A Letter From My Ego: A Journey Within the Depths of Self-Realization

7/24/2019 A Letter From My Ego: A Journey Within the Depths of Self-Realization

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A LETTER FROM

MY EGO

A JOURNEY WITHIN THE DEPTHS OF SELF-

REALIZATION

BY: Kyle Mosa S!"#e


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What do you mean me? You stated you are a part of me. ow you speak as if

there is a separate me.

A!4 yes/ T!e#e "s YOU4 *!"%! I a a a#& o$4 0)& yo) !a1e $o#,o&&e' a'( o'ly

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"'&e'&"o's5 $#o a la%e o$ "''o%e'%e/ Yo) ("( 'o& #eal"e *!a& all &!"s

e'&a"le(/ Yo) !a1e #o,#ae( e &o lay &!e (o"'a'& #ole I a%& o)& "'

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0ee' )'*"ll"', &o $a%e/ Yo) !a1e !el( o'&o &!ese 0el"e$s a lo', &"e 'o*/

T!ey s&e $#o as& e.e#"e'%es a'( I +ee &!e 0)#"e( 0y !a1"', yo)

$o%)s o' a l"$e %e'&e#e( o' ME a'( 'o& &!e %o#e )'(e#ly"', "ss)es/ I a a

$alse #ole laye# yo) 'o* 0el"e1e yo) a#e/ T!"s #ole "s 'o&!"', o#e &!a' a

&eo#a#y es%ae $#o *!o yo) a#e4 0)& so a'y o$ yo) 0el"e1e &!a& yo) a#e

&!e #ole/ Yo) a'( so a'y o&!e#s !a1e $o#e( &!ese (o"'a'&

e,os"(e'&"&"es &o a1o"( $a%"', yo)# )&!/ I a s"ly lay"', y a#& *"&!"'

yo)/

!o what is the meaning to all of this? You mean to tell me " am supposed to

believe that you are a part of me that will not go away? What is your point of

telling me this? !o you can torment me? Why wait #$ years to do this?

Yo) (o 'o& !a1e &o 0el"e1e &!a&4 'o/ Yo) %a' %!a',e yo)# 0el"e$s a& a'y &"e/

To %!a',e yo)# 0el"e$s "s &o %!a',e yo)# l"$e/ T!"s "s *!y *e %o)'"%a&e

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0e,"''"', &o )'(e#s&a'( &!a& yo)# s)#$a%e &!o),!&s4 $eel"',s4 a'( 0e!a1"o#s

a#e s"ly ("sa%&"o's &o a1o"( $a%"', yo)# )e )'(e#ly"', 0el"e$s/ Yo)

0el"e1e( yo) *e#e 'o& a so', e'o),! e#so' &o !a'(le &!ese as&

e.e#"e'%es/ T!"s "s *!y yo) %#ea&e( a $alse o)&le&/ A *ay &o &a+e yo)# "'(

o o$ *!a&e1e# *as 0o&!e#"', yo)/ We "'&e#a%& 'o* 0e%a)se yo) !a1e le&

,o o$ e'o),! $alse 0el"e$s yo) !el( o'&o $o# so a'y yea#s 0)& yo) a#e s&"ll

see+"',/ Yo) a#e 0e,"''"', &o see &!a& all o$ &!"s a',e#4 0lae4 a'( 'e,a&"1"&y

yo) a#e ("#e%&"', a& o&!e#s "s a%&)ally )s& a',e#4 0lae4 a'( 'e,a&"1"&y yo)

a#e !ol("', *"&!"' yo)#sel$4 a0o)& yo)#sel$/ Yo) a#e 0e,"''"', &o (e&e%& y

a&&e#'s a'( a#e 0e,"''"', &o see &!a& I e."s& *"&!"' yo)/ I (ee'( o' yo)/ I

$o),!& a,a"'s& &!"s $o# a lo', &"e4 0)& I a a sall e'o),! a#& o$ yo) 'o*

&!a& yo) a#e 3'ally #ea(y &o $a%e e $o# *!o I #eally a/ W!e' I a &!e

(o"'a'& a#& o$ *!o soeo'e 0el"e1es &!ey a#e4 I a &!e $alse se'se o$ sel$

&!ey !a1e )&"l"e( &o !"(e *!a& &!ey a#e )'*"ll"', &o $a%e/ I' &!"s s&a&e I %a'

o'ly e."s& &!#o),! a"' a'( s)e#"',/ A'y s)e#"', &!a& a'yo'e "s

e.e#"e'%"', #",!& 'o* "s 0e%a)se &!ey 0el"e1e &!ey a#e &!"s $alse ME/ Mos&

eole &o(ay 0el"e1e &!ey a#e ME/

"f it is this simple, then why do so many of us not grasp this? "t sounds very

simple. "f we do not want to suer, we %ust let stu go. Why create a false

sense of who we are and hold onto these underlying thoughts and feelings

which never truly goes away and &eats at our souls' as you say?

I& s&a#&s o)& "''o%e'&ly4 o$ %o)#se/ So a'y o$ yo) 0el"e1e "$ yo) &a+e yo)#

"'( o o$ soe&!"', &!a& "s 0o&!e#"', yo) &!a& "& *"ll )s& ,o a*ay/ Ho* (o

yo) (o &!"s; By &!"'+"', a0o)& soe&!"', else/ By (o"', soe&!"', else/

T!e' 0e$o#e yo) +'o* "& &!e )'%o$o#&a0le &!o),!&$eel"',0el"e$ "s )s!e(

a*ay/ I& &eo#a#"ly $eels 0e&&e# &o )s! "& a*ay/ Yo) 0el"e1e o1e# &"e "& *"ll

,o a*ay %ole&ely a'( o' "&s o*'/ I& *"ll 'o&/ I& s&ays *a"&"', &o 0e $a%e(4

&"e a$&e# &"e #e-e'&e#"', &!e 3el( o$ yo)# %o's%"o)s a*a#e'ess/ I$ yo)

%o'&"')e &o a1o"( &!ese $eel"',s $o# lo', e'o),!4 "& "s 0y %#ea&"', a $alse

se'se o$ sel$ %e'&e#e( o' a1o"("', &!"s s)0%o's%"o)s e'e#,y/ A sel$ &!a& (oes

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'o& !a1e &o !a'(le &!e 'e,a&"1e $eel"',s a'( &!o),!&s a'( %a' )s& %a##y o'

*"&! yo)# e1e#y(ay l"$e 0y $o#"', a #ole/ I's&ea( o$ $a%"', &!e %o#e "ss)e4

yo) ay (e%"(e &o 0lae o&!e#s/ Yo) ay %#ea&e &!e #ole o$ 0e"', a 1"%&" &o

yo)# )'$o#&)'a&e %"#%)s&a'%es/ Yo) %#ea&e a sel$ &!a& yo) 0el"e1e "s

sea#a&e $#o yo)# s"&)a&"o'/ No'e o$ &!ese %#ea&e( #ole laye#s$alse sel1es

a#e )e 1e#s"o's o$ *!o yo) a#e4 0)& &!ey %a' 0e 0el"e1e( &o 0e o1e# &"e/ I$

yo) %o'&"')e &!"s lo', e'o),!4 "& 0e%oes a *ay o$ l"$e/ Ne)#olas&"%"&y

#e$e#s &o %!a',es o$ 'e)#olo,"%al a&!*ays a'( sy'a&"% %o''e%&"o's *"&!"'

&!e 0#a"' as yo)# &!o),!&s4 $eel"',s4 a'( 0e!a1"o# %!a',e/ Yo) se',&!e'

a'( *ea+e' %o''e%&"o's *"&!"' yo)# 0#a"' *"&! e1e#y &!o),!&/ T!e o#e a

&!o),!& #eea&s "&sel$4 &!e so',e# &!e %o''e%&"o's "' yo)# 0#a"' ,e&/

As yo)# )'(e#ly"', &!o),!&s4 $eel"',s4 a'( 0el"e$s a0o)& yo)#sel$ a#e a1o"(e(

"' e.%!a',e $o# &!"s $alse se'se o$ *!o yo) 0el"e1e yo) a#e4 yo) 0e,"'

s!a"', 'e* 'e)#olo,"%al %o''e%&"o's %e'&e#e( o' &!"s $alse se'se o$ sel$/

O1e# &"e4 yo) *"ll e1e' $o#,e& yo) e1e# !a( &!ese )'(e#ly"', &!o),!&s4

$eel"',s4 a'( 0el"e$s a0o)& yo)#sel$/ Yo)# $alse se'se o$ sel$ &!e' 0e%oes a

so',e# a'( o#e (o"'a'& a#& o$ yo)# e1e#y(ay l"$e/ Mea'*!"le4 &!e

)'(e#ly"', &!o),!&s a'( $eel"',s !a1e 'e1e# le$&/ T!ey !a1e )s& 0ee'

#e#esse( &o &!e o"'& &!a& &!ey e'&e# yo)# s)0%o's%"o)s "'(/ T!e

s)0%o's%"o)s "'( "s &!a& *!"%! s&o#es &!o),!&s4 $eel"',s4 a'( 0el"e$s

*"&!o)& %o's%"o)s a*a#e'ess o$ &!e/ T!e#e$o#e4 "$ a #e#esse( eo&"o' "s a&

&!e s)0%o's%"o)s le1el4 "& *"ll 0e a1o"(e( %o's%"o)sly 0y e4 yo)# e,o/ I$

a'y&!"', "' yo)# e.&e#'al e'1"#o'e'& )lls a& &!"s s)0%o's%"o)s eo&"o' I

*"ll ("sa%& yo) a& &!e %o's%"o)s le1el &!#o),! #a%"', &!o),!&s4 a e

a,a"'s& &!e *o#l( 1"e* *!e#e I a+e yo) 0el"e1e yo) a#e a 1"%&" &o l"$e7s

"e#$e%&"o's/ I (o &!"s "' a'y *ays/ J)s& a $e* e.ales *e#e l"s&e( "' &!e

"'o()%&"o' a0o1e/

A,a"'4 *!y (o I (o &!"s; Be%a)se o1e# &"e yo) #o,#ae( e &o (o &!"s

0ase( o' yo)# o*' 0el"e$ a&&e#'s/ I a )s& ,a"'"', se',&! a'( %a##y"',

o)& *!a& yo) %#ea&e(/ Yo) a'( os& o$ so%"e&y o#","'ally %#ea&e( e as a

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&eo#a#y 3./ W!a& yo) a'( os& o$ so%"e&y !a1e $a"le( &o see "s &!a& as yo)

%o'&"')e( a1o"("', yo)# )&!4 yo) %o'&"')e( &o $ee( e/ I 3'ally ,a"'e(

e'o),! se',&! &o 0e%oe *!o yo) 0el"e1e yo) )ly a#e/ Yo) a#e )'a*a#e

&!a& yo) %#ea&e( e lo', a,o a'( +e& $ee("', e &o &!e o"'& yo) a#e a&

'o*/ Yo) a#e )'a*a#e &!a& I (ee'( o' yo)4 0)& yo) (o 'o& (ee'( o' e/ I

'ee( yo)# 0el"e$ &o #ea"'/ Mos& o$ yo) a#e )'a*a#e &!a& &!e#e "s e1e' a

6YOU7 &!a& e."s&s "' *!"%! I (ee'( o'/ Yo) )s& &!"'+ yo) a#e ME/ To e.la"' "&

s"ly4 I 'ee( yo)# 0el"e$ &o %o'&"')e o' ye& yo) 0el"e1e yo) a#e o'ly e/ Do

yo) see &!e "#o'y;

Please elaborate on what you mean by a &Y()' and a &*+.'

