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MAGICAL JOURNAL October 13, 201310/13/2013 3:37:00 AM

Dream dairy entry 1:

I dreamed I was at home or at least it was assumed to be home, I was in

the bathroom brushing my teeth I was getting dressed to go to school I

believe so was my dad and mom were there I remember my sister being

there as weel when my father let pastor ray come in the bathroom and let

his kids brush there teeth and get ready for for school as well and I

remember thinking how they lived next door and they often came by

when they need our help. I continued brushing and I was rinsing my teeth

and noticed some blood in the sink but I washed it down quickly as so no

one would see it. Then I realized there wasnt much time and I too

needed to get dress and I though now I just need to be able to see what

`I look like and my mom and dad chuckled they were in the living room

or kitchen not sure then pastor ray came back in the bathroom and gaveme what at first looked like a few doors but then when I picked then up

and took a closer look it was several hundred doors. I was excited at first

then and my mom was glad and I think my sister was jealous that she did

not get any money, then I began to cry I was so happy cause I really

wanted the money.. then I told pastor ray I couldnt accept it. He picked

up the money and tossed it out a windowed then my mom said it was 760

doors and it wasa blessing cause really need help. So I started climbing

out the window down what look like a side of a dam to go get the moneyand then out another window my my did too. My dad and I told her to be

careful its was dangerous climbing back up or maybe oin the way to the

bottom there was a valve that I think my mom accidently turned and it

opened a flood gate and it was suddently flooding the neighborhood and

my dad was trying to save mom which I believe he did but ti flood and I

finally shut off the valve but turned out the huge flood gate was and

entrance to a military base and as itstream flowed through the what

looked like a hood kinda neighborhood there were barges with all kinds

of old military supplies and equipmet on them some lady said she wanted

the guns but then someone said you cant use them only at a range the

othere person said yeah but they dont make those kind of bullets

anymore. I thinking I knew something about guns fiund one that was

long an dantquie looking but I knew it would work it was black and long

handle wood trim and a blub on top shaped lik a flame then my ex best

friend kevin white showed me a instrusment he found on the badge and

`I thought it was useless and why would he want that when there are all

these guns.the valve close but I was temperoly cut off from my mom and


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dad cuase the fllod doors closed off the area section by section until the

water resended.

MONDAY October 14, 2013


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I can remember dreaming of a being in a beautiful room with beautiful

wood floors and fine furniture,but it was not my room I was just staying

in it and I remember being fearful of something not quite sure of. Under a

dresser/worredrobe I remembered the person whos room it was I (

johnnys) was several hand guns and I said I would be safe I chose the

black 9mm. then i was In the house and the father of the children was

taking the mother I believe somewhere so the children and I were

running around preparing a surprise and gathering instruments to do a

concert. i had a collection of beautiful guitars waiting on the stage and I

was carrying in two more and preparing to setup when one of the kids

pickeup one of my guitars and I said no not that one then the engineer

from back in Austin was settting things up and need my amp inputs I was

asking a friend which amp to used and he said he didnt like the one Ichoose or something like that and the enigneers said we will use this one

cause its closer to the plugin setup he was using and then the guy who I

think was scott weiser was up connecting things above and ````I said no

not there cause the was awhole in the roof and he needed to be careful

he stepped somewhere and the beams cracked and his arm was stuck

and ai went to try to help then I was going to somewhere to take the

kids or something important some where and I had to stop cause the

water had flooded the road and I said I could not go cause the car in frontof me that I also had control of was old and and low to the ground and I

knew I could not get it through the floode area with out it getting stalled

so I willed the two cars to a parking lot and then I woke up.


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10/13/2013 3:37:00 AM


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Lesson 2. Perception of Reality 10/13/2013 3:37:00 AM

What is the meaning of my life.

Kabbalahis a wisdom/ a science that enables a person to feel and know

an upper reality.

Our five senses block us from perceiving the true, eternal reality.

There is a plan, the purpose of life is to create a creature and fill it with

unbounded delight. the thought of creation all is rooted in that one

thought.

A person is a closed box with 5 opening. These are our 5 senses. Around

it is the spiritual reality.

Egoism alters our perception of the true objective reality by filtering it tomake sense to our programming.

5 sets of desires

Food, sex, shelter wealth Honor, pride, power Knowledge Spirituality

Point in the heart( desire for spirituality) is placed in our hearts from

the Creator.

The only 2 things that exist:

The Creature=The will to receive- unconditional self love(selfishness).

The Creator=The will to bestow- unconditional love(selflessness).

The law of equivalence of form states that we are created in order

to become equivalent to the Creator, i.e. to acquire altruistic

qualities.

Getting out of the box is to change the will to receiveto the

will to bestow.


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friday oct 18thdream. 10/13/2013 3:37:00 AM

I dreamed I was in a was a big gay evenet and was looking for

my partner but couldnt find him so I went ot look for the car

think ing he might be there and finally found the car it was a red

dodge charger sports car but then there were black guys like I

think they were robbers waitig for me and I turned from the car

and began to run across the parking lot and a field and they were

chasing me then the sky was dark and stormy looking then I woke

Then I dreamed I was working at a kitchen or store of some sort

and Curtis kept asking me to go and get him food I was like ok ok

then I started talkin got cool looking girl like souixe and then I

was plaing music for here and other girllooked like some cool

alder looking version of souixe was telling how she liked souixe

music etc and I was like lets form a band they were like smilingand said yes thats ciillletc and I told them I have stuio in my

house and im a engineer I plahy music they didnt know I Ihad

studio and could play they were excited ai was happy how cool it

was going to be to record a band with the two awesome girls and

then curtied asked for me go get his food I wene out back door

and it was grass field and then ciuertis stepepped out and said

see I got luck it s fruit salasd and showed me a sandwich that

looked like a turkey dressing sandwich and I said thats not fruitsalad and his sandwich was sloppy and falling apart and I was

wondering why he thoguth it was fruit salad.


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LOVE 10/13/2013 3:37:00 AM

GOD willing he gives me desires to experience. Lord if you are

willing and it is your will. I ask open my heart and let me love

drew with your perfect love. Let our souls be as one and our

bodies and minds join together in your perfect light. To be a light

to others and a testament to your faithfulness and truth.

Amen.

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