater love than if you put down your own life to save others.” Then he said, ’How wonderful God is! Yes, I make myself into a cold and calculated killer to defend God.’

The truth came to the world for me, I was born for the truth. Nothing and no one can

stand between us! Yes, I hate the blasphemers , as God does! My opponents who don’t understand what is it to kill for God , should be puzzled also of the fact that there are genocides in the Bible , when God orders to kill even whole population (e.g Joshua 6:18, 1 Sam 15:21, 1 Kings 20:42). There is no explanation to this than to consider God’s direct and indirect hints, that we should love our personal enemy and we should hate the enemies of our God, Jesus Christ . Those who hate the most sacred, most holy sentiments, and kill holiness , about which our Lord said, “ And so I tell you, every sin and blasphemy will be forgiven men, but the blasphemy against the Spirit will not be forgiven. “(Matthew 12:31)-these are ones we oath to defend ourselves and others from. Other than this - what explanation do you have for the biblical genocides? Do you blaspheme that God is a butcher and murderer? To be ‘hot’ it is to die for Christ as a hero, To be ‘cold’ it is to kill for Christ as a hero- “I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! “Revelation 3:16

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Perhaps it would be better to confront non-Catholics with a slightly more gentle

spirit? Honey attracts more than vinegar after all? Only whores attract. We say the truth as a thunder and lightening. That is the only way. and it is God's way!

The absence of Orthodoxy killed the Vatican, making it into a sect, into a infirmary

-office spreading the syphilis of heresies . The absence of Catholicity caused the Eastern schism, which made the church private for these heretics, as the church is their own national clubs. This division - schism and heresy is a Highway to hell.

Remember -

The gluttony is the last vice the devil will fight against us before we step into a sainthood. The monastic saints advise us the following very important discipline ; 1.To fast and keep abstinence on Fridays - if possible - a complete fast. 2. Always to reject the food which gives us the most pleasure and satisfy our hunger with basic food as much as we can (like bread and water)- never satisfying the whims of our appetite , especially - 3. Avoiding the variety of food. 4.Keeping our menu the same and basic. Or- we might lose your soul, Men does not live on bread alone- said our Lord, and it is not a figurative statement, it is a direct message! There is no food in Heaven, And unless we kill our appetite - we can not enter into. KILL YOUR APPETITE- Especially do not watch the food advertising on TV- it is designed by the devil to keep you subconsciously in slavery , occupying your mind with burning appetite and imaginary picture of delights of food .

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When I came first from USSR-

I noticed how Americans are profoundly humble people, compared with Soviet people who were proud like demons. I admire many spiritual qualities of Americans, exactly noticing though that sex and gluttony is what them condemn to hell.

We should study the philosophy of Existentialism,( Sartre , Camiu , Nitche, etc),

Theosophism ( Steiner , Blavazkaia, Krishnamurthy, etc), Vatican II, John Paul 2, etc. in order to understand what they are up to. It is us, Catholics, believe that the matter connected to the soul is corrupted and needs to be restored in Christ. They think that the matter in connection with the soul tends to perfection by the magic of evolution, by evolving itself, by itself . We classify the human instinct as animal/inferior and we believe in Grace, through which a man can stand above his natural instinct of sensuality. They think the sensuality is an essential part of their individuality and it itself evolves in harmony with their intelligence, which is a ‘supreme being’ and source of ‘creation’ (the neo-concept of Evolution as a form of Creationism). In biology they are evolutionists, in religion they are rationalists, in social economic system they are communists, in human morals they are liberalists- this ends up with the crowning the homosexuals in a ’holy matrimony,’ with euthanasia and eugenics- with self-annihilation, because they disconnect human from its essential source – God. In fact, it is a self-contradictory theory of fetishism which we call Naturalism, when they start it by worshipping nature, ending up by destroying it, inside the human and outside him.

The Planet of Apes.

I do say people who watch this with full satisfaction of hearts- are damned to hell, for if they are even not religious (do not know God, that is)- still they have a conscious which makes them to feel uneasy and disgusted by the scene seeing human divine intelligence brought down to annulment. There are many cartoons where animals are personified talking like human - but that is figurative. Making a real acting of Apes is conforming a whole ideology behind Darwinism and Existentialism - for propaganda purposes. The same way it is a crime too elevating ’animal rights’ as a social doctrine, training mankind to worship animals with more affection than human have for each other.

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It is worse than watching pornography, which is a mortal sin per se . Doesn’t statistics show that the murderers who practiced the mass shooting of the classmates in schools and other public places were mainly addicted to war games ? The Art , Literature, the Cinema-a culture in general is a spiritual gratification of the individuals , which can be in a level of mortal sin, and if this culture does not purify the senses confirming the best in a man- it dehumanizes mankind, confirming the chaos and a beast in a man.

One time I was talking to a Satanist. He asked me:

-What do you do in Heaven ? -We watch God. It is called contemplation . We follow God’s infinite Intelligence in a form of self-existence, and for eternity we contemplate Him in full happiness , for He is also a Life which makes us to self-exist. Then he said. -O, it is so boring! I am interested only in hell, for the real excitement is there. Believe me- this ’excitement’ started from Planets of Apes. 1. Evolutionism replaces the Transcendentalism , i.e the rebirth of human in Eucharistic union with God, replacing it with Metamorphosis , i.e an animal transforming to men, men transforming to gods . 2. Evolutionism eliminates the Mystery of Redemption and the worship of Christ as Revelation of God in Man, the individual salvation of men replacing with universal

‘perfection’ of mankind as a natural process. 3. Evolutionism eliminates the very concept of God’s existence , therefore the domains where God exists or not exists -Hell and Heaven - is eliminated as well. 4. Evolutionism is a highway to Marxist Atheism in a primitive form , to Agnostic New World Order in an advanced form. 5. It is a Scientific Demonism.

Baptism of Desire; It is a vague, not clearly formulated clause in Catholic Church.

In 1990s there was a war between Armenia and Turkish tribes. When Turks advanced and captured Armenian villages, the Turkish Muslim people looted Armenian houses . Later on when Armenians advanced, Armenian soldiers have found the Turkish houses decorated by the icons of our Lord and our Lady stolen from Armenian houses. When the soldiers asked them, “Why did you need to steal these pictures?” They said, “Because it is God’s picture.”

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Human relationship with God is very complex. There are dogmas, given by God as infallible formulas, but there is a living God who puts dogmas in the people’s heart. Words are just words- God , the way He acts, the way He makes people to be recreated in Him- is behind dogmas. If some body says , “St. Augustine errs about Baptism of Desire-” consider such mentally deranged , for if the saints went behind dogma , they did not mean to contradict or reject- they saw the unlimited capacity of God, which not revealed to all.

St. Thomas Aquinas was very concerned and troubled sometimes when he started

to work , when the great inspiration of God used to take him to even ’unorthodoxy ’ (e.g Baptism of Desire theology, which is a contradiction to Baptism Dogma )- then our Lord appeared to him and said, ’You do just fine.” How can one be so cynic , so self-assured to go deep into a science of God without being called from God for such a task? According to the probability laws if there are, let us say, one case out of 20 millions - then this case can not be normalized .Therefore, Baptism Desire/Baptism of Blood controversial clause of Catholic teaching generally should be overlooked . We preach the Sacrament of Baptism of Water as obligatory- and whoever does not- mortally sins.

The Catholic Church is apostolic and final. It can not be altered and changed in

ritual, or teaching. This statement is the beginning and the completion of our sanctity. Profound Mystery By St. Movses Chorenazi, V AD , The Doctor of Armenian Apostolic Catholic Church (This is an overture chant, opening the canonized Mass of St. Mesrop Mashtoz) A Profound Mystery , Unreachable , without beginning , Which adorns the highest Heaven With the glory of luminous hosts , A Profound Mystery , With mysterious power, Which created Adam in the Image of God Placing him in the middle of Paradise - Now with the sufferings of the Only Begotten We are clad again in the garment of immortality .

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O King of Heaven, Keep your Church unchanged - Keeping the worshippers in Your Name In peace.

What is the secret of being ‘Catholic?’

St. Cyprian did not have any formal education of any kind. When they asked him how come he knows all with utmost wisdom and exactness, he showed the crucifix and said , ‘This is my Academy!’ He was meditating the sufferings of our Lord for 24/7 with prayers in tears. The God’s wisdom is in pure heart, which does penance for all mankind living in the Wounds of our Lord.

When I was a staff producer in Armenian national TV, USSR, I saw in

“Perestroyka” period the National Television was sabotaged and looted. The trained dogs of Western foundations, the agents from Grant Orient and other Masonic lodges -came to replace Communist regime with ‘new democratic directions.’ I remember the ‘new’ director of TV headquarter office called us, the staff editor-producers, for a meeting and said, “ All TV programs of a spiritual national character will be shut down . You think about people as they are elite, in fact they are scum, and you don’t have any right to take that right from them; sensation, sex, crime statistics - that is all they need .“ Meanwhile I was doing a program series on contemporary Art, literature, presenting medieval manuscripts, cultural heritage. He called me and said, ’We will not finance your program. However , you are a talented person and we want to work with you. Do the program series presenting the portraits of great people.” -OK, I said, which ’great people?’

- Investors from abroad,- answered the ’director.’ I continued to do my program on Art and Literature for a year without being paid. Meanwhile, he destroyed all valuable productions, turning the national TV into a cheap casino and soap opera brothel, after which he was transferred to the other ‘business,‘ to the position of better deal. I left the country soon after. With me 70% of the population, including the 100% intellectual class. Armenia could not be devoured by Ottomans , who killed it in body, could not be

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devoured by Communists, who killed it in soul- Armenia was devoured by ‘democrats.’

A human suffering has a mark of eternity, as human sin (denial of God) has a mark

of eternity too. Christ has opened the roots of evil to free our free will from it; we make a choice by choosing Him as our beginning and end , choosing the eternal bliss of Redemption in Him, over eternal curse of free-will without Him. That is the definition of Religion.

God spoke to me in Armenian, when I was 33.

He also told me to learn English. He also told me that Rome is the center of the Church. He also told me to read Catholic saints and learn from them. He also told me that He is in all Apostolic Churches . He also told me to show my love toward Him to all, as He shows His love toward me to all. He also told me to love Church laws and teaching from the heart trusting Him ONLY. He never told me to resolve dogmatic questions . My name is Anna, I am 56, I am 5 feet 4 inches . I can never change who I am in height and age. I can never change who I am in God in height and age. My spiritual age is 23 . My spiritual height is 5 feet 4 inches -which means I can never jump higher than that in God.

Only the beggars can sing from their whole hearts,

making to cry crystal tears those who are simple and pure in hearts . My God is a Beggar , I am a Beggar’s heir - we don’t have anything to lose, and we have only each other. I was an atheist when our Lord called me for holy faith. I was baptized in apostolic ancient orthodox rite. Baptism is a two phase process ;

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1. Penance period with learning (catechumen). 2 .Actual ceremony part-about what St. John Baptist says , "I baptize you with water for repentance. But after me will come one who is more powerful than I, whose sandals I am not fit to carry. He will baptize you with the Holy” Spirit and with fire. (Matthew 3:11) When the Church brings up the Baptism of Desire issue, it means only those, who do penance for sins (a first phase), when the burdened conscious speaks in a person in natural impulse, and by divine inspiration he/she is becoming a part of the Universal Church . It is an obligation for the person to accomplish the second phase , a physical baptism with water , and if he/she suddenly dies without accomplishing it, then the person is given a full grace for salvation by our Lord. When this soul leaves the body it goes through the Blood of the Savior straight to Heaven. Baptism of Blood does not mean that the heathens are included in salvation process without being redeemed by Savior’s Blood , as heretic Brother Dimonds present.

How do we know if we are in God’s grace, or not?

If your life is up and down , and your peace depends on factors you can not detect clearly- you don’t have Christ in your heart. If your life is like one peaceful minute , and there is nothing, there is no one, which / who can destruct you from contemplation and prayer- that is a sign that Christ is dwelling in the most sacred room of your heart. You have your heart- soft, tender, loving all which is divine , meanwhile cruel and ruthless to all which is against the divine (equally not sparing yourself , and others). If your ideal is not in putting your life down for defending the truth in spiritual or physical battle- your existence is useless.

How many times Jesus spoke in public in defense of women who turned into

prostitutes because men dump them? (See the Revelation of Anne Catherine Emmerich) How many times they tried to stone Him, when He stood beside the woman taking the rage of the mob on Himself? O Mary! O Mary Magdalene , a glorious Woman in Heaven , you know what it means when our Lord said, “The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep.“ (John 10:11) Does your priest lay down his life for you, protecting your honor and your life from the

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soul killers? If he does it to Christ , he will do it to you too.

The Great Story of St. Mary Magdalene , The Apostola

(based on the Catholic mystics’ revelations and historical facts) Mary Magdalene was a noble woman , a daughter of Jewish princess and Syrian King. She , with her sister, Marta, and her brother Lazarus , used to have large properties - lands, cities. Mary owned the Magdala Castle, and from 9-years-old she used to live an immoral life, having lovers from Roman officers. She used to have powerful ties in government , lived enclosed, unlike Marta and Lazarus, who went to the public places, met our Lord just in the first year of His Mission and were baptized by St. John. When our Lord went to Magdala to preach, Marta hurried to the Mary’s castle to convince her to come and to listen to the Great Prophet . Mary at that time was in connection with a Roman officer , in the party in her house. After she refused Marta , Marta did not leave. She was humiliated by these arrogant people, yet, she went after Mary asking her to come and see the remarkable Prophet again and again. Then Mary yields to the tears of her sister. Here she comes ; all in gold and flowers , carried by men , accompanied by high rank Roman officers. They put her ’throne’ on the grass, in the middle of gathered public , and she was sitting there looking at Jesus, who was teaching the masses . She was captured of the beauty of the Rabbi . Then suddenly Jesus turned His Head to her and looked at her in her eyes; she lost her conscious and dropped . Her entourage tried to bring her to herself. After while Jesus looked at her for second time - and she dropped unconsciously again. Three times it happened. Mary suddenly felt like she is being shocked from her fancy attire: it was hot, she sweated and felt dizzy, fainted, and was incapacitated . She pulled out from herself all her ornaments , the head decorations, and with flowing hairs , she collapsed on the ground in the flowing rivers of her tears. From that moment on she followed Jesus every minute, every minute weeping the river of tears. She was a great harm to the reputation of Jesus, for all knew her as a whore, who had prospered herself in connection with enemies. She was not only a whore, she was also an enemy of the nation. Jesus loved her with a special love , for Magdalene was His first work as a new creation , and as such , she was precious to Him. Mary was loyal to Christ . She should see Him every minute, and when she lost Him

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from her sight- she went into coma, looking like dead. Mary was a first monastic contemplator, mystic, confessor . It is to Magdalene whom He appears first after resurrection. After Lord’s Ascension, Mary with many Christians , emigrated from Palestine, for according to Eusebius (A.D 263-339) the state forced them all out. With her brother Lazarus , sister Martha, Mary Salome, Maximus, Sidonius, Mary navigated to Massilia, France, where she lived in Grotto for thirty years, and the population around that location knew her as ’Saintes-Maries-de-la-Mer’(Saints Marys of the Sea). She did not eat for thirty years, praying only on the high cliff, where every day twice the angel came down, taking her up, and the Heaven was opened for her to see our Lord. Maximius used to go to the grotto to provide her with Holy Communion. The place where she died is called Saint-Maximin. In 1295 Pope Boniface VIII had found her tomb, which they used to hide because of attacks of Moors , and when they opened the grave stone, they found an inscription -letter verifying that the body belongs to Mary (‘Hic requiscit corpus Mariae Magdalenae‘), they found her hair , blond , long, preserved fully, and they found the skin intact, in circular shape, preserved on her forehead ; it was the part when our Lord touched her, saying , “Noli Me Tangere.“ Was the harlot of the Gospel, whom people tried to stone, St. Mary Magdalene? Yes, it was her. Remember, she gave up all, and was going after our Lord in tatters and tears , and the Lord with apostles used to venerate and honor her as their true sister, a saint rather. This fact irritated the evil people, who tried every time to remind the public Mary’s infamous past , to make a public scandal , to discredit our Lord’s public mission.

What death meant to medieval people? Nothing!

They confessed to the priests , any time ready to die for Patria and Fidei. Look at now the contemporary people! They don’t have anything sacred but their attachment to their cats and dogs. Even serial killers/rapists are granted to live a ‘happy-ever-after-life-sentence,’ for there is no more a notion of ‘honor,’ or ‘bravery.’ All is gone . In five minute, whenever my TV was on, I recorded: ten times food adds , four times sex-pornographic contents, two times car -related visual/vocal announcements . Swage water explodes on my face!

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Last year I found a duckling in the corner of the street where I live.

I took it in. It loved me as I was its mother, did not eat but only from my hands , could not sleep but with me only. I put it in my furry hat and placed on my pillow next to me, because it was ‘whistling‘ her heart out, when I left it in bathroom, or in patio . During the night every second minute it lifted its head from the hat, opened its eyes to check if I am still around, and if I was not around to be seen, it miraculously flew with its whistles to find me (even though it was yellow , newborn, with no wings) . What a torture it was for me… This duckling enslaved me with its love.. The next day I called the animal shelter, and the officer in a big track came to pick it up, crossing some 30 miles from Orange County to Hollywood - just to pick up that little duckling with this big story, which I will never forget. Do I love my Creator as this little duckling loved me? A duckling , perfect as it is, had shown a lesson , that we oath to present our species in a perfect way too, as we are created.

Remember, naivety is not an innocence .

Naivety can rob the innocence . “Therefore be as shrewd as snakes and as innocent as doves.” Matthew 10:16

About Governance ;

A good Eastern Orthodox priest is a good man. A good Catholic priest is a walking angel. The Holy Matrimony is not for controlling passion-you have to be pure to enter into Holy Matrimony, as to enter into Holy Orders . Sexual passion is a demonic possession in, or outside the marriage . If you are lustful - you have to live in absolute celibacy until the grace of God heals you, making you pure, by cleaning your senses . The vocation of the priest is predestined ; one is born to be a priest - or else it is a universal catastrophe.