YOU T!e &o&al"&y o$ *!o yo) )ly a#e/ P#ese'%e/ Be"',/ T!"s #ese'&oe'&/ T!e &o&al"&y o$ *!o yo) )ly a#e "s 0eyo'( &!o),!&4 0eyo'( $eel"',4

0eyo'( 0el"e$ ye& %o'&a"'s all o$ &!ese *"&!"' "&/ I& "s a s&a&e o$ %o''e%&e('ess

&o all &!a& "s/ I& "s a 0l"ss$)l a'( )#e s&a&e/ I& "s "'(ee'(e'& a'(

)'%o'("&"o'al lo1e/ I& so)'(s l"+e a %l"%!Q a'( ay 0e ("@%)l& &o 0el"e1e "' a'

e,o-(o"'a&e( so%"e&y4 0)& yo) e#so'ally e.e#"e'%e( &!"s 0#"e9y "' Ma#%!

*!e' yo) %o'$#o'&e( e ("#e%&ly a'( #eal"e( all o$ yo)# $ea#s *e#e

%#ea&e( 0y YOU4 &!#o),! %#ea&"', ME/ Yo) !a1e se'se 0e,)' (e&e%&"', ya&&e#'s $#o a !",!e# a*a#e'ess o$ *!o I a *"&!"' YOU/

ME T!e &!o),!&s$eel"',s0el"e$s &!a& a+e ) &!e e#so'al "(e'&"&y#ole

yo) a%& o)& "' a'y oe'&/ Yo)# "(e'&"&y %a' 0e $o#e( $#o a la%e o$ lo1e5

o$ !o'es&y a'( oe''ess/ I& %a' also 0e $o#e( $#o a la%e o$ $ea#/ T!"s $ea#

"s 'o& &o 0e "s&a+e' $o# &!e 3,!& o# 9",!& #eso'se o'e !as *!e' &!ey a#e

a%&)ally 0e"', &!#ea&e'e(/ T!a& "s a 'a&)#al #ea%&"o'/ T!"s &ye o$ $ea# "s False

E1"(e'%e Aea#"', Real/ I& "s %#ea&e( 0y !ol("', o'&o as& e.e#"e'%e 0ya1o"("', &!a& *!"%! yo) 0el"e1e yo) a#e )'a0le &o !a'(le &!#o),! %#ea&"',

&!"s $alse se'se o$ sel$/

To s) "& )4 YOU "' yo)# )#es& $o# a#e 0ea)&"$)l a'( (ee'(e'& )o'

'o&!"',/ I %a' e."s& *"&!"' &!"s $o# o$ YOU4 a%&"', o)& )'%o'("&"o'al lo1e "'

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&!e $o# o$ a !ys"%al "(e'&"&y/ I lay a )%! salle# #ole &!a& "s e1e#-

%!a',"', a'( al*ays "' al",'e'& *"&! yo)# )&!/ W!e' yo) a%& o)& o$ $ea#4

yo) $ee( &!e ME &!a& yo) 0el"e1e "s #eal 0)& "s 'o&/ T!e (ee'(e'& e/ T!e

$alse e,o/ By (o"', &!"s yo) l""& yo)#sel$/ T!e o#e yo) (o &!"s4 &!e less "&

0e%oes a0o)& YOU4 a'( &!e o#e "& 0e%oes a0o)& ME/

!o we create a false sense of who we are to avoid our pain yet we do not

feel any better and in many cases feel worse? Why not %ust be our true

selves?

Be%a)se yo) !a1e $o#,o&&e' *!o yo) )ly a#e "' #ela&"o's!" &o *!o yo)

0el"e1e yo) a#e/

!o then how can we tell the dierence if we do not know who we are?

I ("( 'o& say yo) (o 'o& know *!o yo) a#e/ I s"ly s&a&e( yo) (o 'o&

remember. A a#& o$ yo) (oes 'o& a'y*ay/ T!e a#& &!a& yo) !a1e 0el"e1e(

yo) a#e/

Why is it so hard to remember?

I& "s as !a#( as yo) %!oose &o 0el"e1e "& &o 0e/ I& "s !a#( $o# alos& all o$

so%"e&y &o(ay 0e%a)se I !a1e 0e%oe &!e (o"'a'& 3,)#e o$ %olle%&"1e

so%"e&y/ Yo) la%+ 0ala'%e a'( )'(e#s&a'("', o$ ME 0e"', a a#& o$ yo) &!a& "s

e1e#-%!a',"',4 'o& ALL o$ YOU *!"%! "s %o's&a'&/ O'%e a,a"'4 "$ yo) 0el"e1e I

a all o$ yo)4 "& %a' o'ly 0e 0e%a)se yo) !a1e $o#,o&&e' yo)# )e 'a&)#e5

yo)# a)&!e'&"% sel$/ T!e 0",,es& "ss)e yo)# so%"e&y $a%es "s &!a& yo) %#ea&e(

e &o a1o"( yo)# )&! a'( !a1e $o#,o&&e' (o"', so/ By 'o& )'(e#s&a'("',

yo)# a)&!e'&"% sel$4 yo) 0el"e1e &!a& yo) a#e sea#a&e $#o yo)# e.&e#'al

e'1"#o'e'& "'s&ea( o$ #ee0e#"', &!a& yo) a'( all o&!e#s a#e a%&)ally%o''e%&e( &o e1e#y&!"', a'( %o-%#ea&"', &o,e&!e# e1e#y&!"', &!a& yo)

e'%o)'&e# "' yo)# l"$e/ No* yo) %#ea&e yo)# e1e#y(ay l"$e $#o a la%e o$ 'o&

#ee0e#"', *!o yo) #eally a#e/

So yo) (o &!e $ollo*"', "' a' e'(less %y%le:

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!ol( o'&o 'e,a&"1e 0el"e$s yo) a#e )'*"ll"', &o $a%e #ela&e( &o a a)a&"%

as& e.e#"e'%e%#ea&e a $alse se'se o$ sel$ 0ase( o' "(e'&"$y"', *"&!

s)#$a%e &!o),!&s $#o a la%e o$ $ea# &o a1o"( &!ese )'(e#ly"', 0el"e$s

lay o)& &!e #ole o$ &!"s $alse sel$ 0e,"' o1e# &"e &o 0el"e1e yo) a#e o'ly

&!"s $alse sel$%#ea&e &!e s"&)a&"o's yo) e'%o)'&e# "' yo)# e1e#y(ay l"$e

%e'&e#e( o' &!"s $ea#-0ase( $alse sel$ Rea%& 'e,a&"1ely &o yo)# e.&e#'al

e'1"#o'e'& 0e%a)se yo) 0el"e1e yo) a#e a sea#a&e 1"%&" &o l"$e7s

%"#%)s&a'%es/

Yo) (o 'o& #eal"e yo) a#e &!e o'e %#ea&"', yo)# l"$e %"#%)s&a'%es/ T!#o),!

ME4 yo) !a1e $o#,o&&e'/ E1e#y &"e yo) #eea& &!"s %y%le4 yo) $ee( ME a'(

",'o#e &!e &o&al"&y o$ *!o yo) a#e5 &!e a)&!e'&"% sel$ CYOU/

To s) "& )4 yo) C&!#o),! ME 0el"e1e yo) a#e sea#a&e $#o &!e *o#l( yo)

3'( yo)#sel$ "' ye& s")l&a'eo)sly %#ea&e &!e l"$e yo) !a1e/ So yo) %o'&"')e

&o 3'( yo)#sel$ e'%o)'&e#"', 'e,a&"1e s"&)a&"o's a'( (o 'o& #eal"e &!a& yo)

a#e &!e o'e %#ea&"', &!e/ T!"s +ees &!e +a#"% %y%le ,o"',/

!o how do we remember?

T!e#e a#e a'y ("e#e'& e&!o(s o$ ("s%o1e#"', *!o yo) a#e/ Mos& o$ yo) a&

&!"s &"e 3#s& !a1e &o ("s%o1e# *!o yo) a#e 'o&4 *!"%! "s &!e $alse se'se o$

sel$ yo) !a1e 0el"e1e( yo)#sel$ &o 0e/ T!"s %a' 0e (o'e &!#o),! e.a'("',

yo)# a*a#e'ess &!#o),! o0se#1a&"o'/ Fo# e.ale4 yo) %a' 0e%oe a*a#e o$

&!e &!o),!&s *"&!"' &!e #a%"', "'(/ T!e#e "s a' a*a#e'ess o$ &!o),!& *!"%!

ea's &!a& yo) %a''o& 0e yo)# &!o),!&s/ So a'y o$ yo) !a1e "'(s &!a&

#a%e $#o o'e &!o),!& &o &!e 'e.& *"&!o)& e1e' #eal""', "&/ T!"s "s 0e%a)se I

a +ee"', yo) ("sa%&e( $#o yo)# )'(e#ly"', &!o),!&s$eel"',s0el"e$s

&!#o),! &!"s $alse "(e'&"&y/ I !a1e ,a"'e( &!e se',&! *"&!"' os& o$

%olle%&"1e so%"e&y &o +ee yo) "' a s&a&e o$ %o's&a'& s)#$a%e &!o),!&s &o a1o"(

yo)# )&!/

O'e *ay &o 0e%oe 0e&&e# a& o0se#1"', &!o),!& "& "s 0y #a%&"%"',

e("&a&"o'/ Me("&a&"o' "s o$&e' (e3'e( se1e#al ("e#e'& *ays/ T!e#e "s 'o&

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o'e %e#&a"' *ay &o #a%&"%e e("&a&"o'/ Me("&a&"o' &!e *ay "& "s 0e"', (e3'e(

"' &!"s &e.& "s s"ly s"&&"', *"&! yo)# &!o),!&s a'( $eel"',s $#o a la%e o$

o0se#1a&"o' *"&!o)& "(e'&"$y"', *"&! &!e/ Ge& "' a %o$o#&a0le os"&"o'4

$o%)s o' yo)# 0#ea&!"',4 a'( )ly o0se#1e *!a& a#"ses *"&!o)& a&&a%!"',

)(,e'& o# ea'"', &o &!ese &!o),!&s a'( $eel"',s/ Allo* &!e &o a#"se a'(

ass *"&!o)& e#so'al "'&e#$e#e'%e/ Do 'o& y &o 63.7 o# 6a()s&7 a'y&!"',/

J)s& 0e &!e#e *"&! yo)# &!o),!&s a'( $eel"',s $o# *!a& &!ey a#e/ W!a& yo) *"ll

0e,"' &o )'(e#s&a'( "s &!ese &!o),!&s a'( $eel"',s a#e &eo#a#y/ T!ey

%oe a'( ,o "' &!e sae *ay &!a& %a#s (o o' a $#ee*ay/ T!ese &!o),!&s a'(

$eel"',s %a' %!a',e a'( &!e#e$o#e %a''o& 0e *!o yo) a#e/

As yo) 0e%oe o#e %o$o#&a0le *"&! o0se#1"', yo)# &!o),!&s a'( $eel"',s

*"&!o)& )(,ee'&4 yo) *"ll #elease &!e s)#$a%e &!o),!&s a'( $eel"',s I CME

a 0#"',"', &o yo)# a&&e'&"o'/ T!"s allo*s &!e )'(e#ly"', &!o),!&s a'(

$eel"',s yo) !a1e !el( o'&o *"&!"' yo)# s)0%o's%"o)s &o #"se &o &!e le1el o$

%o's%"o)s'ess/ T!ese &!o),!&s a'( $eel"',s &oo %a' 0e #elease( $#o a la%e

o$ o0se#1"', &!e as &eo#a#y s&a&es4 %o"', a'( ,o"',/

What makes you think " want to face underlying thoughts and feelings if "

have been unwilling to face them for years, possibly even my entire life, upto this point?

