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Contents
1. Introduction…………………………………………….…...4
2. Why are we feeling dissatisfied?..........................................5 a. Stress due to strangers....................................................9 b. Stress due to lack of stability........................................12 c. Pressure due to optimization .......................................14 d. Stress due to envy ...................................................18 e. Stress due to choice of identity.....................................22 f. Stress due to mental overload.......................................25
3. Western concepts versus eastern concepts of
happiness............................................................................28 4. A model on three levels: reality, possibilities, harmony
a. A world of reality..........................................................49 b. A world of possibilities.................................................53 c. The line of birth..............................................................56 d. A world of harmony.......................................................61 e. A natural flow.................................................................64
5. Our self-perception is our self-constructed prison
a. Memory is a cheater.......................................................68 b. How perceptions of yourself depend on your moods.................................................................................71
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6. Free the flow between the levels or reality, possibilities
and harmony
a. Get a booklet ..............................................................78 b. Keep the booklet constantly with you.........................81 c. Start by all means........................................................82 d. Keep writing every day...............................................83
7. Basic rules to writing...........................................................85
8. Directing the conscious stream of your unconscious
into words.................................................................................88
9. Get a meta-view- becoming aware of your moods..............99
10. Obstacles or why your mind will tell you that you
can do without this ................................................................109
11. Conclusions......................................................................115
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1. Introduction
At the turn of my fortieth birthday, I was in a deep depression.
Future only seemed to hold only hardship and pain, I lost
interest in contacts. I would wake up at night and sit awake,
trembling with an unnamed fear. This depressive state lasted
for several years and I felt like sliding down to hell.
I hid my despair well from my family and friends, I felt
ashamed. I had no reason to feel unhappy; I had a caring
husband, two adorable kids a home, and no more worries than
the average middle class family. My doctor proposed anti
depressants but I was always suspicious about substances that
influenced my body and even more my mind and I didn’t want
to take any. I took some homeopathic treatment, without much
help.
Looking back, I think I found myself in front of a decisive
inner jump in my psychological evolution and I just didn’t
know how to make it. I was like a snake that needed to shed the
old skin but didn’t manage to get out of it. It stuck. And it hurt.
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I’ve encountered many similar cases since then. Clients who
came to me for professional reasons, in order to find another
job or another professional direction turned out to have deeper
concerns obstructing their perspectives.
Gradually, I managed to get out of the mental mud. The sun
started to shine again. The future didn’t look as dark anymore. I
learned to live again.
Today I can say that one of the decisive tools that helped me on
my long journey to recovery was a little book I used to write
my thoughts in.
Years later, during my activity as a career coach, I worked on
enhancing the approach I had used myself. I proposed it to
clients whose problems seemed to go beyond a career topic and
who seemed to be stuck in an inner evolution. The results were
beyond my dreams.
Interested by neuro-science and psychology I began to
research what was actually happening. And I decided to share
my findings
At this point I want to announce a disclaimer : this approach
does in no way replace a therapy with a psychologist, on the
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contrary, it can be used in a guided therapy. I always referred
my depressive clients to qualified help and there are cases
where consulting a doctor is absolutely necessary.
Neither do I proclaim psychopharmacology to be superfluous.
I am only suggesting that an inner state of unwellness has to be
treated in a holistic way and my approach can help to complete
what modern medicine has to offer.
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2. Why are we feeling dissatisfied?
Lea is a very attractive woman in her forties, her eyes
sparkle, she is pretty and she still has the body of a
teenager. Lea is happily married and proud mother of an
8 year old. In spite of all of that, she feels unable to cope
with her life. She can’t sleep at night and her days are
filled with anxiety.
Dan is a father of two turbulent kids. When he lost his job
in a travel agency, he decided to stay at home and look
after the children and let his wife earn a living for the
family. The day I got to know Dan he confided that he
takes anti-depressants and feels that life has no
perspectives to offer.
Compared to the situations of the homeless, the sick, the
deprived and the lonely, these two people seemingly don’t have
valid reasons to be unhappy, so why do they feel desperate?
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About 121 million people worldwide currently suffer from
depression. An estimated 5.8 per cent of men and 9.5 per cent
of women will experience a depressive episode in any given
year.
Whoever has been in a depressive state will compare the
prevailing feeling of hopelessness and despair to a self inflicted
torture that no one would wish upon any enemy. It seems as if
all happy memories of hope and success are forgotten and
darkness and doom gradually takes over.
According to statistics, every human being has a chance to
encounter a depressive phase once in their life. In the
developed world the prescription figures of anti-depressants has
tripled in the last ten years. These figures concern only the
cases where depression was treated. Therefore we can easily
suppose that the number of people feeling discouraged, cynical
or burned out and who don’t look for medical treatment are far
higher. How many hide from facing their lives through keeping
busy and giving themselves no time off to reflect lest they
might fell prey to depression?
Are we all in a gigantic trap? It seems as if dissatisfaction and
unhappiness has become part of us. Can there be valid reasons?
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Our minds are exposed to increasing pressure:
a. Stress due to strangers
There is a ring on the door. You wonder who it is- the
postman already passed, you’re not expecting anybody,
a salesman? A burglar?
You are sitting in your living room in the evening, the
TV is turned on. Suddenly you hear a funny noise from
the kitchen- some intruder or the dishwasher?
You see your boss walk into the office accompanied by
two very well dressed gentlemen that behave like
they’re masters of the place- my God- inspection? The
police? Somebody from headquarters? Consultants?
We deal with much more strangers on a daily basis than our
grandparents did. Although that might seem natural or even
exciting to some, to our stone-age brain a stranger is an
unknown entity – a potential threat. This danger has to be
evaluated and judged because of lack of information- is
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there a danger? How far can the person be trusted? How far
do his beliefs, ways of life match ours? How best to
behave?
In some cultures, information is transmitted by the name-
an Indian for example can often figure out the origin, clan,
caste religion and culture of his Indian counterpart simply
by hearing his name. In other cultures this link once existed
but is lost nowadays.
When we lack information about the person we don’t know,
we will try to find out. A quick inbuilt mechanism for
supplementing missing information are our prejudices in
judging language, skin colour, look, dress and manners,
while our subconscious evaluates gesture, mimics and
smell. Our mind in its basic structure hasn’t evolved much
since the Stone Age and for the cave man being able to
judge his counterpart, without too much time lost on
analysing, was often a question of survival. Instead of
evaluating anew whom he had in front of him he just
compared to previous experiences or collective opinions.
Prejudices are therefore natural and an in-built mental
‘shortcut’.
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When we judge a contact important we tend to complement
our first impression by a search for more accurate
information like position, curriculum or referrals. Typically
in today’s information age you would ‘google’ an important
contact if you lack other information sources.
The brain will constantly compare the findings about the
stranger with stored information- for example an Italian
individual will be linked with previous situations involving
Italians. Attention will be given to what seems out of the
‘average’, what is not stored as routine or similar
information. At the same time information will be
remembered better and be evaluated more positively if there
is already such related material available in the mind. All
of this is aimed at reducing the uncertainty risk and the
stress the mind feels facing a stranger.
The fact that a lot of people move with ease among
strangers doesn’t mean that they have lost their primary
fear, it rather means that they have gotten used to it and
developed a successful strategy in how to deal with it. Their
previous experiences were probably positive. If they are
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faced with an unusual situation, or an unusual behaviour the
fear flares up again in no time.
b. Stress due to lack of stability
Mike arrived at his company after a vacation, only to
find that the name at his office door had been removed
and all of his personal belongings had disappeared.
Mike ran to his boss to hear that he was fired and was
asked to report to HR for details.
Most people have already heard a story like that, or have
heard of similar ‘out of the blue’ events or even
experienced a threatening situation that took them totally
unprepared. Actually it is not important whether those
events are a myth that in fact statistically doesn’t happen
too often, once they are engraved in the subconscious they
permanently threaten the feeling of security.
For most people not knowing what tomorrow will bring --
where they will live, what resources they will have -- is a
constant source of stress. Where the fear of instability
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cannot be balanced through family ties, by making sure that
in case of a catastrophe other members of the clan will take
over responsibility for the family as it happens in collective
societies, or through religion or other roots the individual
feels like a tree whose roots can loose their hold in any
storm.
This kind of instability is a threat to our identity in as much
as any unwanted change is a danger for the feeling of auto
determination (the power to act) and for the feeling of
competence, both elements that influence the feeling of
identity
For example unemployment and divorce prove to be not
only difficult life-situations but identity threatening events
and as such, stress factors that can influence physical and
mental health. The feeling of having to deal alone with the
problem is an additional factor of stress.
Having to deal with a problem means being able or unable
to solve it. Being unable to solve a problem when such
capacity is expected from you is a proof for the individual
of his/her personal worth or unworthiness. Rather than
feeling good for nothing the individual can choose to fall
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sick. Sickness then is a mental strategy to abandon
responsibility for the future. When you are sick you
obviously cannot cope with a situation- the reason is
projected from the mental level to the physical. We can
only guess how many in a population are sick actually
because of their feeling of insecurity
We have to take into account though that insecurity because
of lack of stability has different resilience levels in different
cultures. When you have never been used to stability, the
chances are that you are less destabilized by an event,
because you have learned from an early age how one deals
with such situations. Also, some cultures are more
indifferent about uncertainty than others.
c. Pressure due to optimization
Recently I found an article on Internet: how to have a
career and kids: 10 tips to manage it all. It has made
me feel insufficient- last time my 3 year old was sick I
had to stay at home again cause the play school
wouldn’t take him. My boss is getting annoyed at my
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repetitive absences. How come I don’t manage an
efficient emergency support system- like they suggest in
the article?
I have gained 5 pounds in my weight in the last year
and somehow I just don’t manage to lose it, I’m eating
too many sweets . I know that I should eat more
vegetables- then I would feel less hungry.
We are faced with the need to optimize. There is increased
pressure at work to optimize contacts, working hours and
productivity and we are encouraged by society to optimize
our private lives as well: to optimize our bodies, our leisure
time, to have a hobby, be a perfect father or mother, be
well groomed, good looking, fit, and a ‘winner’.
The less time is available, the more it must be used in an
optimal way- we excuse the lack of quantity with the
assurance of quality. Who hasn’t heard of the advice to
spend quality time with loved ones if we don’t have much
time available?
