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issue 4 | Winter 2014

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poetry EditorsKelly AndrewsGordon Buchan

FLASH FICTION editorB. Rose Huber

Featured artistErnest Williamson III

The Gift of Saturn (Cover)

Last Man Standing (Page 29)

www.prettyowlpoetry.comestablished | 2013

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Pretty Owl Poetry is a quarterly online journal with big print dreams

and its head in the sky. We publish poetry, flash fiction, and art.

Owls and logo design by Gordon BuchanLayout design by B. Rose Huber

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contents

poetry

Kamala Gopalakrishnan Study of the Common Cold Snooze ButtonBrad Sime Lelveless Man Thinks About Adult DaughterJennifer Jackson Berry Between My Legs & My FutureDarren C. Demaree Emily as the Seed Is the HarvestApril Michelle Bratten The Spring of Anne The Fall of AnneSimon Perchik UntitledClyde Kessler Sky Roller Let January Be the SkyJamie Haddox Losing Faith in Words Iron Range RideStephen Reilly Landlocked Hooked on a Dreamhenry 7. reneau, jr. sheared & slaughtered #2Bonnie Bishop FreightMichael Mark Gifts from our parents Zachary C. Spencer This Is Then, That Was Now FLASH FICTION

Taylor Grieshober Letter to the man of perpetual miseryAlfonso Colasuonno Riding in Cars with GirlsKristin Laurel Faking itJamie Thomson The Woman Who Ate Everything

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Study of the Common Coldby Kamala Gopalakrishnan

1. Head

Drunk-heavy, the back of itpinched into a filament of night—but the thoughts within linger in all the hours like a rawsadness. Hold the temples with pressure swirl counter-clockwise apply to affected area. To break open would reveal the shape of sleep, a supersymmetricspace.

2. Hands

Plumeria milks from the stemonto the webbed valley of my index and bruised thumb as I pick one for mother—her street is abrupt cool tremble. She checks for a fever, said my hands containedhealing properties. Since, the honeyed parts in these palms change to thecolor of uneven wind kicking up shredsof tinfoil from under the branches.

3. Eyes

Commas turned on their heads; chunks of obsidian chuckedinto a lake soup-thick with algal blooming

4. Body

Day break fever break. Lying in the bedfor too long creates grids of green in chiaroscuro, shows the imbalance of spacetime,concentrated in each impression.

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by Kamala GopalakrishnanSnooze Button

6:30my eyes are the flesh in steamedjackfruit seeds my motherboiled into a thickenedsambar. earlier i dreamt i was at the top of the ferris wheel in the sand, painted rakshasa’s tongue on the sideworn off from the power of a child’s fingernail. even so, i winced.if i shift, there is a (s)light tilt backwards to the backwaters unraveling cloud-film forty bulbous crow heads the air a tinge of urine or my brainstill making sense of a false breakfast.

7:15she picks hibiscusat six, picks the ones to fix to a fair foreheadtinged with a paste ofsaffron and amber ash.am certain my plasticfloor is instead my mother’s grey-dotted-green mosaic. wantto spill rose milkon it to make sure.

8:00to be wiser of time bells,rainforest drum beat

to be wise of infinity traps, but trapped anyway

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Lelvelessby Brad Sime

Elvis had a twin brothernamed Jessie whowas born dead.

The first time I heard that I saidholy shit.

Elvis must have always wondered about Jessie.

My fingers twitch for hers wheneverI climb the stairs.

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Man Thinks About Adult Daughterby Brad Sime

They hadn’t made itthis far since ‘85.Five babies in theneighbours grass.

Kansas City willbe rocking.

Three kids rideby on red andyellow bikes. It’s cold out now,and it’s getting dark.One of the kids is a girl.

I almost called herup to seeif she’d watched.“You’ve been waitingyour whole life for this!”

Teenagers are smokingat the park and swearingand it’s getting hard to tellthe difference betweenthe saplings and the futurein the fading fall light.

I tell you what I’d say.I’d say that Kansas City willbe rocking and that we can’twait to get back.

There is a couplenext door who justhad a baby andnamed her Kathryn.He is a baggage handler at the airport,

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and I don’t know what she does.

On my way to bedI catch a lookof my face in the mirrorwhile I stand aroundin the bathroom.

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Between My Legs & My Futureby Jennifer Jackson Berry

Unemployed & stealing watch batteries for my vibrator,

I’m keeping timebetween my legs & my future

husband is paying all the bills.There’s an extra layer

under my clothes. I’m fresh from the fitting room.