T!a&7s e.a%&ly *!a& I4 yo)# %#ea&e( $alse se'se o$ sel$4 *"ll #e"'( yo)/

?o's&a'&ly/ I *"ll (o *!a&e1e# I %a' &o +ee yo) $#o $a%"', &!"s s&) a'(

lay"', o)& yo)# s)#$a%e #ole o$ *!o yo) 0el"e1e yo) a#e/ S"&&"', *"&!

&!o),!&s a'( $eel"',s %a' $eel )'%o$o#&a0le a& 3#s&4 0)& "& )s& &a+es

a&"e'%e a'( #a%&"%e/ O0se#1"', a'( #eleas"', &!o),!&s a'( $eel"',s a#e a

lo& l"+e )&&"', a' "'$a'& &o slee/ T!e "'$a'& "s 1"s"0ly &"#e( ye& #es"s&s slee0y 3,!&"', "& a'( %#y"', "' "&s o&!e#7s a#s/ T!e o&!e# %o'&"')es !ol("',

&!e 0a0y ,e'&ly a'( a&"e'&ly "' !e# a#s )'&"l &!e 0a0y 0e,"'s &o 3,!& less4

$all"', "' a'( o)& o$ slee/ T!e o&!e# 'e1e# loses !oe a'( )'(e#s&a'(s &!e

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Why do so many of us not remember who we truly are? Why is it so dicult?

I& "s o'ly as ("@%)l& as yo) 0el"e1e "& &o 0e/ A$&e# all4 0el"e$ $o#s l"$e &!e *ay

yo) 1"e* "&/ T!"s "s *!a& so a'y $a"l &o ,#as4 a'( "& "s all 0e%a)se o$ &!"s

&!"s e#so'al ME/ I %o'1"'%e yo) &!a& yo) a#e sea#a&e $#o yo)# l"$es"&)a&"o's *!"le yo) a#e s")l&a'eo)sly %#ea&"', yo)# l"$e #e1ol1"', a#o)'(

ME4 yo)# $alse se'se o$ sel$/ S"'%e yo) a'( so a'y o&!e#s !a1e %#ea&e( l"$e

$#o a la%e o$ a1o"("', yo)# )e sel$4 yo) a'( %olle%&"1e so%"e&y o1e#all a#e

%olle%&"1ely l"1"', "' a1o"(a'%e a'( $ea#/ Yo) a#e a$#a"( &o $a%e yo)#

)'(e#ly"', 0el"e$s &!e#e$o#e oe#a&e $#o &!"s $alse e,o/ Mos& "'&e#a%&"o's

&o(ay a#e s"ly $alse e,os "'&e#a%&"', *"&! $alse e,os/ T!e#e a#e so)ls

0eyo'( &!ese e,os4 0)& yo)# $#ee *"ll %!o"%e !as 0ee' &o al",' *"&! soeo'e

yo) a#e 'o& "'s&ea( o$ 0e"', &!e 'a&)#al sel$4 &!e )e YOU/


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%a''o& $)lly e.#ess a'( #elease )'%o$o#&a0le eo&"o's "' a'y ,"1e'

oe'&4 &!ey 0e%oe )se& a'( (o 'o& )'(e#s&a'( *!y &!ey %a''o& al*ays

(o *!a& 'a&)#ally $eels #",!& "' a'y ,"1e' oe'&/ T!ey 0e,"' &o lose

%o'3(e'%e "' *!o &!ey a#e/

T!ey a#e &ol( &!"',s a#e *#o', a'( &!a& &!ey *"ll 'o& 0e a%%e&e(/ T!ey !a1e

"& s!o*' &o &!e *!e' &!ey *a+e )/ T!ey see "& o' &ele1"s"o' a'( "' &!e

'e*sae#/ T!ey ,o &o s%!ool a'( !a1e "& #e"'$o#%e( ye& a,a"'/ T!ey %oe

0a%+ !oe a'( "& "s a,a"' #e"'$o#%e(/ Ma'y &"es &!ey a#e &ol( $#o se1e#al

("e#e'& s)0e%&"1e 1"e*o"'&s &!a& I& !as &o 0e &!"s *ay o'ly &o 0e &ol(

la&e# 0y a'o&!e# No4 "& !as &o 0e &!a& *ay/ T!e %!"l( 0e,"'s &o $eel )se&

a'( %o'$)se( a'( (oes 'o& +'o* !o* &o (eal *"&! &!ese $eel"',s/ T!e %!"l(

&!e' %#ea&es a #ole %e'&e#e( o' leas"', &!e a#e'&s 0ase( o' &!e a#e'&s7

0el"e$s/

O'%e &!e %!"l( 0el"e1es &!a& &!ey a#e &!"s #ole &!ey !a1e %#ea&e(4 &!ey *"ll

see+ 1al"(a&"o' $#o eole a'( s"&)a&"o's o)&s"(e o$ &!esel1es %e'&e#e(

o' &!ese )'(e#ly"', 0el"e$s &!a& 0#o),!& &!"s $alse sel$ a0o)& "' &!e 3#s&

la%e/ Be$o#e lo', &!ey 0e%oe a%!"'es o$ so#&s/ T!ey a#e %ole&ely los&

"' &!e *o#l( a'( loo+ $o# a's*e#s o)&s"(e o$ &!esel1es 0e%a)se &!a& "s *!a&&!ey 'o* 0el"e1e &!ey a#e s)ose( &o (o/ T!ey 0e,"' &o 0el"e1e &!a& "$ &!ey

a#e 'o& !ay *"&! &!e"# %)##e'& s"&)a&"o' &!ey %a' )s& *a"& $o# soe&!"', o#

soeo'e &o %oe alo', a'( %!a',e "&/ I$ &!ey a#e 'o& !ay "' &!e"#

#ela&"o's!"s &!ey %a' )s& ,e& #"( o$ &!e eole &!ey a#e *"&! a'( o1e o' &o

'e* eole *"&!o)& %!a',"', &!esel1es/ T!"s %y%le o$ a1o"("', yo)# )e

sel$ "' e.%!a',e $o# ME &!e' #eea&s "&sel$/ T!e' &!ey !a1e %!"l(#e' a'(

&ea%! &!ese sae &!"',s &!ey *e#e &a),!& so &!a& &!"s %y%le %o'&"')es "'

ea%! 'e* ,e'e#a&"o'/ I$ &!e"# %!"l(#e' (o 'o& o0ey &!"s se& o$ 0el"e$s &!ey &oo

*"ll 0e e& *"&! s%o#' a'( ("sao"'&e'&/ All &!e *!"le &!e"# l"1es ,o 0y a'(

&!ey *o'(e# *!a& !ae'e(; W!e#e ("( "& all ,o; T!ey !a1e *a"&e( so lo',

$o# &!"s %o'&"')e( ea%e o$ "'( ye& "& al*ays sees &o el)(e &!e/ T!e

*!ole #easo' &!ey %ae !e#e "s %ole&ely los& a'( $o#,o&&e'/ No* &!ey a#e


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ME4 &!e"# $alse se'se o$ sel$ &!a& "s %o's&a'&ly see+"', a#o1al so &!e

)'(e#ly"', $ea#s #ea"' 0)#"e( "' &!e )'%o's%"o)s/ I' &!"s *ay4 %!"l(#e'

0e%oe a' es%ae $o# ME *"&!"' &!e a#e'&s *"&!o)& &!e e1e# #eal""', "&/

Pa#e'&s oe#a&"', $#o &!e 0el"e$ &!ey a#e ME a#e o'ly !ay *"&! &!e"#

%!"l(#e' )'(e# %e#&a"' %o'("&"o's/ T!"s "s *!a& "s +'o*' as %o'("&"o'al lo1e

C*!"%! "s 'o& )e lo1e/ T!e )'%o'("&"o'ally lo1"', a#e'& (oes 'o& see+

!a"'ess &!#o),! &!e"# %!"l(#e'/ T!ey s"ly lo1e $o# &!e sa+e o$ lo1"',

#e,a#(less o$ *!a& &!e %!"l(#e' ay o# ay 'o& (o/ T!"s %a' o'ly %oe $#o

'o& (ee'("', o' &!e"# %!"l(#e' $o# !a"'ess 0)& #a&!e# $#o al#ea(y 0e"',

!ay "' &!e 3#s& la%e/

!o can it be said then that if we are becoming oended it is because we feel

like the false role we believe we are is being threatened and this causes us

to feel vulnerable because it may e4pose the underlying subconscious

energy within ourselves that we have been hiding from?

Yes/ Fo# os& &!e#e "s a 'o& a %o's%"o)s a*a#e'ess o$ &!"s/ Ma'y 0e%oe

oe'(e( a& &!e s)#$a%e "ss)e o$ soe&!"', a'( #ea"' ("sa%&e( "' "&

*"&!o)& see"', &!e 0",,e#4 )'(e#ly"', "ss)e/

3ould you describe what you mean by the conscious and subconscious

mind?

