Bad GirlHey! Every Body seems to be staring at me..You! You! All of you!How dare you to stare at me?Why? Is it because I'm a bad girl?A bad girl I am, a good for nothing teen ager, a problem child?That's what you call me!I smoke. I drink. I gamble at my young tender age.I lie. I cheat, and I could even kill, if I have too.Yes, I'm a bad girl, but where are my parents?You! You! You are my good parents?My good elder brother & sister in this society were I live?Looklook at meWhat have you done to me?You have pampered and spoiled me, neglected me when I needed you most!Entrusted me to a yaya, whose intelligence was much lower than mine!While you go about your parties, your meetings and gambling sessionsThus I drifted away from you!Longing for a fathers love, yearning for a mothers care!As I grow up, everything change!You too have change!You spent more time in your pokers, mahjong tables, bars and night clubs.You even landed on the headline of the news paper as crook, peddlers and racketeers.Now, you call my name; accuse me in everything I do to myself?Tell me! How good you are?If you really wish to ensure my futureThen hurry.hurry back home! Where I await you, because I need youProtect me from all evil influences that will threaten at my very own understandingBut if I am bad, really badthen, you've got to help me!Help me! Oh pleaseHelp me!

HOW LONG WILL I SUFFER

"You can't see your mother's dead body..""You a robber, a disobedient daughter..""Your the very cause of my beloved state..""I hate you, I don't need you, get lost go to hell.."

"But father please I want to see my mother, I want to ask forgiveness from her.. I want to see my mother.."

"I can still remember when I was a student I like going out with my friends to parties and being a teenager I was always curious and inquisitive with the things around me...

But every time I go with my friends, my mother is always there asking me not to do this or that and I always get angry with her meddling..

One night I was dressed and waiting for my friends to pick me up, my mother asked me where I was going and she pleaded me to stay home but I shouted at her angrily "You aging sickly woman get out of my way.. You always meddle with my affairs, maybe I'm not your real daughter that's why You don't always allow me going out with my friends and be happy with them.."

I pushed her out of my way and turn my back on her and left her crying..

"When I went back home I was terribly trembling,sweating and thirsty.. I need to have an injection, I must be injected with drugs, but how? I don't even have a single centavo left.. Oh I remember, there's the money for my mother's medicine on the shelf I have taken it hurriedly and went out of the house without paying attention to my mother's calls because she could hurriedly stand-up to follow me out. How happy I was then.."

One evening when I went home, I was still 30 metres from our home, I saw that our house was so bright and there are so many people inside Oh God I said to myself, maybe my father and neighbors are celebrating my mother's recovery..I continued walking and after a few minutes I reached our house..

The door was open and to my surprise, my father stopped me and pushed me out and shouted angrily..

"You can't see your mother's dead body..""You a robber, a disobedient daughter..""Your the very cause of my beloved state..""I hate you, I don't need you, get lost go to hell.."

"But father please I want to see my mother, I want to ask forgiveness from her.. I want to see my mother.."

"Oh God what I have done? I've lost my virginity and honor. I've lost the love of my father and above all I lost my mother. Oh God how long will I suffer."

AM I TO BE BLAMED?Theyre chasing me, theyre chasing, no they must not catch me, I have enough money now, yes enough for my starving mother and brothers.Please let me go, let me go home before you imprisoned me. Very well, officers? take me to your headquarters. Good morning captain! no captain, you are mistaken, I was once a good girl, just like the rest of you here. Just like any of your daughters. But time was, when I was reared in slums. But we lived honestly, we lived honestly in life. My, father, mother, brothers, sisters and I. But then, poverty enters the portals of our home. My father became jobless, my mother got ill. The small savings that my mother had kept for our expenses were spent. All for our daily needs and her needed medicine.

One night, my father went out, telling us that he would come back in a few minutes with plenty of foods and money, but that was the last time I saw him. He went with another woman. If only I could lay my hands on his neck I would wring it without pain until he breaths no more. If you were in my place, youll do it, wont you Captain? What? you wont still believe in me?. Come and Ill show you a dilapidated shanty by a railroad.

Mother, mother Im home, mother? mother?!. There Captain, see my dead mother. Captain? there are tears in your eyes? now pack this stolen money and return it to the owner. What good would this do to my mother now? shes already gone! Do you hear me? shes already gone. Am I to be blamed for the things I have done?