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Eastern Orthodox schismatic church is a house with walls without a roof, or

door; it is incomplete, meanwhile the House of God is a secure and a perfect edifice- with Basis (Apostles) , with Walls (Tradition ), with Roof (Perfection of Dogma), with Door ( Living Christ), with Key from the Door (Vicar of Christ, the Monarch ).

When God ordered to anoint the King ( first time it was Saul ) - He established

also a social system of Monarchy, promising to work with the Monarch, to rule with him. Since then all earthly kings are anointed by the Church. The democracy , the ruling system of all, a system which defines laws by the majority ‘votes’ - is a mythological monster Saturn , which devours own children, devouring civilization, making impossible for social kingdoms to be a Kingdom of Christ on earth. Democracy, as a manipulation system, becomes possible with the public media, technology , when the invisible Monarch starts to dictate his mind and will through propaganda and agitation , making his will as a will of ‘majority.’ It is a pure demonic control.

If there is no pope, there can not be a Church.

The Pope is a ruling power of a divine discipline, legislation, and sanctity, for he is given an absolute power of God , to present it on earth for mankind. God is a Father (Creator) , the Pope is a Father (presenting Creator). Whole mankind depend on him. He is gone- all is gone. That is why - we have to pray and sacrifice day and night that may Christ spare us, that may the Almighty Chair of St. Peter be restored. Or else- we all are lost . As the Chef Priest in ancient temple of Jerusalem used to go inside the Holy of Holies, and only he could do so- and there he could speak to God in Clouds, the same way the Bishop of Rome, the Universal Ruler of Christendom is a direct channel of Almighty. It is a fact that every pope in history saw Christ at least once in his earthly life .

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I can not understand this slavish mentality of those Catholics who are loyal to the

hell and devil presented by Vatican II heretic popes. Why do you limit God’s power making Him as a slave to Vatican II demonists? I direct my words to the Catholic true priests and bishops? After God anointed Soul as a King, He repented for doing this, because of Soul’s betrayal. Imagine this almighty powerful king , a tyrant , who kept all in horror! God called Samuel to annul Soul’s anointment , and to go to find 16-years-old David, and anoint him as a king. How great was the rage of Soul ! He went to kill David and God. Where is our Samuel? How can you limit God in Vatican II heresies , allowing the abuse and torture of the Lord when He was chained in Pontius Pilatus’ basement? Is it not a pain for you to see Him so miserable? Do you give your life to unchain Him? I am just a woman, who had shed all tears she had. Better to die!

The religion is a worship, a ceremony .

God has to be worshipped in ceremony. He ordered it to mankind Himself through old and new covenants . Ceremony is a high level existence, which is pure spiritual . When we see the parades of Nazi armies, or Soviets’ armies, or their celebrating masses- those are ceremonies too, trying to show the absolute power of men or an ideology they worship and present. The same way, in sacred ceremony we declare an absolute power of God, in fact God descents into these ceremonies to be present there. It happened in old Jews temples too, when God sent fire to take up the sacrificial lam right from the altar, and all saw this supernatural phenomenon every year . When native pagans do ceremonies dedicated to demons, same way demons come to be present and take the people into trance, talking and directing them. It happens in Masonic ceremonies: in upper level cults Satan appears and talks to them. In Christian religious ceremonies Jesus Christ directly interacts with His people, if the

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ceremony, religion is canonic . ‘Canonic’ means saintly, pure, unchanged God’s establishment , through apostles, which ensures that any other filthy spirit will not mingle with Holy Ghost . The ceremonies of the Roman Catholic Church are its Seven Sacraments . It is a pure mystic interaction with Holy Trinity, if the religion ceremonies are: 1. apostolic, 2. orthodox , 3. catholic - exactly as our Lord taught us in Gospel and in Holy Tradition. There is no sanctifying grace without Seven Sacraments of the Apostolic Church, and there is no salvation without sanctifying grace.

‘The apostates, the self-righteous, the teachers of error, the pretended reformers

..tore and divided the seamless robe of the Church. He (Christ in His agony) saw innumerable others who dared not openly deny Him, but who turned away in disgust from the wounds of His Church, which they themselves had helped to inflict. They like the Levite passing by the poor man that had fallen among robbers. Jesus saw them abandoning His wounded Bride the Church, like cowardly, faithless children who forsake their mother in the dead of night at the approach of the thieves and murderers to whom they themselves had opened the door.” From the prophecies of Venerable Anne Catherine Emmerich( “The Life of Jesus Christ.“ Tan, volume 4, page 94)

The Icon which Saved Russia from Fascism .

When Hitler’s army had blockaded St. Petersburg, Moscow and Stalingrad, USSR was on the verge of complete annihilation. In 1941 Stalin ordered to organize a national procession with miracle -worker icon of the Blessed Virgin of Cazan, circling three times around the city. The national procession with the blessed Icon took couple days, and by Stalin’s order, it was repeated three times . Starting from 1942 Red Army broke the circle of blockade . From 1943 Russian armies marched all the way to Berlin, in non-stop assaults.

My Cousin, whom we used to call ‘Uncle Pavel.’

We used to call hem’ Uncle,’ for he was a son of our Great Aunt, living couple blocks away from us, and there was a big difference in our ages. Not only- he used to be my Chemistry teacher , a big authority and intellectual inspiration to all of us. We lived in a county , in about ten kilometer distance from the capital city.

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Uncle Pavel used to go to study in Pedagogic Institute of Yerevan. Every time he started his stores, we, children, lined up around him, for he was an absolute artistic narrator, with such a passion, humor and colors; every his story was a life-lasting classic book story for us, or as it was a good movie. Usually he told us about the gangsters of the villages , which he crossed every time when went to University. These guys, uneducated scum, used to steal all he had; lunch money, his skirts, ties, even books . The character about whom he often told us was a chief -gangster named ’Burd’ ( translated “Fur “ for he was very curly). The interesting thing was that every time he reached to the part when culprits started to beat him, my Uncle Pavel laughed with such a brilliant and loud laughter and humor , as it was the best thing ever happened to him. We all laughed with him, picturing mentally the red-curly-big headed Burd so vividly presented. It was like we were watching an adventure movie. In fact there was a deep sorrow and pain Uncle Pavel went through his orphaned childhood, making all horrors of it as an ‘adventure,’ to make possible to bear them. What a strong heroic soul he was! And we know nothing about it. Years later, after I immigrated to USA, one morning when I woke up, and before I got out of bed, I heard clearly the same brilliant happy laughter of Uncle Pavel so loudly , sounding from the sky, above- direction. That amazed me a great deal. Immediately I took the phone and called Armenia, to my sister. I spoke to my sister Laura, and the very first thing I said, even before saying hello to her, was, “How is Uncle Pavel? Is he ok?” My sister was surprised and told me that all are ok, and Uncle Pavel is just doing ok: busy running his school as a Principal . Then in six months I got a call from Laura, who told me that they detected a lung cancer in Uncle Pavel, and that cancer is as old as six months, “ Now they try to do all possible to keep him alive.” In a short while my Uncle Pavel passed away. I used to write long letters to him about my conversation to God from Atheism, and about all the Good Lord had done to me. My sister told me, “ In his dying bed, Uncle Pavel asked for nothing but for your letters, which he used to read over and over again.”

When I was converted to Catholic Faith , my natural family, my sisters, three of

them, who were Communist leaders in high positions - were very angry with me. Over the years God ‘beat them up’ the way He knew , sending punishments,

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disappointments , personal life crisis , then in about ten years the ‘ice ‘ started to crack and melt . They were baptized , and I used to instruct them form the distance - I , already in USA, they- still in Armenia. Everything it seemed fine , they were back and forth in faith- it was very difficult for them to think and live like an eternal-God’s being transformed from a ephemeral-

Lenin’s-creation. Then suddenly one day, about five years ago, the news came that two of my sisters have colon cancer . One of them, Zoe, who was also older than me for couple years- actually was my childhood’s friend , my sister-mate. We spent whole life-childhood together in our happy-poor house, playing , singing , quarrelling, running barefoot in our large county property . I knew she was devoted to God now. I instructed by phone talking to her every day, and she completed all my instructions; hopefully at that time a Catholic Armenian monk and priest from Argentine visited Armenia, and my sister went to see him; she confessed, she had received all necessary Sacraments. I was fasting for her, praying to God day and night for her recovery. I do not remember a single case, when I had asked God so ardently, and I would have been refused. For He was so good to me all the time, and we were like daughter-and-Father from the minute of my conversion. The last time I called, I spoke to my sister. It was evening time. She was OK, and she was putting on her the beautiful party dress I sent for her, being ready to go to a family reunion -party. I was so happy. Then the next day, I got a call at four o’clock in the morning from Armenia in my Los Angeles apartment, hearing a news that she passed away that same evening . The shock I was in- was lethal . I screamed , like a beast- almost having lost my human appearance and conscious. When I came to myself , I saw all neighbors around me. How long my beastly mourning lasted- I do not remember? First time in my life I turned my head from my God with a such pain in my heart - having all these heavy feelings for Him. My faith was shaken. Greatly shaken! For a long time I could not reconcile with Him. When one day, my only living sister Elmira told me that my sister-mate, Zoe, before she died she was practicing a Russian occult religion of some popular psychiatrist . She told me that after Zoe started the ceremonial part of that ‘religion’-that very day she was seized with abdomen terrible pain and was taken to the hospital. Then the cancer advanced without halt.

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I was shocked . How God is great ! How infinite is His Mercy! How stupid I was do not trusting Him! O my Dear God! You took away my sister to Heaven when she was ready to go- knowing that she would lose her soul, for she was so naïve and lost, if not Your ultimate precaution . Soon after my sister-mate died, in couple months my elder sister Laura, who used to be a Communist party Regional Secretary, died too in a full grace of Catholic Church . And she was one who always used to encourage my sister Zoe to go against me, against God’s will, mocking and discrediting all I used to tell them. My elder sister Laura was an atheist preacher and highly intellectual person working for the devil for her whole life. However, I always admired her brave and strong character, her intellectual vigor and natural honesty- the qualities, which God eventually used to save her. When I depicted Laura as stiff-necked to one of my Christian religious sisters , who lives in Armenia , and who also was taking care of Laura in her last days, she told me: -I don’t understand what about you are talking. Mrs. Laura was a most humble soul I have ever seen. She used to go to the Church only barefoot , she used to do all I and the priest told her. Obviously, you don’t know your own sister. WOW!

I saw my sister-mate Zoe once in a vision.

She was so beautiful , as I saw her when she was 16. She wore a white dress, with creamy fresh roses across the hem . I spoke to her, “Zoe, you are so pretty!” She smiled shyly, bending her head down, and then turned and went on. I have a feeling my elder sister is in Purgatory . Or may be she is in Heaven too, for before she died she used to burn in fever about a year. That was her Purgatory she passed with ultimate heroism. I have a such a great hope. I know God’s love and mercy - it is strong than anything else . Nothing can come between us- no Communist party, or a modern religious Satanism- I lost once and found my sisters for eternity.

My only living sister, Elmira, is an earthly angel now.

She is an extremely balanced person - never believing in evil in the people, rather ignoring evil in them, or looking for excuses for them to be such.

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An amazing soul! From the Communist leading professional she transformed into a mother of all . She is a business woman now running own stores, with her husband and son. All of them are people of high morals and characters. In USSR time, she used to be the director of the chemical labs . Here is their names ; My Laura sister- crowned with the branch of laurel in Heaven. My Zoe sister- Zorikus in Greek -meaning “Life”- returned to her eternal Life in Christ. My living sister Elmira- El Mira -‘peace’ in East, waiting for the Sign in Heaven from the East.

My father, Sergio, died when I was 26. He died in exact day and hour I was born,

February 16, at noon. We used to have a big vinery, which he cultivated for years. That very spring, after we buried him, the vine trees all were dead too, and none of it gave green leafs anymore . We called a bulldozer to even up the land. That was my childhood : dead. Starting from that point I died; who was me- my natural self-was no more. And then Christ appeared to me as a Light, and I hear the sweet-floating Voice coming from me, inside of me with enormous light enlightening inside me and around, as it tried to take me up. The Voice said, “ I AM A FIRST FLAG.” I am a first Victory- I understood. He is a first and ONLY Victory over all. In that moment I entered into Eternity.

When I was working for a national television, Armenia, USSR, I used to have an

access to the old manuscripts’ archive. Here is the story I remember from one 14th century skin -book. “ There were desert fathers living in remote area, and one day a monk saw a gangster dragging a woman , and beating her up, for she resisted him , and he tried to rape her. The monk hurried to help the woman. Another monk saw this all from his cell too, and he thought , “ Why should I interfere ? May be she deserves it, and it is God’s punishment for her.”

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The monk who went to help the woman was killed by a gangster, who killed the woman too, after raping her. In couple years all four met each other again; the murdered monk and raped woman in Heaven, the cautious monk and the gangster- in hell.”

There was another interesting story.

“The desert monk, a very famous by his sanctity and virtue, was living close to the village. People were going to see him, and he used to help them with his prayers , healing all, advising, directing all. One day the lion came from the depths of the desert and devoured the saintly monk. People were caught in terror, thinking how unjust God is. Knowing who was his confessor, all hurried to ask him a question, ’Why would God punish such a man with such a cruel death?” The wise confessor said, “ The saintly monk really did not have any sin, but one. And that is why God sent the lion to devour him for that sin.” What will happen to us, who have so many sins? God grants us our life to waste it? Or may be he sends invisible lions of heresies to devour us, and He observes how we resist them? From the outcome of this battle it will be decided where we will spend the eternity.

I can never be happy in this world unless I see Jesus Christ glorified duly on all

High Altars of churches around the world- Let me see it, o Lord! Or let me go! Roman Catholic Church’s priests stabbed our Lord in the back, using as a ’knife’ the Vatican II heretical Council . They are guilty of patricide . Eastern Orthodox Church’s priests stabbed Roman Catholic Church in the back- they are guilty of matricide, when they betrayed the Mother Church . Protestants stabbed the Lord and the Church from the back-they are guilty of patricide and matricide. In fact- All of them are guilty of deicide. One can not get a Sanctifying Grace and Christ’s Friendship unless one refuses to take part in above mentioned murderous, treacherous institutions, and one truly belongs to the Roman Catholic Church, if stays on the foundation of Rock – St. Peter. It means entering the Christ’s Church from the door, not a window. It means protecting and honoring the Mother.

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What about the Jews, Muslims, pagans, atheists, etc - are they guilty of deicide? God is speaking in their hearts more than anybody’s (if one grew up in such culture)- if they listen to His Voice, they enter into the Roman Catholic Church in Jesus Christ eventually, if not- yes, they are guilty of deicide. Catholics can not be revolutionaries . Definition ; Revolutionaries are elements who use the set of just principles to revolt against the authority, but they never live the same principles in the name which they fought . Fact: during the 1917 Russian Bolshevik Revolution the motto of equality, happy life in Communism, extreme honesty and nobility of a Communist as a super-being, was inspiring many and promoting them to be real heroes. After Stalin came to the power 1930s all true believers in Communism were arrested and executed. Some people use the true principle to advance not in truth but in lies- than this enterprise is from the devil. The result of Christians’ ‘revolutions’ against Christ and the Church, eventually ends up with their spiritual death, which is the harvest for the devil.

Knowing Christ from Gospel is not enough.

Loving Christ accepting all deprivations - is what proves your union with Him. Only a spoiled and retarded child would ask God for good food, good weather, and enjoyments of life. The real friend of Christ is bleeding with Him on His Cross every minute . As a mother, I can not forget the suffering of my own child, how can I forget the Sufferings of My Creator. O NO! My pain, as well as my joys , are coming from the Lord. My heart is united to His Heart- whenever I feel pain for the dire situation of the Church, it is His pain, whenever I feel joy, for the approaching Lord and His closeness- it is a true Joy of our Union. I do not have any personal relationship with anybody to be angry or delusionally happy , unless that relationship is spiritual and does not have any human feelings in it. You are a good person, truthful to yourself and God- I respect you. You are a deceitful person with no life in you and with no connection with God- I ignore you completely. Never mind my personality- for it does not exist. I am a Thinker and Confessor. I dedicate my life to restoration of the Mother Church- If you make it an ethnic /national club- you are guilty of deicide. If you make it into your own private chapel - you are guilty of deicide. If you make it into a public Roman Bath- you are guilty of deicide. …

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I die and resurrect every week; every minute I do one thing only- I wait for Him.

The fundamental truth about fundamentalists is-

fools are happy do not knowing their own idiocy , meanwhile the wise never can be happy, well knowing the idiocy of fools.

I was talking to one of these Vatican II modernist ’nun’s.’

She was brainless like a hen, enraged like a dog, soft like a worm. They treat ’the pope’ as he is their god. If the pope says, “You have to have a sex with a donkey everyday before you go to bed to get a sanctified grace”- she was ready to do it without questioning. You can not imagine how evil this people are! O , perhaps, you can. After all they raped about 10,000 altar boys around the world. In III century the Emperor Decius ordered all Christians to pay respect to the Roman pagan pantheon, whoever did not- was tortured and killed. Later on these apostates repented and the Church refused to give them an ’amnesty,’ until Pope St. Cornelius issued a decree that they have to do severe penance for the rest of their lives , after which he was embracing them back to the church, because these people denied Christ upon unusual circomstences : under the fear. There can not be any excuses for Vatican II heretics . They are worse than Arians, Nestorians, Protestants, Freemasons, Gnostics, Communists, Muslims, etc- all heresies together. They sold their souls to the devil, because their UN - ‘pope’ ordered so! They have a ‘cozy’ life in monasteries, with all kind of perversion and filth hidden behind walls , a sordid life worse than secular people have in the world - and it is all what they need. They don’t care about Catholic Faith. They are paid only for their ‘Catholic’ appearance . “Elijah answered the captain, "If I am a man of God, may fire come down from heaven and consume you and your fifty men!" Then fire fell from heaven and consumed the captain and his men.” (2 Kings 1:10) Where is the Roman Catholic Church of the saints I am looking for? And where is my rights as a civilian to practice my’ freedom of conscious?’ The Mormons have their temples to worship, the Muslims are provided their mosques to worship, etc- only we, true Roman Catholics of a great Tradition are branded as outcast without any rights to worship as we do .