S)#e/ T!e s)0%o's%"o)s "'( "s a(e ) o$ &!ose &!o),!&s &!a& a#e

)'(e#ly"', a'( 'o& a& &!e %o's%"o)s le1el/ T!ey a#e &!e )'(e&e%&e( (#"1"',

$o#%e $o# *!a& yo) (o/ Fo# &!e )#ose o$ &!"s &e.& *e *"ll )se &!e &e#s

s)0%o's%"o)s a'( )'%o's%"o)s "'&e#%!a',ea0ly/ ?o's%"o)s &!o),!&s a#e

&!ose s)#$a%e &!o),!&s yo) a#e a*a#e o$/ O'e *!ose %o's%"o)s a'(

s)0%o's%"o)s &!o),!&s a#e al",'e( a#e (o'e so $#o &!e"# !",!e# sel$&!e

&o&al"&y o$ *!o &!ey #eally a#e/ O'e *!ose %o's%"o)s a'( s)0%o's%"o)s

&!o),!&s a#e 'o& "' al",'e'& "s o'e *!o "s #e#ess"', 'e,a&"1e &!o),!&s a'(

eo&"o's a0o)& &!esel1es/ Ho* (oes &!"s !ae'; Well4 &!e s)0%o's%"o)s

&!o),!&s 0e%oe 0)#"e( 0e%a)se o$ &!e $ea# o$ a%&)ally $a%"', &!e/ I& "s


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*"&!o)& a+"', a'y eo#& &o &!"'+ a0o)& "&/ T!e a's*e# "s 'a&)#ally

#ese'&"', "&sel$/ Do yo) 'o& (o &!"s; T!ese &!o),!&s a##"1e $#o *!a& yo)

ay %all yo)# H",!e# Sel$ T!a& ase%& o$ sel$ &!a& #ee0e#s *!o "& #eally

"s a'( )&"l"es &!o),!&se,o "' al",'e'& *"&! &!"s )'(e#s&a'("', $o# 'o o&!e#

)#ose &!a' &o s#ea( )'%o'("&"o'al lo1e &o all/ I' &!"s s&a&e o'e

)'(e#s&a'(s &!e %o''e%&"o' &!ey s!a#e &o all4 a'( &!a& &!e#e )ly "s 'o

6o&!e#/7 I' &!"s s&a&e4 YOU a'( ME a#e %o''e%&e( as o'e/

T!e ME as &!e $alse se'se o$ sel$ #o()%es &!e !ea1y &!o),!&s %e'&e#e( o'

&!"s e#so'al ME/ I& "s %a),!& ) "' sea#a&"o'/ MeYo)4 Goo(Ba(4

S)%%essFa"l)#e4 R",!&W#o',/ I& #o()%es &!e $eel"',s o$ a'."e&y4 (e#ess"o'4

a',e#4 ,#ee(4 e&%/ &!#o),! &!o),!&/ E1e#y &!o),!& a'( a%&"o' "s %e'&e#e( o'

*!e&!e# "& !els o# 0e'e3&s &!"s e#so'al 6ME/7 Yo) a#e e"&!e# *"&! e o#

a,a"'s& e "s &!e "'(se& o'e !as *!e' &!o),!&s %oe $#o ME/

T!"s e'&"#e %o'1e#sa&"o' "s )&"l""', e,o $#o &!e !",!e# sel$/ T!e#e "s 'o sel$-

,a"'/ T!e#e "s o'ly "'$o#a&"o' yo) %a' %!oose &o a%%e& o# 'o& a%%e&/

That sounds very dicult to understand, 6uite honestly. To many people a

thought is simply a thought.

T#y s"&&"', a'( o0se#1"', 'o& o'ly yo)# &!o),!&s4 0)& also &o yo)# $eel"',s/ Do

'o& y a'( %o'ol yo)# &!o),!&s/ As+ a 2)es&"o' a'( &!e' l"s&e' as "$ yo)

*e#e as+"', soeo'e else &!a& "s "' &!e sae #oo a'( *a"&"', $o# a #ely/

G"1e &!"s 2)es&"o' yo)# $)ll a&&e'&"o'/ As a' a's*e# e'&e#s yo)# "'(4 )s&

l"s&e'/ I$ yo) a#e *#"&"', a' a's*e#4 )s& *#"&e/ Do 'o& y a'( &!"'+ a0o)&

*!a& yo) a#e !ea#"', o# *#"&"',/ J)s& allo* "& &o !ae' 'a&)#ally/ W!a& (o

yo) 'o&"%e4 "$ a'y&!"',; I$ o'e )s& l"s&e's *"&!o)& *a'&"', &o "'&e##)&4 a'

a's*e# *"ll 'a&)#ally 9o* *"&!"' &!e"# 3el( o$ %o's%"o)s a*a#e'ess/ T!"s

a's*e# *"ll %oe 'a&)#ally a'( eo#&lessly/ Feel"',s *"ll a#"se a'( #elease

'a&)#ally/ I' &!"s s&a&e &!e $alse ME ,e&s o)& o$ &!e *ay a'( allo*s "&sel$ &o 0e

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!ys"%al #eal"&y *"&!o)& a !ys"%al se'se o$ 0e"', ,#o)'(e( "' &!e "'( a'(

0o(y/ Soe se1e#e e'&al "ll'esses &!a& #o()%e !all)%"'a&"o's a'(

(el)s"o's as yo) %all &!e a#e a #es)l& o$ o'e %!a''el"', &!e !",!e#

$#e2)e'%"es *"&!o)& &!e #oe# ,#o)'("', o$ &!e !ys"%al 0o(y a'( "'(/

T!"s %a' 0e%oe 1e#y ("sess$)l 0e%a)se o'e "' &!"s s&a&e sees4 !ea#s4 a'(

0el"e1es &!"',s &!a& 'o o'e else a#o)'( &!e sees4 !ea#s4 o# 0el"e1es/ T!"s "s

'o& a !all)%"'a&"o' o# (el)s"o' &o &!e o'e *!o "s e.e#"e'%"', &!"s/ T!"s "s

1e#y #eal/ Soe eole e.e#"e'%e *!a& yo) %all (el)s"o's o$ ,#a'(e)#4

0el"e1"', &!ey a#e soe so#& o$ (e"&y &!a& o&!e#s a#e 'o&/

!o how does one 5nd the proper balance between the two?

O'e )s& 0e%oe a*a#e o$ &!e &o&al"&y o$ *!o &!ey a#e as *ell as &!"s!ys"%al 0o(y &!ey oe#a&e $#o as 0e"', a &eo#a#y s&a&e ye& a 'e%essa#y

s&a&e a& &!"s &"e/ F#o &!"s s&a&e4 o'e (oes 'o& ("s%o)'& &!e 0o(y a'( "'(

"' e.%!a',e $o# s"#"&/ Also4 l"+e a'y a#e (o"', 'o* "' yo)# so%"e&y4 o'e

(oes 'o& ("s%o)'& &!e s"#"& $o# &!e 0o(y a'( "'(/ T!e s"#"& "s *!a& *"ll

%a##y o' a$&e# &!e !ys"%al 0o(y a'( 0#a"' a#e 'o lo',e# oe#a0le/ G#o)'("',

e&!o(s a#e +ey $o# a"'&a"'"', a s&a0le %o''e%&e( 0e&*ee' &!e Lo*e# a'(

H",!e# Sel1es/ A !eal&!y 0o(y4 "'(4 a'( s"#"& a#e a0le &o e.e#"e'%e a!",!e# 1e#s"o' o$ yo)#sel1es "' &!e !ys"%al 9es!4 $o# la%+ o$ 0e&&e# &e#s/ All

!ys"%al !as 0ee' #o()%e( $#o 'o'!ys"%al/ T!ey a#e %o''e%&e( as o'e/

What are good grounding methods to assist in balancing the two?

Me("&a&"o' !as al#ea(y 0ee' ("s%)sse( a'( "s +ey $o# ,#o)'("', &!e !",!e#

e'e#,"es "' 0ala'%e *"&! &!e lo*e# e'e#,"es/ T!e e'e#,y $#o 'a&)#e "s 1e#y

,#o)'("', *!e' "& !as 'o& 0ee' &ae#e( *"&!/ I$ o'e %a' se'( &"e

o)&(oo#s "' &!e s)' a'( a#o)'( *"l(l"$e &!ey *"ll 0e,"' &o $eel a (eee# se'se

o$ %o''e%&"o' a& &!e !ys"%al le1el/ Se'("', &"e a#o)'( o&!e#s *!o a%%e&

yo) as yo) a#e *"&!o)& a&&e&"', &o %!a',e yo) ye& a#e !o'es& *"&! yo)

*!e' yo) see+ &!e"# ,)"(a'%e %a' 0e 1e#y ,#o)'("', a'( %o$o#&"',/ T!"s "s

'o& &o 0e %o'$)se( *"&! (ee'("', o' o&!e# eole a'( s"&)a&"o's &o $eel


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E'e#,y L"'+s

2ut there is always myself in relationship to others. There are people in my

life who come and go, and " am not always in the same place. You keep

referring to this connection to all that is, yet everything is not always the

same e4cept for this individual me who e4periences the e4ternal

environment. 1ow can you say " am connected to all that is. 8ight now there

are groups of people in the *iddle +ast who are killing people left and right.

1ow am " connected to that?

Yo) s!ae yo)# l"$e 0ase( o' *!a& yo) %!oose &o 0el"e1e/ I$ yo) 0el"e1e a

&!o),!& lo', e'o),! 0y ,"1"', "& yo)# a&&e'&"o'4 yo) *"ll $o# a e#so'al"(e'&"&y CME a#o)'( "& *!"%! *"ll s!ae yo)# e'&"#e l"$e/ E1e#y&!"', "s e'e#,y

*!"%! %a''o& 0e %#ea&e( 'o# (esoye( 0)& %a' %!a',e $o#/ T!"s "'%l)(es

yo)# !ys"%al 0o(y yo) %)##e'&ly )&"l"e/ T!"s "'%l)(es yo)# &!o),!&s/ Yo)

#a"se o# lo*e# yo)# e'e#,e&"% $#e2)e'%y 0ase( o' *!a& yo) %!oose &o 0el"e1e

a0o)& yo)#sel$ "' #ela&"o's!" &o yo)# e'1"#o'e'&/ I' &!"s *ay4 yo) %#ea&e

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yo)# l"$e/ W!a& yo) %o'&"')e &o e'%o)'&e# "' yo)# l"$e ("#e%&ly #e9e%&s yo)#

0el"e$s a0o)& yo)#sel$/ T!e eole a'( s"&)a&"o's yo) 0#"', "'&o yo)# l"$e a&

&!"s oe'& ("#e%&ly #e9e%& !o* yo) $eel a0o)& yo)#sel$/ T!e#e$o#e4 "$ yo)

!a( a so', 0el"e$ a&&a%!e( &o &!ese ,#o)s "' &!e M"((le Eas& a'(

%o'&"')e( &o $o%)s o' "&4 "& *o)l( 0e,"' &o ,#a1"&a&e "'&o yo)# l"$e/ As "& s&a'(s

'o* yo) !a1e a %o's%"o)s a*a#e'ess o$ "& *!"%! ea's "& "s %o''e%&e( &o

yo)4 0)& 'o& a 1e#y so', %o''e%&"o' &o yo)# #ese'& oe'& a& &!"s &"e/

T!e s"&)a&"o's a'( eole yo) ,#a1"&a&e &o a#e 'o& 0y a%%"(e'&/ I& "s 0ase( o'

yo)# e'e#,e&"% $#e2)e'%y l"'+"', ) &o a l"+e-$#e2)e'%y "' &!e e.&e#'al

e'1"#o'e'&/

" have heard of something along these lines. !ome call it The 7aw of

-ttraction, stating if you focus on something long enough you will bring it

into your life. There is that movie The !ecret. " have tried some of these

e4ercises and they have not worked. "'m not sure " can be easily convinced

that we create our own lives, especially with so much pain and suering that

" have e4perienced that " would wish upon no one. What about someone who

gets tortured or violently assaulted out of nowhere? -re you telling me they

intended for it to happen?

