kk i never want to tell abt my love here atleast on such pages ..

but today she hurted me at her max level ..

so i will have to talk today . Sorry my my cute friend ..

one condition is that i will stop love her if i find one guy who can love just 50% of mine to her .. i will live

single for whole life happily no worrry abt me ..

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first day when i saw her during junior audition, i just fall in love with her but i controlled on myself but

still i was waiting tht when she will open her fb account so i can contact her,she opened her account 26

aug and on same date i sent frnd req but being a senior i removed but i was the first who sent frnd req

first time ..

all the time i used to see her in college ..

after holidays at home pta nahin kya hua i usually miss her everyday controlled one month and thought

when i will got to college i will approach her ..

when came to college first i went to temple tht and wished if I see her as a first girl in college then only i

will approach her otherwise i will think this is nt m love .. even mujhe sweeper wali aunties bhi dikh gayi

to bhi mian love nahin karunga such a typical condition generated for me .. aakhir god ko bhi to check

karna tha ..

want to know wt happened :)

main har jagah dekhta hua chal rha tha ki mujhe koi to dikhe during registration i didnt find any one in

female gender .. when i was going for room 201 suddenly she was coming towards me through stairs

,really first time i was shocked how this can happen, couldn’t think anything else- totally blank .. wt to do

now ..

then after 10 day i sent frnd req she accepted and started to talk i was was was was so so so sos happy

happy happy happy ...

dailly talk almost 4-5 hours ..

jabh bhi wo unhealthy hoti i used to do fast for her ..during fast main kuchh nahin khaya except water i

followed every step with my honesty...

crsly i was very crs abut her but i didnt tell tht i love you till two months and i asked everything about her

.. or tabh tak main almost pagal ho gya tha .. she was so cute and simple .. kyun na use kisi or batein bhi

na krne dun kahin faltu ke ladke use preshan na karenge ..

then the day came when i think i should propose """ i proposed her '' she ignored and said 'not even

guessed ' .. its ok for me whole night i cried .. but still i was happy tht mujhse bat to kar rahi thi . good

nature ..

but after 4-5 day she stopped to talk to me then i hacked her account and find she was chatting with

smbody else .. i felt bad but was nt sad tht i was loving truly ..

i wrote everything about her in my dailly diary nad jabh bhi mujhe gussa aata main us diarry ko gale

lgake so jata or sochta kyun gussa kar rha us par jisse mujhe god ne apni marzi se dia hai ..

mujhe kabhi gussa nahin aaya ..

even once i checked tht she stopeed reading my msgs(almost 7 msg unread) and talking with sm other

boys ..

all the time i upset but always controlled i dont want to angry on her ...

now the day came when she meet to my ex crush ,,and usne pta nahin esa kya bta dia ki she blocked

,stopped replying on phone ...

even i talked to ex crush and said why u doing this plz plz ..the she said i will make clear everything but

she didnt ...

then i started to call and msg everyday ,no reply

no movement in college ..

it was looking like i living a dead life .. dead life .. ......

then i decided to talk her directly , but usne soft thi bolne main bhi ki mian kuchh bol,hi nahin paya or

wo darr ke bhag gayi .. she laughed ... pta nahin kaisi hai .. culdnt understand ..

nthing happend , just a dream .. even she shd talk but nt ..

one day she said tht she want to concentrate on studies thts why she dont want to talk me .. kk kk kk

good thing..

but esa ho sakta hai kabhi never ,, she just want to ignore in any way ..

whenever i call her she usually do switch off her cell ,whenever she switched off i hurted physically

myself and i written her name on my body atlseat 12 times(showed her only 4 time ) ... bt still she

switches off her cell ,she dont care abt a human being ..

i have sketched her face atleast 4 times and even i sketched her profile pic tht was smthing else (a kid) .. i

sketched everything tht she likes (actor)

even wo kisi bhi college event main participate karti hai to uski har participation ko mian frnds se mang

ke collect kar leta hun ,,anything quizz answer sheet kuchh bhi ..i have everyhitng in my room ..

but still she thinking

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sfi I M IDIOT ... ...........I M IDIOT ...

AGAR MERE PASS DO ZINDAGI HOTI MIAN EK ZINDAGI KO SUICIDE KARKE DIKHA DETA HOW MUCH I

LOVE HER .. BUT NOT I HAVE TO LIVE FOR MY PARENTS .. I CANT CRSLY EVEN U TRIED 2 TIMES TO

SUICIDE ..

SACHI MAIN NAHIN KAR SAKTA ..

KAISE SAMJHAUN TUJHE ............

I DONT LOVE I JUST WANT CARE ABT HER FOR WHOLE LIFE ...