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Somebody forces us to eat from the spoon to satisfy our hunger, telling us that it is a right food for us, in fact it is nothing but somebody’s excrement . If this so-called pope have a trace of a good conscious, he would give us, True Catholics, churches and apostolic succession with its true Bishop for our worship, in dogmatic infallible apostolic teaching- as it was for thousand years before Vatican II sect . But- NO! He will change masks instead - when he needs- he is a Modernist, when he needs- he is a Traditional, when he needs- he is a Muslim, when he needs - he is nobody , when he needs - he is a ‘pope.’ He is here to kill our souls , torture us, drink our blood like a vampire. What a bloody theater!

Where do I have to look for my ancient family and land, as a legitimate heir of a

noble King Vache of Armenia : my home- my sacristy is gone, my temples, castles, orchards, churches destroyed, looted, burned to the ashes, my land is gone -drenched with the blood of its owners who do not have even graves - the hyenas had eaten them to the bones, smashing the consecrated cross -stones of their sanctuaries to the powder, all traces had been erased, and their heroism with their legacy is buried in oblivion? Where do I have to look for my Sacred Altar, the sanctity above all in this life? It belongs now to the people to whom nothing is sacred, nothing is sublime; everything is for sale but my tears and chains through which I am nailed to the memories of past and to the vision of future. The hyenas, the wolves with red eyes are looking for the last man to devour on the Mount Ararat. On the Mount Ararat the flood is moving to the top, I see the summit so close- I embark my ship from the side, which no one can see.

In Armenia I had a neighbor , an old woman, who immigrated to Armenia from

France. Her name was Haikanush. She was born in Turkey (in fact- it is Armenia, occupied by Turk barbarians). During the Great Genocide of Armenia the French Protestants helped her to escape. In France she grew up in an orphanage of Protestants, once being an Orthodox Catholic , proselytized by Protestants as a Protestant now , when I met her. She told me her story. She was marching with her mother and brother , with Armenian caravans, people taken from their towns and villages, and forced to move on through the desert, through an endless road. The Turkish guards were escorting them from all sides. Then she heard the guard talking

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to her mother, “This is a prayer time , we will stop here for a pause, and you will pray with us.” Then she heard her mother saying, “You, Turk , I will not pray your prayer, for I worship a different God.” “ Will your God protect you when I split you into two?” told her the barbarian Turk. After that the guards ordered the caravan to move , and Haikanush with her brother too started their move, meanwhile they ordered the mother to kneel with the hands tied behind. Haikanush then depicted how Turks killed her mother. On her march every time she tried to look at back, the guard whipped her. “I did not hear a sigh or a cry, or any sound coming from my mother’s site. I heard the swishing sound couple times, and I knew they sworded her down with strikes . I could feel her blood flowing …I got the devastating feeling then that I was an orphan at that moment on, a motherless child of nobody.”

My dear Lord Christ the King,

I give my will, my mind , and my heart to your Holy Will , submitting them to Your Teaching of the Holy Roman Catholic Church and to Your Vicar. Accept me as a humble devotee of your Vicar, if he is there chosen by You, about whom I am ignorant. If there is no a Vicar presenting Your Will, and the Chair of St. Peter is empty, seeing our sufferings and tears , I ask you to rise a great saint to act in Your Name crushing the enemies of Your Church and reestablishing the glory of Your Militant Roman Catholic Church. It is a big scandal for me to see the indifference and idleness of those bishops who only depict the destruction of your Church- refusing to act in the last battle as Your soldiers . You say , “ The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep.” (John 10:11)- There is no one to lay down his life for us, therefore there is no ‘shepherd’ for us, a true people of your Only Church, through which we receive You, we live in You eternally glorifying You with Father and Holy Ghost for ever. Amen. Your humble maid -servant : Anna of the Seamless Robe of the Lord Christ the King.

My dear Lord Christ the King,

I, unworthy as I am to bear your Name, and I bear It because it was Your wish to make me so- now I am in a spiritual agony because I try to be loyal to You. I have come to You so close, for You guided me to Your Holy Roman Catholic Church, which taught me to be perfect as You commanded me to ( Matthew 5:48). Now being washed in Your Blood, as a former pagan, I see Your pretended Vicar acting worse than a

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pagan, serving not one, not two, but multiple masters: world’s mammon, pagan ancient serpent, Jewish antichrist, Islamic Jinns, Hindu demons, etc. as a lunatic who is possessed with legions of the devils (Matt. 8:28-34; Mark 5:1-20; Luke 8:26-39 ). If this visible hierarchy of Roman Catholic Church, which we call Vatican II sect, is Your heritage- by obeying them I should return where I came from- back to the sin and spiritual death- therefore according to this fact- You don’t exist , all is a deceit about God and the meaning of life, and this saintly life in God does not make any sense at all for this world. Here I am, a spiritual orphan of Yours , ask for Your help - show your Face and Power to your enemies and spare me, a dying child of Yours, who wishes nothing but to see herself as a martyr with her blood shed on the cornerstone of Your Church. Your humble maid -servant : Anna of The Seamless Robe of the Lord Christ the King. You said: ‘The Son of Man will go just as it is written about him. But woe to that man who betrays the Son of Man! It would be better for him if he had not been born." Matthew 26:24 Take me with You, for I am loyal to You, never capable of betraying You- as You created me such. And seeing Your Vicar stabbing You in Your back , which is a crime worse than that of Cain’s. For they kill God in us in Your Name.

When I ran my first computer software program, I was jumping from joy seeing

my own creation , which acted as it has a brain of its own. Imagine how much we should appreciate God’s creation in every person - seeing in every one an ’ Ecce Homo! ‘ Why God loves us so much , more than He loves the angels of His Kingdom? Because we are capable of suffering and tears- and He is an absolute Mercy. In this point , our Hearts are being as ONE. And you have to pray for it boldly , as Jacob (Israel) did when he fought the angel forcing him to bless him. Pray like this, “My Lord , I am asking You to make me a saint, which means You can grant me all necessary qualities to please You. To be a saint not for the name’s sake, but for the readiness to be a victim soul and a martyr, if You please, for your eternal glory on earth and Heaven. And be it according to Your Will. Amen. “

It is what you really believe in, what is inside you what matters.

If you are fake, people will ignore you, but if you really are persevering in faith and truth, which you adopt uncompromisingly - then you are a real enemy of satan. When you do one thing only – to please God only, the satan thinks, ‘Ha! I will break

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you’- and he sends his people to ‘soften’ you, making you ‘nice,’ ‘political,’ ‘moderating’ you, making you to ‘love’ with facial oily expression only – in many ways to ‘break’ you reducing the power of your truth into a logic only, the divine capacity to move the mountains into publicity flyers.

There was four social revolutions led by Lucifer:

1.Before Creation, when Lucifer rejected to bow Jesus Christ the Incarnated Man, calling Him “animal.” Inciting a revolt, he with the 1/3 of the angels tried to capture the Throne of God, and St. Michael Archangel had thrown him to the abyss of the hell. 2. Social Revolutions starting from France (1787), when Lucifer was released from the hell, before the Great Judgment of God, to gather the people belonging to him, whoever repeats with him, “I will not serve Jesus Christ in the Roman Catholic Church!” Catholic Monarchies were destroyed completely. 3.Social Revolution in the Roman Catholic Church by Vatican II with the leadership of Judas , an Apostate Apostle from the Hell. In 1886 Pope Leo XIII added to the Mass a special prayer to St. Michael Archangel for the protection of the remnants, as St. Michael had done it in Heaven. 4.Sexual Revolution in USA after Vatican II, in 1960s. This last Luciferian revolution is the synthesis of 1 & 2 & combining the enslavement of mankind in body and soul for eternal hell.’ This Concludes the Human Biography on Earth.

How do we detect if the person is a freemason?

Not by looking his name in memberships’ lists. From his sudden outburst of anger when one do not expect it. The dark souls are organized as one only to unite their power of darkness to fight the light. Every ray of light, expressed truth irritates them to insanity. (note: it is a mandatory discipline for a mason to control the anger and look oily -smiley, or else they will be shown in their true colors of demoniacs).

I used to have a notorious friend , a mason of 33 degree, in Albuquerqu , NM,

who promised to pass his large inheritance to me, if I had given my daughter to him for adoption. The answer was, “NO.” Then he screamed on my face, “Are you one of them?”

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“Them-” who? He never answered me whom he meant. He died soon afterward, leaving his millions to the Scottish Rite Lodge. What a “brotherhood!” Where the power of ‘brothers’ depends on money-underhand- exchange and on execution of those who are “..one of THEM.” If you don’t understand all nuances of freemasonic demonic spirit- you will become its victim. Only Holy Dogmas of the Holy Roman Catholic Church shields you from the ruse of this Scientific Cainism. Nothing else.

“Wherever you go, you will be known as Catholic because of your face“- that Mason man told me once. Why? My face practically “erupts from drama”- as Dickens would say? What wretched species these people are- looking for signs, symbols, idiotic hints ! I have one sign only- HOLY CROSS- On my forehead, On my neck, In my heart. There are Worshipful Masters in freemasonry , who are in fact pagan priests . And who is the ‘bishop’ of these priests? Before it was a secret, now the secret is out; the Vatican II popes are the real Popes of Freemasonry; Paul VI, John XXIII, John Paul Less, John Paul Great, and Benedict XVI. This is their Secret- [OUT!] To make a story short, in 1962 ‘the gods’ decided to keep the ‘elite’ in Masonic secret lodges, in their rituals worshiping the deities of own grandeur, and the ’sheep-’ the idiot mob, keeping where they are- in their churches, synagogues, mosque to worship whatever they mean, as they are taught .

The Religious Freedom decree of Vatican II is a direct implementation of this

Universal Freemasonic Church, with its visible part, as an ecumenical all-religions’ church, and with its invisible part, as a secret Lodge of secret contacts, with its financial deals, satanic organized ceremonial rape of children, with’ deities’ they make out of themselves having the Vicar as their ‘pope’- an anti-pope.

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This what the Apostle meant , when he said, “And then the lawless one will be revealed, whom the Lord Jesus will overthrow with the breath of his mouth and destroy by the splendor of his coming.”( 2 Thessalonians 2:8) ‘By the Splendor’ of His entrance to Vatican! Demonology is very important to understand. Every person in his/her agony for the last two hours sees the demons before seeing God. 99% of our prayers are dedicated to God as a petition to be prevented from demons. Remember- you will enter into this darkness- be prepared. That what Last Unction is for. Only martyrs transfer from day light to God’s Light, without passing through this darkness. No one else. Courage! The real battle with the prince of hell still ahead. But Our Lord said, ‘I have conquered the Prince of this world.’ Their mantra-prayers connects and consecrates all religions with this Universal Spirit of Lucifer, a dualist deity of good and evil, destroying the teaching of Christ, Whose nature is pure GOOD. In dualistic Antichrist, they promote; 1.‘Peace’ in words, bloody sacrifices and wars in action. 2.’ Love’ in words, free hands to the enemies of Christianity to kill Christian faith, to shed a Christian blood, to corrupt Christian morals, annihilate Christian culture everywhere around the world. 3.‘Equal rights’ in words, a Homosexual and Harloting dictatorship in fact. 4.‘Envirometal Purity ‘in words, the economic enslavement and abolishment of the sovereignty of the nations as a goal . 5. ‘God worship’ in words, in essence paying the tributes to all-demons for spreading sins promoted in liberties of morals . 6.‘Catholic Mass’ in appearance , in substance the invocation of Lucifer for the second chance to enthroned him in Heaven (Roman Catholic Church) instead of Christ. Second chance ? Yes? With worse outcome ever before. The whole mankind is spiritually dead. They live like roaches, feel like kings, die like demons; nothing is sublime to them but their power, be it financial, artistic talent, or intellectual supremacy, etc- all merits they have -they overrate it to make a monument of themselves and their ego- a center of the universe. After they die- the daily light gets more lighter. That how evil they are. Somebody asked me, ‘Anna, are you a mystic, you see so much devils?’ The answer is; No, I am not a ‘mystic.’ If you say the truth on the face of a freemason, the same night the demon visibly will attack you, for this cult is united with universal demonic spirit, as Catholicism is united

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with Universal Holy Ghost. After each freemasonic black ritual the spirit of anger, hatred, desolation, and death spreads around their windowless temples in a radius of 30 miles, per say (go and observe how they constructed their ’centers’- temples- to count also the devastating influence of their ‘masses‘). The more Holy Mass in Roman Catholic Church gets corrupted , the more the freemasonic rituals get empowered ; day by day you see the degradation of society- people, more hateful, more hopeless, more prone to all kind of crime.

The Justice of God is depicted as a two edged sword.

Meaning: you use it as a God’s weapon, you are undefeated . You use it as your own weapon, cutting others with one edge, you will be cutting yourself by the same sword, by another edge. As much as you served God in Justice, that much He will reward you. As much as you served the devil in injustice, that much the devil will take from you. Pilate asked, “What is Truth?” -What is Justice?- and Christ did not reply. For- it is written in your heart. You have it, or you don’t.

You were born and you didn’t have a name, you didn’t even know what sex you

belong to- unless the parents and society teach you. They should give you your right name presented by God, they should teach you your right sex presented by God, they should teach you the religion you came from- the true source of God, and it is not in written scripture only; it is in a complete History of the Journey of God with mankind- from its infancy to the ending time when mankind is mature enough to understand what Holy Trinity is : All Power given to Him- Jesus Christ ( Matthew 28:18). This is a pilgrimage . You don’t have any excuse to stay behind.

And where are Catholics with thunder and lightening announcing the Will of God,

like St. Vincent Ferreira, who was called the ‘Archangel of Apocalypse “- and it is because of his preaching the world was spared from total annihilation, as it was in time of Jonah? Where are Anthony Paduas, Francis Xaviers, Ignatius Loyolas: whenever they were speaking, every one else was listening to them with holy awe, and some went after them to kill them out of jealousy like Cain to Abel?

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That how powerful was their messages – with striking truth as thunder and lightening. Look at you! Living like a bug of the river clinging on the pebbles, hiding behind them; sometimes swimming with the current, sometimes against it, but most of the time looking a cozy place to stay away from troubles. Looking for expressions to look political? Where is your courage, o you pusillanimous, petty, dead Catholics, good for nothing as a salt without flavor, fit to be cast out only to ‘outer darkness!’ The rains of fertility pour on the thirsty soil only after the thunder and lightning!

Communicate with yourself, not with people around you, and you will be better off .

Being ourselves is what makes us truly happy, and considering that our nature is rather good and prone to good than to evil. Be yourself, be a hero! How do you do it? By doing anything which would please yourself , or the people around you.

• Dear Anna, (a letter from a friend priest)

I can't publish this what I am about to say so I write it in a message.. My new book documents with precise references and direct quotations the root of the 'Mystery of Iniquity' (2 Thess. 2:7) which has "entered in through the gatres of Jerusalem" (Lam. 4:2) and taken possession of the apparatus of the Church. The late Mons. Mario Marini, Secretary of the Ecclesia Dei Commission, told me, "Our hands are tied, we can do nothing, because Masons occupy the key positions." He also said (seven months before his death in May 2009), "We are under Masonic occupation." The origin of Masonry is revealed in the Old Testament, Ezekiel Chapter 7 -- the elders of Israel secretly worshipping Baal in the Temple in the manner of modern Masonic worship in their temples. Judeo-Masonry is not of the authentic Jews but of the apostate Jews who abandoned the worship of God and defected to Paganism. They infiltrated and took over Judaism in the ancient times and have done the same in the Church after Vatican II. God will destroy their work before it can be consummated – ‘the gates of Hell shall not prevail.’ When I told Fr. Gruner I would begin writing the book in October, 2009 just as soon as I would arrive in the Philippines, I was nearly killed when an elevator door in Manila opened for me but there was only an empty shaft. A former police asset saved my life exactly like Daniel Estulin was saved by an alert former KGB officer when he was investigating Bilderberg in Ottawa. The book is finished and the first edition was published - that means my days are numbered .

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You can not write a book like this and live - that is clear from the pronouncements of the Talmud pronounced against those who would expose their perversity. If God wills that I survive, only a divine intervention can save me. God Bless, Fr. PK

My dear Fr. PK,

I know God will protect you, and once you reach the public spreading the truth, the devil is powerless. It is difficult, the roaring devil tries to swallow those who work for the Lord with a rage ever before he showed. I am sure there are in Vatican people who know much more than us, yet, they keep silence refusing to be the glorious martyrs of Christ. It is not excusable , and they lose their opportunity to be glorified with our Lord. That is why we can find the references in many saints’ teaching, that the people who served God in the period of Ending Time, are the greatest saints in Heaven equal to 12 Apostles. Why? Because we are taking a big risk to announce about the truth, which is not formulated clearly before as such- as a striking blow of St. Michael Archangel caused to Lucifer. One Luciferian Revolution in Heaven before the Fall, and the second, the last one, in the Holy Roman Catholic Church- whoever is in the army of Saint Michael Archangel are those who will be saved . Who are in the list of the Book of Life? No one was in Paradise, eight were in Noah’s time, billions were in Christ’s Catholic Kingdom, probably eight will be in a time of Great Apostasy, which is the Freemasonic Social Kingdom of Lucifer- these eight are in a real Ship (Catholic Church). The rest of mankind is hoping on the infinite Mercy of Almighty God. We, the eight, should do our best to work toward that Mercy. If for God’s Mercy we have to sacrifice our lives- we should be ready for it. This life worth nothing if God’s Will is not established in it by the efforts of His sons and daughters. Remember, dear Father, your enemies have no guardian angel (he left them for they are evil), you have two of them, and if all demons of hell attack you, they can not harm you, unless you desire to be sacrificed - and if it is not God’s Will to make you a martyr, no one can touch even your hair . And also- you, the front-line warrior, you were one who took the first blow of the demons on yourself, making easy for us to continue. Anna

Not to live crawling on earth, but to live as a hero and to die as a hero.