T!ose a#,)e'&s a0o1e a#e &!e o'es I &!#o* a& yo) &o +ee yo) $ee("', ME

"' &!e $o# o$ &!e $alse se'se o$ sel$/ T!e 6sea#a&e7 sel$/ I +'o* &!a& "$ yo)

&a+e 'o a%%o)'&a0"l"&y $o# yo)# o*' l"$e %"#%)s&a'%es4 yo) *"ll %o'&"')e &o

a1o"( &!e )'(e#ly"', 0el"e$s *!"%! %#ea&e( e C"' &!e $o# yo) see e "'

'o* "' &!e 3#s& la%e/ I *"ll %o'1"'%e yo) &o lay &!e 1"%&" #ole/ I' o#(e# &o

0e a 1"%&"4 &!e#e )s& 0e a' a0)se#/ I' o#(e# &o 0e a ,oo( e#so'4 &!e#e

)s& 0e a 0a( e#so'/ I' o#(e# &o 0e a&a%&"1e4 &!e#e )s& 0e o&!e#s *!o

a#e )'a&a%&"1e/ T!e l"s& ,oes o'/ All o$ &!ese &!"',s a#e (ee'(e'& )o'

ea%! o&!e# a'( %a''o& e."s& *"&!o)& "&7s oos"&e/ T!e#e$o#e4 &!ese oos"',

$o#%es *o#+ &o,e&!e# &o %#ea&e &!e %y%les yo) 3'( yo)#sel$ "'/ Ne"&!e# s"(e "s

)ly ("e#e'& as $a# as e'e#,y ,oes/ T!ey )s& aea# &o 0e ("e#e'& ye&

(ee'( o' ea%! o&!e#/ I *o#+ &!#o),! yo) 0y )s"', &!ese ase%&s o$ ()al"&y

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T!e' yo) !a1e &!e e&!o(s o$ Pos"&"1e &!o),!&s4 Pos"&"1e #eal"&y *"&!o)&

e1e# a((#ess"', &!e s)0%o's%"o)s e'e#,y &!a& "s 0e"', !el( o' &o/ W!o (o

yo) &!"'+ %o'1"'%es yo) &!a& all yo) !a1e &o (o &o 0e !ay "s o'ly &!"'+

os"&"1ely; I (o4 o$ %o)#se4 $o# %#ea&"', a 'e* #ole &!a& +ees ME al"1e/ I$ yo)

0el"e1e e4 yo) *"ll 'o& (eal *"&! yo)# )e )'(e#ly"', $eel"',s/ Yo) *"ll )s&

#eea& os"&"1e a@#a&"o's e1e' "$ yo) $eel soe&!"', (ee (o*' 'a,,"',

a& yo)# so)l &o 0e #elease(/ I,'o#a'%e "s 0l"ss so &o sea+/ I& "s l"+e *a&e#"',

a la'& 0y s#ay"', &!e lea1es a'( 'o& &!e #oo&/ I& "s a ,#ea& &eo#a#y

sol)&"o'4 0)& yo)# )'(e#ly"', "ss)es s&"ll !a1e 'o& 0ee' $a%e(/

!o you are saying we shouldn't think positively? Yeah, sounds like something

a false sense of self would say.

I& ay say &!a&4 0)& I (o 'o& sea+ $#o &!a& la%e 0)& #a&!e# $#o 0e"', "'

al",'e'& *"&! yo)# H",!e# Sel$4 &!e YOU/ I a 'o& say"', &o 'o& &!"'+

os"&"1ely4 0)& (o "& #eal"s&"%ally/ I$ yo) 0el"e1e yo) 'ee( &o 6&!"'+ os"&"1e7 "s "&

'o& $o# a'y o&!e# #easo' &!a' 0e%a)se o$ &!e )'(e#ly"', )&! &!a& yo) &!"'+

'e,a&"1ely a0o)& yo)#sel$; Do 'o& la%e yo)# 3',e#s "' yo)# ea#s4 so &o

sea+4 *!e' a 'e,a&"1e &!o),!& o# eo&"o' a#"ses/ S"& *"&! &!ese &!o),!&s

a'( $eel"',s $#o a la%e o$ 'o')(,e'&al o0se#1a&"o' as (es%#"0e( ea#l"e#/Yo) )s& 3'( &!e 0ala'%e 0e&*ee' #ea"'"', os"&"1e a'( #eal"s&"%ally $a%"',

&!a& *!"%! yo) a#e %)##e'&ly !ol("', o'&o 0e%a)se yo) !a1e 0ee' #e1"o)sly

)'*"ll"', &o $a%e "&/ I' &!"s *ay4 e1e#y&!"', !as a os"&"1e s"(e/ T!ose

)'%o$o#&a0le &!"',s a#e )s& s!o*"', yo) &!a& *!"%! yo) a#e 'o& so yo)

ay le& &!e ,o/ By le&&"', &!e ,o4 yo) 0e%oe a o#e a)&!e'&"% sel$/ I'

&!"s *ay4 yo) s!o)l( 0e &!a'+$)l $o# &!e oe'&s o$ s)e#"',/

To a"'& yo) a "%&)#e o$ !o* &!"s *o#+s4 se&&"', a 'e* "'&e'&"o' "' &!e#ese'& oe'& "s a lo& l"+e a 3s!e#a' *!o %as&s !"s l"'e o)& "'&o &!e

o%ea'/ He %a''o& see *!e#e &!e l"'e "s )'(e# &!e *a&e# o# *!a& "& "s

a&a%&"',4 0)& 0y %as&"', !"s 0a"&e( !oo+ o' a l"'e &!e 3s!e#a' !as se& a'

"'&e'&"o' &o %a&%! soe&!"', 'e*/ I$ &!e 3s!e#a' s&"ll !a( !"s las& %a&%! o'

&!e l"'e4 &!e !oo+ a& &!e e'( o$ !"s l"'e *o)l( 'o& 0e $#ee &o %a&%! a'y&!"',


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'e*/ T!e#e$o#e4 !e *o)l( %o'&"')e #eel"', "' &!e sae %a&%! !e !as al*ays

!a(/ W!e' &!e 3s!e#a' 3'ally (e%"(es &o #elease !"s las& %a&%! !e "s a0le &o

%as& !"s l"'e *"&! a $#ee !oo+4 %a&%! soe&!"', 'e*4 a'( #eel "& "'/

Yo) a#e 'o ("e#e'& &!a' &!e 3s!e#a' *!e' "& %oes &o yo)# #ese'&oe'&/ I$ yo) *"s! &o a&a%& soe&!"', 'e*4 yo) )s& le& ,o o$ *!a& !as

+e& yo) "' &!e sae s"&)a&"o' yo) a#e "' #",!& 'o* a'( se& a 'e* "'&e'&"o'/

T!"s 'e* "'&e'&"o' "s &!e 0a"& a'( &!e #es)l& "s &!e %a&%!/ Yo) %a' ,#a()ally

0#"', "' 'e* oo#&)'"&"es "' &!e sae *ay a 3s!e#a' #eels "' a 'e* %a&%!:

By +ee"', $o%)se( 'o* o' *!a& yo) (es"#e )'&"l "& a'"$es&s "'&o yo)# l"$e/

Yo) %a''o& !ys"%ally see &!e #o%ess o$ 'e* oo#&)'"&"es %o"', "'&o yo)#

l"$e "' &!e sae *ay a 3s!e#a' %a''o& see !"s 0a"&e( !oo+ )'(e#*a&e#4 0)&

0y le&&"', ,o o$ &!e ol( e'e#,y a'( se&&"', yo)# "'&e'&"o' yo) !a1e %as& yo)#

l"'e o)& &o &!e )'"1e#se/ O'%e &!e )'"1e#se 0"&es4 yo) )s& !a1e &o a"'&a"'

&!e %o's%"o)s a*a#e'ess o$ #eel"', C0#"',"', "& "'&o yo)# #ese'& oe'&/

!o is increased awareness the false ego's kryptonite, so to speak?

Yes/ My $o%)s "s &o +ee yo) "' a s&a&e o$ )'a*a#e'ess 0y )&"l""', #a%"',

s)#$a%e &!o),!&s4 a&&a%!e'&s4 a(("%&"o's4 a1o"(a'%e4 (e'"al4 e&%/ T!e o'ly

*ay soeo'e %a' #ea"' "' a 'e,a&"1e %y%le "s A/ To %o's%"o)sly %!oose &o

s&ay "' "& o# B/ Rea"' "' "& s)0%o's%"o)sly *"&!o)& &!e a*a#e'ess o$ &!e

#o%ess "&sel$/ Alos& e1e#yo'e *!o a#&"%"a&es "' &!"s %y%l"%al a&&e#' $alls

"'&o %a&e,o#y B/ I also l""& yo)# a*a#e'ess 0y +ee"', yo) $o%)se( o' &!e

as& o# &!"'+"', a0o)& &!e $)&)#e "' yo)# #ese'& oe'& "'s&ea( o$

#ea"'"', %o's%"o)s "' yo)# #ese'& oe'&/ T!e#e #eally "s 'o as& o#

$)&)#e4 o'ly *!a& yo) %!oose &o !ol( o'&o o# le& ,o/ Fo#,"1e'ess a'(

a%%e&a'%e o$ yo)# as& a'( o&!e#s7 as& a#e y o&!e# +#y&o'"&es4 &o )seyo)# &e#/

What do you mean no past or no future? There certainly is. +ver been to a

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T!#o),! yo) a'( a'y o&!e#s4 yes/ I$ yo) )ly %o'&ela&e &!e o'ly

a%%)#a&e &"e a'( la%e &!a& e1e#yo'e al*ays ee&s4 &!e a's*e# "s al*ays

#",!& !e#e4 #",!& 'o*/ Peole o$&e' o"'& &o &!"',s &!a& !ae'e( a'( say &!a&

"& "s &!e as&4 0)& !o* %a' "& 0e &!e as& "$ yo) a#e &!"'+"', a0o)& "& #",!&

'o*; I&7s s&"ll a a#& o$ yo) o# yo) %o)l( 'o& "(e'&"$y *"&! "& 'o*/ Yo) o$&e' &al+

a0o)& *!a& yo) *a'& &o 0e "' &!e $)&)#e4 0)& &!e $)&)#e 'e1e# %oes

C&oo##o* "s al*ays a (ay a*ay/ Yo) o'ly !a1e #",!& 'o*/ T!e o'ly *ay &o

!a1e yo)# 0ea)&"$)l $)&)#"s&"% !oes a'( (#eas "s &o %!a',e yo)# "'(se&

&!a& yo) *a'& "& a'( #eal"e &!a& yo) !a1e "& a'( a#e ,#a()ally 0#"',"', "& "'&o

yo)# !e#e a'( 'o*4 #",!& !e#e a'( #",!& 'o*/

Yo) *o)l( 'o& 0e *#"&"', &!"s 0oo+ "$ "& *as 'o& $o# &!e e.e#"e'%es yo) !a1e

!a(/ T!ose e.e#"e'%es a#e a a#& o$ yo) #",!& 'o* as e1"(e'%e( 0y yo)

*#"&"', a0o)& "&/ A'y&!"', else "s 'o&/ Yo) *o)l( 'o& !a1e a *#"&&e' 0oo+ "'