Even vacation has to fulfil a certain purpose- there has to be
adventure, cultural visits or ‘wellnes’.
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And of course all of this is possible- everything suggests
that it only depends on us- publicity and the press readily
suggest role models and envisage artificial situations that
often set unachievable scales.
We wonder why our salary or our sex life isn‘t up to the
published average. Our life seems less funny and
entertaining than in a soap opera like ‘Friends’ and if we
look in the mirror, despite the new branded handbag- we
don’t resemble remotely anything close to the model in the
Dior campaign..
Society sets mercantile ideals that are spread by the media
and instil in the public a constant desire to conform to this
ideal. Since that is rarely possible these artificially
constructed desires undermine self esteem because their
true fulfilment becomes inaccessible for the common man.
Optimization seems to conquer our lives and it goes hand in
hand with the quest for goals- if you want to optimize your
timing all actions should have a specific, focused purpose.
Small goals are streamlined with higher purposes.. A looser
is a person that has no goals or hasn’t managed to reach his
goals.
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The self is left with two strategies: either to deny the
mercantile role models in search for alternative values or
build up a mask, a make believe identity that suggests total
success and leadership of purpose to the outside world and
to the self. But this make belief only manages to trick us as
long as we are busy in our routines.
This concept of optimisation is built on the need of our
conscious existence, unfortunately the subconscious
functions according to entirely different rules. Not only is it
a place where paradox reigns, but also where the search for
a purpose is inversed into the purpose of search and where
superstitions and myths are alive and kicking. Claude Levi
Strauss already recognized that in the technical civilizations
there is no time for Myth unless it is inside the individual.
Most individuals are aware of their immediate goals but are
a bit lost when it concerns their overall purpose or even
startled when they find that their purpose of life seems to
change and float according to moods. Purpose is a deeply
personal thing and rather a question of psychological
evolution than of optimization.
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In today’s optimized world of results, goals and reality
there is no space left to hide for the individual.
d. Stress due to envy
Jean-Pierre had been promoted head of another
department. Christophe doesn’t think that he is such a
good manager. Why he? He keeps asking himself-
Jean Pierre must have some relations- he must have
pulled some strings.
The Johns are going on a family vacation to Bali this
summer. How do they manage that? Bali is expensive!
What a nice spot to relax, I wish we had enough
money to go!
Andrew has found the love of his life and he is getting
married to a beautiful girl. Some guys have all the
luck!
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Some highly successful soap operas build their success on
the envy of their spectators. From time to time the message
is conveyed that also the rich , bold and beautiful can
suffer or act stupidly and this provokes a deep satisfaction
in the spectator, because it dampens the envy and feeling of
inadequacy they feel towards these role models.
Ethnology has found contentment with life’s conditions to
be greatest in societies where there is a low level of social
difference- everybody lives in more or less the same
environment without much distinction. The feeling of envy
is low because there is not much distinction. In a society
where everybody has little and the ‘luxury’ isn’t accessible
or known to the majority of people there is more help and
neighbourhood spirit going on than in a group of people
competing about who has the best. But as soon as some
members of this society acquire more due to external
forces, they incite the envy of the rest for whom the
acquisition of this ‘more’ suddenly seems to become
possible.
In a globalised world knowledge of ‘who owns what’
becomes universal and the desire of imitation finds a
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number of possibilities and probabilities which before
seemed impossible or unimaginable.
The movie ‘The Gods must be crazy’ shows a good
example: in a ‘primitive’ tribe isolated from the
‘benefits’ of civilization an empty coke bottle falling
from the sky creates tensions and envy. In the movie a
representative of the tribe is sent into the unknown to
rid the tribe of the malefic object. Reality is often
different from the ideal represented in a movie: in the
real world other members of the tribe will rather search
how to acquire the desired good for themselves.
At the same time the feeling of envy may be confronted
with the rules of society or religion that forbid such
feelings. Rene Girard takes envy to be one of the central
elements of social interaction, a factor that builds up
aggressively that has to be reduced by the sacrifice of a
scapegoat. The more envy and aggressiveness builds up
in a society the more there is a risk of somebody who
will have to be accused of provoking those feelings.
History carries many examples of such people.
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In developed societies with a clear distinction of social
hierarchy the place of the individual is less and less fixed
through genealogy, culture and caste anymore.
Consumption permits the rich to express belonging to the
top. In the Middle Ages those possibilities were reduced:
dress indicated membership to a group, certain colours or
materials like silk weren’t permitted to lesser groups. The
finance minister of Louis XIV was incarcerated because his
palace was more beautiful and opulent than the king’s.
Some of these customs still exist today.
When my husband was a young employee in a German
bank he was advised not to wear a 3 piece suit as that
was reserved for a certain hierarchical status in the
company
But in today’s society the possession of expensive cloth, of
a limousine, of a palace is more often a question of money.
Thus money creates a new top caste.
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The poor only have the choice to copy or to develop
radically different models they can identify with and where
they can acquire a prominent social position without
money. Or they can find a scapegoat and sacrifice it to
lessen the aggressiveness until its next climax.
Last year in Parisian suburbs the role of the burned
scapegoats were taken by cars.
e. Stress due to choice of identity
My grandmothers went to special ladies finishing school
where they learned how to manage a household with
servants, how to plan a dinner with guests, how to manage
household expenses, how to raise kids, how to do aquarelle
painting and how to play some music- piano or harp. In all
evidence they were being prepared for marriage with well
to do men. Nobody asked them if their aspirations went
beyond being the lady of the house.
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When you look at genealogical trees you notice that in
former centuries families tended to live in the same place,
people took up the same or a similar profession as their
parents and generations rarely moved far away- in time of
peace there was a certain frame to everybody’s life set by
society.
In the past, the question of ‘who am I?’ was answered by
the environment and this did not need much questioning. In
case of doubt they talked to a priest who would reassure
them of the divine plan.
Two world wars in Europe brought a lot of turbulence for
two successive generations- traditions were erased, women
were put to work, men to war. Afterwards, nothing was the
same. A world had to be rebuilt from scratch and not only
the exterior world but also the concepts of collective
identities and roles had to be recreated. Other parts of the
world were exposed to similar influences through wars or
economic changes.
The ‘who am I?’ question becomes a vital element of
choice and the question changes to: ‘who do I choose to
be?’ Compared to our forefathers and through the media
we have many possible answers. But what to choose?
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The surrounding world offers a multitude of attractive,
readymade choices, except that our cave man’s brain has a
difficult time evaluating the consequences in a world where
everything seems to move. We therefore often prefer to
keep several options open. We have become masters of our
identity, of our self-worth and our actions. Being
empowered to make a choice means assuming
responsibility for its consequences. A wrong choice will not
only bring a bad outcome but also put our capacity as a
chooser into a bad light.
The family or clan isn’t the reassuring home it used to be
and it doesn’t protect the individual anymore. It doesn’t
impose its rules anymore as well and as a result for an
increasing number of people it doesn’t answer the question
of identity. The own identity has to be found alone and with
it the place of the individual in his surrounding society. But
those who search don’t always find and as a result an
increasing amount of individuals feel lost.
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f. Stress due to mental overload
In the morning at the office you open your mailbox to find
150 mails- you’ll have to sort them in half an hour because
the meeting will start then. On your way you read an article
in the paper about something important you should know,
what was it again? – There, a friend has sent you a link
about an absolutely fascinating book dealing exactly with
your topic, you quickly order it, wondering when will you
find the time to read it….
Another source of stress is the clear mental overload of
information. We are more and more interconnected with the
world. The need for information has shifted to the need for
information management. What to concentrate on? What to
leave out? What to store? What to link? These are decisions
our brain has to make each day. And responsibility for these
decisions has to be taken.
The mind lacks an overview and can consequently be panic
stricken. The brain can only manage a certain number of
processes.
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For example our ‘personal’ contacts, the people with
whom we are in close link are limited to 150, if we
execute for example an activity like driving and
phoning at the same time our brain will treat both
activities successively and not concurrently.
A common strategy of the brain is to concentrate on one
activity and to zap or forget less important ones. In complex
decision processes, being aware of our insufficiency, we
tend to shove decisions unto others or to collect sufficient
proof (often in the shape of figures) to back up a made
decision so as not to appear incapable.
Another option is to ‘put the head in the sand’ hoping
nobody will notice, yet another to voluntarily reduce
information in reading only headlines, deleting mails that
seem unimportant, not taking phone calls etc.
These are only some of the reasons why we have every right to
feel stressed. As you see, a lot of those stressing factors imply
choices and decisions. In making a choice or a decision the
individual has to take responsibility for his own actions.
The outcome of a decision therefore becomes an indicator of
the quality of the individual for all to see. That means that we
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feel constantly observed and watched in our capacity to make
good decisions.
The only possible strategy for the self to escape the pressure of
responsibility is to deny its own impact or to outsource
responsibility: to see oneself as victim: victim of circumstance,
of ‘the odds’, of reality or of other people, and to suffer a
victim’s fate.
Another solution is to learn a different way to deal with our
stress and our responsibilities.
3. Western versus eastern concepts of happiness
Since the existence of mankind, humans have sought
happiness. However, the concept of happiness has changed
over the centuries and isn’t the same in each culture.
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Asked today what will make our life happy -- most of us will
give an answer that implies our wishes and desires. We tend to
believe that fulfilment of our desires will surely bring
happiness in our life.
Somebody who feels lonely will focus on his loneliness, if he
were to meet the perfect partner and not be lonely anymore-
then his life would be truly happy. The Sick will dream of how
happy they will be if they were in good health, the poor will see
heaven in the possession of money.
Often we feel that everything will turn out just fine if only the
major obstacle were moved…. only too often do we discover
when the wish is fulfilled that another desire hides final bliss
from us.
Lasting happiness seems too often out of reach.
The individual as desire- driven- that is one of the rare points
where psychologists and neuro-biologists agree. For the
neurologist the desires are basically controlled by the limbic
system of emotions, for the psychologist the basic question is
the difference between conscious and unconscious desires and
their mutual relations.
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In both cases desires are a focus of research and recognized as
necessary ‘motor’.