It is possible if we truly love Lord Christ.

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O Lord- I am so impatient to leave this ’valley of tears’- help my weaknesses! More rejection, more hatred, more attacks from men and demons, more crushing health and mental torture, more and more- as You wish- and it is the utmost accomplishment I can do for You.

All is eroded , rotten to the core.

When I came first to USA, in Los Alamos, NM, they took me to the Novus Ordo Mass; the ‘priest’ was preaching endlessly vary much the way I used to listen to Communist party leaders’ speech. Everybody in this almost mega-church was in contact with this priest of empty rhetoric , as we were in Polit-Bureau meeting, then I fainted and they took me out of the church. I could not understand why I got sick in this mad-houses, called ‘Catholic Church?’ In Nativity Church , Hollywood, when taking communion, I knelt, the priest ordered me to stand up, and when I refused, he slapped me on my face. In Mary Magdalene Church, West Hollywood, I was trying to enter to this Novus Ordo mass, when the hellish stink coming from the ’priest’ and the church petrified me ; I was not able to step the door to go inside. I faced an obvious miracle of God, Who showed all these time the truth about Vatican II worship: it is pure demonic. And it took many miracles and sufferings until I grasped the truth and left the cursed place for good. You are not pleasing God when you are fornicating like a whore laying with demons. That what this counterfeit church does in ‘worship,‘ in teaching, in acting.

I remember when I was naïve about the demonic evil of Vatican II churches, one

time in Los Feliz church of St. Augustine, I bent to kiss the hem of priest’s robe. Suddenly this anti-priest started to laugh, to mock and grabbing me by my hand, he sent me away, “Go back to your Orthodox church. You will not bring to us your superstitious madness; dress is nothing but a dress.” The Gospel story, when the woman got healed just by touching our Lord’s Robe ( Luke 8:40-49) is a proof that a special blessing and anointment of the priestly vestments render them a special power , tuning them into a sacramental ( a holy object to be venerated as a source of God’s power, as blessed water is, blessed candle is, icon , etc). It is known that St. Philip’s slippers were thrown to the fire catching the whole house, and the fire stopped immediately. This is what we call Vatican II apostasy- God is decreased to nothingness, devil is increased to all-thingness, devouring all orthodox notions of God and His might.

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I can not find any respect for them in my heart, Father, and I confess my weakness.

I have a reason for this. I used to be an editor , host and producer of Art and Literature programs in Armenian national TV in USSR era , and after my conversion I used to present Christian themes , especially Armenia medieval literature, which is exclusively ecclesiastical and the Catholic theology, which I gradually discovered . After I presented a film about St. Augustine (I translated ‘Confessions’ first time and presented as a theatrical composition ) and an interview with a Jesuit monk from France, a translator of St. Gregory Narekazi, in 1991 I was called to Armenian Patriarchate by the order of the Catholicos Vazgen I. It was an Inquisition-style meeting, where archbishops with Catholicos were present . They asked me questions and over all they presented their point; ‘You don’t understand what you are doing, it is a Catholic propaganda what your activity is, you don’t know what Catholic church is, it is a disastrous institution, you are anti-national person, you have to follow the direction, or else..’ That ’or else’ soon followed … not only they fired me from my two jobs (from the magazine and TV redactor’s position). One day, after I prayed a Rosary in one of the city churches with people , when I was walking away, the van approached and four men attacked me, grabbing my arms and dragging me forcefully into the van . I found myself in KGB basement with guards , who were threatening me and mocking me about six hours. It seemed an eternity spent in hell. After which they took me upstairs, to the office of a ranked person. After long silence the KGB officer told me, “ Listen to me, Lady, I know you very well, and in my twenty years of experience I have never seen the case like this. I don’t even know why they are after you . I got a call from the Catholocos himself to arrest you . I am not allowed to show you these papers, but I will do it, for I can not take this injustice and crime of the new government of ’democrats’ devastating our country (he was an old USSR professional officer).” And he gave me the file to read. I opened the file and found letters, witnesses, proofs- all were about my ’crimes’- one said I attacked him and crippled him, another woman (signature was of a famous pianist - Anahit Nersisian, whom I never met, however I knew her from afar) - she witnessed that I was a prostitute, etc. I was so shocked, in fact that was a hardest thing in my life to bear for long time after. -As you see this could not be done in one day. This is a ready case to arrest you,-said the officer. The officer gave me an advice , and that the only option I have; to leave the country. And he released me. It was the end of my Armenian Identity.

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In 1993 I emigrated to USA. It took 10-15 years to understand what is going on in

Catholic Church. Thanks to Marcel Lefebvre I saw the light in the end of the tunnel, distinguishing the ‘wheat from weed’ in Catholic Church. Being in many Novus Ordo churches, I never profited from the sacraments- on the contrary- I gradually lost my health, nervous breakdowns disabled me for active life, I could not even finish my education. If in communist country God led me every my step with His almighty presence and love to go through martyrdom , here, in Catholic Church, I lost Him. I was studying the teaching of the Roman Catholic Church reading the doctors‘, saints’ toms for twenty years, and -finally I found my peace , when I connected all dots and could get the real picture of this chaotic situation in church, politics, culture.. It took hundreds of miracles and a direct intervention of the Lord for me to understand that: 1. The Roman Catholic ‘renewed’ church is not Christ’s church. As God had left Jewish altar after our Lord’s death, same way Christ left Vatican II altars leaving it empty of grace and blessings. Vatican II popes and each and every of their followers are guilty of deicide , as Jews of Synagogues are!. 2.The ‘popes’ who present the Vatican II church reject the office of St. Peter. Not only- they are the main channels, an umbilical cord of all heresies and demonic ideologies ; any Catholic who accepts them as a pope is bound to obey them, and doing so- they are condemned to hell. 3. Jesus Christ is a Head of the Church, St. Peter is below Him. No St. Peter’s successor can be above Christ, and if so- we are dealing with Antichrist, which is the case for Vatican II anti-popes. This is what I understood as a conclusion, and this is not intellectual analysis . I went through every phase by shedding my tears and blood, sacrificing my career, health, and all I had in this world. Our Lord says to leave all and follow Him (Luke 18:22). And unless we do so, we will wander in a desert never reaching the ‘promised land,’ as it had happened to Jewish people for forty years. And only very few could make it to Jerusaleme.

Our wisdom is proportional to our saintly life.

A saintly life is proportional to the obedience we show toward our confessor and priest. If we persist in this, we fully abide in Christ . There was one case , when St. Stanislaus raised a man from the dead . His name was

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Peter. God asked Peter if he wants to live in this life and how long. Then Peter asked God to be sent back to Purgatory, where he was before, because earthly life is so full of danger, he had not had any insurance he could be saved if he had remained in this world further. He said that Purgatory is a sure place to be transported to Heaven. Before he was sent to Purgatory again, Peter asked to remember to pray for the souls in Purgatory, for it is not easy place to be. That is how difficult is the salvation! The man preferred to burn in fire than to stay here questioning his salvation. What about all these Protestants/Vatican II fools are thinking, when they ’joyfully’ jump singing and dancing, celebrating God’s ’mercy’ and own eternal ’life?’ God mercy is proportional to our repentance only.

USSR was a greatest civilization ever created by men.

The basis of its existence was the human heroism, the quality which by magic they developed in Homo Sovieticus; unceasingly the media, TV presented people who would achieve a real heroism, be it in a farm, in industry, in science, military, or art; Gagarins, Tereshkovas, Rastropoviches, Richters, Plisezkayas, Rodninas, Joukovs, Bagramians , etc. USSR presented an enormous quantity of human genius achievement in the name of Communist ideal, Fatherland, or Stalin. Absolutely amazing that many people died in WW2 the Communist party name on their lips, working for their own ‘eternal memory on earth-’ rejecting to give anything to God, who was a real source of their supernatural strength . It was a complete ‘rip-off ‘of God , wherein everything is taken from Him was given to the devil. The red-border- line of USSR Empire - was a powerful existence of the hell in the sacred name of humanity, which was nothing but a camp of slavery, where the words ‘soul’ and ‘God’ had been banned , and this powerful entity ceased to exist in just one day, overnight, giving a proof that absolute faith, worship and honor belongs only to God. Atheist madness creating itself as human geniuses ; what else can be more ironic? When I was a child having this deep longing in me for truth , I was looking for, and having a deep hatred toward lie around me, meanwhile- I was often asking to myself, “Why I am so unfortunate to be born in this cursed society? “ Now I know: it was God’s Will for me to see the power of devil in his own realm , in order for me do be capable to detect him in God’s Realm as well. I am so thankful! I am STRONG- because I saw my own blood once drained by the system of the devil, now in my rebirth in Christ- I have NOTHING to pay to the devil.

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No debts whatsoever. NONE! The great culture of USSR was created by these people, who went through terrible mental and spiritual agony because of absence of God, and they were always used by the system , which appropriated their glory .

Where inspiration expires, the degradation starts.

USSR was a powerful country, for it inspired people; when Bolshevik legends expired and they could no longer deceit people with false ideals, they started to inspire the nation by the superiority of scientific mind and achievements, promoting heroes to captivate people‘s imagination; Gagarin, Karoliov, Mikoyan, Alichanian, etc.. Then when they could not last in this too, the USSR system collapsed ; the inspiration expired and the degradation started. Scientific heroism was replaced with sorcery, UFO/extra-terrestrial hysteria, the political ideas with business ‘entrepreneurship-’ loot , horror, war, murder, and dehumanization was a norm of life. No system can be built on lies and false values and last long, as no belief can be built on lies and false religion and last long too. As for the USA, it has taken a wrong direction , robbed in its way from all her national identity and human values; its society is kept on ‘red carpet’ of notorious whores and gays. And that is their ‘inspiration,’ keeping in demonic ‘cool’ unity of mentally deranged people as a nation.

What is the National Identity?

It is a factor created by great individuals, not by a collective; the collective follows great individuals presenting their characteristics, which make the ID of a nation. What is our, the USA national ID? The Statue of Liberty, which is a prototype of the bloody revolutionary French Whore and the people like Hillary Clinton? Martin L. King who was assassinated by the same government system, which now turned him into a textbook-hero. This is our national ID. Oscar- red- carpet, where the fake idols march having nothing to show us but naked bodies and fading beauty. This is our national ID. The next is we hear is always about scandals and suicides. The Constitution, the Law , which is nothing but a historical document, a skeleton of a dead man. This is our national ID. A suicidal Iraqi soldier haunted by own guilty conscious. This is our national ID.

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Our National Identity is in crisis, it is dead spiritually with no heroes with no inspiration, with no ideology which means the nation is dying too, as it had happened to USSR.

A Russian Documentary Film by A. Ivankin :

The Assassination of President Kennedy. After Khrushchev settled nuclear bases in Cuba, there was an ongoing confrontation between USA CIA secret operational groups and USSR forces in Cuba. President Kennedy had ordered the USA groups to decline. He fired CIA director A. Dallas with his two vice-directors , and one of them was a brother of a Major of Dallas, where Kennedy was murdered by these CIA anti-Castro Pentagon operatives. Kennedy was controlling all secretive divisions of CIA, firing many officials. “I will turn CIA into a powder “- declared President in his close circles. Kennedy brought a new policy; to tolerate USSR as a partner. Over all- President Kennedy was a sober and genius leader by yielding USSR, for Khrushchev was no less a ruthless manic who at that time organized secret mass-killings in own country and abroad, and he could use any time nuclear weapon against USA without hesitation , if not Kennedy’s prudent policy. In 17:1 ratio USA had a military superiority over USSR, yet Washington was ’negotiating’ with Kremlin - this was too hard for Johnson & Friends to take. What Kennedy called “Victory,” this people call “Shame and defeat.” 1963, September , Kennedy ordered to leave Vietnam: 16, 000 USA troops should be taken out of Vietnam Who killed JFK? 1. Lyndon Johnson 2. Edgar Hoover 3. Haroldson Lafayette Hunt, Jr 4. CIA special secret operative army division The name of the killer is James Earl Files, one of the three killers working for FBI.

The Explanation of the Message of our Lady at Fatima, July 13, 1917

“To prevent this, I shall come to ask the consecration of Russia to my Immaculate

Heart, and Communions of reparation on the first Saturdays. If my requests are heard, Russia will be converted and there will be peace.

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If not, she will spread her errors throughout the world, fomenting wars and persecution of the Church. The good will suffer martyrdom; the Holy Father will suffer much; different nations will be annihilated. But in the end my Immaculate Heart will triumph. The Holy Father will consecrate Russia to me, which will be converted, and some time of peace will be granted to humanity." ------------- Explanation; Russia ‘will spread her errors throughout the world’. This is not just about Soviet Communism. In previous sentence our Lady was talking about conversion , which means a rejection of sin and acceptance of the scarifying grace. From 1917- 1932 in Russia there was a national movement of deliberation of morals; the families were banned, there were public houses from girls 16 and up, who had been confiscated , taken from parents and owned by the offices called “Public Social Service.” The naked mob were everywhere, performing group sex, and the media worked to spread “Family is about the Burjua ownership of women” propaganda, or ’The glass of water’ - the teaching of the none-prejudice animal intercourse between men and women. That is why Lenin ordered to create communal apartments’ projects, placing one woman in the middle of two and more men living all together, or the other way around. Families were living together as one . The forced abortion was a norm of life. The Orthodox (Catholic) Church was the source of the morals, that is why they destroyed them and executed clergy, banning confession and Mass. They showed films, shows about this communist families as a bright future of the Soviet society. (note; in Soviet, even now, they hide this period of Russian history- not fully covering it. I heard these stories from my elders when I was a child. For Armenia Lenin realized the syphilisazation of Armenians, realizing ill patients from hospitals to attack and rape Armenian women , especially in Zangezur region. ) In 1925 Stalin came to the power. Until 1932 he went through hard road to make his authority absolute, masterminding the assassinations of all Bolsheviks of the Communist movement , poisoning Lenin, who died from syphilis and poisoning . After Stalin fully came to the power defeating all Leninists , he uprooted the new ’ free morals’ and hang, shot, exiled all revolutionaries of the sex, moral, and culture . In 1941 he ordered to open the Russian Orthodox Church (he lynched all Catholics (Ukrainians, Polish, etc for their none-subordination). Because of this the USSR nation made a cult out of Stalin. Stalin was one, who gave people their old standards. From 1960s when in USA the Congress decided to oppress Christian morals, bringing down the Ten Commandments from the school walls- this was a signal that the Russian ’ Glass of Water’ movement is here. Today we see its sex revolution takes its climax . This is what our Lady meant; the dehumanization of mankind by immoral code of atheism .

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Should we consider that the conversion to Immaculate Heart of Mary of Russia

happened after 1932 when Stalin cleaned up Russia from immoral revolutionary movement of 1917 officially issuing a decree against deliberation from the morals ? Let us consider the facts ; during the WW2, from 1942 the Russian nations successfully started their advance to the Eastern Europe, deliberating it from Nazi murderers. From 1960s USSR was not only fully recovered from the damage of WWII, but also was miraculously prospering economically and culturally. The Ten Commandments in a form of Codex of Honest people used to be everywhere; in school textbooks, on walls , where without giving God’s name the USSR built its might on human fundamental virtues educating honesty, heroism, respect toward each other, love toward honest work, family values, etc. After 1960s living in USSR people could fully ignore communist red-propaganda which was bare and fruitless , and after 1970s , when Brejnev came to the power, the communist ideology was openly ridiculed by all. No one was a Communist in heart , but on the paper only for a personal career.

If we call conditionally the working force of evil as Unit A - we can assure for

100% that Unit A failed by the end of 1980s and the population of USSR slowly was awakening to the knowledge of Creator. Unit A was in panic and using its dark forces; it could regroup itself and came back again as a II Bolshevik Revolution of Russia in the end of 1980s. It was undeclared war which plunged the country into an abject misery . However, Unit A was in a status of loser, for it could not damage the soul of the nation, it only crippled it economically. Meanwhile Unit A had transferred its main area of activity to the West starting from 1960s, as our Lady would inform us further in a III secret , which the apostate popes hide from us . Deductive logic suggests that it is related to the apostasy of the Vatican . As we see when 1932 Stalin officially declared the freedom of morals to be illegal and punishable - the people of Russia were allowed to have a corner in every house with the icon of our Lady. This suggests that the II message of our Lady might have been fulfilled ; 1. Russia was converted to Her Immaculate Heart. 2. Russia was consecrated to the Immaculate Heart of Mary , probably by Pope Pius XII. 3. Holy Father suffered a great deal ; there are suspicions that Pope Pius XII was poisoned . After 1959 the papacy ceased . (This means that the Consecration of Russia by the pope afterward can not happen ; there is no legitimate pope in Vatican according to the canon laws of the Roman Catholic

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Church from 1959 to these days to consecrate Russia to the Immaculate Heart of our Lady) And this concludes the II Message of Fatima, prophecy of our Lady, related to1960s.

After 1960s the III part of the prophecy is in action, which they hide carefully ,

fabricating it, disorienting all. What is it- the Third Prophecy of our Lady? We don’t know. And we don’t believe in the official presentation of it by Vatican. One can guess it is about Great Apostasy in Faith, as we witness, about the destruction of Roman Catholic Church, consequently- the physical destruction of Rome and the universal apocalyptic catastrophe, right before the Second Coming of our Lord Christ the King and Great Judgment.

To Heretics, who hate God’s Saints.

