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THIS IS NOT LOVE STORY

JUST STORY ABOUT COURAGE

Ohh, look at the face in the mirror, what a beautiful face ? fairly skin? bright

eyes? Silky hair ?, maybe that looks good on the girl in her teenager, but

the only one odd case in this situation it’s all about gender, yeahhh gender,

you know why?, because I am the boy, yes I am the boy !, let me introduce

myself first!

My name Elliot sharsma , I live with my grandmother in little village Galena,

Illinois Galena is the little town where almost three thousand people live

in harmony and there a little pub across my house and flower field near

the river where I can spend my time painting, sewing , and make a flower

crown, yeah, I know that’s not like BOY’S stuff, it’s more like women in their

middle age activity, It feels like I just wanna scream with myself and shout

I am woman, I am woman but fate try to bring me to the ground again, by

the way I can’t speak a lot , It’s doesn’t I’m dumb , I just to shy to talk with

other people and my grandma realize that , so that’s not real big problem

anymore, I don’t school, and my grandma it’s the owner of the pub across

my house , sometimes I spent my time there to help my grandma there

with 7 worker which helps my grandma to serve the guest , and sometimes

they misunderstanding about my appearance, they think I’m the girl, some

people maybe fell hurt when they heard about that , but I don’t take seri-

ously , even I fell lucky about that , why ? because they more appreciate my

as the girl and give more tips for me, which is an advantage for me.

One time when I pick the honeysuckle flower in the flower field I hear col-

lision out there and I try check it out ,what happen in there, and I find the

guys crash with his skateboard near flower field, and oh my god, he’s wake

up and try to approach me , suddenly he’s take off his hat and do me favor

“help me”

and I realize That’s girl, not a guy like what I thought before, I can’t control

my tongue to say one word who changes my life

“beautiful”

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IN THE MORNING, SHE’S WAKE UP AND TRY TO RECOGNIZE MY FACE, SHE SMILE AT ME AT TRY TO HOLD ME LIKE HER SISTER,“THANK YOU FOR HELP ME ,I’M ETHAN, HARVEY ETHAN”AND I TRY TO SMILE AT HER, I’M SHY START THE CONVERSATION WITH THE STRANGER AND PREFER USE THE SIGN LANGUAGE TO INTRODUCE MYSELF TO HER“OHH, YOU’RE DUMB?, BUT I HEARD YOU SAID SOMETHING YESTERDAY?”I’M SO BLUSHING WHEN SHE KNOW I SAID SOMETHING BEFORE, AND I STILL USE SIGN LANGUAGE TO CONVINCE HER TO BELIVE I’M DUMB,“SOO, YOU NAME ELLIOT ?, ARE YOU GUY?”SHE’S VERY SHOCK WHEN I TELL HER, MY NAME ELLIOT, AND I NOD SLOWLY BECAUSE I’M NOT SURE ADMIT MY GENDER TO HER“WOWWWW, YOU LOOK MORE BEAUTIFUL TO ME, I THOUGHT YOU ARE GIRL , SAME LIKE ME?, ACTUALLY, MAYBE IF YOU CUT YOUR HAIR LITTLE BIT ,YOU CAN LOOK DIFFERENT”.

FROM THAT I KNOW HER NAME IS HARVEY ETHAN AND SHE ATTENDING SUMMER COURSE IN GALENA, SO AFTER THE SUMMER OVER , SHE’S COMEBACK TO HER HOMETOWN IN THE WEST VIRGINIA,AFTER TAKE 5 HOUR CONVERSATION WITH HER , SHE STILL SOBER WHEN I STILL USE SIGN LANGUAGE , SHE’S TALK ABOUT HER SCHOOL , HER LIFE, AND HER FATHER IS HONEY SUPPLIER , AND HER MOTHER RUN HER MOTEL IN HOMETOWN , SHE ASK ME TO DRIVE HER TO HER RENT HOUSE NEAR SAPLABERRA PAWNSHOP, ACTUALLY I CAN’T DRIVE A CAR SO DRIVE HER WITH MY OLD BICYCLE , THAT’S EMBARRASSING , BECAUSE I CAN’T DRIVE A CAR, EVEN MOTORCYCLE , STAY AT HOME , EAT SOME PRETZEL , AND SLEEP EARLY LIKE BABY ?, MY LIFE IS COMPLETE NOW !

