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COVER UPWhat’s the fussabout headscarves?

WRITING WRONGSThe attitudes that pushyoung people to extremes.

SETTLE DOWNWhy immigrationshouldn’t turn yourlegs to jelly.

Editorial TeamApryl Simpson, Dorothy Iba, Sabrina Codardo,and Samantha Harding.

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Features14 - GALLERY

18 - HOROSCOPE

22 - AGONY

26 - POETRY

27 - DIRECTORY

Haringey Uncovered:Wood Green High Road

ContributorsApryl Simpson, Astley Cover,Dorothy Iba, Josh Büyükyilmaz

Katarzyna Siedlecka,Llewelyn Harrigan, Muhrat Gursoy

Sabrina Codardo, SamanthaHarding, Tahnee Grievson

Tottenham GrammarSchool Foundation

Articles08 - Talking Foreign

Nuno Pedrosa talks in a different tongue.

12 - ErrorismIs the media Islamophobic, asks Joe Sandler-Clarke.Illustration by James L’Aimable.

10 - Foreign BodiesEllen Davis-Walker on attitudes to immigration.Design by Llewelyn Harrigan.

16 - Burqas & BikinisRespect other cultures, says George Fuller.Design concept by Sabrina Codardo.

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There are always some people whothink immigrants to Britain will take ourjobs, live off our taxes, eat our (jelly)babies, and destroy our culture. But‘Britain’ only exists because Englandwas never happy just being English,and has always been desperate toimpose Englishness on everyone else,starting with its neighbours.

At its largest, the British Empire covereda quarter of the world, and ruled one infive people. British people fought theirway into countries across Asia, Africaand the Americas, taking land byforce, destroying cultures, and greedilyexploiting native people. Maybe it’s

because, after being invaded by theAngles, Saxons, Romans, Normans,Vikings and whoever else fanciedcoming here, it’s in English genes.

Just 12,000 years ago, Britain was cold,bleak and totally deserted, soultimately everyone here now cantrace their families back to somewhereelse. Perhaps if the first people here hadknown the weather would neverimprove, we would all be livingsomewhere a lot warmer, strolling insun-baked streets, taking a siesta orkicking back in glorious summersunshine. Well, we could alwaysemigrate.

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20 - Seeing is BelievingTira Jones turns her life round.

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THE JUNCTION www.thejunctionharingey.co.ukThe Junction is a place in WoodGreen Library for young people to getall sorts of advice, from all sorts ofdifferent agencies, by either makingan appointment or dropping in.

Hilda Djaba, Haringey ConnexionsManager, says, “It’s a place forpeople to come in and feel relaxed.We’ve made sure it doesn’t look likean office to make it more of arelaxing atmosphere.”

The Junction gives young people anopportunity to get advice and helpon everything from dealing withbullying to choosing a career. Go inand have a look, or visit the websitewww.thejunctionharingey.co.uk or call020 8881 7050.

Sabrina Codardo

CONTRASTwww. socialspider.comNot many organisations could havepulled it off but Social Spider, theethical design agency started byformer Exposure volunteers, hashelped young people in Hackneycreate a new magazine: Contrast.

The free magazine covers subjectsimportant to local teenagers. 5,000copies are being distributed aroundHackney in places like schools,colleges, and youth clubs. 17-year-oldRosheena Harding said, “Contrastprovides great opportunities foryoung people. It has given me thechance to develop skills that I didn’tknow I had.”

Sound familiar? Not that we want totake all the credit, but they’d benothing without Exposure.

Take a look at the first issue at www. socialspider.com.

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THE INCREDIBLE VEGGIE SHOWThe Royal Horticultural Halls 30 June 2007, 10.00am - 5.30pm www. viva.org.uk/londonHave you ever wondered what itwould be like to become avegetarian? With free tastings, healthadvice, over 100 stalls, cruelty freebody care and cosmetics, ethical

fashion and footwear, and a celebrityauction, the Incredible Veggie Showwill answer any questions you mayhave about becoming a vegetarianor simply cutting down on meat.

Entry to Europe’s biggest veggiefestival is just £3 and under 16s gofree, so see you there (even non-curious meat-eaters)!

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TOTTENHAM CARNIVALSaturday 23 June 2007www.tottenhamcarnival.co.ukIf you thought global warming would have us running for sun cream, deck chairsand outdoor swimming pools by June, the rain, cold and flu bugs might havechanged your mind. Luckily on at least one day every year, Tottenham istransformed into a tropical paradise with floats, food, speaker stacks, and dancingin the street. Let’s just hope for a bit of sun.