Like Cain who killed Abel for his exclusive graces granted by God Himself, now you, cursed Cain’s brood, do the same to God’s chosen. There are 1. called, 2. elects, and 3.chosen. True Roman Catholics are the chosen godlike people. You are not in any group above-mentioned. Dark as coal , hot as coal- you are dead as its ashes . Dismemberment of the Holy Roman Catholic Kingdom was achieved by the Eastern Orthodox Schismatics, who stabbed the Holy Roman Catholic Kingdom from the Back, the same way Protestant Apostates stabbed the Holy Roman Catholic Kingdom in the Heart. Vatican II Apostate Catholics beheaded the Holy Roman Catholic Kingdom, taking her to the Guillotine of Luciferian Revolution. Every one else : freemasons , socialists, neo-pagans, muslims, etc- dismember the Holy Roman Catholic Kingdom, collecting Her Bones and Blood- to celebrate in orgies this eternal doom of mankind. They call it "The Era of Enlightenment-"a social life under Lucifer, or Cain vs.Abel. In fact, all Christians used to be Orthodox Catholics. All demonically proud Catholics in past had separated themselves from the Roman Catholic Church as “Orthodox” vs. God’s Revelation, considering themselves as

protectors of ’Orthodoxy.”

All demonically proud -proud Catholics had separated themselves from the Roman Catholic Church as “Protestants” vs. God’s Revelation, considering themselves as reformers of the Church.

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All lunatic Catholics had separated themselves from the Roman Catholic Church as “Vatican 2” vs. God’s Revelation , considering themselves as reformers of Himself,

Jesus Christ.

True Roman Catholics are Godlike.

We have seen many proves from the Catholic saints that the human nature in its limitation means nothing , that they overcame their nature once ther body is blessed by God. St. Lydwine of Schiedam (1380-1433) had lived without any food. So did St. Catherine of Siena , St. Angela of Folinio, St. Colomba of Rieti, St.Peter of Alcantara, and many others. Some saints lived without any or with little sleep: St. Therese of Avila , St. Catherine de Ricci, Christina de Admirable, St. Collete, etc. Levitation (being lifted up ) was a habit for some saints; St. John of Cross used to cling on the chalice by holding to it with his teeth when saying a Mass, or he would fly up in front of the presents . The chalices with his teeth marks are preserved. St. Joseph of Cupertino used to fly in the air from one place to another. Saints in ecstasy could be so light, that they were moved by the slight touch of one’s finger. Bilocation is a mysterious Catholic wonder too. St. Anthony Padua was preaching in many places at once. Penetrating locked doors, passing through the walls was another miracle of Catholic saints. St. Rita of Cascia passing the wall entered the convent , where sisters detecting the miracle accepted her as a nun. Incorruptible bodies of saints also is a phenomenal case; their body is flexible and aromatic, supple .St. Charbel Makhlouf’s body is so alive, that he is called ’the living dead saint.’ When they made a little cut, his body bled with fresh blood. So many wonders granted by God to whom He loves! Yet, for the spiritual perfection it means nothing. All these miracles are nothing but His gifts. What we give Him in return? We can give more than all these miracles together- if we count our sins, meditate on God’s mercy, and feel sorry about our sins, every minute having them in front of us. There is no greater love for a human, than to accept own littleness in comparison with God’s grandeur . And that what matters- not the miracle, which means NOTHING!

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I have seen many monks in Moscow , or Armenia, with long beards, fasting for 40

days, having a fame of ‘mystics’- all this is secondary. A Mystic is synonymous to great passion, suffering, pain. The graces are granted by God for the enormous physical and mental torture and suffering these people usually went through. In Russian they call them “Muchennic” - “People who suffer,” In Armenian ’Charcharvog”- Tortured. And we have a spiritual doctrine of the mystics as; The Passions According to St. Sebastian, The Passions According to St. Matthew, The Passions According to St. Peter, etc. The Passion, The Cross is the only Academy of mysticism and spiritual knowledge.

When we live and die without any hard feelings to anyone- we live and die as a

saint. I had another friend, her name was Antaram Mairig (Mother). She was 105 -years- old, when I met her. She was from Izmir, Turkey, and she had passed through the Great Genocide of Armenia, 1915, by Turks. She said, “ Nothing could shatter my soul in those days of blood and carnage, but when we made our escape to Greece from Turkey, we ran four days an nights stepping the dead bodies, very often stumbling on them. My breath touched dead men’s faces very often. Since then the ghost of hell persecutes me.” She said that the devil can have different forms. Being blind and paralyzed, she was immobile for twenty years. She said that the devil attacks her in a form of roaring machine . ’Your world now is being conquered by the devil in all form of machine people have created.” I asked questions, like : -How we know there is a God? She answered, “ Looking at the face of His creatures , by feeling their breath.” -Who is the head of the Church? -It is the pope sitting in Rome. Do you know him? “Do you know, Anna, for all misfortunes of this world it is him who is responsible-” she told me once. “It is a pay-off time”- she said before her death, ’Too much sins are committed against God. The wage is being paid to them- a punishment can not be avoided .“ She, with blank holes in her eyes, bonny and discolored , like a dead tree trunk, was lying there, in her solitude, every day waiting for me.

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When I told her, “The that the Armenian schismatic/heretic priests and my friends tell about me that I am not a ’humble person-’ she got so angry; -How dare they to call my daughter ‘not humble? She said, ‘Never believe those liars .’ The day she died I was there present. I found her dead in her apartment, her body was still warm, I noticed two brown circles on her wrist , each on both hands, like a mark of nails on our Lord’s Hands. Very strange phenomenon I could not understand, what I understood though it was that my mother had died.

Years ago I used to have another friend in Armenia, an invalid disabled old

woman, who also had gone through wars, genocides, and deaths. She was also a mystic. She told me, ‘Every time I cry, immediately the angel comes and sits beside . And I stop crying seeing him so upset. Every our tears are counted by angels.’ One time she was in pain, and I was crying for her , seeing her sufferings, then she suddenly stopped and said, ’Happy you! You feel others’ pain- that is a sign that you are God’s.” Josephina (was her name) died leaving behind a nickname for herself circulating among people: “Monster,” because her whole body and face was disfigured, looking horrible. However, I knew for sure- she was a saint.

True love is what you sacrifice for one whom you love; your kids, wife, husband,

brother, etc. Count how many sacrifices have you made when you say , ‘I love you-’ or don’t say it at all, before you lie to yourself and to others, pleasing your ego only! Formula of Love; Love= self-sacrifice .

What is the difference between the hypocrite and the saint?

The hypocrite disguises own weaknesses concentrating on own image to make it impressive, the saint doesn’t care about own weaknesses and image, concentrating only on God’s Perfection and Image.

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progressing to a perversion. Restriction of sensuality has a ripple effect to: it purifies senses and progresses to a sanctification. Are we capable of being pure in senses? No, not without God. The Dogma of Immaculate Conception of our Lady is the only devotion which uproots the sin against body, permanently perfecting our nature as angelic. The devil never forces anybody, for he is agreed with God on men’s free will do not violate it. He loves you, you are his life, for he has none in himself , and he takes your life sources from you as food. Every time he loses you, he feels the same pain when he lost God. The devil is so miserable when you see it. Sometimes I make big efforts to restrict my pity for him. No use of it- he is gone. He is powerful only when you don’t see him. Every time you give account to yourself for your every single sin, it becomes a mortal bullet for the devil and the shiny diamond on your Crown of the Confessor.

Once, about five years ago, on Hollywood Ave. and Western Ave. corner a man ( a

devil?) approached me; it was an ugly guy: his eyes were moving in 360 degree to all directions. He stared at me with deep longing and sadness, and then he asked, ‘Do you love me?’ I said, ‘Yes.’ Why I did it, why? It is stupid. We were looking at each other for another five minute in silence , then he went on down toward Highland Ave. It was a farewell. Eternal farewell. If your heart is full of Lord, the earthly joy does not touch it. You are in waiting state only : everything comes and goes without touching you. You are in hungry state only: everything you ‘eat’ from this world, you ‘vomit.’ You live in a poem and music of your own soul listening only to His Voice. ‘The voice of my beloved, behold he cometh leaping upon the mountains, skipping over the hills.’ (Canticle of Canticles, 2:8) Don’t you see that this is my Swan Song, the last effort from all my essence to build a Monument to Christ? His Glory is all I have- my life, breath, essence . When I die my love will spread a Sunshine of Truth to all, who suffer injustice because of the true veneration of His Majesty Lord Christ. For there is no end to my river of tears, in this world and another…

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The concept of Heaven and the concept of God is not a subject of negotiation with

God. He says, you understand and accept it, or you don’t. God is not a Harvard University to be graduated from and setting own ’chamber’ of teaching afterward. You are small to fit in, or you are too big to go through that tunnel of His birth channel. The latter we call ‘humility.’

My father used to teach us, “Educated noble men and educated scum both can

make a difference in a society: the first one for better, the second one for worse.” Bolsheviks deprived him from education , ‘making the room for whores and thieves to advance-’ as he described. Being a royal patriarchal breed, he taught us to be noble, the real standards of nobility; “Eat with hungry men, fight back only the men who are stronger than you.”

If you are capable of sexual lust, you have all necessary tools which will nail you in

hell. As it is better to cut the hand, which steals, and enter the Heaven crippled, same way it is better to be castrated than to be cast down from angels as animal. The saints used to depict lustful men as an upside down monster : the head in the place of the sexual organ, the sexual organ in the place of the head.

Free mind is a self-annihilation, meanwhile controlled mind is a self-stablishment.

Diplomatic talk to fit the society is a form of hatred toward fellow men, and it is destructive, meanwhile sincere talk is always constructive and charitable, no matter how it looks -rough or polished. We love children, for they do not know how to talk in manners, and by doing so, they captivate us.

Vengeance is a poison of heart- it kills all your life sources .

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True peace comes from the true recognition of own weaknesses and God’s

strengths. The recognition of God’s Perfect Image in Catholic Dogma- is a perfection itself, in which you live as a Victor, conquering yourself. St. Therese D’Avila highly valued her intellectual nuns, teaching that the human intellect in its perfection is special to God. It is true when we see great minds like St. Augustine , St. Thomas Aquinas formulating divinity , or when we see Marx or Nitche changing the course of human history by the vigor of their intellect. There are two intellectual perfections: 1.Inspired by the devil, 2.Inspired by God. The first starts from truth and ends up in Deceit. The second starts from truth and ends up in Mystery. The first is a form of pure Madness (Man Made-ness). The second is a form of pure Sanity (Sanctity). It is a form of sanctity to know your own limits.

There is no happier state for a human than when your body participates the glory of

your soul elevated by God. It is high HIGH. It is an ecstasy state 7/24. I call it WAITING on my feet - Ready to see His Majesty Face to face. By the way, I used to be a fallen woman in my youth as a TV ‘STAR’ and beauty, with hellish passions, and pride of the devil. Look at me now! God makes out of stones the Children of Abraham!

Whoever LOVES more is forgiven more.. Why you, Blessed Catholics , have to occupy yourselves with worldly trifles ? Beat up your body to bleeding, if it does not obey you (as I used to do). Humble your body as it is your domestic animal. Be a SAINT- I beg you! Burn with this Heavenly Fire- Burn to ashes! DIE!

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DIE! DIE of LOVE!

Step into a mystical life; apostles who were married left the marriage status and

tasted the union of body with spirit. The physical matter can change its physical nature. We have no excuse do not be a saint!

What destroys the Commandment ,“Love your neighbor ?“

It is the Envy, the first expression of original sin after the Fall: the sin of Lucifer, the sin of Cain , ALSO- the sin of all who are guilty of heresy, which is the human presentation of God, instead of God’s revelation about Himself. Again: the definition of heresy and wrong religions is- they are human presentation of God, instead of God’s revelation about Himself.

In Physics we say, “We can not discern the system, unless we are out of the

system.” Same way we can not discern God unless we are a Creator, not a creature. And yet we can discern God as a Creator, for the Creator is in us through the Holy Eucharist. And this is not an intellectual cognitive experience, this is above human capacity , where our human nature is being dissolved in divine.

It is in poverty where you find your heart ,

It is in rich, where you lose your heart. Pride combined with both- poverty or rich, kills your heart, Simplicity combined with both- poverty or rich, sanctifies your heart. “Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God” (Matthew 5:8).

I feel this writing down. If you understand this- fine, if not- that is ok. It was in post -Soviet Armenia, when after the regime the Armenian ‘Orthodox’ church fully started to act as a paganized worship. You could see fire worship in the church, sorcery séances on the TV, everywhere... As a consequence , I often used to see the demons gathered in front of the churches.

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The invocation of devils in a ceremonial way, allows them to be present, and even to present themselves in material-looking forms (remember? “The Word is God”-meaning the words have power given by God too). Old women, with skinny, long, dry faces with a man’s beard, and with fixed immobile gaze…I saw them, they saw me. One time I entered one of the churches, and I saw she was sitting bellow the altar, and she had her bag, a jet-black bag, put on the altar. I told her, “ Take away from the altar your bag.” She ignored and continued staring at altar. Then I stretched my arm and could get her bag, meanwhile she attacked me from behind. I could grab her with my other hand and dragged her out. It was rather not a touch with a body, but I felt a pressure ( like when you open a champagne bottle). There was a tag -a -war type fight, when eventually I could drag her to the exit doors, and as soon as she stepped out in the middle of the doors, she was thrown by the invisible power about fifty feet away, as I saw her flying . All saw her flying like a paper, dropping away from the Church. God wanted ME to take her out, and after I did what I should, then God interfered doing the rest. Unless all Catholics do what they have to do, do not expect anything from God.

Another time I was hurrying to the church with my friends , being late from the

Mass. The she-devil showed her up and asked if we can help her and that her daughter needs an urgent help. I saw her, she saw me. My friends saw only the poor woman in black. I said , “NO.” The people with me were touched by my ’cruelty’ and started to convince me to go and to see what was the matter. I persisted that we will continue our way to the Church , and that we will not miss the liturgy- and it was final. As soon as my friends left her and followed me, she suddenly disappeared from her spot. She approached me hoping on my friends’ naivety.

Christ’s Religion is the only case where you are not recruited or trained; you have

Christ’s Spirit, or you don’t. You live and die with Him, in Him, or you don’t. You believe in Him, you trust Him. Does He believe in you and trust you? You depend on His Cross, He depends on your cross- that is how your true Friendship with Him starts.

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Protestant faith has a same value as Islam: both believe in one god, one is calling it

‘allah,’ another is calling it ‘christ’ - both believe in resurrection as a magic trick. But is that a true God who is the Savior of the men? Is it His, the real God’s Spirit, which is Holy , which CREATES all things GOOD (as himself- GOD). They miss the key point: Creationism . As God uttered the Word , ‘Let there be light’ - and there was, as God took the soil in His Hands and uttered the Word, “Let us make man in our Image,” the same way He uttered the Words ; ‘This is My Body, this is my Blood,’ and bread and wine became His Flesh and Blood. It seems we eat His Flesh and Blood, in fact we UNITE ourselves, our nature with His Flesh and Blood, accepting It in a form of eating: a Spiritual Food , Spiritual Growth, Spiritual Rebirth- Resurrection.

Perversion is what is against the human nature, against human reason , a deviation

which was emanated from the delusional visions of a mind , instructed from the hell. Homosexuality is a mental disorder, which is a consequence of sinful persistent life. It is an acute expression of sadism, which eventually kills all human feelings, emotions, loyalty, and all other values connected to it. It is a demon possession. These people look for one thing only- to be worshipped, and crossing all lines of humanity, they get all conditions to make all to worship them , using money, power, position, force, deceit , machination, academic degrees, even apostolic succession , social , professional skills, murder: by all means. Being hated by God, their goal is to revenge Him by all means; if they are ’priests’ - they rape and eat up the souls, if they are teachers, they will teach nothing but Liberalism and sexual revolution, if they are lonely- they will kill the rest of their senses in drugs. Homosexuality is a Satanic ritual, as a superiority complex of the devil expressed in sexual self- exaltation and humiliation meantime. The essence of it is the annihilation of human dignity , which is a dignity of the

Creator.

The Vatican II is an universal Incubator of homosexuality and carnal sin, for the

purpose of it is the ultimate union of mankind with Lucifer, who presents itself as Christ having the Throne of St. Peter. This is behind reparation!

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This calls for the Last Court and Divine Judgment! And we, true Catholic Martyrs of the Last Age, will be the Judges in that Great Court!

The New Age Religion is being implanted in our society, which essence is the

cognition of God through senses. They deny the Divine Presence and supernatural destiny of mankind, by denying the divine revelation as the ONLY source of the mankind’s perfection, our Savior Jesus Christ as the ONLY way for salvation of souls, His Sacrifice as Universal Redemption. This new religion is an absolutism of man’s perception , seeing this perception as the only source of the relative truth : this leads to the perfect atheism, the denial of the God as absolute self-existing truth. The Neo-Atheism of this new society is in fact another attempt to bring the Communist System back. This social system suggests a self-standing human virtue vs. divine grace for true virtue, a self-standing human intellect vs. divine grace for true intellect, it ends up with disclosure of its deceptive system, following with complete self-annihilation .

Saint Grigor Narekazi , the bishop of Armenian Catholic Church , X century ,

writes in his book about writings the baptism. He presents the baptism with water and oil (confirmation) as a divine institution, after which only it is possible to be a part of God in God through the Holy Spirit; “The pool of baptism with oil will make you a Christian (of Christ), meanwhile before that you only knew Christ . “Only this anointment (of Baptism ) makes you to be a heir to inherit the all offered by Father, keeping you from the [adventure] to be deceived in this world, making you anew in soul in Spirit and Truth, which can make possible to worship the Father in FAITH, IN HOPE with all-gifts.” ( Grigor Narekazi, Yerevan Academy edition, 1985, in original Grabar, “Matean Vogbergutean’ Chapter; Բ ան ՂԳ Ժ Ե : )

It was long ago.