MAGDALENE

Do you know who I am? Are you not attracted to my beauty? Many lovers have come and gone through my life. But a lot of people hate me. They say I am an adulterous woman. They say I have seven demons in my body. I hate this kind of life, you know. Nobody really loves me, and the burden of my sin is heavy upon me. I am Mary of Magdala. Just call me Mary Magdalene. I am in search of true love and acceptance. But who will ever love a sinner such as I? Jesus...I heard that a certain Jesus has come to our town. He was healing the sick ones, and calling the sinners repentance. Who is this man that He would even proclaim forgiveness for the sins of many? I must see Jesus! He must have answers to my questions! One day, a Pharisee named Simon hosted a feast and Jesus was one of the invited guests. I will not miss the chance to meet Jesus. I will prepare myself for the feast. With this alabaster flask of perfume, I will anoint Jesus' feet. Oh! There is a big crowd in Simon's house. How could I possibly get inside? Oh, I'll wait until Jesus enters. By then, the crowd at the gate will be ushered in. There is Jesus sitting near the host Simon. I tried to inch my way through the crowd until I finally knelt down at His feet. I wasted no time to pour the ointment on His feet and I wipe His feet with my hair. Then with a gentle voice he said to me, "Woman, your sins are forgiven, your faith has saved you, go in peace." My heart rejoiced as I went away. The burden of my sins rolled away. Now I'm free to obey Him. The next time I saw Jesus, He was hanging on the cross, crucified between two thieves. My heart was crushed with grief. Who has done this crime?Who killed my Jesus? Can anybody tell me? Who killed Jesus? Was it the Hebrew children? A while ago, they were shouting: "Crucify Him, Crucify Him, Crucify Him!" Was it Pontius Pilate? He was the Governor who gave permission for His crucifixion. Was it the Roman soldiers? Torture of criminals is part of their profession. But Jesus wasn't a criminal! He was a sinless man. Who killed Jesus? Now it's plain to see. It was really me! My sins! He died.

Declamation piece: The Fetus in the StomachLast night, I had a strange dream. I dreamed that I was a tiny dot in the womb of my mother. Formed by love, and blessed by the Lord. I could not see, I could not hear, but I could feel that I was loved. Embrace by the warm tenderness of my mother's flesh.

Here, I breathe on my mother's breath!Here I fed on my mother's food!

Oh what a place to live! Oh what a place to grow! I was extremely happy in my little world. Believe me, it was happiness beyond compare.

In God's time, I was a tiny dot, no more. I grew, and grew, and grew. Caressed by parental affection. I wanted to say, thank you mother, thank father, for your love, thank you for my life.

One day, I heard splashing sounds, and boyish laughters. I can hear! I can hear! My heart was filled with joy! I kicked and kicked in celebration. Then, I stopped. I heard a sweet voice saying, "Mark, Joe, out of the bathroom now! You might catch cold!" I thought, she must be my mother. Yes, indeed, she was my mother. The two boys, Mark and Joe answered, "Yes mama!"I echoed in the silence of my heart, "Mama, I love you, Mark and Joe, I love you! Wait for me, my brothers, we will climb the guava tree in mama's garden together soon."

On another day, my father cam home and told mama, "I have the results! It's a girl!""I am a girl! I am a girl! I am the only girl! Mark and Joe, you will have a loving sister! Mother, Father, I promise, I will be a good daughter! I will make you happy parents!"

But one evening, deep in the night, I heard my father and mother, talk about hard times, "Rising prices of gasoline! And food! High cost of education!'' My father cried aloud, "How can I support a family of three children?!" I was shocked! Am I an unwanted child? Oh, yes that was what my father had meant!

Oh no, father, please, mother, love me as you love Mark and Joe!

I shouted, I shouted again and again, "Love me, love me please!"I kicked, I kicked again and again for my mother to get the message!I cried, I cried again and again so my father and mother would pity me!I prayed, I prayed again and again, "Lord, I want to be born!"

My father came home, late one evening. He told my mother, "Here are pills from the health center, take one for thirteen days." I was afraid! When the first pill was taken by my mother, the nectar in my mother's milk, turned bitter!Oh, God! Pills to murder innocent babies! Unborn but with life!Father, mother, why are you doing this to me?! Do you not love me? Do you not pity me? Love me as you love my brothers!Father, you said you cannot support a family of three children, are you killing me just so Mark and Joe will live?Father, mother, brothers, I do not want to die! I want to be part of you! I want to wash your clothes, I want to cook your food, please do not kill me!