5 DAY LATTER I WAKE UP IN THE MORNING AND FEEL LIKE DEJA VU ,MY GRANDMA MAKE SOME BREAKFAST FOR ME AND I TAKE SOME LIST OVER THE TABLE ,IT’S JUST SOME DAILY ACTIVITY LIST I WROTE FOR EVERY SINGLE DAY I LIVE, “EXCUSE ME ?”ETHAN COME DAN AND SHE SMILE AT ME, AND I TRY TO SMILE AT HER, WELL THIS IS AWKWARD SITUATION WHEN THE GIRL SMILE AT YOU AND YOU PRETENDING YOU CAN’T SAY NOTHING?, I’M JUST SMILE THAT’S IT,“SORRY , THE DOOR IT’S OPEN”AND I NOD AND SERVE SOME BREAKFAST FOR HER“NO, I’M STUFF RIGHT NOW, I JUST WAN TO KNOW, IF YOU FREE TODAY?”OF COURSE, I’M FREE, I DON’T DO ANYTHING BUT USELESS DAILY ACTIVITY LIST I MADE JUST FOR MYSELF,I TALK TO MYSELF LIKE AN IDIOT“WOULD YOU PLAY WITH ME, IN THE FOREST ?, CAUSE I KNOW YOU’RE THE ONLY ONE PERSON I KNOW IN THIS SMALL CITY?”WITHOUT MY AGREEMENT SHE’S GRAB MY HAND AND TAKE ME THE OUTSIDE, BUT I TRY TO STOP HER, AND COMEBACK TO MY HOUSE“WHY ?, ARE YOU AFRAID ?”BUT I JUST COMEBACK, JUST FOR LOCK MY HOUSE , AND ACCOMPANY HER TO THE FOREST, BECAUSE FOREST AND RIVER IT’S MY FAVORITE SPOT , WELL, THAT’S THE ONLY ONE MY SPOT WHERE I CAN PAINTING , AND MAKE SOME FLOWER CROWN FOR MYSELF, SO TODAY I CAN MAKE FLOWER CROWN FOR HER, WHICH IS NICE TO MAKE SOMETHING FOR SOMEBODY YOU BARELY KNOW BUT TOTALLY DOESN’T MAKE SENSE TO START CONVERSATION WITH MY OWN VOICE ,YUP !, THAT’S ME .FROM THAT I KNOW I’M FALLING IN LOVE WITH HER, I’M IN LOVE WITH ETHAN , I LOVE HER SMILE , I LOVE HER HAIR COLOR , I LOVER HER STAR SHAPED BIRTHMARK ON HER CHIN , I LOVE THE WAY SHE SOMETIMES LOOK AT ME WITH VERY INTERESTED LOOK , AND LISTEN EVERY SINGLE SIGN LANGUAGE I MAKE FOR HER EVEN MAYBE SHE DOESN’T UNDERSTAND ABOUT THAT, I LOVE THE WAY SHE’S MAKE ME FEEL LIKE , UMMMM I DON’T KNOW, JUST LIKE LIFE IS WORTH IT WHEN SHE’S WITH ME , DAY AFTER DAY WE ARE GETTING CLOSE AND NEVER BE A PART ,JUST LIKE EARTH STOP MOVING WHE I CLOSE TO HER, WE SWIM , WE SING, AND ONE DAY SHE’S KISS ME ON THE LIPS AND SAY “SUMMER IS OVER”AND SHE’S STILL STARE AT ME WITH SINCERE EXPRESSION , TILL I KNOW THAT THE LAST TIME I SEE HER IN MY LIFE , BECAUSE I KNOW IN THE NEXT DAY SHE WILL BE MOVE TO HER HOMETOWN , I LOCK MY DOOR AND CRYING LIKE LITTLE BABY WHO LOST HIS TOYS, AND I REALIZE I NEVER SHOW , I NEVER SAY I LOVE YOU TO HER, BUT NOW I KNOW IT’S TO LATE TO SAY GOODBYE , AND LIFE MUST GO ON LIKE USUALLY I LIVE IN THIS LIFE, BACK TO NORMAL SITUATION WHEN I LET MYSELF DROWN IN THE BORING SITUATION, I FELL HOLLOW ,AND OH MY GOD! I’M IN LOVE.