In the Paradise, when rebellious angels were banished from the high Heaven, on their way to hell, they asked God to halt, and because God already created human with free will, the fallen angel in a Serpent’s form requested his rights to put into a test the human free will. In the Paradise, when Eve approached that tree of Knowledge, in fact it was a tree of the

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Serpent, not God’s, for God had allowed this test-examination to be performed for creatures , whom He wanted to be perfect by their own will, not by His own Will. The dualist substitute of a false God in Knowledge Tree presented good and evil, meanwhile God substance is pure GOOD. The created creatures were given one Commandment only, ‘Do not eat from this tree-’ which in fact is a violation of a free will. That is why God had allowed the devil in the Paradise, for He wanted His Commandment to be accepted by a FREE WILL of a man. That tree, a possession of the devil in the middle of the paradise, was huge, the Serpent was coiled on it, and it was a tree of good and evil, as two alternative substances. We, only we Christians, define God as a pure good nature, all other religions, including the direct religion of the Serpent (freemasonry) teach God as dualistic - the origin of good and bad (“Lucifer is god, but Adonai (Jesus Christ) is God too‘- Albert Pike). Eve was curious to take a fruit full of poison , a deadly fruit, and then you know the rest. She was not evil, she was curious . Curiosity provoked her, and this sense was above her reasonable love she had for a Creator. You can always ask for your place on that tree in on the Wall Street too, which eventually will be cut and burn in eternal fire, after the last soul is being tested- you believe in it, or not…

Truth cuts like a razor .

It oppresses your ambitions elevating you in humility. It will kill your imaginary self, unless you kill it- truth in you.

I have in my home a Botticelli Madonna, Byzantine Vladimirian Icon of our

Lady, made of pure gold, and Our Lady of Guadeloupe picture of her miraculous apparition to Juan Diego. All of them absolutely beautiful. These icons I got in different time in my life, all have a big history of miraculous cures and extraordinary events in my personal life. The humble image of Our Lady is a standard for me, reminding me who I am, and what is the definition of nobility: how to dress, how to speak , how to obey God- all my virtues are emanating from Her. She is a creature, not Creator, however she is a perfect creature, given a big power to cooperate with God. We call her a ‘mediator,’ for whatever she asks from her Son, never is being rejected.

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‘If you preserve till death in true devotion to Mary, your salvation is certain.’ St. Alphonsus Maria Liguori With reason did the Most Holy Virgin predict that all generations (except Jews)would call her blessed, for all the Elect obtain eternal salvation through the means of Mary St. Idelphonsus ‘Not a single soul who has really persevered in her service has ever been damned.’ St. Louis Marie de Montfort ‘O Mother of God, if I am under your protection, I have nothing to fear; for being thy client is a certainty of salvation which God grants only to those whom He intends to save.’ St. John Damascene ‘Being thy servant, O Mary, is a surety of salvation which God grants solely to those He will save.’ St. Andrew of Crete ‘Surely, those for whom the Queen of Mary intercedes , the clients of Mary will necessary be saved.’ St. Alphonsus Maria Liguori ‘The honor of Mary is so intimately connected with the honor and glory of Jesus that to deny the one is at the same time a denial of the other.’ Ven. William Joseph Chaminade HE WHO ANGERS HIS MOTHER IS CURSED BY GOD! Ecclesiasticus 3:8

The misconception that Armenian Apostolic Church is monophysite.

(a heresy, which contradicts the dogmatic teaching of Christ’s two natures as one , indivisible and unmixed) This heresy is fabricated and implanted by Bolshevik Atheists, by their fake scientists , historians, who falsified the original documents kept in the archives. Example . I have seen two documents in the name of Bishop Oznezi (VIII AD); one condemning the monophysite heresy , another promoting it. (in the National Archive of Original Manuscripts, Matenadaran, Yerevan, Armenia). This is the facts , which confirms that Armenian Church is Catholic and Orthodox , established by apostles St. Thaddeus and St. Bartholomew .

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The Founder of Echmiadzin See, Armenian Apostolic Catholic Orthodox Church ; Greagor Lousavorich (IV Century ). He was ordained in Caesarea as a Bishop of Armenia by the Pope. St. Mashtoz- 5th century, was in communion with Byzantine and Rome. St. Chorenazi 5th century- was exiled to the mountains and died there as a supporter of Chalcedon. St. Narekazi (10th century) - was exiled as a supporter of Chalcedon Council. Many times they tried to kill him. St. Shnorhali (12th century) was a Catholicos of Armenian Apostolic Catholic Church severely condemning anti-Chalcedonian heretics. He was educated in Rome, ordained in Rome. St. Lambronazi (13th Century)- was successor of St. Shnorhali in everything. Was educated in Rome, held a strong ties with Holy Roman Catholic Church. 1442 Catholicos Choren sent a condak (decree) to the Council of Florence about Armenian Apostolic Orthodox church being a part of Holy Roman Catholic Church. Pope Eugene IV issued a decree, 1470, giving a jurisdiction to Armenian Patriarch Hovhannes. From 15th century the Ottomans bribed Armenian ‘priests’ to cut off all ties with Rome, and after they completely succeeded , in 1890s, they started the total extermination of the Armenian population in the occupied territories of the historical Armenia. Then Bolsheviks in 1917 killed all who were true priests, and posted the nominal clergy, KGB operatives to turn the church into a political institution for the propaganda of socialism, and these operatives are in charge of the church up until these days.

No normal person can be a Muslim, because it is a religion of thieves and

murderers, as we see through historical facts, no normal person can be a Jewish cabalist, because it is a religion of devil worship and dehumanization, pride and arrogance, no normal person being a Christian would sin, as our Lord said, after being cleansed, if a person sins, ‘seven more demons come to live in a purified house,’ which is the soul of the person, and the fall of that soul is even greater afterward. ‘Catholic’ means a saint in its absolute meaning. That is why a Catholic who lives in sins and heresy is even more evil than any Muslim or Cabalist, or even itself -the devil. Such ‘Catholic’ is a greater source of evil and a big danger for society. Now I fully understand the very essence of Holy Inquisition, which executed Jewish cabalists and Catholic heretics, and Holy Crusades, which kept the Muslims away from the Christian Civilization. Freemasons destroyed the Holy Roman Catholic Church through Vatican II theology and liturgical reforms, and the imminent end of the world is at hand.

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Now we are in a period of time when we have to be ready to face God Himself, no matter what religion we represent, we will be put to the ultimate test -proving our good-will, or denying it. A New Age saints will be greatest in Heaven, even greater than early martyrs- say many saints in their writings, because they knew that the seduction is going to be in God’s Name, in God’s Church, through God‘s ‘servants‘. In these darkness of horror they celebrate in demonic joy the abominable pagan sacrifice in desecrated churches, on destroyed altars… ’Not election, but convocation-’ says St. Francis De Sale about Church. Declaring the true servants of mankind and Christ, the popes as ‘anti-Christ and the devil,’ in 16th century the hell broke up in Europe. All kings and princes looking for fornication and lust, saluted the traitor, Martin Luther ; King of Sweden, Denmark, Frederick, etc. In Germany the rebellion of peasant broke up; loot , murder, burning the villages … From 1618-48 100,000 died, 1000 Catholic convents were destroyed from the foundation, 300 churches burned and looted - with them all masterpieces of arts and treasures. In France Calvinists destroyed 20,000 Catholic churches, murdered 225 priests in Dauphine alone, thousands of monks were murdered too, nuns raped and murdered, 900 towns and villages burned. In England Henry VIII looted 645 monasteries and 90 colleges, 110 hospitals 2374 chapels . From 1530-1562 Calvinists broke open the shrine of St. Francis of Paula , at Plessis-Lestours, and dragged his uncorrupted body through the streets, and making a fire of Cross-shape, they burned the body to ashes. They did the same to the relics of St. Bonaventure , St. Irenaeus, St. Hilary, St.Martin, St.Tomas, Archbishop of Canterbury. In 1545 Pope Paul III convoked a General Council of Trent inviting these criminals, Protestant-rebels, and also unworthy ’Orthodox:’ - both refused to participate. Today there are more than 60,000 Protestant denominations, more than 200 ’Orthodox’ schismatic branches; the man’s religious subjectivism and relativity is replaced the God’s absolutism and objectivism, which Holy Roman Catholic Church used to present, and still presents in the martyrs’ heart like myself and my brothers and sisters of Vatican ‘catacombs.’

The New Age Movement, with the headquarter of the anti-popes, teach that all men

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it, until they have achieved “Christ consciousness” or “oneness with the universe” through the techniques of the “higher consciousness.” In more recent years, they also have insisted that humanity is poised to make a “sudden, evolutionary leap” or “transformation,” and that when sufficient numbers of individuals achieve a transformation (i.e., a mystical, pantheistic perception of reality), then all of the world can instantaneously make a dramatic leap forward in realizing the age-old dream of world peace, prosperity and the unity of all people embodied to a “new world order.” The apparent recent upsurge in freedom and democracy throughout the world, New Agers claim, is due, at least in part, to this “uplifting of spiritual consciousness.” This is what the ‘popes’ teach. The ‘undo’ of ‘the blessed pope:’ John Paul II the pseudo- pope had blessed the UN policy of unjust wars in the name of ‘peace.’ John Paul II the pseudo- pope presented the theosophical freemasonic theology as ‘Catholic,’ rejecting all infallible teaching defined previously.

Socialism in its primitive form as an economic government is better than

advanced capitalism, which is about governing system of private corporations , private monopoly and tyranny in the end , explains Marx . However, Socialism as a system is a pure utopia , which is possible only for a limited period. In advanced form Socialism turns into Capitalism, and in its advanced form Capitalism turns into a Socialism: this is what we understand when reading Marx’s works. The right social system is a Capitalism based on small businesses and free market. After 1970s USSR was a very secure and peaceful place; they supported small business and private agriculture , the economy was flourishing , and also they supported religions in moderated form, if it obeyed the civil laws. I say this primitive form of Socialism, which was in 90% Capitalistic- is better than the anarchy we see now in ‘democratic’ State Capitalism owned by private mega-corporations and banks. But it was not possible to maintain , for the corrupt elements had taken over the society, as it is always the case. Some people say the Monarchy is the best social form. I am a Roman Catholic- I would live in Catholic Monarchy, which is not there anymore. All people have a right to live in peace, in a lawful state, with a freedom to create, work, think, worship as the human good-will and Christian moral standards dictate. Whatever form of government provides this, is the best. (Monarchy, democracy, socialism- whatever you call it- the name is not important). How many people there are among us who would go after the soul not body?

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As it had happened in Paradise after Eave and Adam refused the soul and went after their body wherever it led them? 8? As it happened in Noah’s time? ‘And will not God bring about justice for his chosen ones, who cry out to him day and night? Will he keep putting them off? I tell you, he will see that they get justice, and quickly. However, when the Son of Man comes, will he find faith on the earth?’Luke,18:8

‘From everyone who has been given much, much will be demanded; and from the

one who has been entrusted with much, much more will be asked’ Luke,12:48 The Catholics are given a perfect formula of Faith. We don’t have any excuse to be less than perfect. We are saints, or we are devils. No middle position for us. That is God’s message.

And let no one deceives us; we will not be saved if you don’t sacrifice.

And that sacrifice should be our whole life. We have to count how many desires we have given up, and that will be our wage for Heaven. You say, ‘We are saved because of our faith.’ I say, ‘Your faith is given by the Lord, and it can be taken by Him any time, which you have no control over, unless you are established on the Rock (that is- St. Peter’s teaching). Why? Because Christ promised to save you, if you accept it, and He is loyal to His own promises only, not in any rate to you (Matthew 16:19). You say,’ We are saved by our deeds, which are good.’ I say, ‘There is no human deed worthy of God’s attention but only when you kill your own desires , overcoming your own natural boundaries .‘ You say, ‘I am relying on God’s mercy,’ and I say, “ God’s mercy can not be challenged, you have to do whatever His Will is, as you promise Him, and He promised you.’

“Fanatic’ means, ‘I do as others do; consensus is my religion.’

“Fool” means, ‘I do to please others, for my life consists in their positive feed-back.’ However, God’s children act differently. They disdain all which is of body and of this world- never looking for affirmation from anybody.

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God is intimate - between you and Him. No one comes between you . He is given to you through humility to the system, which we call ’Apostolic Teaching,” In other words- God’s Science passed through His people, if you are humble enough to listen to them and accept them.

If you truly are a Christian in this modern time of the Luciferian theological

reality, you feel yourself in this pit full of vipers, yet you pick up snakes with your hands, and when they bite you, their poison does not harm you (Matthew 21:21). How come? Because ‘Where, O death, is your victory? Where, O death, is your sting?’(1 Corinthians 15:55). Snakes: aka Extra, CBS, ABC, CNN, Vatican II= luxury-lust- tatoo- hiphap- bi-tri-sexual, etc, etc= Cain's Civil-ization = Urban-ization ; ‘urbane’ means ‘polished.’

Who are Jews - as we know them?

The biblical Jews are the generation of one family- Abraham, down to King David, St. Joseph/ Blessed Virgin Mary, to Christ . Even before Christ was born the descendants of this family were killed (Machabee Brothers), or degenerated (Pharisees ). Speaking to them , Christ no longer called them the Children of Abraham as a chosen nation ( Matthew 3:9), but snakes and brood of vipers (Mathew 23:33). Replacing Torah with Talmud, the Anointed One , Who came , as they were promised, with World’s Prince- Jews are a pagan tribe with arrogance and false pretence to be the first among nations. In fact contemporary Jews are Asqanazian Mongols , the barbarians taking over the Jewish culture, as Vatican II freemasons were taking over the Catholic Church. Noble Hebrews , the Family of our Lord Christ, are we, adopted universal nation of Sanctity and Hope.

With Henry VIII’s heresy the civil society had legalized fornication.

With fake Roman Catholic Church (after 1958 to current) heresies the society legalizes the homodictatorship and pedophilia. In other words; sexual revolution is typical to heretics.

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They never get clean of their passions - Over the years they become more and more perverted . It is because God hates heretics. at least 60% of Novus Ordo heretics are homosexuals and pedophiles.

There are so many good-hearted people among Muslims and pagans , and Jews ,

who will be in limbo for eternity, and they are worthy to be in Heaven.

Because of the Vatican II these people were not baptized, and it is a great loss for God.

Vatican II Heresies and the Names Behind.

Vatican II is a freemasonic sect in the Roman Catholic Church, which contradicts the infallible teaching previously thought as a divine revelation by the same church . Vatican II is a heresy of : 1.Syncretism (meaning : all religions are merging as one: God is a dualist Spirit of evil and good. The Dogma of Incarnation of God in Holy Trinity is rejected in full). 2.Universal Salvation (meaning : all will be saved by the merits of universal suffering of mankind , which will turn the men into Jesus Christ: the basis of this allegation is the theory of evolution : the transformation/metamorphosis of a monkey to man…of a man to god. The dogma of Redemption in a Sacrament of Penance is rejected in full ) . 3.Individual Eschatology (meaning: this heresy rejects the Dogma of a Last Judgment and the final destination of Heaven, Hell, Purgatory, as a consequence. It suggests that there will be no end of time, or end of the world, instead there will be evolution of everything to its perfection - Jesus Christ as a collective achievement ). Vatican II heresies were presented as ’documents’ and had been developed gradually through the hierarchy in the name of Roman Catholic Church (as they call it- CHURCH) to be held as infallible . The previous ‘infallible’ teaching is not refuted directly (to avoid of contradiction and obvious oxymoron)- it had been REPLACED . Main theologians of Vatican II heresies in our time are Ratzinger -Benedict XVI and -Voyotila- John Paul II . NOT Protestants and Masons, as wrongly presented! In fact these two genius humanistic minds are behind all, including John XXIII and Paul VI). The Vatican II Council is a fig leaf they cover themselves. All will be ‘canonized’ for that purpose one by one, the new Church masters; John XXIII-PaulVI-JP2-B16.

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The Analysis of the Names Behind Vatican II: Anti-Popes Note; John XXIII- the name of the anti-pope( 1410–1415). The mission of John XXIII_II is to continue the invalidation of the Roman Catholic Church. He invited Vatican II, being a high level Illuminati, he drafted all documents with the help of his ’curia.’ Paul VI had taken his name as a continuation of Pope Paul V, who was a religious symbol. Pope Paul V empowered the Roman Catholic Church with many powerful saints and social statuses ; it is a symbol of a Leader. Paul VI was to continue pontifical mission as a Leader too, taking the Roman Catholic Church in U turn from its narrow path as a ‘Militant Church‘ [turning it into a ‘Celebrating Church‘]. John Paul (I-II) is an enclosed cycle- symbolizing the mission of John XXIII and Paul VI- apostates and innovators. The name of John Paul II is a completeness , it is a symbol of achievement of apostasy and leadership, preserving its form as ’Roman Catholic Church.’ With Benedict XVI a new triumphant era of the Vatican II sect starts. His name is taken from Benedict of Nursia (480–547), who was the founder of Western monastic orders. Benedict of Nursia was named patron protector of Europe by Paul VI in 1964. In 1980, John Paul II declared him co-patron of Europe, together with Saints Cyril and Methodius. The early Middle Ages have been called "the Benedictine centuries.” Benedict of Nursia was a powerful saint setting standards, and was known for his fight against the devil. He issued a medal which was a powerful tool of exorcism in Middle Ages. It is known that this encrypted medal was stolen by freemasons and witches for occult purposes. We will find a connection between the Benedictian inscriptions and Benedict XVI coat of Arms. “ ‘Whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven. Matthew (18:18) As our Lord gave the power to the Church to loose and bound , the holy monk with his power of apostolic anointment bounded the Satan, in a special ceremonial canonized prayer presented below. A freemasonic pseudo-pope Benedict XVI’s mission was undo this anathema , loosing the devil and rendering to him his full power .