Outside we’re fogging up windows & he’s peeling back

the years, through baby doll dresses, through acid wash & neon.

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Emily as the Seed Is the HarvestBy Darren C. Demaree

Not all lifeis drifting& if we aretreasure,

front-leaningon the far sideof growth,our direction

must bechosen, actedupon withgreat intent.

If we fall,then our kneespickedthe field.

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The Spring of Anneby April Michelle Bratten

The browns are deeper than all of us,unarmed cones mixed with biblical rock,tan air swiping at tan hand, sea straw.They settle the shore with fragile shoulders,protected by one fat light house, its roofpainted white. It stands there like a womanunwilling to give in, her feet buried in pillowsof sand. Further up, legs of red and yellowtulips rip apart the countryside. So vast,this gentle stitching, this healing wound. How many women can hurt you in ambersand, dresses lifting mid-calf in the wind? A tiny hand will hold out for yours, a snakeof flower curling out from stone. Will yourisk it? Purple sky, worth it, violatedwith orange rind sun, drips over creek,stains the blue brush, or her body,a swan on the faded road, her neckas untouched as the field you stand in.

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The Fall of Anne by April Michelle Bratten

It was not a red sky. It was a burnt dark-pink, a sad cunt crying over the dead beach. She did not groan. The trees were hair. The sand, skin. There was nothing left to see except two bodies being pulled apart. She no longer opened herself up for the dead. She was a closed window, foggedby their wanting gasps. She could not help but feel like everything would look better drowned in rain, wrinkled, drenched in the will of the planet. Let’s face it: this solar system is a steaming serving of hell, its power borrowed and then neglected for fresh rolled cigarettes and breathing wine. She knows the answer to life is not hidden in her breasts or even the sky. It is answered how she chooses it to be written.

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Untitledby Simon Perchik

All day and your armsneed the smock looseand white gloves

--this barnacle is the kindthat spirals toward the lightalready nurses

on a rock half at anchorhalf this kitchen table--a small loaf and already

ravenous though once it’s cutit begins to circle closerand what your arms free

is no longer joined at the heartborn over and overas twins facing each other

lets you see your own lipsand in the darknessthat belongs to you both.

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Sky Rollerby Clyde Kessler

I might roll the skythrough all this river mud.Winter might pull its facedown into your children.

You find a song and mighthum its chorus against me.There’s a taxi full of snowrevved like heaven and ghosts.

The driver says the skyis a giant windshield worldhanging its stars close for moneynobody ever pays, except you.

So I might roll some skyand it ain’t dope, and it ain’t truth,just the wildest blue above every tree,just all silent from love.

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Let January Be the Skyby Clyde Kessler

The sky keeps blindness for the worldso it spares you from finding a quilt for the horizonwhen it freezes to your skin. Then you rediscoveryour place is one birch tree changing its winter birdsinto hungry wings, all its empty branches. Your backyardbird count makes a scrap of paper, the tally of snowdrifts.You see the driveway and mailbox are also drifting away.

The sky can’t follow you down into your work and coal.Or can it manage to heft its blue silence through your eyesand help you breathe some dust and the widest seamsof slate, the whole mountain before it sinks like a fossilinside a topo map’s ink? You don’t bother to answer me.I’m you. And you don’t bother to pack a sandwich. The sky feels like grease spreading through your blood. You just smileand ride the coal car, employed.

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Losing Faith in Wordsby Jamie Haddox

Cheap, like a gut punch, a groin punt chock-full of gluttony and deception. Stupidity is worse than greed, in a world of thieves. The only fault is getting busted, and he did. I dreamt a dirty, yellowed, little slum just hollow enough for a phony to coil up in.But my fervor for fairness ran me awry. He went untried. I tapped a foot full of losing. Losing patience, losing wagers, losing that sense of assured triumph over charlatans. I choked on an infuriating lack of consequence, my core snapping like a mad croc. Load the chemicals, the brain bullets, the heart mortars. Bear in mind the blushing ears of angerand love, are passing and apt to waver with proximity.But, all failings will shackle and shadow you for the rest of your life. Feeling for the brass knob, the villains closing in. Once, I had all the push, ofa fool, the dangling carrot of pride… fed to the punk pigsjust before the finish line.