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show ‘bizELBIZwww.myspace.com/elbizukHaringey’s top amateur-boxing,modelling rapper is back with thesecond volume of his EP, Da Funk DatU Bump in Ya Trunk. He’s a little bit oldschool, and can slow it down for theladies, so whether you’re a wannabegangster or a hip hop honey, getonline and download his latest songsat www.myspace.com/elbizuk.

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HOLLYWOOD BLISS, MY LIFE SO FARChloe RaybanINCANTATION Alice HoffmanTo tell you the truth I really don’t readbooks, but I loved Hollywood Bliss. Itmade me feel better about my life.For example, Holly hasn’t had her firstkiss and she’s 14 years old - shocking,I know. Okay, it’s not that shocking.Holly’s mother is a famous pop star.Everyone loves her superstar mumand everything she does, exceptHolly. Her mum wants to be in chargeof everything including her life, butHolly just wishes for things that everynormal girl has like friends, aboyfriend, freedom to go shoppingand just a life! It just shows that beingrich and famous doesn’t bringhappiness.

Incantation is about Catalina andEstrella, who were best friends untilCatalina’s husband-to-be looks at herbest friend in a way she doesn’t like.Catalina also finds out that she andher family are ‘Marranos’, SpanishJews living as Catholics. As the newsof her double life spreads, she seesher love life and friendship ending inthe blink of an eye. Alice Hoffmanputs you in the shoes of hercharacters, and describes everyscene with nothing but passion.

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ADVERTIGOBassline CircusClissold Park, Stoke Newington,3-17 Junewww.basslinecircus.org.ukwww.myspace.com/basslinecircusAdvertigo is circus as you’ve neverseen it before, combining hire-wireacts, clowns, trapeze, Chinese pole,bungee with break and popping, hiphop, drum and bass, and liverapping. The show breaks down theculture of commercial advertising,blipverts and spam in a dizzying roller-coaster ride of multi media madnessand mayhem with some of the bestbreakbeat, digital graffiti, vj-ing,scratching and circus acts likely to beseen all year.

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HEARTBREAK SOUPGilbert HernandezMAGGIE THE MECHANICJaime HernandezAMERICAN SPLENDOR: ANOTHER DAYHarvey PekarNot all comics are aboutsuperheroes. In 1982, brothers Gilbertand Jaime Hernandez created Love &Rockets, a mixture of magical realism,science fiction, and meditations onthe human condition. Jaime’s punkysci-fi Maggie The Mechanic followsthe adventures of Maggie Chascarilloand her friends, including bombshellPenny Century, the wrestler RenaTitanon and Maggie's handsome loveinterest, Rand Race. The mythicalCentral American town of Palomar is

the setting for Gilbert’s HeartbreakSoup, whose tales weave in and outof the town's entire populationcreating a complex tapestry of LatinAmerican life.

Harvey Pekar has been writing hisautobiographical comic AmericanSplendor for 30 years, while workingas a file clerk in a Cleveland hospital(even after his comics brought himsuccess). In this latest collection, hecontinues to brilliantly capture thedrama in hia apparently mundaneday-to-day life: a missing cat, hisdisobedient daughter, or the price ofa bag of peanuts.

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that everyone needs to know English because is the main language. They are really lucky to know English as their fi rst language, but this idea give them the laziness to learn different languages that could be very useful in the future.

In Portugal, in most schools, children start to learn English at the age of six, when starting primary school, until at least the age of 14. During this time they learn another language also, and in some cases, a third. It’s understandable that for some it’s diffi cult to incorporate the accent and the language, but this is not the main problem. The problem is that people are too lazy to spend time learning everything again. That is not easy and pretty boring at the beginning.

“I can speak four languages. People can understand me and I understand them”

English is one of the most spoken languages in the world, but this is no reason to ignore other

languages.

A second language is a personal option, but nowadays the world is more multicultural, especially in Europe due to the European Union, and who hasn’t heard about globalisation? The world is defi nitely different. We are in a changing time and what now is maybe not that important, in a few years time is going to be essential for the life of everyone.