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"Eius in obitu nostro praesentia muniamur" ("May we, at our death, be fortified by His presence"). CSSML "Crux Sacra Sit Mihi Lux" ("May the Holy Cross be my light.") NDSMD "Non Draco Sit Mihi Dux" ("Let not the dragon be my overlord"). CSPB "Crux Sancti Patris Benedicti" ("The Cross of the Holy Father Benedic.t") "PAX" (Peace) or the Christogram "IHS" may be found at the top of the cross in most cases. Around the medal's margin on this side are the Vade Retro Satana initials. VRSNSMV "Vade Retro Satana, Nonquam Suade Mihi Vana" ("Begone Satan, do not suggest to me thy vanities") SMQLIVB which signify "Sunt Mala Quae Libas, Ipse Venena Bibas" ("Evil are the things thou profferest, drink thou thy own poison"). ‘Cooperatores veritatis ‘ which means ‘Truthfulness” The symbolism used by Benedict XVI is never known before in the Roman Catholic Church. What really this symbolism means under the freemasonic light of Vatican II, is a mystery which can be cracked by tedious work and by special people only. One thing is sure: this symbolism was never used previously as Catholic .

‘Let the devil be sad,’ says St. Francis Assisi, meaning that the joy of God’s

closeness should exceed in our hearts to all human feelings. St. Francis Xavier was 40 years-of -age working in China, when suddenly his hair became all gray from excessive sufferings. Sadness is a synonym of depression (which means I want-I can not get it), meanwhile suffering means,” I am, where God is.”

Can Western Catholicism survive this Era of Consumerism?

No. All is in garage-sell for final profit. What is next? “Jesus looked at them and said, "With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible." (Matthew 19:26) Benedict XVI is ‘blessed ‘ by his dualistic demonic god- that is for sure. He goes triumphantly - unnoticed as a ’fox,’ uncaught as a ‘fox‘, as it says, “ Catch for us the foxes, the little foxes that ruin the vineyards, our vineyards that are in bloom.” (Song of Solomon 2:15).

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‘He has made us competent as ministers of a new covenant--not of the letter but of the Spirit; for the letter kills, but the Spirit gives life. ‘(2 Corinthians 3:6) Where are the real Catholic priesthood who would lead us with THE POWER OF GOD AND Spirit?

Freeing Conscious From its Source; from the Jesus Christ’s Person

In the worship of pre-Vatican II Stations of Cross, we pray every time , ‘It were not Jews, who killed Christ, but my sins,’ ‘It were not Romans, who scourged and tortured Christ, but my sins,’ etc. seeing the sin, and its roots in us, as an ultimate evil, having the definition of sin as a lack of conscious in God. The ultimate evil is when incapable living for others, we make our ego and own corporal interests as a doctrine of the life, we ‘canonize’ the senses and sensuality as idols. That is why in primitive pagan religions each sin were deified as a source of the empowerment of that ego; worshipping Aphrodite (the devil of fornication), Zeus ( the devil of the power), Dionysus ( the devil of alcoholic ’joy’), Hermes (the devil of the cheaters and the thieves.) etc. Only the Law given to Moses by God (Ten Commandments) takes the mankind back to its source, to God, and the fulfillment of that law is Jesus Christ . This law makes us not only obey the law (out of fear), but also to love that law, by turning it into our substance in the Person of Jesus Christ. Jesus Christ is that law and the abolishment of that law too, because after we are adopted by Him, we become incapable to break the law. And when throughout history the humanity went after God, identifying him that as one god (so-called monotheism ), or as many gods (polytheism) . In this case Islam as a monotheic worship is the same as polytheic, for under its form of one god, Islam is a worship of the devil, in essence presented as a Black Stone ( Ka ‘bah in Mecca, Saudi Arabia) . Islam is a political system based on the intellectual imaginary ‘god,’ which had one sole purpose only- to oppose Christianity and take over the wealth of Christian Kingdom. In fact it is a most demonic false religion, which center is not even Koran , but the additions to it (Haddith Qudsi, Shari law, etc.), for the central teaching of Koran is its ‘alpha and omega-’ ‘Obey your Imam!’ Growing up in USSR, in a town of mixed population, I have seen Islamic prayers and processions, which started with a spreading of ashes and a ceremonial curse upon four corners of the Christian world, following the self- beating procession, pouring the blood and ecstasy . They had also the nights of torches, a ceremony of fire worship with invocation ( a repetitive call for empowerment ). If Islam is a socio-cultural system of unconditional submission to its master minders , the Eastern religions, Buddhism and Hinduism, in all their forms, are a form of meditation in austral nature , a union to the fathers (Buddhas) in demonic trans.

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Through the devotional practices including, bowing, offerings, pilgrimage, and chanting , the Buddha makes his journey to the Land of Buddha, uniting himself to the austral spirits , which can convert him in a metamorphosis into animals, objects, or , the highest form- to be united with supreme Buddha in ‘nirvana’ self-observation in emptiness. This pure demonic worship requires a strong disciplinary code and will, which is considered as a very attractive phenomenon for Western light-headed adventure lovers, who see it as an exotic entertainment. But how this ‘vicar’ of Christ sees it? Has St. Peter spoken through John Paul II, when he says, ’ Like Christianity Buddhism is a religion of salvation (page 85)* even though they are opposed to each other? Has St. Peter spoken through John Paul II, when he says, “ The religiosity of Muslims deserves respect’ (page 93)? Has St. Peter spoken through John Paul II, when he says, “Catholics and Jews praying to the same god‘ (page 96)? And which one is that ‘god’- Christian living God, Jesus Christ, who came to make us to understand the roots of the evil- the sin , self-love, fornication, impurity, gluttony, avarice, murder, deceit, etc, sanctifying us through His Grace of the Roman Catholic Church. or the Jewish expected god with its earthly kingdom making them masters of filthy ’goyims?’ Has St. Peter spoken through John Paul II, when he says, ‘To save means to liberate from radical, ultimate evil’ (page 70), which is the death. This ultimate evil is not a sin , as Christ teaches (a sin, which is the cause of death ) but it is the death itself (the death, which is only the consequence of the sin). And now we got rid of this evil (the death) through Christ’s Death by the magic of this aggiornamento (adjusting the teaching of Christ), as this ‘vicar’ ex-cathedra declares the

humanity of Jesus Christ (for He is ‘updatable’ ) vs. the divinity of own-self, John Paul II,

as a megalomaniac, presenting himself as god, putting himself above God. Now we are stepping into a Buddha’s land of magic by this special-of -the- day, delivered as a Yoga position, turning us not into a snake , or tree, or austral light, but to Himself -Jesus Christ. All we have to do is to ‘work’ with Dalai Lama to ’infuse’ Buddhism to the West in joined prayers in Catholic Churches - Assisi (page 85). There! An ultimate blasphemy, which had not been detected in any religion ever.

The Man on the Throne of God.

The destruction of the Roman Catholic Church and its replacement by the counterfeit church is accomplished by phases . First phase, 1960s, Vatican II Council, when they Protestantized it by abolishing the consecration rite, church altars, and the sacrificial worship of our Lord Jesus Christ.

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Second phase, 1980s, Assisi Spirit, when they turned the God’s worship into a pagan orgies of the devil worship. Third phase, 2011 when they ‘beatified’ John Paul II, the Patriarch of the neo-pagan One World Religion , after which they will pay all tribute to Lucifer for the coronation of Antichrist , the Lord of the World - which will be presented in the image of the united (mercy!) Jesus Christ (arrived II time), Islamic expected Imam Mahdi, deity Amida Buddha, pagan Zeus, etc. There! Now we all have one god, and no one is offended … *(quotes are from the book of John Paul II, ‘Crossing The Threshold of Hope,’ Alfred Knopf, K New York, 1994) ,

The Second Coming of Our Lord Jesus Christ According to the Holy Roman

Catholic Scripture vs. Vatican II-all Religions. Isaiah 9:7 - He will reign on David's throne and over his kingdom, establishing and upholding it with justice and righteousness from that time on and forever. St. Anthony the Abbot (4th Century): "Men will surrender to the spirit of the age. They will say that if they had lived in our day, faith would be simple and easy. But in their day, they will say, things are complex; the Church must be brought up to date and made meaningful to the day's problems. When the Church and the world are one, then those days are at hand [the end times]."

Venerable Bede, (673-735) “When Rome falls, the world shall fall." Maria Laach Monastery (16th Century): "The twentieth century will bring death and destruction, apostasy from the Church, discord in families, cities and governments; it will be the century of three great wars with intervals of a few decades. They will become ever more devastating and bloody and will lay in ruins not only Germany, but finally all countries of East and West." "After a terrible defeat of Germany will follow the next great war. There will be no bread for people anymore and no fodder for animals. Poisonous clouds, manufactured by human hands, will sink down and exterminate everything. The human mind will be seized by insanity." Sister Marianne de Jesus Torres (17th Century): "This will be a time [20th century]of great corruption of customs. The sacred sacrament of Holy Orders will be ridiculed, oppressed and despised, for in doing this, one scorns and defiles the Church of God, and even God Himself, represented by His priests. The

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Demon will try to persecute the Ministers of the Lord in every possible way." Blessed Rembordt (18th Century) "God will punish the world when men have devised marvelous inventions that will lead them to forget God. They will have horseless carriages; they will fly like birds." Fr. Nectou, S.J. (18th century) "The confusion will be so general that men will not be able to think aright, as if God had withheld His Providence from mankind, and that, during the worst crisis, the best that can be done would be to remain where God has placed us, and persevere in fervent prayers ... At that time there will be such a terrible crisis that people will believe that the end of the world has come. Blood will flow in many large cities. The very elements will be convulsed. It will be like a little General Judgement." (Yves Dupont, Catholic Prophecy, Tan Books and Publishers, 1973) Therese Neumann, German Mystic (20th Century): When asked if America will experience war on its soil, she replied, "No, but at the end of this century America will be destroyed economically by a series of natural disasters Pope Pius XII There were occasional rumors of visions and "angelic" phenomena associated with Pius XII during the entire duration of his papacy (1939-58). After one of these mystical visions he reportedly told one of his assistants, "Mankind must prepare itself for sufferings such as it has never before experienced. Prophecies of the Catholic saints before the second coming of Christ about Antichrist "As in Christ dwells the fullness of the Godhead so in Antichrist the fullness of all wickedness. Not indeed in the sense that his humanity is to be assumed by the devil into unity of person ..., but that the devil by suggestion infuses his wickedness more copiously into him than into all others." -St. Thomas Aquinas (Summa III:8:8) Dionysus of Luxembourg (died 1682) Antichrist will be an iconoclast. Most in the world will adore him. He will teach that the Christian (Catholic) religion is false (Connor, p.85). St. Hildegard (died 1179): Antichrist... will ridicule the graces of the Church . St. Anselm( 1109 ) While Antichrist reigns he will prohibit under the pain of death the offering of the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass (Culligan, p. 131). Athanasius (4th century) “But, whereas one heresy and that the last, which has now risen as harbinger of Antichrist, the Arian, as it is called”

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Cardinal Newman (19th century) Thus we have found S. Athanasius calling Arianism "the forerunner of Antichrist," Dionysus of Luxembourg (died 1682) ...Antichrist...He will teach that the Christian (Catholic) religion is false, confiscation of Christian (Catholic) property is legal, Saturday is to be observed instead of Sunday, and he will change the ten commandments...He will read people's minds, raise the dead, reward his followers, and punish the rest Abbott “Merlin” Joachim ( died 1202)-‘Towards the end of the world Antichrist will overthrow the Pope and usurp his See.’ “And then the antichrist will be revealed, whom the Lord Jesus will overthrow him with the breath of His mouth and destroy by the splendor of His coming.”(2 Thessalonians 2:8)

From the madness of Vatican II heretical sect:

Mother Therese as ‘a patron saint of skeptics-’ as Luther is ‘the patron ‘saint’ of Catholic Church haters,’ as Lenin is ‘the patron ‘saint’ of atheists ,’ and so on…

From Forgotten History:

From 1905 to 1922 in Baku about 200,000 Armenians were massacred by English navy arm forces in Azerbaijan , the country of petroleum oil wells, Baku, Caspian. My Grand Father Akob Yesaian , who was one of the owners of the Fountains of Petroleum Oil, could escape the death. He hired a ship and fled to Russia , 1920. My Grand Mother, Shoushanna, mourned her whole life this tragic event. I remember her stories about the Baku massacre of Armenians ; after they cur off the heads, the heads were jumping in one direction, torsos in another, the eyes were blinking rapidly before a person died. This was one of the stories which as a child I used to hear… Long-suffered Armenian nation- I am a proud descendant of this brave nation presenting the royal dynasty of Artaxiad .

With strait character,

with simple mind, with innocent heart,

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with perfect faith- filled with love, with all kind of works of goodness- Only that is how we can stand up in front of Almighty. (From Armenian Liturgy)

Whenever it is raining, usually I don’t water my flowers.

The next day, when sun is up, I see they are upset. Unless I water my plants with my hands, they don’t have a life. That is what they tell me. Hurry you too! Consider all thoughts presented very carefully! I am here to ‘water’ you too with real thoughts, which will give you life, because I LOVE YOU!

If you have peace in your house-

that is all you need. If you have discords, quarrels, a constant debasement- death is preferable .

You are in the game, or you are out of the game.

If you are in, the devil will take you all the way to the bottom of the hell. If you try to come out, after you started the game, the devil will kill you. If you are out of the game- that is where you should be!

The heretics criticize the church and priests, prompted by the evil which is inside

them. We, true sons and daughters of Christ , criticize the priests who are evil not having a calling from Christ, yet pretending to be in Christ’s service. There are two professions which you have to be born for ; a priest and teacher .

There was a time when women were not naked and a bed life was a secret.

That was a time when men were a man, women were a woman, and children were happy

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in their innocent childhood. They say, “This is a new time.” A’new time’ of depression, loneliness, mental pain, emptiness , and self-annihilation?

The modernization of the society is being done by the devil called ‘Modernization?”

We need exact terms. And there are more devils we should name ; The devil called ‘New Age,’ The devil called ‘Novus Ordo,’ The devil called ‘Democracy,’ The devil called ‘Equality of Religions,’ The list can go on…

Armenian ecclesiastical music is originated from the time of apostles, when St.

Thaddeus and Bartholomew came to Armenia for their holy mission. How Armenians had preserved this musical heritage? They coded it with special musical note symbols called ‘Khaz,’ which key has been lost in later centuries . Who can discover their reading secret? So for no one could.

What would you do if you had have all power on earth?

I would make all priests of apostolic churches to live without wages, on bread and water only, wearing a Franciscan robe and belt, living on the street for two yeas.

Will see how many real priests will remain afterward. I will insist all senators ,congressmen, president of USA, high officials of USA government and of public sectors a wage $7 per hour.

Will see how many people will run for public offices afterward occupying public offices. I will execute all serial murderers and rapists without moratorium.

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Have you ever seen the transformation of a worm into a butterfly?.

If it can do it, I can do it as well. How grand is God’s design !

Corruptible as we are , we are transformable into a glorious creatures, if we render ourselves to the next phase of our existence -looking for Him .

We die when the Heaven approaches us. And if the Kingdom of God is within us, we die in Heaven. If it is not- we die in hell. “.. because the kingdom of God is within you."Luke 17:21See More

George Washington designed USA to be an agricultural flourishing country.

Instead they turned USA nation into a slave to ‘service’ sectors and bank usury. ‘I know of no pursuit in which more real and important services can be rendered to any country than by improving its agriculture, its breed of useful animals, and other branches of a husbandman's cares.‘ George Washington

Past, Present, Future are connected and emanate from one another .

We should assess our past, understanding mistakes, guard our present, to make our future perfect. And what is the standard of that assessment ? It is the godlike nobility of our souls opposing debauchery of this world.

Democracy’ in empty heads sounds like ‘יהי אור , γενηθήτω φώς, ‘let there be

light.’ In fact it is a dictatorship of petty shop-keepers, who are self-appointed requestors to turn ideological system of their deceit into a norm of life.

Socialism/Capitalism, as a form of economy, is based on state or private

corporation ownership; both end up with accumulation of wealth under the control of some individuals and by the annihilation of a private property (Carl Marx, Capital). Catholic Distributism is the answer; an economy based on small businesses and land

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ownership.

Why do you think social revolutions were launched by freemasons starting from 18th century to this days? To destroy Church and its system or civilization, including economic. Global moral chaos& economic slavery of mankind– DONE!

System. The society is a system; all components are connected .They work

together. USSR was a system. USA is a system. No matter- socialist, capitalist, or mixed. I never was a communist, but today I wish we had not destroyed USSR. It was a system then, it is a chaos now. They want to do it with USA too.

The existing system, no matter how dysfunctional it is, it can be improved, but whence it is destroyed- it is behind reparation. “ We will destroy the old world from its very foundation”- Communist Manifesto.

(note; ‘Old World’ means Christian Civilization, ‘From Foundations’ means free market economy and Christian morals/ethics. They did it already (USSR). They saw it works. However, human creativity was more powerful, which made that system to work for the benefit of the society. Working system was not what Communist Manifesto intends. That is why they destroyed USSR in 1990s to build another, more powerful system of USA-SR . Now they mix up religions, they bring spirituality as occult to get rich, to make poor, to get smart, to make fool… Invocation of supernatural in and out ( ET, UFO, Venus Project, Astral Contact). Ego. This is not USSR. This is not USA. This is dangerous. This is Apocalypses ).

'If God lived on earth, people would break His windows.'

Jewish Proverb

From the Dark History of Russian Orthodox Church.

This church which has big ambitions when it comes to obeying the ecclesiastical apostolic hierarchy of St. Peter’s See, had performed in past as the one claiming the rights for that same See. In 1836 Russian Orthodox Church issued a Regulation (known as ‘Polojenie’ law) for Armenia (under Russian domination), ordering all Armenians and Armenian Apostolic Church priesthood to embrace Russian Orthodoxy, to surrender all Church possession. From 1903 they started to confiscate lands and assets belonging to Armenian Apostolic Church, closing all Armenian schools.

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Armenians resisted fiercely, until 1915 when the Great Genocide in Armenia’s Turkish part and 1917 Russian Bolshevik Revolution in Armenia’s Russian part completely destroyed the Catholic hierarchy of the Armenian Church, which they turned into a KGB controlled institution.