2 YEAR SINCE ETHAN GONEI HAVE A NEW LIFE, WAKE UP IN THE MORNING WITH THE SHORT HAIR, YEAH, I CUT THEM AND CONTINUE MY SCHOOL NEAR MY HOMETOWN , GET A MINGLE WITH SOMEONE , ALTHOUGH SOME PEOPLE LOOK AT ME WITH MOCKING SMILE , I JUST DIDN’T CARE WITH THAT, OH BY THE WAY I HAVE GOLD GYM MEMBERSHIP, AND TRY TO TALK EVEN JUST ONLY ONE OR TWO WORD BUT THAT’S IT’S SEEM LIKE BIG CHANGE FOR ME, MAYBE CAUSE I DEEP FROM MY HEART I STILL FEELING GUILTY FOR ETHAN,“HEI ELLI!, NEXT WEEK IT’S MY BIRTHDAY BASH PARTY, DO YOU IN ?”“UHHH, SURE ,MAYBE I’M LITTLE LATE, BEACE I HELP MY GRANDMA IN HER PUB?”“YEAH , AND REMEMBER DON’T BRING ANYTHING , CAUSE I DON’T LIKE PRESENT, BUT IF YOU GIVE ME INTERNET VOUCHER , I CAN CHANGE MY MIND”GARFIELD , MY NEW FRIEND IN THE HIGH SCHOOL TRY TO CONVINCE MY TO JOIN HIS BIRTHDAY AGAIN, ACTUALLY PARTY THAT’S NOT MY THING ,I STILL PREFER PRETENDING TO BE PRINCESS FOR MY BED , AND SLEEP LIKE THE CAT, SILLY UH ?, YEAHH, I STILL DO THAT WHEN THERE’S NOBODY AT HOME, MY GRANDMA CRY EVERY TIME , WHEN SHE REALIZE I CHANGE TO BECOME A BETTER PERSON, BUT ACTUALLY I CHANGE FOR ETHAN , I MAKE MY CONFIDENCE UP.I WALK IN THE SCHOOL HALL AND BRING ONE HOT COFFEE IN MY LEFT HAND, MY RIGHT HAND HOLD SOME BOOK , AND SOMEBODY HIT ME REALLY HARD TILL I FEEL MY BONE CRACKING“I’M SORRY ...”SOMEBODY SAY’S SORRY TO ME AND I REALIZE IT’S ETHAN, I STILL REMEMBER HER EVEN HER HAIR IS LONGER THAN BEFORE, SHE SMILE AT ME AND IT’S SEEM LIKE DIDN’T REALIZE IT’S ME,“ARE YOU OK ?”“YEAHHH SURE, I’M FINE”AND SHE HELP MY TO WAKE UP , LUCKY ME, THE COFFEE STILL IN THE GOD CONDITION AND AFTER SHE’S HELP ME , SHES’S CON-TINUE HER WALK AND PRETENDING THERE’S NOTHING HAPPEN“I LOVE YOU ETHAN!”SHE’S STOPS AND REVERSE HER BODY AND LOOK AT ME“ELLIOT?, IS THAT YOU?”“I LOVE YOU ETHAN!”I REPEAT THE WORD I SAID BEFORE AND SHE’S CRY IN FRONT OF ME“STAY HERE ELLIOT , PLEASE WAIT”SHE’S RUN VERY FAST LIKE RUNNER , AND COMEBACK WITH SOMETHING IN HER BACK“PLEASE USE THIS”AND SHE GIVE ME FLOWER CROWN AND PUT THAT FLOWER CROWN ON MY HEAD“I LOVE YOU TOO”I CRY WHEN ETHAN SAY SHE’S LOVE ME WITH SIGN LANGUAGE ,AND SMILE LIKE WE NEVER MEET BEFORE.