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Alien Audio
Disintegrate
Cover Art by Callan Berry
“Self Traces”
By Nick Strobelt
I am afraid of the world, and
it is this fear which keeps me a
whole, discrete unit. When we touch,
I want to let go of the fear which
keeps us separate. It keeps us sepa-
rate when I want us to be one. In
the most lonely corner of my animal
brain, I am afraid of you, even as
the basic need for contact draws me
to you. But I have devised a solu-
tion.
Lay a sheet on your bed, take
me apart, and set the pieces out.
Pick up each one individually, and
see how it works. Bend them, twist
them, squeeze them. Learn their
limits and their capabilities. Find
out where I am functioning properly,
and where I am broken. Isolate the
parts of me which are corrupt or
rotten.
I cannot understand myself, but
perhaps you can. Something is wrong
with me, and I want you to be the
one to find out the answer. It's not
your job, and I hate to ask such a
big favor, but I want to be better
for you. No one else cares enough to
help. If you asked the same of me,
I would not hesitate. I would be
honored. Do I ever make you feel
so special? I hope I do.
Get out a blank notebook and a
pencil, and diagram this exploded,
disassembled version of me. Keep
your drawing around for further ref-
erence and maintenance. I want you
to know me that well. After you've
finished, clean the pieces, scrub
them down, blow out the dust and
grime.
Like a sentence, each of my
words has no purpose on its own. On-
ly in the right order do they make
sense, do they give the fullest
meaning. Please, put me in order,
speak my words, and give me meaning.
Put me back together better.
Better than I was before, I want to
be well-oiled with bolts tightened,
now understood and unafraid. Togeth-
er, we shall perfect me, that I
might better care for you. I will be
glorious and clean and beautiful.
Like you. For you. And then we shall
be one. We shall be you.
The Inspection By Dylan Teague McDonald
Top: Jordan Fox
Bottom: Gavin Fitch
Adam Way
Keith Johnson
Efrain Mojica
Kasha
by Maeve Murphy
Walking into sleep
the veil brushing softly
against bare skin
already damp with
the breath of Lethe.
I have left you
behind.
You, the blanket that
my mother gave me,
the sea glass
I collected, my memories.
Do you talk to Tony about me?
I hope so.
But maybe I’ve spent too long
in A Great Big World
failing to speak.
I hope not.
Megan Tee
Megan Tee
You’re welcome
for introducing you to avocados and guacamole
for driving your truck when you were too drunk
for teaching you how to love and trust again
Thank you
for taking me out for dessert on Mondays
for rescuing me when I needed to escape
for loving me when I felt unlovable
I’m sorry
for sending you across the country
for telling you I was your forever
for breaking your heart
Disintegration By Kristina King
7
Megan Tee
“Even Jesus Wears a Seatbelt”
By Kathy Hoang
Megan Tee
My tether to the earth is the
only thing keeping me from
floating away. Those rusted
links keep doing their job
without thanks, fueled only by
love and trust. Sacral seizures
rack my system, ebbing ever
more than flowing. The trunk of
the tree forces it's way
through, raw and powerful. Car-
nal delights are frozen in the
waters of doubt, lone icebergs
in the energetic sea. From ice
springs fire, blazing with ta-
taurian heat, cleansing all
negativity. The world bends
around the flames, subjugating
all to its glorious will. The
torrid wind shimmers with pow-
er, blowing up a tempest. Eve-
rything falls into the vortex,
whether safely in the eye sur-
rounded by love, Or dashed
against the rocks of the past,
left scarred and alone. The
hurts and the passions dissolve
into the ether, to be balanced
and expressed.
The sounds are exquisite, melo-
dious with a razors edge or
feathers touch. Vibrations are
felt deftly, but the trained
eye can see the truth of their
origins. Nothing escapes it,
nothing defies it, it can ei-
ther look for love or lies.
Lies fuel it until it burns in-
to nothing, leaving fear in its
place. Loves opens it, showing
the allure of the planes, giv-
ing it the strength to go on.
The trek feels as if it has
taken all of time, but the
fruits of the universe lie at
the end. Knowledge and joy flow
freely down the path down the
the tether. The oil slowly runs
down dripping like life's
blood, drawing from universal
love. Balanced and free,
spreading the healing light to
all corners of the earth.