Is curious and frustrating that is always the English non-speaker who needs to know English and never English natives who learn a second language. I was a waiter in a pub in Portugal and most of the time the English natives were the lazier. Even in other countries, most of the time they don’t make any effort. They think

“In Portugal children start to learn English at the age of six”

By Nuno PedrosaAfter reading Parlez-vous English?, an article in our last issue about English people not bothering to learn foreign languages, Nuno, a young Exposure volunteer from Portugal, wrote this. We haven’t corrected the mistakes so you can see that you don’t need to be perfect to be understood.

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The best way to start is with the media - is very good for vocabulary. Watch a fi lm or read a book in your language, and afterwards, watch it or read it again but in the second language. On the internet is also easy to fi nd websites with the basics of each language, online courses and translators. You just need to be motivated and try to study a bit every day. Portuguese, Spanish, French, Italian and Romanian are the main Latin languages, and if you know one of them, is going to be easier to learn the others.

I can speak four languages - Portuguese (my native language), Spanish, French and English - but for all of them I make an effort to improve more and more my skills. Even if is not like the native language, people can understand me and I understand them, something that some English natives may think is impossible.

Learning a second language is not that easy but not that diffi cult. Everything depends how motivated you are and how much you practice because a stop, even if is just for a short time, is enough to lose everything you learn before.

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By Ellen Davis-WalkerDesign by Llewellyn Harrigan

In a society where 7.9 % of the population are ethnic minorities, how can people get so fi red up

about people from other countries coming to Britain?

There seems to be an idea that asylum seekers come to the UK bent on the idea of stealing jobs and lounging about on benefi ts while the rest of us go out to work. That an invasion of foreign people is putting Britain at risk; that a wave of migrants is pouring into the country stealing jobs, sponging off tax payers money and undermining ‘Britishness’.

People don’t seem to realise that immigrants come to the UK for a chance to lead a better life, and sometimes to fl ee persecution. These people are not criminals, they are doing what is necessary to carry on living, and they are not worthless. Many asylum seekers are highly skilled and can make valuable contributions to British society - we just need to give them a chance. As one of the richest countries in the world, a country that prides it self on freedom of speech, where 7.9 % of the population is made up of ethnic minorities - a democratic multi-cultural society - we should welcome them.

Those who boast of ‘a Great British society’ are perhaps not looking closely enough at what’s going on. Our society is one where certain religious groups are feared and distrusted; where the police and government will actively prejudge

“The real problem with immigration is our attitudes”

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members of those groups, and accuse them of being terrorists; where right-wing political parties like the British National Party (BNP) see themselves as representatives of the true Britain, taking racist stances on issues like immigration, and worryingly, winning three seats in the last General Election. The number of British citizens who choose to leave Britain permanently doubled from 53,000 in 2001 to 107,000 last year. That’s more than 2,000 people leaving every week. With such a high rate of emigration, we need immigration just to balance the population.

The only real problem with immigration is in the attitudes of individuals. We need to stop imagining immigration will lead to the downfall of all that is good about Britain. We can’t just sit and rant, or violently lash out against somebody just because we don’t see him or her as being British.

We know from the past what the notion of a superior race can result in. There is no superior race, we’re all just people who deserve to be treated the same. We can still maintain ‘British values’, but we should accept immigration as a positive contribution to an already diverse population of people, and as something that can truly help make Britain a better place to be.

“Those who boast of ‘a Great British society’ are not looking closely enough”

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By Joe Sandler-ClarkeIllustration by Jame L’AImable

On 8 July 2001 a group of 500 or so National Front members mobilised, ready to descend

on Bradford city centre as part of what they claim will be a peaceful demonstration. They were met by a similarly-sized group of Anti-Nazi protesters and trouble soon began. A group of mostly Pakistani Muslim lads were brutally beaten up by some of the National Front outside a pub somewhere in the Manningham area of the city, and rioting followed. Petrol bombs were thrown, and police and protesters were injured.

But the Bradford riots of 2001 do not fully illustrate the segregation and alienation that a large amount of the Muslim population of Britain experience day to day. For that you need to look at the aftermath of the riots. Leaders in the Asian community criticised the police service for being too heavy handed, and some went as far as calling the Bradford constabulary ‘institutionally racist’. One Pakistani man was jailed for 12 years for an arson attack, even though he was found not to have committed the attack intentionally.

You might think events like these are in the past, and if the constant threat of terrorism means sacrifi cing one person’s human rights, then that’s just how it goes. But recently, Abu Bakr, a Muslim bookshop owner in the West Midlands, who was arrested on terrorism charges only to be released due to lack of evidence, called Britain ‘a police state for Muslims’. It seems that some parts of Britain are quickly

“Some parts of Britain are divided societies, fertile ground for fundamentalists”

descending into divided societies, fertile ground for crazed religious fundamentalists.