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Iron Range Ride by Jamie Haddox

Rolling hills of iron, Ely greenstone and sediments of red deposits shape this ride, forcing a standing, stomping, fierce pedaling until it’s too steep. I walk in his wake with every rubber sole sliding, the hematite ground pulling me down. He knows the path better than I do. He’s showing me the dock where the drunks make land. A sure steel connection of the folks he knows come here searching for gold. We have to remember there are hollow spots under the shell, fifty some miles of underground drifts and raises, cut and filled. Back up the rocky hill and down across the sandy lot, he skids his tires and then pedals back to the top to do it again. I’m waiting for road-rash, rock salt in open skin, taconite tainted blood and blisters. I chew my lip, but I won’t tell him he can’t. He doesn’t hesitate, and he nails the stop. He rides circles to the gravel pit between the Wayside and the storage. Behind a narrow,green garage door he shows me an empty space the same height as his soul, speaking into the air to hear his small voice turned tall. He takes the wooded trail back, and I stay on the road. I lose sight of him in the trees. I take a left and look. He’s welded to the corner waiting for me, as I’d been for him in my own town, but this is his.

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Landlockedby Stephen Reilly

The road turns. Another gully, another farm pond.Crows skim over the yellow crests of milo,and a red-tailed hawk patient on a post for road kill.This land is strange to me. No shorelines.No salt-scented mornings. No gulls crying overhead.Do these brown rivers desire the green breath of oceans?You know better and laugh. We drive throughanother small town, closet size, the young womenmoving to Wichita, the brave ones to Denver or L.A.We’re driving to see the Gyp Hills wherethe red clay mesas are freckled silver with gypsum,my first taste of western geology, and you saythis dry land was once a great shallow sea,like the Florida Straits, and to imagine the wheatas seagrass. You point to routes taken by Canadian geese,and to the horizon where a flatlander’s imaginationtouches the wide, slow curve of earth and sky.I can see how the space and silence are measuredin acres, the miles making the Quaker quiet real,and how the farmers go mute after summer droughts.Dust devils whip up their curses into black blizzards. Only this weather can remain wild, unhampered by the barbed wire and domesticationof land and lives. Even now, a lone thunderheadpushes somewhere south of Pratt. Gray clouds flickerwebs of lightning. I am haunted by the squalls of the Gulf, by the waves swallowing my wet footprints in sand, by the scent of the salt spray spilling over seawalls.This land will never be my land. I will never knowhow to set roots deep like winter wheat under snow,like the couples with their newborns at the old Safeway.

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Hooked on a Dreamby Stephen Reilly

What adult dreams of writing a poem? – Richard Hugo

The lake always rises out of mist, the same as it did decades ago, cradled by hills,pastures for dairy cows, streams feedinginto the lake. Fallen trees and brush wherethe yellow perch and crappie school,small bluegills huddle safe under the dock,wary of walleyes and largemouths.The pike that followed my spoon backto my rowboat but would not rise to bite –it’s here again, still determined not to be caught.The north shore, its two coves, one shallow,where the cows wade up to their knees,the water soothing their overworked teats.The larger cove matted with lily pads, deep with bass,hopes for lunkers like photos in Field & Stream,perfect casts that never were. A guy can dream.Not now. A summer estate claims the coveswith a tennis court, swimming pool, putting green,a limo in the drive. Satellite photos tell all.The dairy closed. Cows gone. Cul-de-sac chic herdon the hillsides. No sign of the streams.The lake congested green with algae and hydrilla.White suckers sift the ooze with carp.No more the brown trout stocked in the spring.Let what boys come, come with their lines baitedwith dough balls or nightcrawlers. I’ll imagine for them the heavy stringers I’ve imagined for myself.

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sheared & slaughtered #2henry 7. reneau, jr.

He used to be an English professor, & Lord, have mercy! he went on & on & on:

his conspiracy theories filled with J. Edgar COINTELPRO &

federal clones in aviator shades & three-button suits, them seeIA & FBeyes of 3-letter acronym-ity, of bulletproof paramilitary vest, of covert cockroaches in their

ears decoding the illegal alien tongue of Zog & guv’ment eyes dodging glances to crawl & caper, buck-dancing around need-to-know top secret & corpulent lies

that prohibit living out loud & he just bought a new scope for the 30-Odd-6 to go fist-to-fist with the remote-control

Predator Drone making neighborhood sweeps. Every time he opened his mouthsomething crazy as crack came out: the poodle next door,

with Angel wings . . . He warned me to watch out for vaccines & hospitals & debit card plastic 666 & PG&E linemen with binoculars