Those who seem content with their situation, appear ‘removed
from this world’ simple-minded and without ambition, like
people who are somehow at the margin, not participating in our
society.
Desires are therefore at the centre of the individual in the
concept of us. And the symbol for desire in our culture is
money.
In former times and still in a lot of places all over the world
men were involved in activities that were linked to covering
their basic needs as food and shelter. The exchange was limited
and until very recent in history money was scarce and rarely
used in village locations where material or service- barter was
the rule.
In today’s globalised world, resources are more and more ruled
by the markets and their activities are therefore oriented
towards offer and demand or the money that serves as medium.
With that, money becomes a key to a fulfilment of desires that
sometimes are raised by market access. Possession becomes
possible and plausible.
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Money becomes a criterion, not only of potential possession but
also of global worth. In the minds of human beings this is
related not only to goods and services but also the position on a
social ladder and with it self-esteem and self worth. Money is
therefore seen by many as one of the basic ingredients to
happiness.
Some people will judge power as being a more important
happiness factor: having the power to command other people,
being somebody important and being able to do what you want.
The one with power is a leader. The other will have to follow,
they fear or admire the leader. The powerful have an impact.
The feeling of not being able to influence, having no power and
not having money is a source of frustration and unhappiness for
many individuals.
Another valued source of happiness is positive emotions. Being
in love, being excited, feeling ‘on top of the world’ are
desirable states of mind for a lot of individuals. Having those
emotions is identified with feeling alive. The adrenaline and
serotonin rush becomes addictive, without a regular ‘inner’ shot
life seems dull and not worth living.
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Whether it is power, money, emotions or something else-
apparently human beings link their state of happiness to the
conditions of life in their world. We often believe that living in
an agreeable place, being healthy, doing some work we
appreciate, having friends, possessing money will make us
happy. Vice versa, we believe in having a special power over
these conditions through our actions.
A western model for happiness
Good environmental conditions are supposed to induce happy
thoughts.
mind
money health
surroundings
friends
environement
looks
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We tend to believe that these environmental conditions are all
somehow linked to action, an activity that produces a result in
our world. Our happiness seems to reside in our actions and
those of others and their positive outcome.
Scientific research shows that in order to generate focused
action, there has to be certain dissatisfaction. There has to be
some disharmony inside concerning the actual and the desired
state of reality. In short, my desire for a certain product will let
me think about all the possibilities to quench this desire: from
earning money, saving money to stealing, borrowing, begging
etc.
If I have no desire or need to buy or possess anything, or if
possessing is impossible: why should I care for money?
In economy the satisfaction of real or imagined needs of buyers
and sellers is the basis of microeconomics and is said to
regulate the market. The market economy needs a state of
dissatisfaction as a motor. A material link between happiness
and possession, as we are bombarded by advertising is
therefore keeping the market economy going. At the same time,
it creates frustration in those that cannot afford to buy
‘happiness’. If we all will consume only according to our basic
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needs because we had no other desires we would link to
happiness, we would have an economic depression.
But this is not our point. I only mention it here to suggest the
possible existence of an internal mechanism that might prevent
the mind from going into a permanently peaceful, satisfied
state- the ego eventually considers that it needs the drive for
action that results from dissatisfaction and is afraid of loosing
this motor of action.
Being able to act is source of self esteem. The ability to act can
be restraint by the outside world, but it can also be restraint by
the inner world. In the occidental thinking the inability to act is
a major disaster that has to have a valid cause- sickness or
somebody else’s fault. Being a victim generates a valid cause
for the mind for which result it is not responsible.
Basically most people in the developed world live in the
described world of desires. This concept is the motor of
economic success in developing countries.
It is a big paradox for the West that one of the most wide-
spread diseases prevalent is depression, although often the life-
conditions of the affected are much better than elsewhere.
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Maybe the people in the West are faced with too many
contradictions in a changing world:
We value action, but how can you act successfully when the
environment becomes too complex?
We focus on ‘reality’ on ‘what is’ as elements of decision-
making, but our perceived reality is always yesterday’s reality.
– a little confusing.
We consider mentally sane a person who is able to produce a
commonly considered acceptable action in a world where a lot
of actions seem increasingly unacceptable to the individual- a
paradox.
We value someone as intelligent who is capable of questioning
beliefs, but we ask him at the same time to have roots that
stabilise his identity.
All of these are paradox demands that most individuals cannot
produce with an existing western thinking- pattern.
Something in our way of thinking has to change.
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Now if we look at religious concepts in eastern and even in
western religions, we notice that they insist on the opposite.
They confirm that happiness and inner satisfaction isn’t
something depending on outside circumstances, but on the
inner state of mind.
Wealth and comfort are seen in most religions rather as a
hindrance to salvation. The more you possess the more you are
attached. There are examples in all religions where followers
are asked to leave all attachments behind in order to seek
salvation.
A lot of spiritual leaders create an environment in which the
laws of possession and the rules self value through wealth and
power are suspended- a sacred space .The community then
often falls into the temptation to substitute those laws by a law
of fellowship bound by the dogma- The one who is the most
devote disciple is the highest in hierarchy.
The essential message is a different one.
There is this very confusing phrase in the Bible where
Jesus suggests that if somebody slaps you on the right
cheek, hold the left. I thought for a long time that this
meant giving in to whatever ruffian came along, until the
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thought struck me that he meant something entirely
different: My self esteem shouldn’t depend on outside
events as a ruffian slapping my cheek, but come from the
inside. If I feel I have worth, if I esteem myself, nobody
can really hurt me.
This is entirely opposite to the usual functioning of human
society. Self esteem and all that is related to it is an immensely
important topic for each human being. There is nothing as
destroying as feeling that you are worthless. Psychological
research has shown that self esteem is in reality largely
dependant on the outside, on appreciation or depreciation
coming from members of our communities. The exchange of
appreciation or depreciation and the adaptation or lack of
adaptation of behaviour to standard creates the linkage or
conflicts in our societies. Religions encourage us to go beyond.
The western living- concept is based on the activity level or
rather how the environment has to be mastered through cause,
effect and action. In this mindset, for example, mainstream
Christianity asks for a change in behaviour, towards
unselfishness, mercy, care and forgiveness in actions. The basic
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aim is to better environmental conditions for everybody
through better individual action.
The psychological aim of the individual in Western culture is to
become autonomous and to then reach out to others. The
Eastern psychological concept is rather aiming to become part
of a whole.
Eastern ‘modern’ living concepts tend nowadays to follow
more and more the western model but their religions, for
example, Buddhism and Tantrism on the contrary oppose the
‘environment- influenced life’:
The concept of reality is much more relative in eastern
religions. The outside world as illusion that is created in each
mind therefore any action is a reaction to an illusion. This
approach can find its equivalent in string theory: according to
Physicists, we are just energy in different states and the world
is born through our perception and the way this perception is
processed and sorted by time and space in our minds.
This idea is complex and very abstract and most of all it doesn’t
put the individual and his intelligence at the centre around
which the life-universe unfolds. Here the individual is rather a
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floating element amongst others tied to its ego by emotions and
desires.
Since reality seems to be born in the mind, eastern concepts
believe the mind can influence reality: once we control our
inner state of mind, outside circumstances become relative.
We sometimes experience how outside circumstances can be
relative: When we are in love, other things seem to matter less.
When we are in a state of shock- for example one of our loved
ones has had a dangerous accident or we learn that we are
seriously ill- all our worries abruptly change focus. A friend
tells us about an impending disaster, except that we can see no
disaster at all, a resolving, minor problem at best and we watch
how the other is entangled in his web of fears and stress.
Unfortunately, we can usually spot this state of mind in others
but we are incapable to diagnose it in ourselves. To master
desires and fears to a point where we master the environment
takes years of hard mental training even for a monk of eastern
religion. We call the capacity to be less possessed by our own
mind games: take distance, the art of dissociating our emotions
from the facts. Since even the facts are only a result of our
perception most of us will never completely acquire that inner
distance.
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An eastern approach put in other words: when we see events
differently, we try to change the way we evaluate them: a glass,
which was half empty is now perceived as half full- all depends
on how we interpret what we see.
We can evaluate things from another viewpoint: if we can
perceive the beauty of creation and we can deviate from seeing
things as negative: there can be beauty in the ugly and in the
common. The ugly and the common are created by the
associations we have with the object. A heap of dog shit can
have an aesthetic deep meaning. You don’t believe me?
Imagine it in an arts exposition, photographed by a famous
artist in black and white like a mountain, with high contrasts….
We can put events into different relations: for example we can
consider being very unhappy of all human beings because
we’ve lost our job, but there might be somebody on the other
side of the planet to whom our life represents the ideal, because
we’ll always have the means to feed ourselves. – bring western
and eastern concept of man into play. Avoid the word ‘our’ as
you put yourself in the reader’s mind. Stay out of it.
Our perception of the outside world is relative and the mental
state we are in hasn’t much to do with reality but with our
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perception of that reality. If we change our perception we
change our reality.
Tell a story to three different people and ask them after a
week what exactly you have told them: They will tell three
different stories, because our story resonated differently
in each- so much for different perceptions.
Neuro-scientific research on perception and memory confirms
that we seem indeed to be the creators of our very own reality.
Even if we take the world to be ‘real’ our minds perceive only
30 per cent of what exists and we process only 10 per cent. 90
per cent of reality therefore passes us by, each day.
In addition, our memory of an event is entirely re-written, once
we rethink of the event- our memory is constantly adapted to
our present mood and to our conscious or unconscious
requirements: we are constantly generating our own myths.
Even if we can grasp the above discussed eastern concept and
consider it valid, it still won’t help us with daily life. It takes a
lot of abstraction to see the world as strings of energy and our
body as just an illusion especially when after some hours our
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hunger convinces us that the illusion is very real, has its
implications and won’t go away. Apparently we are bound to
action and one of those is eating.
Somehow, being human seems to mean to live with the rules
and laws of the illusion- play the game in a sense, to fully live.
So, even the understanding of the world as illusion will not free
us of it.
An eastern model for happiness
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There are actually Buddhist monks, practised in meditation,
who have managed to transform their brain waves in a for
scientists fascinating way. They are able to control their
thinking and feel happy and compassionate in the most adverse
circumstances.