The Forgotten story of the Armenian Tamanian Division ; victims should be

remembered and honored .

In 1941, by the order of Stalin, this Armenian Division of 60,000 soldiers were pushed into front- lines to block the advancement of Nazi Germany. The survivors used to say later in their memories,’Stalin blocked the missile tubes of Germans by Armenian flesh.’ Only a handful lived to see the victory. The real story of premeditated annihilation of the 60,000 sildiers is kept secret in USSR, and strangely it is untold up until now.

When I first came to USA twenty years ago, I was surprised to see how people on

the streets smile each other and say, “Hi’. It made me so very happy, especially because “Hi’ in Armenian means an Armenian (“Հ այ “). Everybody “Armenianed “ each other - and we all were so happy. Now it is a different picture. No one smiles to no body. And if you smile and talk to a stranger, a fellow American that is, you are considered to be a simpleton. Exactly as it was in USSR. We are changed not only in our economic status. We ceased to be American.

My enemies are damned to hell not because they hate me, but because they hate

God . Days ago I met my neighbor (an Armenian middle age woman), and she told me: -Anna, my father is dying. -Have you called a priest? I asked. Then she lifted her pointer finger and said angrily: -You can not say to me what to do! The next day when I saw her, I helloed her. She said: -I don’t want talk to you! “As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you.” “Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they

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persecuted the prophets who were before you. “ (Matthew 5)

When we kiss the stole* of the priest , we acknowledge our submission to the

authority of the Church. We do not venerate priest’s persona . (*Stole is a part of the Mass vestment symbolizing the ordination power of the priest and our immortality in Christ).

Does God listen to the prayers of a person who lives in sin?

The answer is no. In Armenian Rite and St. Basil’s Byzantine Rite we renounce the sin solemnly at the doors of the Church, then we enter into. It is an original ritual. Armenian Liturgical ancient text says, “No person in sin should approach to the Lord.” Living in SIN, renouncing the sin- two different notions! One guy said one time, “ I live by robbing the houses. And every time I go for a job, I go to the church and I pray to God to help me . And he does.” You sin- You belong to the devil. No God , or angel is with you, but the devils. Unless we renounce all sins and start living holy- God will not be with us. ‘The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise.’ (Psalm 51:17)

There are mortal sins and there are venial sins.

God gives us power to overcome both, if we cooperate with His grace. If you, like a dog, return to sin, because you love it- you don’t belong to God but to the devil. I am righteous as much as I have the love of God, for what I work day and night. If I work day and night and yet, I find myself weak and I fall into sin, that is why Church sacraments are there. After the confession, I never return to that sin again.

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Do we feel happy when we sin , a sin which gives us utmost pleasure? If your answer is ‘yes’- we have no God. Every sin is a death sentence for our soul. After every sin we feel lost. This is normal for a person with soul. But if we have killed our souls in sin- we don’t even consider it as a sin anymore..

God is with the person who repents constantly, controling all actions which

would offend God. It is not up to us to judge the penitent , even ourselves, as apostle Paul says . ‘I care very little if I am judged by you or by any human court; indeed, I do not even judge myself . My conscience is clear, but that does not make me innocent. It is the Lord who judges me’ (1 Corinthians 4:3-4). As a matter of fact- In my life the more I was avoiding from the sin, the more the devil offered occasions. When I say- I have not committed a mortal sin in the last 25 years- it does not mean I did not have terrible temptations and struggles . When there was a question living on the street, or going with the devil for material wealth, I chose the first. God never ensured me the help, unless I showed that courage setting up my mind to live on the street. When I worked on my chastity, struggling very hard to clean up my oriental passionate nature, the devil brought to me a most desired person , with highest mind and excellency, a galant –knight, and there I should have chosen loneliness with cold bed with a naked back, or pleasures with uncertain future. I chose the Cross, knowing its value vs. vanity of the world. If I can do this anybody can. The hot oriental woman who lived the sinful life can abandon all and live in chastity and poverty from 28-years of age, taking all kind of humiliations and low social statuses being proud only in Christ. If I can do this- anyone can. Usually it is our mind which is wrong, working against our will. Once we set up our mind for an infinite term of existence – we become heroes. 'Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword. As it is written: "For your sake we face death all

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day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered."Romans 8:36 It is the sin only which takes my human dignity away. Loving God makes me supernatural. The lack of this love, makes us to be, as Prince Hamlet says, useless creatures dragging on our miserable existence ’between the heaven and earth.’

Do you know how sacred is your pet’s relationship with you?

How your pet is connected to you -with all its natural power of existence. I never kept a pet, for I felt guilty that I could not answer its feelings back, and their love for me tortured me. I wonder- do we love our Creator, as our pets love us- with all dedication and utmost loyalty? I used to have a duckling who cried for 24 hours , if it could not see me. A perfect duckling , a perfect cat, a perfect dog- I have seen them, and I envied them. Am I a perfect human, like they are perfect pets? Being a new-born my duckling did not have even wings, when it miraculously flew four steps of staircase when it saw me, just to touch my foot. There were many things, I did not have answer for. All I spoke, it understood, especially commands. It was like a some rational creature in duckling’s form without speech feature. I think we know little about how it is with animals. I know that they need our love, and if we love them, they overpass their natural limitations. Imagine, if we love God with a perfect love, how it would free us from our natural limitations!

One time I found an abandoned invalid dog ( I was 7 then).

I brought it home and we were great friends. My father was very angry with me, for keeping that sick dog, and he took it away from house. Taking it far away from our house, and leaving it somewhere, to his amazement the dog always came back, and every time I saw tears in its eyes and celebrated joy when it saw me. Every time it was sitting on our land boarder, not daring to step closer to the house. One time when my father took him again , it looked back to me and stared at me for long

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time . This time my father shot it somewhere, and it never came back anymore. That was the first serious trauma I had gone through. I was very often sick with nervous breakdowns since. That sick dog with tears in its eyes. I can not forget it.

My mother used to have a chicken farm.

One time she came back and said, ‘There is a thief cat, which steals the chickens.’ When she said that, it was a death sentence for the cat. She asked my cousin Arto, a brave, mischievous boy, to catch and kill the ‘guilty’ cat. And he did. It was a huge red cat with blue eyes, and Arto hang it in our backyard . Then he asked me to go with him and see his ‘job’. The poor cat was hanging on the rope in his neck, still alive, and Arto was teasing the dying cat, sometimes hitting it with the stick too. I ran to the house and brought my father’s cigarette, putting it in cats mouth. It was fun. After we finished our criminal game, I went to continue to play in our yard . The following minutes I fell on my forehead hitting the hard asphalt and was dead. I was taken to the hospital. I had a serious concoction. For long time, after recueration , I used to see exploding lights before my eyes, suffering with severe headeches. The migraines I suffer up to these days is the mark of that crime, which I carry with me for the rest of my life. Animal cruelty is a mortal sin:I did not know this back then.

Let the devil be sad,’ says St. Francis Assisi, meaning that the joy of God’s

closeness should exceed in our hearts over all human feelings. St. Francis Xavier was 40 years-of -age working in China, when suddenly his hair became all grey from excessive sufferings. Sadness is a synonym of depression (which means I want-I can not get it), meanwhile suffering means,’I am, where God is.’ There is no greater suffering than the absence of God, and when you cross the line of excessive suffering, the Crucified One stands in front of you showing that He was there before you. My ancestors survived Stalin’s and Turkish Gulags in order to pass me all they had: the capacity of suffering and the value of it.

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The Manuscriptus of Tragedy

By Saint Gregor Narekzi (X AD) ---------- Translation from Old Armenian, Grabar, ... By Anna Anahit Paitian ------- WORD 21 A Word to God from the Depths of Heart ------ a. I have behaved myself as dead , Never being able to stand up like a man, Never being able to receive a rational heart according to the Scripture- And because I have never been better from my original fall, Unable to move through the way of the goodness - Here I will expose my dark inside Do not sparing any evil feature Narrated henceforth. b. Alienated and evil as a plague - as I am- I had confirmed the legions of Belier Inviting them to dance, playing with cunning cheaters With my lax and slack grants - As a result of my secret deeds With these ruthless butchers I am wounded mortally . Those who were exiled by the Cross of Christ, Had been invited back and empowered by me. It is because my lawlessness The Name of Christ is being insulted among nations, As it happened when heathens insulted the same Name Because of lawlessness of Israel . Instead of being ruthless to the worms and rust, Which had destroyed the garden of my soul, According to the Lamentation of Joel, Who had described Israel eaten by the same evil spirit- I had collected these soldiers of the death Inside me and against me, Calling them to life Against myself- Always with them rising against Creator, Always loyal more to destroyers than to Him.

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c. Alas! Woe to me, who is wreaked !Grief, in danger! A dark shame, as I am, with hidden blames. And how I can dare to bring this all up? My lamentations are too great- unbearable - And if I could to see the picture of my soul, How ugly and paralyzed it would be exposed - Smeared with filth as a pagan temple, For it is the same to serve the sickness of the sins , Or to serve the melted-shaped idols of madness. That was the road I had chosen- Turning the part of me, which You desired for Yourself, Into a virginal desert of emptiness, As You blamed the priests of Israel according to your prophets . How can I call myself a human, when I am in the list of inhuman? How can I call myself rational, when I am fooled by my animal instincts? How can I call myself visionary, when I had extinguished all lights inside me? How can I declare myself a sensitive man, when I had lost my ability to feel? How can I present myself an intact man, when I have now a dead soul? I can not call myself even breathing or animated- For I am no longer spiritual or rational - As Jeremiah says - caught in the pain of Jerusalem - I am in a trap of the death, Abandoned for sighs and woes For the rest of my life, as the psalmist says. d. I do not hope on some creature, As a cursed one by the prophets- You, o Lover of souls! You, Who on Your Crucifix Were praying for your killers to the end Asking for the greatest mercy A charity in fullness for them- Now grant me too the hope of your Redemption, You, Life and Refuge! In order before I breathe my misery out, I could receive your Spirit of Goodness, And to You, with Holy Spirit, and with Father on Highs - Victory and Glory eternal. Amen. --------------- Saint Gregor Narekazi was a Bishop and Monk, a Catholic doctor, who was living hidden in the mountains for all his life, because anti- Chalcedonian priests were persecuting him.

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Once these enemy priests came to his cave during the Lent, and seeing the pigeons on the saint’s table, they said. - Don’t you fast, Holy Father? We see a meat on your table. The saint who provoked them showing his hospitality by all means, exclaimed. - O yes. I forgot- and then turning to cooked pigeons he said, “Now you fly away!” Instantly the pigeons flew away alive, leaving the spectators in a great awe. Saint Gregor Narekazi passed on to the generation his theological Catholic Orthodox inheritance ; many canticles, hymns, analysis of the Scripture, “ The Manuscriptus of Tragedy,” or “The Lamentaion Book,” or, in short, as Armenian nation calls it -’ Narek” - a book which was a greatest penitential textbook for centuries ; the evil tree (universal sin) is depicted as it is in every human, adopting the sins of mankind as his own, presenting it in a penitential tragedy to God, asking for His redemptive Grace for himself and all mankind. A greatest book ever written by a man!

Չ ի մ աց յ ալ մ ահ ը մ ահ է ի մ աց յ ալ մ ահ ը ան մ ահ ո ւ թ յ ո ւ ն , ` ;'

Ե ղ ի շ ե , 5th AD, ‘The death which we are not conscious about is death, The death which we are conscious about is eternity,’ Egishe, Armenian monk & priest, 5th AD. Those who love God , look like a tool for a master. It is better to give that tool to the hands of the master, in order him to use it as he needs.

Rat-Zeitgeists; A Neo-Communist Utopia

He (Ratzinger-Benedict XVI) proposes a model of subsidiary, as a human globalization governance, which is a kind of hierarchic structure of economics and religion, when reciprocally humanity merges in one. He calls this a principle of ‘freedom.’ ‘ The new ‘integral humanity’ can not be restricted in a local form of government organ, and by using UN it should be reformed into a new body, i.e. into a World Government . The sovereignty of nations will be preserved by even distribution of wealth , and by offering opportunity to individuals ‘ for reciprocal ’discernment-’ as an enrichment of universal religion and morals. (summary of the CARITAS IN VERITATE of the anti-pope Benedict XVI)

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Western Catholics accommodated themselves to ‘business relationship,’ which

makes them like pebbles: wet outside, dry inside.

Understanding Catholic Marriage Law.

Roman Catholic Church is the only institution to define and realize the legal marriages , a Sacrament of a Holy Matrimony, when in a happy bond the saintly offspring is guarantee for the glory of God . According to the Church law the marriage is eternal , however it indicates the impediments which nullify the marriage, as it never had happened.

Trent Council, Session 24, Canon Law 4 puts anathema on those who reject this power of the Church to define impediments; Impediments by : 1. physical incapacity (impuberty and impotency, blood relationship ( the law forbids marriage to the fourth degree, etc) ). 2.a defect of consent (marriage nullified because of absence of mind and will, such as total ignorance, in confuso, marriage through deceit or dissimulation, for financial gain , insanity factor, one party is not baptized, etc). 3.marriges performed in the Church in prohibited time (which are Advent; until the day Epiphany, and Lent; from Ash Wednesday until the Octave of Easter ). 4.Vagrants (man/woman in constant fornication ) are NOT to be united in Holy Matrimony, but to admonish three times in the Church assigning a penance , if not obeyed- they should be excommunicated from the Catholic Church.

The theological-philosophical basis of Vatican II is the Jesuit scholar Pierre

Teilhard de Chardin’s theory of neo-theosophy ; men will be developed into god (Darwinism of metamorphosis ), and in the end all men will become into Christ. The denial of the Redemption and Divinity of Jesus Christ is the key point for Vatican II and its community . Pope Gregory I “It is true that one sins against the rule who adheres to the letter and leaves aside the spirit” Pope Boniface XIII “The highest law is ...the salvation of Souls” Pope Pius X

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CCCCredo: I am a Roman Catholic of canonized Latin and Armenian Orthodox Rites,

a citizen of USA, and these are my convictions which no one can change or alter;

I confess the profession of the Trent Council ; all what teaches it, I accept, all which

rejects it, I reject. 1. I believe that Benedict XVI is an anti-pope, who destroyed the Christ’s Church

and Christianity in essence with his previous Vatican II Council and its popes.

Considering all facts, from 1958 the Roman Catholic Church ceased to exist.

(Confirmed by : 1 John 2:19, 1 John 2:22 1 John 4:1,2 John 1:7,2 John 1:9 ,2 John

1:10, etc, by all canon laws of the Holy Trent Council).

All who promote this outsider as a ‘pope,‘ should be marked as an enemy of the

Church , which our Lord Christ was established .

2. Homosexuals/prostitutes are evil, and they should be isolated from the society as

dangerous criminal elements.

(Confirmed by: Lev. 18:22 & Rom. 1:26-27, Lev 20:13 ,Gen 19:5-8, 1 Cor 6:9,

1 Tim 1:9-10, Rom 1:26-27,etc)

All who promote this crime, should be arrested.

3. Drug legalization , including marijuana, is a degradation of society and it is

criminal.

(Confirmed by: Gal 5:20,these men called sorcerers, magicians, witchcraft.2 Tim.

3:13, Prov. 31:6, 1 Cor 3:16; 6:19, etc).

All who promote this crime, should be arrested.

4. Abortion is a murder, and it should be criminalized.

(Confirmed by: Exodus 21:22-25. Job 31:14,15,Hosea 13:16,etc)

All who promote this crime, should be arrested.

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This is a basic code for Christianity but also it is the ONLY guarantee for the

survival of mankind.

Or else-

the Almighty God will exterminate the mankind.

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about the author -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Anna Anahit Paitian,

Was born in Armenia, USSR, 1955, March, in province Masis, a suburb of the capital city Yerevan. After she graduated from the local High School, she continued her education in Yerevan’s State University majoring Philology, with minor subjects included journalism, languages, teaching, etc. The degree was evaluated in USA as equivalent to MS in Armeno-Sciences. She started her career of a poet, novelist, and journalist from the school years, publishing mainly her poems . From 1981 she was a staff in Armenian National TV and Radio, working in different positions ; from sound engineer’s assistant to editor, redactor, a script writer and host. Anna Anahit Paitian, even though was published in most prestigious magazines, newspapers, and appeared on TV channels, was severely persecuted ; her works were under sever control, her self-expressive creative possibilities blocked by the KGB census. She published a poetry book, ‘Life on the Keyboard,’ 1991, Yerevan, ‘Mother Therese Came to Armenia,’ essay series, poem collections in ‘Garun,’ & ‘Armenian Working Ladies,” ‘Nork,” etc. magazines, hundreds of political , art , and religious analysis, TV interviews, films, etc. After intense persecution and even the arrest for her public activity as a journalist and a Roman Catholic, she was exiled from the country in 1993, after which she immigrated to USA. Having her soul and talent undamaged and intact – she successfully continued her artistic and creative life in USA without restrictions, making ‘a life accomplished in full-’ as she describes. She has her AA degree in Computer Science from Los Angeles City College, studied advance applications in Santa Monica College, IT graduate course in Los Angeles State University. She worked as an Assistant teacher, as a producer of own channel in Time Warner, etc. Currently she is retired, living in Hollywood with her daughter Anne.

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--------------------------- books by

Anna Anahit Paitian:

“The Life on Keyboard”- poems’ collection /in Armenian/, “Mother Therese Came to Armenia”-essay /in Armenian/, “The Orphanhood’s Symphony”- poems’ collection /in Armenian/, “John Paul II’s “Crossing the Threshold’s of Hope,” Analysis” /in English/, “The Meditation in Third Hour”- novel /in English/, “Act of Saints”- /in Armenian/, “Analysis of ‘Narek’”- /in Armenian/, “The Passion Week”- novel book /in Armenian/ “Poems. Soviet Years; To Golgotha Without God”- poems /in English/, etc.

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