& the Jehovah Witness living for The Holy Ghost & Amerikkkan Pie a la Mode & the video surveillance

from the L.-I.-Q. across the street. & Fuckin’ Homeland Insecurity paparazzi posting his 99% to Po-lice Station walls & 12 Helper Monkeys shadowing him

in black helicopters like tumescent Bottle-Flies on the horizon & caravans of black tinted-window S-U-Vs careening to the curb. & I’ve pulled all my teeth

where the cables used to come slithering through &

stockpiled rolls & rolls of Aluminum Foil to jam the scientists transmitting from the off-shore submarine & my windows

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are nailed shut with non-conductive 10-Penny nails & Duct Tape to deter fiber op-tics & my T.V. keeps watching me. Can’t you hear them?!

We are controlling transmission. We will control the horizontal. We will control the vertical. For the next hour, we will control all you see & hear.

Then one day, the taut stillness of fear descended & I just wasn’t there anymore.

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Freightby Bonnie Bishop

Below hoar frosted trees that shiver the piccolo wind to silver, snow fields drape the flanks of the hills like saturated flannel. A river unfurls a bolt of blown silk, dimpled as a whistler chasing a melody. Margins of white overhang the swift water, swerve like a flapped-open cloak.

As if this weren’t enough, along slow freight train comes shuffling through the valley, its systole and diastole strobe-likethrough trees, hauling its cargo,flickering memory, into the heartland.

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Gifts from our parents by Michael Mark

They present the brown bag to me as though it is the Torah.

If I wait long enoughmaybe I won’t have to open it.

One of those random,distracting thoughts could pop out of either of them –

“Did we tell you? Uncle Ernie found his hearing aid in his cereal box. Right in his Bran Flakes!”

Those are the real gifts.We cherish them, take them out even years later. One of us will say,“Right in his Bran Flakes!” –

and we’ll have to hold onto a banister not to fall, be carefulnot to spray what we’re eating.

Sometimes, trying to send them on a detour, I’ll ask about a relative’s latest diagnosis or fall, and they’ll forgetthey brought it and

I won’t have to gasp like I’ve always wanted

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the figurine of the fishing boy, his ass crack showing or the glass horse carrying the beheadedsoldier. Which means

they won’t follow me around the house suggesting perfect places for it, repeating“We had to, we just had to, it reminded us so much of you.”

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This Is Then, That Was Nowby Zachary C. Spencer

Where does this come together?:Woven by needle hooks in the inhales of centuries,The hot exhales and the red adobe ovens of millennia,The loaves of flake flesh bread tanned before the word,The perfect column of expression in the mind before the typewriter,The gunpowder psyche of billions after the last carbon billion–And then all unwoven again in minute measureless time.All seconds have always known one second.

You are here, and you are read:Red adobe carbon of typewritten billions,With every inhale cradling a perfect bubble of conversion,From boredom to gratitude.

You are then, and you are blind,Sun-baked oven eyes tanned by seconds past,With every exhale oozing the gunpowder smoke of regression,From reverence to disease.

Where does this come together?:Old eyes scan the grass line in the purple trip before night,And speak of Japanese dogs mistreated by Americans.Young hands grip the hot rope in a concrete abyss, whileAmerican flake flesh drips like spit from the psyche of a dog.The needle hooks destroy all columns of seconds,And all seconds are braided and rewoven.

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Letter to the man of perpetual miseryby Taylor Grieshober

If I could speak to you again, I’d tell you to quit sleeping on your stomach because it’s knocking your vertebrae out of alignment and no girl, no matter the strength of her hands or the depth of her affections, will ever be able to ease all that pain. I’m still reading that poem about you because it’s simple and I like it and I don’t like the other ones. I’ll probably never wear that dress again, though it’s flattering, because with it I’d wear a singular memory of you, handsome and grinning, begging for a kiss. You shouldn’t have had to beg. I’ll avoid Trams and Peoples and The Manor at all costs. You can have them and Belvederes too. I’d tell you about the tornado, about how I feel feeble. I’m tender all over and miss deep sleep in your big firm bed. I’m working a job I like just seldom enough to still like it and I survive off a pre-paid CSA, whiskey sodas, and dim sum dinners fronted by Andy. When you’re broke you’re more creative, you know that. So I’ll keep seeing free films at the Regent and having crazy dreams until the boys tire of their conces-sion gigs and quit. I’ll keep movies from the Carnegie on an ever-expiring library card until I’ve got to pay up and I’ll sleep in my hatchback just to get the fuck out of town for a night. I’d tell you all of this and more too, but then I’d be back here next month, writing you a longer letter about not wanting you enough.