This seems an enviable state, but who can retire to the
Himalayas to become a monk or spend their life in constant
contemplation? Most of us are caught up in the day to day
reality which seems too far removed from these approaches and
we aren’t in a state to renounce the world.
After we have retreated for a while from our daily stress
(usually we call that vacation) we feel more relaxed and serene
and all set to be calmer in our work. Except that a few things
that go wrong unnerve us to such a point that we are caught in a
vicious spiral of stress in no-time. And somehow we loose
control- it is as if an event has pressed an inner button and a
chain of stress is released.
Actually that is what happens. Certain reactions to certain
events have been pre-programmed in our mind during
childhood, which means that the control of the process is out of
reach. We feel like being taken over by a demon. Hormones do
their biological part: adrenaline makes our blood pressure go up
mind
money
health
surroundings
friends
environement
looks
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and heightens our concentration -- it is the hormone that
enables the body to heighten its performance to escape danger.
Testosterone gives us the necessary assertiveness to overcome
our fear and to act. Our first reaction is often hormonally
induced and stereotype, we don’t take the time to reflect on an
adequate approach. We do not manage to get the necessary
distance, because being on the job again we are caught up in
the same spiral. Buddhists call the exercise that acquires the
necessary distance detachment. It takes a life of meditation and
different conditioning or for some a heavy shock in their life to
arrive at a permanent state of detachment. Detachment is
contrary to human nature- we are constructed to live by
emotions that built social spaces, that make us react, that make
us desire. It is not in vain that religions demand to surpass
human nature.
Yet, for somebody who is already taken with a timetable that
could easily fill more than 24 hours, detachment means to retire
from the job and to grow roses (if you study the biography of
some important men you realize that is exactly how they spent
the last days of their life) .
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I always loved the Indian idea that life is separated in different
phases: study, travel and discovery , family and work,
retirement and meditation. Interestingly, the observation of
human behaviour at different stages of life shows that there is a
changing interest and a change of outlook and values according
to the ages.
Our world has become more complex also in this sense. The
young have more choices than before, the time spent with
family and work isn’t obvious anymore and the old are much
more fit and dynamic than they were before and aren’t prepared
to play a passive role in society. The capacity to train
detachment, to get a broader view becomes a general
requirement needed to cope with a more complex world.
Where does one start the way to more detachment? And how
much time will that take on the time table?
Isn’t there a way to master our mind in a more constant way
that is adapted to our ways of life?
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4. A model on three levels: reality, possibilities,
harmony
Looking back at my depressive phase, I was intrigued by the
state of anxiety and stress my mental state had put me in.
Somehow there had been no moments of peace, of joy
anymore. And at the same time I retreated into an inner realm:
Usually a talkative and dynamic person, I became passive and
quiet. I wasn’t able to act anymore. Any activity seemed
useless and to no avail, or worse it seemed like a source of
stress where all I wanted and needed was to relax. Somehow I
was caught in a trap.
Later in order to explain this trap I have used my own
experience to develop this concept of different levels we
perceive our world at.
Please watch the illustration on the next page:
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Model of our world
World of reality
World of possibility
World of universal harmony
Action, day to day necessities, ‘reality’
line of birth
Area of reflection on possibilities, on past and future events
Peace of mind the purpose of life, The higher scheme Inconscious, God
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A. . The world of reality
The upper level is the level we most commonly call reality.
When we want to be ‘realistic’ we are taking into account what
we perceive at this level.
Reality is that you read these lines right now.
Reality means that you have to get up in the morning at a
certain time in order to fulfil your obligations or that you
don’t get up at the required time but then you face the
consequences.
The world of reality means the world in which we need to act –
the world of action and its consequences. The world where
things happen and we make them happen or it happens to us.
You have an exam on Thursday- a reality,
You have a meeting at 3 pm- a reality,
You eat- a reality,
You lose your purse- a reality,
Your car is stolen- a reality,
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The sun is shining- a reality.
A lot of people live with a concept of life where reality cloisters
everything.
In a western culture we are reality oriented. And we feel that
we influence reality through our focused actions. For us an
action without a purpose is deeply suspicious: Doing always
implies a sense behind it, whether it is to work, to relax, to
enjoy, to create, to analyse…
Action without a purpose is seen at best as dangerous and
foolish, at worst a sign for a weak debilitated individual. Even
when we resort to meditation or Yoga it is to sleep better or to
help an aching back. In that sense such activities are considered
to make the world of reality better.
Reality is often the only thing we truly believe in – we trust
what we experience, what we see or hear or what we learn from
trusted sources that fit into our logical system. Anything that
contradicts this logic cannot but be wrong. Our world of reality
is often the only world that is important for us, and it obeys
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‘scientific’ rules. We interpret these sources with a reality/
information perspective.
The world of reality is the world around us we perceive to be
true and our material relation to it: the world we act in and the
world that acts upon us. We take this reality to be objective and
shared by everybody.
Somebody sound of mind will have a vision of this world of
reality that is acceptable to society, someone who is considered
mentally retarded or mentally ill will not share our common
denominator of reality- he will live in a different reality.
Reality is as much an individual perception as it is an invisible
social agreement on a common denominator of people
belonging to the same culture - the more we share the same
culture the more our realities tend to coincide. The more our
cultures differ, the more we find the behaviour of the other, his
actions in the real world, incomprehensible.
As I said earlier- maybe this world is just energy in motion, but
that won’t save us from the consequences of repeatedly coming
in late for work. The energy in motion has its own laws and we
are a part of it. Being alive means respecting these laws, we
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have to eat, we have to sleep etc. - for a lot of people it even is
the most real there is in their lives. The world of reality is what
we call ‘world’ in general. Understanding of everybody, though
as we have seen not necessarily carrying the same meaning for
each.
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B. The world of possibilities
The level underneath the world of realities is the world of
possibilities.
‘I could have made a great career in the company, if only
I had studied abroad.’
‘If I had stayed independent I could have made enough
money by now and had my own clientele.’
‘If I hadn’t said that she would still talk to me.’
‘If I ask for a pay rise they might give it to me ,but then
they might fire me at the first occasion because I’m too
expensive.’
‘If I tell my idea my boss will be mad at me.’
‘If I don’t come home in time there will be big trouble and
everybody will ask where I’ve been.’
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‘If we don’t make as much turnover as planned somebody
will have to stand in for the consequences and I’m sure
the guilty will be laid off.’
The level of possibilities is all that could or can be happening in
the world of reality at a given moment. Obviously, out of all
possibilities only one will make it to the world of reality. But
the rest is not lost. We constantly play with it in our minds, or
let’s rather say with those possibilities that are accessible
through imagination.
We tend to go through all imaginable scenarios for the future,
mostly those that correspond to our hidden fears. To back up
possible outcomes of scenarios we tend to relate them to past
experiences or to what we have heard about similar events. The
detail and depth we tend to invest into such thoughts depend on
our personality and our personal experience of the
consequences of our acts, in other words- on our confidence to
deal with new situations. The more we are insecure about our
capacity to deal with a situation, the less elements we can
evaluate about the situation and the more important we judge
the outcome the more we tend to play with catastrophic
scenarios. Basically it’s our own probability calculation.
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Our confidence in our capacity to make decisions or simply
trusting our luck is also constructed in the world of
possibilities. It is continuously evaluated positively or
negatively through ‘if ’ thoughts- Interestingly we tend to use
if-thoughts rather in a negative way- resulting in regrets- if I
hadn’t done this, if that hadn’t happened – I would be …. ( and
as a result much happier) We shape eternal regrets and those
regrets tend to prove that we aren’t capable of making good
decisions or that fate has singled us out as the new Job.
When we formulate our thoughts of the past in a positive way,
we tend to think a lot about our ‘luck’ that brought about a
positive change.
The world of possibilities exists inside our mind but as we see
it is very real and connected to the World of reality. But
contrary to that world we know that the world of possibilities is
a personal world, we are aware that our thoughts are ours alone.
Our world of possibilities consists of our thoughts that express
our evaluation of past events, our regrets and satisfactions, and
our fears and hopes for the future.
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C. The line of birth
Separating those two worlds, the world of reality and the world
of possibility is the ‘line of birth’.
When a baby is born it is the start of an independently existing
being. There is a difference between the state of pregnancy,
where a baby is part of the mother’s body and the state after
birth, where the baby needs the mother but has an existence
separated from the mother.
As we will see, this independent state of existence, something
that is created by us is an important mind pattern. Our mind
uses the patterns of functioning of the body and of primary
experiences and transposes them on more complex thought
processes.
Giving birth is a mental pattern for creation- of having a visible
impact on the world around; of being able to exist in the real
world where there was nothing. When a child is able to control
his excrements it is a visible act of power for him- He can
‘produce’ at will. This is an important event in the construction
of identity. The feeling of having the power to act is important
for the identity of the individual, when an intention becomes an
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act the line from the world of possibilities to the world of
reality is crossed.
In our brain there isn’t much difference between acting and the
intention to act. When we imagine acting -- the corresponding
brain zones to the parts of the body responsible for the action
are activated -- only a specific area in the frontal lobe is also
active and it is this part that holds us back. The same way,
when we see somebody act, we activate mirror neurones
meaning our brain activates areas as if we were the actor. Here
again something in the frontal lobe tells us that our body isn’t
concerned. This mechanism allows us to predict outcome of
actions and to simulate actions- play with the world of
possibilities. The same mechanism is at the basis for empathy.
We will see later how empathy- a social skill- can play a role
for ourselves.
When we are kept from acting, when we don’t manage to cross
the line of birth, there is obviously the part in the frontal lobe
that holds us back- it is not yet clear what actually triggers this
bloc. Maybe our information level from own action or
observing others to make sufficient predictions of possible
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outcomes of actions is not sufficient enough or our past
experiences have been confusing or outright negative.
Sometimes the evaluation of the result of action isn’t obvious-
going for a run is painful but feels great once done- writing is
tedious but feels great when the ideas flow- Therefore there can
be contradicting impulses in one activity depending on our
evaluation of the outcome of each. Then we have two contrary
informations - on one side the mirrored action, on the other the
bloc that keeps the action from being executed.
Duty and pleasure are both factors that generate activity: I have
to do something or I want to do something.