During the civil rights movement of the 1960s, some campaigners became dissatisfi ed with the lack of progress that Martin Luther King’s movement was making and joined Malcolm X and later, the Black Panthers. This progression from peaceful to radical is seemingly mirrored in the UK. In deprived multi-ethnic areas such as Tower Hamlets and the West Midlands, where employment remains low and education poor, there has been an increased movement toward more extreme religious thinking.

Yet to blame the increasing radicalisation of some of Britain’s Muslim youth solely on a lack of opportunities in employment and education would be wrong. There is also a political infl uence: some estimates suggest 600,000 people have died in Iraq since March 2003; Palestine remains the world’s largest open prison; and it was only a few months ago that Home Secretary John Reid told Muslim parents to watch their children for potentially terrorist activities, a choice of words not too dissimilar to the infamous ‘rivers of blood’ speech made by Enoch Powel in the 1950s.

Given the isolation and scrutiny that most Muslims in western nations experience, there is no wonder that some turn to extremist teachings in a bid to right the perceived wrongs infl icted upon them.

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GALLERY by Astley Cover

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GALLERY by Murat Gursoy

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Cultures often clash due to the wearing of veils, notably in France where, in 1989, the French Government ruled that headscarves could be worn, but teachers had the choice of whether or not they would accept it in their classes. Between 1994 and 2003 around 100 female students were suspended or expelled from school for wearing a veil in class. Now headscarves and all religious symbols are banned from schools in France.

Although this kind of discrimination against different cultures seems a bit beyond the line, perhaps the Muslim community should respect how Western countries are run. By all means come dressed in what you are told to by religion, but if you are asked to level down the way you wear things, you shouldn’t refuse but respect the way people want to run the place.

The same is true for Western people visiting Muslim countries. If a Brit attends a Middle Eastern country, where the proper clothing is a big thing, they should respect it. If a woman dresses for the beach in something she would wear at home that reveals her body, and the locals are disgusted, the woman should understand and maybe wear a long sari-like gown. By respecting the culture, religion and law of the country you are in, no visitor needs to worry about offending people, or being prosecuted or even attacked.Whether you are from the east or west you should respect the laws of the people of any country you are in.

“Where proper clothing is a big thing, Brits should respect it”

By George FullerDesign concept by Sabrina Codardo

The Arabic word ‘hijab’ means ‘to veil’ or ‘cover’, and there is strong social pressure on women in some

Muslim countries to cover themselves in public.

There are three main types of headscarves: A hijab covers the head but leaves the face revealed; a niqab covers the face but leaves the eyes revealed; and a burqa is a gown that completely covers the body and face including the eyes. The Qur’an says women should dress modestly, and in some countries, like Saudi Arabia and Iran, religion is law. For women to

break it by not wearing a veil means punishment by religious police.In October 2006 Aishah Azmi refused to removed her veil while teaching in a primary school, Headfi eld Church of England Junior School. Despite complaints from parents she still refused to take off the burqa that covered every part of her apart from her eyes. After even the children complained to teachers that the way she dressed scared them because they couldn’t see her face or any expressions on her face, she still said no. The school suspended Ms Azmi, and told the public they were forced to go to such extremes as Ms Azmi turned up to the interview without a veil and dressed in casual clothes.

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HOROSCOPE Gemini

The guy you are dreaming about is not worth the things you have done for him. Wake up! He’s not perfect, so forget about him.

May 22 - June 21

Taurus

A friend you haven’t seen for ages will phone you... go and meet up with them. They will give you good advice that will help with your parents.

Apr. 21 - May 21

Aries

Do not let how badly the week has been going fool you, music will change your life. Go to a concert and get ready for big changes.

Mar. 21 - Apr. 20

Libra

You will fi nd yourself in a situation that you have never been in before. Even though you will enjoy it, you will still fi nd it diffi cult and not know what to do.

Sept. 24 - Oct. 23

Sagittarius

Someone you love will admit something to you, and you will have no doubts about the way you feel.

Nov. 23 - Dec. 22

Scorpio

If you didn’t think that life could get more tearful, you were wrong. Something bad is going to happen and you will never be the same again.