&!e 6$)&)#e7 "$ yo) *e#e 'o& *#"&"', &!"s 0oo+ #",!& 'o*/ Yo) a#e 0#"',"', &!a&

"'&o $#)"&"o' 'o*/ W!e' oe#a&"', $#o ME4 &!e $alse se'se o$ sel$4 e1e#y&!"',

yo) a#e (o"', #",!& 'o* "s 0ase( o o$ as& %o'("&"o'"',/ E1e' yo)# $)&)#e

"'&e'&"o's a#e 0ase( o' as& %o'("&"o'"',/ W!e' o'e !as %ole&ely #eal"e(

&!e"# )e 'a&)#e &!ey a#e "' a s&a&e o$ 0e"',/ Be"', as "' #ese'%e/ P#ese'%e

as "' 0e"', #",!& !e#e4 #",!& 'o*4 "' &!"s #ese'& oe'& *"&!o)& "'&e'&"o'/

T!"s "s &!e s&a&e o$ &!e a)&!e'&"% sel$/ T!e a)&!e'&"% sel$ )'(e#s&a'(s &!a&

&"e "s a a'a(e "ll)s"o' a(e &o eas)#e &!e ("s&a'%e "& &a+es &o a1el

$#o Po"'& A &o Po"'& B/ T"e see(s ) o# slo*s (o*' 0ase( o' !o* $as& o'e

"s o1"',/ Mos& o$ yo) a#e s&"ll "' &!e s&a&e o$ %o'("&"o'"', 0ase( o' &!e as&/

Yo) a+e (e%"s"o's 0ase( o' yo)# as& &!a& e'!a'%e yo)# #ese'& oe'&

a'( #e%#ea&e s""la# s%e'a#"os "' &!e $)&)#e/ W!e' o'e le&s ,o o$ &!e"# as&4

l"$e s)((e'ly 6,e&s o)& o$ &!e *ay7 a'( 2)"%+ly *o#+s *"&! yo) $o# yo)#

!",!es& ,oo(/

" think " understand what you mean by this. " would like to share an

e4perience " had and the role " believe you 9the false sense of self: played in

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career up north. *y goal was to take a similar position as what " had up

north yet make more money doing it with the lu4ury of being closer to

family. " was not happy living up north and blamed it on my environment. "

ended up 5nding a position closer to home.

-lmost seven years had passed since the last time " lived in my hometown.

*y friends growing up were now either married or had moved away. " was

single and wanted to 5nd someone to date. " tried online dating because "

did not know anyone. " went on too many dates to count and none made it

past > dates.

" made more money at my new %ob but was stressed and not happy with it at

all. " was working very long hours to catch stu up and was always worrying

that " would somehow be blamed for what " walked into. " did not know many

people and my family members were busy in their own lives. To top it o, my

house was broken into twice in a > month period and several material

belongings were stolen. They could not 5nd who did it.

" was trying to remain positive but became very depressed when my outside

world yet again appeared to be collapsing in on me. -t the re6uest of my

mother's friend " decided to start writing down these concerns to identify any

connecting patterns. The 5rst time " did this was in *arch of #


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because of the lessons it showed me. " thanked Eod/!pirit/!ource within and

around me for showing me who " am, based on showing me who " am not.

Within > weeks of that awakening, " decided my house had been up for rent

long enough without anyone showing interest and that " was going to take ito the rental market to try and sell my house. 2efore " could make that call "

checked my phone and had a voicemail. !omeone 5nally signed a leaseC "

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yo)# #eal"a&"o' &o 0#"', yo) 0a%+ (o*' &o Ea#&! so yo) *o)l( +ee $ee("',

e4 0)& yo) !a1e %o'&"')e( &o 0e%oe o#e a*a#e o$ y a&&e#'s a'(

e&!o(s ea'& &o +ee yo) los&/

Yes, it was this moment in particular that " began to notice that we really docreate our lives based on our beliefs. " reali0e this but then lose it at times

and fall for your old tricks. Why is it so dicult to maintain a constant state

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discovered the creative power we all have. !he said @What could be more

fair and %ust than a Eod who allows us the free will to create our own

situations and remember who we are from them?A

T!"s "s )e/ Yo)# e.e#"e'%e "s 0ase( o' *!a& yo) %!oose &o 0el"e1e "' a'yoe'& as )e/ I$ yo) %o'&"')e &o #e"'$o#%e &!"s 0el"e$4 yo) %#ea&e a'

"(e'&"&y &!a& "s "' al",'e'& *"&! &!"s 0el"e$ o# yo) %#ea&e a' "(e'&"&y &!a&

a1o"(s $a%"', &!ese 0el"e$s/ Yo) &!e' %a##y a' e'e#,y a'( s!ae yo)# l"$e

a#o)'( &!"s e'e#,y/ I& "s *!e' yo) a#e )'*"ll"', &o a%%e& soe 0el"e$ yo)

!a1e a0o)& yo)#sel$ &!a& yo) %#ea&e &!"s $alse se'se o$ sel$/ O'%e yo) (o &!"s4

as e'&"o'e( #e1"o)sly4 yo) 0e,"' &o s!ae yo)# l"$e Ca'( #e*"#e yo)# 0#a"'

a#o)'( &!"s "(e'&"&y $#o a la%e o$ $ea# a'( a1o"(a'%e/ I ,#o* as yo) ,"1e

ME o#e %o's%"o)s a&&e'&"o'/ O'%e yo) (o &!"s lo', e'o),!4 I *"ll 0e,"' &o

%o'1"'%e yo) &!a& I a all yo) a#e a'( &!a& e1e#y&!"', "' l"$e "s e"&!e# *"&!

e o# a,a"'s& e/ I& 0e%oes all a0o)& ME "'s&ea( o$ all a0o)& &!e &o&al"&y o$

*!o YOU #eally a#e/

What about how we are born? !ome people are born with disabilities or

certain genetic deformities. Why is this?

B"#&! a'( (ea&! a#e "ll)s"o's s"ly $o# &!e sa+e o$ l"$e e.e#"e'%e/ O'e

0el"e1es &!ey a#e o'ly &!e"# "'( a'( 0o(y )'&"l &!ey ass o' a'( #eal"e

&!e#e "s s&"ll a se'se o$ a*a#e'ess #ese'&/ Loo+ 'o $)#&!e# &!a' #esea#%! o'

'ea# (ea&! e.e#"e'%es CNDE7s/ Resea#%! o' NDEs "s #o1"("', a(("&"o'al

e1"(e'%e &!a& *e ossess a %o's%"o)s'ess o)&s"(e o$ o)# !ys"%al 0o("es/

T!e#e a#e &!o)sa'(s o$ (o%)e'&e( %ases "'1ol1"', eole 9oa&"', a0o1e

&!e"# 0o("es )o' ass"', a*ay4 s)((e'ly see"', &!"s 0#",!& s!"'"', l",!& a'(

se1e#al (e%ease( $#"e'(s a'( $a"ly e0e#s/ Soe NDEs "'1ol1e a *o#l($)ll o$ 3#e a'( &)#o"l 0e$o#e 3'ally see"', &!e l",!&/ Ma'y #eo#& #e%e"1"', a

l"$e #e1"e* $#o a 6!",!e#7 e#se%&"1e/

All o$ &!"s !ae's "' a a&&e# o$ *!a& *e *o)l( %all "')&es "' o)# !ys"%al

e."s&e'%e/ T!ese eole &!a& #e,a"' %o's%"o)s'ess "' &!e"# !ys"%al 0o("es


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1ow is this so? " doubt many people will buy that theory that they created

their life circumstances they were born into. *any are born into some very

rough circumstances.

T!a& "s 0e%a)se yo) !a1e s&"ll 'o& #eal"e( *!o yo) )ly a#e: A 'a&)#al s&a&eo$ 0e"', %o''e%&e( &o all &!a& "s &!a& (e%"(e( &o "'%a#'a&e &o e.e#"e'%e l"$e

"&sel$/ Base( o' 'o& #eal""', &!"s4 yo) !a1e %#ea&e( yo)# l"$e a#o)'( &!"s

e#so'al se'se o$ ME/ T!#o),! &!e "'s)e'& o$ &!o),!& I !a1e #e"'$o#%e(

a'y 0el"e$ sys&es all %e'&e#e( o' +ee"', e as so', as oss"0le/ T!e

o#e yo) 0el"e1e yo) a#e o'ly ME4 &!e o#e yo) $ee( e/ Yo)# so)l

#ee0e#s "&s )#ose o$ 0e"', !e#e4 0)& o'e )s& %o's%"o)sly %!oose &o

see ME $o# *!o I #eally a/ O'e )s& $a%e e ("#e%&ly a'( see *!a& I !a1e

0ee' !"("', $#o yo)4 *!a& I !a1e a(e yo) 0el"e1e yo) a#e &o a1o"( &!a&

*!"%! yo) )ly a#e/ I$ yo) (o 'o& see &!"s4 yo) *"ll lea1e a' "#"'& o' &!e

so)l a'( yo)# DNA o'%e yo) s!e( yo)# !ys"%al 0o(y/ T!e so)l 0ase( o' &!"s

e'e#,e&"% $#e2)e'%y "& %a##"es *"ll &!e' %!oose a 'e* se& o$ %"#%)s&a'%es &o

o'%e a,a"' "'%a#'a&e "' &!e !ys"%al $o#/ T!e so)l7s (es"#e "s $o# o'e &o

%o's%"o)sly #ee0e# *!o &!ey )ly a#e/ I$ "& %oes &!#o),! s)e#"', &o &!e

o"'& &!a& o'e loo+s a& &!e"# l"$e a'( says I !a1e 0ee' (o"', "& &!"s *ay $o#

so lo', a'( "& o'ly ,e&s *o#se4 ay0e I a "ss"', soe&!"', a'( s!o)l( y

a 'e* a#oa%! &!e' so 0e "&/ U'&"l o'e %o's%"o)sly #ee0e#s4 &!ey *"ll

%o'&"')e &o e.e#"e'%e &!e *o#l( o$ sea#a&"o' a'( ()al"&y/ T!"s "s &!e *!eel

o$ #e"'%a#'a&"o'/ B"#&!Re-B"#&!4 Goo(E1"l4 Da#+L",!&4 R",!&W#o',4 False

Se'se o$ Sel$A)&!e'&"% Sel$4 e&%/

!o Eod, or !ource as you call it, is simply a state of being. Eod wishes to

e4perience itself so based on this thought, Eod creates an e4perience by

creating a being which can choose for themselves how to e4perience the

world?