Psychologically speaking, not all events that cross the line of
birth have a big significance. In general, when our thoughts
cross this line they take some more or less permanent shape in
reality -- we act.
When we speak we voice our thoughts in the world of
reality.
When we scratch ourselves our hand acts to a thought of
itching.
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When we eat we initialize a chain of actions whose
conscious consequences are digestion.
When we desire a piece of cake we see in the shopping
window of a bakery, this desire stays in the world of
possibilities…or we make it a reality in buying and eating
the cake.
As long as our thoughts stay in the world of possibilities they
aren’t incarnated at the reality level -- a thought that is not
spoken stays a possibility in the real world -- it hasn’t become a
reality for the surrounding world.
A thought that isn’t acted out can still have an impact on our
later action. It can meander through our brain and find its way
to influence another trail of neurones.
If for example, we don’t go into the bakery to buy the
piece of cake maybe when we get home we feel hungry
for some sweets and will eat a piece of chocolate instead.
Or we feel so proud that we have resisted the caloric
temptation that we treat ourselves to a new pair of shoes.
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In both cases the not acted out possibility influenced the
later actions.
Whenever we decide to cross the line to the world of reality we
make something happen that will again influence our outlook in
the world of possibilities. Through our actions our world of
possibilities changes constantly.
We will see how we can use the line of birth to master our
mind.
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D. The world of harmony
The world below the world of possibilities is a world that
transcends our personal identity; it is a level we aren’t always
conscious of. At this level we feel connected with creation; we
are part of a bigger scheme.
Typically most of us get a glimpse of this world when we are
overwhelmed: by the beauty of a landscape, music or of a
moment but also after a shock, for example an accident.
At that moment the reality level becomes unimportant,
somehow the focus shifts beyond us. We are at the centre but
we don’t perceive ourselves to be important, the feeling goes
far beyond ourselves.
We suddenly know what matters essentially.
We are on a higher level of conscience and we feel being in the
presence of something that is greater than our own existence.
We can also reach this level through exercise -- concentration,
prayer, meditation or an occupation that changes radically from
our usual habits. This is a state of mind where creativity finds
an outlet and where change happens.
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In our daily world (unless we are a member of a contemplative
order) this world tends to be neglected and ignored and only
gets a chance to express itself through dreams in our
subconscious mind.
It is difficult for me to describe this level as I’m convinced that
it is experienced by each individual in a very personal way. As
a consequence, I pondered over a name, but I think that again is
up to each of us: for some it is the subconscious, for some it is
eternal harmony, some call it God and others speak about
specific activation of areas in the brain- please feel free to call
it as you wish.
The existence of this world is often neglected or even regarded
as dangerous by those who live mainly in the world of reality.
We look suspiciously at anything that cannot be controlled in
an efficient way. It is a world with its own laws and they
function radically different from the world of reality. Only
detachment from focused action and purpose permits access. It
is a world ruled by ‘being’ while the world of reality is
commanded by ‘doing’.
Somehow the need for just this world becomes larger and larger
in a society that is globalised and optimised.
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I always feel that when a message is becoming a trend in
advertising you can expect it to be a collective desire of society.
Advertising agencies will carefully test their messages today --
there is no creative experiment without market research. A key
word to such a message is Zen. Zen has become a synonym for
peace of mind. And the desire for peace of mind sells -- there is
a car called Zen, a face cream called Hydra Zen, an interior
style called Zen etc. Zen has become part of international
vocabulary. But in coherence with the Western concept of
reality, the peace of mind is a benefit that is supposed to be
consumable through a product. Needless to say that the effect
of any product will be short lived and not sufficient to satisfy
the spiritual need of the Westernised soul.
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E . A natural flow
When we now look at those three levels or ‘worlds’ we can find
our presence in each one of them. This is actually necessary for
our well-being.
To live a harmonious life, one where we are serene but at the
same time dynamic and active, we need to have a constant flow
between the different levels.
The world of reality gives us an impact in life, a role in our
society through our actions, a feed back of existence to our
brain. Our actions can influence our mental chemistry and
trigger strings of thoughts or feelings.
The world of possibilities permits good decision making and
the use of our intellectual capacities. We create a possible
world of events, plausible or fantastic and we source our
options in these thought processes. At the same time we build
our own mental prison conditioned by our past experiences and
our beliefs and prejudices.
The world of harmony helps us not to be overwhelmed by the
importance and the emergencies of the world of realities and by
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our own fears and fantasies. The level of harmony is our inner
source where we can retire to, that can feed our soul every day.
Unfortunately, this flow is often disturbed in our daily life. As I
said earlier, we tend to give too much importance to the upper
world of reality and aren’t enough aware of our need for the
world of harmony. When we get exposed to continuous stress
that doesn’t even leave us the time to think, the thinking
process of the world of possibilities tends to take over at night.
When outer or inner pressure gets too much, we literally get
stuck. We get stuck at the level of possibilities.
When we get stuck, the same thoughts come around and
around to torment us. Somehow there is no possibility to link
up with the level of inner harmony and to calm down. On the
contrary, our thoughts resemble a whirlpool that draws its
circles closer and closer. We develop a tunnel vision.
This state isn’t comfortable and while we are happy when the
morning comes and our daily routine keeps us from thinking,
our mind will learn to fear the night and the loss of control,
especially while sleeping. We tend to have sleepless or
agitated nights filled with worries or regrets. At that stage the
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temptation is big to drug the mind with sleeping pills or anti-
depressants that work on the mind’s chemistry but don’t
necessarily resolve an underlying problem. Mental problems
have the bad habit to turn to other sources of expression if one
path is blocked. Allergies or sudden not well defined diseases
are only the harmless ones.
When we are completely stuck, we have no access to the world
of reality anymore either -- we avoid action, we feel paralysed.
Everything stays in the world of possibilities, nothing gets
done. Being in an inner state of panic, we fear the
consequences of our actions. The world of possibilities
becomes our prison. The more this state of mind continues the
more it becomes difficult to escape the prison. ‘What ifs’ block
action and’ if I’d only’ make the mind a captive of the past.
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Stuck in the world of possibilities
World of reality y
World of possibility
World of universal harmony
Action, day to day necessities Maya
Line of birth
Area of reflection on possibilities, on past and future events
Peace of mind the purpose of life, The higher scheme Unconscious, God
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5. Our self-perception is our self-constructed prison
To explain how to undo the knot that keeps us stuck at the level
of the world of possibilities, I need to make an excursion into
the functioning of our brains especially on memory and our
perception of ourselves:
a. Memory is a cheater
Our memory constantly tricks on us: Basically, in order to
remember we must have be attentive and attach high
importance to the event.
If you assist a discussion on diapers and don’t have
children yourself or are connected to young children
there is a pretty good chance that all information and
opinion given will be lost very soon. If on the contrary
you are a parent of a first newborn, you’ll soak up all this
for your vital information and you’re likely to even repeat
it to your partner.
Another test you can do for yourself -- tell a very
complicated rumour to somebody you know who will
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spread it and wait what will come back to you --
everybody will have added and subtracted elements that
seem important from their own viewpoint.
What people remember tells a lot about their lives.
Memory is attached to emotion -- if one of our emotional
feelings is involved we will remember far better. And it records
information attached to negative feelings, like for example
stress, anxiety and fear -- simply to have a good databank in
store to prevent us from having unpleasant experiences in the
future.
We remember only parts of past events, images, noises, etc. A
part in our brain then combines the different bits again to form
the whole memory picture. The parts that our brain re-
assembles depend on our actual state of mind. If it remembers
the mind recollects the elements considered as relevant and if
they don’t completely fit in, your mind will make them fit.
Did you ever give an information to somebody and then
while hearing the person repeat it after some time and
wonder why they get it all wrong and you don’t remember
ever having said half of it? The receiver of your message
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has retained what seemed of interest to them concerning
their proper life, and in their memory the rest will adapt
to their fears, desires or other pre-occupations.
Your information becomes literally part of another reality often
in such a way that it is barely recognisable.
But not only do we adapt the information we get from the
outside to our own reality, our minds also adapt the contents of
our own memory continuously. Each time an event is recalled it
is entirely rewritten in our memory. That is how we create our
own myths.
For example, when we feel depressed we have a hard time
remembering the joyful moments of our life, everything looks
grey and things only get worse -- that is the message, which our
mind will adapt to our memory. When we get out of our
destructive mood we suddenly remember the same events in a
much more positive light.
Somebody who severely lacks self-confidence will distinctly
remember that all their successes are actually because of the
help of others or out of chance -- their memory doesn’t allow
them to think of it as their own achievement.
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Our mind constructs its own prison because it will only allow
us to perceive, recollect and evaluate events in a sense that
corresponds to the state that it finds itself in.
The state of our mind varies according to our mood, and our
memory can vary with it.
What we take for objective truth -- our past experience, is just a
reflection of a part of what really happened, deformed by our
actual mood. Two people may have lived the same event and
have a corresponding perception -- one year later their recall
can show radical differences.
Since we usually aren’t aware of these manipulations of our
mind we are constantly cheating ourselves.
Isn’t there a way to stop our mind playing rollercoaster with
our mood?
b. How we perceive ourselves depends also on our moods:
Remember yourself looking in the mirror this morning.
While looking in the mirror you did not doubt that this
was you. You carried the mental image you have last seen
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in the mirror with you during the day . And somehow, it
will start to transform. According to your mood you might
substract five pounds from your silhouette, erase those
dark circles under your eye…or if you feel less confident-
you will add messy hair and some pounds….each look
into a mirror passing by will rectify this mental image
according to the mood you will be in.
Human beings are fascinated by their own reflection. Seat them
in a room with a mirrored wall and they will basically spend a
lot of their time looking at themselves. An image in a mirror
gives us an idea how we are on the outside, how others see us.
How we come over physically in the world of reality. At the
same time a mirror is a fascinating thing -- as if there was a
world behind it -- another reality. Narcissus fell in love with his
own reflection in the water -- a mirror sometimes feels like a
window to our soul. Our reflection is intimately linked to our
identity.
What if instead of looking into the mirror somebody would take
a photo -- does this change the way we look upon ourselves?
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Most people have already had the experience of picking
up a photo of themselves and only realising that they are
represented on second and third glance. At first sight the
person on the picture looks like somebody else, or
something else.