Chakras In
Chains By Jeffrey Bret Myer
Zaria Vetter
Zaria Vetter
Zaria Vetter
DISINTEGRATION by Marijean Withers One day I decided to leave America. I imagine most people planning vacations well
in advance: taking time off from work, buying travel books and perhaps a new dress or
pair of shoes, maybe even finding someone to sublet the apartment to if the trip is
more than a few weeks. I think a lot of people go on vacation to new foreign places to
see the world, to see the sights, to explore and come home with stories. This was part
of the plan for me too, of course. The real reason for leaving America was nestled in
the idea of one solid grand moment: the act of leaving itself. I watched my whole life
fall apart before me in a matter of weeks in Seattle. So one day I bought a ticket to
Europe. I'll spare you the details of my life falling apart, and I'll spare you the de-
tails of my trip so far as, you see, I'm in Paris at the moment, about to venture out
for a mimosa (it's 10am here, about 1am Seattle time) and to see Versailles. I'm spar-
ing the details foremost because within the context here of still being on this long
journey, the details escape me. What I have is only a feeling, and even that will
change in a few minutes. It is a very long journey. I left home over a month ago now
and I still have two months to go before that plane takes me back from Barcelona to the
SEATAC int'l. Four countries so far, three more to go. As I sit outside drinking coffee
and smoking cigarettes in this tiny garden in this gray morning chill of Paris, I real-
ize so much of why travel is important for the soul. The world is bigger than you
think. Obvious or not, this world is gigantic and shocking and most of the world won't
notice when you come and go. I've been a tourist, an observer, a visitor and I've been
something else. At times I've been something almost sinister when I define it, some-
thing that has slipped into the lives of other people. Sometimes the slipping in is in-
nocent and dreamy, but the slipping in leaves marks on these other people, and of
course I've collected a plethora of marks myself. It is easy to see the world from far
away as a simulation, and it is easy to interact with this incomprehensibly new and
foreign place as a simulation of yourself. But it is real. You get a sense that you can
dissolve into the foreign world as an ephemeral part of the ephemeral place. You want
to become a part of the scenery. Unfortunately, you are not traveling as some spectral
being without consequences, without effect. You are part of the bigger picture, every-
thing you do matters. Even when you are gone, the place remains, the mark remains, the
world has changed, and there, just then, it's all already changed again, but it re-
mains. You see people living in these places that are so fantastic for you, the travel-
er to behold, looking at everything you've never seen with the same listless disinter-
est that you yourself see your own home. A sculpture or a painting or a castle or even
a grocery store where the only familiar product sold is Coca Cola; it's all very inter-
esting, amusing, entertaining. Sometimes, however, the best part of it all is being
able to turn to someone and say "hey, look at that," or even better yet, to smile down
at your own hands in your lap and realize, silently, "these are my hands that came all
the way here, with me, and here we are, and there's Trafalgar Square, Blarney Castle,
or another giant gray church and how can I have seen so many giant gray churches and
still be excited about another?" When I left America, I wanted to be missed. And the
most wonderful thing that I have learned so far is that being missed does absolutely
nothing for your human experience. Don't travel for other things, other sights, other
people. Travel for a new perspective. Travel to spend some really long, hard, scary
nights being absolutely alone. Sure, it is cheesy, unapologetically trite, to say that
if you travel "you will find yourself," but I think that you actually might. This is,
as they say, your life. You think "something is missing," and a part of you loves the
feeling of being incomplete. When you travel, when you are alone, you figure out exact-
ly what is "missing." You know what the answer is? Everything. When you're sitting
around wondering what is out there, what you might have, what you might be, all of that
stuff is there, being missed by you. You feel incomplete because you are consciously
separating yourself from everything else. So go get it. Go get the world. It's yours,
it's you, revel, ravish, have your way with it. Parts of life that I never cared for
are some of my new favorite interests (architecture, economics, politics) cities that I
never before knew existed are some of my new favorite places, people that were
just living their lives in much the same fashion that they do, as people do, met me
along my path, in other worlds like Edinburgh, London and Dublin, and I fell in love
with some of them. I used to cling so hard to the idea of security and comfort; I
wanted a plan of what I should do, what I should be, what I should like, and who I
should be with. When every day is blatantly new and blatantly overwhelming, a renewed
sense of the fact that all of life is this way is born in you. London was how it was
when I was there, and three days later it is a completely different place that I am no
longer presently experiencing. What I used to call home, Seattle, seemed dull at
times, so common, so familiar. That wasn't Seattle that I was experiencing, that was
me, projecting. Even something ostensibly familiar is constantly changing, new every
day. I promised I'd write this piece and I wanted to, dearly. I'm afraid it's not the
glorious work of art I intended because, to be perfectly honest, I forgot. Travel will
do that to you. As a last note I might add, it is absolutely guaranteed in life that
you will experience unfathomable depths of heartache. I left America to try to escape
my heartache. Though I must say it is essential to move along and away from things
that cease to suit us as we trot along on our own lives paths, we do not escape heart-
ache. Simply, in moving, in living, we ache each day over this or that, then, another
day comes, and we find new things to ache about. Then, another day comes, and we rec-
ognize this pattern, we get it. This realization does not make the aching any less
painful. The aching remains. At this point, we simply realize we have to deal with it,
so we do. And then we keep moving.
Efrain Mojica
Efrain Mojica
Efrain Mojica
Jordan Quimby
Adam Way
Clockwise from top left: Adam Way,
Skyler Ford, (Skyler singing) & Daniel Chesney
Meet the Co-Editors:
Snuff Redux!
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