Oct. 24 - Nov. 22

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Virgo

It’s a good time to talk with your parents about the tattoo you would like to have, but are you sure you really want it?

Aug. 24 - Sept. 23

Cancer

Spring is a time of happiness and love... so don’t be surprised if you meet someone mysterious who will make your dreams come true.

June 22 - July 23

Leo

Think you’re good enough to take part in that competition? Think again... you still have to practice a lot.

July 24 - Aug. 23

Thinking about doing something new? Well, now is your chance. Do not miss your shot. Opportunity is just around the corner.

Dec. 23 - Jan. 20

Capricorn Pisces

You never know what could happen today or who you might meet. It could be your lucky day! Good things are coming your way.

Feb. 21 - Mar. 20 If you’ve been acting foolish lately you better stop it, or you will fall even deeper than you already are. If you do stop, good things will happen.

Jan. 21 - Feb.20

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I used to hate looking in mirrors because I wasn’t happy with what I saw. I couldn’t stand meeting people or going places so I cut myself off from the whole world. I never had any friends and I never left my room. I started being really bad just so I could get some attention, which was selfi sh but I just wanted some love.

My parents still gave me a hard time about going to work and college, but because I’m too scared to interact with people, I can’t be bothered. I just see myself failing and becoming nothing. I don’t want to let my parents down but it’s a little late now.

These days I’m becoming more depressed. I hide behind smiles and shield myself from other people.I’m making myself sick but I can’t help it.

By Tira Jones

For the past two years my life ain’t been all it’s cracked up to be. I was 17 when I left school

because I was being bullied, and it really made me look at things with a different perspective. My parents used to go on and on at me - ‘you need to go college or you need to work’ - so I tried and tried but I never got where I wanted to go.

I cried to my mum all the time, but there was nothing she could do or say that could make me feel better about myself.

I lost all confi dence and belief in myself and it hurt.

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She tells me I’m pretty even though I don’t feel pretty, and she has been there for me more than friends I’ve known for years. She’s the only one I can trust to tell my business to and not be judgemental, and get this: we’ve only been friends for four months.

So now it’s time for me to see just how good I can be, to make something of my life, to make true, good, honest, friends and get a job and go to college. I want to make my parents proud. I want them to say to me ‘I knew you could do it and we love you so much. We’re so proud of you.’ I love my parents, my sisters and my real friends. Thank you for having my back and supporting me. I won’t let you down no more.

Why is it that I keep slowly killing myself by smoking and drinking? Is this a cry for help or more attention seeking? All I know is that what I want to do, I can’t, because I’m not able to believe in me.

I take a look at my friends and see they are doing things with themselves, and it’s like I want to do that and I’m sure I can, but then behind closed doors I feel like they are laughing at me and calling me stupid and dumb.

I do have this girl who is my best friend. She makes me smile all the time, especially when I’m down.

“It’s time for me to see just how good I can be”

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by Dorothy Iba, Nuno Pedrosa, Sabrina Codardo,& Josh Büyükyilmaz

I think my mum hates me. Shedoesn’t buy me anything, tells meI’m not going to make it as a singer,and tells me I’m the ugliest thing thatcould have come out of her womb. Ithurts me each time she tells me. Ithink she’s taking her anger out onme because she got pregnant early.

Maybe you should only try and talkto your mother when she’s in a happymood, and stay out of her way therest of the time. Ask her why she saysthose mean and hurtful things to you(but make sure she’s in a good moodbefore you ask). Perhaps she’s justtrying to make sure you’re notdisappointed if you don’t becomethe next Beyoncé.

I’m 19 years old, and my head isbigger than normal, even biggerthan my body. I am five feet tall andvery thin. I know this is not good orhealthy. I eat a lot, but I never getfatter or grow taller. Everybody tellsjokes about my head. What can Ido? I’m desperate.

Don’t worry, you are going to be fine.Sometimes young people, for amoment in their life, don’t like theirbodies, but this is not the catastrophethat you think it is. What’s theproblem with having a big headanyway? It just means you havecapacities that other people don’thave (like inside your massive head,you big head).

Send your problems to: The Bigger Shoe Box, Muswell Hill Centre, Hillfield Park N10 3 QJTel: 020 8883 0260, Fax: 020 8883 2906, Mob: 07947 884 282, Email: editor@exposure.org.uk

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I feel as if I was born into the wrongbody. I’m a 16-year-old boy, but I feellike I should have been a girl. I can’thelp trying on my sister’s clothes orgoing into Topshop and staring atthe skirts and shoes. I’ve also beenputting on eye liner recently but nobody has noticed. I don’t know whatto do!