Our image in the mirror is a reflection and that in itself has a
magical quality for our mind.
The photograph goes beyond that, it somehow has an existence
of its own. Our image in the mirror disappears as soon as we
walk away and we learn from experience that there is nothing
behind the mirror -- still mirror images are good for jokes
(there is a famous scene of the Marx brothers involving an
imagined mirror) or for fantasy tales (Alice in wonderland or
Snow White and the seven dwarfs). The photo seems much less
magical in our technological world. But if you think about it for
a moment you will see that its psychological impact on us is far
greater: It can be a thousand miles away from us, on the table
of a stranger -- it is us and isn’t at the same time, because we
are not there but here. It is a part of us and still isn’t us.
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In J K Rowling’s Harry Potter books, photos have a life
of their own -- they can talk and move around in another
world.
A lot of traditional Muslims don’t like to take
photographs of other people. You have to breathe life into
each represented person on the photo on the Day of
Judgement, is their saying.
We keep pictures of our loved ones close -- that way they are
with us. We look at pictures of people that have died --
somehow through the picture they are still a bit alive. The
‘magical’ quality we attribute to pictures is far greater than that
of reflections in a mirror. When I use the word ‘magic’ here I
mean something that the rational brain can explain but that has
an impact on our emotions that we can hardly control.
Apparently this feeling is anchored in our subconscious: a
picture is an independent part of us, something magical we
cannot quite handle. It has an existence of its own. And because
of that we are able to look at ourselves with the eyes of a
stranger we can observe a picture of us as if it were somebody
else. This is much easier than when we stand in front of our
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mirror where every movement confirms our control and
identity with the reflection.
We can have the eye of a stranger, this distance with ourselves
because the photograph exists in itself. It has crossed the line
from being a mainly mental picture (reflection in the mirror)
into the real existence. It has been born into the world of
reality.
And another element distinguishes the reflection in the mirror
from the picture -- the picture is permanent. I am talking about
printed photos here not about photos on your computer -- that is
an important hybrid because a picture on your computer can be
called on the screen and ‘disappear’ it can be altered, destroyed
by the click of a mouse -- it is more than a mirror image but
less than the printed version for our psychological feeling. The
material version of the picture is around for a while. It can be
burned or be thrown away but this is a very different act from
suppressing a couple of pixels from your computer.
I’m using the metaphors of photographs and mirror reflections
to illustrate the relationship between your thoughts in your
mind or spoken and your thoughts on paper.
While thoughts turn around in our heads, they can change
according to our mood and memory just like the reflection in
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the mirror. And with time, memory of our thoughts transforms
itself -- we don’t remember the truth about what we thought
weeks, months or years ago.
When we write our thoughts down we force our thoughts across
the birth line into reality. They get a life of their own -- just like
a photo of us.
Actually what happens in our heads when we have written our
thoughts down? We relive our emotional experience but we
link it with an analysis edge -- we have to find the words to put
our emotions into phrases; and not only into phrases as if
spoken but into phrases that have to live on paper. That makes
us think how to express. Already this is a creative act -- our
feelings then not only exist in our limbic system but on paper.
They have gained a right to exist just because they exist apart
from our body. A lot of my clients have experienced that the
simple act of writing down a problem has solved it.
Research shows that the capacity to master emotions depends
on the ability to put them into words (Cerveau et Psycho, no 20,
mars- avril 2007 p. 6 Le vocabulaire accroit la matière grise)
This sounds simple and evident -- still it is harder than you
think. Apart from keeping track of your biography in a diary,
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your mind will not like to be caught and nailed. You will find a
million reasons why some thoughts better stay in your head, be
warned. At this point let me just make the following
statements:
Writing makes your thoughts real
Writing makes your feelings words
Writing creates order in your mind
Writing is facing the truth about your thoughts
Writing enables you to look at your thoughts as if it were
somebody else’s.
Writing helps you to connect.
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6. Free the flow in between the levels or reality,
possibilities and harmony
Taking up the task to give birth to your mental world of
possibilities needs some preparation:
Let us look at the material requirements:
a. Get a booklet
Most of us are used to producing writing on paper -- we
create shopping lists, to do lists, put phone numbers on
scraps of paper, take notes like we learned in school,
write minutes of meetings…All of these papers usually
land in a large box- to class- and are never looked again.
If we’re old fashioned (or modern?) we write letters, otherwise
there is a big chance that we chat over the net, blog or write e-
mails (that is a hybrid between the level of reality and the world
of possibilities -- who hasn’t been tempted to make the
hundreds of mails that clog his mailbox disappear with one
click of a mouse -- click, undone!) The technological age didn’t
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make writing disappear, on the contrary -- the chances are that
we write much more than our grandparents did.
In this flood of real and virtual paper, we have a hard time
finding information. How many times has google desktop
saved me hours of search for a lost document on my computer
that I knew existed?
One client of mine when it came to making dates for our next
meetings actually produced 10 different scraps of paper with
information on from her handbag. My personal experience -- at
last concerning the material world is that paper needs to be
linked together in order to be found
Have you ever sat in front of a bunch of paper trying to
make sense of a chronological order when there are no
numbers of pages or dates? (not to talk about the fact that
the one you’re looking for inexplicably seems to be
missing) .
In order to avoid material confusion that will add to your
mental confusion I strongly recommend one of those little
booklets found in paper stores and used in former times to learn
the vocabulary of foreign languages. Make it small enough to
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carry it around and big enough not to feel like a miniature
writer. I work with a 11x17 cm specimen- anything around that
should be comfortable enough. A booklet with spirals is less
easy to handle and more bulky than the bound versions.
Your daily writings should figure in chronological order and
you should be able to reread yourself. It’s for that reason that a
bound booklet is to be preferred to loose paper or to attached
paper. Anything that enables you to alter, destroy or loose what
you have written should be avoided.
Try not to write with a pencil but choose a smooth pen with a
fine writing ( if your booklet is quite small you will be more
comfortable with a fine line of writing) I personally prefer to
have paper with lines but if you want to also draw in your
booklet you might prefer blank pages.
Small booklets usually can be found in a lot of paper stores or
department stores. If you have trouble finding them -- buy more
than one once you managed. A client of mine always had a
couple in stock because she was so afraid to ‘run out’.
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b. Keep the booklet constantly with you
You should be able to write at any moment- it is therefore
important to have writing material and a pen handy.
Ideally, you manage to find a wrapping that carries your
writing material too -- that way you always have all that you
need handy. Search in paper and pen stores, they carry a variety
of booklet covers and some have pen holders integrated.
Concerning PDAs or computers: Some of my clients put
forward that they use their PDA for all notes and for their
diary….Although I’m an enthusiastic user of all kinds of
electronic devices, I’d advice against it.
You’re looking for the psychological effect of ‘birth’ in the real
world and electronic writings are a dangerous hybrid that our
brains considers ‘virtual’. You will not express yourself on
paper like you express on a computer and the idea to erase or to
modify is all too tempting. At least I’d strongly advice to start
out with paper -- at least for a month. Once you get into the
routine you can try to switch to your computer or PDA if you
wish, but only if this device is as available and handy as a
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booklet at all times. Having experienced the difference,
examine if writing on an electronic device really does the same
for you.
c. Start by all means
As in many situations the most difficult is the start. How often
have I forced my clients to open their new booklet that was
ready but unused in our working sessions and to write their first
phrase!
If you want something significant to figure on the first page,
like a poem or a significant phrase that is important to you, just
leave the first page blank and add it later.
A good way to take possession of your booklet can also be to
write your name and address into it, or to decorate the first page
with images or stickers, like children do with their school
books. Don’t think that as an adult this is beyond you, it will
make it more familiar.
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d. Keep writing every day
You can write at any moment. If you carry your booklet with
you, you will have access to it all the time -- when you’re
frustrated, angry, furious, sad -- out with it and write from your
soul -- if you need privacy -- don’t hesitate to go to the toilet.
Use your booklet whenever you feel like bringing out an
emotion.
In order to get a certain routine in writing I often suggest to fix
a specific time of the day and to reserve half an hour. That
takes care of regularity and self-discipline. Some day you will
be more inspired, some days less -- it doesn’t matter, just keep
going and create a routine.
Open the page where you want to start writing, put the day and
the date on top and listen to your inner voice. ……..Try to
exterminate all outside disturbances -- people talking to you,
noise, radio -- the only sound you want to hear is the little voice
from the inside.
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Ideally, choose a specific time for writing. I always get up half
an hour earlier sit comfortably with a coffee in my bed and start
to write for half an hour.
Just write down what comes to mind, whatever! If it is a
shopping list -- write it down. If it is what you’ve just said or
heard -- write it down.
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7. Basic rules to writing:
There is absolutely no limit to what you can write -- there are
just some rules to respect:
Rule No. 1: You write for yourself
Never be guided by thoughts about what another potential
reader will think of you. You are the only reader. This is not a
blog, not a letter, not a diary. You’re not writing for posterity,
you are writing to learn how to master yourself.
Rule No 2: Write about your feelings, not about facts
I don’t ask you to write a diary although I advise you to always
put the day and the date on your entries. This booklet is not
there to help you recall later what happened when. It is there to
recall your state of mind at a given time.
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Concentrate less on what is going on in your world of reality
and more on what happens in your world of possibilities. Write
about how you feel about it rather than what is happening.
Write more about your regrets, fears, hopes, and happiness; less
about your achievements, promotions, failures etc.
Rule No 3: No aesthetics
Don’t care about grammar or style. Since you’re the only
reader it doesn’t matter if your writing is literary or simply
puerile. It doesn’t matter if it is organised, well expressed or
chaotic. And it doesn’t matter if it’s written coherently or not or
in which language. Don’t worry about all of that. Write it down
just like it crosses your mind.
Rule No 4: Don’t give your book out of hand
You don’t have to tell anybody about its existence. If you want
to share, read what you’ve written, do this out of free will and
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read passages. Never feel obliged to unveil any of your
writings. You have right to privacy. If you feel disturbed by the
thought that somebody else might read it use all kinds of
disguises -- I’m not asking you to write like Leonardo , but you
can write in your worst handwriting (be careful though -- you
yourself should be able to re-read) you can write in several
languages, you can use abbreviations when you talk about
people… But don’t convince yourself that the fear of being
read justifies not writing!