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Riding in Cars with GirlsBy Alfonso Colasuonno

She navigates. I copilot. That’s the procedure.

She drives. Her hands are always steady on the wheel. The speedometer is always five miles over the limit, give or take a mile per hour or two. I let her take the wheel. She points out the fallen deer. She de-scribes their carcasses. She takes a hand off the wheel to point them out. “See that one, Karl?” I nod. I don’t look. “His head’s caved in. You looking, Karl?” I look outside the shotgun window. They’re always gone by then. She’ll point out the next one, and the next, and the next, and I know that we’ll synchronize our vision at some point. I tell myself that. “Betty, it’ll happen. One of these days I’ll see one of those bastards. It’ll swerve right in front of us, and I’ll see it.” She smiles when I speak.

She orders. I eat. That’s the procedure.

She told me that this is freedom. She trades in the philosophical musings of the New Age set. She speaks of the power of positive thinking and of the value of immersing yourself in love. She subscribes to a vision of the universe befitting of greaser TV stars of old sitcoms. The jukeboxes she always plays at the din-ers aren’t operated via a well-timed fist, but by the rolls of quarters that she keeps in her glove compartment. She always cues up a country-western favorite. “This is America, Karl.” I never told her it wasn’t. We eat our grits, our pancakes and sausages, our eggs and waffles, and then drive off to some other town.

She speaks. I listen. That’s the procedure.

She talks about deer carcasses and misquotes Janis Joplin lyrics. She expounds on how “Down on Me” is about oral sex. She drives us into towns with names like Barren, Wyoming and Tombstone, New Mex-ico, winds off into their back roads, places a wet finger on my throat, beckons me to some rock formation where she says she can really feel the vibration, the electric energy. She tells me it’s a different magnetism. We stay there for a while, and then we leave. We eat more waffles and pancakes, sausage and bacon, eggs and grits, or generic cold cereal. We stay at two-star motels. We stay in the car. We drive through the night.

She calls it exploring. I call it drifting. That’s the procedure.

I’m free riding with her. She drives and drives and drives. I hold the map. The GPS gives her the di-rections. That’s the procedure. The gas doesn’t run out until it does. The tires never go flat until they do. She pumps the gas. I just watch. That’s the procedure. I never ask when it’s over. She never tells me when this all started. That’s the procedure.

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Faking itby Kristin Laurel

She’s twenty-three years old, hyperventilating, complaining of chest pain. She’s crying, clutching her chest, and her arms are covered in goose bumps. I try to be gentle, tell her, “try and slow your breathing down.” But I’m really thinking, “Give me a break, we gotta start teaching this generation to cope.”

I don’t have time for this. I’ve got a five-year-old with a broken arm next door that needs pain meds, an old man with diarrhea ringing the call light who will fall if he gets up by himself; I also need to chart, go pee, and I only have an hour left of my third twelve-hour shift.

She says, “My heart is beating so hard, I think it’s going to explode.” Again, I try to be compassionate; I put my hand on her shoulder but the truth is, nervous people get on my nerves. I get her hooked up to the monitor. Her heart is beating extremely fast and irregular. While I start an IV she tells me she has some rare disease that even The Mayo Clinic can’t figure out:

“The last time I was here my heart stopped.”

“Oh shit,” I’m thinking, but I tell her, “We’re going to take good care of you.” We give her some meds to slow her heart down a little, but it hasn’t fixed the underlying problem. Her parents come into the room, she tells them,

“You guys should go home, I’ll call you if it’s anything serious.” When they leave, she says, “They’ve been through so much, this is harder for them than it is for me.” Then she asks, “Do you have kids?” I tell her a little about my daughter, what a good-hearted kid she is, how we’re looking at colleges. She’s listen-ing intently and I’m trying not to stare at the monitor— which shows her heart beating too fast, too erratic.

Another nurse comes in to see if I need any help, and next thing you know they’re both crying and talking about the last time she was here, how she almost died, how we had to transfer her, how the nurse and ED

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doc rode along in the back of the ambulance, prayed with her, held her hand. “That’s why I come here,” she says, “because people care.”