I think its clear you are in seriousneed of someone to talk to, but don’tworry - everyone can get a bitoverwhelmed by girls clothes shops.And eye make-up! Wow. Pencil,liquid and cake eyeliners;eyeshadow in every colour you canthink of; mascara with 20 types ofbrushes; matching your skin tone;bringing out the colour of your eyes...no wonder you’re confused.

I have a phobia of red chairs, andwhen I’m at school I feel like they arefollowing me everywhere. All theclassrooms I go to, there they arewaiting for me. I have nightmaresabout them coming In my room atnight and hurting me, I can’t escape.What do I do?

This has to be sorted out and quickly,because there is no escaping the redchairs. Maybe you could tryconfronting them and find out exactlywhat it is they want from you. Perhapsyou were a red chair in a past life, orone of those Edwardian countrykitchen wooden chairs, or, and this isbad, a stackable orange plasticchair, and they can see it in yoursoul. Mwua-ha-ha-ha-haaahh.

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and the Youth Service wants you to enjoy, achieve and gain from a range of fun and safe learning opportunities.

Every Child Matters in Haringey...

WOOD GREEN AREA YOUTH PROJECTSports, performing arts, video nights, topical discussions and debates, quiz nights, arts and crafts and ICT.

White Hart Lane Community Sports Centre, Wood Green, N22 5QWContact Akin Akintola on 020 8489 8945 or akin.akintola@haringey.gov.uk

BRUCE GROVE AREA YOUTH PROJECTPerforming arts, music, video editing, Job Club, teenage parents’ Duke of Edinburgh, sports and other youth club activities.

10 Bruce Grove, Tottenham, N17 6RAContact Berkeley Gardener on 020 8493 1012

www.haringey.gov.uk

MILTON ROADArts and crafts, games, performing arts, ICT, video and documentary discussions, advice and information and youth meetings.

Community Centre, Milton Road, West Green, N15 6RAContact Lauren Schneider on 020 8489 8942 or lauren.schneider@haringey.gov.uk

Develop your knowledge, skills and values, and realise your aspirations.

MUSWELL HILL AREA YOUTH PROJECTSports, dance, art and crafts, topical discussions and debates and quiz nights.

Muswell Hill Centre, Hillfi eld Park, Muswell Hill, N10 3QJContact Akin Akintola on 020 8489 8945 or akin.akintola@haringey.gov.uk

POSITIVE FUTURESFootball coaching and education workshops.

Contact Errol Brown on 020 8489 8943 or errol.brown@haringey.gov.uk

EXPOSUREJournalism, graphic design and video training.

Muswell Hill Centre, Hillfi eld Park, Muswell Hill, N10 3QJContact Gary Flavell on 020 8883 0260 or gary@exposure.org.uk

TOWER GARDENSSports, performing arts, games, arts and crafts, self defence, advice and information and youth meetings.

Tower Gardens Community Centre, Tower Gardens Estate, Tower Gardens Road, Tottenham, N17 7QAContact Nicholas Gardener on 020 8489 8821 or youth.offi ce@haringey.gov.uk

DETACHED TEAMAdvice, support and guidance, IT skills, multimedia and group work in your area.

To fi nd out where we are, contact Javeeda Gill on 020 8493 1004

It’s such a shame that her life ended at 14.

People wonder why she put that knife to her skin

And why nothing in her life was seen.

She couldn’t tell a soul, it was too painful,

But it wasn’t her fault her daddy was too sinful.

The same time every night. The same thing once again.He undresses her in the dark, and little felicity feels pain.She cries when he leaves, her wounds are not shown,She’s only just started life, but she seems to have grown.At breakfast in the morning her father smiles as normal,So she decides she wants to become one of the paranormal.That night after school she kisses her mum and says goodbye,And goes to her room and the tears fly by.

She gets the razor from her dresser drawer

And her bleeding starts as she hits the floor.

She sees her school tie on the ground

So she carefully doesn’t make a sound.

She wraps it tight around her neck and shuts her eyesAnd imagines her father and all of his lies.

A thud to the floor. Her head hits really hard,

And her mother hears a bang on the floorboard.

Racing to the stairs her mother calls her name,

She opens the door and nothing is ever the same.

by Tahnee Grievson

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