Rule No. 5: Write at any time you feel tense.
Isolate yourself at the first possible moment, get your booklet
out and write what you feel. This will help you to calm down
and deal with your anxiety.
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8. Directing the conscious stream of the unconscious
into words
Let me come back to the necessity to express your feelings
Each event leaves an impulse in our mind, like a photo.
This impulse has two components, one is a factual component
(your own private photo) the other concerns the feelings you
had during the event.
The impulse isn't necessarily a true image of the event, like a
photo taken by a photographer it will enhance a certain aspect
and thus look different according to the observer.
Typically, the impulse is stored in the meanders of our
neurones next to similar impulses -- depending on what is
important in our inner associative system. The personal
associative network in our mind is probably set up in the first
years of life. The new imprint forms a connection with other
imprints carrying similar information -- factual or emotional.
Thus an emotion can recall events that triggered a similar
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emotion and a search for facts can retrieve similar facts. But
when we think about memory, most of the time we think about
facts.
Try to remember your childhood -- most memories during
that time are linked to sensorial inputs -- smells, tastes,
colours, shapes, sounds...
Once we are able to voice and name events and to link them to
a context the classification switches to situation/environment/
chain of action. But the feeling of a situation stays like
something undefined that we often call 'atmosphere' and that
links the complex analytical information to the subconsciously
perceived sensorial information of our childhood.
We can change the way we analyze events, that is part of
growing up. But the atmosphere that surrounds the event
influences the internal imprint that will be left in our memory,
which is much less subject to conscious influence. That is why
dealing with feelings triggered by events is as important as
analysing its impacts and outreach.
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Typically we value the analysing part very much as noble,
intellectual activity and discard the subjective, underlying
atmosphere that is linked to our feelings. This is the part that
will lead us to the bottom of our problems. Being as we are, we
consist entirely of subjective processes in our brain. Our
feelings towards past events constitute our behaviour towards
similar events or rather toward situations we believe to be
similar. We have our own agenda constituted by past
experience and this creates our own mental prison.
On one hand, accepting this means facing your own limits and
maybe failures in perfection but it enables you to perceive your
own functioning and as such is a path towards inner harmony.
The more you will find it hard to express your feelings on
paper, the more this is probably an issue for yourself that has its
impact on your subconscious. Expressing feelings isn’t difficult
-- you don’t have to write in poetry.
If you are angry, you just write: I am angry, because…..
Just say it as it is, nothing more, nothing less.
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In our little book we will therefore pay close attention to the
atmosphere we perceive in a situation and to our feelings. We
will observe ourselves.
Instead of writing what has happened we write how we feel
about what happened.
It will take some time until you will write easily. Don’t be
discouraged if you have no ideas at all. You can even write that
down:
‘Today I have no ideas at all and somehow this unnerves
me. Anyway I don’t know if this will be of any use….Am I
not wasting my time here? I have so many things to do:
for example I’ve to…......’
A lot of people are more comfortable keeping their thoughts
and emotions in their mind or they will prefer to talk to
somebody.
According to our personality we will prefer to ponder on
consequences and actions ourselves or we will refer to outside
sources to check upon consequences and actions -- we prefer to
have the reactions and advices of others.
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Speaking about emotions is still another thing than sharing
thoughts. Typically women are more comfortable with it than
men. A lot of men feel that revealing emotions is revealing a
weakness and giving the other a competitive advantage.
Chances are that the more difficulties you have to talk about
your feelings the more those feelings will find another exit --
from sleeplessness to allergies, disease etc. Learning to put
your feelings into words will be a real exercise for you. Writing
them down just for yourself protects your privacy and the fear
of sharing. It may even allow you to learn how to express them.
When you talk a lot with friends about your feelings you risk
becoming a kind of judge or a victim -- depending on your
feelings you will try to get allies who comfort you in your state,
who will confirm that you feel rightly upset about something or
who will pity you as a victim. Both are a social mechanism but
doesn’t help you much to get on with managing your moods.
On the contrary, chances are that you choose people to confide
in of whom you know that they share your opinions or go in
your sense. That can give way to a tendency to tunnel vision
and increase your feelings out of proportion. A small matter
can thus become a huge problem. The more your confiding is
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something exciting for your listeners the more you will feel
urged to rest in your attitude since it will keep you in a centre
of attention. A personal problem can this way become a
problem involving a whole community or clan because it
becomes a means of identification. Writing your feelings down
will help you to calm down and get a bit of distance before
confiding them to somebody else. It will also help you to
choose the words that describe well how you feel and to
express yourself not too overwhelmingly.
Talking to somebody about our feelings is different from
writing.
Try to remember the last important talk you have had
with somebody. You will probably be able to recall your
principal arguments about what was important and the
general reaction of the other side… but do you remember
every word? Maybe there were important parts that you
didn’t notice as important and therefore didn’t store in
your memory.
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But today, there are other parts that have grown in
importance and suddenly you remember those much more
clearly than the rest that has been said.
Did you ever have somebody being mad at you for
something you supposedly said and you don’t have a clue
what they were talking about? Obviously it wasn’t
important to you but it touched a sensitive point in the
other and its importance grew in time and now that is
about the only thing they remember.
Family feuds and important conflicts can be constructed on
selective and transformative memories that are solidified in the
shape of a myth -- in the end nobody knows the real story
anymore.
The same thing happens when we ponder in thought, the more
days go by, the more our memory about past reflections
transforms: certain aspects are enhanced, others are diminished.
Small events are being blown up according to what fits into our
actual state of mind.
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If I am convinced that my colleague is stupid I will clearly
remember all his mistakes and when he made a fool of
himself, but somehow the events where he helped me on a
file or where he had a vital information to give are
reduced to minor hazards in my memory.
Speech and thought are unreliable sources for generating
accurate memories -- that is why some cultures prefer the
written word. We live in a world based on facts so we will look
out and interpret information as facts. Our own writing is a
reliable source for us -- we cannot deny its credibility. Instead
of brooding on our evaluations of information, actions to take
and on our emotions, we can write them down. When we write
them down, we can look at them -- today, tomorrow, in a
month. Our attitude may have changed then, but our mind can’t
cheat us: we have proof of our thought. We create an outside
memory of our inner states of mind.
Once you have mastered the process of observing your
thoughts and feelings and writing them down regularly you can
try to direct your reflection. Though, I insist that the important
work advocated in this book isn’t as much to focus as to free
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the flow. If you feel more comfortable just letting your mind
run free, please continue.
You can use more focused writing in two ways -- when you
have absolutely no idea one day or when you feel that directing
your thoughts would add value to your reflections. I would
always suggest you leave some time open for free flows of
thought. Start for example with 15 minutes of listening to your
inner voice and then spend the rest of the time more focused.
Some people use an inspiring text to focus on. First read a part
of your text and then write down all thoughts that come to your
mind.
Or you can ask yourself questions according to your state of
mind and the time of the day. For example in the morning your
questions could be:
What did I dream of?
When you feel sad or low -- Is there something bothering
me about today, about what I have to do?
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When you felt bad and stressed the day before: What
exactly bothered me about the day yesterday, what made
the day so unpleasant?
When you have a problem with somebody: what do I want
to say to this person? Write it down as if you wrote a
letter.
When you feel restless- What are the goals I want to
reach?
When you feel overwhelmed by tasks -- What should I do
today and what do I need to do in the days to come?
Discussing emotions, burning topics, conflicts and values with
yourself takes courage.
Deep inside we are all convinced of our inadequacy and
desperately try to hide it from ourselves and others.
Looking into our mechanisms we are afraid to discover
somebody average and boring that we don’t want to be. Our
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mind spends a lot of time on building up and keeping up our
self esteem and will consider introspection as a danger.
Introspection can indeed be a danger if you are not prepared to
face yourself. In case of doubt, search for professional help that
can accompany you in this quest.
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9. Get a Meta-view- becoming aware of your moods
After you have written regularly for about two weeks start to
re-read yourself. Go to the first page and read through all you
have written. Don’t hesitate to read several times. And then on
your current post write down how you feel about your writing ,
what you see, if it makes you realise something…Just write all
the thoughts that cross your mind down.
As you leaf forward through the pages, you will notice changes
of mood, changes in the things that preoccupy you, that make
you happy, sad, angry, afraid. And you will notice that although
at that moment your state of mind was pretty desperate, a few
weeks later the topic might have disappeared altogether!
We experience the moment as universal but compared to our
whole life it is very relative. To realise that gives you a certain
distance to your states of mind. Chances are that you will be as
preoccupied as before by an event, but your inner silent
observer will be able to suggest to you that this is a passing
moment.
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You know yourself best -- it is up to you to decide how far you
want to explore your own events and reasoning. You might
discover that it is always the same things that make you feel
anxious or sad or on the contrary happy and content. Don’t
hesitate to write down your observations. This will help you to
know yourself better and to better monitor yourself. And you
will understand the tricks your mind tries to play on you.
Do this regularly- I would recommend about every 1-2 weeks.
And then if this exercise has become regular take a moment,
every 6 months or so to go back. It is especially interesting to
reread yourself at some years distance. Don’t limit your
rereading exercise -- regularly pick up former readings and
reread them, you will probably discover something new about
yourself every time you do this.
You don’t have to reread all that you have written in six months
or in years, just leaf through it like you would leaf through an
interesting book. Again please, write down your meta view on
your own writing:
How do you like it?
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Do you remember how you felt then?
How do you feel now?
What is different today?
Do you notice any waves of mood?
Ups and downs repeating?
Anything you see that will influence those moods?
Again write all of your observations down. This will help you
to keep track of your observations and to develop a Meta view.
I often note ideas in my daily entries so when I’m working
on a specific topic I tend to go through quite a lot of text
to find the connecting ideas again. To better find them I
now mark an ‘idea’ in red above with the three point pen
I use.
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You will notice gradually with time that in writing and
especially in rereading yourself you will get a better
appreciation of your own thoughts.
All of my clients told me that they had been amazed at how
profound and interesting their thought processes turned out to
be whereas in the beginning they felt that they didn’t have
much to say.
At the same time you will be able to recognise the moods you
are in, what influences them and how to transform them.