We have to transfer again. When the ambulance arrives, she’s still teary–eyed, but now she’s so calm it’s al-most scary. She gives me a great big smile, looks into my eyes and reaches for my hand; she pulls me toward her for a hug goodbye and I feel something soft kick me inside my chest.

It would be a lie to tell you I care all of the time, half the time I’m faking it. But that’s how it is sometimes— you’re going on with your business, running around, burnt out on trying to fix the world—when someone like her shows up, blows your cover to hell— makes you tender-hearted again.

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The Woman Who Ate Everythingby Jamie Thomson

At first, we blamed our neighbors, our spouses, perhaps the mice that lived under the floorboards. The celery was gone. Someone’s best pair of shoes had disappeared. We argued and spat at each other for weeks, but even after all the fighting and the tears and the making up the things we loved continued to go missing, so we knew it must be someone or something else. We kept looking. We set up a militia and patrolled the streets. Then the farmers’ sheep started vanishing in the night. This was weird because in these parts during these years the coyotes were all dead. The next morning there was no water in the water tower. We decided to convene in the town hall that afternoon, the front door of which had been reduced to a scrap-pile of wood shavings the week before. Because there were no chairs left inside, we sat on the floor. What do we do? we asked each other, but nobody had any clue what to do, so the question only continued circling the room and we only continued to spin with it, turning from neighbor to neighbor, trying to find someone who knew until we fainted. When we woke up, all was dark. Two red moons hung low in the night sky. Every now and then a flash of white might streak across the blackness. What world was this? we asked each other. It was only after one of the white flashes crushed someone that we realized these weren’t shooting stars at all, these were teeth. It was only then that we noted how similar the moons looked to tonsils. It was only then that we real-ized by god, she had eaten us too.

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ContributorsKamala Gopalakrishnan is currently a 2nd-year MFA in poetry and teaches introductory composition courses at the University of Pittsburgh. She was a finalist in the Hungry Poets competitions in 2012 and 2013. Though she was published in the 2012 edition of Calliope during her undergraduate years in WVU, this is her first off-campus publication.

Brad Sime was born during 1982 in Edmonton, Canada.

Jennifer Jackson Berry is the author of the chapbooks When I Was a Girl (Sundress Publications, 2014) and Nothing But Candy (Liquid Paper Press, 2003). Her poems have appeared in Harpur Palate, The Em-erson Review, Booth, and other journals. Poems also appeared in various anthologies in 2014, including We Will Be Shelter (Write Bloody Publishing) and By the Slice (Spooky Girlfriend Press). She is an Assistant Editor for WomenArts Quarterly Journal and lives in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania.

Darren C. Demaree is the author of “As We Refer to Our Bodies” (8th House, 2013), “Temporary Cham-pions” (Main Street Rag, 2014), and “Not For Art Nor Prayer” (8th House, 2015). He is the Managing Editor of the Best of the Net Anthology. He is currently living in Columbus, Ohio with his wife and children.

April Michelle Bratten lives in North Dakota. Her work can be found in Southeast Review, Thrush Poetry Journal, and decomP, among others. Her chapbook, “Anne With an E,” will be released in 2015 fromDancing Girl Press. She is the editor of Up the Staircase Quarterly.

Simon Perchik is an attorney whose poems have appeared in Partisan Review, The Nation, Poetry, The New Yorker, and elsewhere. His most recent collection is Almost Rain, published by River Otter Press (2013). For more information, free e-books and his essay titled “Magic, Illusion and Other Realities” please visit his website at www.simonperchik.com.

Clyde Kessler lives in Radford, Virginia, with his wife Kendall, an artist and photographer, and their son Alan. Clyde has published many poems in magazines, most recently in Decades Review, Belle Rêve, San Pedro River Review, and Still, with poems soon in Town Creek Poetry, and Apeiron. He’s a regional editor for Virginia Birds, a publication of the Virginia Society of Ornithology, and a founding member of Blue Ridge Discovery Center, an environmental education organization with programs in North Carolina and Virginia.

Jamie Haddox is an emerging poet from Minnesota. She holds a BA in Creative Writing from Metropolitan State University in St. Paul. Her work has appeared in Metro State’s literary magazine, “Haute Dish.” Jamie believes the role of an artist is to expose perspectives, and to make people feel immensely, and that poetry should strip the soul down to the nerve endings.

