I Lost My Sister to CancerMe TooMissing Her Tonight. As I shared many years ago, my sister passed from a brain tumor. Tonight I am really missing her, more than usual. I just want to write her a little something and tell her I love her if that's alright with you all. (I didn't really know where else to go)

Audrey,You are my sister, my very best friend always and forever. I miss you so much and think about you everyday. I wish you were here so I could tell you about all the things going on in my life. I am supposed to grow up with you, and now I am grown and your not here. It honestly breaks my heart. Most days I secretly hope its just a huge mistake, that maybe you were taken or something and you will just show up and be there. Deep down I know its not true. I wish I could hug you, hear your voice, smell you, I just wish I could tell you I love you one last time.

Sometimes I yell, at no one really. Maybe I am yelling at who ever is willing to listen. Its not that I am angry, well I am, but I am more sad than anything. I yell because its the only way some nights I can get my feelings out. I can't explain this pain Audge, its the worst. I feel like there is this huge gap inside of me. Some days if feels as if its almost healed but then nights like tonight come around and it feels as fresh and painful as the day you died.

Audrey, you are my best friend and I am going to love you till the day I die. I won't ever forget you. You are tattooed upon my soul. I wish you could be here, I really do. I love you sis. You are the best. I am sorry there wasn't anything I could do to save you.

Love you.