Soe*!a&/ So)#%e !as %#ea&e( all &!a& "s/ I& "s o01"o)s &!a& a !)a' 0e"', "s

,o"', &o !a1e a ("e#e'& e.e#"e'%e &!a' a #o%+/ Also4 soe se%"es s)%! as

!)a' 0e"',s a#e a0le &o %o-%#ea&e )s"', "'&e'&"o' a'( &!o),!&/ T!e#e$o#e4


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o$ So)#%e e.e#"e'%"', "&sel$/ I' &!e sae *ay a %ell !as a ')%le)s a'( "s

a*a#e o$ "&sel$ *"&!"' &!e 0o(y a'( "' &!e sae *ay &!e#e l"es a' a*a#e'ess

o$ &!e "'( a'( 0o(y "&sel$4 &!e#e l"es a' a*a#e'ess o$ &!e so)l 0e"', *"&!"'

a' o1e#so)l,#o)so)l4 a'( so o'/ T!e#e a#e "'3'"&e #o%esses &!a& ,o

0eyo'( &!e le1el o$ yo)# %o#e!e's"o' a& &!"s s&a,e o$ yo)# a*a#e'ess/ J)s&

+'o* &!a& &!e so)l "s a !",!e# a*a#e'ess o$ *!o yo) a#e &!a' &!e 0el"e$ &!a&

yo) a#e o'ly yo)# "'( a'( 0o(y4 0)& e1e' "& "s 'o& &!e &o&al"&y o$ *!o yo)

#eally a#e/

Wow. !o you are saying evolution occurs on a spiritual level as well as a

physical level?

Yes4 0)& &!e#e "s 'o sea#a&"o' 0e&*ee' !ys"%al a'( s"#"&)al/ T!a& "s &!e"ss)e yo) a'( a'y o&!e#s e'%o)'&e# "' yo)# %olle%&"1e so%"e&y/ T!#o),!

&!o),!&4 I %o'&"')e &o #e"'$o#%e &!ese 0el"e$s o$ sea#a&"o' *"&!"' a'y o$

yo)/ T!e !ys"%al #eal "s a' ase%& o$ &!e s"#"&)al #eal e.e#"e'%"', "&sel$/

E1ol)&"o' "s a' "'3'"&e #o%ess o$ %#ea&"', *"&!"' %#ea&"o's $#o a

a%#o%os"% le1el &o a "%#o%os"% le1el4 "'3'"&ely a'( $o#e1e#/

!o why are we as a collective society so focused on the physical level and

not the spiritual level?

I (o'7& +'o*4 yo) &ell e/ T!a&7s yo)# %!o"%e/

Well " feel like " am more openminded to these ideas than many " converse

with. What " mean is that how can people be convinced that there is a spirit

within them and a spiritual realm of in5nite evolution when we only seem to

e4perience the physical world?

F"#s& o4 &!e#e "s 'o s"#"& *"&!"' yo)/ I !a1e yo) a'( a'y %o'1"'%e(o&!e#*"se/ Yo) a#e &!e s"#"&4 a'( I a a' ase%& *"&!"' yo) &!a& yo) !a1e

%!ose' &o e.e#"e'%e 0ase( o' yo)# %)##e'& se& o$ 0el"e$s/ I$ yo) %a''o&

,#as &!"s &!e' yo) *"ll %o'&"')e &o #eea& a'y o$ &!e sae &!"',s yo) !a1e


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&!o),!&s$eel"',s0el"e$s *"&!"' yo)#sel$ &!a& *o)l( 0e e.ose( "$ &!"s $alse

se'se o$ sel$ CME "s e.ose( $o# *!a& "& #eally "s/

Yo) )s& )'(e#s&a'( &!a& all %o'9"%& 0e&*ee' sel$ a'( o&!e#s %oes $#o a&

leas& o'e o$ yo) 'o& a%%e&"', &!e o&!e# 0e%a)se "& "s e.os"', ME/ W!e'yo) 0el"e1e yo) a#e ME a'( sea#a&e4 yo) 'ee( sea#a&e 6o&!e#s7 &o 1al"(a&e

yo)# "(e'&"&y ye& $eel &!#ea&e'e( *!e' o&!e#s a#e (o"', &!"',s yo) !a1e

0el"e1e( *e#e "oss"0le/ T!"s "s *!y so a'y eole y &o 60#"', yo)

(o*'/7 I& "s 'o& #eally yo) *!o &!ey !a1e &!e #o0le *"&!/ I& "s &!e ME *"&!"'

&!e 0e"', e.ose( &!a& &!ey !a1e &!e #o0le *"&!/ T!ese eole $eel

&!#ea&e'e( (es"&e a'y #eal &!#ea& 0e%a)se &!ey !a1e %#ea&e( a &!#ea& 0y

"(e'&"$y"', *"&! &!ese &!o),!&s %e'&e#e( o' ME/ T!ey y &o 0#"', yo) (o*'

0e%a)se &!e"# s)0%o's%"o)s e'e#,y "s 0e"', e.ose(/ I's&ea( o$ *a+"', )

a'( see"', *!e#e &!e #eal #o0le "s &!ey a1o"( &!ese )'(e#ly"', $ea#s 0y

a&&e&"', &o 0#"', yo) (o*' &o &!e"# le1el/ Yo) )s& #ea"' a*a#e o$ &!"s

*"&!"' yo)#sel$ a'( o&!e#s "$ yo) *"s! &o le& "& ,o/ I& "s o'ly a0o)& yo) "$ yo)4

$#o yo)# o*' $alse "(e'&"&y CME e#so'al"e &!e"# )(,e'&/ Ree0e#

&!"s: W!e' yo) )(,e o&!e#s4 yo) a#e a1o"("', yo)# o*' )'(e#ly"',

)(,e'&s/ T!"s a1o"(a'%e &eo#a#"ly #el"e1es yo)# a"' ()e &o %o'1"'%"',

yo)#sel$ "& "s 6soeo'e else7s $a)l&/7 T!"s "s (o'e 0y ME %o'1"'%"', yo) &o

"(e'&"$y *"&! yo)# s)#$a%e &!o),!&s/ W!e' o&!e#s )(,e yo)4 &!ey a#e (o"',

&!e sae/ I' &!"s s%e'a#"o yo) (o 'o& !a1e &o a+e "& a0o)& yo) C0e%a)se "&

"s'7&/

Is "& 'o& "#o'"% &!a& yo) 0el"e1e yo) a#e sea#a&e $#o yo)# e'1"#o'e'& ye&

yo) 'ee( o&!e#s &o 1al"(a&e &!"s 0el"e$; W"&!o)& o&!e#s4 &!e#e *o)l( 0e 'o

sea#a&"o'4 #",!&; ?a' yo) see &!a& yo) a'( all o&!e#s a#e "' a %o's&a'&

%!a',e a& &!e !ys"%al le1el ye& &!"s %o's&a'& %!a',"', "&sel$ %a' 0e

o0se#1e( $#o a !",!e# a*a#e'ess o$ *!o yo) a'( all o&!e#s #eally a#e;

T!e#e "s a' a*a#e'ess *"&!"' &!"s #ese'& oe'& &!a& e1e#y&!"', "s

%!a',"', e.%e& &!"s #ese'& oe'& "&sel$ *!"%! %o'&"')es o'4 "'3'"&ely a'(

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" have noticed how most conversations that occur between two people

typically involve someone sharing a story and then someone else responds

with sharing a similar story about themselves. Then the original person who

started the conversation replies with something else about themselves. "t is

almost like people are competing with each other to share a more important

story about themselves without reali0ing it. "t seems as if these

conversations typically involve two people oneupping each other because

they are more interested in comparing themselves to each other than

actually listening to each other for the sake of listening. " do not mean this in

a %udgmental way but it is simply an observation.

T!"s 0oo+ "s *#"&&e' 0ase( o' o0se#1a&"o'/ T!e#e "s a 3'e l"'e 0e&*ee'

)'(e#s&a'("', )(,e'& a'( o0se#1a&"o'/ O0se#1a&"o' "s see"', soe&!"',

$o# *!a& "& "s *"&!o)& ("s&o#&"', "&/ J)(,e'& "s e#so'al""', "& as ,oo(0a( o#

#",!&*#o', 0e%a)se (o"', so se',&!e's yo)# $alse se'se o$ ME 0y

se',&!e'"', &!"s 0el"e$ o$ sea#a&"o'/ As #e1"o)sly ("s%)sse( "' &!"s &e.&4 I

'ee( sea#a&e o&!e#s &o %oa#e ysel$ &o/ J)(,"', o&!e#s "s %oa#"', &!e

6ME7 yo) 0el"e1e yo) a#e &o o&!e#s 0ase( o' e#so'al 0el"e$s o$ *!a& "&

ea's &o 0e ,oo(0a(4 #",!&*#o',/ T!e &o&al"&y o$ *!o YOU #eally a#e s"ly

"s/ I& "s )'%!a',"', a'( )'%o'("&"o'al/ I& (ee'(s o' 'o )(,e'& a'( sees

'o sea#a&"o'/ I& e'%oasses all as o'e/

To a((#ess yo)# o"'& a0o1e4 as s&a&e( ea#l"e# a'y "'&e#a%&"o's "' yo)#

%)##e'& %olle%&"1e so%"e&y a#e s"ly $alse e,os "'&e#a%&"', *"&! $alse e,os/

False e,os (o 'o& "'( s!a#"', &!ese "'&e#a%&"o's as lo', as &!ose *!o &!ey

a#e "'&e#a%&"', *"&! a#e'7& e.os"', a' )'(e#ly"', s)0%o's%"o)s 0el"e$ a0o)&

&!esel1es &!a& !as 0ee' #e#esse(/ Ma'y "' %olle%&"1e so%"e&y e'oy &al+"',

a0o)& &!esel1es/ I& (oes 'o& al*ays a&&e# "$ &!ey a#e &al+"', a0o)&

&!esel1es "' a 6,oo(7 *ay o# a 60a(7 *ay as lo', as &!e#e "s a $o%)s o' &!"s

e#so'al "(e'&"&y/ My "'&e'& 0ase( o' yo)# #o,#a"', a'( &!e ao#"&y o$

%olle%&"1e so%"e&y "s &o ,#o* o#e a'( o#e as &!"s $alse "(e'&"&y/ I& (ee'(s

o' a %o's%"o)s 0e"',7s 0el"e$ &o #ea"' as ("s%)sse( ea#l"e#/ T!e o#e yo)


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&al+ $#o 6ME7 a0o)& 6ME7 &!e o#e 6MY7 s&o#y ,e&s o)& &!e#e a'( #e"'$o#%es

yo)# 0el"e$ &!a& I a &!e &o&al"&y o$ *!o yo) a#e as oose( &o &!e )&!/ T!e

)&! as e'&"o'e( ea#l"e# "s I a a sall a#& o$ &!e &o&al"&y o$ *!o yo) a#e

&!a& "s %o's&a'&ly %!a',"',/

T!e Use o$ E,o "' ?olle%&"1e So%"e&y

3ould you describe some other ways in which you, as the false sense of self,

work in our collective society at this time?