The whole process isn’t a new invention and isn’t complicated
at all.
When I first started out to use it with some clients I was
amazed at the good results -- my clients emerged from
depression, managed to motivate themselves, gained in
clarity, started to make decisions …. Then I started to ask
myself what actually was happening in their brains, why
such a simple action had such an effect.
What happens in our head when we read past writings? When
we reread a text that we have produced ourselves we are not in
the same state as when we wrote it.
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Everybody has probably had the experience in their
lifetime to have produced some writing on some topic and
thought it brilliant in the evening while going to bed only
to find when rereading it in the morning that by some
miracle all the shine had worn off during the night and
that the text would need serious working over. Sometimes
it can be the contrary -- we start out with a note that is
intended to be worked upon and when we reread it we
find nothing better to say- it is perfect!
Remember, our evaluation of an event depends on the feelings
we attach to the event, similar when we feel that we are
Shakespeare we are in an excited and elated state of mind that
limits our judgement and vision. When we reread our text our
excitement has worn off, our emotional state of mind is
different and we can have a more detached look. Imagine you’d
have thought those Shakespearean lines but you hadn’t written
them down. The chances are that you don’t remember the
details the next morning but you recall that your lines were
close to genius. You will then create your own myth because
you never gave yourself the chance to take a distant look.
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The same happens of course with negative thoughts -- we think
that we’re absolutely incapable of conveying valid thoughts,
that what we spoke of last night in the conversation was all
crap. Had we written down all we had talked about we would
have probably found that there was quite a lot that made sense
nevertheless. If you only have your memory to rely on it will
reinforce according to its own actual mental state -- if you lack
confidence it will tell you that you gave proof of being a jerk
once again, if you’re optimistic and confident you will have
convinced yourself in the morning that it wasn’t that bad, your
comments actually had been brilliant and that your evening
guests had been dull.
Remember, the mind rewrites every experience while we
rethink it. When we actually write down our thoughts, we give
our memory a helping hand it will immediately start to readapt
its contents to our own reality and our lived moment will
become part of our personal myth of life.
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When you write down what happened and how you felt about it
you are keeping track of your subjective reality of a specific
moment.
In rereading yourself you can follow that past trace but your
reality at the moment of reading will be different. You can look
at your text with a meta view. You can even look at it as if it
had been written by somebody else (a bit like the photo of us)
In rereading your text you reactivate the memory of what
happened when you wrote it. Your memory carries a fact
element and an emotional element that are linked. While you
reread the emotional element transforms as your emotional
situation isn’t that same as when you were writing.
The memory gets re-inscribed with a modified emotional
context. We see the emotional environment and how it has
impacted us at a given moment -- hence we ‘rewrite’ the event
in a much more distant way -- we de-dramatise. Events we
manage to de-dramatise won’t hound us in the same way as
they would have attached to the negative feelings they were
linked with in our memory. Talking about past events can
trigger the same effect but usually it is somebody asking the
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right questions that will set things into another perspective and
thus rewrite the information differently in your memory. When
you do it on paper you can be that person yourself.
According to some Neuroscientists, this is why psychoanalysis
works -- because a traumatic experience is rewritten with a
different, more distant emotional context.
When we write down our appreciation of the part we are
rereading we are reinforcing this modification. We get a
distance to our own mental anxieties and at the same time we
get to know and are able to monitor ourselves better.
Probably, there is also another mental process involved:
When we observe somebody doing something in our brain
there are the same regions activated as in the brain of the actor,
only an additional part activated in the frontal lobe makes the
distinction of you being the observer. Neuro-scientists presume
that this is at the root of empathy -- our capacity to feel for the
Other. When we look at our past writings with a time distance
we probably activate the memory but we also can look at it as if
it were written by somebody else, we become our own Other.
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This Other inside of us gives us the attention, the
acknowledgement and the recognition of our mental states we
usually claim from our surroundings and which we need for the
confirmation of our self-worth and our identity. Our identity,
our feeling of being one whole person, our continuity as an
individual that changes but stays the same, our need for
coherence with our values and actions are our anchors in a
changing world.
In rereading ourselves we are able to find our source of self-
esteem the love of ourselves within. This creates a stability that
can face changes and uncertainty and that can ground us.
And-who knows some day you might even think about sharing
parts of your writings. You can use your little booklet as a
support with your analyst. You can read a passage to a friend.
You can even think about publishing extracts to a blog, a letter
or a book.
Sharing makes the Other understand you better. Sometimes the
other can see elements in your writings that you yourself cannot
see. All of this will help you to develop yourself.
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Just remember one thing -- you are not writing to be read! It is
of capital importance that you concentrate in your writing on
your inner voice, not on the communicative effect that the
writing might have on a potential reader. The communication
stream is linking your world of reality with your world of
potential and your world of harmony -- nothing else.
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10. Obstacles or why you will be sure that you can
live without this
I know that so far my method sounds easy but it isn’t. The
biggest problem of this approach isn’t its complexity or the
time it takes, the biggest obstacle is your own mind.
Your own thinking device is the most logical instrument you
possess, its logic might not seem so on the outside -- your
friends may call you the most illogical person on earth. Be
assured, your mind has a rational explanation for the self and
for the actions and omissions it generates. Any bad guy that
ever lived had a perfectly logical explanation for himself why
he needed to act the way he did. Even mentally ill people who
can have a behaviour that doesn’t follow the commonly
accepted logic of society have their own logic. Sometimes we
are aware of that logic, sometimes our mental logic plays in the
background in our subconscious.
I’m sure you don’t like to be limited in your movements, or
being told or, heaven forbid, forced by somebody to do
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something. Well, our minds don’t like that either. Being a
notorious liar (but reality has always been something relative
on mental levels) your mind doesn’t like the idea to be caught
at its own game. Instead it wants to continue to play games
with you and rollercoaster with your feelings.
This functioning was probably something very useful in
the Stone Age as it brought about social cohesion and
unity of opinions – it made our ancestors adapt their
points of view those of their group and allowed a certain
flexibility when global changes needed to happen in
forgetting previous states.
Your mind is a very cunning organ too, it will therefore invent
all kinds of ‘logical’ reasons why you don’t need to go through
this approach.
I’ve heard a lot in my practice:
I didn’t have the time to go to buy a booklet
At the paper-shop there was no booklet
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I don’t use paper anymore
I note everything on my handheld
I write on my computer
I’m a simple person
I don’t have anything interesting to say
I have a rotten hand-writing
I don’t have a good writing style
I make a lot of mistakes
I don’t have deep thoughts
I won’t know what to write
What if somebody finds my booklet and reads it
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I’m afraid that somebody will take it and read it
I want to start with something deep and meaningful and
am waiting for an inspiration
I got a booklet and yes I’ll start sometime
I’ve got all of my thoughts clear in my head
Etc. It is incredible how creative the mind can be in looking for
convincing arguments.
Another way for the mind to get by is to take up the method but
use it either in writing down daily events in a diary style or
writing down problems and analysis and possible solutions in
to stay clear from feelings.
In both cases clients tend to come up to me and say that their
booklet was useful in a sense but it didn’t help them to sleep
better or to get rid of their anxiety.
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A common strategy of the mind is to simply forget the
unpleasant -- somehow there never seems to be time for
writing; You’ve planned to do it in the morning but the first day
you didn’t hear the alarm clock and the second day you had this
very early morning flight, so that there was really no time to get
into a routine….
The more I age the more I notice that I have to discipline
myself if I want to get things done. Some people are over
achievers and do everything they have planned. I am
more of a rebel- I hate being obliged to do something. I
have learned that I need a mental kick in the butt to get
going and that I have to kick myself. A good way for me
not to have to convince myself every day is to set up a
routine.
My routine involves a huge cup of milk coffee, a
comfortable cushion in my back and half an hour of
silence around – when I’m abroad I tend to look for
possibilities to feed my routine.
Everything depends on your type of personality. Knowing that
your mind will try to trick you into not using this approach,
what would be your best personal strategy to try it anyway?
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Tell your mind it will only be for a limited time- let’s say two
months. If afterward your mind can prove honestly that it
gained nothing, you’ll stop it. Make a deal with yourself!
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11. Conclusions
We have seen in the introduction that most of our feelings of
being submerged and our anxieties are based on increased
demands on our selves: We deal with more strangers, we suffer
from the lack of stability in our material world, we are forced to
optimize all aspects of our life, we have more incitation to be
jealous, we don’t know what to choose, we are afraid of
responsibility and we suffer from mental overload. Those
demands will not decrease in the future.
Strategies to optimise our output and actions will be sabotaged
by our subconscious and most of all in optimising we exclude
hazard, the hidden, the paradox, the coal that became a
diamond -- we only concentrate on the obvious.
When we can’t optimise anymore we tend to rationalise, we
throw out the ‘superfluous’ we concentrate on the essential and
risk it to narrow our perceptive window.
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What we take for importance; what is superfluous and what we
call optimum is determined by our own reality, often our own
culture. In a globalised world those tendencies can only
increase differences and misunderstandings, especially if
everybody takes his view on priorities as to the optimum, the
superfluous and the important for the absolute truth.
The individual produces his own world and groups of
individuals who interact often tend to produce resembling
realities. The more interactive distance there is in between
groups the more they challenge each others identities the more
there is the feeling of danger and insecurity.
The individual has to find an approach that helps him protect
his identity, his psychological stability and that enables him at
the same time to be flexible and open for the perceptible
change in society.
With the power of writing I hope to have delivered an approach
that manages just that:
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Treat the outside world not as it ‘is’ (for it never truly is as we
see it) but as we experience it and digest it in more ways than
one: on an emotional level and on a meta level.
In using daily writing down of experienced emotions in a little
booklet and rereading the written text you learn to master key
elements to self- management or inner leadership.
This method can be directed towards efficiency and action but
it can also be adapted to contemplation, observation and
analysis on several interdependent levels. As such it involves
the individual as a whole -- with its forces and weaknesses and
leads to self-acceptance and self-appreciation, not out of
‘doing’ but out of ‘being’.
Happy writing!
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I would be happy to receive the comments and hear of the
experiences of my readers so don’t hesitate to contact me at:
or write to me at
Daniele de Lutzel
83, rue de Paris
F-92190 Meudon
France