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Stephen Reilly’s poems have appeared in Main Street Rag, Potluck, Broad River Review and other publica-tions. He earned an associates degree from Miami-Dade Junior College (now a community college), a BA in English from Florida International University and a creative writing MFA from Wichita State University. After graduating from Wichita State, he taught classes as an adjunct instructor at Miami-Dade Community College-South Campus, Florida Atlantic and Florida International universities before teaching three years as an English teacher at St. Brendan High School in South Miami. From 1990 to the present, he’s been working as a staff writer for the Englewood and Charlotte editions of the Sun, a daily newspaper with circulation in south Sarasota, Charlotte and DeSoto counties.

henry 7. reneau, jr. writes words in fire to wake the world ablaze: free verse illuminated by courage that em-pathizes with all the awful moments, launching a freight train warning that blazes from the heart, like a cham-bered bullet exploding inadvertently. His poetry collection, freedomland blues (Transcendent Zero Press, 2014), was released in September of 2014. He also has an upcoming e-chapbook, entitled physiography of the fittest (Kind of a Hurricane Press), to be released in 2014. now, runantellyomamaboutdat!!

Bonnie Bishop is a retired teacher who lives on a peninsula north of Boston. Her first book of poems, Local Habitation, came out in 2009 through Every Other Thursday Press, affiliated with a long-running poetry workshop she has been part of for several decades. O Crocodile, her chapbook, was published by Finishing Line Press in 2013.

Michael Mark is a hospice volunteer and long distance walker. His poetry has appeared or is forthcoming in Angle Journal, Diverse Voices Quarterly, Empty Mirror, Everyday Poets, Forge Journal, Lost Coast Review, New Verse News, Petrichor Review, Scapegoat, Spillway, Ray’s Road Review, Red Booth Review, Toe Good Poetry, The thing itself, The New York Times, The Wayfarer and other nice places. His poetry has been nominated for a Pushcart Prize.

Zachary C. Spencer lives in a small city in Central New York. He has been writing poetry for seven years. In 2011, he published a trilogy of poems in the since-forgotten Railroad Poetry Project, a poetry journal based in the U.K., which focused on revamping Beat-style imagery and free form language. Another poem of his entitled “Speak-Easy” will be featured in the Winter/Spring 2015 issue of Lunch Ticket, an L.A. based poetry journal released through Antioch University. His greatest pleasures in life include singing, skateboarding, stone-stacking, and drinking beer.

Taylor Grieshober writes from her home in Wilkinsburg, PA. Taylor is a staff writer at The New Yinzer, an online magazine. Her work has appeared in Weave, The Pittsburgh Post Gazette, and Monkeybicycle, among others.

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Alfonso Colasuonno is an emerging writer. His fiction and poetry have been featured in The Milo Review, Postcard Shorts, Farther Stars Than These, Zygote in My Coffee, Citizens for Decent Literature, ppigpenn, Gutter Eloquence Magazine, Horror Sleaze Trash, Dead Snakes, Quail Bell Magazine, and The Camel Saloon. Alfonso graduated with a BA in Creative Writing from Beloit College. He currently lives in Brooklyn, NY.

Kristin Laurel is employed as an ED nurse and flight nurse. She lives in the quaint lake town of Waconia, Minne-sota. She owes her passion for poetry to The Loft Literary Center (MPLS) where she has studied for the past eight years and completed a two-year apprenticeship in poetry in 2011. Recent work can be seen in CALYX, The Main-street Rag, Grey Sparrow, The Raleigh Review, The Mom Egg, Verse Wisconsinand many others. Her first full-length book, Giving Them All Away, won the Sinclair Poetry Prize from Evening Street Press (Dublin, Ohio).

Jamie Thomson is a writer originally from Northampton, MA, with a BA in English from Skidmore College in Saratoga Springs, NY.

Ernest Williamson III has published poetry and/or visual art in over 500 national and international online and print journals. Professor Williamson has published poetry in journals such as The Oklahoma Review, Review Americana:A Creative Writing Journal, and The Copperfield Review. Some of his visual artwork has appeared in journals such as The Columbia Review, The GW Review, and Fiction Fix. Many of his works have been published in journals representing over 50 colleges and universities around the world. Dr. Williamson is an Assistant Professor of English at Allen University and his poetry has been nominated three times for the Best of the Net Anthology. Williamson holds a B.A. and an M.A. in English/Creative Writing/Literature from the University of Memphis and a PhD in Higher Education Leadership from Seton Hall University.