?e#&a"'ly/ R",!& 'o* &!e ao#"&y o$ so%"e&y "s s&"ll e,o-(o"'a'&/ T!e#e$o#e4

yo)# %olle%&"1e so%"e&y a'( &!e *o#l( yo) 3'( yo)#sel$ "' "s %e'&e#e( o'

$a%"', leas)#e a'( a1o"("', a"'4 o' %o'oll"', o&!e#s &!#o),!

a'")la&"o'4 o' $eel"', so##y $o# yo)#sel1es *!"le 0la"', o&!e#s4 o'

"'("1"()al s)%%ess a& &!e e.e'se o$ o&!e#s 0ase( o' &!e 0el"e$ o$ sea#a&"o'/

Mos& a#e 'o& #ea(y &o $a%e &!"s *"&!"' &!esel1es/ T!ey !a1e 'o #o0le

o"'&"', "& o)& "' so%"e&y/ T!ey !a1e 'o #o0le %o"', ) *"&! sol)&"o's $o#

o&!e# eole7s #o0les4 0)& &!ey (o 'o& see &!e "#o'y/ I$ o'e "s )ly

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T!e' &!e#e a#e &!ose *!o (o 'o& !a1e )%! o'ey a'( 0lae o'ey $o#

&!e"# )'!a"'ess/ I& "s )e &!a& yo) all !a1e %olle%&"1ely %#ea&e( a'

e'1"#o'e'& *!e#e yo) 0el"e1e o'ey "s 'ee(e( &o s)#1"1e a'( &!e#e$o#e "&

"s4 0)& a'y also 1"e* o'ey as soe&!"', &!a& "s "oss"0le &o !a1e "'

la#,e ao)'&s/ Yo) 0lae o'ey "&sel$ a'( say "& "s ("@%)l& &o o0&a"' "'s&ea(

o$ see"', &!e "o#&a'%e yo) la%e o' o'ey a'( &!e 0el"e$ &!a& yo) a#e 'o&

*o#&!y o$ "&/ I& "s easy $o# os& &o (e'y &!"s 0e%a)se "& &y"%ally o%%)#s a& &!e

)'(e#ly"', s)0%o's%"o)s le1el/ T!e' yo) *o#+ $o# &!ese ,"a'& %o#o#a&"o's

)s& &o ,e& 0y 0e%a)se yo) 0el"e1e yo) !a1e &o/ Mo'ey a+es &!e *o#l( ,o

6#o)'( yo) say4 )'&"l o'e (ay "& 'o lo',e# (oes/ By *o#+"', $o# &!ese ,"a'&

%o#o#a&"o's4 &!e %o#o#a&e e.e%)&"1es %o'&"')e &o loo+ &o o%+e& e1e' o#e

o'ey *!"le a'y o$ &!e"# eloyees %o'&"')e &o see+ o'ey )s& &o l"1e/

T!"s "s &!e ,e'e#al %y%le o$ &!e #"%! a'( &!e oo#/ ?olle%&"1ely4 o'e

s)0%o's%"o)sly )ses o'ey as a ea's o$ sel$-*o#&! a'( &!e o&!e#

s)0%o's%"o)sly 1"e*s &!esel1es as )'*o#&!y o$ ossess"', &!ese "e%es o$

ae#/ T!ese a#e oos"&e e'(s o$ &!e sae se%) a'( &!ey %a''o& e."s&

*"&!o)& ea%! o&!e#/ T!"s "s !o* &!ey 0o&! *o#+ &o,e&!e# &o +ee &!e sys&e

,o"', as "s/ T!ey $ee( ea%! o&!e# &!#o),! ME/ W!a& 0o&! s!a#e "s &!e

)'(e#ly"', 0el"e$ &!a& !a"'ess %oes $#o a ,#ee' "e%e o$ ae# a'( 'o&

$#o *"&!"'/ T!"s eas"ly a%%o)'&s $o# &!e o1e#all la%+ o$ a "((le %lass o' yo)#

e'&"#e la'e&/ U'&"l &!"s %y%le "s 0#o+e' 0y &!e %o's%"o)s a*a#e'ess o$ "& o# 0y

%a&aso!"% e1e'&s4 "& *"ll %o'&"')e as "s/ T!e#e "s 'o #",!& o# *#o', "' s)%! a

s%e'a#"o/ I&7s )s& %o''e%&"', e'e#,y/

!o can it be said that the reason there is so much economic imbalance is

that we continue to avoid the underlying issue of our dependence on a

system that is no longer proven to provide happiness, and that the real

answer is to not create another system that addresses the surface issue but

rather look within ourselves to see what created this need to be dependent

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bias. Not all of the LGBT communit or !hristians have animosit

towards one"another. Not all police o#cers or people of specic

races displa anger or discrimination towards each other. This

answer was given to me to address those specicall who nd

themselves ghting for or against an side of these issues.

Woe'7s #",!& &o e2)al ay T!e#e a#e &*o oos"', e'e#,"es &!a& a#e

(ee'(e'& o' ea%! o&!e# &o ("slay &!e %!a#a%&e#"s&"%s o$ &!e )'"1e#se/ Yo)

+'o* &!e as as%)l"'e$e"'"'e/ Mas%)l"'e %a' 0e (es%#"0e( as A%&"o'4

Se',&!4 Do"',4 ?a#"', $o# Sel$/ Fe"'"'e %a' 0e (es%#"0e( as Eo&"o'4

Fle."0"l"&y4 Allo*"',4 ?a#"', $o# O&!e#s/ W!a& !as 0ee' &!e %ase "' yo)#

so%"e&y $o# &!o)sa'(s o$ yea#s "s &!a& &!e *o#l( "s as%)l"'e-(o"'a&e(

*!"%! %#ea&es a' "0ala'%e "' &!e as%)l"'e$e"'"'e e'e#,"es/ T!e

as%)l"'e-(o"'a&e( %olle%&"1e e'e#,y !)a'+"'( ("slays &o(ay

e'%o)#a,es o*e# a'( %o'ol ye& ("s%o)#a,es eo&"o'al #elease a'(

a%%e&a'%e o$ %!a',e/ A',e# "s a' eo&"o' &!a& "s ",,e#e( *!e' sa('ess "s

0e"', #e#esse(/ T!e #e#ess"o' o$ sa('ess &!e' %a)ses o'e &o *a'& &o

%o'ol &!e"# e'1"#o'e'& &o a1o"( $a%"', &!"s sa('ess/ T!"s "s (o'e &!o),!

a',e# a'( $ea# &a%&"%s/ A',e# "s a' o1e#loa( o$ as%)l"'e e'e#,y *!"%!

(o"'a&es )%! o$ so%"e&y &o(ay/ Mas%)l"'e a'( $e"'"'e e'e#,"es 'ee(

ea%! o&!e# "' e2)al ao)'&s &o 0ala'%e ea%! o&!e# o)&/

?olle%&"1e so%"e&y !as 0e%oe as%)l"'e (o"'a&e( &!#o),! &!e ea's a'(

1"e*"', e' as !e#oes a'( *oe' as 3,)#es *!o 'ee( &o 0e sa1e(/ Go( "s

1"e*e( "' a'y #el","o's as a ale 3,)#e/ T!"s e'e#,y %y%le "s &!e 'ee( &o

$eel s)e#"o#/ T!"s 'ee( %a''o& o%%)# *"&!o)& a ,#o) &!a& $eels "'$e#"o#/ T!"s

e'e#,y "s ,#a()ally s!"$&"', 0a%+ &o a o#e e2)al 0ala'%e4 0)& "& s&"ll !as a

*ays &o ,o/ Do 'o& 0lae e' $o# &!"s/ Me' a'( *oe' 0o&! %#ea&e( &!"s/ I'

o#(e# &o !a1e a s)e#"o#(o"'a'& #ole4 o'e )s& a,#ee &o lay &!e

"'$e#"o#s)0"ss"1e #ole/ T!e#e "s 'o 0lae !e#e/ T!ese a#e )s& e'e#,"es

l"'+"', ) 0ase( o' lay"', o)& &!e #oles yo) %!oose &o lay o)& "' a'y

oe'&/ I$ *oe' *a'& &!e sae ay as e' &!e' &!ey s!o)l( )ly 0el"e1e


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&!ey a#e *o#&!y o$ s)%! ay a'( s!o* as )%! &!#o),! a%&"o' &o*a#(s e2)al

ay/ Me' s!o)l( 'o& see *oe' as "'$e#"o# 0)& as a' e2)al asse&/ Fe"'"'e

e'e#,y "s 'ee(e( *"&!"' e' $o# %o''e%&"', *"&! o&!e#s4 eo&"o'al #elease4

a%%e&a'%e4 a'( a(a&"', &o %!a',e/ Mas%)l"'e e'e#,y "s 'ee(e( *"&!"'

$eales $o# sel$-%o'3(e'%e4 a%&"o'4 )#ose4 a'( a+"', (e%"s"o's/

Pol"%e B#)&al"&yRa%"s

T!"s "s &!e #ole o$ &!e 1"%&"a0)se#/ T!e 'ee( &o %o'ol o&!e#s %oes $#o

la%+"', %o'ol *"&!"'/ O'e %a' o'ly la%+ %o'ol *"&!"' *!e' &!ey a#e

)'*"ll"', &o $a%e &!e )'(e#ly"', ase%&s o$ sel$-0el"e$s &!ey !a1e %#ea&e( ye&

a1o"(e( &!#o),! %#ea&"', &!e #ole o$ a $alse se'se o$ sel$/ E1e#yo'e "s

%o''e%&e(4 so #a%"s "s a' a&&e& o$ e,o &o "(e'&"$y s)#$a%e #o0les *"&!"'o&!e#s &o a1o"( &!e )'(e#ly"', a"' *"&!"' &!esel1es/ O' o'e s"(e4 &!e

a0)se#s o$ a)&!o#"&y see+ o*e# a'( %o'ol &o asse#& &!esel1es as

#",!&eo)s a'( *o#&!y ye& a1o"( &!e s)0%o's%"o)s sel$-0el"e$ o$ $eel"',

)'#",!&eo)s a'( )'*o#&!y/ U'&"l &!ey $a%e &!"s )'(e#ly"', 0el"e$4 &!ey *"ll

%o'&"')e &o o"'& &o s)#$a%e ("e#e'%es "' o&!e#s a'( 0lae &!e $o# &!e

s"&)a&"o's &!ey 3'( &!esel1es "'/ By !ol("', o'&o &!"s e'e#,y4 &!ey *"ll %o-

%#ea&e s"&)a&"o's *"&! &!e 1"%&"s &!a& !a1e 0ee' lay"', o)& "' &!"s o(e#'(ay a'( &"e/

T!e sel$-#o%la"e( 1"%&"s o$ #a%"al ("s%#""'a&"o' a'( ol"%e 0#)&al"&y !a1e

a&a%&e( &!"s e'e#,y $#o a s)0"ss"1e s&a'(o"'&/ T!ey o"'& &o &!e ol"%e

0#)&al"&y a'( #a%"s as &!e #easo' *!y &!ey a#e 'o& a+"', "& "' &!e *o#l(

*!"le a1o"("', &!e s)0%o's%"o)s sel$-0el"e$ o$ $eel"', "'$e#"o# &o o&!e#s4

)'*o#&!y o$ a%%e&a'%e/ U'&"l &!ey $a%e &!"s )'(e#ly"', 0el"e$4 &!ey *"ll

%o'&"')e &o o"'& o)& *ays &!ey a#e 0e"', ea&e( )'$a"#ly/ By !ol("', o'&o&!"s e'e#,y4 &!ey *"ll %o-%#ea&e s"&)a&"o's *"&! &!e a0)se#s &!a& !a1e 0ee'

lay"', o)& "' &!"s o(e#' (ay a'( &"e/

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