AN ETHEREAL EVALUATION

8/13/2019 AN ETHEREAL EVALUATION

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If now is a prediction of the future than i hope to exit now and explore other realms of options

and opportunities to better map my future in order to achieve happiness or at least a sense of

stability I need a stronghold or a fortress of some sort to protect my insecurities and help maskmy Great Depression which consist of a decline of love and joy which has become a treat instead

of a meal my moments of temporary happiness is so few and far between that I see no silver

lining in my unfortunate situation called life one of my hopes is that I disappear into a world ofnothing to sit in a room of no emotions and no stress nor noise just utter silence as if I reached inmy head and set missiles on a mission of mass destruction of my mind and a goal of freeing my

trapped thoughts I hope to achieve something greater in this room something beyond anything

I've ever felt something related to peace.

Star Toucher64 23 hours ago

good enough1.

to give a chance, to an attending unsophisticate

await proof of whatever revered worth wantedseeming to have little or no life experience

means not there's nothing to give

time-trenches furrowed in mire too deep. . .

2.assume nothing so easy of another

chickety-choo, just see it through

fine particles of gray comet's tail ricochet in the eye

frictiondesired, yet not always

there issomepluck, you know . . .

3.you see, as many a soul-straggler roams

some may not shine as bright as desirous fit

but (amongst other things)

actually, they dohave something others crave

still unconverted,slow-releasinggrit . . .

4.

no crisis here, only eager groom-in-waitingcheerful chevy, too bright on wooden words
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zigzagging to capture all-elusiveallure

banish each espiegled scab

clip-clop, tear not off old wounds.

5.

So, even as half-regarded not good enough (yet?)

nails screech on board, turbulent cadencetips dig deepinto sinking blades

grant that chance not only to let make, but to make a mark . . .

for strangely, I already know.

ever applied for a position, only to be told... not experienced enough....?

gimme a chance!

must graciously accept, never say never....might get that call again...

.... good enough!

(or only, cos someone else no longer can or .... got the boot...lol)

must one conform so??

'need'

why, you could never own

even if I gave you what I want

I may not have what you want or seekbut what you need

ere facile discard of life-slice

mark well thwarted spotin event of fire . . . knock out glass /

of water

knock on wood.


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the landing didn't stick

the take off was faulty

we started too hardall those words were shoddy

comin out the ass

love came too fastand left too quicki got pain in my heart

that just won't quit

so now i'm sitting herealready quit the bottle

stopped smoking weed

cuz it wasn't making it less harder

but why even botherwho even cares

about this man in the room

who ran out of prayersand cried all the tears

that could ever be cried

to drown a thousand people

i'm buried aliveand i can't even breathe air

i wish she'd be here

or someoneto take it all away

i need to be saved

jesus, where u at?

i feel like a slaveand all i see is rain

cloudy day after cloudy day

in my world of pain

WordsThe words I seek just escape me

The meaning so unclear

I try to say the right words

But the words just disappear

So I speak to you in riddles

Cause my words get in the way

I grasp them for a momentBut they always slip away

I scream because I cant trust myselfAnd I don't know how to speak
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My breath is gone my voice ripped out

And left bleeding at my feet

And the thoughts they rise like water

They crest and come crashing down

So lets just sit here silently soI don't have to drown

I am nothing more than just

Imprisoned in my mindBetrayed by a voice once reliable

Now determined to stay inside

So you sit there frozen carved in stoneWhile we drift farther away

This shattered home is just a shallow hole

The words left ruin in their wake

JumperI feel sometimes

That I am standing on a ledge

High enoughThat when the clouds clear

And the seas are calm

I can glean a moment

Of the lost AtlantisAnd far above the city lights

I can touch the stars

And capture a breathOf the human soul

If you could for a momentExperience this elation

This exileration

Than you would come to realize

That at most you know nothingAnd that simple fact

Is the greatest truth to know

On the edge of this precipiceMade jagged by fire escapes

The world below seems small

And falls away to nothingThe grand canyon cannot reach such depths
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It is here that I find a segmented

Illusion of peaceAnd a serenity

That escapes me so completely

When I look awayThat I become emptyA vessel without a captain

A being without purpose

On this ledgeI have more strength

Than the bitter moments that

Fill the space between these interactions

Here I can know GodAnd I am not a believer

In these breaths ofSimple

Honest truths

Where I can finally be alone

And in that lonelinessFinally find a path

That allows me to stumble

My way back to myself

So why

When I am on the verge

Of all that I amOf all I could be

At this point of decision...

Is someone trying to talk me down

AN ETHEREAL EVALUATION

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