How cruel, how cruel! I cannot defend myself, I cannot run away to avoid the pills poison! I cannot spit it out for my lips are weak and tender!

Somebody, Help me! Nobody cares. I want to live! But nobody cares. I want to be with Mark and Joe!

Then, I felt unbearable pain. I became weaker, and weaker. I was dying little by little. I want to live! But I could breathe, no more. Father, mother, you have murdered me, but I love you--Mark, Joe, good luck my brothers, I am sorry, but I can no longer climb the guava tree in our mother's garden...I..I...(deathly, but audible whisper..)

The Lost Girl Declamationby dhang

I am a girl, young in heart and in mind I am carefree, I enjoy doing nothing but play,play and play

I seldom go to school but hmp! nobody cares! Instead,you will see me roaming around standing at the nearby canto, or hanging around at the sari-sari store standing beside the jukebox stand

One day I asked I asked my mother to teach me how to behave, to live, and appreciate all the beautiful things in life. Would you like to know what she told me? She said " Cant you see, I have to hurry up for my majong session! " So I turned to my father to console me. But what a wonderful word he did tell me " Child, I have to finish my overtime workHeres 500 pesos, go and ask your teacher about that question"

Sadly,I attended my class But I heard nothing but the echoing voice of my teacher,torturing me with her words " Hey yo lazy girl! Why waste your time studying those things? When up to now you cant even multiply seven by nine? Go home and dont bother me!!!"

I am lostconfusedI dont know what to do with myself Where are my parents to guide me? My teachers to give me inspirations? My friends, when I play? Im lazy and irresponsible.

When I try to study, I get punished for not being able to answer. Where nowIm confused Somebody, please help me You say that the world is beautiful, why is it treating me this way? Hear me please! Help me please! Help me I am lost

MURDERESSIts already twelve oclock. Oh, God, Im hungry! Ive been running and hiding for almost three days. Im dead tired. I need some rest. But no, they are looking for me! And if they find me, I will be put to jail. But, where can I hide? Leos father is so influential, so powerful. He is the governor of our great province and I happened to kill his son!No, dont accuse me like that! Im not a murderess! Hear me, Im begging you, I tell you Im not a murderess.Audience, let me explain, please.Okay, okay, okay! It all happened in school one day. I went to the library to find a book. Then I found it. I got so engrossed to what I was reading that I almostdidntnotice the time. It was gone past six and, oh my! I think I was the only student left in the library. To my dismay, Leo was waiting for me outside. I wanted to hide but it was too late. He was already in front of me.Hi, Brenda! Can I drive you home?I shook my head irritatingly. My God, how I hate him! He often sends me scented love letters in pink stationery which I sent back all unopened. He sends me roses and chocolates, too. They are my favorites. I wanted so much to eat the chocolates, but I hate the person who gave them. So I throw them into the trash. How could I ever get away from this guy?Hey, Leo, wait a minute! If you want to drive me home, thanks, but no thanks! Im old enough to go home on my own, okay? So, please stop following me like a dog! And besides, Im too young for love and I dont accept any suitors, understand?But, Brenda, I love you! Cant you understand? I can give you anything you want. Say it and youll have it. And, Brenda, remember, I can get everything I want by hook or crook. So youd better be good to me or else. Ha ha ha!And he started laughing like a monster. I got so scared. I know how powerful his family was, but I still insisted, Leo, how can you be such a jerk? I dont like you and I dont love you. In fact, I hate you! Now, will you leave me alone?But instead of leaving, do you know what he did? He pushed me so hard against the wall and started kissing me. I was shouting for help, but no, no one was there!Somebody, help me, please! Please, please! Help! Help!Then he gave me a big, big punch on my stomach. Oh my God! It was painful!But even before he reached for me again, I spotted a rusty knife and grabbed it.Now, Mr. Leo Monteverde, try to kiss me again, attempt to rape me again, and I will never ever forgive you! Go to hell! Um um ummm!Ididntknow how many times I pushed the rusty knife in his body. Then I noticed something. Blood, blood theres a blood on my hands!Leo, Leo! Oh, God! I killed Leo! No, Im not a murderess! He was going to rape me and I just defended myself. Ididntmean to do it, Im not a murderess! Im not a murderess! But I killed Leo! I killed him! Im a murderess! Ha! Ha! Im a murderess! Ha! Ha! Ha!